How to FEEL good about doing the RIGHT thing

think about what our life was like as a Jew pre-exiled during the time of the first base of miktash open Miracles all around you come to the base of English you experience God the entire or most of the entire Jewish population lives together peacefully in Israel spirituality is is just right there it's just the normal part of life amazed were exiled and were ill we're spiritually ill you know what happens to a spiritually ill person you know what happens to somebody who's sick you wanna you wanna eat you can't handle it your stomach is pulling you in other directions you can't appreciate the pleasure that that Diet Coke or whatever it may be is able to give you we're able to offer you you can't because you're being pulled in other directions during Exile we're sick because we have Torah we have Mitzvahs and they're beautiful we don't by Nature seem to appreciate their value we seem to often regurgitate them we're pulled in other directions our animal soul is pulling us away if it's nobody's fault it's not our fault it's the way God gave us an animal Soul that's part of Exile the animal Souls very strong very strong we can't appreciate the pleasure of amitsa we have faith that a Mitzvah is of value of sacred value but can we sense the pleasure can we sense the pleasure of thorough study we can eventually we work on it with the work on getting healthy we have to work on getting but it's not our it's not our nature naturally we feel ill and we say God help us heal us let me be able to eat this food let it nurture me let me do this Mitzvah let me study this toy let me feel nurtured by it let me glean the spiritual um connection through it that spiritual pleasure that I get that I get through it so here's the story this guy goes to get a dollar from the rabbit this is a Jewish guy who abandoned his faith converted to Catholicism he's picking on the wrong Rabbi he totally gave up on his faith and he's coming to the rabbit to proselytize the episode right through him tells the rabbit that my parents are Jewish and born Jewish was raised Jewish I am no longer Jewish and now I believe in now I that's who I believe in whoever looks at him and says nope you're a Jew you're born a Jew once a Jew you're always a Jew and you're just confused like a person who's ill he says I don't feel ill I feel great this is my path in life if ever since then you're really ill you're so ill that you don't know you're ill the rabbit was very blunt with him and the more you engage with this the sicker you're getting you need to stop it you need to reconnect with your faith because that's who you are and you can't really run away from it you need to realign yourself the guy would not take it the rabbit would not give in either the episode right through him is that you're having a shama and that's it it does nothing to discuss there's no debate fast forward decades later person discovered he was ill this person discovered that he needed to get better this person realigned himself with his faith and I was fully connected with this Yiddish kite what's on to villain on a regular basis and connects with this Judaism and is a band that his his idolatrous ways there's times in my life where I'm regurgitating the very connection I meant to have sometimes I feel like this connection is getting in the way of my prosperity I gotta keep co-shirts getting in the way of my relationships Shabbos getting in the way of my financial success I Gotta Give charity impossible not in the budget not to speak Russian Hara not to gossip I'm gonna be a social weirdo I can't do this I can't handle it [Music] no no God heal me because this is healthy food tastes good it's pleasurable but if my stomach's regurgitating it doesn't mean the food is bad it means my stomach is off God heal me spiritually heal me so I can reconnect in the Messianic era on Messier comes we're going to be fully healed the world will befold in the knowledge of God we're gonna fully connect and feel feel the beauty of the connection how it's good for us right now we believe it's good for us we're gonna know what's good for us okay that's my story and I'm sticking to it