How to achieve real freedom? - Rabbi Alon Anava

[Music] so we're very close to PES and we already learned many different ways how to prepare for PES how to to recognize the the things that limit me in my life so I know how to have my own my own going out of Egypt and today I want to talk about something that most people tend to ignore that is called freedom and this holiday I told you before is called the holiday of freedom in the Torah the holiday of PES is called called the holiday of Matas and it's also called the holiday of Freedom later on our sages came and called it PES this is a new newer Edition it doesn't say the Torah calling it like that it's calling it so is a holiday is freedom this called the holiday of freedom because we went from slavery into Freedom now even though the actual story happened and 3,300 something years ago we did go out of slavery after 210 Years of Slavery but everything that's happening in the physical level also happens in the spiritual level and at that time that's when we went into our spiritual freedom and every year like a cycle we are slaves and we can go out of our spiritual slavery the reason why I'm saying can because a lot of people don't they either are completely enough connected to God and they're stuck in their slavery or they just didn't prepare the right way and even a person can be a God-fearing person and Torah observ it and still get still stay in their Exile and not gain the the ability to go out of their own jail so really when you're thinking of it freedom is the most basic thing of our life you want to be free want to be free to do whatever you want I don't know if any of you ever experience it I don't wish it to anyone but when they take the freedom of a person that's the worst thing one can experience whether it's jail whether it's shalom any type of captivity whether it's being hospitalized whether it's being trapped in any type of a relationship that you lose your freedom completely any way that you don't have your freedom is the worst form of torture and Punishment you want to close the window yeah yeah go ahead so any type of loss of freedom is is one of the worst things a person can experience now I actually had this conversation not too long ago with somebody about jail and somebody said jail is the worst punishment one can get and I said yeah you're right I I agree with that but there are certain individuals that you need them off the streets yeah certain individuals you if they're going to be out in the in the in the world they're going to kill they're going to steal they're going to rape they're going to you have to get them off the street I agree but a lot of people they they don't really belong in jail the punishment of jail is beyond what what they did and probably even a better it could be designed a much better punishment but I'm not here to now make new rules in the world I'm just coming to say that freedom is the basic thing in our life now the freedom can be taken in a very extreme way like jail the freedom can be taken in a very extreme way when some people Shalom they get hospitalized in a in a in a mental place not in a physical place I mean just by even being in a hospital for a couple months to heal you don't have freedom I have I know an individual that L was in a car accident half a year he was in jail in In hospital that's a form of he was going crazy it's a form of a Jael I mean he wasn't there locked down he was going crazy being in the same room all the time can't move but there are many different ways that a person can be locked up and unfortunately in our generation and probably in previous generation some people they they get locked up in a mental institute against their will and there's nothing wrong with them just at that place makes money over them or some whatever it is so unfortunately in our generation also you will find that and it's pretty common unfortunately that people find themselves locked up in a in a in a hospital in a mental hospital and nothing's wrong with them that's another form of jail now there's a different type of slavery of of jail that you're jailed in a relationship and uh that can sometimes be even worse than being closed in four walls some people are finding themself in a relationship that the person is there's no freedom very abusive relationship very controlling relationship that the person cannot just get up and leave because fear or whatever it is and the person doesn't have freedom so there are many types of ways when a person loses their freedom there are Extreme Ways like jail and there are also not so Extreme Ways that I have a job that I can't stand that's also type of a way that I don't have my freedom I have a very hard relationship and it can be not with my spouse that I can just get divorced can be with my parents I can't divorce my parents I can't get rid of my parent or my child and I'm stuck in this a relationship and I don't have freedom but there's many different types of ways that I don't have my freedom and it can be very small things like I told you a job that I don't like a financial situation you know credit card debt is also loss of freedom because my money is held by the bank or by the credit card company and I owe now x amount of money to the company the credit card company or the or the bank that's lost of Freedom my money is not free to do whatever I want what I want to understand from that is there that freedom is the basic thing in our life and what I want I want freedom I want to be free to do whatever I want and when I don't have my freedom then it's a then it's a problem and you know what another form of losing freedom is when I'm addicted to something and I don't have it if I'm addicted to cigarettes and I don't have my cigarettes I'm I'm I'm jailed in in a limitation it's a another type of loss of freedom I like coffee if I don't have coffee that's a problem if I like whatever it is then that's not good that's why many times I mentioned that when I became religious I could not stand the fact I was a smoker I was addicted to to many different things basic things coffee H TV show people are addicted to the phone anything that you are addicted to you lost your freedom if you addicted to your phone and you cannot leave your house without your phone cuz Shalom somebody might text you a smiley and you're going to miss it you and you addicted to the phone you are you don't you're not free you don't have a freedom if I can now leave my home and be a a going crazy cuz I don't have something with me today can be a phone or whatever it is that's that's a form of addiction and you can call it an addiction I will call it a loss of Freedom I'm not free if I can go if you can't go now 3 days without your phone you are not a free person so I want to get to a point that I'm totally free because if I don't have my freedom I'm I'm jailed I'm in a limitation and I am suffering some type of a Suffering The Suffering can be extreme the suffering can be not so extreme so if I'll beom jailed then a suffering is Extreme if I'm in a very abusive relationship my suffering is Extreme if I go away on a vacation and I forgot a certain thing then the suffering is not that bad happens to me when I I tra I travel a lot I already have a to take list that before I go I have a list the phone charger the earphones my passport because I