Bitachon 194 - Restoring Our Bitachon

you're listening to the 194th edition of the podcast and we are continuing in per of last week we read p z and now we're going to read and this chapter as we mentioned last week is a long chapter which speaks about am Israel and their time in MIT in Egypt and their time throughout the Wilderness the challenges that they had in their relationship withes with hem and in their in their faith the P says in chapter 20 78 verse 22 Isel had terrible troubles they did not deserve to be helped they did not deserve to be saved they didn't believe in hem and they didn't trust in hashem's Salvation And as we're going to see in the last of the forun that he brings here so what happened was that am Israel before this before they didn't believe so they deserved to experience fire P right before this says this they deserve to experience fire destruction they didn't fully believe in Hashem but then Hashem did provide for them in the midbar he gave them the man he gave them the miraculous Mana which sustained them throughout the 40 years in the midbar G them the water miraculous way of existing excuse me says they didn't believe this is the last explanation of that which we mentioned this is explaining why the Jewish people deserved to have God's Wrath brought out upon them because they didn't believe they didn't in right and this is all of our challenge we have trouble believing that hasm is going to provide for us every single day all of our needs in fact I would say and as we'll see in the as it continues one of the things that one of the excuses people make why they don't want to move to AR Israel they want don't want to live in Israel is because it's difficult to get parosa to have livelihood sustenance but this is a classic problem this is a problem no matter where we are and the fact that we didn't trust in Hashem that hm would provide for us despite the fact as the next p is going to say that Hashem indeed provided for us the mon every single day but when we don't believe that we get in trouble and it's amazing because just experience The Exodus as we're reading about in the paraa right now they experien The Exodus they saw hashem's incredible miracles for them Hashem can take them out with an outstretched hand do you not think that he can provide for you while you're out there in the midbar in the wilderness it was an incredible challenge for to believe it but Hashem had promised them they're going to be a separate and special Nation unlike any other nation and that hasem will save us if we go in the ways of the tah Israel receives the T we receive on in Mount Si the incredible 613 Mitzvah that we're supposed to keep and we're supposed to fulfill that's what our relationship with hm looks like but if Hashem gives us the to the toy is our guide book for how we're supposed to live our lives if we fulfill that hem promises us he's going to take care of us as a says Hashem says you're going to be a treasured Nation you're going to be a special Nation unlike anyone else maybe everyone else has to fend for themselves but if you keep the T if you follow the Mitzvah if you are involved in a relationship with me I'm going to take care of you that's the promise says the there was an issue here Israel had a lack of belief that a even though he took us out of Egypt but who says that he can bring us into Israel maybe we won't succeed in Israel maybe won we won't have have our needs met when we go in there and they didn't trust in hm's Salvation the fact was that we already saw that hasem had saved us and taken care of us a number of times already but still we had a hard time holding on to that belief and believing that it would continue and I would say this is a a standard issue that we all have well hasem might have helped me before but who says it's going to continue previously spoke about the fact that we need to remind ourselves of the times that hm took care of us to remind ourselves that when we have B it works but still in the face of all the times that we have experienced that Hashem has taken care of us we still don't believe it all the way we still are challenged saying maybe I don't deserve it anymore that's the problem that Isel faced say the because the Salvation that hashm already did for them to save them from all of the natural issues that could come along while they were in the wilderness maybe can save me from this problem from a natural issue but how do I know that the next challenge that I'm going to face is not going to be different there was a lack of belief that Hashem has all the power that's possible in order to give us what we need either because he lacks it or maybe we're not deserving of it that was the issue says the they didn't believe in God says the Mal they thought that hem is limited that Hashem doesn't have all of the Power all of the abilities okay therefore they didn't trust in hm salvation they were unsure if they would be able to enter into the land of Israel and to succeed in overcoming their enemies overcoming those who were there and be able to withstand them and I would add and this is again something that we face right now all the time doesn't say this here in the Malin but as I'm reading I'm thinking that has somebody leading them they have a mosu and the alleng is maybe it's him maybe it's his power maybe it's his b even what happens when Moshe is not there for 40 days and 40 nights AR gets nervous they build an eagle they say this is instead of Moshe he's not here to lead us so we'll have something else to lead us we need something we can't do it ourselves that's what Isel feels there's a mistake that Amel makes we make this mistake till today if we don't have this guy to help us how can we do it we forget that it's Hashem who's behind the guy who's doing it if Trump not is not in office what's who's going to protect us from the from the anti-semitic mobs in the in the universities that's the kind of thinking that we have that's the mistake that we made and we make and if you listen back to what I said a few years ago when Trump was not reelected in the previous elections so one of the things that I spoke out was that wants us not to to depend on him and makes this mistake maybe it's only mha maybe it's not us maybe maybe we can't always rely on hem he helped us until now but what happens when we get into is gone how we going to do it there maybe Yeshua is not as great as M he brings here for this is also known that the entire March of Isel through the Wilderness in that time in that huge awesome challenging wilderness why did am Israel go through that why do we have to be 40 years in the wilderness it was to entrench into our hearts to that we should have the foundation of an awareness of the fact that Hashem takes care of us intimately every day all the time not just those 40 years but throughout history he takes care of us he provides for our needs that's what we were meant to learn we already had from aru Abraham only 400 years before approximately