UNDERSTANDING GOD - MUSSAR Iggeret HaRAMBAN (12)

[Music] some new faces some old faces and very good to see you guys we can continue our I also have a present for you guys you get at the end of this year uh there's a uh something that you should have in your wallet or in your pocket and come with you that's going to remind you of the six there six in the Tor that you have to fulfill at all times which is one of the things that we're going to discuss the my dear Mother Doris Sana [Music] and all so we are only a few days away from T it's a very holy day that uh a lot of people uh take advantage of not only to fast but to complain about fasting uh but also sometimes they actually watch sometimes they watch t um but what I've noticed is the um at least in the last five six years we've been doing Zim I've paid a lot more attention to uh to lectures that other people do and overall Orthodoxy and Judaism and general much more than I did in my entire life and I could tell you that um the the tone has changed the tone for has changed uh interestingly enough where throughout all of the generations for the last couple of thousand years it's been a main day that uh technically you're supposed to cry hysterical and if you did not cry on you did not fulfill the Mitzvah you didn't fulfill the Mitzvah why if you didn't cry what kind of chuva did you really do do you understand what we lost do you understand what we had what what do you understand about the shab other than the fact that you can't eat what else do you understand oh when's the fast going to be over okay fine what else other than that all the shoes what else other than that the problem is is that people have forgotten why we're fasting um and um the uh the tone has changed what's changed over the last couple of thousand years it's a uh it was a to read and uh Lamentations and anyone that understands the words uh simply doesn't need to be a big but will begin crying no later than by the third chapter once they start talking about how punished his own children with such horrible awful punishments that even on your enemies you wouldn't want to wish such a thing but unfortunately he doesn't have feelings like we do he has reward he has punishment but it's not in the same measures as us so when we violate the Torah when pretty much runs out of patience if you will and the dean is passed on the people it's a very very horrible thing and for those that have read a few books about what happened during the Holocaust you understand what I'm talking about for those who did not then you should you should read about it because it'll give you at least an inclination of what happened during Tish a few times and in fact what happened on TSH in the beta mikdash the first one the second one was actually worse than the Holocaust believe it or not now when you read about it you cry you cry simply because even if you don't know these people they lived a few thousand years ago just the fact that they endured so much pain it's hard to bear it's hard for for for a human heart to Bear such things it's also hard to understand that we're also part of that equation because the gar says that any generation where the BET mikdash was not built it's as if it was destroyed meaning that we today are responsible for the destruction of the BET mikdash today now for the last couple of thousand years the tradition has been that you cry during this day and you do serious chuva during day as the page 15 a says in M there that is not interested in you ripping your clothes and wearing sacks he says to the prophet you tell them to stop ripping their clothes and and wearing sacks I'm not interested in their sacks and they're ripping their clothes and they're fasting I'm interested in chuva I'm interested in them ripping their hearts that's what he's interested in you think hm cares what your diet is if you eat you don't eat what doesm care about that the point is is to lower the materialism in order to connect to spirituality so has been a notorious day for to do but what I've noticed over the last several years is that the tone has changed drastically where instead of rebuking the people and trying to break their hearts a little bit and convince them to do CH to return to Our Father in Heaven by fixing our rotten midot by fixing all of the things that we took for granted by taking a advantage of the free choice if you will that we have to such an extent that we actually start believing we can do whatever we want with no Consequence the tone has changed so much that today you'll notice and I'm not a prophet or a son of a prophet but I bet you anything that on Su day you're going to turn on a few lectures B we're going to have our own lecture over here in the other location in the afternoon the times I'll report later on but you'll tone in you'll tune in with a few lectures and a lot of speakers and you'll hear a different type of tone a tone that's relatively motivational everyone's going to say oh we need to love each other Unity you know just like the destruction of the BET mdash was baseless hatred then it should be baseless love you should just love any Jew you see love him give him a hug that's what you should do be motivated you know maybe start break dancing in around the truck in the middle of the highway or something if you want and you'll see how the lectures quickly turns into a motivational speech of how we're great and we're fantastic and we're this and by the time the lecture is finished there's not a single human being watching it that's thinking about an idea maybe I need to fix something maybe I'm resp me me me me maybe I am responsible for destroying the mdash the rest of you are I'm the one responsible mikash not a single person is going to do that why he's so motivated by the end of the lecture he's like why is you know what maybe I'm maybe I'm supposed to maybe I'm supposed to bring everything like somebody sent me a mail the other yesterday yeah every I told you guys quota is two mashia per week we went down for a little while we're only at one per week now we're at two we're two again the alltime high was three mashia per week was sending me emails but for some reason they're all broke they all need money kind of broke mashia they really take this donkey thing seriously so any anyway so mashia s me uh sent me a Facebook message says listen I saw the BET mdash today I saw the BET mdash today but when I wanted to take a picture it disappeared a person really thinking that the mashia what does that really mean aside from people being crazy that's that's that's a that's a that's theat what does it mean it means that our our pride is so high that every one of us actually thinks we're mashia every one of us thinks a little bit maybe I'm mashah even if you're a girl even if you're not Jewish even if you're like uh not even sure if you're human yet you're species something you're alive why we think so highly of ourself that we don't think what me mashia what well I kept Shabbat last week what's the rabbi I kept the whole Shabbat I kept I kept the whole Shabbat I'm mashia already anytime something wrong happens we think why does Shem do this to me why doesm do this to me and part of the reason is because instead of doing CH in days like we're being motivated motivated into a a state of numbness where we simply don't even think about CH think that we need to fix anything think that there's anything wrong the most that the average Jew think there's something wrong is maybe the anti-Semitism it's happening in the neighborhood or maybe because they don't like the current political leaders or perhaps they don't like the tax rates in their Town that's what they think is the problems of and unfortunately that's not the problem the reality is is that when we learn about what our sages did during tab we see that it's quite different than us the sages would literally bring themselves to a state of mind where they lived they lived during the destruction during the mourning as if they just found out that their children were killed that their parents were killed and they understood that there own insignificance their own insignificance is contributing to the fact that the mashia has not come yet to the fact that has not brought the salvation but the problem is today is that unfortunately many of us have so much GAA so much pride that insignificance and me meaning ourself are never in the same sentence in fact nine out of 10 people that are going to hear this Sho are already offended RAB you call call me insignificant you call me ins you know what I did last week you know how much I did last week you know how much I gave you know how much I did everybody has a report of everything they ever did in their life ready it's like a to-do list on an iPhone or some phone that you have there's all the things I did Rabbi what do you mean significant how much of aik I am I prayed three times yesterday I even did I did did you know what kind of I have when I do I could already feel the more you learn the more you understand how insignificant you are what is it like I'm not good with jokes so pretend like you're going to laugh on this one there was one time an elephant now elephants are big they bigger than me elephants are big one time an elephant didn't notice but there was an ant farm you know millions and millions of ants right under his foot he didn't pay attention he stepped on it all the ants hey hey what are you doing hey you see we're here what are you doing just killed George and Steve and Jose what's the matter with you the elephant only speaks elephant he doesn't know what do you want he just keeps walking so one of the ants says you're not you're not even looking at me he starts climbing I'm going to get he starts climbing he starts climbing the elephant starts climbing the elephant he goes to his to his to his neck the rest of the guys the rest of the an see what he's there get him get him get him choke him out that's [Laughter] us two guys left that's us we think we can we think is on our level but the reality is the difference between the ant and the elephant is much smaller than the difference between us and the ramban almost 900 years ago wrote a letter to give us a little bit of an understanding of where we stand and why we need to do chuva on a day-to-day basis for some things that we don't even realized they were commanded to do until now the ramban has told us that we should listen to that we should constantly focus on our own but at the same token focus on other people's n when you are speaking to people make sure that you know who you're dealing with and how to deal with them make sure that you realize that if your rebuke is going to come out of anger then it's not rebuke it's rather it's gaav it's it's Pride you know people love to tell others what to do but the reality is that when you rebuke people in order to help them do chuva it's not about telling them what to do it's about warning them and there's a very big difference between the two what is it like kid asks his mom if he can go out with his friends the mom says no no come on IMA no I want to go no why not I I don't feel like you want I don't want you go what am I going to do nothing I just don't feel like you that's just telling you what to do that's telling you what to do it's not warning you about anything there's nothing to be he wants to go play in a yard or something there's no warning here she just telling you what to do warning is she grabs you she pulls you out because the car's coming and after she slaps you in the face so you're careful next time that's warning that's warning m is supposed to be like that m is not supposed to necessarily be telling you what to do quite the opposite it's supposed to be that slap that wakes you up and warns you from continuing this Behavior because this behavior is damaging it's damaging to everybody around you but it also includes yourself but if that m is coming out of anger then it's not M it's just simply you liking to tell people what to do and the ran already writes in the beginning of the letter that if you're going to get yourself to anger you should know that is the one's controlling you all of the Demons all of the bad things in the world that's what's controlling you it's not AEM it's not something good it's something bad that's controlling this rebuke the key is to humble yourself and realize your own insignificance your own insignificance because of how afraid you are of a because how much you want to serve a but most importantly because of how much you care about your brother and sister and their even though today may be the first time you ever talked to them now now the ran goes to the next part and he gives us an elaborate explanation of understanding AEM Shalom said it's a very normal thing for you to have questions about hem it's very normal for you to have questions about hem in fact it's abnormal for you not to have questions about AEM why because if you don't have questions that presumes that you feel like you understand if you feel like you understand theem that's a very serious problem because the biggest sages we ever had said if I understood him I would be him so the ran starts off by telling us meaning he's talking about the he's talking about after you realize that you are going to be called for judgment in front of the king of glory you're going to think about it what are you going to think about and he uses three different first he uses Kings one chapter 8 verse 27 he says then he uses Proverbs 1511 and then he uses a uh Jeremiah 23:24 translation it's this sense of humility once you actually start thinking of your insignificance in comparison to that will remind you of the one before whom you will be called for judgment the king of glory of him it is written behold Heaven and the heaven of Heavens cannot contain you surely not the hearts of men furthermore it's written do I not fill Heaven and Earth says hem after you give this serious thought you will stand in awe of your Creator and you will be guarded against sin in so many words the ran says that if you simply take a little bit of time every day just like the says that you should do you take a little bit of time every single day and realize the significance of a immediately you will arrive at a conclusion of your own insignificance now you also have to tread carefully because if you only think about your own insignificance this could lead you to this could lead you to heresy why you say something like listen I'm such a nothing why does hem even want my MIT I'm such a nothing why would even hem want to listen to my prayers I'm such a nothing why would hasem even accept my CH I made so many sins that's ail that's ail the key is to think of the significance of hasem too but that could also lead you to why see hasem is so