Rabbi Mordechai Kraft - When Judging is Loving

so that we have to speak about I think which is that which is most important topic right now which is Rosh Hashanah Russia Sean and you know Rosh Hashanah is a scary day it's a very scary day why is it so scary it's scary because a sham is taking a really serious look at us a really serious look and he's gonna look at everything we did this past year examined it under a microscope microscope only the type that Hashem can have you know we can imagine a microscope that we can create that can see every particle a Shems microscope goes into every action that we did every thought Wow every speech every word and that's a scary thought because I don't know about the rest of you but I don't think that I've lived up to the task of Who I am or I'm supposed to be as a Jew and perhaps as an individual would you deal with me so it's a very scary day in fact that's for the terror calls it Yom had in the day of judgment so with that in mind I want to ask you a few questions and see if we can get a deeper understanding of what shot is all about question number one is this if it's such a scary day then it says that the fish tremble when God goes to his throne and Russia Sharna to judge the world it says that the animals shake the fit that the animals particularly tremble the Claddagh you know the Angels tremble the whole world shakes and we should be shaking so how could we make a celebration out of it how can we turn it into a young Pope man we have a meal with miss some Mayock we get dressed nicely we get haircuts before so how come it's a simcha I mean you know imagine you're going to a court and in the court you know you're going to come out probably guilty do you make a whole meal and celebration about going to court you know I would be terrified to go you know I wouldn't make a celebration out of it so why don't we make a celebrate out of judgment it doesn't seem to make any sense that's question number one don't put the questions out then we'll see we could put all together but think about that question we make a celebration that are being judged we have meals with dip apples and honey we we you know we wish each other good you have to write we're supposed to have good foods and wear nice clothing and set our tables beautifully like Shabbat so how can that be that's question number one question number two is what day of the year does Russia shauna fall is Russia shot I think with me is Rosh Hashanah or do wait for the first day of the new semester that's lesson I think any professor would give it when last day of the old semester if a professor gave you and on the first day of the new semester you'd probably think something's wrong with that right somebody said to me once well professor gave you a test the first day but then asked what the test was a diagnostic to see how much you didn't know from the past year you know so when do we give tests we give final exams the last day of the old year what date is Russia shot of fall Rosh Hashanah is the test it's the examination is it the last day of the old year or the first day of the new year so logically what's your name free to sing logically it should be the last day of the old year that would make sense when is Rosh Hashana first day of the new year Hashem is giving us the test the examination on the first day of the new year now the last day of the old year is that strange what type of teacher would do that imagine you're teaching a class and you say first day of the class you know okay I'm giving you a test on the material that you covered last year what is the chef doing giving us a test the examination the first day of the new year give it the last day of the old year question number two question number three when does the judgment take place on Rosh Hashanah does anybody know when it takes place when does your neshama and 90 Shama when does it pass before God on Russia shot on what time what point of the day do we know the answer well actually it's the Tsar tells us that artists shovelers are judged when we're fulfilling the mitzvah of chauffer when you're hearing the chauffeur being blown that's when you are being judged so think what judgment means judgment means little bit for everything Shems gonna look at you as a Jew did you live your life correctly as a Jew kashrut shebat to fill in sitsit russian hara then it chefs gonna look at you Moshe and he's gonna say I created you with a unique neshama I created you with as a person that there's no one else like you for the beginning of time and there will be no one else like you until the end of time maybe that's a good thing it might be good but there's no one like you there's no one like me there's no one like you so that means we have each you've had to have done something special with our lives have we done something special with our lives have we serve God and only the way we can serve Him and we made the world different and only way we can make it different so that's the second part of the judgment now here's my question to everybody the questions like this the point of that judgment is when we're listening to the chauffeur when you're hearing the chauffeur this first thirty voices thirty koloff thirty sounds that's when your souls are being judged now how come it says we're supposed to get up early and run to hear the chauffeur you know we're doing it's like imagine you have to go to traffic court where you know you're gonna have hundreds of dollars of fines to pay you get up early and run to the traffic court to pay your fines already walk slowly hope the judge won't show up maybe they'll postpone the date but in Russia shot up we know we're coming for a sham we know we're gonna be judged we know that we're probably not going to stand up to what we should be and the Torah tells us get what run to the court want to be judged run to hear the chauffeur being blown I knew what God says God said if you run to hear the show from being blown I'll sleep in the judgment for you I'll make it a sweet year I need mom to get that then it's called sweeten the judgment question what are we doing how could we be running to have ourselves judged are we crazy only masochist it's like what's happening we're rushing to come before a court where we know that we're not going to be able to withstand the judgments like what's happening why do we do such a thing I heard you say okay in some level you think that some of you said what's your name Arthur say something very interesting on some level it might be that we are appeasing a Shem by coming early good good thought we'll think about it I think