A Little Bit of Heresy - Parashat Ki Tisa

foreign [Music] to have a census but who need to count I'm Israel says this is one of the ways shows us that he loves us because when someone loves something they like to count it it's like when somebody likes his jewels he likes to open them up again and see oh look I have this Ruby oh and this diamond oh and this this oh in it but you already know what you have you have it on the computer you have it in a written a piece of paper you've already advertised it on the internet you've advertised it to your friend the whole world knows how much you have why do you have to keep looking at it I liked it oh same thing with money people that like their money every five minutes they look at their stock account every few minutes in the middle of a shield to us sometimes you'll see a guy looking at his portfolio on TD Ameritrade what what do you think happened in the last 15 minutes oh maybe he went up maybe went down what can you do about it anyway it already went up or it already went down what can you possibly do about it he likes it somebody likes things they like to look at it not to say that's the right thing to do okay who is showing us that how he shows us how he likes us how he loves us but when a person likes money when a person likes his jewels a little too much it's not a good thing it's not a good thing but nonetheless there is a new insight a new insight that we saw from this uh this cup first couple of verses it's relevant to what the prophet Isaiah says when you take and see in the uh verse number 12 chapter 30 second verse of the Palestine when you take a senses of the children of Israel according to their numbers every man shall give Hashem an atonement a kofil for his soul when counting them so there will not be a plague among them when counting them so here we see that the the word coffee has multiple meanings one of the meanings is that it's an atonement somebody has to give an atonement you give a uh it's Dhaka if we want to do tikkuna breed you want to do tikkun Shabbat you want to do you want to do a tikkun of all the types of sins a person that wants to completely eliminate these sins from their records first and foremost they have to stop sinning second of all they have to uh make a commitment not to sin again third they have to regret the sin cry to Academia and another thing that they can do are sages teach us discuss the issues of tikonim and say after you've done those other critical steps first you've stopped the sin you've committed not to sin and you've done everything else and you want to still take out that last piece of smudge recollection of that sin you gotta do a kikun watch tikkun in the past it used to be fast person wasted seed one time he'd have to fast 84 times 84 times today person can barely fast for Yom Kippur one time so hamim said instead of fasting was a tikkun replace that fast with money however much money the average person uh it cost them to eat per day let's say just call it let's say I don't know uh ten dollars ten dollars or five dollars let's say five dollars times eighty four it's four hundred and twenty that is a atonement for a single time that a person wasted seed if a person was with Anita it's a different number of fast I believe it's 87 fasts if it's a uh Shabbat if it's a uh with a Goya if it's a homosexuality each one of these different have a uh you know have a different number and there's anyone that's interested in these numbers that he's out put it together uh according to the teachings of the Zohar the uh the um this is uh on our website.live so you could live so you could read over there even if you don't donate you don't do anything it's good to know these things why because a person needs to uh understand how much how much they're in uh in debt for it at the very minimum even after they ditch you up now of course many people say oh this is a lot I don't know I was sitting for the first uh I don't know 20 years of my life I have to be a billionaire just to just to do this tiku name take it easy take it easy hold on a second no one's done you have to do everything all in one day is first of all do the real chuva stop the sin do all the other first few steps if you've done all of those you're doing all of those you have a little bit of money you have a job you have a savings you have something do whatever you can do whatever you can but what's the problem the problem is that the person is really that same word that means atonement also means coffee is a heretic confer is a heretic that person all of a sudden says no I believe I believe everything it's all good but listen it can't be it can't be if this is right if I made a mistake that Lisa made a mistake what you think that uh we're making a living off of this what's what's mistake no I don't understand I don't know I don't know it's just too much it's to this to that I don't know if I'll make it I don't know if it's worth it don't do it it's for you why does he have that because he's a little bit of a heretic what happens a person sometimes will think that akadushboo who only gave him money so he could have a good time and go buy a second burger and go buy a second car you go go buy a 20 000 watch you can go buy a third house he doesn't need you can go do all these other things but to use that money for Torah all of a sudden I don't know if I have enough I don't know if this I don't know if that becomes a little bit of a heretic why heretic in a sense that either he doesn't think that Hashem is going to give him enough or he simply uh uh doesn't uh believe that parts of the uh words of the sages or the toy itself are real all of a sudden all of a sudden he has doubts all of a sudden he has this why because you're taken away is false god called money say to us says to us Ola Hashem that each person will give this atonement to Hashem and what I saw out of this is that if a person really wants to do chuva they have to give a couple to Hashem but not kofel that's always money coffee meaning the heretic inside us the heretic inside us each and every one of us has a little bit of heresy in us a little bit sometimes the less we learn the more heresy we have the more we watch the news the more we watch to yacht the more we are addicted to sports and movies and all that other garbage the more heresy we have in us all of a sudden you have a question this and that you don't really care enough about the answer why because when push comes to shove and you have to make a big commitment all of a sudden oh yeah but I don't know if it's this and I don't know if it's that wait why didn't you ask those questions when the show was on the heretic comes out so a person that wants to seriously do chuva has to give that heresy meaning get rid of it get rid of that Harris and sometimes that heresy begins and ends with an addiction to money and therefore who says that all of those all of those people should give what in order to get rid of this of this uh to save themselves from the plague to save themselves from Corona to save themselves from heresy in the world to save themselves they should give what money she give money but don't think that like who needs your money or needs anything from you in fact who wants from everybody is whatever they can what does it mean whatever they can eat a person that's wealthy you don't need to give everything and a person that's wealth that's a uh uh uh doesn't have a lot don't think that you're absolved from everything everybody gives whatever they can everybody gives a uh whatever they can for what it's for you [Applause] this is to atone for your own for your own uh lives DACA money is for you it's not for Hashem Shadows need your money your money that you put in tikuni is for you it's not Russian and what ends up happening is when a person realizes this that the only reason they didn't donate at least my sale at least 10 percent of their income the only reason they didn't contribute the only reason they didn't do all these other things is really because of a little bit of heresy heresy that comes from an addiction to money heresy when it comes from the uh uh you know a uh jealousy in other people heresy that comes from where they doubt whether this is good or this is not and really saying is you're forgetting that this is all for you this is all for you let me know uh what you think and make sure to share it because other people need to learn too