don't like leaving the home and 100 km away from home I I forgot so the whole week I'm going to have to go now with without a certain thing that I like anything that I cannot live without that is the definition of me not being free and each person can observe in their own life where and how they're not free and if you can find that you are totally free from everything then you are called a Benin a person of of that you're totally free person that's why we read in the that we want to be a person of Freedom that nothing is holding me back nothing's limiting me I'm totally totally free and there's nothing more happy than Freedom when you get out of a bad relationship you get bad of a bad situation a bad contract not to say a bad being in jail or hospitalized free I got rid of it so this is the holiday of freedom and this is the holiday that I can reach my freedom and if you have to make an analysis in your life if you are free or not that's why I told you when you're scrubbing the floor your mind has to be like where is the that I have to get rid of this is another form of not being free if I have a problem with being very judgmental and gets to me I'm not a free person because I'm carrying this judgment all the time she said this he said that he looked at me like this she talked that that's not being free cuz I'm holding something negative in me so you got the point of the concept of being free there are many different types of levels in it but you need to look inside of you and say okay where am I not free now the definition of freedom when mosu came down from the Mountain it said the letter of the letter from Hashem came down on the on the L on the tablets now l in Hebrew come is is the is the name of the actual tablets but the the beauty in here that it says that the letters were engraved it wasn't written it wasn't ink it wasn't any other way it was engraved on the tablets why because ink you can delete and when you engrave something you cannot un engrave it you can maybe cover it but you'll see that it was fixed once you engrave into something that's it it's part of it and what was it was engraved the letters now it says that the letters were engraved engraved in Hebrew is so our sages say don't read it read it is freedom which means that mosu brought down from the mountain of the Tor he brought Freedom he brought the tool that will bring me that will set me free now if you're looking it in physical eyes he did not bring any freedom he brought rules he brought segregation he brought the most thing that isop of Freedom don't eat this don't eat that don't do this don't do that don't say this don't say that he didn't bring freedom that's how it seems it seems that he did not bring freedom cuz now I can't do this I can't look there I can't say that I can't eat this I can't move this that's Freedom that's what you call Freedom that's the opposite of Freedom he didn't bring any freedom here he brought the ultimate opposite of freedom but that's what we perceive that's what we think when you free to do whatever you want that's not Freedom you have to ask yourself a question what is real Freedom doing whatever I want is that freedom that's not real Freedom the the that's the problem in our generation that I perceive that me doing whatever I want that's my freedom really when I'm in a system of rules that's when I'm free when I'm not in a system of rules then there's no Freedom here because you know why because I don't make any decision society makes a decision for me I'm a herd I'm not free I mean a herd so if Society now decides that this name tag is popular everybody buys the name tag that I'm a herd I buy the name tag too cuz I want to be part of the society and if Society now will say that it's popular to get get dressed a certain way like fashion or certain song is popular everybody every we like herds we don't go with our we don't have our own mind now when I don't think for myself I'm not free and 99.999% of people of the world they're not thinking for themselves they're being taught what to say what to think what to how to dress you dress a certain way cuz you belong in a community I dress like this cuz I belong in a Society in a community and I dress because everybody's dressed like that very few people they dress however they want that doesn't say in her in in in a certain in how I have to dress that says I have to dress modest have to dress like this or like that but you see that if you belong to this community you address a certain way you belong to that Community you addess a certain way so and this is one example out of many but if Shalom now somebody will go out somebody powerful will go out and will uh go against a certain thing then everybody will will not use it like they're doing trying to do now with Israel to boycott certain products so powerful people they Bo boycott a certain product I can guarantee to you that 90 90 95% of people that Bo boycott the products of Israel they don't even know where Israel is on the map even I can guarantee to you that they don't know where is is is they don't know even what's Israel they don't know why they're boycotting it they're telling them don't buy these products I'm not buying the products so most of people in the world they're not really free because they they operate like a herd and we are like that too by the way we don't think for ourselves we don't we we we just go like a herd from place to place and we are like uh we have in our system the system of belief unfortunately instead of believing in the Tor and the and believing in we believe in nonsense but we believe what people tell me so if now some leader will come and tell me this is good for you I will believe in it and the proof to that go now to the supermarket and you will see on a certain product that it says diet diet coke you believe you believe that if you drink it you'll be thinner why cuz everybody drinks it or people think that they can eat seven hamburgers and then drink diet coke the diet coke will make sure that the hamburger just somehow disappears and I'm not going to be gaining all these calories so some corrupt individual comes and puts a stamp on a bottle on trillions of bottles and says Diet Coke no sugar added and millions of people like a heard oh wow look at this magic bottle I can drink it it's sweet and it doesn't have sugar and it's diet I'm going now on a diet and you see in America these people that are 300 lb obese because they're stuffing themselves with fried chicken and hamburgers and junk but they drink diet coke so this is a proof how people are are herds and they believe anything you would tell them if it will come very wrapped nice and the deception in it is free the freedom they'll believe you so people think that if they drink that coke they're going to be thin the the the product that they're being sold is freedom yeah eat whatever you want and drink this and you'll be free because you can eat whatever you want and then they look at the mirror and like wow something's wow this this bottle is amazing look I'm only 300 lb I'm not 350 lb so this is the concept how people believe what you what you tell them now powerful people now this is the joke here go to America any product that you consume it has a sticker that says FDA approved FDA is the biggest mob in the world it's all corrupt it's all paid it's