Bitachon 105 - Trusting in His Kindness

you're listening to the 105th edition of the Beethoven podcast we continue David I'm Alex says in Chapter 13 Verse 6 of Taylor very famous verse I trust it in you in your kindness I will my heart will rejoice in your salvation for that which he has done for me we've learned this together you've even seen some of these malforsium there's a few new ideas here as well I'd like to share with you let's also see some stuff that we've we've learned together it's always good to review they think that I have no salvation right is always addressing his enemies he's always addressing his yet Sahara press we could say is evil inclination which tries to convince him not to trust in Hashem they think that I have no salvation I've known to save me but I trust it in your kindness that you will save me even though I don't deserve it right and this is such an important foundational idea and be talking of course we of course need to try our best to so to speak Beyond hashem's good side meaning we have a relationship with Hashem is about a relationship and we need to try to do hashem's will that's I'm coming to punish and every one of us however David amalek says that even though I know that I've fallen short I don't always do exactly with that which I wish don't exactly do perhaps what you will for for me Hashem what is really best for me Hashem but still I know that I can trust in you why because in your kindness your kindness means that I don't necessarily deserve it but you're going to help me anyway you're going to give me what I need ah the Ebenezer says foreign I don't have any kindness personally that I've done I don't have enough kindness that I can trust in my own kindness and say look Hashem I deserve that you'll give me what I need because how come I can Rejoice how come I can be happy I can be happy and rejoice because I trust in you because of your kindness because I know that you are kind despite my shortcomings and that's an incredible thing think about it the fact that Hashem gives us all that we need takes care of us saves us takes us out of difficult situations we don't really deserve it so that's an incredible thing that's something we should Rejoice about Romanian it says the idea of Italian requires of us that we trust truthfully that we really trust and the compassion of Hashem We Trust in them in truth is what is means hoping to Hashem hello I have hope why do I believe that things are going to be better tomorrow or to later today better than they are now because it's because of this be talking same idea even though I've sinned a lot so it's a little bit more not only don't I have enough not only have I not done enough good but I've also done a lot of wrong I've done terrible sins Berg but still tells us I know I can trust in your Hashem despite my shortcomings but despite my deep shortcomings even when I have a tremendous amount of sins heaven forbid still Hashem is poly to me he redeems me even for my sins and he redeems me from my troubles my difficult situations here he brings the Hashem of ramen around them we find the mishna says it's in Bros page 32 34b the mission says was an incredible person he had the ability to pray on behalf of people and he would be able to say after he prayed the person I just prayed for is going to live or the person I just prayed for is going to die I mean I tell you that so they asked them how do you know this I want a ham um so he said I can tell by what happens with my prayer when I pray if it comes out sweetly if it comes out smoothly if the words just flow out on their own I know that the person is going to live but if I see that as I'm speaking as I'm praying my words are stumbling I'm stumbling over my words not getting out what I want to say that's a sign from Heaven I can tell that my prayers will not be accepted and the person is going to die sister must speak is right so here's a real Bible talking right someone who can pray and he knows he's going to be answered he knows his prayer was accepted someone who's on this level who is absolutely certain they're confident that what they requested will be fulfilled foreign it's not because they trust in their own righteousness it's not because they trust in their own merits when we pass between them this type of person again same idea they're not when if you can find a person who answered whose prayers are always answered and there are people like that today the Jewish people have people like that today but if you ask the person why is your prayer being answered they won't say it's because I'm such exotic besides the fact that they're on on let's say they're absolutely honest with you despite their humility they tell you the truth it's not because of me it's because of hashems absolute kindness like King David himself says I trusted in your kindness well we we can't imagine what a what an awesome righteous individual King David was the singer of the Jewish people the the king whose son built the temple he found yerushalayim Jerusalem you can't imagine his level he was a navi and yet he said I don't have any hasadum I don't have any in my own house I depend on your house depends on your kindness that's how we talking Works to be talking does not work because of something that we've earned yes we're better off yes we could talk about our relationship with Hashem of course it needs to be solid but that's not why it works it doesn't work because it's something that I did worse because of hashem's his compassion is Mercy his kindness brings down on the bottom here of the Indian said in in as far insofar as in regards to the concept of hoping for kindness the Bali Karm writes hoping for kindness asking Hashem for hasid is the most places were most praiseworthy thing of all hello he's not so sure he's going to get that which is our desires that that which he's requesting of Hashem when a person looks at himself honestly and he says look I don't think I'm really on the level then Hashem should give me anything why should she do me any favors give me a free ride so to speak why should he give me a kindness when I don't deserve it so that person thinks location is not going to give me what I want orange this is a mistake we talked about this also the alternative talks about it because the person thinks I don't deserve it so he thinks I don't deserve version he's not going to give it to me so a person doesn't have enough to be talking person doesn't have enough kivui doesn't have enough hoping if a person hopes properly if a person