I think you're on the right track he does the question is why so here we go now let's just see if we can take this topic and think with me think this through with me I think you've got a deep insight why did a Shem choose the first day of Tishrei as Russia Sharna the day of judgment why this day what happened in human history on the first day of the month of Tishrei what happened the first day of Tishri was the sixth day of creation and the sixth day of creation God created Adam Adam Rishon the first man question how many how long was Adam in the Garden of Eden for how long was it there for 200 years other suggestions how long was he in the Garden of Eden for we separate the four hours good suggestion getting closer well no get further away getting colder think of days think it hours I seven days seven days plus he he was in the Garden of Eden six hours what six hours the good mornin rush Hashanah tells us on the sixth hour of the day God thought to create autumn seventh hour the day he rolled in the dirt eighth hour the day he blew the neshamah into ninth the hour of the day he commanded him to eat of every three but don't eat from one tree the tree of the eight sawdust 10th hour of the day he sinned he ate eleventh hour of the day he was judged by God 12th hour of the day he and Chava were expelled kicked out of the garden there would be a different world that day it would it would have been a different world because of that stupid mistake we're not suffering we're gonna suffer right well we're thinking we'll see what it means six hours six hours that's all it was now listen to what our rabbis say our rabbis say that when Adam was expelled from the garden the language of the rabbi's use is who yacht's of the demos he left with demos Moshe translate for me but demos but no better translation like the most means like with he left the garden sort of like a good sentence good sense of humor that you know he has a mission to mint to make that mission you know right you know I think you know in Hebrew they use that word in modern Hebrew it means like with a good retirement package yeah it was a good plan he went he left with MIDI most like a good you know when you when you leave a company they send you off with what they call the golden parachute you know you got a retirement package and you get money and you got a pension and all he left the Garden of Eden it says but Deimos with a good plan a good deal a good pension a good sense you give up on a reason you can love with wood a book and with the Torah so let me let me just think this through for a second everybody direction what's the expulsion from the Garden of Eden something good or something really bad then well let's analyze it for a moment give me some descriptions of what life was like in the Garden of Eden what's the description they're gonna be good we're not close one description was there was no need for clothing right because we were able to see the truth about a human being true then a shovel was present there was no need there was no shame good good it was no sure what's that Arthur got another it it was easy it why was it easy okay make a good point you the yet Sahar was outside of who we are what else did what else was what else exists in the Garden of Eden got you good what though I've seen himself God could you could you could talk to God God wasn't hidden God was open you could speak with a show machen that no no well you know that God's hidden now what's another characteristic Garden of Eden sure but just different descriptions of what there was what was there what existed in I'll tell you also you know what because in the Garden of Eden you didn't have to work for a living really it says in the Garden of Eden is no taxes there was no taxes and no death no and you didn't you don't be in fact I'll prove it to you it says that one description of the tree of the done the eight sawdust the tree of the knowledge of good evil different descriptions of what was one description says that it actually was a fig tree another opinion says that it was a grape free another opinion says that it was an at drug another opinion says it was a bred tree in the Garden of Eden bread actually grew from trees red grew from trees bread bread there all sorts of different types of trees in the Garden of Eden for example if you wanted to get a a tandoori you go to tandoori tree you know and take time during if you want to get the Pioche go if you want to get a bagel you go to the bagel tree right the bagel - if you want to get a good whole wheat you know kala go to the whole ecology if you wanted to get one of those like one of those called those like umbrella breads you buy one day we go that's the talk if you want to get not talking there was a special down Toki tree there was a problem you know why because whether or not Toki true when the thing became ripe it would fall and God have to make a special angel there to catch it that's a Bukharian Meldrick it's famous behind them but the reality is that the bread actually grew from trees and that symbolized the fact that there was no need to work now the reason that all of you are in college and graduate school and working very hard is basically to buy food I mean that's what we need without food daily we cannot make it in the Garden of Eden you just went to a tree and you could pull off your bread that's an amazing thing it's an amazing thing you know watch the amazing thing because bread is the most complex food that we have does everybody know how many steps there are in the bread making process they're actually they're actually ten in that process how can she take something from the tree it's not her tree no shed you have the first commandment that that's a good question the first commandment that God gave to Adam and Eve in the garden was Ethel talk only call it second you're obligated to enjoy this whole garden so all yours enjoy it eat it rejoice in it but they said that's total of doctor coming but one tree that three dates that have arrived on it from it but everything else eat and enjoy okay right you're talking about the story in general right the sir in general there was one command one test had he passed that test the world would have been a different place Adam and Eve would have gone into what's called the you know what got into the next world pure and perfect and then history would have come to an end planned we wouldn't eat plan B we're in the second stage of history because of the failure hundred percent look let's just slow let's go everybody so what I'm trying to say is like this that one of the characteristics