we had that inheritance we had a tradition that Hashem is involved in our lives God exists and he's part of our Lives the fact that they went through an area a a a section of the world A wilderness a midbar a desert no life nothing to to help them no nearby civilizations to to latch onto and to get food from sustenance they're there and they're alive against nature it's absolutely miraculous that they're able to survive there and the lesson we were meant to learn there and that we take till today and we need to focus on and think about and contemplate is that hasem took care of us then takes care of us now there are many people who after ding they read the the mon they read the paron or we know that there's an indion certain times of the year to read the paron which has to do with the fact that provided for us then and he can provide for us and will provide for us now he's intimately involved in our lives there's nothing that holds hasem back from giving us our needs even in an incredible desert the mistake that we made then and the mistake that we can make today if we don't catch ourselves is that they didn't properly believe and they felt like maybe don't deserve it is Hashem in my midst does Hashem care about me am I righteous enough maybe not so I would add something that we spoke about previously so instead of a person doing chuva and saying I'm going to try my best to do hashem's will the person says doesn't care about me I'm not good enough there's a few different approaches to that I can do chuva or I can say look I know that gives a person who's not a big sadic what they have be for and we've talked about that also but here we're going with the c we're going with the highest really the highest level which is I try to be better I try to make my relationship with Hashem better more correct more aligned and in so doing I don't to be worried that hm's not going to give me what I need last he brings from Sam CER which which is an amazing an interesting idea it's a little bit counter to what we've been saying but it's important to know that there's this kind of idea there are different levels in as we always speak about there's different approaches do I have to get first or not says you do says right before our fire came out and it burned and came up upon the people of Israel why because they didn't completely believe in hem they didn't trust in his salvation right it's like the the worst fear that we have is a self-fulfilling prophecy but what happens after that Hashem commands the heavens that they should give forth and they should open up the the windows of the heavens should open up Hashem gives them the Mana he gives them this amazing sustenance from the heavens the is very difficult to understand once it says that hashem's anger was flaring at them so how does it say that if they done wrong and they're not trusting AEM why is immediately after say that hasem brought upon them the man says an important way ofo an important approach when we want to have be talking but we've done wrong what do we do how do we approach this person who sins let's be clear says theer if I've done wrong and then I trust hasem even though I've done wrong I haven't done TR so that's a deeper sin it's a greater sin when I do an A and then I trust in despite my a says in 3:1 that although was sinning they still trusted inem they were Wicked and they still said You know I believe everything's going to be okay I believe that God is going to take care of me even though I'm doing wrong even though I'm being punished for doing wrong I believe it's going to be good in the end says also a few chapters later it says don't trust in the powerful one who don't trust in some says look you have to know it's important to know that before you trust in hm you need to do your best to do chuva sometimes a person can't okay we've talked about that person is supposed to also trust even when he can't if he can't do Chua but a person who could do chuva that is really the first step a person needs to take before he trusts in hm a person needs to have have to be in the right relationship with first because when you do CH and you have you have good deeds and you have repented that is is a TR that's an armor that protects you from any negative situations says you shouldn't you shouldn't have if you haven't done chuva if you don't have the armor you shouldn't trust in hem you shouldn't think I say better you shouldn't think that hem is going to take care of you if you're not aligned with hashem's Will so he says that's after experience the anger of and the fire burning what was this experience it was an experience of I realize I've done wrong I feel the Flames of embarrassment I recognize that is upset with me so at that point they realized they've done wrong and they didn't have in the they didn't have because they weren't willing to trust in before they did but rather what did they do first before having they did they rectified their ways they focused on on Good Deeds so through their recognition and their experience of hashem's Wrath and the implications of that wrath through their first not trusting in hem they recognized that they need to do Chu and they did chuva they repented they changed their ways what was the result that instead of there needing to be fire and anger everything turned around since they did CH in the end they trusted in everything opened up for them the heavens [Music] opened the heavens the way is that when the heavens open so fire and brimstone comes down upon those who are wicked butua we repented we changed our ways and the result was that am Isel instead of receiving fire and brimstone what we received was good things from the heavens we received the mon we received Miracles because we realigned with hashem's will we saw the message this is such an important thing because how much how many times how how strong does the message have to be CU has been telling us I mean throughout history but the last year and a half how many times has hem given us messages especially here in ISM wants us to heed the message he wants us to do chuva he wants to give us good he wants to pour down upon us everything all the blessings but do we heat the message do we see hey why is this happening are we doing chuva are we repenting so theam is calling us calling us to chuva and saying recognize what the message is of the troubles that we Face wherever we are whether it's the anti-Semitism in the states or whether it's the challenges here in our Israel we might get a pause in the fighting we might get a pause and ARR bit but I'm Israel and I can only talk about myself I need to recognize the message I need to recognize what is the what is the AF the anger and the fire about it's to wake me up it's to get me to hear I need to be better I need to do chuva and then as theam s understands then we can talk about we can talk about opening up the heavens and pouring down miraculous blessings upon us thank you so much for listening we'll see you again next time