Bitachon 198 - The Challenge is Also Good

you're listening to the 198th edition of the podcast we continue new chapter 81 verse2 of it says says protect my soul for I am righteous save your servant you my God the one who trusts in you so there's a few things that we need to understand in this PK ordinarily uh we don't find that righteous individuals claim that they should be protected because they're righteous but D seems to be saying that why is he saying that he should be saved he's saying save me because I trust in you I'm your servant I'm the one who trusts in you so let's see some understanding of what the p is talking about first we have theit says like this the first the previous says it's very interesting first says Hashem turn your ear towards me please listen to me answer me because I'm poor I have nothing and was not poor at least not materially poor poor he didn't see himself as as poor materially he was not what what did he mean when he said he's an on and an aan he meant meant spiritually felt inadequate turn towards me answer me I'm a poor person right when we come to when we come to God and we want him to answer us you need to come humbly you need to come in a way that doesn't exude GAA doesn't exude ego so what is the idea he brings AES an amazing dichotomy God is far away in the heavens as it were God is all the way up there in the highest highest reaches shim seven heavens and yet although he's so far away or seems to be so far away God cares about the smallest person most insignificant person the poor person the the individual who people don't respect who respects a poor person get a job right that's our gu talking that's how our ego talks but the poor person who who doesn't have a job who doesn't have the wherewithal to take care of himself he's sticking out his hand begging for begging for a shekele Hashem takes care of that person that person is is humbled humbled by by his life circumstances reaches down and takes care of that person knows that he knows that if I'm going to stand in front of hasm I need to act humble I need to be humbled can't present myself as something something great if I want God to answer me explains the was saying that my way is to be quiet when a poor person is cursed someone gives him a dollar and says not nice word to him doesn't say anything he wants the dollar he doesn't have the option to speak up and is saying I too am like that I don't respond to people's curses of me and that's what he means right because it seems to be saying the opposite he's saying righteous person means someone who does someone who does kindness and as seems to understand that it means I'm willing to do kindness with those who are not kind to me I'm not going to say anything back to them someone curses me I'm not going to curse them I'm going to remember and remind myself and recognize that everything that comes the uncomfortable feeling comes from you Hashem and maybe I've made a mistake like that too maybe I've been negative that's is saying save me save your servant you you you Hashem not with any kind of not with any kind of messenger I didn't take any take any action against this person I didn't make any efforts to respond to this person so it's it's in your hands that person if they if something negative needs to happen to them because of their negativity towards me that's not my business it's your business says save your servant you my God what is this word you it's it's like talking about myself right talks about himself and says I'm Aid I do kindness I don't respond to negative barbs of other people and because I did that I went inside of myself I didn't allow it to to destroy me you Hashem you the great Hashem answer me answer me save me save me from my enemy bring about Justice yourself that's the we're asking Hashem save your servant from the difficulties of the time and from the evil inclination attacks us starts up with us tries to get us to do wrong but who saved me from my troubles and saved me from the isara the should not succeed in pushing me away from you I you are my God I trust in you I'm the one trusting in you it's interesting and we're going to see a few different explanations of this the P says that I'm the one who trusts to you I translated it as I'm one who trusts in you I trust to you what does it mean I trust to you when a person trusts in Hashem so you look up to the heavens you send your trust up send your trust up to Hashem I'm trusting toward you I'm sending my hope to hasem says the AL Sim he said says notice he points out the same thing should have said I trusted in you why does it say I trust to you what it means to say is like this says the is saying don't save my body my physical existence right cuz I know my soul's going to last forever but I but I want to be able to stay here I want to exist in this world so that I can come close to you I can accomplish here but don't save my physical existence my physical body because don't save me physically because of me because of some Merit that I have but do it to you which means that it's for you that I'm asking this why I'm your servant and you're my God how could it be that you see your servant think about it you have somebody give an example of a child you see your child you love your child your child is a part of you and you see the child in danger heav forbid how can you not try to save them saying I'm your servant I'm your I'm a member of your household I'm out there trying to do your will I'm trying to manifest your will in this world God please how could it be that you could allow me to be in the hands of a murderer and not save me what it means I'm trusting to you means I'm trusting and I'm somebody who's always facing towards you I'm always serving you hasem so it comes out is you're not really saving me it's not about me it's about you you got to have you got to have people in this world who are trying to do your will trying to shine your light in this world so for your sake save me that's what it means the you my God save the one who trusts to you I'm trying to serve you I'm trying to be just I'm asking you to be faithful to me I'm asking you to be trustworthy to me that I can trust you I'm trying to be trustworthy to you I'm trying to be your faithful servant just as you are my God furthermore says the when I'm asking to be saved it's not