Bitachon 18 - Wavering Bitachon

you're listening to the 18th betokened podcast we're gonna continue in the Mondragon Sodom he says like this ganache gives lower hot tire of Adair how he shinin when we look with the light of the Tara and the path of the earlier generations on my Madurai know and we see where we are holding in our generation sherry yard Pillai mamala beat often there's been a tremendous URI de tremendous loss of level when it comes to the level of beat Oakland people's faith in Hashem I sure ain't Irish la people not really interested come I came in my lease a year of it economy this also when it comes to the concept of having fear of Hashem of working on one's me those working on with character traits mahtim Mahadev Analia there are very few people who are trying to rise in their level named submissive Assad for him now if we think about what's the reason Shayne's them in touch with their inner custard on Baker ballet acara it's not because we don't have people who are those who have understanding those who are wise she a do the hawkish mouths we talk on well so every chicken I mean this it's not that people don't recognize and realize how important it is to have be talkin to a fear of Hashem to work on wounds Meadows hey Macario Tyra will Adam Lee Teuk in the ice dietary cloud it's not that people don't know that this is essential for someone to be able to live a proper Torah life I'm sure my attention and I be talking until gonna be the same in Carnegie Ryland even though many people understand how important it is to be studying the concept and working on one's Batak on one's faith in Hashem as well as working on one's character traits because them our motto at darshan of action manizales mimosa be talkin your attitude higher there's very few people who are working on it who are trying to truly rise in their level of their Batak on their faith on a sham and their pure pure fear of Hashem pure aw of Hashem who nation vanish mama da Mahalo Harlem should be still darker Gouveia because the person who is searching a person who is searching for greatness so that person thinks he looks at the world he looks at the way that the world is going he thinks that it's a contradiction to his very lofty way Miss Molly pahud surely you'll allow me to mean a solid rock of he thinks look I can't you know you have to live in the world there's no there's no question about that you gotta be part of the world you have to interact with people you have to go out there you have to you know you have to be part of the world but that's a complete contradiction to living with beat often it's look at the look at all the people that are talking about the way to succeed in business etc which you hear me talking about a lot that's something that really bothers me that's why I talk about a lot right so look at everyone's talking about business and how everyone's talking to cookie we had some Yeti and how am I supposed to live on a high level and and also interact with the world it's a steer it's a contradiction lifts are all Yoda Sheila's a crime show labor - she move to a PR sit behind me Barak look you kind of have like two choices either I go with the Tyra's way and I say the terror is gonna answer all of my questions Ted's gonna take care of all of my needs whether it's through be talkin having faith in Hashem I'm gonna have para nós gonna have livelihood whether it's whatever problems I might have whatever issues on your face either I can go with the way the Tara or I can say look I'm gonna I'm gonna go the way of the world it's gonna and and and those are my two possibilities both in regards to my physical my materials sustenance my material existence as well as my spiritual ray LSATs my mumuga dial a person sees themselves in a very difficult quandary if the áliveá did ask me with our go-go boy how can a person continue to remain at a high level how can a person have you talking and well Yaksha why am i disheartened right what were my choices right the other song is don't think so much about tomorrow don't get so involved don't get don't think worry about today even that don't worry about have you talking right so what if I don't think about tomorrow via cf-30 me call my freedom if I'm not if I just completely divorce my mind divorce my thinking from all the things that might stop me from even learning let's say tomorrow should I lint eyes need are gonna hone often Tia Cole shoe and not myself to even stray a little bit from the path which I know to be correct Willie muscle telecom rang and I say to myself look I don't know if I can give myself over completely completely to the tyro alexei kozlov youth coach boss if it's a crime all who are you Adam she have a cholera in Sagami the problem is since the alter that if I start to think that way if I allow that thinking to pull me oh I gotta get so involved in my pronouncing I can't I don't have time to learn I don't have time to do anything that's what that's what ends up happening then I lose my spirituality completely one of the things I like to say in the spirit of Nevada can the spit of spirit of the out there perhaps is that I need to figure out my job is to view out to learn more spend more time studying Torah work less and make more money how is that possible that's what we're here for that's what we're learning about be talking for of course it's possible the sample by Professor Robin emu time so person doesn't think that way however person who thinks look I have to deliver in the world I have to you have to put in efforts a person has to do is stylist right like the cheetah that says and to do maximum which I did everything then what happens like we spoke about last week he loses everything Mosca mission leader calcareous keema sodomy kudamon some watts of a commercialize so he says instead look I have to get my physical my material existence in order before I sit down and learn I got to make sure I have money I got to make sure there are residuals I got to make sure that there's a certain amount of money that's sitting in stocks or sitting in investments I'm getting a certain percentage once everything is set up at a time I'm I don't know 60 or 70 that's what else didn't learn about it click lashes Ohio said he's trying his hardest such a person is trying so hard to get everything to be in order to do everything himself in Cuba shrills whom okra flokati I'll have America voice of huh meet him if it means that need to give up on some of my true obligations my spiritual obligations Mott's tickets as members he says look this is what a person has to do