of the Garden of Eden once you did not need to work for a living and bred grew from a tree that's what it says after we were expelled from the garden a Shem gave us one of the consequences was Isaiah the peclet but the sweat of your brow well you have to bring forth bread from the earth now if you think about it this is a complex bread is bread is such a complex food that our rabbis say there are 10 steps in making bread and if God had not taught Adam the recipe after he was expelled in the garden Adam would not have figure out how to make it now part of the human mind can only think maybe five six seven steps beyond what it can see the thing ten steps out imagine you know other would have to know then order to produce bread you have to plow you have to place a seed inside you have to let the seed grow you have to cut the stalk down you have to Thresh the stalk you have to win on the stalk you have to separate out the kernel from the from the stuff on the husk you then have to grind it you then have to add water and knead it and then finally you have to bake it there are 10 steps in the bread making process it's very complex that's why would you make a blessing over bread you're supposed to place your 10 fingers and place them on the bread and that's why you all know then the blessing that we make on bread how many words are in the blessing Baruch Hashem L okay no Mela alum hamotzi Lechem min Haaretz there are ten words in the braja through - of the ten steps in making bread so in the garden interesting in the Garden of Eden you didn't have to go through that work was all there for you no work question what else exists in the Garden of Eden that did not exist outside the Garden of Eden in the Garden of Eden money well those don't need there's need for money because everything you have was prepared what else what else what else what else existed the Garden of Eden let's see that's examined God was there he could speak to God he didn't have to work for a living bread grow on trees there was no death yet then ah there's no death in the Garden of Eden the plan was to live forever when they were expelled from the garden that's where death came into the world God introduced death for women one of the consequences be expelled was Sarabhai later difficulty in childbirth wasn't supposed to be like that that was a consequence of having sinned in the garden the fact that Eve introduced the idea apparently now what else existed in the Garden of Eden I'll take something very fascinating in the Garden of Eden the reason there was no violence is because the ate Sahara I think somebody mentioned this before the ate Sahara what is the etc the ate Sahara is a spiritual force that exists and it's job is to make us feel like we're equal to ocean that were creators he had some use to create I'm a creator I could do it my power my strength and it's that force that exists inside ourselves that always distracts us from serving a chef in fact right now I'm saying worse of toward everybody and if something else is going inside your mind right now you know like what am I gonna eat like at home you know I have to have a big exam tomorrow you know oh I forgot to do this all right you know whatever's going to side your minds right now that's distracting you from hearing the Torah that's yet tomorrow there's a distraction that's its job it's a spiritual force and its job is to give us challenge in the Garden of Eden that spiritual force was not inside the brain of Adam he existed outside of Adam now that means the choices that a person could make in the Garden of Eden more choices between good and better than that good and better once the gates of heart was inside of Adam now the choice is between good and dad in the Garden of Eden you could not do bad because you could see clearly you weren't distracted by the spiritual force called the Etzel heart on the outside so let's analyze let's think with me now I will tell you something very interesting we all know that Adam and Eve sinned and they were expelled from the garden and you're not rabbi say the expulsion from the garden was a good package it was a good deal they got a good deal for Adam and Eve it was a good deal but they think about it a good deal it looks like a terrible deal they went from eternal life to death they went from you don't have to work for a living so you have to get your bread by the toiled by the night told to swear your brow we went from painless there's a chopper up the difficulty childbirth we went from you could see God to God being hidden we went from the Etzel heart of being the outside he had swimming in my brain to such a point where I got confused all the time and I can't make correct decisions when I want to make correct decisions and I want to do what's right so how could the expulsion from the garden possibly be a good package should be a good thing it doesn't make any sense doesn't make any sense to you but our rabbis say no it was a beautiful just sweet retirement package for Adam and Eve a great deal I don't hear a great deal here do you let me explain something to you I want to teach you something that you might not have heard before you know there are many reasons why Adam and Eve sinned and they're all true and they're all describing a different aspect the angle of the sin but I've explained an angle that the are reset saw one of the greatest Kabbalists of the last 500 years right VRE he is a very unique reason for why they sent I would explain it to you to do what I want to give you a metaphor is there anybody here who is the son or the daughter of a billionaire Jacob yeah you can relate to this if anyone here is the son of the daughter of a billionaire you have a very difficult challenge in life you know why because if you ever want to go into business people are never gonna think that your success was due to you what are people always going to say yeah the reason you succeeded was because your father invested a hundred million dollars and you failed ten times the finally got it right then you might have turned it into five hundred million but according to that if you had a hundred million dollars of seed capital so let me see a question if you are the son or the daughter of a billionaire and you want to show the world that you are a good businessperson what do you have to do looks like Bill Gates his child yeah Bill Gates is worth 130 billion what what yes he's 150 what it was okay stock went up but if what what is the son of the daughter of Bill Gates or any billionaire have to do to prove to the world that he or she is a really good businessman right if