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God's watching >> Very late in the year, baruch Hashem. And we only have a few a few more days to learn to learn Torah together for this year, for this month. And I want to learn there's a gemara I would like to learn with the chevre. On Shavuos I said Yizkor and and I felt very very connected to my father. And and I like running to Maseches Nedarim cuz that's Maseches I was zocheh to learn with my tata. And I want to learn a piece of Maseches Nedarim that's connected to this week's parshas Nasso. This coming parsha has the parsha of nazir in it. This sugiyah of nazir is a fascinating sugiyah of nezirus. Very interesting person, the nazir. A nazir A nazir is Akiva, somebody who accepts nezirus. Stam nezirus is shloshim yom. Somebody accepts nezirus, the stam is 30 days. And though nezirus, the guy who accepts not to drink yayin, I'm not having wine. He's not metamei meison. He can't become tamei meis. It's a certain separation from this world. The not being able to be tamei meis is a sign that he's at a very holy space. And it's a it's a certain status. He's not drinking yayin is a certain detachment from this world. >> Why? Why yayin? Why guys like they need a break from the >> I love that. I love that, Akiva. That's that's like so sophisticated. I promise. And these things are why is yayin like of all things, wine? That's so powerful. If you By the way, in machshava what yayin is, how is yayin spelled? How do you spell yayin? How do you spell it? How do you spell it, though? What? Yud yud nun. What's the gematria of yod yod nun? 70. It's 70. It's very interesting that 70 represents the 70 umas. It's very physical, very rooted here. But very very rooted here in this world. Yayin Yayin is the even the icy icy yayin are very flat. Representing dime the dimension of this world, not the penimius. Not There's no words There's no letters with circles in yayin. It's very It doesn't have that The yayin is a yod Yeah, straight. Yod yod and nun is very straight, representing icy us that don't have the penimius in it. It's interesting cuz somebody who drinks yayin is nekes yayin yatsa side. From yayin you could get to places of of penimius. But yayin is represents very physical. And why yayin represents that is very very fair. And the nazir who feels that he's too caught up in this world says, "I'm not going near yayin." Akiva, yes. I didn't say much. It's a good question. Akiva needs to be studied why yayin represents that. But the nazir who feels that he's too attached to this world disassociates from yayin. It's interesting Akiva that one of the things that the nazir is he gives up his hair. A nazir besides detaching from yayin, besides that he's not in the tuma masem, after the 30 days he shaves off all his hair. Which also is interesting. Why is hair represent so physical? But the nazir who detaches from this world gives up his hair. I want to study this gemara. I'd like to study. So it's interesting. One of the things the nazir gives up is his hair. Today we do not have nazirus. You could accept nazirus. You just can't get out of nazirus. Cuz the way Adam Nazirites is with carbonas, we have no carbonas. If somebody accepts an Nazir today is a Nazir for his whole life. There was a Talmud of Rav Cook who was called the last Nazir, the last Nazarite. And he accepted Nazirites. He was a Nazir. He never shaved his head cuz you shave that after the carbonas. So during Nazirites you can shave your hair. And at the end of Nazirites you take off your hair. What? A Nazir is a commitment somebody could take on. They won't drink wine. They won't be metamelamaysim. At the end of their period of Nazirites they bring carbonas and they shave off their hair. That's a Nazir. A Nazir is a is a Nazir a good thing or bad thing? There were big there were Nazirum that were big big tzadikim. It's a dangerous thing Nazirites. So we'll discuss that a bit. Let's see Gemara about Nazir. It's in this week's parsha. It's a It's a commitment. It's an neder. Yechiel, I want to study a little about a Nazir, Yechiel. So I want to learn a Gemara. One could be a Nazir today. The reason nobody does it is cuz you can go in, you can't come out. The way Adam Nazirites is with carbonas, we don't have a base hamikdash. We don't have the carbonas. It's a re-engagement with the world because clearly the Nazir feels you Let's read the story. I think this story is a good window. What's the Nazir trying to do? Who is the Nazir? Let's learn a little about the the Nazir to understand them better. So let's learn a Gemara test on the base in the daram. And let's see if if this provides some window. Tanya, we learned in a braisa. Omar of Shimon HaTzaddik or Shimon HaTzaddik. There's a gears of Rebbe Shimon where it's We don't really call him Rebbi. Amora Shimon HaTzaddik. It's very interesting if guys noticed we call some Amora and we typically call Rev. Rev Shayshes, Rev Ashi. We call many many Amora and Rev. A lot of Tannaim don't get the title Rev. You notice that? Hillel, we don't say Rev Hillel, we call him Hillel. Shammai, we of course we don't say Rev Shammai. Many Tannaim Shimon HaTzaddik we call Shimon HaTzaddik. You don't say Rev Shimon. There is Rev Shimon bar Yochai. But what? Shemaya and Avtalyon the rebel Rebbi of Hillel the Rebbi of Hillel and Shammai is called Shemaya and Avtalyon. We don't give them titles. It's so fascinating. Today Yeah, it is a good notice that Tannaim are typically Rebbi and Amora are typically Rev. That's because in order to get the title Rebbi you need Smicha and there wasn't Smicha in Bavel. So the the ones from Eretz Yisrael are called Rebbi. The ones from Bavel are called Rev. THEY DIDN'T HAVE SMICHA. >> WOW. WHAT? >> YOU TELL ME. I don't know. >> You never taught me that. >> I'm asking you. I'm asking you. >> I didn't know that. That's so cool. >> Why why does some have names some not get a title Rev Ezri? >> Abaye and Rava also they're Amora. >> Abaye and Rava. The only reason I didn't bring up Abaye and Rava is cuz neither one it wasn't their name. And Rava is Rava is some title of Chashivus. Rava's name was not Rava. Rava's name was Revina. So Rava is some sort of title of Rava. Abaye's name is Nachmani. So Abaye those are like titles of honor. Most Amora are called Rev. A lot of Tannaim don't have the title Rev. What do you say to that that they don't have a title? Come back. What do you say to that, Ari? >> Think about it. >> Think about it. It's good that you think that's interesting that there are big tsaddiqim who have no titles. I It's interesting. Moshe Rabbenu, we say Rabbenu. So, we say Reb Moshe Rabbenu. We say higher than Reb Rabbenu. Moshe gets a title. Aaron, we do say Aaron Some people call him Aaron, but Aaron Aaron. Aaron. So, there's a title. But there's a people we don't give title. Yeshua, we call Yeshua. It's a Yeshua. Feels like disrespectful. Say Reb Yeshua, you say Yeshua. We call the great >> the talmid of Moshe? >> Yeah, we don't give >> I think they're like lights that we can't It's inappropriate. >> So, Reb Ezri says calling everybody Rav is saying I'm like relating. It's interesting. I've been asked in my life to speak before somebody speaks to introduce somebody. There were certain people I did not like introducing my father. Well, like if my father spoke in shul, it was very uncomfortable. He was much bigger than I could put words to. I wouldn't want to say, "Okay, let me introduce my Please, like he's bigger than I could give over to you. Rav is like in a certain way you're relating Rav somebody like this in a way you're relating when it's like higher than you could relate, you just I I don't give like a speech on them. So, it's interesting. Reb Ezri is saying Yeshua like I'm not I'm not defining this, explaining this. There is such a thing. There is such a thing. It needs studies when we give a name, when we don't give a name, when do we decide to call somebody Rav? But it's interesting here in parentheses it says Reb Ishmael the Tsaddiq. But the everything's very exact. He's called Ishmael the Tsaddiq. Now, he gets a title. He's called Tsaddiq. That is highly uncommon. Who's known as Tsaddiq? Who do we give the title Tsaddiq to? Chazal. Yeshua the Tsaddiq. Yeshua is called Yeshua the Very few others in history get the name Tzadik. There was one of the Gaonim who was called Binyamin HaTzadik. He was called Tzadik. Shimon called Shimon HaTzadik. That's what people call him. I always wanted the worst. It's funny when somebody calls you Tzadik. It's always very like it's like it's very almost demeaning. Tzadik called Tzadik. It's like a patronizing like shut up. But but some Tzadikim get the title Tzadik. It's