before silicon in dark I because according to his outlook on life he needs to prepare everything he's got everything himself well you're American hi of he's got to make sure that he has enough money that's gonna last him his entire life your life Anna hurshe moved to Brooklyn initially doors did so he thinks in his mind how am I gonna have spirituality later how am I gonna be able to sit and learn only if I set myself up completely now be off la Garza sorry bath lockers man and even after some time Sharia sure I follow you there kid survived way to me mo he sees what look he starts to notice well I'm not working so hard on my my various of Shem I'm too involved in my work I just don't have time to learn I don't know time I don't know if I can get to minion you know the things slowly fall by the wayside all the important things but he starts to notice that even by not doing as much in my avoid this Hashem what happens with your the snapshot I started to you suck I'm biasted and trying to make sure that everything is prepared for the future because they're what I in Raqqa caramely I smoothed off work initially Boston he sees he's he's not guaranteed anything about having an opportunity to learn later on just a freshly a smooth dough specialist Ohio Union Jamie other we thought that person sees a person has real-life experience so you catch on quickly that when I try to do everything myself when I try to guarantee my future when I can't try to guarantee my present myself it's just not possible mukerjea's Luke liebe hush-hush a Colby - a mine he's gonna end up anyway having to calm himself down and thinking look everything is in the hands of heaven I could walk was in charge of my pernessa even though now he's doing everything muscular sir Kyle call had stirred him so what happens is he he ends up he's doing every effort he's he's not working he says always I got the Jabbar who anyway whom is savvy with dynami show the show he changes his mind every every minute every hour the farmer boom asking they must sell a tire lagares so sometimes he decides in his mind you know what I'm gonna get myself over completely to the Taira hashas not sure lolly clays a geyser and I'm gonna let my I'm gonna give myself over whatever a sham decides to me whatever a sham is the crease upon me whatever he's geyser that's what I'm gonna I'm gonna go with that relation like Gilly Danny sayin the moment that he gets into a challenge into a difficulty kazuma-sama Vedantic you dare Cosmo he says look I can't do it this way it's not you know I show means not doing it the way I want it all of a sudden that's it it's too hard for me Obadiah who'd ever de chillon my babe it's me this such a person cannot consistently stay attached to the higher path Mukesh Ladakh McCadden logic eponymous chilli sauce chilli and he has no choice but to be worried look it's not working might be talkin isn't really working so well and God he's got a worry what's gonna be in the future there's but talk about rock initially and he keeps coming back oh I got a I got a worry about the future because I need to be able to learn later Shh Loy show the autumn look I'm right to make sure they doesn't lose whatever he already has whatever spirituality has and we call my own however after sharing the same point about hailey as that little challenge goes away cut closer God Allah McNab National Islamic no kids when unless you're exactly what this phrase means you'll excuse me but when a print when it when the Ghana doesn't have anything to steal so he comes down he doesn't need to steal right now he's got the money in his pocket he got he succeeded in doing a big heist he stole the big money now he's got the money in his pocket trusting her first to a person as a gun of he's trying to do something which isn't really he's trying to take the credit for himself he's look look I'm or okay I'm okay now I'm good write us closer machado de haro I discover I said I meet him that person starts to think oh you know I really should be learning again I really should be singing the Mesa matters which take like a leash on milah then he's saying oh man I got to become a greater person I need to reach that high level they put their car we shine him and he I should go in two ways the previous generations Umar Gershman Akshay buying a goggle to feel Kazakh la mala mala me I'm a free mother kiss guayabera so when I could walk who takes away the challenge from the person all of a sudden feels like oh I can maybe I could do this maybe I can be on a higher level maybe I can be somebody who works on my meters works on my character Shalini a shrimp Olivia not sure you have role of you know taconite then such a person and I'm in a good time so to speak so it doesn't leave things that that they should just get he starts to work on his methods for llama with Minnesota economy - of homage aza yeah Kentucky starts to work on his character traits everything should be clean me call Helga any gear Trinette biases oh my see yellow shame shame I'm he starts to think everything should be done for heaven yuck place crates yeah boots case I might not gonna be there cause I know Elam he wants to be able to stay on this level forever vertical Sheila's eventually and to solve all of his challenges of life really figured rabbit often only based on this very high level of be taught him because they in like a llama beef nanny saying he doesn't really have the power to be able to withstand a true challenge we must honey saying you must call a chorus this is an amazing thing I don't think we're gonna have time to get into farther beyond this this is an amazing thing that when the person has the challenge so all of his recognition all of his spiritual acquisitions all of his intellectual knowledge it melts you should take a coup sayin his desires we should ask Allah hat those fake-ass baccara say then as soon as the challenge comes in he says I don't know do I have be talkin do I not happy talking does it really work it works for me yesterday working me last week does it gonna work for me today the young akela you holla we have been a draw for me he says some so I can't I can't choose to do you know which is the right path for me mokuba haha I'm shallow this is how the person is his entire life you know I mean odarka Allah palm calf to Palm Cove he's not consistent he doesn't stay in his path one time he's this way one time he's that way Laval Eminem Chester now Carla and it's not because he doesn't have an understanding yo chef Akash Akbar he's scheming title economist but rather it's after that the person has