Yeshivas Shaarei Torah Elul Asifa

[Music] in the para this week that we read on chabas the which was part of the part of the preparation part of the a for rash that we finished with the clus and we finished with the bras all before so the says that there's going to be a person who says that things are going to be fine with me that all these terrible things that you hear about that were said in the para before for me it's going to be good I will follow the illusions of my heart the desires of my heart and then so you have a person who says that none of this is speaking to me that's for me everything's going to be fine I'm going to go on my Merry Old way and everything is going to be fine what is the what does what is the the Tera really being derish from the person that it shouldn't what what so what what is the what is the flip side what does the Tera really want it shouldn't be what does the teror want so there's a gamar a gar that many of us know the gamar is a gamar inar and says that was from the great T became ill so went to visit went to visit him so he tells him and he comes to him and he sits down and begins to rebuke his talet and he tells him I hear that that the Romans the enemy is has banned the learning of and we shouldn't we shouldn't stop learning Terror but why do you have to do it in a public setting why does it have to be that you gather people publicly it's like putting it in the face of the enemy it's in the face of him it's like sticking it to him why do you have to do that and the gamor said told him told him that he told Hew so then said tells him that that I tell you and you give me such a reason and the gor goes on V and we know the end of the story that ultimately he was captured he was taken prison he was burned alive and he died theor in the same conversation turns and theor says asked what is my portion in the next World going to look like he wants to know what how how am I going to feare in the next World so he tells him tell me something tell me about yourself so he tells him that got mixed in together he had money in Pock in his pockets money was designated for sudas purum money was designated for St and the two monies got together mixed together and he didn't know what to do and theor says he went he took all the money and he gave it away to St how they stating theor so he tells him says if that's the case he says if that's the case I should be equal I should get an equal portion like you this this is obvious what you look tell me just said that he was and ultimately that brought him to to to a difficult from we we say iter what do you mean just said a phenomenal that things that he did how could it be and then we pick on a trivial thing of not a trivial thing but something which was involved a few dollars what's what's it a in such a says that says that if a person only has Li and he doesn't have anything else he's missing he's lacking maybe we could say a different from shot and theot paper perhaps is as follows RMA said like this a person is in a comes a unique situation people have the ability to rise perhaps we have that already in our DNA from that he was ready to put on but every Jew you see even during the Holocaust that simple Jews did phenomenal phenomenal things in in in in the time of is that that is but what wants to know is tell me about your essence when when it's not unique and when it's not fire dick and when it's not AA how do you conduct yourself when things happen tell tell me about how do you conduct yourself even in the Small Things says well he tells him about which means that stops to examine and he says well why did this money get mixed together must be that the abisher wants me to give it all to and therefore I'm going to give it to when a person stops in his life and he's always thinking what does the ab want from me that is the that is the direct opposite of means I'm going to do whatever suits me I don't think about the I don't think what the wants for me I everything is good whatever I want whatever I whatever suits me well whatever fits for me that's what I'm going to do but what theor tells you is that was saying that that his whole was that he always stopped to listen the is talking to him the is giving him a message and therefore theor says if that's how you lived your life tells him we come now where M we began already we're already m in close to rash four days this week is rash last night we already didn't say because Mish right here it's at our at our tips what does want from us we live [Music] in once said in one of the one of the um one of the um um when they had the the summer what was it called R the um they got together in what was it called and one of the the last that he spoke said he said that is in a much greater Sak than the Eden were during the Holocaust he said in the Eden during the Holocaust there was a place to escape you could run into the forest you could try to hide he said ER this Ro is surrounded from every direction and every every three sides is enemies in the South and the East and the and the north on the side and then the other side is the is the Mediterranean is the water there's no way where for us to run and we see that even though we see that the is doing how many soldiers how many people how many for us we shouldn't get lost and the talking to us he's talking to each and every one of us without getting into details there's AI that andus I saw andus says that that says have to do TR so one of the answered back but you have to and he told him back the want that every should do his own cha the ab talking to us what the message is but certainly is that we have to be and perhaps be even in the Small Things the small daytoday things that we have to listen to that is talking to us just want be that I saw from a letter from the na a letter from the and the was talking during the and writes like this he speaks about the with with so he says the same thing is true to a that the only place we have shade we have comfort we have protection is when a person is in the shade of the if the would be if the would give the ability to the to sit and learn that would be enough to protect every Tor and every M and he says this going speaking about the World War World War one we should we should stop we