Emet Inspire - Ashamed of Your Shame? Don't Be!

the parts of Personality which we like to develop which we're proud of that which we want to expand upon and there parts of a personality which we feel we wish we didn't have them certain fears and shame and vulnerability yet the reality is that every part of our personality is essential and part of our mission and should be utilized in the service of hasem Aron a cohain was called upon to bring the first offering in the Tabernacle of the mishkan if he was frozen he was paralyzed he couldn't do it and the reason why is because whenever he looked at that altar he remembered the altar that he built and upon which they offered up the golden calf the granted Aon didn't participate in any Idol washa but he did build the altar he was trying to delay trying to wait till mosha returned but the altar that he built and the calf that he created although not idol worship or an an idol in anyway was utilized incorrectly and inappropriately so when he looked at that altar now which was to be utilized that first offering for hasem all he could do is remember what he did he felt the shame of the golden calf he looked at the altar and he said I can't do this I'm the wrong person for this job I created an altar for a calf and I have to bring the first Al offering on this altar he was stuck he was paralyzed and therefore the verse reads and it says in shmini in 9: 7us says MOS says to Aon come close to the alar come close to the altar Aon and bring the sin offering and the elevation offering may it be atone may be an atonement for you and the nation the fact that MOS to say come close it must mean that Aon did not want to come close and Rashi quoting the V explains and says the words was filled with shame and he was afraid to approach the altar MOS says to him why are you ashamed AR and you were chosen for this AR and you were chosen to lead the Jewish people you were chosen to bring this offering you're the coin god you were chosen Aaron why are you embarrassed it's difficult to understand that statement and there's a beautiful Insight brought by the de de makim who was the grandson of the B the son of Ed and he recording his grandfather the BT's insights and observations he says his fathers he asked a question he said for this is a wonder how can mosha possibly trying to be to inspire Aon to come close Aon don't be embarrassed you were chosen for this it's exactly because he was chosen that's why he's embarrassed and he says this is a Wonder because Aon was chosen to be the one to come close to the Altar and bring that first offer that's the whole reason why couldn't remove the embarrassment from himself because he has to perform the service before hasem on an altar and he participated and built an altar for the golden gav that's the reason why he's filled with shame so how could mosha try to inspire him by saying because you were chosen don't be embarrassed it's because you were this is what you were chosen for it's exactly because he was chosen for this that's the reason why he's embarrassed so the de continues and quoting he says as follows he says no you have to read those words a little bit differently and you have to read it like this it's because you have fear and shame that's the reason you were chosen it's because you have shame because you feel that sense of your own inadequacy it's because you feel that vulnerability in yourself that's what makes you the perfect ambass to represent the Jewish Nation before Hashem you know what it's like to feel Brokenness you know what it's like to feel incompletion you can relate to your own vulnerability and if you can relate to your own vulnerability you can recognize that there's so many people out there also vulnerable who feel shamed who feel broken and need to be inspired to come close to Hashem and to be inspired to help themselves just become elevated once again Aron it's because you have fear it's because you have busha it's because you have this shame it's because you have this experience this is what makes you the perfect man for the job in other words what you think is your deficiency is really your efficiency your shame creates vulnerability it makes one aware that one needs a shame if you could experience that in yourself you can understand that other people are experiencing that as well and they need to be uplifted and they need to be inspired it's your bush it's your shame it's the fact that you look at that Altar and you remember the golden calf and you feel shame that's why you were chosen that shame is necessary for your mission and this is how we have to look at ourselves the vulnerability that we experience the feelings inside of ourselves which we tend to feel inadequacies the parts of ourselves that that feel brok broken it sometimes that's where our vulnerability vulnerability lives that's where we feel the need to bring AEM into our lives in a deeper way and if we recognize those feelings in ourselves we recognize other people experience them as well and it was aon's job as the Cohen the Coen godal as it is a job of a Coen or a teacher or a rabbi or a friend parent to uplift others to bring them up and it's awareness of our own vulnerability awar us our own shame that makes us the perfect agent the perfect messenger for that job of inspiring others our deficiencies aren't deficiencies at all they're efficiencies they're exactly what we need for our Perfection and help other people achieve those as well wishing everybody a wonderful [Music] Shabbat