interesting. Things are very exact in Yiddishkeit. Yeshua gets Yeshua HaTzadik. Yeshua HaTzadik called that. Shimon HaTzadik The Rashba in one place quotes a Gaon and calls him Binyamin HaTzadik. One of the Gaonim. The Gaonim are before. The Gaonim were this period before What? I'm sorry. Before the Rishonim, there was a period of the Tzadikim were called the Gaonim. Rav Hai Gaon and Rav Sherira Gaon was a period before the Rishonim of Gaonim. And one of the Gaonim was called Binyamin HaTzadik. Got the title Tzadik. Now What? The Rashba seems this is what he was called. People called him. Now it's a rare title that Klal Yisrael bestows. Shimon HaTzadik earns the title Shimon HaTzadik. One could study this. Why did he get the title Shimon HaTzadik? And it's not patronizing. We don't just throw it around. We we call Yeshua. You don't say Yehuda HaTzadik. Yehuda [snorts] is Yehuda. Shevet Shimon is Shimon. Yeshua gets Yeshua HaTzadik. Shimon gets Shimon HaTzadik. These titles and the way we call our Tzadikim are very very important. I dare say not I dare say it's Torah itself. Everything in the Gemara is Torah. Here Shimon is called Shimon HaTzaddik. That's Tyra. He's called in Gemara and yet when I It's interesting when you learn Tyra and and I want W to start working on this. When you learn Gemara, people think there's a certain thing to focus on and there is certainly in a Sugya you have in in the world of in the world of Nigleh, so there's the heart of the Sugya and you don't want to lose focus. Like get to the main point of the Sugya. In the world of Nistar and the the Lubavitcher Rebbe held it's the iker of limud. That word tzaddik says Gemara some lamdish shishila I'll have. It's worthy of notice noting that Shimon is called Shimon HaTzaddik. >> What about Noach? >> Noach ish tzaddik. I don't think in the the Tyra says a praise about him. It's a eulogy. It's a praise on him. Zecher tzaddik livracha. I don't think he's called Noach HaTzaddik. Hashem at one point mentions him and says he's a tzaddik. No No tzaddikim don't quote Noach and say Noach HaTzaddik. Yosef when we speak about Yosef we say Yosef HaTzaddik. When we speak about Shimon we say Shimon HaTzaddik. The Gemara quoting Shimon calls him Shimon HaTzaddik. So that's certainly where the Mishnah is also as well. Shimon HaTzaddik al meshiach Yisrael knesset hagdolah. So it says like this. Amar Shimon HaTzaddik. Shimon HaTzaddik says, "Miyamai my whole life lo yakhalati asham nazir tamei. I would never eat if a nazir would become tamei. When he became tamei he had to bring carbonos. I would never eat from the carbon el achad one time. One time I considered this an exceptional nazir and usually I would not eat from the carbon of a nazir. That was a chumra of Shimon HaTzaddik. He was worried the guy would regret his nazirus. The Rishonim explain and as such he would not eat from the carbon. There was a shash that it was like that it wasn't really that it was something profane cuz the nazi would regret his nazirus. >> Oh. >> He said one time I ate from the carbon nazi or tummy this was a different kind of nazi. So the bottom line is shimon at sad marks. He's going to tell you the story of a nazi. You hear I want you to hear the story that shimon at sad said this nazi breaks every rule I have. This is like the shpits the epitome of a nazi and listen to the story. So let's I think when we want to study what a nazi is especially I want to learn a good usage usage of nazirus. Let's study this nazi that shimon at sad said every other nazi that would become tummy I was afraid of him. Because I was worried he would regret his nazirus and as such his carbon's not pure. This nazi I ate his carbon he was a different kind of nazi. What was the story? Pamachas one time. Ba adam here we're going to learn. I've been a little vague till here we're going to learn. It's in the garden testament base. What? That's a good question. I like that question. Ephraim wants to know was this something common was this weird were there a lot of nazirum back in the day? That's a very thoughtful and good question. I don't know the answer. It's a very good question. Was nazirus like an everyday people like oh I'm a nazi the next was a 30 day commitment you could do longer. Was this like the stam nazi was this like common like you walked into base mashin your friend you came that day and he said I'm a nazi the next month. It's a very good question. I first want to study what's the good nazi what's the energy and then but it's a worthy of thinking about oh very worthy. Was this a common thing to do nazirus? Was this something What did you say? >> I'd say it's mash my yak cuz he said I never ate from a Nazir if it was a thing. >> For sure it existed, but him saying he was very nervous of it and the Nazir becomes Tommy, oh he's going to regret it. So they had to be very thoughtful to be a Nazir. Don't do it quickly. It's for sure it's for sure it wasn't simple to be a Nazir. We're going to see soon that it's not a halacha it's not something you should do just that's to be a reason to be a Nazir. That's what I want to bring out from the story. So you ask how common I think it's very important a person who wanted to serve Hashem didn't just quickly become a Nazir you'll see in the story. Let's read the story. One time I like the guy who was I like the guy who was from the south. But there was a Nazir who came to Shimon HaTzaddik there was one time a man came he's a Nazir from the south. He's a Nazir from the south. I saw this Nazir he had very nice eyes. He had a good complexion he was a good looking fellow and his hair was very neatly braided. So this good looking fellow is physically good looking has a good complexion and he had nice eyes and his hair was very neatly braided. His hair is very neatly braided. So a Yid comes good looking Yid comes to Shimon HaTzaddik. Immediately like the conversation is fascinating and it really speaks to Ephraim's question. This Yid comes as a Nazir what Shimon HaTzaddik responds to a Nazir should be woah. You know a guy is striving you don't put down somebody striving. Somebody striving you stand up there's an Indian of carbon of a Talmud one rises for a Talmud. Very interesting Shimon outside responds to an Aussie this good looking fellow comes to Shimon outside and Shimon outside sees this good looking fellow and he says to the year he attacks a little bit. I said to the Nazir a mighty my son. Mara that's interesting. I am moved that he said by my son. I'm very moved by that beneath I should say it right beneath my son. I'm very moved that he called him my son that he spoke so nice. My son I'm around didn't stand you too much Shimon outside every word is measured this beneath my son. You met a guy and he said the guy came and I don't beneath means there was ever love tremendous endearing. I think it's very important cuz Shimon outside is going to give him a lesson. And before you give somebody must if you don't love the person be quiet. Don't say anything. You have nothing to teach. You don't love the person. You have nothing zero but not fake. Not fake. Not a nice trick before you give it a lesson. If you don't love the person well you have nothing to teach them. If you're not amazed, if you're not impressed by them one of the other that it's your mayor says if somebody talks in school and you see a person is a talker don't say word. He said go work on yourself. One of the daily the tires says if a guy talks in school and you turn around you're like this guy comes in and talks. He said don't give a lesson. He said go on a walk and work on yourself. Ask yourself your insecurities. What are you insecure? Why are you so ashamed that somebody talks or you just insecure your own status, your own place in shul, you don't dive in the stark play. What's your deal? Go go work on yourself. If you see a guy talking and you see us I get it okay to shul. His mom is good looking. He's a good looking guy. Your mom is impressed with him. And then like a year in the middle of diving in, you know, you shouldn't talk in the middle of diving in. As that guy like you, a guy like you shouldn't talk. If that's what you feel, then you should share that with the year. Share that with the year. First of all, say shalom aleichem. Shimon HaTzaddik has mussar to give this nazir. What comes out first is benei mamash, a tremendous tremendous ahavah. And specifically he's about to give mussar. It's not a trick. Before you give mussar, butter a guy up. Tricks don't work. It's expressing It's telling us And chazal don't always tell us the whole story. Gemaras don't say every word that was said. Here that what he saw is benei mamash. I love you. Wow. So Shimon HaTzaddik