big he's so extraordinary you really think he cares if I waste a little seed you really think he cares if I look at this girl you really think he cares if I walk around half naked what Hashem runs the whole universe but he cares about my little outfit that I bought at the dollar store what Hashem cares about my outfit he cares me little all me 5 foot nothing he cares about me he has 8 billion people in the world that's also so what the say okay don't think of one or the other think of both his significance along with your own insignificance his significance that yes he's so big and so extraordinary that of course he notices and pays attention to every single little thing that little old nothing me is doing that's how big he is is he's so big that out of all the things in the world he's also paying attention to me now this is a very very critical thing to try to meditate over and think about because this is one of the maps one of the key ingredients to arrive at at the of now in our generation something happened along the way where money became God for people people take things too seriously when they read it in the old days there was a uh radio show and one guy was reading a book they used to read books on the radio I don't even know if anybody listens to the radio anymore but in the old days they used to actually listen to this thing called radio and he used to read books on the radio and one time this guy read a book about this uh UFOs UFOs coming they came to this place it was a new book now the people that tuned in a few minutes into it they didn't know it was a book so they thought it was the news so they started going crazy they started getting scared All Over America why they thought there's a UFO attack somewhere along the way the radio stopped becoming the news and we uh started taking books seriously even if the books themselves weren't serious even if they were written by Heretics and if it's in a book it must be valuable you see some guy on his bio it says oh he wrote 30 books wow he must be a yeah but what kind of books did he write what's in the books oh I don't know it's 30 books and man takes a lot of time why you just press why a thousand times that's one book what did he write in the book what's in the book that they never thought about just see the number 30 books 40 books 10 books makes you a New York time besteller oh best seller best seller by the way is determin just so you know I spoke to a publisher it's determined before the book even hits the Shelf it does it it is it's determined before the book they decide before they actually sell it if it's going to be best seller cuz they already put it on the cover now sometimes people read things in a book and they take it seriously and along the way the United States of America decided that they're going to write an a dollar bill in God we trust so people misinterpreted it even till this day where they think that oh it says on a dollar Bill and God We Trust they must mean that the dollar is God now everybody here is say no come on Rabbi I don't think the dollar is God but how do you behave if somebody gave you right now $1,000 to leave would you leave that can come back any amount of money that means dollar is God for you any amount of money a thousand 100 a million a billion any amount of money if you prefer to go get money instead of listening to instead of the words of the Living God the words from the Tor myy to you is God bottom line unfortunately sometimes we simply don't take things seriously enough we think no no I'll just watch it tomorrow who say you're going to live till tomorrow no I'll just I'll just do when I get a chance you know right now RAB I got $1,000 in my pocket I givea we justify our sins as if they're mitv now the problem is is that we still have not understood that in the Torah Tora is also a book there are also things written in the book and this week's we start a new book the fifth book of the Torah this fifth book was actually the journal if you will of mosenu out of the five books the first book four books were narrated by God the fifth book was actually written by mosu thees told include this book with the rest of them why you think like meu was isim was the man of God hasem calls him that mosu had no desires like us he didn't want anything he wanted what Hashem wants now this book is the last month and a half of Moshe abu's life so you would think somebody that just spent 40 years with his people he would give them guys we we had a good time right he we had some party we had some barbecues we got the Ten Commandments you know a few guys got in trouble remember K yeah he died don't do what he did but listen let's have a good time I love you a little Kumbaya little hugs little kisses right anybody reachs the book of Deuteronomy and actually understands what it's written here does Chua if you read it and you didn't do cha that means you didn't understand it why the entire book from the first alif from the first letter until the end is rebuke the walls the walls do chv by listening to to what said here how much rebuke how muchu gives us stuff that's scary to death if you understand it but he starts these are the words words that Moshe spoke to all of Israel on the other side of the Jordan concerning the Wilderness concerning theah opposite the Sea of reads between and say these are the words what words what words said look at the rest of the book the rest of the book is full of rebuke it's full of scary stuff that if you understand it you simply just start crying the whole time why because these are the words of the Living God these are the words gave to to tell us this is your goodbye message instead of saying I love you I'll miss you and all that stuff he says listen carefully if you sin hashm is going to rip you apart with 50 million pieces and then he's going to do it over and over again and over and over again and over and over again until you say stop and then it'll do it again that's a NE what M told him for five weeks straight now we think that some of the stuff is scary and we'll write about it but it's supposed to be why because this Same Book of Deuteronomy the same cph also gives us a few Commandments that we have in the Torah that were actually not only obligated to do they're not only part of the 613 mitv but they're also part of the six mitv that every Jew has to fulfill 24 hours a day seven days a week all the time as long as they have a breath in their lung in fact some of these mitv even the non-jews are obligated to do now I'll give you an example of some of these and like I said I brought a bunch of extras you can have them this is a a good reminder I'm just going to go over the surface you guys can read the details later on now there are six that said you have to fulfill at all times these are the that you're obligated to do that in essence it is connecting you to connecting your at all times if you do not fulfill such aah it is a problem a very serious problem it's not these are not suggestions first mitvah believe that there is one God that created everything in the world this seems like a simple belief for anyone that thought about the creation but today there are a lot of people that self-proclaim themselves proudly that they're atheist that they believe we all came from nothing eventually they'll find out that they were nothing but they didn't come from nothing the point is that a person needs to constantly realize that there's only one God the second m not to believe in any other gods as it says you shall not have any other gods beside me this again this is a constant belief it's not only a belief that you should have generally speaking oh no I believe in God no no no you have to constantly actively think how a connects to everything in your life you see a light oh hasem created this light you see a dog oh hasm created this dog you see something beautiful wow look at the beauty hasem could have created everything gray but he created colors and he created smells and created tastes you start seeing the beauty of the creation you'll understand the beauty of the Creator himself but needless to say if you think something else made it that defies the original the third mitvah is to believe that he is one as it says that not not only that there no other gods there were never other gods he is the only God and he's the god of is he can never he's never going to replace the nation he's never going to be the god of the Christians the god of the Arabs the god of some other new tribe he's God of the world but as far as his chosen people it's us which means that you have to know that brought everything into being by his own will and he watches everything in the world by himself he has no helpers all of the angels that he have it's not because he needs their help Shalom to think that a needs help from Angels is so why does AEM have have these angels countless countless Angels many more Angels than there are humans because it's not the way of a king to serve himself the fourth Mitzvah is to love AEM blessed is he as it says you have to love AEM how can you love AEM if you never saw him you can't see him you can't smell him you can't taste him you can't use your five senses to connect him how can you love him through his Torah by fulfilling his Torah by fulfilling the words of the Torah you are actively practicing your love the fifth Mitzvah is to have fear of a at all times to be afraid of a to be in awe of a as it says in Deuteronomy 10: 20 you shall fear your God now if there's a train coming your way it's very easy to think about God cuz that's your only help you're desperate the key is to remember God when there is no train but rather there's some type of desire there's someone attractive coming your way there's a bunch of illegal money coming your way there's a bunch of delicious non kosher food on your plate there's a bunch of opportunities for you to sin and it looks really delicious that's why the six mitvah says the six mitvah you have to fulfill 24 hours of days to not stray after your thoughts or your eyes meaning that watching your eyes and not looking at im's things is not a suggestion from the sages or AEM it's a commandment it's a commandment from because if you look at things you'll eventually desire them if you desire them you'll chase after them you'll do something about it now these are the six constant MIT there are many other MIT but these other MIT that we have in a you have to fulfill it other times for example Shabbat you cannot fulfill twice a week maximum is once a week yum maximum once a year kosher only applies when there's food in front of you only half the month and so on and so forth but these six mitv are things that you have to fulfill 24 hours a day now the tough part that we have is that we like to compare to something that we know so many times mistakenly we misunderstand some of the or some of even theik and we think that they are actually protraying hasem as if he's a being as if he's something physical tangible similar to the Christians and by making AEM into some type of physicality humanizing God if you will not only is this heresy but it's also minimizing God so that's why the ramban used three different verses from the Torah that will give us an understanding of what you're supposed to think of God first he says behold the Heaven and the heavens of Heavens cannot contain you what does it mean the Heaven and the heaven and Heavens heaven we understand as the sky not just the place it's a sky Heaven of Heavens is the atmosphere outside there's a raia there's above the rakia is outer space so the biggest thing that any one of us can think of is out of space out of space anything you think about out of space you think start thinking about planets how much bigger they are of Earth you look you think about the sun you read somewhere on Google that it says it's 93 million miles away and it's 90 million times the size of Earth and all these fancy schmancy numbers and you think wow it's really big so you think of out of space that's the biggest thing you can think of even though when you go to the ocean and you feel like you're a nothing you realize that this ocean is nothing in comparison to outer space so we think of outer space we think that's the biggest thing there is that's the mistake we think logically by saying is Among Us in the world in essence in our own mind without thinking about it enough and reading and understanding what it's supposed to mean we think that aadh is inside the world with us like he's a Among Us inside the world like he's in outer space somewhere he's also here he's also there but in general he's inside the world he's inside the universe that's the mistake the verse here says the Heaven and the heavens and Heavens cannot contain you meaning that all of Earth all of outer space the entire universe all of the Milky Ways all of the different things everything and anything that we've seen and can imagine is zero literally zero in comparison to a it cannot contain them meaning that the world is inside God not God is inside the world God is the creation everything else God is the creator but everything is within him not he's within his own creation that's something that you can only arrive if you think about it why because we humanize God often we put a picture sometimes we'll Draw Something sometimes we'll think of letters sometimes we'll do different things in order to humanize God so we think we can relate to him easier but it's quite the contrary so the prophet says the world is too big to contain a is the rabbi saying the world is physically within God or physically within God too God is not a physical being if you will but in essence what it would if to explain it is if there was a physical being if you will the world would be similar to how this cup and in essence the Creator would be the world around this cup the world is an insignificant creation among in comparison to hem and Hashem is bigger than the world it's not that the world contains AEM inside it so now not physically Hashem doesn't have an image or a likeness of an image but as far as the the uh the essence of God is again among the world and not inside the world so the um hashm is not restricted to a certain capacity so that's why we can't say that he is a certain size bigger than the world or in comparison to the world but in essence what the prophet is telling us is that the world is within Hashem not Hashem is within the world now the prophet continues and he says since the heavens and the heaven of Heavens cannot contain you surely not the hearts of men meaning that the hearts of men people simply try to humanize God try to minimize God and then they try to figure our way of how to rationalize God and the problem with that is that that will always lead you to because by minimizing God