not half of what's the FDA approved it's junk but I don't know the point is that if you really look at the product you'll see that half of them are tall junk tll poison but it's FDA approved and then you will come with something healthy it doesn't have that stamp I don't want to touch it so there's another proof how a powerful group a powerful individual a powerful company will come lie to everybody and people believe it so this is the proof that we are believers to deception and we're basically not free I'm not free cuz I don't think my own I don't take my own opinion and I apply it I believe to what people tell me and I go like a per like a like a herd and really when I'm like that I live a life of prison my life is in prison that I'm depending dependent on things that I'm you know now it's very popular in our generation that the doctors they they lie to you and they tell you that if you take this pill you're going to be free from your pain and if you take this pill you're going to be free from your depression if you take this pill you're going to be free from these symptoms that bother you they lie to you because it's not making you free from your problem that you're just not dealing with the problem you're numbing the problem you're pushing away the problem you're not doing anything it's the pill of deception and again going back to the same thing I believe because I I I'm being sold freedom but it's not Freedom I'm now being sold the addiction to the pill right now so this is not real Freedom now if I'm in the that level my life is in jail because every morning I have to put something in my mouth and every afternoon I have to put something in my mouth and every night I have to put something that's jail I'm now slaved to this pill that makes me think that I'm free and B I'm not free I'm not free at all I'm addicted now to the pill and if I will now take the pill away will now I be the same did the pill heal me no and the proof to that is that you take a person is depressed give him pills the pills yeah they calm him down maybe a little bit of happiness take the pills away back to square one you have a headache you take the pill the headache disappears the pill wears off back to square one it didn't heal you it just changed the situation temporarily meaning I'm back to square one meaning that I live a life of jail I am not a free person now the definition really here is that I don't think for myself somebody's thinking for me now if it's a child yes so your parent has the parent has to think for the child if it's a disabled person yeah somebody needs to think for them but we're not children and we're not disabled we need to think for ourselves and people come and tell us what to do what we need to do how we need to do so we really are not free now what is the real freedom is that my mind is free and my mind is where my thoughts are and a thought thought is the birth of the will and if my will is not free same idea I'm in my limitation and there's a big concept that is called free will the question is do you really have free will is your will really free who said your will is really free you really do whatever you want or whatever you think is the right thing to do no you don't now the real Freedom the real free person is that their thoughts are free no mess in their mind and most people their thoughts are not free because a certain individual will be afraid to go home because they don't want to deal right now with what the spouse is going to tell them and they don't want to go to school because they don't want to deal with not what the students are going to tell them and they don't want to go to their job CU they can't deal with what the job the boss is going to tell them and in the thoughts if he's going to say this I'm going to say that and all day long you thought are not even free the point is that we are slaves when we say in the hag we were slaves to who to where we were slaves to and three levels slaves MIT Egypt phoh and slave and what was the concept of the slavery in Egypt that the slave did not have a will of himself he had to do the will of his master that was the slavery in MIT that they had to do I want to do this right now the slave said no you can't do this you you have to do that when I can't control my will I'm a slave and that's where what the slaves would do in MIT I mean you we also had slave 100 years ago and 500 years ago but the slave is a person that doesn't control his will that he doesn't have self-control his will and control has been taken away that's the definition of a slave that you can't think for yourself you can act for yourself you want to sleep no you have to work I want to eat no you have to do this and we are slaves now it says there's a PUK sorry that it says the wicked people are in the hands of their heart and sikim the heart is in their hand mean meaning that a wicked person they're controlled by their heart I want this I'm going to go after that I want this I'm going to go after that everything that I want I go after that's for me freedom for me freedom is to walk into the bakery now and buy five rolls five or whatever pastry it is it's freedom I can do whatever I want here's 10 shekels give me the cookie I perceive it as Freedom the real freedom is saying no I don't need this rol right now I can control my thoughts I can control my urge I can control my desire that's the real Freedom when I'm just like out there and I can think that I can do whatever I want that's not the real Freedom this just just that's just me not able to control myself now if I do that I might receive it oh I'm free I can go into the store right now buy whatever I want I have money and I have the ability the real freedom is to say no let's see you see you now controlling this urge right now that's really the real Freedom now we knew we're going to go to MIT when made a deal with the told him your kids are going to they're going to have to go to Exile and the way we see how it was predicted and had to happen that didn't even argue didn't say anything go to par back when went to to plea with hasem about if you remember Hashem says I'm going to destroy D Abu there's a big portion of the Paras that it's talking about Abu is debating and arguing with to the what if there's 40 there hasem says there's not 40 there I'm talking about in maybe there's 35 righteous people there says no there's no 35 maybe there 30 maybe 30 25 is arguing with hem not to destroy his a bunch of wicked people and ab a is playing with them when hasem says to AB aino your kids are going to go to MIT okay no argument here why aren't you arguing cuz knew that it has to happen doesn't matter it's going to happen now why did hasem created MIT because hm says listen I'm going to give your children the option of coming to me willingly if they do that fine if not I'm going to have to take them to MIT to a place of slavery and dirt and filth and they're going to have to go out of their MIT this is called Exile because hasem said for whatever bad thing your children will do he said it to AB ainu I'm going to have to take them to Gom says no please don't take my kids to Gom I don't want them in Gom I don't Gom is hell I don't want them in hell so says okay what do you suggest so says take them to Exile better than Gom I rather than them be in Exile because from Exile they can