should think about the the which are coming we should think about the small things that that a person should always resonate in his mind even on the small things and if a person hears the he can hear that speaking to him and it's we going to be and all that we should be everyone here and the and the families and the children with we're holding by just a short everyone knows we have minimum of four days you open up a m there are two reasons the second reason the famous reasona the tour brings down thaton have to be checked have to be examined for four days when you take a carbon you have to look over the carbon for four days and make sure they no m m brings down every we bring because we take an animal and we bring it R is different R we have a carbon the M says that carbon is ourselves we bring ourselves up as a carbon and therefore we have to examine ourselves four days looking seeing what's wrong with us how can we fix up our mistakes and there are two things that I think need a little bit of explanation what does it mean we're bringing ourselves as a carbon we're being we're giving up our lives that's what is about we scream we all want life so so what's that carbon that we're giving also we know comes to n you can't check yourself and see your which means unfortunately in the world if you have to look at someone else we can always find yeah this guy does that wrong and that guy does this wrong but to look at yourself and see what you do wrong is Mission Impossible we can't see our own faults and yet the idea of seems to be four days to look and find your faults how do we look where do we go how do we start may we get to a their hair from one of the strange people in the times of tan there's someone that was known as Alisha Ben Aya Alisha Ben Aya was amazing was brilliant the the med says when he would speak hundreds and thousands of people would be Spellbound caught up in his londas theor tells us in this amazing T This brilliant mind went over to AA and said you know and the Z said back you're not Alisha benu so this was on he pulled out a turnip from the ground and he said look what I'm doing look what I'm giving you and she said back you're someone else little bit strange let's go deeper continues re mayor re Maya is the T the was a was following after his re hearing on chabas was on a horse and re was following along walking along this horse that his rebi was on on chabas which is to hear words of from and a is riding re is walking re is caught up in the Brilliance in the the and turns to them and says mayor stop shabas May turns to them like wow how did you realize exactly right here is shabas says like a middle of giving his whole the Brilliance of was with all the he he Wasing from the the horse how far every every step of a horse is he was able to figure out and he's telling his may stop I could keep on going I don't keep shabas but you you better stop and after hearing the words turns to his re says why don't you stop also stop and the says said for me it's too late I Heard a Voice there was a voice that said everyone could do chuva everyone beside I want to try to understand first of all how many people hear voices I mean Ellie is a big sadic probably you heard the bascal here and there but most of us we don't hear voices we don't hear voices Bas y what's this Basco coming for what's he supposed to gain from this Basco and maybe a little bit deeper what are the words of the Basco who's this person the say so that becomes his name now that's the Bas says the say if you look in yii brings the story with a few more details and thei it's also but which one was it was it a was it Alisha a maybe get to a big yite and this yite maybe has to do with every one of us many times people do things that are wrong people do things they shouldn't be doing and sometimes a person just looks at himself and says wow look how far I fell look what I became and they don't recognize that's not them that's not who they are that's that's a side thing that's not their Essence that's not their core they're KES they're Above This randomly people fell but don't identify yourself with that Alisha AAS from told him you're my Ben you're my son you're precious you're you're important to me get rid of your garbage get rid of your external things that are not you that not who you are the problem is a didn't realize he couldn't let go of his addictions he couldn't let go he couldn't stop because he identified himself this is who I am I am the movies I am the Ang I am the jealousy my problems are me and therefore he heard the Bas as telling him you are excluded you are not Ro to do Chua when in reality Hashem was telling him the exact opposite you're the mostra you're a Ben just give up your external that's not really you maybe back that's carbon we're giving from ourselves what's that carbon that carbon is the everyone has inside them you can't see yourself but if you recognize there's a rider and there's an animal my animal isn't me look at the animal look at the external get let go of that external we have inside us a piece we might have fell but don't let that identify who you are then we come into R we're different everyone over here I feel like no one's holding by but there might be that a that you know I'm working I'm doing some people work less learn more but sometimes people feel like I'm the I'm the working guy but I want to tell everyone over here that's the AK that's not who you are it's not your core it's not your essence your essence who you are you're a that's who you are you're a part of a Yeshiva yeah people go on stages in life and they have to be my finest but that's what we have to remember who are you what you are and when we come we look for a new year what we have to remember is there might have been external things that we did but don't let it govern you and determine what you're about because last year externally you might have done this wrong you might have got caught up in something you shouldn't have caught up with you are above this because that wasn't really you disconnect hm should give us the to realize who we are who we really are we's calling to us you're all my Ben and with realizing this recognizing ourselves recognizing who we are and what we can do we should all be