Do You Love HaShem— or What He Gives You?

You love what he gives you. So if he didn't give you the car, but instead your car crashed. If he didn't give you a healthy body, instead he gave you cancer. He didn't give you a wife, instead your wife died, you still love him. Oh, Rabbi, why are you cursing? I'm not cursing you. I'm explaining to you that you don't love Hashem. You love what he gives you when he gives you what you want. Once you start giving a listen, Hashem, I love you, so give me this. Oh, you gave me this so therefore I love you. Then guess what? Says A love that is dependent on something is not love. It's not love. If you love your wife because of the food she makes for you, because of the way she holds you, because of the way she cleans the house, because guess what? You don't love your wife. If you replaced her with a cleaning lady, she get to do the same thing. You don't love your wife. If you love your wife because of the stuff she does for you, you don't love your wife. If you love your husband because of what he buys YOU, YOU DON'T LOVE YOUR HUSBAND. You love his bank account. SO TO SAY, "OH, let's focus on loving Hashem." What does that mean? Can you explain to me next time somebody tells you, "Explain to me loving Hashem." And you will see them spew nonsense out of their mouth, saying, "Oh, I love he gives me this and he gives me this and he gave me eyes and he gave me ears." So what? If he didn't give you ears, then you wouldn't love him. That means you don't love him. You love what he gives you. It's like saying the fisherman loves fish. No, he doesn't. If he loved fish, he wouldn't fish them and eat them. He loves the way they taste. To say you love Hashem means you have to simply nullify yourself. Nullify your will. There is no me. There is no I want. I don't want to do anything. I want to do what he says. There's no I'm too tired. There's no tired. If I have to wake up, I'm waking up. Why? I have to serve Hashem. But I don't feel like waking up. Who cares what I want? There is no I want. There's no I I I need nothing. They're simply I'm here to serve.