you are going to Simply act towards him as if he's a human this is what the Christians have done this is unfort what many Jews are still doing to this day by praying to people and that's why the prophet says surely not the hearts of men meaning that even the hearts of men cannot really have the capacity to understand the true significance of God but then in order to understand that Our obligation is to realize our insignificance but at the same token hashem's significance so then the rambam writes the ramban writes another verse from theah where he says do I not fulfill the Heaven and the Earth says hem meaning don't think that just because you're ins significant that means that I'm too big for you to care about what you're doing am I not the god that's in Heaven and Earth meaning just because I'm so big and I have so much going on and I know every single thought that you have ever had in every single Carnation that you've ever been in since you probably can't remember what you thought about 20 minutes ago you don't remember what you thought about 20 minutes ago normal human beings do not remember what they thought about 20 minutes ago they remember some things they thought about the things that were usually significant but not all the junk you remember like a thought oh that was a good idea I thought about for like 30 40 seconds oh that's a good one I thought about for five minutes oh that's a good one I thought about it for 5 hours you think about the you remember the the significant ones but all the stuff you don't remember it is telling us I remember and know every single thought not just every action every single thought that you have ever had not just today not just yesterday not just last week or last month or last year or 10 years ago but every single thought that each and every single one of us and every human being that ever existed since the beginning of mankind and until the end every thought they've ever had now this is so unimaginable for a human being that even someone that's righteous had a hard time understanding it the toah tells us a story about the prophet job and the prophet job was righteous but he made a mistake because he was dealing with a lot of pain where literally in a matter of hours he lost everything and anything that was any value to him by the time he realized the magnitude of one damage another damage even bigger happened to him first somebody came to him and told him listen all the Farms all your merchandise all the things that were worth millions and billions and made you the richest guy in town everything burned down to the ground by the time he was digesting this message somebody else came to him oh by the way uh your kids you know all 10 of them they all got together they were having a lunch and the building collapsed and killed all of them and one message after another literally his whole life collapsed in a matter of hours after that wasn't enough continued testing him and he destroyed his health so much so that the worms and maggots started coming out of his body not going into his body you know dead people their bodies the maggots eat them it's not fun it's not fun it's going to happen to everybody though at some point that's just the way it is it's a reality we talked about last week now that's what happens to bodies if you you want to see what's going to happen go buy a piece of steak don't waste your money on something kosher go buy something non kosher put it outside in the hot in the hot sun after 3 hours you're going to see all wonderful new creatures that's what's going to happen to every single body in the person in the world animals men everybody that's what happens to the body you want to see what's going to happen that's what's going to happen so that should at least give us an idea of how insignificant we really are in comparison to now job was so sick that the maggots started coming out of his body not going in he was in so much Agony and pain that he thought maybe there's something wrong maybe one of these angels that hasem uses you know each one of these angels like a Rolls-Royce he got six wings says it's got six wings he goes here he goes there they're big they're strong he says you know hashem's world it's all like letters the alive bit you know it's like you know people saw the movie The Matrix they thought the Matrix gave a to world it's not a the whole world is made of theive so he said you knowem has one of these angels maybe one of these Angel slipped up and like ran into my name aov and he messed up the spelling of my name instead of aov the the the ud and the V you know they they switch spots so what does it mean instead of a which means job in English it's Now spells o o is enemy so instead ofik oh this is this is oh yeah is my enemy that's why that's why all this stuff is happening to me him himself came to job and told him you think I made a mistake with your name you think I can make a mistake and mispell your name and Mis Mis Miss shoot everything everything that's happen happened this is like a misfire you think I can make a mistake he says all of the stars in the world I created for you the page 32b says that the Universe has one Z 64 3 40 and then 12 zos number of stars a precise number and says I created all of these Stars just for you and each one of these Stars has a name even more so each one of your hairs each one of your hairs has to get its owna its own sustenance it's called sweat without sweat it's not going to survive but you'll notice the no two hairs can ever grow out of the same exact pore they can be close and something that you could only notice from a microscope but it's never the same exact Poe why because if there are two hairs coming out of the same pore immediately the person goes blind meaning that makes sure that each one of our hairs that apparently have names in heaven each one of your hairs on your head you don't even know how many hairs you have in your head you don't even know how many hairs you have in the back of your hand but Hashem says all the hairs on on your head they have names and they have numbers and they have everything and I give them their own individual why if one of them stole a little bit of P from the the hair next door immediately the person loses his vision with all of that knowledge about every one of your heads every one of the Stars every one of the Creations every one of the thoughts that you've ever had you still think that I can make a mistake with your name so we learned from here that he still remained a sadik he did chv but we also learn that we don't judge a person at a time of his pain meaning that Hashem did not punish him for what he said at this time because this is during a time of pain and Agony now theim explained to us that if we simply take advantage of our limited understanding of a life becomes much easier simply because you understand what your role in is in the world and you develop relatively quickly why because you realize that the in the Tor are not suggestions somebody that I say listen you know you should keep Shabbat say yeah it's hard for to me it's hard for me to keep Shabbat you know you really shouldn't touch the uh you know woman if she's nid if you're not married then she has to be nid and if you touch her when she's n even if you're just holding hands that's it's the worst punishment in the Tor yeah but I really care about her oh you know on you're supposed to fast yeah it's hard for me you know people that have these types of excuses simply never thought about it they think that Hashem suggested you follow the Torah not commanded that's the problem we think that the Torah is a bunch of suggestions like a recommendations like a to-do list like something you should do before you die but schl says that if you really thought about it if you really thought about the Creator you'd simply understand that this is not really a suggestion and the only thing that you should chase after throughout your entire life is to fulfill the Mitzvah of fearing a because that's the Mitzvah that's going to save you from your own stupidity because your stupidity will tell you no no no come on no I don't feel like fasting no come on I don't feel like keeping the entire Shabbat like somebody told me one time you know maybe I could keep half a Shabbat maybe I keep half of Shabbat I told this he says you should tell them maybe hasm is only going to make half their body work you know just the right side go like this maybe only half of the brain is going to work what do you mean half of Shabbat what does that mean half Shabbat I have a few a few people that I see sometimes oh I dare you to keep an hour of Shabbat for what what's the point where you telling the guy he's he's permitted to go against hasem for the rest of Shabbat no but it's getting him started in what what is he getting started in allowing himself to sin either it's real or it's fake either we eat pork on Yip or we keep the entire Tor there's no half of Shabbat there's no half of a mitvah there's no no no no listen we don't go out all the time but you know just on weekends I don't eat non kosher all the time just you know whenever I go away once you start allowing yourself to sin at different random time times of your choice you simply justify sinning all the time and you're minimizing God to be just like you if you could please tell everybody to stop going in and out it's not a bus stop if they want to stay out they could stay out they want to come in come in it's not a bus stop and anyone that's not paying attention please leave you're distracting everybody else the phones all that other stuff shut it off if you can't shut it off often leave says this is the only thing that's going to save you in the world why your stupidity is such a high level you think that you have a free choice that doesn't have a consequence what are you supposed to do then says in Proverbs Chapter 20 chapter 2 verse number four if you seek it out as you seek silver and search it as you search for buried Treasures then you will comprehend the fear of Hashem meaning that even after working on developing in fear of hem at the best bet we're only going to comprehend the need for truly fearing ashem and not necessarily arrive at a true fear of hem like we're supposed to have now had some wonderful students one of them was blaz love Shalom and he wrote a book I have in front of me here this is a book this is probably one of the best not probably it's one of the best mus are books that ever exists but it's also very very difficult you have to read it at least 100 times just to understand part of it not that the English the language is difficult is that it's very deep and RAB Blazer says you know it's very interesting the human beings naturally are scared of everything you see a bug oh oh oh what happened oh it's a spider oh it's a it's a beetle oh it's a everybody jumps you see a rat everybody oh rat what is he going to do steal your money what is he going to do this rat snake snake snake everybody starts jumping dancing Everybody's scared of stuff naturally naturally if I saw I also be scared but that's us we all jump on we're all scared of stuff if it moves doesn't move people are scared naturally scared of stuff po we're scared of being alone we're scared of being the you know being not just alone we're scared of living alone we're scared of even having independent thoughts we're scared like we're the only ones that's going to think One Way Or Another We're scared of being poor we're scared of being sick we're scared of failing we're scared of pain we're scared of death we're scared of the future we're scared of that we can't fix the past we're scared of everything that we don't know meaning that naturally a normal human being is constantly scared you work overtime because you're scared that you're either not going to be able to pay the bills or you're scared that you're not going to be able to compete with the Joneses in the block that are building a third floor or you're scared that maybe you're not going to have enough money to go to the best school or have the best car and so on and so forth that's why we justify and rationalize why we should work so many hours and learn so little we're constantly constantly scared and that's what motivates Us in life but yet Blazer asks the million dollar question why are we scared of a naturally if you believe in AEM you believe in a god you believe in a Creator you believe that he's the master of all the creator of all the knower of all how come you're not naturally scared of him and he's not he says I'm not talking about the secular people or the people that are not really so religious no no he says I'm talking about religious people your average religious guy doesn't really care about hasem to such an extent that he's constantly thinking about oh no no I'm scared was going to think about he doesn't think that he just does what he does she does what he does she wears what she wears she does doesn't think twice if it's sanua or it's not sanua it looks good I'm wearing it he doesn't think is this honest business or not honest business it's money it's profit I'm doing it nine out of 10 times there's money in front of you you forget God this is a very serious problem why this is exactly the only thing we're supposed to be scared of you're not supposed to be scared of the Cockroach why if hasem want want to kill you doesn't need a cockroach you're not supposed to be scared of the snake if hasm wants to kill you doesn't need a snake you're not supposed to be scared of some uh you know explosion in some mountains volcano doesn't a doesn't need a volcano he can simply decides off what's it heart stop doesn't even heart brain little blood cell stops traveling decid you know what I'm going to stay here why the rest of the blood say why you staying here I don't know I want to clock I want to hang out with a bunch of guys do a barbecue yeah but you realize the guy's gonna die okay bye I like it here look see his veins nice I like the with view looks good the veins and the blood just decides to stop traveling huh it clots a few friends come join them like you know what look on vacation I'm coming all them come they all CL guy's dead we're not talking about he's dead in like a week seconds seconds Hashem doesn't need a gun to shoot someone doesn't need it he can use an infinite amount of tools that he has to do his will so the question is if the snake is not really the thing that's going to kill us and the market crashing is is not going to kill us and the car is crashing is not going to kill us it's only AEM how come we're not naturally scared of Hashem we're scared of everything else but not AEM the secret is is that R Blazer writes in his holy book is that this is the real free will this is what free will is really you guys have