you like warren buffett warren buffett doesn't believe inherited wealth right he's only giving his kids a few million he's not getting blames it might be good in their time I mean right now look we're was surrounded okay let's just like think with me in the metaphor buddy if you want to be just think with me if you wanted if you're the son of a billionaire and you want to show that you really are a good businessman what do you have to say to your father I need you that's exactly right as it turned your father I have to say dad I don't want any of your money I don't want your credit cards I don't want access to your bank account I'll win your brother huh all I want is your brother I want your blessing and I'm gonna go out and I'm gonna do it my sight I guess you could how much are you asking for dad gave you the money if you want to show that you're somebody what you have to do is you have to do it yourself now we tell you something I think is might be true in this theory says Adam was the son of a Blee anair father Mauricio he was the son of a billionaire a chef Adam loved the Shem very much he had such gratitude to the chef the matter created by God such gratitude he's so aware of all the goodness that God gave him the knife soul where he is aware of how much God loves him by creating him and gives the opportunity to have a test and thereby to earn where he's gonna be forever and give him the greatest reward he could ever have he realizes God's love and creating this universe fall for him and for the human for us and such gratitude and he's so badly wants to show God God I love you so much I love you but there's one problem you know out of his thinking Adam is thinking god it's too easy to show you I love you you know why it's too easy because I could see you and it's too easy to do what you want me to do and you know why it's too easy for me to do what you want me to do for you for me to do what you want me to do it's too easy because my yeats of horror is not on the inside but yeah it's a hard something on the outside it could talk to me the snake apparently with the Attar it talk to me it could try to influence my mind but it's not inside my head thereby causing that infernal struggle that you and I have like getting up in the morning right and you said yourself should I come to go to pray I'll go back to sleep what's that fight that's it's hard talking to you all right you see a a something to eat oh it's not so kosher but I'm so hungry does it really matter that's we get sorrow right you know are you walking down the street and you see something you should be looking at it and you that's the adhara you know so why did that suggest like that for you or you say you know what should I should really sit down and learn a little bit of - right now I but I don't want to miss you know I don't know what I don't want to miss Seinfeld you know whatever's on over there like you know that's theater that's the eighth Sahara that's because the gates of hearts inside your brains do you hear what I'm saying and the Garden of Eden the gates of heart was outside of Adams brain you're absolutely right you're so true so listen to me listen carefully Adam said Adam had an idea listen to his idea Adam said God a Shem I loved you so much and I want to show you how much I love you but as long as that gate for Hara is outside of my brain it's too easy to love you because there's no fight of course I would do what's right and good because I don't have that internal struggle and challenge like you have and I have and you haven't we all have together so you know what Adam said Adam said see listen to what it says in the zohr Adam said I'm going to eat of the tree I'm gonna eat of that hates that fruit and he knew that by eating of that fruit he was going to bring the gates of horror inside himself he knew that that's what says this thick the snake was part of the decision convincing that was part of his job but Adam also felt that he wants to do it the language the language of the Czar is it was a hate the shame shamaya it was a sing for the sake of God he said to God I wanted he said to himself I want to drop a level I want to have that challenge of having my guitar in my brain and to show you a Shem that I can love you even though it's gonna be more difficult that's what he wanted to do he was like a billionaires child who said dad I don't want your money I want to show that I can make the money my own on my own he said to him he said to he said to himself I love you so much and he said I'm gonna do it on my own I'm gonna bring the gates of her inside of me I'm gonna show you how much I love you but as long as the air tijeras on the outside it's too easy to love you God because there's no challenge of course I would do what's right so you already did he went to the tree and the stake persuaded him and there's all part of it I'm giving you one angle of it but in his own mind that's what was driving him according the zuhr and said I'm gonna eat it I'm gonna drop a level to show at this Laurel level of having this inner fight I could still love you so deeply god it was a faithless Chaitra maíam now how did God react now if I were a chef you know what I was done I would have said to autumn no I would have said to autumn autumn that was so beautiful I would have give him a hug kissed him on the forehead and I said to him autumn that was so beautiful of you you ate for me you ate because you wanted to show me how much you love me that's what I would have said and I would have rewarded him and I would have said oh you're such a wonderful wonderful wonderful person what did it chamb say to Arthur Murray Shaun after he ate you know that you oughta sham said he said to listen to what he said doesn't care of the language the good more instead Hendrix says Oh Dom Minato Adam you are someone who doesn't believe in me you lack faith you lack a moon ah that's what God said back language watching Lakota even a neighbor of course he said if he said either Mauritian me not saw you lack faith doesn't ask you a question does that make any sense that other lacked faith why did he send did he sin because he didn't believe in God or did he sin because he wanted to show that he could love God even deeper why did he said he wanted to show that he could love God deeper so what does it mean that he lacked faith does that make any sense to you what does it mean that lacked faith what does that mean what you know that is a question what does faith me lose question belief in God it's belief in God you need faith to believe in God and are do you need knowledge to believe