Behaaloscha-Shlach - Seeing and Feeling

You're listening to the weekly partial podcast with Ari Goldwag recorded with Hashem's never running assistance in Israel 5786 2026. This week in you're going to read Bahala in our two we're going to reach and I'd like to share with you a thought that connects the two paras at the very end of paral the Torah tells us about Miriam and Aram and tells us how they spoke about Mosher Rabeno Miriam in 12:1 Miriam spoke Aon Miriam and Aaron spoke Mosha about Moshe Odos Notice how about the woman that she that he had married usually means a black woman but it's referring tell us his wife and as we'll see there was something that Moshe was doing different to Aon and Miriam they said did Hashem only speak to Mosha has spoken to us as Well, they as the mfort explained, they felt that Moshe should not have separated from his wife. They felt that there they were on the same level as Moshe. They also received Nva. They also, Hashem also spoke to them, but they didn't have to separate from their spouses. But Hashem heard this. Moshe was very humble. Maybe the is saying that it's not like motion needed retribution. So Hashem suddenly appears to the three of them and says go to the go to the place where I speak to you and the three of them went out. Hashem appears in a cloud which means to say he shows his presence. And the clouds stood at the entrance and they called out to Aaron and Miriam and to them came out and it said hear my words. You need to know. Hashem says to them that there's a a qualitative and substantive difference between your type of nva, your type of prophecy and Moshe. with you. I appear in a dream and I and I might speak in a way which is not per se clear. And we find also by other prophets that they they had a vision and the vision had a certain mushel and an analogy in it. Po boiling pot, hot water boiling over the north side [snorts] and stuff like that. Hashem says to them, "It's not true of my servant Moshe. In all of my house, he is faith faithful." Which means to say has a different kind of nva. His vision, the way that Hashem speaks to him is more clear. I speak to him mouthto mouth. There's no It's like we're face to face, so to speak, and I show him clearly. There's no riddles. He sees the true picture of Hashem. Put it is he had a clear looking glass. Why were you not afraid? So gets angry at them and Miriam gets Saras as a result of it. And the can speak about the fact that they waited there seven days. The Jewish people waited their seven days. And I will add, by the way, they saw it brought down that the seven days that they waited were the seven days that are coming up right now, the end of Sie. The story of the spies happens on Rashesh um Tamuz, right? They are sent out on Rashesh Thomas. They return on Tishab. Israel cries on the night of Tishb, but they were sent out 40 days earlier, which is either or maybe a day or two before. But the seven days of waiting for for Miriam happened at this exact point of the month. Today is the 20th of over the next few days is when this was going on. Miriam speaks about Aram. I'm sorry. Mir speak about Moshe and she's given Saras and Kisra waits for her for seven days. and Mosha being prays for her. But the bottom line is that we see that Miriam speaks negatively of her brother. She sees a certain thing. She thinks a certain thing. And because of the way that she sees things, her understanding of reality causes her to say something negative about Moshe. And in a certain sense, there was a hubris. Obviously, you know, Miriam, it it was Nvilla. Miriam is one of the the guuline people. She was a Messiah person. Miriam and Mosa and Aaron. But on her level, there was a speck of pride. Why is Moshe different than us? Why is he behaving differently than us? Why is he separating from his spouse? So as a result of that, Miriam got Saras and because of the Saras they waited seven days and that of course leads in to the beginning of parl beginning of parl. So, we have the 10 men who are sent. I point out that they're men because I want to share with you a cleaker. It says it would have been better if the women were sent. 10 women. 12 women. The the 10 I'm sorry, the 12 men I'm thinking 10 because of the 10 who do the a 12 men including Khaliv and Yoshua who spoke positively positively of Israel. They were sent and the magic says that they made a mistake that was put right next to the story of Miriam because it's a similar mistake and they didn't learn from Miriam. This is a famous Rashi but Rashi quotes the Medish. says like this. It's interesting the language of the maj says previously we just saw and spoke about immediately after that story Torah tells us about the sending of the spies. Now, here's an important thing, and I specifically stressed it earlier when I said the way that she saw things. Miriam spoke based on the way that she saw things. And the the spies as well spoke based on the way that they saw things. This is an important concept. We're going to have a powerful message