come out so it was known that we going to MIT MIT is maybe the land of MIT but MIT comes from the word MIM limitations there are many ways to read the word of MIT we learned about it last week we can read it as M yam limit and yam yam is the numerical value of 50 we learned about it last week about the gate the 50th gate can also be read in many different ways but that's the land where we went to MIT now what is MIT really MIT is 49 steps 49 levels of me going down this is called that I'm deteriorating I'm going I'm losing I'm going down I have 49 levels that I can fall to I Fall to number one I will fall to number minus two I mean minus one- 2us 3 m is 49 levels of impurity of jail of un not being free of slavery however you want to call it 49 levels that I'm falling down that's the definition of MIT now I have to climb out of it that's where hasem told I'm going to make the MIT the Exile so hard that they're going to reach to a level that their souls is already going to scream for help take me out of here I can't take it anymore that's the Exile that I have to be put in where Hashem says I'm going to put them in this place that their soul will not going to be able to take it in the beginning the body will suffer a little bit okay fine at some point I'm going to bring them to a level that the soul is screaming that is the MIT and the MIT like I told you it comes from the word MIM something that limits me something that puts me in a limitation that it's making my nefes my soul is limited squeezes my soul and I can't take it anymore and this this limitation can be in my mind can be psychological could be emotional can be physical can be Financial that s is very narrow you put something thick into something narrow it it it squeezes on it this is this pressure that we feel spiritually mentally emotionally whatever it is there is this pressure and you don't have to be carrying bricks to be in Egypt to be a slave this concept of MIT is narrow anything that is narrow gets squeezed in when you squeeze you're not comfortable you're not comfortable when things are very narrow you want things to be spread out and and wi so when I'm in the state of MIT it's squeezing on me now what is really MIT MIT is the state of impurity and it's called in Hebrew tum something that is not pure is impure pure is impure is now T in Hebrew you I'm sure you heard the term many times T is we understand that there something that is impure but T is lack of light there's no Revelation there there's no Godly Revelation there's no anything anything that is the the The Godly Revelation Holiness was removed that's the concept of of tum of impurity which means when I do a sin I remove the Godly light and what happens now now that thing is impure now T also comes from the word in Hebrew atum atum is sealed completely now when I do a I remove the light from where where wherever the sin is there's no light there right now it's impure it's darkness and I cover it now with a cipa with a negative shell with a power of impurity a husk that makes it atum now it's closed can't get in can't get in can't get out something is trapped in something cannot come come from the outside inside this is atum now the word atum in Hebrew has the numerical value of 50 so I'm sorry the the word t not the word t in Hebrew has the numerical value of 50 because we learned last week both in the Zohar class and in another class that there are 50 Gates of impurity and there's 50 Gates of Purity so when a person is T he pulls himself and impure pulls himself to this place of impurity now the opposite in the positive Mak the source of life is Shon the 50th gate that's where mosu climbed to to the source of life and he reached the 50th gate Shon it's called This is the source of Kus the of source of light source of Freedom that's where we want to reach we want to reach Shon that's where Moshe Reno was able to reach now one level before that will be the 49th gate when a person is not 100% free or or or another way to do to describe it it's called a person is sick now in Hebrew has the numerical value of the number 49 is one step less than this Perfection of shanon of of freedom of Health person is Shalom sick he's not free you can have a little scratch on your toe you'll already be limping you have one pain somewhere you you you appreciate your body when you're healthy when you're not healthy you're not really free so the concept of un being not healthy is called has the numerical value of and a person who's sick is not connect connected to the gate to the 50th gate to Shon and then he's lacking something he's experiencing some type of a pain or something now what is comes from the word a space an empty space when a person Shalom does a sin the light comes out of wherever he sined now becomes a space this is called kalal kalal is a space now he's considered sick now what is really that sickness it's called Sila when the light comes out I will now make a certain sin over here then the light gets pulled out now there's no light shining in this in this place so this is called something that is comes from the word now we mentioned that before that we have three levels to look at it I have M I have I have MIT and I have a slave MIT and par now parro last week I told you that par can come from the world orif orif is stiffness another way of reading par has the same letters of we talked about it last week too that is something that disturbs me a disturbance but par also has the same letters of the word parua parua is wild somebody who's completely wild now what is somebody's wild doesn't mean that you like going crazy wild is a person that wants to enjoy as much as possible from everything this is parua that you have no limitations You No Boundaries you open a bag of a of candy you eat the whole bag instead of eating one you open a you cut a cake you eat the whole cake you everything that you do is no limits this is parua in Hebrew they say also somebody who's like wild so has many different angles how to see how is he he controlling me he can control me by being stiff he can control me by being by limiting Me by making me a slave par can be the one that brings all the disturbance in me one way of looking at par is this concept of being wild no limitations completely out of control let me enjoy as much much as I want from whatever I can as much as possible no putting boundaries and limitations because I have the ability doesn't mean I have to do it you see sometimes people they inherit money or they get money they go wild because they have the option why are you buying so many things because I you don't know how to put control you see it mainly in in food and in and in when a person gets a little bit of Freedom then they go completely wild that's unfortunately when you see in families of religious people the child gets a little bit of Freedom they go crazy they they they don't know how to control themselves that's why when it comes to educating religious kids unfortunately in our generation I I would I sadly say that 50% of the religious kids they go off off the D because why because they were so pressed they were slaves in in their way they were so pressed and limited they were was no Freedom there at all that when the second that they got a little bit of Freedom it explode now when a child is being too oppressed no Freedom at