asked me at least a handful of times over the last few months to describe how free will works this is the deepest of deep answers everything around you that's in your world you're scared of even though you shouldn't be thear says there was one time a very big snake that was killing people they came to RAB and they said RAB there's a big snake he's killing people we have no no way to catch him no way to defend him he's too big he's too dangerous says okay show me where he is they came they show him a big hole in the ground without being scared for a moment stuck his leg inside the hole everyone is watching in suspense moments later starts pulling his leg out and the snake that bit it died meaning the snake that's full of Venom that killed countless people he was supposed to kill but he died why says it's the sins that kill not the snakes meaning was at such a high level of Holiness that he literally understood that he had no sins and there was no right for this snake there's no permission for this snake to kill him consider suicide no suicide not considered suicide now if you did it you commit suicide because you would die if you now it would be a different story but then your name would be in the and I would every time i' mention your name I'd have to say but the point is is that understood something that's hard for us to understand which is it's not the snakes that kill it's not the bullets that kill it's not the terrorists that kill it's not the anti-emetics that kill it's not the economy that kills it's not disease that kills it's not cancer that kills it's not anything that kills it's the sin that kills so now Blazer explains to us is that if a person understands that it's only their actions that lead a to a reaction that would easily allow you to arrive at a conclusion that not only you shouldn't but you're not allowed to be afraid of anything but him anytime you're afraid of anything it's a certain amount of distance from the emit from the truth doesn't make you a bad person it's just that there's a limited amount is's a certain amount of distance between you and where you're supposed to be now with that being said where does free choice come in the explain everything is from Heaven except the fear of Heaven meaning that whether it's a bug or it's a car or it's a train or a disease or whatever it is that's out there all of that is decided by Heaven everything that's happening in the world the market up the market down everything and anything you have a job you have a marriage you have kids you're tall you're short you're whatever you are all of that is from Heaven all of that is from hasem the only thing that you have in your hands is whether you choose to fear AEM or not that's free choice free choice doesn't mean you could do whatever you want and there's nothing's going to happen it just you could do whatever you want but something will happen that whatever you want is dictated based on your level of fearing hasem if you fear Hashem then what you want to do will reflect that you fear hem you're going to want to pray a few times a day you fear hem you're going to want to learn his every day you fear hem you're going to want to eat kosher food every day you fear hasem you're only going to leave the house if you are modest you fear you're only going to leave the house if you know for sure that you could protect your eyes and not look at anything that's moving if you fear hem You're simply going to constantly think about hem and your actions will be decreed will be determined based on your level of fear why because you know that anything that you do will have a consequence you look at the im's girl there's a consequence for that there's a Mal named p that will have a with you comes from the word p p means to entice you his job is to entice you to look at things that are not modest you look oh you failed okay now you and me going to have a date it starts at the grave that's where it starts it's not a fun time he doesn't have barus now a person that has and I think wait a minute I want to look at this billboard that I know in the corner of my eye from my peripheral vision it has some girl that doesn't have any clothes I want to look at it but what can I do that my father in Heaven says no and when he says no he's not suggesting he's commanding when he's commanding in his glory and he's watching and he's recording that means that if I do it there is no way in the world that I could get out of it without having a punishment there's no way in the world yes um you rather do things out of love forem than fear of punishment if if you could arrive at love without being afraid for him you would be a new species simply because it's not possible to love something that you don't understand what it is and as soon as you understand what AEM is immediately you become scared because you realize that a runs the world he is the one that's going to decide whether all of your blood cells will work he's the one that decides whether you're going to have money in your pocket he's the one that decides whether you're going to get married or you're going to die single he's going to decide whether you're going to have kids or not have kids he's the one that's going to decide whether you're going to breathe or not he's going to decide whether your eyes are going to work or not that will make any normal human being afraid why because I'm depending on him now Love by itself of AEM is not possible why is it not possible writes in that people that think that they only love AEM but they don't need fear they're simply called shim they're called drunks why why drunk because the drunk if you ever notice people that are drunks they like to talk a lot usually they like to talk and they think they make sense and they're going to start telling you all their theories oh do this you should do that he wants definitely he doesn't talk when he's not drunk but he wants to talk when he's drunk cuz he thinks he's normal he thinks that the ideas are best after he's drunk just like some people think that once they're high their ideas are much better their ideas are much more elaborate no my mind expands when I'm high yeah oh yeah well it's not it's not killing brain cells you're the only human on earth that the that the marijuana doesn't kill brain cells you're a k you're a new thing no my mind I connect to hem much better when I'm high yeah you're going to connect him in G perfect why that's what happens said to the two sons of you could be you have to serve me a certain way they decide to take matters into their own hands they wanted to serve hem but a little bit their way so what they had a little shot they a little shot right before they went to K kashim you know what happened killed both of them why did he kill them because a is not our friend you can't serve him the way you want so the explains to that if you think you could only love God without fearing him simply you're a drunk and the reason why is because any normal human being that understands the significance of a simply arrives at a conclusion that he must be scared how so anybody here ever feel like somebody's watching you like you're on the camera feel like you're on a camera right but this camera is not really recording you it's recording me mostly once in a while it shows your face but nothing's going to happen out of the camera but let's say for example you walking into a store and it was something really really like something delicious you wanted you know was like a bar of something and you really really hungry you ever had that am I the only one that ever had that it shows on my way doesn't you so now you you want you're really hungry and you went to your pocket and you came out with nothing like I just have right now nothing but you're so hungry you want to eat the table too right so it happened once in a while right you want you want the bar and it's even kosher glat but you don't have the money and the guy is some arob he's not going to give you anything for free but you're so hungry you almost want to eat your own fingers so you think I'm going to take it I'll come back I'll come back later on today and I'll give him a dollar $2 dollars whatever I'll give him $5 right you want to take you want to steal something especially when you're a kid you don't think it's a big deal but then a second you took it and you're about to put it in your pocket you know your eyes right directly and you saw across the room is a camera staring right at you how happy were you about that camera not so much right why someone's watching you steal someone's watching you steal now sometimes you mess around joke around especially when you're kids you start laughing around breaking stop all of a sudden you see there's a security camera in the side of the building all of a sudden there's cops coming down the road you think it's for you it's not so happy you're not so excited anymore you're not laughing anymore right why cuz somebody's watching his Rabbi was one time he was getting a ride from one city to another and the driver wasn't exactly somebody that had great midot so at some point he pulled over next to one of these farms and he started uh you know making himself at home started taking some fruits from the trees so says no they're watching they're watching the guy said what he dropped all the fruits ran into that started going went 900 miles hour down the road go go go go go past the bridge he's like wow how many were them goes there goes what do you mean goes they're watching they're watching in sham they watch goes no I thought it's people he goes much bigger than that watching in sham everything has being watched in sh what does this mean it means that if you actually understand that a himself is watching every single thing that you're doing every single time you send a text message with a curse word in it every single time you do something inappropriate every single time you think something inappropriate writes it in a book every single time never fails there's never a time that he takes off he doesn't have a break he doesn't have a you know a time where he's he's he takes a vacation every single time any normal human being that actually understands this brings themselves to a level of comprehension that someone is watching them immediately immedately will become scared immediately will become uncomfortable and immediately will start checking their own actions to a point where they'll think twice before doing everything anyone that's leaving can leave quietly so we spent a lot of time talking about fear of God okay and that there are cause and effect and consequences to our actions okay but all of us in our real daily lives God kind of puts a curtain over that we don't really see that cuz we see a lot of wicked evil people doing a lot of bad things okay and then we have a lot of things that the Torah tells us are wrong and maybe we feel it we don't feel it we know we don't but we do a lot of these things we see people doing these things and we don't see a consequence we don't see an effect happening right away we see a lot of people who are righteous and wonderful and living everything according to the Quran we see them suffering in horrible ways okay so it's a very difficult thing it's not that people don't have fear of God maybe no no it's difficult thing to reconcile what we're seeing in our lives with what we're being taught and learning and therefore it's hard to put it into play so the fear of a when we understand that it's a commandment and we realize it's not a suggestion then we realize that all of the things that are happening in our life are happening by the same hand that we're supposed to be scared of meaning that any time that a test is being brought to you and you have an evil person crossing your path taking advantage of you making fun of you doing something to get you off your that is being sent and permitted by tests those he loves now the problem is is that as Blazer says the reason why we do not have fear of hem naturally is because in order to acquire fear of hem we have to think about it meaning it's the only fear that you have to acquire you cannot get it by itself just like schl says you have to think about it delve over it meditate over it understand the creation understand the creation how significant the creation is how insignificant you are and how much how hasem is bigger than both the greater you make AEM and the smaller you make yourself the easier it is to start fearing hasem but this is something that you have to acquire meaning you have to work on it now one of the reasons like you said that people have a tough time fearing hasem is because of different tests that they have different struggles they have in their life now the key ingredient to acquiring fear of hem aside from delving over it is also to understand that Hashem is the one that's the hand it's the one that's constantly doing everything he's the stick he's the he's the staff he's also the stick meaning he's the one that's leading things he's leading the herd to where it needs to go but he's also the stick that hits it sometimes when it goes the wrong way but sometimes we see bad things happen in our life and we immediately arrive at a conclusion that something went wrong maybe hasem made a mistake maybe uh this is uh being missed up there and so on and so forth we don't give AEM what is this like there was a uh certain person from that had learned but one day he got sick and uh there's a very famous Rabbi in is that's a expert in not only diagnosing the problem but telling you exactly who is the best doctor in the world to help you he's an expert there's actually a TV interview done about him about a few years ago very humble sadik and for years he has been known in the community but now he's already known worldwide he's helped many many people all the Top Doctors biggest experts in the world know who he is and he knows who they are are so one time this guy gets sick and the doctor's tell him listen you have some really rare situation um we can't help you we don't have the expertise we have expertise but not expertise to do what you need so he goes to this Rabbi he sits with him he says oh I know exactly what you need you need to go to this doctor he's in London he's the best doctor in the world for this specific thing so the guy makes a call makes an arrangement goes to London they meet with the expert the expert says yes it's a very serious problem but I could do this but it's going to be $100,000 the guy is not exactly Rich so him and his family have to start selling stuff getting money together to get this poor guy his life back they go they raise money they sell stuff long story short they get the money on the day of the surgery the family is scared but at the same time they're excited their ABA is finally going