in God well let's take a vote who says that belief in God is based on knowledge who says based on faith who says base are both zero believed their mothers their mother yes is that based on knowledge or faith no how do you know how do you know how can you prove it you do DNA fingerprints who else would be you know who else to be taking care of you all these years except Bob will put up with you I'll have it in my house on the video you know video maybe this may be the switch the baby the hospital you've heard of those cases with swish baby I got a scare me like this what's that but you you believe you believe that that your mother's your mother because you claim that you have knowledge on it right knowledge means that you have enough information to make a logical decision true to believe in God do you require knowledge or faith i'ma suggest along with you I think belief in God is knowledge I think it's now I'll prove to you you know has that one been to the zoo recently the zoo you go to the zoo I'm into the zoo what's your favorite favorite animal the zoo what the wolf gorillas my Lions anyone like the giraffes I like the giraffes beautiful beautiful animals there's your question what challenge does a giraffe have in life one thing the one thing you get very tall right it's probably difficult to get a date with shorter out of it but your eyelids it's the giraffe has certain challenges you know what one challenge to Drafthouse how does it pump blood all the way up to its brain has the blood get up there all right heart question what's the job of the heart the hearts of pump how does the heart pump blood four and a half feet uphill against gravity to reach the brain how's it doing how's it doing you need a very strong pump to do that but you know if the heart is too strong a pump the animal could be very high blood pressure so a heart has to be a very regulated pump do you know what the giraffe happens to have it has another heart right at the base of its neck right over here this heart pumps normally the blood flows around the body until the blood gets to the base of the neck and goes from the base of the neck up to the brain two hearts which came first the five-foot neck or the second heart which came first full-field time the second heart was there before the neck I'd ask you what's the purpose what's the heart doing there so you'll tell me well the neck came first well the neck came first of that the second heart you'll have a generation of dead brain you know giraffes so I think logical minds have to say that the neck and the pump came at the exact same time now that's one simple example of a system where two things have to work in harmony if we examine creation and we examine a cell we see we'll just think two things working in harmony we see thousands if not millions of pieces working in harmony what a logical mind say that that came back sent over logical minds say there must have been a creator I think a logical mind we've said there's a creator it doesn't prove there's God by the way it's called a proof of exclusion or losses there must be a designer you could say well maybe it wasn't God maybe it was aliens who created it like Crick who invented who could discover DNA claimed but of course I'd have to ask dr. Crick and say wait a minute but who created those aliens so why not posit God that's one way we know that God is there that's knowledge you know the second way we know God was there God introduced himself to the entire Jewish people three thousand three hundred twenty years ago there was an event on the 9th of Sinai where God came down and your grandparents were there and my grandparents were there and there were 4 million people there and you what God said he said Shalom Aleichem I am ashamed the Lord your God I knew what the people there did they died a Shem revived them he said there should be no other God beside me you know what everyone did there they did the most appropriate thing they could definitely do it such a situation they drop dead and of course because when God opens up and reveals himself when the shaman just wants to burst forth the shove-it can't be contained within this body composed mainly of water so it burst forth it connected again that's called death separation and shoving from the body is called death but then God revived so God introduced himself to the entire Jewish people and your grandparents taught it to their children the Torah to their children of course it's all based on the fact that we believe that our parents but why do us and all this sort of thing but God does not want belief in him based on faith he wants us to believe in him based on knowledge use your minds to realize that has to be designer and study what the Torah tells us which is God revealed himself to four million Jews no that's an amazing thing God says don't make belief in me based on faith belief in me is based on fact so question but faith is a big part of Judaism so where does faith I will not fit into all this so I'll tell you what the brisker Rob says he said something very beautiful he says where reason ends faith begins where youth where reason ends faith begins well I can't understand that's when I have to faith other words God I know you're all that love I know you know everything I know you're all powerful I know that everything you do is a manifestation the perfect good so explain the Holocaust to me okay you could give a reason if you want but the reality is I can turn back to God and say listen to chef I really don't understand what is that necessary I mean I give lectures on and also I say exactly what you say but at the end of the day is I have to have them or not I don't understand and sometimes in life were challenged to do things that we don't understand the reason like Abraham Abraham was challenged bring up your son the son you love the son is gonna be the builder the Jewish people you get stuff and kill him let's call the FK rockets come what was the test the test was not that God existed it didn't exist he saw a guy God spoke to him but the test was God I have to do it you want even when it makes no sense to me that's called faith that's called Emunah and that's a challenge that's the test of life is mo na well that means when I don't understand I have to let my heart go beyond my brain you know that's why I believe by when we said SH my Oslo here is your the Lord our God the Lord is one you don't we do with our hands we cover our eyes because we're saying to a Shem in places in life where I can't understand you where I'm in the dark I'm gonna let my heart love you and understand well I