and lesson for us. Pik says in Isshia they didn't know they didn't understand because they they spread in their eyes something that would cover up their eyes the bias that they had kazal tell us about the moragum about the spies why they speak negatively of Israel they were afraid they were afraid they would lose their position maybe they were afraid the wouldn't be able to make it in Israel but they were afraid And as a result of their fear, they saw things differently. They saw things in the wrong way. That's important thing for us to know. Often the way that we see things is tainted by our ego, tainted by our hubris, tainted by our bias. But the description of the Pik that the measures brings is that they they spread a type of covering on their eyes like a an an eye lotion. Why do we have one story following another? It's knew that they're going to speak about the land of Israel. It's one after the other in in in chronology as well. says, "I don't want them to ever say we didn't know the punishment of speaking lash." When you see a physical manifestation of a spiritual disease, right? So, you understand that this thing is bad and it has immediate and powerful impacts. And I would point out that it wasn't just the punishment wasn't just that she got saras because the saras was removed right away. The punishment was that had to wait. Waited for seven days because of her. There was that seven days that they waited was seven extra days that they would have been closer to Israel. They could have moved already on their way to Israel. They they lost seven days. Why? Because of lashhara. And then the spies should have learned from that that if you say lashhara it creates a a negative impact and they it creates a global negative impact on cli and just like we waited seven days for Miam we're going to wait 40 years because of the spies. Okay. The says the issue was that what was her punishment that she got? You need to know the punishment for they should look at what happened to Miriam. They didn't want to learn from that. They didn't understand. They they didn't look into the matter. So the question becomes well I have biases. I have hubris. I have ego. I'm a human. What's the what's the how do we get out of this? How do we get out of this? So with that I want to share with you a clear the cleer says this amazing thing and it it says in the that he sent men. It would have been better if he sent women. Why? So he says like this brings from the men hated the land of Israel they were the ones who said when push came to shove let's go back to Egypt we were better off in Egypt we find that women were those who made the land of Israel dear. They they were endeared. The the land of Israel was dear to them. How do we know that? Where do we see that? tribes. There was a family, a group of women. They had no brothers. They were the Ben. And when they saw that was being distributed, they said, "Hey, what about us? We also want a portion in Israel. What about us?" They were makavo. They had a love for Israel. And I would say I would say it this way. The spies saw Israel, but there was a hatred. That's what he's saying. There was a there was a or maybe a fear of Israel. The language uses this hatred. There was a there was a negative way that they looked at Israel and as a result of that, they came back with a negative report. But women, and I don't know if it sounds like from the measure that this is true of all women, they have a natural capacity to love, right? the mother who where does the child go? Right? The child goes to the loving mother naturally. The the women have that ability to look at any child and say, "My child is amazing." Right? They love their kid. They don't notice therinus. Someone tells them, "Oh, your kid did this and that and the other." No, my kid can't be my kid, right? Because a parent, a mother has natural love for the child and sees only the good. We should only see the good in our kids. But the women had a natural love forem says, "Look, I know what's going to happen in the future. Kiloa, it would have been better if you would have sent women to be the ones to spy out the land of Israel because they're the ones who have a natural affinity for Israel. They see the beauty of Israel. They don't think about all the problems and I don't need to enumerate today what issues might be. But the women have the capacity to see the beauty of Israel. What an amazing thing it is. We can go to the Kaiso. We can go there anytime. We have a special relationship with with Hashem. Every time we are in our garden, we're where Makayam the mitzvah or any any place we go, every dollar, every four cubits you walk, fulfilling a mitzvah of Yeshua, when you go and you and you pick off your lemons from your lemon tree, you got to take off chumus and mistress is unbelievable. What an opportunity. What an amazing place to live. That was the power. That was the power that women had. They had the ability to use their heart in a positive way to see things that the ability to have a natural positive