to get the Cure he needs he's finally going to have the surgery this very difficult s surgery but he's going to live so they're all waiting outside patiently and they see I don't know if any of you have ever been to a hospital the doors the surgery room this little little windows and sometimes you get to see a little bit what's going on inside so he sees the doctor the expert the one that he wrote a check for $100,000 in advance he's wearing a t-shirt and shorts like he's going on vacation he doesn't even have the thing on top of his face like he's on vacation he's not even ready for a surgery he's not nothing but then as some other young little doctor comes in doctor oh here you go like he shows him this is the patient and he leaves the family wants to break down the door like this Shak this this this uh this this person is a thief this person is a liar paid him $100,000 he's not even doing a surgery at least you got to do this get why an intern is doing the surgery charge 10,000 not 100,000 you're not he's not the expert you are they want to break in but they're scared maybe they're going to kick us out what are we going to do they stay quietly but they know they have to do something long story short short surgeries performed successfully after the father gets back to himself they tell the father listen ABA we got to do something they took advantage of us he took the $100,000 but it wasn't him it was just some intern some 20-year-old somebody did the whole thing we shouldn't pay we should do the father says no no no it was okay surgery worked don't say a single word they stole 100 th000 and still nothing hem runs the world don't say a word so they had for their AB they didn't say a word 10 years pass as AEM would have it the disease came back he goes back to the same Rabbi expert in is and the Rabbi says yeah you have to go back to the same doctor he's still the only expert in this field he goes back to London he goes to the office oh no sorry he retired it's old already you're tired you have anybody goes oh yeah yeah we have dror so and so oh he's good yeah he's the best so he calls the rabbi from he goes do you know this other doctor he goes oh yeah he's amazing that guy if that if it's not this one I told you this guy's the best go to him so okay we're going to meet him huh they wait in the office and all of a sudden this young guy walks in but looks familiar he starts talking to them he goes you know your family looks familiar what's your name and he tell him the name he takes their file out he goes you were here before he looks the F goes oh I know you you were my first surgery 10 years ago you guys were my first surgery 10 years ago it came back don't worry when you made the $100,000 payment that was a lifetime payment I'll do the surgery for free surgery I'll do it for free you have nothing to worry about you thought that the doctor that was young was a bad thing why ah we paid $100,000 for the veteran thought no no no my friend there is a in sh there's a decree in sh for you to have this disease twice now I can make you suffer with the money and the health twice or money once and health twice which one do you want you don't want either one but this is what's written in meaning that if we give hem the benefit of the doubt the we're always going to see that in the end solution is much better than ours there an that we know inik his father just passed away a week ago and I heard something from him that honestly I don't know I don't know anybody else that would say such a thing that has such a view of the world but this is just to show you why continues to give is more and more time because he yes like this yes people like this now his father died a week ago now before he died he was sick for a few months and during the time that he was sick in the beginning something went wrong with one of the treatments and during that they found out that this actually has cancer in his liver two weeks after they found he has cancer in his liver he died so the says look how kind aad is look how kind a is technically there was already decreeing sh for my father to go but if he would have shocked us one day he's okay next day he diagnosis for cancer in the liver two weeks later he's gone we would all be in shock my father got sick and we already got used to going to the hospital and the doctors and back and forth already for a few months we're back and forth into the doctors we already got used to him being sick we already got used to this new environment this new reality that we have to think maybe he's not going to be here maybe this maybe not at least gave us this difficult decree but with Mercy too he gave us more time to say goodbye how many people get to say goodbye he gave us more time to get used to the situation emotionally how many people get that time quite a few people get that time but not everybody looks at it that way not everybody looks at it that way the thing is though is that again if we give a we give him the benefit of the doubt we'll see that is Solutions even though we don't necessarily understand them there're always better than ours now there are two key ingredients that a person must have along with along with fear of a a person as we said has to believe in hasem believe that he's the only Creator but also have to have not just Thea but also have the have the confidence that will deliver that will always deliver has always delivered will always do has always done if he says something will happen it will happen his signature is emit meaning if he says something he means it if he says that there's reward for something that reward will come if he says there's punishment for something that punishment will come that's why when we say everybody else supposed to say amen amen is really an acronym God the king that's trustworthy meaning if he says something you can take it to the bank now the problem is sometimes we do not know how to decipher the difference between and sometimes we think the two are the same has become a key phrase that people like to talk about have have have but as soon as there's a difficulty in life all thata goes out of the window they havea when things are good they havea when they have money in the bank they havea when they just found somebody they're going to marry they havea when they bought a few things that they like they havea when things are going good but as soon as all all hell breaks loose all of a sudden they want to drive on Shabbat Eat N koser go out with Goot and so on and so forth all of a sudden all the desires they had all along they're like ah listen if hashm is not going to do what I want anyway so I might as well not do what he wants all of a sudden it became like an elective like I'm doing the mitv as long as hem gives me you know pays my bills that means that they had amuna of an ant a little tiny baby amuna that relied on working for them but the reality is is that without is no at all now what's the difference amuna is having faith is having confidence that's the literal translations then you have to say that with fear as well because same thing with fear so now wrong and nothing happens so now I'll answer the question eventually don't worry so now what's the difference between emai and now you have two little kids next to you they used to be even little right when there were two one of them probably climb the table or something or something high and they wanted to jump into your hands and you caught them right your wife might have watched it now she Hada that you're going to catch them she Hada why you're their father hopefully you're not going to drop him hopefully you're not going to walk away hi got you this one I dropped oh he dropped him okay so so she had buta fail sometimes but she had you're going to catch him he had that you're going to catch him what's the difference she believed that you're going to do it he did something about it he showed his belief he showed he Believe by jumping he's not going to jump with just he's going to jump if he has if he has confidence that you're going to actually do it so that's why the two have to go together has to go with if it's just if it's just I have confidence that hm is going to do it but I don't do anything about it I don't practice Mya I don't do the mitv despite the fact that things are not going good then is something missing what's missing in order for us to have and we must have fear of hem because that fear is the number one motivator for a human being to act sometimes it's the only motivator you have to act sometimes you don't feel like getting up and going to sh but you know that if you don't pray something usually bad happens happens sometimes fear is the only thing that motivate us but you know that if you don't go to work you're not going to have your paychecks not going to get to you you know that if you don't go to work they're going to get fired you know that if you drive too fast you're going to get pulled over you know if you do certain things certain things are going to happen so it's not just having faith in the system and confidence to show it but sometimes you need that fear in order to motivate you and to put those two things into effect now many times there are people that have an extraordinary amount of a huge amount of but from the outside perspective it looks like their life is simply hell this was one of the famous questions thatu asked why is there righteous people that suffer they have they have they have but they still suffer guy still got cancer the guy's still in pain 20 hours out of 24 hours a day the guy doesn't have any money the guy has all types of people making fun of him the guy has people embarrassing this guy is his life is hell but he has he has he has this she Hasa but she still can't find a husband and she kills she barely able to pay the bills and our kids are going against her and this and that all the things in the world that I back she has she has how come how come what what's the problem thank you on the other hand sometimes we see the opposite we see some rash some guy walks around with tattoos on his face proudly because he has a mid on his cheek he thinks that makes him Jewish walks around like he owns the place Rabbi says something hey hey Rabbi relax a second I'm talking in the last 6 months here in Florida I don't know what's happening over here there's some type of epidemic something epidemic people are becoming spiritually stupid two kot in the last 6 months just in this area in South Florida area kicked out their own rabbis who kicked them out people don't even keep Shabbat people don't keep Shabbat kicked out the rabbi told them to keep Shabbat never heard of such a thing Rabbi tells you keep Shabbat said no no Rabbi we don't need you anymore you need me more than ever you're not keeping Shabbat sometimes people that don't know anything about t tell the RAB Rabbi I don't agree with you you don't agree with me have you have you completed the the sh Wait wait do you know how to spell sh have you completed a do you know what a get completed do you know what a is you know what's in it do you know by heart you're going to tell me what to do you're going to tell me you disagree with me or you going to tell me you disagree with the ram you disagree with the rambam you little all you nothing don't even how to spell IM ABA you're going to disagree with the ramb listen it doesn't make any sense in today's age people sometimes say funny things out of stupidity and that's because there's no there's no fear of hm they're too ignorant even though they have to fear hem but what's the confusing part for the rest of us that are trying to fulfill we see them driving Ferraris on Shabbat we see them building mansions bigger than par we see them companies they're on CNBC wow went public just now billion doll offering the next best thing what best thing the guy is a rash NE is saying this guy's worse than me how could it be so this is confusing it's only confusing if we haven't learned enough what's the answer gives eight reasons of why brings suffering to a human being seven reasons we understand the eighth one we don't seven reasons are as such I'll give you a couple of examples without going into the details of all one is a person has made a sin Hashem likes the person doesn't want that person to go to gay therefore he gives them the punishment in this world so even though they're righteous even though they have even though they have everybody sins simply said everybody sins so you sin when you were 13 and A2 years old you did this this and this okay wellem says okay now you're 40 years old good job for doing Chua good job for learning but there's still that sin you did when you were 13 you remember that one time yeah I don't want to send you to G for 500 years so what am I'm going to do I'm going to amputate your foot why you made a sin at 13 years old that killed 300 million Souls so what am I going to do I don't want to send you to G for 500 years so I'll take off a foot now if you understand about a little bit of Gom you say you know what take your both feet take the arms too why who wants to be in Gom but then hasm is even more merciful he says you know I'm not going to take the foot I like your foot your foot's cute it it helps you go to B you go to Nets every morning so you know what I'm not going to take your foot you know what I'm going to do I'm going to take your money how much is a foot cost oh you want an amputation for 25,000 okay I'll take 25,000 so takes $225,000 from your account you some broker calls you listen buy this stock it's the next great thing how much to start an account $25,000 okay great you send the guy $225,000 a week later you call the guy sorry sir the number is disconnected what wa Where's My Money where's my money go with the broker he told me about the stock what happened that's took the 25,000 and paid for that foot instead why because you made a sin 30 years ago so that's one reason sometimes it's not a sin even from this life it's a previous life why every one of us has been here many many times since it's called reincarnations talks details about how people reincarnate sometimes again in different human beings sometimes even in other things it could be an animal it could be a plant it could even be a rock another reason is because wants to elevate the he knows that right now you are able to reach let's say out of a level of 1 to 10 of your spiritual potential you have a little bit of Pride you have a little bit of Pride that's getting in the way because you want hem to like do what you want soem has to destroy a little bit of that Pride what's the best way to destroy somebody's Pride by destroying them by showing them that they're nothing so gives you a little bit of a sh that you're nothing why he takes away a bunch of stuff from you you