Bitachon 188 - Hold On 'Til the End

you're listening to the 188th edition of the podcast we're continuing in theim in chapter 71 veres 5 and six of to You Are My Hope hasem my God you are the one I trusted in from from my youth upon you I depended from when I was inside of the womb from the in of my mother you took me out in you is my praise constantly so we studied a number of First from last week we're going to see the second part of this says from my youth I recognize that I knew that you are God we know it now naturally we know it intuitively Hashem is our God but somebody just looking up my daughter mentioned to me the name of D's mother which is not well known name was n Bas Adel and it's whole story of how DAV was rejected his father felt like he didn't have the right thoughts when David was conceived and so instead of David feeling a dependency upon his parents he felt like he says in in that we say during El he felt like his parents had left him yasi he didn't have the emotional support of his parents but he felt like he had hashem's support that's how he developed into the amazing human being the great great grandfather of Messiah from his youth from his very youngest days despite the challenges despite the feelings of being abandoned he wasn't abandoned he didn't feel abandoned he felt that was with him says I place my trust in you it's very interesting you know today living in a Godless world you know in the west atheistic world so we have all these therapists to fix our problems all of our traumas and it's legitimate but at the same time D tells us that he was also traumatized from his youth he also went through challenges and difficulties but he used it as an opportunity to place his trust in Hashem says you're the one who I trust in the future and you are the one who I trusted in the past I know as the M understands it I know that my trust in you in the future is going to happen because I know that my trust in you worked in the past I can see I can look at I can put my finger on all the times I believed in you and it worked I trusted in you from when I was inside of the womb I don't need to it goes out saying that you were the one who I could trust when I was a youth when a person is Young his systems are not yet built up his immune system but hasem helps himem helped me but even from before that there was a certain faith that was there already from the start what does that mean when I was inside of my mother's womb those who gave birth to me already trusted n his mother yesai his father they knew that hasem is going to bring this child into the world let's let's understand they already had seven kids seven boys D was the eighth if I'm not mistaken or it was the seventh I'm pretty sure he was the eighth they had so many kids it's going to bring another child into the world and yet they didn't think like modern people were worried how will I provide for my child they thought hasem will provide for my child Hashem will provide for this child that's how I came into the world with with a certain faith and that's the faith of Jews everywhere today having many children not the Western World who says how will I provide for my child even though they have so much money from when a person thinks about their creation I didn't choose to be born I didn't choose to come into the this world I don't regret it I'm glad I'm here brings us into this world because he was a he wants us to do kindness to us so that we should recognize his kindness it's never ending kindness so a person should trust inem like this I'm so worried how am I going to make it am I going to pay my bills or on the flip side I'm so sure of myself that I'm going to figure it out I before I came into existence I didn't know I was going to come into existence I wasn't part of that choice and they going to come into the world something from nothing person should withstand the Temptation hold himself back you're worried about how you're going to continue to exist how you going to pay your bills and you going to have put food on the table what a foolishness hasem brought me into existence did that kindness he's going to continue to provide for me with no doubt the one who brought me into existence is going to continue to provide me to sustain me back in there he says I was I was I felt dependent I felt that I could depend on AEM even from when I was inside of my mother's womb it's nature hasem iMed in nature that a baby a fetus inside of its mother is supported it has all of its needs and when that time is finished when the time is complete you take me out of my mother's wom hem prepares every single step of Our Lives Hashem prepares every single stage or inside of our mother's womb completely surrounded completely enveloped in love and warmth our needs are met with without even trying without doing anything without even opening our mouth to eat then it comes time for the next stage pushes us out into the world so that we have to start to the we have to start to realize that hey it's not so P you got to depend on him for the kindnesses that were mentioned I pray constantly for the kindnesses that you do for me every single moment in every single season so I recognize I recognize that you Hashem are taking care of me but I don't just leave it to that I also need to be missal I need to pray I need to put in my so to speak in prayer in request testing the things that I need right now in this particular