When (and why) a Tzadik Falls... (Bas Ayin - Parshas Va'eira)

we all go through times in our life when we struggle spiritually and unfortunately sometimes we fall we have our low points spiritually they're depressing they're hard to deal with they don't make us feel good we regret it and then as we after we climb out of that state we we ask ourselves what did hashem want from me why did i need to experience that what is the function of that what is the purpose so the basayan in parties of era speaks about this and i wanted to share that with you because it it gives us just another layer another perspective on what the function of these low points in our spiritual life are and let's take a look the beginning of the parasha the torah tells us hashem says to moshe and he speaks asham speaks to moshe by yamamura he says to hashem i am hashem so the bastian starts off with two questions number one is via heaven we need understanding the second half is extra it saysn't in the beginning vayidabra kim and maisha hashem spoke to moisha why does it need to say again and he said to him and question number two is the change the gamla having to understand shine halashan the change in the language but the passage starts off using the word dibor describing hashem speaking to marsha afterwards take it right away it says we know from needs to be soft when we speak to the uh basically to the to the women of claudius so we have two questions number one is why does it say it again and seemingly the change seems to be you know there's an inconsistency there let's take a look tells us speaking about the uh nasi and the carbohydrates that the leader the nasty needs to bring when he sins our rabbis teach us from the word ashar ashrae hadzaar fortune is the generation and as rashi says in in um impressions fortune is the generation where the um nasi gives focuses gives thought hobbies to atone for his his mistakes and calvin and certainly shamus heartless is vanessa and certainly if he uh has regrets his intentional sins fortunate is the generation where there are leaders that can acknowledge they made mistakes and they regret them and they do true for them perish the explanation of this is the resting of hashem's presence where is the icker where's the main hashrat on the aspect on the of berlave broken hearts commemorative like the puzzle says hashem says hashem is with those that are of low spirit what does that mean a low spirit someone who regrets the average they've done bali chuva people who may have sinned people who may have done a various and regret them and that hurts when a person sins value design through that nishbar levi then his after that his heart becomes broken the kharvai vishal of shalem when he comes close into hashem um then he draws onto himself the light of a person who does a person who doesn't and they feel bad and they regret that their heart is broken they draw down a light from shamayim the light of truv that aspect of truth that light is great in the eyes of hashem the hashem andrei say that sadaq falls from his high high lofty levels in a low level like it says in the books of its as it's quoted here maury nyam consider over the name of the balshem and others for come the passage initially says seven times that's all it falls for comedy gets up what does that mean this is almost called this is caused by shamayim they cause them to fall she is right this is what like we said before that it we caused the saga to fall from his hashem causes the salah to pull from his great levels because they say ishbar alibaba be careful of in order that he should have a broken heart afterwards and return to hashem and from that the yamcha yamcha and he will draw behind us the purpose of that fool is so that he can get back up afterwards that is the purpose of the fall hashem needs a place to rest in this world and by that getting up after that fall it draws down a light that he otherwise cannot draw down it brings down a hashem's presence in a way that otherwise cannot be brought down now listen to this this is hinted in the passage of hashem la nishpere hashem is close to those linishbury lathe yeah we generally translate translate this as to those with a broken heart but likes if it doesn't say lis shavurey level those with a broken heart cause of heroism like it says in in in another passage hashem who heals those with a broken heart but it says la nishbreile those whose hearts are broken means by someone else laramie's this hints shaqari hashem hashem is close to this berlibo whose hearts are broken from shamayim unbelievable he continues even though they said that make no mistake it's certainly harder and it's more difficult to get close to hashem to connect hashem if they're if they use sin it's it's not like it's not a free pass do not say i'm sorry there's a much of a greater struggle over here shakovanes goshen liboy his heart became uh became mundane and it became dirty with sin makes [Music] with 13 attributes of mercy am hashem before he sends but through the his broken heart the shepherd's rukha in the low lowness of his spirit mam shakalava that will draw on him the art of truth the light of god it's greater than the original level this is hashem's commitment and you'd give me this according to the vasayan that hashem says before you sin am hashem before hashem afterwards you i will take care of you i will if you do chuva you will drew i will be even closer to you afterwards and so this is after moisha said what happened in the previous parasha maharaja hashem is telling why did you do bad to this nation so what happens hashem hashem ishbat hashem speaks vayadabar hard harsh umiyad what happens we got immediately says the basayon nishbar alibaba shall maisha be keeping my sharpening whose heart was broken mysharabain who spoke spoke spoke to the urbanislam why did you do bad to this nation he shouldn't have done that he felt bad nisberly by shall my should be cared by his heart was broken vishwa bachuva taketh and he he did chew immediately the himself and he drew down the light of chuva and therefore never take him it says right away afterwards immediately which means hashem accepted us a love and we see this in the word vaimar a love a love is it's hints to the concept of a broken heart vinitken downtrodden kia dua right because the gematria of late is 32 f of 32 is 16 the yudan above to that hashem spoke to that broken heart of masha the rames this tells us this hints you'd love it was hashem's amirah to mushroom was because of because of his sixteen you advance broken heart between a slave the aspect of a broken heart at my sharpening like we mentioned this is it sometimes we have very difficult challenges spiritually and we don't make it through and we fall and we we we go out of our minds we we we feel terrible about it but realize that that chuva that regret that broken heart we have for doing that available that just might be the reason why we got there in the first place and if we can do that we can do true properly we'll get to an even higher place than we were before like i'll say but in them the perfect stand have a wonderful shabbos