had a million dollars now you have nothing you had a car they to it away you had all types of stuff so now you feel like nothing now if you're really religious and you have this is perfect why because you're not going to lose it as a result of losing this stuff you're not going to lose it you're going to be a little confused maybe you're going to be shocked you're going to be in pain but you're not going to lose your if it was real to begin with you're after all right so now is giving you that but now you realize wait a minute this stuff that I had is not really me and you use that extra time that you have to connect to a high level of the last reason there are more reasons in but the last reason is simply because who has his own accounting who has his own accounting he does things for his own reasons that are beyond our scope of understanding now what about the rash what about the heretic that publicizes nude films publicizes publicizes things that are against hem causes people to leave a how come he continues to go against hem but hm continues to give him stuff every week he has a new car every week he's buying a new piece of property every week he has other things that make it look from the outside like wow this guy's blessed a wife four five kids wow this guy looks like he's he has it all remember the show's not over yet it's just today says in the book of Deuteronomy at the end of he pays his haters cash to their face in order to destroy them meaning even though that Wicked guy goes against theem constantly at some point in his life he did some MIT even if they were not necessarily intentional he had a bar mitzvah he has a he has a few things that he did that were okay even if it's not intentional he still did it hasem says those few mitv that he did intentionally or unintentionally I got to pay him why because I want to pay him here in order to destroy him I'm going to give him the reward for all of his mitv in this world because as soon as he's done he's done he goes to a department that doesn't end the suffering there doesn't end it's called G and there's a certain chamber in there that's the seventh one page 17 says anyone that enters the seven chamber goes in and never comes out so that's why you will see many times that the biggest most wicked people in the world typically are the most successful financially doesn't mean that everybody that's successful is wicked there are many righteous people that are that are successful also but you will see that the common denominator among the wicked people is that they're more successful than the average this also gives us a relatively simple understanding of why the most successful Christian missionaries are Jews most successful Christian missionaries meaning the biggest enemies of is the ones that not only lead people away from hasem but they actually lead people to idolatry are actually Jewish people by birth whether it's Michael Brown in mimo or a bunch of the other followers that he has or people that are along with him some of them have churches with 50 60 70,000 members just the of that K is millions of dollars every month they have so much money that they have a collection of planes many of them surround Donald Trump in his chamber in his uh cabinet many of them he says oh yeah I know a lot of Jews yeah all the Jews he knows are Christian missionaries that's the Jews he knows that's why he likes Jews because they they all have the same belief as him the point is is that how come Hashem gives these people millions and millions of dollars and an endless amount of influence and power and so on because again this is one of the ways that he fulfills his will he pay Pays His haters cash to their face he pays his haters a reward in this world in order to destroy them now if a person understands that everything and anything that that happens in the world whether it's the thought that's in your head right now or the thought that was in your head five minutes ago that you forgot about already or the thought that you had last week on Tuesday at 2 a.m. when you couldn't go to sleep that thought Hashem knows Hashem wrote it down it's in a book he will show you that thought one day if he knows all of this how could you not be scared all the junk that we have in our head n out of 10 things we think about is junk what kind of embarrassment we're going to have when it's the we go up to sh andm shows us all the garbage that's in our mind just you walk down the street what you thought about just to go to the deli to get a bagel how many sins your mind made who knows to go back home you already deserve Just For Thoughts you looked at the woman say oh nice to meet you and what you thought about after nice to meet you she thought oh he seems like a nice guy and what she thought about after the nice guy and said oh yeah maybe you could do business and you're thinking about how you could take advantage and know what what you could think about you really could do business and you could take advantage of him oh he looks like a guy that has I could take advantage of and all the garbage that goes in our mind not even stuff we do forget about that stuff that's obvious I'm talking about the stuff we think about all that is going to be shown to us every single thought we ever had there's a special Mal that gives you of every single every single moment that you lived in your life and he tells you why did you think this why did you think this yeah but that was a minute ago no no no that was a second ago you thought this one second ago this is the next second how come you thought about this the next second what how do you justify this yeah but that was just a second later exactly every second of your life when the told this to his students one of the students passed out one of the students passed out the students came to the said it was scary what you said the go looks he goes you think what I said is scary if I told you the real truth I didn't tell you anything what's scary this is this is this is he says this is Basics if I told you the real truth then you'd be scared he goes yeah but he passed out goes good that means he's the only one ahead of you that's actually scared yes so the thoughts that we we strive to reject are they kind of just emerge in our head and we disassociate from them shum away those just the unconscious desires of the flesh that we haven't resolved yet depends depends how you treat your body if you preserve your body meaning by watching your ble and watching your eyes the number of sins and improper thoughts that will enter your mind will decrease over time drastically to the point of almost non-existence if you do not protect either your bre or your eyes then not only are you going to have a constant stream of improper thoughts but they're going to come to you at the most inappropriate times especially during times where you're actually praying to Hashem which is the worst thing in the world to think about is some woman when you're trying to pray to Hashem now that is a problem why because that is a result of your actions it's not something that just appeared it's an outcome so this is also why I tell people as far as the says watch your eyes during a day so the the evil does not come to you at night and it's talking about people that have dreams where they end up wasting seed in the dream the specifies something very peculiar here says watch your eyes during the day so the evil doesn't come to you at night now throughout the in many places many many places it constantly talks about how the sikim were constantly worried about seed leaving their body during their sleep they would actually shorten their sleep because of their fear for this to happen now of course none of them ever looked at girls so it wasn't a result of their actions but still there's a certain amount of um complexion in the body that sometimes it happens so that's why they were constantly married and if they travel they would sometimes take their wives with them some even had wives in multiple places because in those days you were allowed to marry more than one wife if as long as the first wife allowed you were allowed to marry one wife in one town another wife in a different place why cuz you thought I don't want a waste seed so at least I'm going to have somebody there the point being is that the pet petrified petrified of wasting seed accidentally so much so that before Yip before Yip they would take the away from his wife they'll take the away from his wife for a week for a week they'll take him away from his wife to make sure that they see that he's pure he's not wasting seed and the night before yum Kip they would keep him up all night they wouldn't let him go to sleep talks about how they kept the the biggest in the world they kept him up all night to make sure he doesn't go to sleep why if he goes to sleep who knows what's going to happen meaning that the it wasn't that they making sins and therefore led to bad actions there's a certain body a certain body reaction that you have that's why they also say you have to get married you have to have a wife and so on and so forth but the point being is is that here the gar is saying watch your eyes in the morning so evil doesn't come to you at night so how there's a contradiction here they're worried about it but they're not seeing anything evil this is saying watch your eyes in the morning so you don't have evil come at night so how come this is this is not evil this is evil the theim they're worried about a certain body reaction that has if he's not with his wife the here that's talking about evil it's saying no yes the body will react but it's not just because the body is that way it's because your eyes are leading to it your actions are leading to it meaning your body reacted that way because of the actions that happened before you looked at inappropriate things the whole day the whole week the whole year of course you're going to have that dream which means what which means that the one that wasted seed accidentally even though he had pure eyes he has no problem in your mind there's certain T that he has to fix and so on and so forth but he's not going to G he's okay you on the other hand that looked at all these magazines and movies and X-Men and Matrix and all this stuff why what they're going to do to you in sh if you don't do ju why it is your fault it is your fault why you looked what do you think is going to happen if you look something's going to happen as action as a reaction so that means is that a person that fears a is going to take every single look seriously every thought seriously every single step seriously and it's hard it's very very hard do you know how hard it is to look at your ugly faces the whole time I much rather look at the women but I have to look at your beards and non beards and I have to look why I'm a guy that's the reality that's how hard it is I went to New York there's I don't know 150 people in front of me one of the lectures and I know on the right side there's girls on the left side there's there's the guys the whole time looking to the left why why the guys are uh I'm enjoying looking at their ugly faces No but that's the point that's the point that's how you have to do it you have to do it because you have to protect This n That you have if you don't think it's a big deal you oh it's not a big deal then we have to go we start the beginning of rewind start at the beginning start at the beginning we're going to go all over again why have to if you're not afraid of hem what are you going to be afraid of what are you going to be afraid of now most people don't like to talk about afraid of a they want hm to be a a puppy they want hm to be a care Bearer they want to hug AEM go to sleep with him at night you know cuddle with him that's what they want hasm to be they want hm to be Care Bear hasm is not a Care Bear he's he's the king of kings Blessed Be he he's the best of the best the creator of all creations the master of all there's not enough words to describe his and his the went even a step further went a step further every one of theik went a step further to give hem more adjectives to describe him and everyone says it's still not enough don't think that after you do in the morning and then you finish the the part of the TI and he say all types of wonderful things about Hashem oh he's nice and he's good and he's merciful and he's this and he's that don't think for a moment that's enough that's not even 1% of 1% of 1% of describing how beautiful and amazing is how awesome he is the more awesome he is in your eyes the more scared you're going to be the less likely you are to sin but the more you compare him to your own ugly face the more likely you're going to sin why because you're not scared of yourself you're not scared of yourself the more you're going to humanize God more likely you're going to become the biggest K in town start websites against the Torah that's what happened with a lot of these Heretics they wanted to humanize God why they need to justify their sins we'll finalize with one story and you guys could ask whatever questions you want I'll give you a a simple human understanding of what fearing Hashem means to someone that lived Among Us walked Among Us not too long ago one of the his name was R MOS Feinstein it's well known that MOS Feinstein when he prayed amida unlike what you see but today where you see sometimes people like break dancing when they're praying they go like this like that they're moving it's like yeah and they start dancing sometimes one time I went to a uh to fora we had a 9 hour sh 9 hours sh after nine hours of speaking straight you're kind of tired you're kind of tired oh but I went to the right Kayla they wanted to have sh four hours sh four hours sh why because they want to dance the whole time not a single one of them came to the but dancing for four hours they W for so people think that if you dance in that makes you holy no it just makes you dance doesn't make you holy you're a good dancer maybe get a job from ad or something but in sh they're not gonna hire you why they don't need dancers in now Hades when he prayed it was was very well known that he literally stood like a pillar didn't move an inch not right not left not front not back nothing like so much so that it was weird to everyone else it was just how do you not move at all like nothing not even like you know like sometimes you look around a little bit you finish or or you just you know you move a little like something something you know even if you don't want to move you move almost like a little fire is in you and you start you know and the fire is dancing a little bit right nothing zero stands like a pillar like he's made out of cement so one time one of the people in theil says please tell us uh why don't