felt a tremendous kiruv to this person. And yet he gives him mussar and he says to this yid, "Mah ra'isa Me'ichas teisei ya, cutting off your hair? Zeh hanah'ah, this pleasure? Amazing response to seeing a nazir. If you see somebody learn Torah, you just respect, appreciate he's learning Torah. Beautiful. If you go to makom kadosh, you go to a holy space. Somebody goes to say to daven by the Rebbe's kever and sees another yid come, you're like, "Wow, impressed." You don't lecture him. He sees a nazir whose commitment is to shave his head, Shimon HaTzaddik gives him mussar. So we have to start That's what we're going to study right now, Akiva. But I want to express that what Shimon HaTzaddik's first response is mah ra'isa me'ichas teisei. We had a guy in Yeshiva key that beautiful flaming red hair. Beautiful lady had a beautiful head of hair. When he got a haircut the whole Yeshiva was like upset. I remember. He came in and was like and it was like a stickle timer. You didn't ask me. >> [laughter] >> The whole Yeshiva like felt like a very big disappoint. I think the guy is staying kosher from everybody. Akiva would say I'm getting a buzz cut. I didn't have to go around the best match give the person my first say such a nice head of hair. My father my father was he had a beautiful head of hair and he was proud of it till You look at me till the end he my mission a beautiful and he was proud of it. His hair went up and stood beautifully upright had a beautiful head of hair and was proud of it. A nice hair beautiful. And it could be I live vicariously. Yeah, I like a guy is a good job a youngster. It's wonderful. Wonderful. A person should be into their looks very much. Looks are very important very. No, no, don't listen to that. Shimon HaTzaddik didn't say in us to be into his looks. He attacked the Nazir. Said Marisa said Rebbe I don't understand. What did you see La Hachnasas Sakin called it Hachnasas. What are you destroying at the end of the Nazirite? It doesn't say how long his Nazirite was. Let's say it's 30 days. Standard Nazirite is 30 days or a person can make it for whatever time they want. At the end of the Nazirite they shave their head and Shimon HaTzaddik did not agree to that. He sees this Yid says Marisa Merchiteces. La Hachnasas Sakin I'm going to destroy your hair Zeh Hana'ah it's a pleasure. Merchiteces. There is such a thing. We have to analyze what a Nazirite is. He says why is this here in the story? What is it? Probably was unkempt. Yeah, it probably the assumption was if he's completely accurate a Nazir forever does not the only thing I could say is a Nazir forever can never shave. So could be that both that you're not keeping your hair nice. A Nazir can never shave so could be even it's a good question. He said what did you see to destroy it? I'm assuming he means the shaving it off. It could be meant that even while you're a Nazir I don't know but the assumption was according to me it's not a Nazir Olam. If you learn that it wasn't shaving it off then that is not not Not yet clearly this year he said I ate from it so but not I hear I hear I hear I hear. It's funny cuz in this story it just says but the other cuz that's that was the end he describes how much he held to the guy. I don't know at this point. He's narrating. I'm not sure maybe maybe in the story it doesn't say so I don't know perhaps perhaps it's a good question it's a fair question. Did he see that Ruben Yona is saying Rebbe yes he didn't see him destroying him if he's a Nazir forever he's not going to shave so Ruben Yona says that he had already come with his animal and it makes sense because it starts the story that this one even though he became from his carbon so he came with his carbon. That's all I was saying he said What do you say Rebbe? What? That's the shaila it sounds like but it doesn't say did he come to the Mikdash it doesn't say but the did he come to the Mikdash to end it, so then that's Hashem. Yeah. The bottom line is is that Shimon HaTzaddik asked him, "Are you sad?" "What did you see? My father would teach us often that when we enjoy the world, Hashem wants us to enjoy the world." My father would quote at the Yerushalmi at the end of the first perek of Kedushin, which says Hashem's going to take us to din on pleasures he made. Why didn't you enjoy? I made a world, I wanted you to enjoy. My father would teach us, it's the end of the first perek of mem in Kedushin, the end of the first perek in the Yerushalmi, it says that Hashem is going to demand from us, "I made nice things, why didn't you enjoy?" I remember when my father go He liked Hashem's world a lot. He liked seeing climbing mountains and observing, loved water, and he would absorb and appreciate Hashem's world and feel the kindness of Hashem. He liked water specifically, liked mountains, liked the outdoors. He went up with my mother, and this is somebody who used his time very intensely and didn't waste minutes. He went to see the Alps on one trip back from Eretz Yisrael, and he said to my mother that Hashem made the Alps. He said, "Hashem's going to ask me, you didn't go see my Alps?" Hashem's going to want us to have pleasure, to enjoy his world, to enjoy what we eat. Reb Miller Reb Akiva Miller, who enjoyed simple things of life, understood that Hashem wants me to enjoy. Hashem wants me to have this thing. I have said here I have said here, and I want to express this, that we say in the morning we thank Hashem for the world, she'asani kol tzarki. Hashem provides my needs. The word li is completely extra. We should say, "Thank you, Hashem, she'asa kol tzarki, who provides my needs." You don't have to say it provides for me my needs. Providing my needs means to give it to me. If he gives it to Ari, then provide Sha'asa kol tsarki, Hashem provides all my needs. The word "li" if you say thank you Hashem for providing my needs, nobody has to say thank you Hashem for providing me my needs. Me is completely extra. You didn't provide my needs if you gave it to Ari, then you provide Ari's need. Providing my needs by its nature means he gave it to me. So, what's the word Sha'asa kol tsarki? Sha'asa he provides kol tsarki, all my needs. What does that mean in English? He gives it to me. So, the "li" is totally extra. And the pshat, the simple So, you hear the question, Akiva, every morning we thank God, Baruch atah Hashem, u'kein umalel olam she'asa li kol tsarki. Who made for me, who provides for me all my needs. The word "li" is like totally extra. Sha'asa kol tsarki means he provides my needs. What does it mean to provide my needs? To give it to me. Some of them say provides me all my needs. Provides my needs. Sha'asa kol tsarki. I think when you say provides me all my needs, why you say provides all my needs? Provide my needs means to give it to me. That's what it means in English. Sha'asa kol tsarki provides all my needs. What Sha'asa li kol tsarki? So, I think it's very important and this is something like to live with this. Tzaddikim live Reb Miller lived this way. My father lived this way. They I When I say live this way, I can't swear that every second of their life they had this hakara, but it was very clear that they live with this recognition. >> Wow. >> When we go When we enjoy something, it wasn't like Hashem put it here. You know, you got a lunch. Was the cook thinking about you? I don't know. The cook made lunch. She put out soup and you enjoyed it. It was wonderful. I don't know when the cook was thinking was making it thinking about you. You'll see when you get married, the craziest thing. I promise you'll experience this. You go home early and there's like a meal that was made for you. It's freaky. It wasn't There was not lunch at home and like, "Okay, you had lunch." Your wife is going to think about you, "It's well I make what you like." And made you lunch. It's a different thing. >> Yes. >> It's not you walked into room. There was a lot of food and you partook. It was made for you. Thought about you. Providing me my needs has the mashmais that it was intended for me. Hashem doesn't have There's a good world and anybody takes, you could take, too. >> it. >> He doesn't put a lot in the world and you partake. It's not the energy. The energy is thinking about you. Hashem made it for you. My mish thinking about you, thinking about me. When we go and enjoy a lunch, Hashem was thinking about us and it was made for me in every detail in getting that food to here was thought about me. Shaas Ali >> tried here. >> What do you say? >> Or he just tried here. >> That explain. >> Or he just put out food and like tried. >> So that's the important point that Hashem is thinking about us. Beshvil Inivra Alam says that Hashem