all they look to be free and where do they look they look in the wrong place and when then they find it then the wall breaks and like a spring they go crazy so that's totally off the subject but that's in itself a good lesson to take you can't jail the child the child has to be free a little bit has a little bit of Freedom it's a little bit of air if not they're oppressed and then when they go a little bit out they'll go to summer camp they'll go crazy you give them one day without their their limitation they will go completely wild and that's any person like that but this concept of par is is that I have no limitations on in my life I don't know how to set boundaries I don't have a bedtime I don't have a limit I will just put portions of food on my plate on my plate you don't have to eat seven steaks two is also good I don't have limitations in my life so to go out of MIT is to go out of this very distorted habit way of life this is called is broken and this is what happens on L LED is the night that I go out of my MIT out of my bad way of life now we presented in the last 2 3 weeks so many different angles how to look at this slavery about this limitation but I have to recognize in me what's the slavery that I'm in that's why I clean for a month now you might scrub the floors for a month but that's why for every class in the last three weeks we're talking about all the ways that I can recognize where am I in a state of limitation where I have to be I am in MIT because you know why deep down inside I'm not that happy I have all sorts of problems I might have very good over here but I'm suffering over here we're not we're I don't believe that neither one of us is in complete freedom and I might have different levels of the freedom some people are much more free than others but the point is that we're all stuck in some type of a state of limitation whether I'm addicted to my phone whether I'm addicted to food whether I'm addicted to cigarettes maybe I'm addicted to drugs or alcohol that's one type of limitation maybe I'm in a very very bad relationship maybe I hate my job I don't have money there are numerous ways how I can find myself in MIT in a state of limitation sometimes I can have 10 at the same time unfortunately you can have 20 at the same time but I need to recognize what's my limitations where am I stuck where am I a slave that's why I have the four five six weeks of cleaning cleaning my my inside so I can recognize it that's why I told you before that this was the last class that it's all about admitting I have to know to to admit where I'm wrong where I'm stuck it's not easy to say I hate my marriage I hate my boss I hate my life it's very hard to admit because I feel like a loser I feel like a nobody when I say I I hate this I hate that but you have to admit that's why PES comes in the month of Nissan we learned about the month of Nissan the power of Nissan is admitting is knowing how to admit so I need to search my life I have to clean the in my life to be able to say I'm weak here I'm weak here I'm under control here I'm a slave here I'm out of control control here I have to admit this is my clean P cleaning why do I want to do all that cuz I want to come to S to S why is it called why isn't it called night of mat is the night why is it called ever found that word in the Torah no SED is order L is the night of why isn't it called the the night of Freedom the night of Freedom the night of I don't know what eating crackers let that it's called the night of order let's make order I had now four weeks to prepare five six weeks two weeks whatever you took now I'm coming to the special night that's why I keep telling you the preparation is more important than the night not more important just as important because that's when it's happening in less than a week from now I have the ability to be taken out of MIT you know who took the Jews out of MIT Hashem Hashem took the Jews out of I took them out so we have to come ready to let will take me out because if you think that you can take yourself out of your limitation then that's a limitation in itself now repeat that if you think cuz you're all looking at the at the surprise that came in see we just talked about par being a distraction now you all got distracted I lost your Chain of Thought now we're going to have to backtrack 15 minutes sorry it's beautiful garlic it's gorgeous thank you so much you're going to have this one I'm G I think we're going to have this in the times of mashiach already so but this is a classic example that you are all focused and in one second a distraction comes you don't even remember what what I said we can make now a how do you say raise your hands I guarantee to you you don't remember what where we took off okay no you're the you're the the most the most off I said and I'll repeat it again I'll repeat it again if you think you can take yourself out of your own limitation you are in a limitation you cannot take yourself out of your limitation I said AEM only somebody else can take you out of your limitation a prisoner cannot let himself out of his own cell there's no such a thing you can be Superman you can be MacGyver you can be all those Hollywood names you cannot take yourself out of your own cell there's no such a thing this is a rule which means somebody has to take me out of my limitation somebody has to come and tell me what is my problem I mean I can come and say yes I know my problem somebody needs to pull me out I need to come to the place and then either hasem pulls me out or I need to allow somebody to pull me out my spouse my boss my whatever it is I need to only admit I need to admit I am a slave to my phone I am a slave to my job I am a slave to this I'm a slave to that I am a state of limitation here I'm a state of limitation that I am a slave I need to admit Comes the Night of the S and we start making order and if I do my preparation the right way and I clean myets and I follow everything comes the night of the S hasem will take me out of my MIT but I have to follow the order of the sadle you know many things we have to do in the sadle I have to follow the break the break the matah eat the matah put the matah bre the matah put it down push it to the side drink the water drink the wine wash your hands I mean you join us to P you'll see we'll learn why we do everything but look how many things I have to do now put the matah in now pull the matah out now take the matah up now break the matah now eat the mat now put the matah all all these stages drink the wine don't drink the wine drink it now don't drink it Pour it break it did it wash it so I have to go through stages it might s sound like a a religious ritual but we're doing something here we're making order now I want to reach to this 50th gate this Shon cuz I'm stuck in whatever gate of impurity that I'm stuck in and again I'm not saying it to hurt anybody I'm talking about myself we are all stuck in some type of gate of impurity some type of slavery there's no such a thing that I'm not stuck that's what I said before if you think that you have it under control you do not have it under control that is your MIT that's like the alcoholics and drug addicts that says no I it's totally under control it's my 50th cup but I have it under control I I can control my alcohol I can control my drugs I'm just