has the proper vitahan he has the proper confidence a proper feeling of Hope of confidence Sean is going to give me what I need Hashem from his side there's nothing holding him back from giving you kindness even if you don't deserve it Hashem always wants to give Hashem has a rule to rule in reality Hashem always wants to give the person who is mikave who desires who turns towards him straight line the word cave means to hope it means to have a straight line in tashem we spoke about this from the ram Khal straight line into Hashem I'm not cluster right session says Hashem wants those who fear Him those who are dependent on those who are hoping for his kindness of War and what we see from this says the Bali Karam what we see from this is when a person does not receive that what she wants or not what she needs because he didn't direct his wanting properly he didn't give it his all why because he felt I don't deserve it Hashem shims angry at me I don't I'm not fitting in hashem's eyes but that's not how Hashem thinks of it says amazing thing all right we're gonna skip some things here says what it means to say is even though I trusted in your kindness we'll see more about this soon he says an amazing thing he says and this is so important you know we've spoken about different levels I've been talking we've spoken about trusting in Hashem completely how much your status do we do do we do any Ishita list do we do any put in any efforts but we need to hear the highest level so that we can know where we want to get to what we want to aim for what's possible you know shoot for the stars he says look so listen to this this is certainly out of my grasp but it's something that I'd like to Aspire to he says a person could have such be talking you could have such awesome faith in Hashem such confidence that it's going to be good that when the thing comes no no I got what I requested it's not a big deal it's not a big deal right we find I told you the story with rep zundel and we had to be talking that if you want to go to the ship it's going to go to Yahoo for the port of Jaffa and there's gonna be somebody there he's going to marry this guy to his daughter came back the guy seemed like he was a boar he was nobody and finally after a certain amount of time he revealed who he was they came running through zundal and he said he's the grandson of the shaggis area was not impressed he was not blown away because he had had me talking there is such a thing having such a strong be talking despite the odds despite the way things look it could come you know when it comes it could come and uh it doesn't feel like it's wow so so amazing says even though I have been talking I rejoice with the Salvation even though I knew it was coming even though I had every bit of confidence because I will sing to Hashem for he has given me these things Gila says the malvin is telling us that when I receive my salvation my experience of it is that I I know I didn't deserve it this is really deep I know I did not deserve it and yet Hashem gave it to me some gave me the salvation I experienced that as if Hashem gave it to me and I deserved it even though I know I didn't deserve it that is an awesome incredible incredible experiences it feels like I received it and I deserved it even though I know I didn't that's such an awesome feeling that's what David amalek is rejoicing about very interesting now let's see if we have enough time for this it's quite a long little piece over here a long little piece because same idea this is a similar idea parallel I did what the Malibu said a person who has full be talking so he's always joyous because he knows that Hashem can always give a person all the good that he needs foreign because he feels like he already got it you got it he's got it already actually yes the killer Club in terms I feel like there's no big difference between before and after so here are a little bit of a different view than the moment o he says but we have a Mitzvah which would seem to be a contradiction to that which we are obligated when it comes to the vitahan um I have to be grateful I have to have a sense of gratitude when Hashem gives me something when something good happens to me in my life but if I have such strong talking here here a high level if I have such strong me talking it's not such a big deal when it comes it's not such a big deal but it has to be a big deal I need to be made into Hashem to thank Hashem so it's an obligation foreign that he feels like before the fact that he already got it and he's always happy because he knows that Hashem could do it Hashem will do it okay foreign so where's the joy in his heart when he gets what he needs it doesn't feel like anything new it feels like he already had it amazing Spider-Man that's my the truth is that this is what King David the songs the the singer of the people of Israel he said about himself a praise about himself um he's saying like this I trusted in you after having cycling issue of a pile I I knew it I knew before I even got the Salvation I knew it's coming he said but even afterwards I was still ecstatic when I got it even though I was happy before so what's the shot what's the idea a person who has this level of confidence he rejoices in Hashem with a with a trusting heart and he says look I'm missing something anything Hashem will certainly give me what I need um and if something bad happens to me Hashem will certainly save me because uh um so because of this so he doesn't feel pain and he doesn't feel ecstatic when he receives his salvation so the person this this person on this amazing level of Italian when he's missing something and then Hashem provides it for him he does indeed work on himself he does indeed develop a sense inside of himself of joy of an awesome Joy of a Greater Joy missing because while it's true beforehand he had me talking the confidence he knew it was coming he knew he was going to get what he needed but still once he actually experiences it it's not the same knowing something intellectually as actually experiencing the Salvation And so when he experiences the Salvation his feeling is his sensation is of a greater symbol of a Greater Joy of a greater sense because of the fact that he received indeed the salvation and now he's experienced it and therefore before I experience it there's a certain Joy because I know it's coming after I experience it there's a deeper Joy because now I've experienced it that's what we got for today thank you so much for listening see you again next time