made a whole world just for me. And was thinking about me in the creation. I wasn't like another The whole world was done just for me. The whole world was done That's Beshvil Inivra Alam. So the energy of Shaas Ali I'll tell you guys I was thinking. Now by the way, you understand what Shem Na'at Tzadik is saying. So that's weird. My father went to Rav Yaakov Kamenetsky and Rav Yaakov offered him some cake. My father said, "No, no, no, no." He didn't want to do it. Godol he said, "No, no, no." Rav Yaakov said, "It's not nice." What? Tell him, "It's not nice." That's not nice. The Rabbitson made something. Take. It's not nice. It's not like simple to say. Somebody makes for you. One day you come home, your wife cooked you lunch. It's not nice to say no. She made a few. Not nice. All of a sudden, you understand Shimon HaTzaddik's question. Shimon HaTzaddik had a kasha. If you don't live like this, Shimon HaTzaddik's not joking. He said you shaved Hashem gave you some. That's not nice. He gave you something. He wants you to have it. He wants you to have it. Somebody's good looking, Hashem wants him to have it. You just shaved it. What are you talking? Mar is a lash of say I don't know. That was a pleasure. I should have said nice. He attacks. Mar is a Tell me your story. This is strange. Hashem handed you something. There was a reason. He wants you to have it. This was intended. It's not by accident. It's not by accident. Absorb something. See something. It was intended for you. Hashem really wanted you to have it. That's not simple. It's somebody Hashem gives us things that he thought about me. Say no, no. Enjoy. It's not nice. Should made a few Shimon HaTzaddik says this to the Yid. He's giving Mar so so then we're exposed to the Avah. The name I son is tremendous love. But then he attacks and he says in in complete Avah you're a beautiful Yid. Mar is a lash of say I don't know. Why do you destroy your hair? What's What is happening here? That was not the compliment. Well, I'm impressed. And Nazir was not It was a stickle attack. So the Yid says his story. Amarti So he says back why you do it. So Amari So this Nazir responds to Shimon HaTzaddik and he says this is my story. I was a shepherd for my father in my city. I was a shepherd for my dad. That's That was his job. This Nazir, this beautiful person, was a shepherd for my father in my city. Halakti le malais mayim min amayin. And he went He said I went. says his story. I went to fill water from a Mayan a Mayan is a well is an underground spring. He went to fill up water he's a shepherd after all he's going to feed his animals. And I went to fill up water and I saw my reflection my Yetsi Hara jumped on me. It wanted to destroy me. Now this is the way I understand the Gamara nobody's Mashoba to learn this way. Gamara's are teaching us things. I understand he was a shepherd for his father and his city is like the ultimate small time job. He's a shepherd for his dad like you could get out there a shepherd itself is not like the hottest job in the world. He's a shepherd for his father in his own city. I was a he says the Russian he says I was um I was a shepherd for my my father my own city. It's like to me the lowest like a guy a guy is like manages a grocery store that's not the biggest job but again a guy can manage like the big the big time grocery store. He manages the ultimate mom and pop shop. He's a royal Abba be Eerie. I'm watching my father's animal in my city like his father might have a big business and he does major he's a royal Abba be Eerie the ultimate small time job and he's shepherding doing his little in in his corner. He sees his reflection in the water. And he and the Yetsi Hara jumps and he wants to destroy me from the world. His Yetsi Hara said you're a good looking guy. You are way over qualified for this job. I have seen this yet Sahara many times in my life. I think this is chat. I think it's simple chat. Many, many people did like great things and then the guy gets in his head, you're much too qua A guy is a third grade rebbe for 40 years. The holiest people then somehow he says to himself, you're much more qualified than this. See yet Sahara? He says to himself, you could do a lot more than this. This is this all your talents for this? It's a very dangerous. We have an item. Yeah, maybe it will and any any any sophisticated person should be overqualified. >> him. >> Anything >> [laughter] >> That was like on cue a little bit. >> You're in big trouble, bro. >> [applause] [cheering] >> Leo, you like walked in on cue Pasha like that. Every every big person every every big every person every job, you know, you want a guy you want somebody you want your third grade rebbe. The best rebbe in the world could teach much more than they give over. That's like the Spitz rebbe. I'm the most impressed when I see a Talmud chacham teach only 30 or 20 or 10% of what he knows about a topic, that's a real Talmud chacham. When somebody like throws in everything they know when they teach, that's a typically a small person insecure. The main thing they might they don't mean bad doesn't pass so but maybe maybe the main point their suggies to teach how big they are. That's not the best thing to teach. Teach Torah, don't teach how big you are. Teach Torah. >> Teach Torah. >> Hashem's Torah, Hashem's Torah. The best rebbe know a lot about a matter and teach a little about it. Who said you should teach everything you are you teaching how big you are or you're teaching tire? And here this person has like the small time job and he sees his reflection and big issue tardanium and I am a wants to destroy my world. Did you see yourself? You're like you could you could make it to the bigs. You are much bigger this? That's what this Nazir has a sense that I'm that that his good looks and his beautiful hair remember his tight ray. He's your fame is is is is is good size of sedoris like tall tall them. And when he sees who he is he says you're you're meant for the big time. This? All you have for this? And he says he sees it as big issue with tardanium and I am a you're destroying me from my world. I'm designed I have a felt I have a I have something I'm supposed to do and a and a place I'm supposed to fill. I have something that I'm supposed to accomplish. It's interesting there's a the Rambam and Rashi what the the are called filler stones. Rashi holds the word is cuz they fill the hole in the place where they stand that's what they call them. The Rambam argues the Rambam says ridiculous. The Rambam says they're much bigger than the nicest stones in the world. They're not just meant to fill the hole. So the Rambam argues and says it's not means. The question is what Rashi is and clearing Rashi is with all your beauty the best thing is the spot you're filling. With all your I once heard this from I found it in them after but the first person I heard say this is to defend Rashi. They're called filler stones with all their beauty they they have a role they have a place. It's one of the most dangerous It's ours. Yetzer hara a bad guy. We're all wonderful. But the sense of the Yetzer hara tries to take a person away from his world. It's whenever thoughts try to We have a beauty and we have tough kid and we have jobs. Fill your role. Whenever you have voices, you're bigger than this for this. Look for this. It's a big thing you're doing. This guy's momish feeding the sheep of his father. It's like the biggest He's He's taking care of his father. Taking care of the shepsel's the local dairy. Whenever there's a Whenever there's that space It's not accepting of his world. It's a big thing. People love pulling down. That's all you do. It's cool. The guy does People have grandiose ideas. I I see people want to like change the world. It comes from a good place. Comes from a good place. But the way we affect is momish be nice to your wife. Momish You know, guy is good to his wife and momish children to the the whole world the biggest thing in the world is momish nice to his neighbor. Momish The whole world is created that. Whenever they're like voice, that's it. Only that? He sees that as big issue with the tardiness in the world as a voice that's trying to move You're overqualified for this. All your mind was a tactic and I for this. Your beauty, your strength, your amazingness. Big big tzaddikim were melamed to make us toward [clears throat] children. Big big people toward young kids. Big tzaddikim. The The The one who comes to mind is coming to mind now. There many tzaddikim to point to. The Piasetzner is coming to mind. The Piasetzner was a rebbe. He was called the rebbe of children. He would He would He would give a lot of time. The Aish Kodesh. The