taking it to the extreme but a lot of people think that they can control their life now I mentioned before that the concept of not being in the 50th gate is being in the 49th gate the 49th gate this is called why because the word is the numerical value of 49 now if I'm not in the 50th gate I'm in the 49 means that I'm I'm sick is sick now doesn't mean that I sick that I have a a sore throat it means comes from the word is a space which means there's some empty space in my system now the what is this Emptiness is that I'm missing the 50th gate I'm missing the Shon that's why I'm in the 40th Gates that's why I'm considered cuz I have a now there's a place in the and the tracked of that the says all the the source of all cures is in one verse in thear that's it we try to find all sorts of cures to all our sicknesses the says there's one place in the and it can be find in the tracted says one verse is the source of our health and there's a story about a T that he was sick comes to him his friend he was another stage another T and tolds him are you enjoying your your hardship and he says yes I want to accept on myself the hardship because it's refining me and he says no this is this is not the way to be healed this is not the the way to be refined and the says four words he gave him his hand and he pulled him the says this is the answer to all sicknesses is and he gave to him ye his hand three words these three words have an acronym of Y ye there are 72 names of Hashem 72 holy names of hem each name activates one godly power in the universe if you know how to meditate on these names you know how to actually reach to the level what it can activate this is meditating on holy names of the K I'm not talking about the name I'm not talking about the name I'm talking about the 72 names of hasem it's the combinations of letters if you don't know what I'm talking go to Google write the 72 names of hem and you'll see a picture of the 72 names of Hashem each name is a sophisticated code that can activate and open some chamber in sham one of these names is yud lud and this is the name ofua of health and salvation I told you that a couple times in many different of our classes this name has the power to break a kipa and take the Godly spark out of it okay that's the power of this name isn't it too there's different types of names I'm talking about this name right now this name the name that you said is the name of also but what the name that I'm talking about the power that it has is to to confront the C break the kipa and take the N Out l oh the verse he gave to him his hand pulled him out but the acronym is now a lot of people ask me we're going to Sid check just for a second CU I see that I got your attention many people come and tell me listen I have a problem or I have a loved one that has a problem my child my parent so there are there is a place there is a time and a place when one can pray for somebody else and pray for themselves too and be able to break the kipa that the person is stuck in and I taught that already but I'll just repeat it real fast one of the most supicious times of the week is Friday night shabbat Shabbat on Shabbat between with it's not exactly the entrance of Shabbat it's around that time we say a certain prayer that is called Kabal Shabbat accepting Shabbat and it's usually prayed not in shabat because most congregation they they pray before Shabbat in this prayer we we sing a few Psalms of and then after that we sing the famous song but there are two chapters of that we read before and after one of them is chapter 29 in the end of chapter 29 not the last verse the verse before that there is a verse that says and continues in this verse if you looking meditating on the words Hashem has the exact same acronym hasem you take the you take when you meditate on these three words on the name you stop you meditate on that's the first place then we sing then we have another two chapters of that we read in chapter 91 when we it ends we say it's all the you don't have to check your all the have it everybody has it at the end you have a a verse that says again the acronym these two places when you meditate On's name the and you meditate on the person you want to pray for or yourself even the says that comes breaks the kipa and has the power to pull the N Out of the kipa so this name yud is a very powerful name why because it has the ability to bring us from the state of sickness into the state state of of being well now the sickness is not a sore throat is the state that I'm lacking the gate the 50th gate I Have No Light No phys No spiritual light cuz I I damag that I damage that with my lie I damag that with my my damage that with stealing I damage that with doing all the sins in the book whatever sin I do I damage that spiritual organ and the light comes out that's how a person becomes sick because our organs correspond to to to the mitzvot my limbs and organs they correspond to the positive and negative mitv and I when I do don't do a positive Mitzvah or I transgress I don't do a negative Mitzvah I damage a spiritual organ the spiritual the light goes out of the organ now what happens becomes a void void in Hebrew isal then the person becomes become sick I have a three-hour lecture online you can go and look at it why we become sick not because it's cold outside or there's bacteria outside you know that it's proven that bacterias are actually good people think this is another thing what I told you how we believe everything that we've been told we believe that bacteria is bad we believe that germs are bad germs are not bad you know there are body is 50% if not more bacterias bacterias are good germs are good this is another misconception that we we've been taught the germs are bad somebody goes take your germs away from me so we become sick not because of germs we become sick because of an organ of mine a physical organ that is manifested gets its energy it's it's from a spiritual organ then now the light was removed see all the light is removed from the spiritual organ it manifests into the physical organ no the organ is sick so the sickness comes from the spiritual realm not from the Physical Realm so when I am sick I'm not sick because I have a sore throat or or any type of uh infection the sickness is in the spiritual realm why because I do not have the 50th gate Shon then I come down to the level of of 49 that's it I'm sick right now why cuz there's a void so I need to now reverse that the only night in the year is that's the only night which can be done there's no other night that can be that can do it if you try real hard you can maybe maybe reach to yourself as close as possible but this is the night that only can be done and Hashem does it for you you just have to bring yourself to the point if I don't take myself to the airport the plane cannot take me to the other side of the world I have to bring myself to the airport that's why airports you know Israel has one airport some countries they have many airports we have one airport when I have to fly I have to drive two and a half hours to the airport and I always say why can't there be an airport up in the north we'll make my life easier I have to bring myself to the airport I have to bring myself to the that takes me to work I have to bring myself to to the pickup location Hashem says