you move you should know based on based on you're really not supposed to to move during you could see actually in also both wrote it wrote it if you're going to move if you're going to go back and forth only do it during the other prayers don't move during amid don't do it why you're in front of the at the most serious time it's not a time for dancing so they ask how come you don't move he says when I was in Russia one time these kak these Wicked put a gun to my head he said if you move I'm going to kill you and I was young at the time but when he put that gun to my head I was so scared that he was going to kill me for nothing I didn't do anything just for moving just twitch right or if something itch not like I'm walking or running away if I simply scratched my forehead he was going to kill me he was dead serious about killing me it wasn't a joke he was just looking for an excuse to kill me that fear that I had made me realize how insignificant I am how much of a zero I am and at that moment I said this insignificance this zeron I must dedicate this to I must dedicate this to Hashem the rest of my life and that's why every time I meet AEM every time I pray that's how I pray cuz he put a gun to my head he's Flesh and Blood worst case scenario I die big deal but I was scared I didn't move I didn't move how would I not be scared if I'm meeting a many of theik prayed very differently than the way you see in shs why the more Tora you know the more you understand you have to be a little bit different different doesn't mean you make a scene different doesn't mean you are the loud loudest voice different means that you're the one that sees what a says and sticks to it today it's different unfortunately but I promise you that the more different you are from everybody else around you as far as complying with the tor the more you'll influence everyone around you to be different just like you the kadha that you'll bring to the place will influence them much more than you trying to be just like them and fit in that's what a lot of young rabbis make a mistake in doing they try to appease The Crowd by telling people what they want to hear they soften the approach they start telling you about in such a nice way that you forget you're afraid there's an article on the internet byab about Gom after I wrote it I told them I wrote them I want to go there how you portray Gom I want to go there this approach that happened in our generation unfortunately is confusing a lot of people it's very important to know that we have our T we have our that tell us exactly what this means what that means what this means what that means and that's what we follow we don't follow any local local Rabbi we don't follow any famous speaker we're not looking to be motivated into some type of state of numbness thinking that we're if you're alive that's because a is saying constantly my son my daughter you have work to do that's why you're alive it begins with you you start having you start having you combine all three different pieces and little by little you get close closer and closer to and fulfilling your mission in the world but if you think that you could just pick apart whichever pieces you like you're going to love hem sometimes you're going to believe sometimes once in a blue moon when a car is approaching you're going to be afraid but if it's not approaching then it's okay you're your your will go on vacation you know you start picking and choosing which mitv you have it's not going to Fair very well and that's why I always tell people it's written in the T fear of says that's my treasure so says what does it mean that's his treasure say he created the entire world just for you to be afraid of him not for you to love him for you to be afraid of him you should love him it's aah but it's not possible if you don't fear Him First meaning that if you only afraid of him it's perfectly fine why it's still a connection to him but if you think you could only love him it's not a a connection to him it's a connection to something else it's not him why if you know him if you know you must be afraid so it's either fear or fear and love it can never be just love and that's what gave us as a we thought oh maybe we could skip skip the Fear Part go to the party but that's the re the reason why is because most of us don't even know what it means to be to love AEM we think that loving hasem is uh you know something nice like we love our wives we love our husbands you know poochi muchi muchi it's not that that's not AEM AEM is not a puppy a small example of what loving asem is is in this tanak that I opened right at the beginning of the lecture and I said I can't believe I open it over here because the whole idea of the lectures in this one verse the whole idea the whole verse the whole lecture of what I just told you is in this one verse doesn't need three hours he needs just one verse and even this one verse you could elaborate it for 500 years the prophet job says in chapter chapter 13 verse1 15 were he to kill me I would still yearn for him job is saying even if kills me destroys me punishes me hurts me all that stuff all the worst things you could possibly imagine I'll still do everything he says why he's and even for this high level there's a debate in the of whether this is the highest level of fear or the beginning of love but it's definitely not the highest level of love we're thinking in our mind why this guy loves hem even if he's going to kill you you're gon to still serve him you you fell in love with h wow no no there's actually a between two one says yeah he loves that one says Ah in love are you crazy love no he got to the highest level of fear that's what he got to he's not loving him yet meaning the highest level of fear is the beginning of loving hasem needless to say most people in our generation simply do not even understand the basic definition of what it means to love AEM loving hasem simply means you have no interest in yourself anymore you have hashem's interest only you only care about what Hashem wants that's loving Hashem you're not doing anything for a reward meaning even if Hashem says listen you keep Shabbat I'm gonna punish you but you have to keep Shabbat but I'm gonna punish you for every single time you keep Shabbat I'm G punish you you still keep that's loving how many people you have there even said it himself in he says my generation of all reach he said it himself so this why this is why we constantly talk about because quite frankly from experience and from the books talking about is really Irrelevant for most people at this stage if you have arrived at a point where you can fall in love with hem and have fear of hem most likely you are teaching you're not learning from me anymore you're already maybe I could learn from you you're not learning from me I can learn from you that's where we are any questions same price after the camera is off usually people ask 500 questions so that's the way it works usually good all right said oh you have we just uh saw how you it's quite impossible for especially in our generation so for anyone to even L it's possible just takes a very very uh long a l a lot of effort put it that way so and even the fact that we just we just learned that you're obligated to love him to love him so how how can you fulfill a mitvah that you can't fulfill is required of us fantastic question so the actual practice of loving hem execution of loving Hashem that's something that is something we have to Aspire to and is something that we could only acquire after a excessive amount of learning and doing his will so the actual execution takes time but the practice of doing it meaning trying to Aspire trying to get to that point is something you can constantly do by simply recognizing the the stuff that constantly gives you he gave you eyes he gave you ahead they both function that's already enough of a reason to say thank you a million and a half times so it starts with being grateful be grateful constantly for all the things that gave you second thing is constantly work on learning is Torah because that is the only way that you can actually acquire that love that you are obligated to acquire so the actual accuration the the aspiring to get this love of hem is really loving hem executing it to the ultimate level that takes a lot of time a lot of effort but that's not what the Mitzvah is the Mitzvah is to constantly work on it on a day-to-day basis constantly look for things to thank Hashem for oh wow the sky is blue what a beautiful sky could have been gray could have been ugly could it's beautiful or you see that you have a car and the car works or you see you have a few dollars in your pocket oh you know some people don't have a few dollars in their pocket I know every day every time I I finish the lecture I get to my house right before my house there's like this you get off the highway the traffic light the same guy every single time is on the corner asking for a few dollars same same guy every single time sometimes I have I give sometimes I don't have I don't give but I'm thinking about the guy I mean the guy doesn't have a few in his pocket or even if he does he's still miserable enough to be in the corner waiting for me at 2:00 in the morning to get $2 if I have $2 I'm giving it to him why if I have $2 and he's in the corner and I'm in the car he needs a $2 more than I do so that's already enough of a reason to be extremely grateful you understand so if you think about all the amazing things that hasm gives you it's very very easy to fall in love with him but as far as executing it to the highest level like we're supposed to that takes time that takes time anything else yes the two big things that are uh or a few things number one learning to you have to constantly learn T every day and fulfill mitv even if you don't understand them simply understand that anything that you don't understand is your own deficiency there's not a deficiency in a t if there's something that you don't understand that's because you don't understand it not because there isn't an answer you just haven't worked enough to get that answer so that's the first thing the second thing is is that uh you have aside from doing things whether you understand them or not you have to learn M every day you have to learn about why you need to be afraid of hem the the writes that you have to have a relatively vivid imagination in order to understand why you need to fear meaning you need to know the details of punishment not constantly doesn't necessarily you don't need to learn about gay home every day but you need to understand different reasons of why you need to be afraid just like I explained to you guys like you know a little blood clot decides to go on vacation that's enough of a thought that any normal human being should be afraid or think about wait a minute there is uh no money what if I don't have money tomorrow then I won't be able to eat like that type of thing like try to understand and even meditate over the different that are in that are related to so learning m is the second thing the third thing is to meditate over it in general meaning that you have to think about how significant is how he's a master of all he's overseeing everything he's watching every single thing that you're doing like you have to Aspire to have a feeling as if he is watching you all the time that's what we have to Aspire to do like a not just know that that he's watching us subconsciously but actually aspire to get to a point where you actually constantly know that he's watching you right now and you're sitting here and you're thinking about building Legos at home and you can't wait to eat donuts on kanuka and you can't wait to to make steak and maybe some shish kebabs and you can't wait to get a more comfortable chair cuz this one is really hurting your tush and you can't wait to get better shoes cuz this one has a whole all that junk that you have in your head you wouldn't have it if you thinking that hasm is watching he's recording all this junk you understand so if a person constantly thinks about that hasem is watching and he's recording and so on it becomes easier and easier those few things will help you a tremendous amount but the biggest thing is simply uh practice practice you know as far as the uh by by overcoming major obstacles you're going to have obstacles in your life there's going to be modesty there's going to be promiscuity there's going to be uh money issues there's going to be dishonesty there going to be a million and a half different tests coming your way don't go to the test but make sure that when before you go to them you practice passing them meaning that already visualize yourself what will I do if someone immodest comes before the immodesty comes once she came let's say you're finished she's already there you're not going to pass the test you have to already start practicing in your head wait if some somebody from the right side comes and she's modest I'm immedi looking left if somebody from the left comes I'm immediately looking I'm not going to look to see whether she's modest or not I simply see there's an image of a woman on this side I'm looking that way I see some type of shoulder or skin or nose or something I'm simply looking somewhere else if they come from both sides I'm simply going to close my eyes like you have to practice this stuff in your head already because the day is going to come the hour is going to come the minute's going to come and the test is going to come so if you practice this it becomes much easier once game time once this game time but if you don't practice it you're constantly going to fail so the key is to try your best to to practice as much as possible but also not to beat yourself up too much when you fail because you will fail and I will fail and everybody fails at some point but get up realize I failed aanu we s I'm sorry try again and again and again and again and again and again only be hard on yourself during the test and before you failed after you failed be easy on yourself move on don't be hard on yourself after you failed it's not going to help you in life like people think that I'm always like this strong you know regardless of what's going on no I'm only like this before you sin after you sin some people call me constantly because of the issues of wasting seed and things like that they need a lot of help and so on and always surprised at what the reaction is so I try to give people do do do do you can do it you can do it you can do it give them different Guides of what to do what to read how to do all types of things to overcome this big desire that they're addicted to then they send me a text oh Rabbi I'm sorry I failed as if it's me okay I'm sorry say sorry to hm not me I'm not God I'm sorry I failed