circumstance that I find myself says is enumerating seven conditions that are required in order for somebody to depend on somebody else he explains that the only one who can fulfill all seven conditions properly is only Hashem himself it's a fact that hasem is involved in my life from the very beginning from when I start to grow before I even remember I don't even remember myself at that age I don't remember being a kid a little baby I don't remember anything but Hashem is there from the beginning hasem has a purview he sees my whole life sees everything that I need from the very first moment until the very last moment Hashem is your father Hashem is the one who acquired you he owns you he's you are his he made you and he established everything for you everything that you need is ready just waiting for you to come into the garden and pick off the fruits that's what it says in our I trusted in you from the very first moment I know that I was dependent yes dependent on you Hashem all the way back from the beginning now he bring some theit I believe we've seen this idea before but it's important to repeat it's important to think about it's important to review righteous individuals their lives start off with challenges and difficulties and their lives end off with Serenity let me c it doesn't mean that hasem is unable it's like not within his power to give a person a life of Serenity from the beginning heaven forbid can save a person can take care of a person from the very beginning until he's old forever the is the concept is that if Hashem would give that state of Serenity from the beginning so it's very easy the human being when things are good when everything is smooth when everything runs smoothly the life is easy so it's easy to fall off the path it's easy to end up out of relationship with a person who has challenges a person who has difficulties it's natural you call out Hashem help me Hashem save me Hashem take care of me and the opposite if a person seems to have everything I have everything thanks God it's all right I found the parking spot you don't need to help me here when a person has reached a level ofus of righteousness where the person is not easily swayed from that goodness he's not going to by becoming by having a life of Serenity it's not going to push him off the path then hasem makes sure that the person gets all their needs so it comes out that the beginning stage naturally always this is a natural part of life it's it's the rain it's the summer it's the start of the winter the dark comes before the dawn but there's Aina there's a Grace is starting with difficulties and challenges because we turn to in a certain way the difficulty is actually greater a person sometimes feels more connection more closeness to Hashem in the challenge than the person feels in the state of Serenity says it was good for me says that I was that I was that I had to endure difficulties like like we said at the beginning his parents they they cast him away he felt rejected but the result was that he came close to he felt connected to so did an incredible kindness to he brings it Shem created a situation that he would be the most hated of all the sons of yesai as a result of their hatred for him he's the reject he's the child who the father had the wrong thoughts about when when he was conceived he's the rejected child let him be a Shepherd came to to choose a child of yesai to be the king brings out the first son elav very handsome very tall very AER that's not the one hasem CHS brings out the next child the next one they didn't even think that do is the one do is the loser as he's seeing the first seven kids he says yes you have to have another child because these seven are not it and then what sh chooses David all of a sudden retroactively becomes clear what a mistake they made d shouldn't have been rejected the stone that was rejected by the builders became the main the foundation stone the Cornerstone that King David would trust exclusively in God excuse me because if he would have had a bit even a little bit of trust in his own father he wouldn't have completely developed his that's why D said King David said I trusted in you you are my own I can hope in you for the future why because I've been trusting in you I've been working on myself I've been developing my relationship with you until now from my very youth because he was rejected by his father like it says about the story with and his wife that he had the wrong thoughts and it's very encouraging it's very encouraging cuz sometimes we feel rejected sometimes we feel disappointed sometimes we feel like we tried so hard it's not working it's not going the way we wanted to go and it still didn't go the way he wanted it to go he had his he believed in until that moment of turnaround think of this week's para until that moment of turn around he's still having for 12 years he's sitting in jail he has and it's not working and then snap everything falls into place and all be talking that he developed over the 12 years where it saw where it felt like it wasn't working and for D according to one opinion he was 28 years old when he was chosen all that time he developed into the person that he was he didn't give up he didn't give up we can learn from this we can learn from this let's keep on let's keep on working on strengthening becoming greater B together thank you so much for listening we'll see you again next time