can't see I'm gonna have to let my faith take over that's trust I'll tell you something in any type of love if you really love somebody you know what you love about the other person what you love about the other person is what you don't understand about the other person you know if I were to love my wife what I understand I'm not really loving my wife I'm loving my conception of my wife my mind's vision well my love for my wife begins is exactly at the point where I don't understand her at all I don't understand why organic carrots are any better than regular carrots I don't know why we have to spend more money on organic Tomatoes I don't see like organic chicken tasting any better I really don't but my wife does do I understand my wife on the I don't love means you love what you don't understand God says to us you know when you really have trust that's when you really love me so I have to create a world we're gonna need trust but trust means that you have to recognize that my plan is greater than your plan and you're not always gonna stand my plan but your test in life is to follow my plan God turns to Adam he says Adam Adam you lacked trust you didn't believe you didn't know that I exist of course you know I existed I just created you but Adam you left trust why I commanded you not to eat of the tree didn't I and Adam said I have a better plan I want to show you I love you the only way I can really show you I love you if I bring the gates are on the inside and lonely could bring the apes on the inside ones that I have to eat from the a todas for the tree for the fruit that God turns to Adams and look at Adam well what did I command you to do are you commanding me not to eat isn't that the command Adam I told you not to eat that was your test but I said but I have a better plan to show that I love you God says Adam you failed the test your test was to subordinate your brilliance to my brilliance it made no sense to you that was your test to do and follow even though you didn't understand it that's and will not you should have trusted me well let's think about it for a second good question Adam failed the test of trust and not only did he fail the test of trust various standing in the Garden of Eden with his Yates Ihara now in his brain let me explain to you at the epijuarez the hit Sahara is exactly what it sounds the eight sir in Hebrew means to create rah in Hebrew doesn't mean bad it means to disconnect it's a drive that a Shem creates a creative drive that can cause me to disconnect from God what's that creative drive if the creative drive is that I feel that I'm a creator I'm the creator I feel all my creative needs I need to eat I need to have children by him to build my need for glory I need for honor all my needs that creative drives that made it Sahara and when that's in my brain I feel that I am the center of the universe not God and the reason often brought that on the inside because he didn't trust by not trusting a sham basically he was feeling I don't have to trust the chef my plan is better I feel that I'm the most important I'm I have an equal to equal say with God and here he's left standing in the Garden of Eden he turns to God he says a Shem I've just destroyed myself what am I gonna do and Here I am in the Garden of Eden where I'm gonna live forever with the skates on are inside me now confuse now and I know what's right and what's wrong what am I gonna do a sham I destroyed myself ruined myself soon as Shem says he said of them relax I'm gonna help you say calls over the Angels I know if this exactly I went he says Gabriel the foil come here get a stretcher get on them on a stretcher others on the stretchers put an IV in and Gabriel Foyle get him out of the garden quick Alison why you kicking me out of the garden the ownership says because long as you're in the garden you can see me and if you want to fix up inside yourself trust you're gonna have to be in a world now where you don't see me because when you can't see me you're gonna have to trust that I'm there well you can't see me you're gonna have to trust that what I'm telling you is correct even though you can't see me something says okay get me on the garden and then he gets around the garden and God says guess what autumn you're gonna have to work for a living I said what do you mean work for a living that's terrible that says no it's good because you can to put a seed in the ground and you have to trust that the seed is gonna grow if this trust that there's gonna be rain if the trust that there's not gonna be any insects in the destroy it and you have to work on trusting that I'm gonna help you and you have to trust that but you can't see and I couldn't know if the thread is gonna come up if the stalk is gonna be there they could have to trust that I'm gonna help you you have to build the muscle trust again I'm says okay I think God says to him and one more thing at him you're gonna have to die die what do you mean die God says listen autumn I want to tell you something unless you a question what's the most important moment of Our Lives death well I would say one moment birth is one important moment death is an extremely important moment what's the most important moment in relation to death you know what it is the moment before death the moment before death is probably the most important moment of our lives and my friends you're all young but we're all good experiences there's a semi ship will come before position but that moment before one dies you know what happens that moment at that moment a person has to turn to him and say I am not in control you are the Creator you are the source of life it's all you and I have to trust you because I have no control I thought I could rely on my children I thought I could rely on my wealth I thought I could ride my health I thought I were allowed my property I think we'll have my job I thought about community my friends there's no one left Shem I can only trust and rely on you that's what death brings so God turns to autumn he says autumn I'm gonna have to bring death into your life I'm gonna give you a long life and you live 910 years you give Sears another thousand he gave here's 930 gives 72 David Koepp David you lived 930 years you're gonna die because that moment just before death you're gonna realize you have to trust me so with me for both when God expelled Adam from the garden on the one hand it looked like a really harsh sentence he went from eternal life to death he went from picking your bread off a tree to working for a living he went from God being concealed to God being hidden he went