you have to bring yourself to I already take you out but you have to prepare for that you have to prepare the entire month or month and a half or two weeks whatever amount of time you take yourself to bring yourself to the SED and when you're at the S you have 24 hours or 48 hours if you live outside Israel to tap into that power that will take you out so I need to bring myself to the state of Freedom what is called and the state of freedom is that I'm able the real freedom is that I'm able to fight whatever I want that I don't do whatever I want that I know how to control my urges that's the real Freedom that I can sit now and something is in front of me and I don't pick it up I don't check my phone every 20 seconds to see if I got an email some people get three emails the entire day they check the phone 60 times maybe an email came maybe they they they they repeat themselves so if I'm able to walk out of my home and be without my smartphone for a whole day that's Freedom that a box of a metal box is not controlling me and if I can walk next to the bakery and look and be like okay I don't need now a pound of that's Freedom that I'm able to control my urge or what I want to do I want right now I want to do this so the real freedom is to be able we are taught we we are are uh uh what is it called the victim of the manipulation of society that if I can do whatever I want that is freedom that is not Freedom the freedom is that I'm able to control myself I'm just giving an example with the phone or the anything anything that I just want to do and I feel I I can do whatever I want then to control it that's the real freedom because ultimately i i i i my desire is out of out of control and I have all these wheels constantly I want to eat I want to drink I want to sleep I want to this I want to that constantly the real freedom is to know how to subdue it to control it that's the level I want to reach when I have complete control over my life over my mind and over my thought that is freedom that is the real freedom and not to be impressed or oppressed by situations or or or or things that happen to me so the freedom definition of freedom is that I'm able to oppose what I want to do I'm able to control it I'm able to to subdue my will I'm able to control my will and what what that will do is fill my soul with light that's the only way to get light into my soul if I let go and I do whatever I want that's not going to give me light and most of my problems come because my soul is lacking light that's it the lack of light take a room now turn on one light bulb it's dark you can't really see turn now 50 light bulbs open the windows abundance of light is called a lot of light when I'm s lacking anything it doesn't matter what it is sustance love attention affection whatever it is whenever I'm lacking something it's a lack of light I'm the one who's blocking the light now look what a beautiful sunny day look how much light is in the room take now drapes put it on those windows we're going to diminish the light a little bit now it's going to be a little bit darker take wood board Boards of wood put it against the windows we been diminishing the light even more close the door close the window put the shades down at some point we're not going to have any light here did I affect the light outside no it's just as before I did not affect the light outside I infected affected the inside so I'm the one who's covering all the sources of light so I'm now in the darkness Hashem is not doing anything people say Hashem is punishing me shame is not punishing you you are closing the drapes that's it so now you suffering from lack of light can't control you can't complain Shem is saying I'm giving you and you and you and you I'm giving you all the same by the way we're get the same don't think that if my bank account has one more zero than yours then Hashem is giving me more than you the problem is in the receiver not in The Giver hasem gives equally to everybody this is called or there's a or or there are two types of ways how hasem Shines on the world there's a that it goes in the exact quantity to each thing here there's a little bit less light you see it's animate it doesn't move in a tree there's a little bit more light as the tree grows this is all means to fulfill but we all are being created from or or is a surrounding light so is surrounding it's all equal for me and an ant and a dog and a tree same we all got the same same shef now depends of how much I'm able to receive that's the difference so we all get the same I'm the one who's limiting what I'm getting so I want to fill my my NE with light if I don't do that then I'm lacking light I fall from shanon then I put myself into slavery now I'm not free and the only night that can reverse all that is only is the night that's why you call it SED SED is order I put things in order that I'm able to start creating these channels that through light the light through that the light will start shining into me to go get me out of my MIT get me out of the state of limitation and basically what happens in L just that you understand what's happening that night 49 Gates of purity of Kus of Holiness is just shining on us no barriers no limitations nothing bad can happen that night that's why we keep the door open we are totally protected don't have to put the alarm keep the door open we don't even say you know that that's is thei that everybody's real happy no we don't have to say no we say that's it we don't say we have 100% protection from now I know of course a lot of people will say yeah but you see bad things are happening I the car accidents people get sick heart attacks look at the records things are happening yeah but cuz you're not under the umbrella if you're not under the umbrella you'll get wet that's it very simple if you're under the umbrella you're not going to get wet so yeah bad things can happen on PES why because there's an umbrella a very big umbrella put yourself under the umbrella you're not going to get W nothing's going to happen to you but that night spiritually what's happening 49 Gates I I explained that we have 49 Gates of purity of Kusa we have to climb it that night free it's just showering over you I just have to sit follow the sadle and shower of 49 Gates of Holiness is just shining on me Rising me up to a level of Holiness that I will never be able to reach by myself Hashem came into MIT and took them out of MIT they just had to prepare themselves they were standing with their backpacks we're ready now take me that's it that's what I need to do I need to bring myself to the point of of pickup the pickup location Shem will already pull me out that's why I have to clean and not only clean my floor clean my heart and clean my mind and clean my ego and clean my everything my inclinations doing accounts that's why I keep repeating it over and over you have to bring yourself to a point of admitting I don't know even know the noun of admitting admit admit how would you call it admissions how would you say it in English admission I don't know doesn't matter you get the point you have to bring yourself to a point of admitting I can't stand that person I have to forgive him I can't stand that person I have to tolerate their their their mess I can't stand this I can't stand that I can't hold myself I'm here I have to