because of my prayer it's not because I prayed so well it's not because even even a spiritual reason it's only because you're my God it's because he trusts that if I make you my God then God you're going to also interact with me in that way that I'm your servant not going to be able to get to you he's saying a deep a very deep thing I'm your servant and I want to come close to you God I want have a real relation I'm trying to get closer and closer to you and if I go if I'm out of here how am I going to finish my job I can't finish the job if I'm not here that's the Al he brings a short line from the because of the because of the fact that I'm trusting in you that in itself is reason why you should save me you should save your servant this again has to do with the honor of your name God show yourself in the world and show and prove that those who trust in you it works out well for them things work out well in the end for those who trust in you so God is to your advantage so to speak to to save me to protect me corresponding to he's asking for protection physically the previous p is seems excuse me where he asks listen to me cuz I'm poor seems to be talking about the spiritual aspect but here we're talking about the physical aspect if I'm talking about the fact that I'm your servant it means that's my physical body I don't have the ability it's it's not you know the physical body is is not very spiritual it has all kinds of things that pull it in every direction I have the ability to save myself and I have the ability physically to be worthy of being saved but it's enough I know that it's enough that I trust in you I'm trusting to you that means that in and of itself the very fact that I'm trusting is an incredible character trait it's an incredible kuna it's an incredible thing to have inside of you so I know there's a certain request here that according to according to the true that I'm asking that please save me because I trusting you now and I want to be close to you Hashem and I want to be able to always trust in you I want always have that ability because I saw I worked I trusted in you before I know I can trust in you again brings here from again why does it choose the lon of to you trusting to you instead of trusting in you this teaches that he trusts if I'm trusting in you so that means you're right here you're right here next to me if I'm trusting to you that means I have a feeling I have a sense that you're far away I don't see how the Salvation is going to come I just it it seems too distant seems impossible that's I'm trusting to you I'm you're far away but I'm sending my trust out towards you again even when the Salvation is distant from him and doesn't seem there's any chance of being saved and call him nevertheless he turns his I'm sure of it I'm so confident I'm absolutely certain Hashem is going to save meem is going to take care of me it's going to happen it's going to work out Hashem is a mive Hashem loves me Hashem is Hashem is a kind God the challenges are just there for me to grow from and become greater from not to destroy me hashm wants to help me I keep reminding myself but it's It seems impossible how am I going to be saved no I I can feel it I'm going to be saved brings here from the heart and this addresses the issue of D saying save me because I'm Aid save me because I'm righteous are you poor are you an H are you bereft of any feelings and sense of of greatness or do you think that you're great like what's the understanding here you need to understand the say me because protect me because I'm righteous maybe I'm not sure who's the here there are two opinions one says that this is what D meant am I not a righteous individual showy sh all of the regular Kings a king sleeps slate he sleeps as long as he want no one's going to tell him what to do he's got to get up he's got to take care of the the country buts I get up at midnight I thank you for the statutes of your laws he's getting up and learning in the middle of the night so DAV is saying I'm I'm okay I'm good I'm good with God it's very difficult to understand is saying I'm a righteous individual therefore you should protect me because of that does someone have a right to say that there's no such thing says as someone coming to God and saying look I deserve to be helped I deserve to be saved I I deserve to be protected whoa you know slow down here what does mean so that's why we need to explain what was his when he says protect me because I'm righteous he means to say protect me because I have a certain aspect of righteousness which as we'll see causes protection what does that mean I have tremendous Simplicity I I'm straightforward I don't I don't play I don't play around I just say thank you Hashem for the laws of your statutes when I say doesn't just mean the laws in the statutes it means god you judged me mishpat means judgment you judged me and not happy about it I I I don't know why these things are the challenges are happening but I don't question it I I believe absolutely that everything that you do is good for me I've seen so many times in my life that something that seemed at first negative turned out to be the best thing in the world for for me I don't know that I would ask to go through that experience again but I know that that experience helped me grow I became a greater person because of it I won't deny that many times Hashem you bring to me something amazing and positive via and through the path of something negative K Isa the the it comes out of God's Great goodness I I have a faith part of B is yes B is believing it's going to be good in the end believing what I need is going to happen the Salvation is going to come but it's also knowing that the challenge that I have is also from Hashem I believe it it's it's also good somehow I don't know how it doesn't feel that way but but I I have courage to believe that and that's why he finishes off the PK and says when he's saying I'm a he doesn't mean to say I'm a righteous individual he means to say I really believe that everything that you do is I believe that everything that you do is kindness and because I believe that hasem I trust in you therefore save your servant save me let it let it be shown to me and to the world that indeed all that you do is absolutely good thank you so much for listening see you again next time