from the it to heart being on the outside he gets on the inside and oh my god looks terrible but let me to question these consequences of his eating why did God bring these consequences was it to punish Adam Oh was it to help fix him up to fix him up if his fault was he lacked trust he had to be in a world of God hiddenness he had to be in a world we have to work to find God we have to work to find a living we have to work to trust God your breads gonna come up we're gonna have to give it all back to God before you die and say it's not me and you if the fault and the problem was a lack of trust the cure was to be in this world which we are in right now because this is a world where we have to work on trusting God even though we can't see him we have to build that muscle of trust and faith so here's my question was the expulsion from the Garden a punishment or the perfect repair for the problem punishment or repair I think it was repaired but if the problem was a lack of trust the only way I could fix it up was to put them in a place we has to work to discover God because of God's open and visible it's like when you have a lot of light you don't have to work hard to see where there's darkness you have to really work hard to find something and when you find that thing it becomes so much part of you because you work to find it if I have to trust you God and work on the muscle of trust which I destroyed goddess ii only do that for you in a world where i'm gonna hide so therefore what do we see we see that the judgment that Auden received in the Garden of Eden it wasn't a punishment at all I would tell you secret about life everybody everything that God brings to us in this world is never punishment it's always for the purpose of helping us repair when our individual problems are now God says like this he says just like Adam was judged on the first day of the month Tishrei and the sentence that he received was so good and was the perfect fixing up for his problem this is the day that I choose to judge my children why because the purpose of the judgment it's not the punish the purpose of the judgment is to see what you and I need so God can give us the perfect fixing up for example God might have looked at our record this past year and said look you didn't know how to use money I gave you money but what did you spend it on you spent it on fancy this new car that this you're gonna have to lose ten thousand bucks yeah or God might say listen you know I gave you so much help this past year you're the appreciate it I made me this year you gotta get the swine flu I don't know you know what gotta appreciate your health so what God is doing is looking at the past year to determine exactly what we need to correct ourselves for the upcoming you're our guide by tell you listen I see you came to learn a lot of Torah this past year you really you know you really made a lot of effort I'm gonna help you learn more Torah I said you gave a lot of charity I'm gonna give you more money to get more charity you know I've been looking for good also here works now it says solicit No that's exactly what happens this the reason God looks at the past year is because the purpose isn't to punish her to give a consequent for the past year the purpose is to look at the past year to determine that which we need for the future year to teach us that the purpose of the judgment is to fix us up and that's why God puts Rosh Hashanah where first day of the new year have you put it on the last of the old year it would look like he's just giving us a consequence but he puts on the first of the new year God is saying I want you to looking at the last year because I love you I love you so much I want to give you exactly what you need to help you grow care works that's what we make a celebration of the day the reason we make a celebration of the day is because we realize the reason God is judging us it's because he wants to give us exactly what we need to perfect ourselves that's a celebration you know He loves us so much that he's willing to take the time to determine exactly what you need and exactly what I need so we could become the perfect human beings that he created us to be you know if you're a good teacher you care about every child in your class and if a child falls asleep in your class what you do you wake them up because you will want each child to get exactly what he can get I was once teaching in Sheva never had a boy in the class every day came to class he put his park over his had any fell asleep I always tried to wake him up I couldn't wake him up I was trying to wake him there's a potential we got one day he woke up he was such a disaster in the class I said to go back to sleep yeah gave his parka purple eyes yep but Hashem doesn't do that to us chef says I'm gonna look what you did in the past because I want to give you exactly what you need for the future so we celebrate this day he loves me so much that he's willing to look at my past to determine exactly what I need to be the perfect human being that he created me to be that's why it's a celebration we celebrate the judgment we make a party about it yo my den but it's a party it's a celebration now hear this answer the final question why do we run to be judged we get up early rush Hashanah and we know that when the chauffeur is blown that's when judgment takes place but we rush to hear the chauffeur we're rushing to be judged and God says you come to me early in the morning and you want to be judged I'll sweeten the judgment I'll make it sweet something I've worked looks like this you know this is just a metaphor one time my daughter what's not a true story take my daughter Shoshanna let's say she's 7 years old one day I get a call from the teacher and the teacher says nah the craft I need to talk to you I said what's the matter it's about your daughter Shoshanna I said what's the problem said the problem is that I've seen her in the classroom at lunch when no other girls are there she reaches in to other girls knapsacks and she steals their erasers I looked in her desk she has a collection there of about 50 erasers with different you know cartoon figures and different animals and they all belong to other girls in the class said rabbi craft you have a daughter who's a thief you better do something about it so Shoshanna cuts off the school I say Hashanah listen teacher called me you're stealing erasers what's that all about Shana says I never stole a racer in my life I said look your teacher doesn't lie what's happening I don't care anyway so listen China you have to appreciate how it hurts when