bias towards Israel. We can see things and as a result of our bias, we see things differently. That's one aspect that I want to talk about. Says says in David, we say it during my heart has the ability to speak on Hashem's behalf. My heart has the ability on behalf of Hashem. My heart says inside of me on Hashem's behalf, search for my face. Search for my countenance. Try to have a relationship with Hashem. That's what my heart says to me. But I have two hearts. The says with all of your hearts. Sometimes it says one heart. Sometimes it says two hearts. Because I have two hearts. I have a heart that sees negative that sees negatively that biases me in a negative way. A fearful heart, an angry heart, a constricted heart, a heart of stone. But I also have another aspect of my heart which is called the heart of flesh and the loving heart. The heart that wants to connect to others that wants to include others that wants to do what's right. My heart says Hashem on your behalf do what's right. Come in front of me. Be a good person. Despise. They engaged the the side of their heart which was anger, which was hatred, which was negativity, which was fearful. Women have the natural capacity to engage the side of their heart which is positive, which is loving, which is which can see the good. How does a man or you know women are also human, they also have a side of fear. How do we engage our hearts to see the positive? How do we engage our hearts in a way that's that's positive? So there's a p and I believe I pointed it out recently. The says on one hand that's in parl for us this week in for whoever's in it will be next week. But the Pik says which means to say we're supposed to have the titus. We look at the remind us we look at the titus. There's a looking there's a seeing of the titus that reminds us of the mitzvah. Don't go after your heart and after your eyes. Right? Sometimes the heart motivates us in a negative way. It draws us to do something wrong and then we see things based on that. So the buzz says don't follow your heart and after your eyes. The heart sometimes motivates us negatively but we need to reverse that. And the way that we reverse that is the secret inside of the mitzvah of somehow by looking at the and the word as is pointed out is from the word is is peeping through the holes at us looking through the cracks. It means to look. Titus is something that we look at. Looking at the tit somehow reminds us changes our heart, brings us to love instead of instead of seeing things in a way which is yet in a in a base desire way. So how do we do that? So the measures tells us a secret and the secret is that on that sitsus one is supposed to place a blue string of the corner is supposed to have a string of blue and what is the concept of the blue string? So tell us and it's very famous that what's special about this color blue from all of the colors happens to be my favorite color. But what's special about it? Why is the single it out? The measure says it's slightly different than we're used to in the in the I believe it's Rashi says the blue is looks like the like the sea. The sea looks like the sky. This guy looks like the but it says here's string is the same color as the sky. We find that the throne of Hashem's glory was this color. And how do we see this? How do we know this? We know this because the PK tells us in a in a description of what Cl Israel saw at Hina Mount Si. They saw Hashem sitting on his throne. And they saw that the foundation upon which the throne was standing was a lia was like a a was stones or bricks of sapphire. And and the description is haraka like the pure blue sky or maybe the sky at sunset. Maybe it's purplish, but the color is the color of blue that sits. You look at it and it and it moves you. It moves your heart. It reminds you of something. It reminds you of the sky. It reminds you of the kiss, of Hashem's throne of glory. Which means to say even even deeper, it reminds us of the heavens opening and Hashem appearing at Mount Si and giving us the Tyra and saying, "Hashem, Hashem is saying to us, I love you. I want you to be my kids. Here's what I want you to do. I want you to have I want to have a relationship with you." So the titus reminds us of our relationship with Hashem. And Hashem is the king, but where are his kids? Now, what's interesting is there's another medish. Medish is earlier in speaking about the urin the the ark of the covenant. And that's where Hashem speaks from, right? When Moshe and Aaron, bringing you back to to Moshe and Aaron and Miriam, they go to the oil mo. Why do they go to the tent of meeting? Why do they go there? Because Hashem's voice speaks from between the cru from between the cherubs on the ark. And what's inside of the ark is the Tyra. Hashem's voice speaks from the Tyra. Hashem's voice speaks from the the center of the Shem's voice speaks from the crew of him have to do with our relationship with Hashem when we're in good with God. So they were in an embrace. Hashem speaks from between them. But