already made a decision in his mind to live a spiritual life cuz you burn you sayin you hava CLE boy when the challenge comes so his heart is switched he loses his commandment for the yacht circle my connect though he doesn't have the ability doesn't he doesn't he doesn't gather together the strength in order to stand against it okay so he's gonna speak more about this and mr. Shem will we'll see it next next time in the next baton podcast but it's important to know that this is the path when it comes to be talked on when it comes our service of a sham it's true not just me talking is true in all aspects of our service okay - whoohoo - Rahul wants us to be consistent but because for who in a certain sense wants us to prove it she wants us to see not just that you know we we have be talking when it's already good he wants us to learn to have you talking when it's not so good and he wants us to learn tabby talk on the one it doesn't seem like it's gonna work out hey I've told you guys the stories in the past about how we talk I don't want a certain parking spot I got there it's not there come around and I don't like it what might be talking and then the spot opens up and sometimes it doesn't and you read the stories of the navarre occurs when they were working on betoken which i believe was in the month of shot if i'm not mistaken so they would go and they would go out and they would starve they would go out to places far fun places and they're gonna be talking that they're gonna have food someone would bring them food and sometimes it worked and sometimes it didn't because that is part of the path of eat often part of the path to be talking is until we get to that space so we find that place in our hearts that feeling I'll be talking it's a feeling we're sure Shiva says it's an emotional place it's a certain feeling until we get to that place it takes time and it doesn't always work and it's not because Metallica - Burcu it's not mean sila sham it's not from a service perspective that it doesn't work it's from our own perspective it's because we may not have that full belief or there may be other tonight now you know it's not just about having a belief because I've seen a few times that people really did believe that the Osher would come whatever it was money would come to them whatever it was and it didn't work and I believe that there are other factors just from my experience are the fact is where a person is really stuck in a in a place so they feel stuck or they're in a place where they've done oh and I spoke about this before Shoshanna person has done an awesome awesome difficult thing very challenging commitment or very challenging mitzvot that they've fulfilled sometimes being in a space of not sometimes I believe that the space is a space of bitl the space is a space of complete self nullification that's what it looks like when a person has truly talking and that's that's what happens that's when it works when it doesn't work as it's often because we're not really in that Bittle we're not really in a self notification and we're not per se in that relationship with a Kadesh more cool as we should be and you may have heard me say this before but I want to repeat it and that is you know we we hear the Sheeta of the altar of Navarra we hear about be talking here about be talking without without without a siva with a dashed atlas but it's important to know that his sheet they'll be talkin it's you know you look at the book it's not the first chapter in this version of the book it's where do we got here my more 1 2 3 4 5 it's the fifth - the fifth section that means that if your readings part you're reading about the sheet of the author about be talking you've already saw four different sections that speak about his sheet - before there's a whole all-encompassing Sheeta he's talking here about not just be talking he's talking about working on one's mythos why why is he talking about that here or in the section I'll be talking and the answer is because zetas liebe said that you can't really have one without the other a person is working on their me this they're there they're throwing away their own personal desires are throwing away the their Hutus the things that they that they are upset about about other people they're working on themselves truly they're trying to be greater people there's a certain bit also a self nullification person is sitting and learning a person is is is attached to a kodesh borrow who working on his relationship then become becomes a different thing you know we we speak about we've spoken about and we speak about the fact that who is this be talking for this be talking without hair stylist is it for anybody we spoke about that last time is it for anybody is it for the if he de schoola corner Bistro salata it was for for only special people the people who are sitting and learning according to the alternative Eric it seems to be for everyone but he also does he was speaking when he said these memoriam he was speaking to the B'nai are you Shiva there you speaking to the Navara curs so there's a certain level that we need to know that we have to have it may be that we can get to this level of beat often because we're sitting and learning maybe because we are very committed to certain mitzvahs that are our misses maybe it's cus said maybe it's helping maybe it's sadaqa maybe it's knows it could be so many different things but the point is that there's a it's not just believing it's not just believing that Shem can and will help me that's true there's also a deeper thing that's going on here it's important to realize we'll see more about this next time one more thing I'd like to say and that is that there is be talking group speaking of working on you talkin speaking of working on me this so when we work on it together there's no comparison and there's a group of women who have been meeting consistently on Tuesday evenings if you would like to join the group Tuesday evenings eastern time if you'd like to join that group it's a wonderful group they are stacking they're growing in their be toughen and it's for about half an hour once a week if you're interested in in Israel or you have a different time you'd like so you can still contact me either the betoken group at gmail.com or ari gold wag at gmail.com the men's group will emit so show me meeting on sundays 10:30 a.m. on eastern time and 5:30 p.m. israel time if you're interested in that please contact the betoken group at gmail.com which is me or ari golden egg at gmail.com and i hope to see you there thank you so much for listening