you lose something that's not yours I'm gonna take your American Girl doll away for two weeks two weeks you can't play with your American Girl doll no Muriel does two weeks you can't play with your American Girl doll I'll buy American Girl doll I love my China you have to feel what it means to lose something what you like now let me change the story a little bit imagine the story goes like this stay is the best part there's the best part this part it's the best part imagine the story changes like this one day my daughter Shoshanna comes home from school and she says to me ABBA I have to talk to you now Shannon what's the matter since ABBA let's go to the living room I said shuttle what's the matter ABBA I kind of sit down on the couch it's a shower what is it just ABBA I have a problem I say Shoshanna you're seven years old it can't be drugs it can't be you know can't be alcohol what's the problem she said ah I'm so ashamed to tell you I said what is it shun what could possibly be I'll help you just ABBA I'm a thief I said what do you mean in a thief every time I see a little eraser that has a little animal on it or a little color on it I steal it and I put it in my desk and I have fifty erasers in my desk at school and I'll but you have to help me I'm a thief but I hate myself but so what do I say I says you shot a listen it's gonna be okay it's gonna be all right I'm gonna help you I have a plan I'm gonna make a chart and put on the refrigerator Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday for two weeks every day you're gonna come from school I'm gonna ask you a question did you steal an eraser if you say no I'm gonna put a gold star she comes home on Monday did you steal the eraser gold star Tuesday do you see the racer no gold star Wednesday you still eraser she says oh it's so difficult if I didn't steal gold star Thursday gold star Friday go to start next week Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday gold stars at the end of two weeks I say Shoshanna you got two exact little stars and Sunday were going to Manhattan I were to go to the American Girl doll store I'm gonna buy you another American Girl doll another 150 bucks never expensive these stuff usually grandparents by the nut no question what changed when the teacher called me how come I have to respond really harshly she wasn't aware she had the problem but when she came to me and said ABBA when she came to me and said Abba when she came to me and she said Abba I have a problem then the fixing up process can be very sweet why because she's aware she has a problem and she wants me to help them and as long as she knows she has a problem I'll make the repairs sweet as I could make it you have God says to us get up early and ask to be judged because when you're coming to me to be judged what are you saying to me you say to me that I'm not perfect - Shem and I want to repair and I want you to give me exactly what I need to help me become the person that you created me to be so we should have said when you come to me because you're aware that you want to be different so I can make the judgment so sweet I thought you had to lose $10,000 to appreciate money Scott says look we'll do it for 50 bucks I thought you have to get the swine flu to appreciate health God says listen we'll do with a few you know a couple days on a cold we'll make the repair a sweet as we can that's what God says when you ask to be judged and you realize the purpose of the judgment is to repair yourself I'll sweeten the judgment as much as I can and that's why by the way the word shofar in Hebrew the word shofar if you know a little bit of Hebrew you'll appreciate this the word shofar shinpei race is the exact same three letters in Hebrew as this word sheep or what does sheep or mean like sheep or you know what I mean support to improve to improve improvement in Hebrew is sheep or what we blow on Rosh Hashanah is called a shofar shinpai race the same three letters shofar means I want to improve that's what it means we blow a shofar we ask to be judged we're blowing at the saint of God I want so badly to have your judgement because I realize the judgment is giving me everything I need to perfect myself I want to improve what God realizes that's our intention to make the judgment beautiful and sweet so my friends that's what's going on Rosh Hashanah God puts it on the first day of the new year to teach us I don't want to punish you I want to look at the past like a CEO of a company looks at the past year's performance determine how I could fix it up for the new year which I spent on the first day of the new year so you know it's forward-looking we make a celebration over it why we're celebrating the god the fact that God loves us so much that he wants to help us change and we rush to hear the chauffeur because we're asking God to please judge us and God says because when I see that you want to change then I can make this this via can make the judgment sweet I can give you an American Girl doll I don't have to take away American Girl doll I can make it a sweet beautiful judgment and we learn it all from the auto Nareesha the fact he was judged on this day and the judgment he received was the perfect solution to his problem we understand that everything God gives us a Rosh Hashanah this can be the perfect solution to that which we need to help affect ourselves and that's the day itself so what's our job on the day you know our job is on the day I'm Russia shining your job and my job is to stand before God and to think wherever we are in the synagogue we're not in the synagogue say to God a Shem I so badly want to change I so badly want to be close to you I know that I'm not perfect and I know you're the king give me a sweet judgment as a result because I'm aware of who I want to be help me get there when my daughter comes to me and says she has a problem on the first two helper I'll help her in the sweetest possible way but the teacher has to tell me that she has a problem I have to be a little more strict so we have to come before God and tell God you're the king Who am I I so badly want to be close to you I so badly want to change give me the ability give me the tools give me the skill and do it in such a sweet way and I know you will do it in a sweet way because I know the whole day is a day of love you're judging me you're looking at me only because you love me it's din its judgment but as judgment that's the result of love when judging is loving that's the name this lecture when judging is loving it should be a sweet year for everybody seriously at all meticulous [Music]