I don't know what to do and they're shocked that instead of like they're expecting me to like yell at them oh I didn't know what to tell you I've already it's been two days I didn't I didn't want to tell you but I figured I have to I'm like why why you scared of me and they get like a short like one two minute no you can do it you're the best you're this you're that like oh wow I didn't expect to get out of this I didn't expect to get like boosted up for this I thought I was going to get yelled at what's the point of yelling you you know you already broke it what what I do yelling you out keep you down that's what the Satan wants so time want you to stay down you br you didn't break it I'm going to tell you about all the details of Gom until you run away from it oh what they're going to do to you in gay and they're going to cut you up and they're going to do this they're going to put this over here and this over here oh by the time I finish with you you already could see Gom but if you failed if that wasn't enough and you failed I'm the first one to hug you why there's no point of punching you in the face anymore that's before the SC the rebuke is before after I got to get you back up that's the point it's very very important to know how to treat yourself also don't ever think it's not a big deal and say I sinned already no so come on I'll just do it again I'll do it again I'll do it again then I'll eventually do chuba because that's a that's a problem but the key is don't stay down after you fall get yourself back up figure out a way of how to not get into the same hole again not get into the same trouble again put a fence around the fence you know you know now that every time you go to the street you see things that you're not supposed to see okay so from now on make a rule this street off limits I don't go on the street anymore even if I have to go around it's going to take me an extra 10 minutes no I have a new policy I don't go down Collins Avenue I don't go down I don't know Gum Avenue I don't go down all these avenues that have all this that for sure I know there's immodesty there it's not like a saf this certain streets that it's maybe maybe yes maybe not depends how much hasm wants to give me a test but there's certain streets where it's not that there's maybe it's 100% that there is there that's all there is so you know that if you go there you're simply going there to sin so that's it you have to train yourself and you have to make sure that you don't fall for the same test over and over again but even if you do try again try again and again and again until it's no longer test how do you know you passed the test Hashem stops giving it to you that's how you know you passed the test meaning that as long as is giving you the test that means you haven't completed the test now doesn't mean that you haven't passed any part of it just means you haven't passed the test especially with with immorality and and and sex crimes and things of that nature that's one of the things that the kazal tell us that's something that that test for That Never Ends your whole life don't even trust yourself if you're 90 years old and half your body doesn't work still not allowed to trust yourself to that extent there's even a story in a one of the one of the was old old but they said listen Rabbi there's a bunch of girls that came from a uh different town and uh we need to have them somewhere can you please can they stay by you and his house was a couple of stories but to move to go from one story to the other they had to have 15 men lift this huge ladder that they had so the Rabbi says just make sure they're on the second floor all of them have to fit on the second floor and no one is allowed to come downstairs no one's allowed no problem Rabbi they took it they took the ladder the ladder is out of the way to get the ladder back you need 15 men says in the the night came and so did gave this kados this is kados this tados can revive the dead literally the strength of 15 men he took the ladder and started putting it in place he started old man started climbing the ladder once he got halfway he realized what am I doing he says I'm already on the ladder if I got up here there's most likely I'm going to go up there there's only one way to save myself what did he do started screaming fire fire fire at 3:00 in the morning what's fire everybody runs out what fire what fire so is now he is on the ladder everybody sees he's going to the second floor meaning all of the T all the are going to see that Rabbi is on the ladder he's going to see the girls said Rabbi what what what are you doing goes fire fire he goes what fire goes yet is here get me out of here save me you embarrassed us he says I rather be an embarrassment to you than be called sh fire you understand old man power of 15 people has tools he has tools but he also has to give us who has to give us the opportunity to pass those he also has to give us a tool to pass it that tool is to that tool is to anything else yes back uh there's a book that's called the Adam the first man's book I was going to ask does it still [Music] exist there's a uh there's a book called SE uh some say that parts of it still exist but even the parts that exist only extremely high level cabalist could even understand parts of it uh but there if a person was at a high level of kadus they were able to literally create things for example this is one of the tools that AB ainu uh used the all says uh in order to create a cow every Shabbat uh why would he create a cow every Shabbat because as a noahide wasn't a Jew people tell you is the first Jew it's not true Judaism began at Mount sa but he's still our father he's our forefather he's KES kashim and Al we uh could simply be one of the grains of sand that he ever walked on but Judaism began in Mount saai but abah a knew that according to the Tor they knew abah and yob knew the entire Tor even though it wasn't given to to mankind yet it wasn't given to everybody as a commandment they still knew it and they still kept the mitv that's why for example when Lavan was chasing down yov and Rael was a uh was was hiding his uh his two statues that she stole from her father Lavan and uh when uh you know when Lavan finally arrives Rael says to him no I I cannot come and uh you know and and embrace you because it's the time of the month for me so time of the month what's the big deal go all the time do anything in time of the month what's the problem says that and matri uh they uh they all uh they all knew the Kusa of all of the mitv and they knew how much T came from that period that period so they actually kept they kept the point being is that the uh because they knew the Tor they knew that n Jews meaning noahides are not allowed to keep Shabbat they're not allowed to keep Shabbat because keeping Shabbat for a non-jew would be stealing from the Jews so what did they do they kept Shabbat like a person during conversion does which is you keep 99% of the Shabbat if somebody's going to a conversion to Judaism they're not allowed to keep Shabbat 100% because they're still technically non-jewish so what do they but they still need to practice how to do it because eventually they're going to become Jewish they're going to finish the conversion so what do you do you instruct them to keep at 99% meaning you keep it you keep Shabbat but you violate it intentionally once by turning on the light turning on a a lighter one time not driving and doing some big thing something small so in essence you're keeping 99% so that's the way that abrah ainu would break Shabbat is that he would create a cow he create a cow so that's that's had the secret to do that and many many other things also the um uh there's several stories of different different sikim that have used that book and different secrets from cabala and so on uh in order to create Golems which is in essence taking a bunch of clay and creating some creating a a person without uh there's the um the uh G PL uh the uh one of there actually still a uh on his grave site there's a statue there of a golm a being that he created in order to protect the Jews from the go he lived there for he lived there for a few years protect because the the go used to kidnap Jewish girls so he actually created a Golem huge thing and it protected the Jewish people but then eventually the gim stopped doing it there was no need to uh to have it so he took the he had a holy name on his forehead he took it off and it became dust again but the the whole town the Jews and the non-jews knew of this until this day there's actually a place where they tell the story and they said that's where it is and so on and so forth a lot of lot of lot of interesting things in Prague anybody wants to go to Prague stop by over there uh anything else there was a book you said that was really great name is is o h r YSR a l it's a fantastic book um it's a uh it's just it's very very deep and uh the the more you read it the more times you go over certain things the more you realize the first time you understood nothing second time you read okay great third time you read oh second time I understood nothing and you read the sixth time it's like a the first five times I don't know what I was reading you know it's it's very very deep but it's m it's like one of those books that every single page has an extraordinary amount of wisdom in it and it's not like books that are written today where the entire book could be written in five pages but they still gave you 300 cuz that's the only way to convince you to uh pay 20 bucks for it you know the whole idea of the book is in five pages here every single paragraph has uh extraordinary things I mean you look at my book here every every page you know you have little foldings every every page is folded pretty much the whole thing is folded so it's just it's just one of those books that's extraordinary um there's not many books like that that are written anymore but this is uh one of the greatest things I've read in my life any else one last question yes okay so my last question is is descend from Moses right Moses uh I don't know if he's descendant of Moses but not like descendant uh yeah I guess yeah I guess I mean it's possible I'm not sure okay that I'm not sure if he is or he isn't um abuat is not really their last name the abat is actually means the the owner of the uh uh the carpet that's a name that was given to his great great great grandfather who was a big sik that the uh the town uh was in major poverty the Jewish people in that time were suffering and there was no money whatsoever and uh they they needed somebody to go collect money so he said they asked him if he could do it and he went to go collect money but uh he himself didn't have any money so he took his KES he took his blanket you know it's a place to pray similar to uh Arabs got their idea from Jews not Jews got their idea from Arabs he had his uh carpet and he uh he went he went on his way he went to the shore and he tried to get on the boat but the you know the guy of the boat told him listen uh you have money he says no but I need to go collect money because everybody here is poor goes yeah but without money you're not getting on the boat goes yeah but people are going to suffer if I don't go just let him suffer I'm not let him get on the boat without any money he was he was a sadik the boat guy was a businessman that cared less about sadim or anything like that so every you know everyone was embarrassed that tadik was being treated this way but since everyone else was also poor it's not like somebody could just chip in all it's 50 bucks get on you know it's not one of those things so he let it go he went to the shore and just simply sat on his carpet and started reading T now when it learned to it's not like we learned toah when they learn toah they literally like leave this world their mind is not here like many times you hear stories about Shalom where uh it's extraordinary examples of what it like their level of how they study for example Benjamin Netanyahu came to visit when he was alive now everybody me you mentioned the name uh you know Benjamin most Jew was like oh wow they're impressed by him because I don't know somebody says he has a high IQ and he's some prime minister or whatever was learning T when he came to visit him now Benjamin NY sat over there everywhere that he goes whether it's America or it's different different countries or in is of course people stand up people shake people do a lot of things but when he came into the study hall of of his room was learning with his K and they were learning learning and you know they figured okay maybe they'll finish something and um they'll say hello one minute 5 minutes 10 minutes 15 minutes 20 minutes passed he didn't even recognize that he's there he's just studying in his book he's not even acknowledging that there's anybody else in the room there's maybe 15 people in the room he doesn't know there's anybody in the room one of the people there that's know goes listen if you don't nudge him and tell him that you're here it's going to be hours like this goes don't bother him then somebody that has that kind of focus don't bother him he said no no he doesn't know you're here it's not that he's not acknowledging you he doesn't know you're here he's in the Torah that's how to learned so now when the original with the original when he was learning he was in a different world he was sitting on his carpet on the beach learning his Torah people around them that told the story noticed something's happening why the uh the carpet started uh going up in the air and then little by little it started going in the ocean and little by little it started going next to the boat that went up that left the shore and he started going as fast as the boat the guy from the boat realized oh wow this guy is a holy person how do I let him not go on my boat he starts yelling hey hey hey come on my boat come come didn't even know what was happening he was learning this book eventually he looked to you know oh okay went back to this book he started see somebody's screaming hey starts looking at him he goes what he goes I'm sorry come my boat he goes no hasem obviously did something for you know he wants me to get there somewhere else don't worry and then they say that the the carpet went much faster and disappeared into uh into the this is the reason why the Baba's family is called AB it's not a real name AB means the master of the carpet or the rug that's how they got the name but as far as if they are descendants of mosu or not I don't know that I don't know you would have gotten 50 bucks if it was Wednesday anything else tomorrow night we have the questions and answers uh we'll be in Sunny Al amen amen e e [Music] oh [Music] [Applause] [Music]