Meouch points out interestingly that what was what was the covering of the Auron meaning when they would travel. So each of the caum each of the different vessels of the Mishkum would re they would cover them with an orakash which was a certain type of leather. leather of a certain kind of animal. But the but the aron was covered with such with that kind of uh leather piece. But it was also covered with a garment, I'm sorry, with a piece of a huge piece of cloth of this blue dyed wool which was the color of the heavens of course, right? When they would travel, they would put upon the Aron says the medish, not a purple dyed wool, not a red dyed wool, but specifically this blue dyed wool, the the wool which was made completely of says the exact same thing. Oh, here it says the is similar to the sea. It's the same color as the sky covered brings our so the is also covered with this blue you see you see the you see that color it brings you back brings you back to mountain tyra right what's inside of the aron is the lis the ten commandments the original ten commandments had on it the entire tyra All of the entire Torah was written there. So what's the idea? Says the teaches us that the itself was similar served the same function as the as the throne of Hashem's glory. It was completely similar to it. If you would look at them traveling, you would see the aring, you see the tyra, you would see the you would see Hashem's divine throne. You would be brought back. Your heart would be moved and brought back to seeing only our relationship with Hashem. Only our relationship with Hashem. So what do we learn from this? What do we see from here? It's an amazing thing. It's that our heart of course affects what we see. Right? That's what happened with Miriam and and and Aaron. They had a certain way of thinking about things and it affected how they saw things. They saw something negative about Moshe, but it was wrong. They had to be brought to the Aron to be told. You are missing something about the relationship that I have with my Rabenu. the the arin is all about relationship. The speaking of Hashem is all about relationship. And when the relationship is missing or when there's a a mistake in the way we're seeing things, it's a it's a mistake in my heart. My heart is causing my eyes to see things wrong. And the lesson here is I need to get my eyes to help my heart see things right. You look at your tetsis the the the eyes can be used to look and be reminded that I am connected to the remind me of all of the mitzvah of all of the commandments which are all about my relationship with Hashem. It's all about relationship with Hashem. If I can get into that space of love that women naturally have, women naturally have a love for Isel and Isel is about a relationship with Hashem. And by the way, when you're in a deep relationship with somebody becomes more challenging. Yes, initi there there are more challenges, different kind of challenges. You want to be closer to you got to you got to pull yourself together. But the idea is I got to keep reminding myself I got to keep looking for the thing that what did the see they saw everyone's getting a piece of they saw that they saw that and it moved them and they also wanted a piece they loved Israel they were affected by what they saw in a positive way and that's what we have to do we have to look at the titus We have to look at the mitzvah. We have to look at the aon. Have to look at the tyra. Have to look at the sky. We have to always be seeing the kakav. We have to always be seeing hareni the revelation at si. That's what we need to see. We need to see that we are his kids. He's ready to show us that we're that that's what we are. That that's who we are. All we have to do is read the Tyra, open our eyes, let that Tyra, let that penetrate to our hearts. Is going to take How does Hashem take away our heart of stone? How does Hashem move us? This is at to the point where our hearts speak on his behalf. When we let him when we open our eyes and learn his Tyra, when we open our eyes and we talk about the it's in our mouth and in our hearts. We're looking at it. The eyes affect our hearts. The mouth affects our hearts. How we speak about it, what we speak about, what's important to us. What do we talk about at the Shabas table? We're talking about our relationship with Hashem. We're talking about how Hashem loves us. That is what moves our heart to say, I want to do his mitzvah. I want to have a relationship with him. I want to see the good of Israel. I want to bless you. I ask you to bless me. Hashem should help us that we should indeed see the right things. We should indeed see Hashem's his his place where he speaks to us and it should hit our hearts and move us until all we see is the good. Thank you so much for listening. Have a wonderful Shabas. This podcast was made possible through the gracious donations of listeners like you. For more podcasts like this, please visit www.argoldwag.com argoldwag.com or [music] search on iTunes Ari Goldwag.