My visit to hell and back - Rabbi Alon Anava

Now our sages teach us it says in the Mishna that when a person shalom does a sin he creates himself a prosecutor and goes up to Shamim and prosecutes against him. The same Mishna also says that if a person does a good deed then he creates himself a defense attorney. I don't know where I had the nerve. I like look to my left and I see like battalions, battalions, rows of these prosecutors, these scary angels with files like this. Every sin that I ever did is they're standing there. Thousands of them. And I I don't know how I got the the and I look to my right and I see two defense attorneys. One was crippled, the other one was blind. The third one didn't want to show up that day. And I'm saying it in a funny way, but it wasn't funny at all. And they're kind of telling me, "You want to say something before we start?" I'm like, "What to say?" And at this point, they're starting to show me the movie of my life. From the day I was born till that day, they're showing me my entire life. Every little thing in my life is pointed out and everybody's there, including all you. Everybody's there. And they're pointing out, here you stole, here you lied, here you cheated, here you cursed, here you took this without permission, here you did this, here you did that. Every person that I ever lied to is standing right next to me. Why did you lie? Every person that I stole from is standing next to me. It was you. Why? Why? I used to steal from my mom money to buy cigarettes when I was a little teenager. She's standing next to me. Why? Why did you steal money from me? Every person that I ever cheated in business is standing right there. It was you. Now, in this world, when you get caught, most people, they have thick skin. They don't care. It doesn't work like that in the world above. I didn't even know what to do with me, with myself. Here we don't take the severity of the sin so seriously. Okay, who cares? It's not who cares when you're facing it. It's not who cares. There's no words to express even the feeling that every little thing that I ever did is out in the open and everybody saw it. Imagine the things that's going on in the depth of your mind, everybody knows it. Every person you look at and you curse them because they did something, they know it. Every person that you were putting on a smile and in your mind you were thinking other things, they're there. They know everything. Every little thing like a horror movie. Here you stole. Here you lied. Here you took. Here you I'm like, "Stop the movie. We got the guy. We got the point. The thing is that they didn't only show me what I did in this world. Here you stole. Here you cheated." That was the eh not so bad. They showed me the physical sin. Here he is. So, and right away they showed me the spiritual blemish that was caused by the sin. And I'll tell you what I mean. [Music] Heat. Heat. [Music]