Your TeShuva Is A Shield, Don't Go Backwards

[Music] so it says thousand may fall victim at your side and 10,000 on your right or a myate of right uh will fall on your right but you shall not be uh you shall not approach meaning you will not be affected by it what is this what is what is the saying it says when you finally listen to the rest of the mishna that benov said you have protection he says chuva and Good Deeds are like a shield against retribution when someone makes sins against Hashem Hashem has different Creations in the world that he created purely for punishment sometimes it's a bug sometimes it's deflation sometimes it's inflation sometimes it's a boss sometimes it's a rock sometimes it's a car plane weather whatever there's different Creations that Hashem has that he uses them for different things and sometimes their only usefulness is to punish someone and we talked about last night is that kazal says that there are plenty of things that Hashem created in the world that are waiting to be used for what to punish people that's their only purpose in life it's the only purpose of whym created them there's a certain mosquito that was created in the world just to punish somebody and did something wrong and the next day he's going to scratch himself for three hours because of this mosquito for whatever sin that he made so anytime somebody makes a sin he makes this Angel eventually hasem has to pass judgment he has to judge the person punish him for certain things now that means he sent a messenger now says if you do chv and Good Deeds they'll act like a shield against the retribution why doesn't it say if you do chuva you don't have to worry about anything it should cancel out your sins it should kill the bad Angels no it doesn't because even though your chuva it's good you did CH problem is HEM already created that vehicle to punish you he created that mosquito he created that car he created that plane he created those things so it's already cre it's already in the system but if you do chuine good deeds that chuine good deeds will actually act as a shield meaning that even though they're going to come that mosquito's going to come as soon as he sees the new version of you you he's going to walk he's going to fly right he's not just going to disappear out of existence he's going to be reused rerouted like when I make 80 mistakes on the way here or somewhere else my GPS says rerouting same thing same thing rerouted the car the plane the wind came they wanted to punish a bunch of people a few people's houses it made a right turn didn't touch it everybody else around were destroyed that house nothing why didn't deserve the punishment simple as it gets didn't deserve it that shows if you actually look at the details of what happened during during Hurricane imma who got hurt who didn't get hurt you go into the details of some of the Miracles that happened during that storm it's mamash you see the intelligent design behind everything you just see the hand of hasem behind everything it's unbelievable so here D says thousand are going to fall and 10,000 going to fall by your sides who's who who are these thousand and 10 what are these that's the demons you created that's the bad Angels you created he says they're going to fall meaning they're going to fall but they're not going to touch you they'll have you created them already you can't just make them uncreated they're there but they're not going to touch you why you did Chua he did Chua the problem is is that sometimes we do cha in the beginning and then we go back we start keeping Shabbat but then one of our childhood friends shows up unannounced on Friday night and he tries to convince us to go out we start keeping Shabbat and all of a sudden our parents that don't keep anything want to come over for Shabbat and they want us to watch a movie with them we start keeping kosher but all of a sudden our boss invites us to our annual dinner at a non kosher place we start keeping mitv and all of a sudden the new company that wants to hire us wants to invite us to an event in Vegas AKA Sodom and gamorra but we want this job so we're being tested and unfortunately many times people fail they just start doing chuva they start keeping Shabbat they start keeping they start keeping hasem says okay let me see if you're really serious to be religious at home is very easy very easy everybody's religious at home everybody people tell me no I wear I wear titit all day said yeah what about when you leave the house no come on I don't wear TI when I leave the house but at home I wear all the time I go to sleep with t like yeah the problem is the Mitzvah is for during the day not at night you go to sleep with it enjoy but the mitvah is for during the day when you're outside you goes yeah but I wear kipa wa you wear kipa outside no no I don't wear kipa outside I wear kipa when I'm at home so that their religion their Judaism their God is only in their house it's not in the mall it's not at work it's not everywhere else it's only in the house or in the synagogue it's very easy to be religious when no one sees you that's why hasem sends tests to those people I want to know what you're going to do when everyone sees you I want to know what you're going to do what you going to do when you're getting tested when I send that beautiful girl in front of you are you going to look at her Hashem created beauty but is it for you is it for you to look at so that's the thing that people fail at why because they hide they hide their Judaism Hashem gives them a convenient way to be religious a convenient way to do chuva there have a few new friends synagogue is right next to the house they can work out of the house or the job is really close nobody gets in their way there's not really many many tests so to do Chu becomes easy eat kosher okay so instead of shopping at this Supermarket you shop at that Supermarket big deal keep Shabbat it's a vacation once a week no one should really take that much credit for keeping Shabbat it's not really that much of a big deal it's not that much of a big deal if you really think about it it's very easy to keep Shabbat today it's very different to keep Shabbat today than keeping Shabbat 100 years ago you could do so many things on Shabbat you could do more things on Shabbat today permissibly than you can't do there's more things that are allowed than not allowed it's no problem keeping Shabbat but people give themselves extra credit for keeping a few mitv but then as soon as gives them a test they're keeping Shabbat for three months four months five months by themselves or with their spouse or with their friends but all of a sudden their usual environment changes and someone comes in to stir the pie a little bit the parents that don't keep anything the friends that don't keep anything the boss someone comes in to stir the pie and all of a sudden they become this actually happens very often with Israelis that go to live in America and go to visit Israel they do chuva in America they start keeping mitv but they go to vacation to Israel as soon as they go to vacation in Israel in Israel they become they become secular they go to the beach they go do a lot of things they become secular why because like they feel at home and it's like everyone at home knows them as their past self they're not comfortable with themselves yet it was very easy to be religious in America so this happens very often now here's the problem the problem is that Hashem doesn't view this very favorably to such an extent that schl in Proverbs 2611 says just like a dog eats his own vomit a fool goes back to his foolishness now when I first read this I immediately got it and the reason why I used to have a dog I used to have a dog now someone doesn't have a dog this doesn't make any sense to them what do you mean a dog eats their own vomit that's actually what they do even though a dog can eat garbage they can eat complete garbage sometimes they'll throw up the garbage was worse than garbage but 5 seconds later they eat their own throw up and it's brand new to them it's like uh brand new meals brand new steak that's a dog schl the wisest of all men says someone that does chv and then goes back is no different than that dog why because the vomit is disgusting the only one who doesn't know it's disgusting is the dog everyone else that's watching it is disgusted you watch if I when I saw my dog old dog God bless him he died already but when I saw him even you know I saw the dog eat it was disgusting I like what's wrong with this dog I thought it was just unique to my dog I thought it was unique to my dog my dog my dog is really strange eating his own vomit it's disgusting I would yell at him like stop eating your own is disgusting but then you find out every other dog does it all dogs do it that's what that's part of their nature everyone knows it's disgusting except the dog the problem is with our sins not only does everyone know it's disgusting even we know it's disgusting that's why we did chuva in the first place we left the sins the dirt the tum because we knew it's bad we knew being with someone that's not your wife or your husband is not good we knew that cheating his business is not good we knew that cheating God is not good we knew that doing things against our creator is not good it's not good once you realize it you know it's the disgusting once you realize what a sin really is it's obvious that it's disgusting there's no debate no one in the world thinks that a sin is good that's the problem when you go back to the sin you're worse in the dog schl says because here at least the dog doesn't know the vomit is disgusting but you going back to the sin you knew was disgusting you just forgot conveniently conveniently forgot [Music]