Do You Love HaShem or Only His Gifts?

What they really mean when they say I love Hashem is you love what he gives you. When he gives you a brand new car, he gives you a brand new wife, gives you brand new kids, brings you brand new money, brings you brand new health, he brings you stuff, you love what he gives you. It has nothing to do with him. Because if Hashem Hashem Hashem only to our enemies, he took those things away, who's going to say I love you Hashem? Who's going to buy a rubber band and put it on their head I love you Hashem? Everybody says, "What happened Hashem? Why?" They start questioning Hashem. Why are they questioning Hashem? Because when they said I love you Hashem, really what they meant is I love it when you give me what I want or what's good for me. But I don't understand why this is good for me to have this disaster, this difficulty, this depression, this disconnect. But the more Hakadosh Baruchu becomes a key part of your neshama, key part of your life, key part of every single moment in your day-to-day, the more you realize that not only Ein Od Milvado and I have to become subservient to him and all of these other things, the more you realize that his greatness is so beyond our comprehension that the fact that he even thinks of us to allow us to exist, that alone is a reason for you to love him. Why? Because there's nothing that you could ever give him back for anything that he that he gives you. So much so that the Chovot Halevavot says about 800 pages later that all of the mitzvot that you could ever do in your life, let's say you fulfill all you found some amazing way to fulfill all 613 mitzvot. You're a man, you're a woman, you're a kohen, you're a levi, you're a Yisrael. You do all the mitzvot, you do korbanot, you do all 613 mitzvot. And you did all seven of the rabbinical mitzvot, everything. And you're a baal chesed, you give chesed every day a million dollars, a million dollars to Rav Gavriel's kollel, a million dollars to Beis Medrash Govoha headquarters, a million dollars more to Beis Medrash Govoha headquarters because we have a lot more bills. But you keep doing chesed every day. The Chovot Halevavot says if you do all the mitzvot and all the chesed and all the things you could possibly do, you still could never pay Hashem back for even a single breath in your lung. All of that is not a payment back even a single breath. Why? All of what you do is for you. The mitzvot for you. You benefit from them. You benefit from the lifestyle. You benefit from the marriage you'll get from it. You benefit from all the good things that come out of it. All the stocker you give, you benefit. He doesn't benefit out of it. But the breath that he gives you, only you benefit out of it. He doesn't get anything out of it. So in essence, when you give, you're not really giving. You're taking. They call it truma. Hashem says in the Torah, let them take from me stocker. Let them take from me a gift. What do you mean take from me? She say let them give me a gift. No, no. Take from me. When you're giving stocker, when you give ma'aser, when you give chumesh, when you give a mitzvah, you give of yourself, in reality you're taking. Because why? You're the only one that benefits it. Hashem doesn't benefit out of it. But when he gives you a breath, he doesn't benefit from that either. Only you benefit from it. Hence the reason why the Rebbe says, all the good that a person could do, he can never return even for a single breath that Hashem gives