Piasetzner was busy teaching children. You read his sfarm in Achsharas Avraham. He was a goan. He was teaching children. He had to children. It's a big thing. [cough] It's a big thing. I'm very very moved. What? I'm here. Right, you could have gone back earlier. I'm very moved. What did you say? Yeah. I'm very moved. I'm always very moved that the the the host it goes out of town. So, I see a guy could do tons of thing but at the same time he's putting film on something. My father taught 11th grade. My father could have said she for for older basically. This is this was his tough kidney to a tyrant clarity. What? He told him a sister. And Baranavichy told him a sister. A going a couple of going was teaching high school. Was teaching high school. That's He was teaching Tyra in his city. Teaching Tyra in his city. I teach you he was feeling he was a royal of theory and he sees his reflection and he feels it wanted to destroy him from his world. I might tell you. Says this Nazir, I said to him It's interesting he talks to his heart as a as a friend as a foreigner. Russia. Why are you being a bad guy in the world that's not yours? Stop being busy in a world that's not yours. He ends up saying in something that's that's that's very passing. What are you what are you being misgone in the world that's not yours? It the mission is going to end up being nothing. Now, he's not saying that we become nothing. We have a world of this case. He knows that. He's saying clappy a world there's no key and there's no eternity for that. Clappy that world I'm it's all fleeting and passing. A person embraces his world it's forever. Our world is There's a line of We have our wealth. Our wealth is for all eternity. There's Here, you're busy in a world that's not yours. I swear shall go to Shamayim. I'm going to shave off my head for Hashem. So, his reason for cutting off his hair, his reason for detachment was something about He had to reengage the world in a healthier way. Something about his engagement was causing him to be busy with a oilam world that wasn't his. Said, "I'm swearing you for Hashem." And when Shimon HaTzaddik heard this motivation, there was a temporary detachment from the world. The world's wonderful. A person could bring kedusha when you engage our world, the things that are ours, for our purposes, for our kidush Hashem. Engage the world. When the engagement of the world is tiring a person from the world, removes him from his wealth. He saw his good looks. Instead of saying, "So, I'm so qualified for the position I have." It was moving him to an oilam world that wasn't his. He said, "I have to temporarily detach. I'll come back and find my world, but I have to detach." He swears to be his hair to Shamayim. Immediately, Shimon HaTzaddik hears this motivation of the Nazir. That it's not to detach from the world, it's detach from the world that's not his. And to bring him to his world, like to his world. I stood up and I kissed him on the head. I said, "Shimon HaTzaddik, I said to this Nazir, my son, come here. Like you, there should be many Nazir. For I am How many Nazir like this guy there should be Nazir? You were saying this week's parsha that's in a zero your nazirite is not like saying I share my don't want the world you gave me. My nazirite says this nazirite that's I want to engage the world but the world you gave me my place in the world my in the world not imitating not copying not trying to be somebody else He's doing what? He's he's going to take them back and receive the gifts. He's just saying if those things are causing me to engage a world that's not mine so then temporarily I have to step back to find the world that I share gave me. It was bringing him to reject the world that was his he had a task and a mission that he felt was his task and his mission and in seeing his good looks it was causing him to say I could do more and I have other things it was bringing him to say said I'm I'm taking I'm getting rid of this I need to go back to my world. It says about a tzaddik This nazirite is good. This nazirite is to get to a passageway to if if my engagement in the world is bringing me to places that aren't me places that aren't part of my world so then I need to step back to re-approach to find my world. It says about he's in he's called he's called the mile of nazirite and it says his eye was not his eye didn't take what wasn't his Doesn't say preach us. This is not my world. It's not my world. It's not It's not my world. It's not for me. It's not for me. A very normal person, beauty is very important when it's for him the beauty. When it's his mishpacha, his wife, very important. Person goes to do him, the wife is pretty is huge. When it's ain a shalay, yes about sadik's eye in is not zone in my shin in shalay. Mish mine, it's not mine. It's not my world. It's not me. It's not me. It doesn't help me in my world. I have a world that I'm supposed to engage and be something. Yes about sadik accepts his mission. We can picture a world that's meant designed for what my mission, for my accomplishment, for my building, for my construction. We all have a world that's meant for us and a place for us to be in that world. Yes about sadik's eye in is not zone in my shin in shalay. It's very He has a place and a space and a mission and something to bring to his world. We have something very strongly to bring to to the world. He's not zone in my shin in shalay. It's no shaya to what I'm supposed to bring. When somebody's very firmly Yes about sadik is a person of God. He's in Egypt, the craziest land, the most preach us and he not just survives, he becomes he is Yes about sadik. He's very focused. He knows his role, his place. He has an oil in shalay. He has his world. Nazirous is to a path to get to the person to engage his world. If somehow his engagement in the world was pushing him to others world, he temporarily pulls out. That's the This is the nazir shimon at sadik likes. Somebody who did not desist from the world, detached from the world, they just was a journey to get to my world. That's the point. In your world, enjoy. Schmuck, your world. When Miller is like my picture of somebody knew what he was, each thing I show him his world is beautiful and he enjoyed and then he had a role in his world, a place of operation. When a person lives like that, it's different. I picture my tata this world. He was somebody who was shy of the kadosha. Somebody shy of the kadosha enjoyed a good rafting trip in his world. Wasn't with shush like his mission, his world, his world. The nazirite feels that his engagement in the world is pulling him out of his world. His missions, his half kingdom, his kid in shamayim say temporarily pulls back to re-engage. I need to find my world. This this nazirite, that's the exact story he brings out. And that nazirite, that Shimon HaTzaddik kisses him on the head and says kas reme. Ish kiyofli linder nedder nazir la Hashem. Wow, that's a nazirite I get. That that type of precious I get. Yeah. The Mesillas Yesharim himself asked the kasha. He asked contradictions, is precious good or bad? And he says yesh precious yesh precious. There are two types of detachment from the world. You know this Mesillas Yesharim like it. Proud of you. Maybe we should read it. Should we read the Mesillas Yesharim? You got to listen to Perfect. Thank you. Thanks for everything. Is it true I have glasses? Oh. Three hours. I got it now. >> I just walked in here from school. >> Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. It's nothing man. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Thank you, Evgeny. Wow. So, they're putting you on the spot. >> I know. I'm keen to listen to you. You have a guitar? I'll give you a nickel. >> Oh, yeah? Do you play? You play something? Who Where are you? Where's the guitar? Could you please bring it out here? It's not hanging. You can grab one out here. >> I I remember. >> Huh? Jack is here. >> Small lights the city. >> Amazing. Nice. >> Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. How do you do? You got four minutes. >> Yes. >> Very good. >> Very good. I like it. I like I like that. I like it. I like I like the finger. Very good. Very good. Gabe Yair, Gabe left already with Shlema? >> He left with who? >> Y A Air Y A Air cone Normally Kevin For a second for a second Joshua normally somebody comes where we were with song with Zander that's the keyboard Here here I'm going to ask as he has to there's somebody who learned here for learned he's very connected to the may may Walmart learned in Shiva And is I'm close to him some of our my stream will some of the is very very close to him. He told me a year ago about you and about the he's was greatly so it's an honor to have a from as a Shiva You could share a tire song feel putting you up >> Are you singing first? >> If I knew how I would I can if you teach me give up >> Let me just hold it for the picture >> Gabe and both left already >> Oh Gabe and both left >> Who has a pick? Somebody asked me that question >> Where did they go bro? >> I'm playing with Gabe >> By the way we go to the next one >> Shh >> He's not mapping whether or not Schmoozing Get it on in the back which is a good good inspiration to take back to the Shiva Keep it chill Glad to be here Just telling the rabble I wish that when I was in my wish that when I was in my teenage years I had something that let me be myself and explore what it means to me. I have a remedy that I felt close to. Which none of which I had so you should really treat it already but really treasure what you have to be able to be in a space that gives you space to be yourself and grow yourself and find your own relationship with a and his Sarah >> But I don't never apologize. Will you apologize? England We are in We are in England. >> I'm Manchester. Unfortunately. >> Right there? >> I'm from South Manchester, Hale. >> You're from Hale? Rich. >> My [laughter] father was the the rougher so We were just in our >> fascinating >> You know what that means. >> You say it straight but we like that. I'm from Lawrence lately. We like >> What's your What's your last name? >> What's the other one? >> Latcher Oh, where are you from? So he's rich or >> [laughter] >> Very rich. >> Is he the Maharajah's son? Lovely. >> So we were we were actually blessed this year by the other one in the old city. It's a big blessing to be there. And I was sharing with the boys on Shavuot tonight. Um obviously as you know the yard of the other one there. Um Shavuot on Shavuot You have 7 days to imagine the carbon still making it Shavuot. And so, we're sharing the What I wanted to suggest was the connection between Anyone else who Anyone else knows what which are the Yahrtzeit we have on Shavuos? >> The Bal Shem Tov. >> Very good. >> And the Bal Shem Tov of Kalish, who was my Zaidy 10 generations back, the Pnei Menachem. Shout out to Um They both had They all had it on Shavuos, and I asked the boys, "Why do you think that Hashem made that the same same way Hashem does Shavuos on the same day? Everything's personal. He also takes a person's neshama back to shamayim on a specific day. But for that that together, certain cover to that tzaddik. Like the Shimon like Baimer and others. Tzaddikim, they have I'm sure for everyone in some way. I'm sure if you look hard enough, then you could find. But definitely, you can see by tzaddikim something special about that day. So, specifically with um Shavuos, why is it that Hashem chose the Rebbe Maharash and the Bal Shem Tov to go back up to shamayim on Shavuos? When you think of the Rebbe Maharash and the Bal Shem Tov, at least when I do, the first thing I think of isn't necessarily Torah or like Har Sinai kind of Torah. When I think of Shavuos, I think Who do you think of when you hear Shavuos? Moshe Rabbeinu, the Gra. Those were the two people that I said to the boys. Yes. Ironic. So, Moshe Rabbeinu and the Gra, funnily enough, are the two people that I also suggested to the boys. That's why we think maybe with the Yahrtzeit on Shavuos. And so, we'll sing a niggun, and then I'll suggest what I suggested the Bal Shem Tov before everything he taught. He would share a niggun so that it would go in. Mamish, sometimes the heart's blocked. A lot of times, my heart's blocked. Some of my heart's are blocked. And then they going to open up the the territory to become filler. It opens it up to become a an experience instead of just something that's goes over the mind. Unless you're a musician, when you're speaking it's you really can feel that it's two things going on at once. And you want to sing with me. >> [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music] [music and singing] [singing] [music and singing] >> Oh. >> [singing and music] [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] >> Oh. >> [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] >> Oh. >> [music and singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] >> Oh. >> [music] [music] [singing] [music and singing] [music] [singing] >> The box says when he's talking about this the Torah. It said I know that for all the brothers to be Halacha. We have to learn Torah that's like pillar Torah that makes us into a a married couple. He says when we learn like that then knowledge everything all the everything that can come to us which can only come through the Torah comes. And I think that's the David Hamelech who The Halacha itself is David Hamelech of Torah which is sure spoken about a lot. This great fusion of Torah and Halacha. And David Hamelech is the the the great Talmid who received dancing with the Torah. We don't see David Hamelech Pirush on Shas. We don't see David Hamelech Pirush on Chumash. We don't see We do There are occasionally times where I've seen from Shimon that we pass it like David Hamelech. I'm not sure what he's referring to with passing David Hamelech specifically when we say because he was this great fusion of Torah and Halacha. And the Baal Shem Tov also didn't have so much written in Torah, but um we seek the the famous story of the Baal Shem Tov with the Mezritcher Maggid who was in the opposing um opposing Hasidic strongly. His wife, when he was very sick, was telling him, "You've got to go to the Baal Shem Tov because he's the tzaddik who can who can heal you." And he was mamesh getting like worse and worse and worse. Until it looked like it was getting to the end of the Mezritcher Maggid's life, and he and his wife said, "Like, just get out of here. Go to the Baal Shem Tov. I know it's like hard. It's towards the end of your life. Who knows like if you're going to make it." So, he went to the Baal Shem Tov. He was basically, you know, to to test the Baal Shem Tov. And the Baal Shem Tov knew he was there. He kind of delayed himself and wanted to give the Mezritcher Maggid, you know, uh time to really decide that he wanted to be there. When he actually met the Mezritcher Maggid, he told the Maggid, "Can you start teaching Torah? I want to hear I'd love to hear some Torah from you." The Mezritcher Maggid opened the Eitz Chaim. He started reading from the Eitz Chaim. And as soon as he started saying the first few words, the Baal Shem Tov said, "Like, stop." And the Baal Shem Tov said, "Sit down." And the Baal Shem Tov stood up. And he said, "I see the way you're you're learning. I see the way you're sharing uh the Eitz Chaim and Kabbalah, but I I want to I want to share with you maybe a different way to learn." And the Baal Shem Tov, he just said the first word of the Eitz Chaim, and the Mezritcher Maggid he saw like Kailash, and the room was shaking, and he saw the Baal Shem Tov's neshama mamesh like crazy avah and yirah, and he he just lay down. The Mezritcher Maggid couldn't move. And he realized afterwards the big gap between the Torah that he was learning and teaching and the Torah that the Ba'al Shem Tov was teaching even though it was the same Torah, the level of tefillah and the level of the veikus and the level of or and simcha that was in it when the Ba'al Shem Tov was teaching made it a completely different Torah. He went back, he was extremely shaken, went back. He didn't even sleep that night, the story goes. He asked his wife to pack up. The next morning they came back to the Ba'al Shem Tov and that's how he became came the Ba'al Shem Tov's closest disciple and he never he never went back again. Became obviously the the Lubavitcher Rebbe across the lands from then. So, just to finish, it's a very hard avodah cuz a lot of the time when we're learning about what's the guys doing? Sukkah. Sukkah is we're learning about chametz, so how to burn chametz, so the Yehudis' way of burning chametz before this manner of eating and then after and there's so much there's so much protein that it sometimes the the the test is is can you really while you're learning Sukkah or Sha'ar or Bar or brachas or any sugya in shas, can you really remember within all the details that all this really is that the Ba'al HaTanya and the Zohar and all them sources are saying that all this is is the light of Hashem. All this is is just the light of Hashem. It's all the Zohar says anyone who thinks that the stories of the Torah are just stories, they're they're a fool because it's so much deeper than that. And so, we should be zocheh when we're learning to realize that any halacha, even chumras and learning about chumras and and even machlokes, but I