admit all my problems so I can do it myself Hashem says you're going to admit I'll take you out I I I'll I'll refine you if I coming to to the with the ego out of control I didn't kill my myets I didn't clean myets in order for me to admit I have to lower myself to have 100% humility humility like to humbleness and then is going to take me out of my MIT but if I come with a little bit of into isn't going to do anything so I have to bring myself to the SED like that now what happens is that when I come to the S and I'm 100% humble I clean my not left physical humet the humet in me I'm 100% humble I admit I accept I'm willing the light that comes down in L hasem breaks all the cipot all the cipot can be broken in that night with the power of the name of why because it's sh is the Americal value of 50 is 10 L is 30 you have 50 sh comes down on on amazingly you'll see that even in you have the letters of so the the 50th gate is open Hashem can pull me out to this 50th gate I just have to prepare I cannot if I will sick sit home all day long and say I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick I'm sick and but I will not take myself to the doctor the doctor can't help me even though today you have applications and you Skype with the doctor but the reality is that if I am sick and I'm aware that I'm sick but I do not take myself to the doctor the doctor can't help me so I have to bring myself and on the night of L 49 Gates of purity of Holiness are shining on me if I tap my into it all the cipot all these husks this energy that I'm trapped into can be broken completely broken I can start brand new start that's I have I have a whole week that it should start affecting all my mid there's a lot to it but after that we're going to have we're going to have seven weeks to learn a lot about how I start refining myself but first it has to be broken has to be completely an olded and that's the only opport opportunity to break out of my kipa once a year once a year I have the opportunity that any kipa that I'm stuck in can be broken so I have a few days yet to prepare yes you have to clean your your your kets because even if in the physical level I have kets it means that in the spiritual level I can't get rid of it and hasem says I can only do the operation when you're 100% clean you know how sometimes you go to an operation they you know what they tell you you have to fast cuz we need all the toxins out of your body we can't have any foreign thing in your system in order to to to operate yeah but you need to cut a little thing in my toe you need to fast S I need you to fast need you to come clean to the little that's why we burn the kets hours before P technically we should have burned the kets when we light candles right before the no you burn it way before you clean the the night before 24 hours before we do the little that's our fast our spiritual fast of course so you don't have to take all these details that I just told you I know we spoke about so many different details and in all the previous classes but this is your ticket your ticket for Freedom you have to understand what is the freedom what is the definition of freedom in my life and this year I want to be free I want to be free of debt I I want to be free of emotions I Want to Be Free of bad relationships I Want to Be Free of anything that puts me down this that's the tonight that's the night that can achieve it so we still have 6 days [Music] AC exactly anything that gets you out of the state of limitation is is the real freedom and again Freedom can be explained in in a wrong way by saying I'm free to do whatever I want that's not the real Freedom if you want to make a quick definition of the freedom freedom is that I'm in control that's it if I'm not in control of my will of my thoughts of my desires of anything I'm not afraid if I cannot control my anger I'm not afraid if I cannot control my jealousy I'm not free if I cannot control my urge to this beautiful Tasty Cake I'm not free so Freedom equal control I know how to control I control my urge my inclination my desire My lust my anger my frustration I know how to control it I'm under control if something is controlling me I'm not free this is it so you take this definition and you apply it to your life and you see where are you not free and if you don't have control over something you're not free and don't feel that you're are anything worse than other nobody's free I don't think there's anyone free we're all slave to something many atude atude you have to you have to simplifies the the what I just said don't don't over complicate it of course there there's anything can be rooted and explain more you have to take the the Bold concept that I just said and you have to point where you are not under control in a situation that you can be in control if you are in a situation that you cannot be under control because it's in the hands of hem then it's not nothing to do with you but you know what if you are opposing it then you're still not letting hasem control the situation but you have to simplify what I said don't over complicate it take anything that can be under your control that you don't have control that's where you are not free and you make yourself your own analogy and trust me you do it the right way you will find your you have to be very humble you have to be very willing to admit and you have to be very willing to accept and you will make a list and you'll see where you are not in control and where you are not free and you will pray for that that AEM this year I want you to to make me free why do we say sh you know that 800,000 people live in that's what they're saying a false testimony I can drive down to I'll hope on the train on the play on a bus represents the G Freedom so he say sh I want to be completely free this because you know that the the real is Al not Al Al is the physical Al is the spiritual so I have now the entire year in front of me so I say for the coming year I want to be in state of freom not I'm not waiting now another 365 days no this coming year p is over this is the sh coming I want to be in the state of Freedom so I want to make myself a list whether it's on my on a note on a paper on my mind but I want to make a list AEM I Want to Be Free of this I Want to Be Free of this I Want to Be Free of this and if you prepare yourself Hashem will'll pull you out Hashem will make you free that's a guarantee we should all be free we should reach the ultimate Freedom the ultimate Redemption that we were not going to be need to to battle any of our battles of of of being a slave to something we should really concentrate on our task and with hashem's help with our prayers and and actions Hashem will make all of us free to reach the state of Freedom the state of being not sick it's opposite of state of unconditional and unbelievable and the ultimate health and freedom should really take advantage of this next week and advantage of and and take it to the extreme and know that this is our opportunity it's a one one in a year opportunity to to to ride the the train take the opportunity to ride the wave however you say it and we we we will be able to do it and this year we will celebrate the last PES in Exile hopefully we already celebrated the last p in Exile last year and this year we should celebrate in bet mdash [Music]