heard also from Morgenstern an unbelievable Torah that our people knew this and why is there so much machlokes in the Torah, in halacha, in gemara and start getting to the depth of the halacha. And to take for example kiddush, right? How much kiddush do you need to pour into a cup for it to be what's considered a revi'is, what's not considered a revi'is? Um to my knowledge, yeah? So, the opinion that says that a revi'is is let's say size of a bigger cup, he's saying that the light and the or of kiddush, the the the the depth of the mitzvah of kiddush, it can only come into the world if the kli looks like this. And the other opinion is saying, "No, the the light of kiddush and the connection of kiddush and the the relationship with Hashem through kiddush can only be chal, it can only it's only halachically correct, it's only a real kli for that or if a revi'is is actually so big, it's even bigger." And even even halacha in depth, never mind Gemara, even like our people say when we get to the bottom line, it's all just about the or, getting back to the or. And it's hard as to remember when we're in the details, but when we when we think about Torah like this, we we want to run after every single halacha and even chabura and and masechta and just get it all in us because it's all the light of Hashem and that's what that's what the Baal Shem Tov says, that's what Rebbe Nachman of Breslov lived, represented, sang spoke about. And that's why I want to suggest Hashem chose them specifically to go back to Shmaya on Shavuot as they epitomize this fusion, this great fusion of Torah and tefillah. We should be zocheh. Thank you for that. It's supposed to be here to share with you guys. Really awesome. >> THANK YOU. >> [applause] [applause] >> I WANT TO I WANT TO FIRST OF ALL THANK YOU. Thank you for the kind words for the great Tyra for the Bal Shem's niggun. I am I want to tell the that this the last two and a half weeks each each afternoon we get to learn Tyra together. I there's a lot of things I want to share. I'm not ready. I'm totally not ready for the to leave yet. And the things Akiva before you leave before I leave there's a lot I want to share with you yet. I want to express and he's Bidasky is not here. David Block is not in the room. I want to express how the satisfaction in a very in a in a place of superficials so it's harder to see the accomplishments. In a place of superficial it's easy to mark. Look, this guy completed this seder Ali Mudim. He got a on his final grade he got this score. It's a very thick a place here. And it's harder to point to the successes to the things that are accomplished. Relationships are the inner world. How a guy connects to things and relates to thing. The inner world is harder to keep score of and to grade and mark. Every single Yeshiva in the world, every business in the world has to grade itself. You're silly not to. If you have any company, my wife Hashem started a business. Any healthy business has to ask itself and often mark itself and grade itself to do better and perform better. And a Yeshiva has to grade itself but it's very complicated. People ask me what's the success rate and what you Let's say a guy is learning 24/7 and this cast and other things and the way he relates to Tyra and film and everything is is in a way that's that's not the way to relate to things. So, that might not be a success and somebody else his performance and external it's harder to rate a premium stick world. It can't be an excuse not to rate. Because otherwise you're not asking are we reaching? So, you have to have your own system. It's a very complex system, but it has to be it has to be because any intelligent person and you can't just say premium is the word process could be the stupidest word process we were successful. That's ridiculous. Who said somebody's moving in the process? So, it's complicated. >> to rate? Why can't you just be confident in doing the right thing? >> But you have to ask could we do something better? If you're an environment of people being there, I think it's the only thing to do any home Josh in your own home there has to be something to ask could we improve how we're doing things? I think that's an important I feel I'm not I'm not looking to force this. I think >> I'm just wondering like you're saying like the rate the the the success like is that important as much that if if we're doing things wrong we can we can work on those and we'll do better. But it's not about how much success is that >> For sure for sure for sure I I I know what you're saying. I I want to express this Josh. You'll see one day with your own children. There's this balance of not you show up you show up. You don't like go to people around you am I doing well cuz that's that's like but it's also important and it is a shame in the world how people are relating to you is instructive to you. So, if your roommates are not growing because of you there's what to learn. Now, it's complicated cuz you shouldn't measure yourself only in terms But there's a space to see what you're doing, how it's coming out. There's a space but I get the dangers it's it's a sugia. I think we're talking on the same page. We're like it's not a I think there has to be some form of checking this out. I want to express that I went on a walk with David. I'm not giving away like deep secrets. I just want to express he described to me Shabbos at home. He described me Rabbi Ross after I would He's a talmud of Rabbi Ross. He blew me away. I I spoke to him today. I feel like everything the Yeshiva wants like like wow. I was blown away by David. He but he this one thing he said he said I go home Shabbos now. He's the youngest in his family. And Shabbos usually is his tatty mommy and him. He described how he loves the soda. Like he he he gave it over. He said tatty mommy and me sitting together. I like melted. A whole Yeshiva is a place of people and relationship and connection. Well, ultimately Hashem's Hashem's are tatty and how we're relating to things and people, how we're relating to Shabbos. When he described going home now, I saw hours of conversation with Rabbi Ross right here. Years of being in the Yeshiva and he described what it feels like that he looks forward going home. Tatty mommy and me and like looking forward to that. Like it was a tremendous validation of an inner world of a place that is a kineous like a place. I saw Rabbi Ross's hand in the way he described going home for Shabbos. It was like it's something very very magical. But um this this sugia of the nazir, this sugia of engaging Hashem's world. Hashem made a beautiful world. Kedusha is the highest madrega and the nazir who detaches from this world was a temsa to engage the world in a beautiful way, to engage, to relate to the world in a beautiful beautiful way. That's the sogya of kedusha. To engage this world in a beautiful in a stunning way. I think Shabbos is the spitch the spitch of kedusha. We call it Shabbos kodesh the spitch of kedusha. I want to express that over this weekend is the yard site of Rabbi Oberlander. And I want to say that he's a Yid. Akiva Rabbi Oberlander is a Yid who had a remarkable connection to Shabbos kodesh. And I want to express something that we had a guy who learned in this Yeshiva. This is on the sogya of Nazir. Completely relating to what we just learned. That what a Nazir is a re-engagement of the world of olam shel achor. Aviad, I want you to hear this. You weren't zocheh to be. Rabbi Oberlander built your Yeshiva. He built it. Sweat and tears. The man built this place, I promise you. He was here with me from second one 17 years ago. You The chevre here gets to watch Rabbi Braunstein gives his life. Before I Braunstein was Rabbi Oberlander. Rabbi Oberlander put his kishkas. I am not an organized guy. I cannot do the things that Rabbi Braunstein does today and Rabbi Oberlander did and he built the Yeshiva. His yard site is coming up. It's We're not going to be together. It's this might say Shabbos. So we're not going to be here. So I want to express something as follows. We had a guy in Yeshiva who was very close to Rabbi Ezi. His name is Yehuda Gruber. A beautiful Yid. He's brilliant. He's a ben Torah. Brilliant guy. He has two kids. Kenina Hur. Yehuda Gruber. Wonderful person. Yehuda Gruber told me on last year at the yard site of Rabbi Oberlander. I asked him to When he told it to me privately, I asked him to say it publicly. But this what he told me. He said he learned two things from Rabbi Oberlander. Aviad, I want you to hear this, right? Reb Overlander had a magnificent relationship to Shabbos Kodesh. He was a Shabbos talmid chacham called Shabbos. It's a nickname of talmid chacham. He was b'china Shabbos. He loved Shabbos. In the mesifta, big part of our mesifta Shabbos. My wife gives her life to this mesifta. She's here every other Shabbos. I don't know if guys understand what that means for a lady to leave her house. Ladies like their house, like being home and their My wife comes here every other Shabbos because she's makir. We could send the guys home. We could send more off Shabbos. We could do it. And my wife's makir that a big koach of the yeshiva Shabbos Kodesh is huge. It's It's It's a huge part of the yeshiva the Shabbos. And I b'zaya it's worth the Shabbos ice together. Reb Overlander created Shabbos here. The early years of the mesifta, I wasn't there for Shabbos. I lived in Blue Ridge. The mesifta was in Waterbury. Reb Overlander ran the Shabbos ice. He had a time he would do something Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday for Shabbos. He prepared the entire week for Shabbos. He learned swaram about Shabbos. The one Shabbos in his house Friday night, that's where the yeshiva started singing koach soif. He loved the safer, the Nesiva Shalom, who's a huge part of that safer. Everything goes back to Shabbos Kodesh. Everything comes back. Every tire, every parsha connects back to Shabbos. He loved that safer. I have no idea if that safer gave me ta'am in Shabbos or if ta'am in Shabbos connected him to that safer. I don't know. But he had a tremendous taste for Shabbos Kodesh. I was there many times to be in his house Friday night. His one went to 2:00, 3:00, 4:00 in the morning. And he was up early. He was up about 7:00, 7:30 in the morning Shabbos morning. He was up early. But, Shabbos was like huge by him. The mark of his talmidim is their connection to Shabbos. It was like very holy. It was cool as one egg because it was not a forced intensity. They sang seven smirrors, but then his son Kiki would do cool card tricks and there was laughter and smiles. The one egg Shabbos in his house was amazing. It's no shock the last many months of his life he wasn't a full mind. And he kept he would ask often is Shabbos coming? The last few weeks of his life he thought it was Shabbos every day. He would just say good Shabbos. He was in a world where it was Shabbos every day. The last few weeks of his life it was Shabbos. It was Shabbos by him. He would say good Shabbos. The last few months he kept asking is Shabbos coming? Then Shabbos came. The last few weeks he was just holding in Shabbos. He thought it was Shabbos every day. Right, Overland Yahu the Gruber said the following brilliant observation. He said right, Overland brought a Shabbos, the holiness of Shabbos, the specialness of Shabbos. He said the second thing he brought to my life, he said is he cared a nice pair of shoes was like important to him. A good cup of coffee. He liked a good coffee. Not just coffee, it should be a good cup of coffee. He liked nice things. A good pair of shoes. Guys went to buy shoes with him. He dressed nicely. So, Yahu the Gruber said I thought he said he's a brilliant guy. Yahu said two things. I got from Overland that he loved Shabbos and the value of a nice thing. He said it took me a long time to absorb. It's one sugia. The sugia of Shabbos Kodesh. The sugia of Shabbos Kodesh is that there's the world's meant for a connection to Hashem. It's the sugia of Shabbos Kodesh. The whole topic of kedusha that one could live a life connection to Hashem. In such a world a cup of coffee matters a lot. A nice I love Akiva's coffee on Shabbos Kodesh that he makes. I'm not a coffee guy. [applause] Akiva works Akiva works hard. I make I can enjoy it so much. It's like very strong. I make a cup every week for my wife because I just appreciate that Akiva like works hard and he makes the cup of Shabbos coffee. I like that he works hard Shabbos Shodus and makes those fish platters. And he figured out like we need something Shabbos Shodus should be sublime. And things that matter, the world matters. We're not people that things don't matter. That's Kodesha. That's Shabbos. That's bringing Shabbos. Things matter. He started capping the nice shoes that the Reb Landau taught him. Not botless to the world. Kodesha. That's the essence of Shabbos in the world of service. A guy comes and has a nice coffee. A guy goes and two people go and buy a nice pair of shoes that that the Reb Landau looks nice and has a nice shoes. That's a giving engagement in this world in the way of Kodesha. That's the Reb Landau kisses on the head. Stop your detaching from this world. What are you doing? Oh, it's your attempt to engage your world. Things that are in your world. I think of Reb Miller the way he engaged the world in a beautiful way. Reb Miller every day 3:00 had an apple. It was like what? In the afternoon. But he ate it in ways his grandson hid under his desk. He was talking to Hashem. He said, "Hashem, the apple you made me it tastes so good and it's crunchy." And he was like talking to Hashem. You did it for me. And he was like absorbing He enjoyed this world in a beautiful way. Reb Miller. In a way of like feeling taken care of Hashem. That's mamesh kedusha. Mamesh kedusha. Feeling taken care of, feeling connection to Hashem, then shoes are meaningful. You the group were happy that the same person understood Shabbos kodesh. Person serving in front of Hashem, physical world, a nice cup of coffee like means something. That's a world of Shabbos, a world of kedusha, a world world. I have a space of operation to connect. I saw my father's tennis games kedusha. My father who was alive to learn, to teach Torah, to live Torah, his tennis game was holy, was kedusha. And this this Reb Overlander who gave us Shabbos kodesh, who brought that to the mesifta, and the appreciation of nice things, a nice pair of shoes that it matters. He said I have to was one in the same, kedusha, one in the same. You the group were expressed and I thought he was on to something. He's right. Little things like the things that were his thing, Reb Overlander. He had his office, he had the cutest little toys in his office, and things mattered. He had like cute little toys he would get. I never I never had an office in my life, baruch Hashem. It's not my style, but Reb Overlander had an office and I would like borrow. I would go in there. I I was called to the principal's office where then I he'd call me in. What are we doing about this and that. So I was called. He had the cutest toys in his You remember his office? The things it was so cute. >> Do you remember the skit where they made fun of him with >> For what things? >> No, they called him boss mechanic. >> I don't know. I remember a skit, I don't remember what they >> we need to do a meeting. He's playing with his gadgets. >> Right here. >> Very busy right now. >> He had all little toys and stuff. Things were significant. In a world of service to Hashem, a nice pair of shoes matter, and a nice things like matter if I'm in context. I think that's the sogya of the nazir. The sogya of the nazir who detaches as a way of finding oilam shalay his world. And the detachment is if the world brings you to oilam shalay. Hakana taiva kav matzi in a sodem in oilam removes the person from his world, his world, his things, his place, and removes the person. And that the nazir detaches in order to reattach. He says kamaycha year ben nazir in his years of Israel like you that should be nazirim. Your nazirus is not a way to detach from kedusha, it's to bring to kedusha, to attach in a beautiful way. So, I like the sogya of the nazir. I wanted to speak about R' Yoel Bender. I wanted to describe that speaking to Dovid today I feel like a journey towards kedusha. An engagement sitting at a shabbos table of Tatte Maman himself is an engagement of his world. My father, my ma Everything in the yeshiva is constructed. A guy could sit at his shabbos table. And mamesh in my world, embracing and engaging my world. So, that's what I wanted to share with the chevre today. I feel like it's a gemara I learned with my father, but the I can't say my father said chat like this in this gemara. I can say my father lived this chat. I learned this chat from my father, through my father, and I'm always thankful. It's one of my favorite gemaras in shas. Because I feel like this was a teaching that I that I absorbed from him. From somebody who was engaged in the world in his world, his world. Their engagement in a beautiful way. So, I wanted to share this with you, Aaron. We'll have a couple of more weeks to learn the entire beis Hashem. I will announce tomorrow night we're doing a leil shishi be'ezras Hashem. Once we finish that we'll announce announce some some details for that. Yasher koach, chevre. I didn't get