Rabbi Yom Tov Glaser: Spirituality Session XTREME!!

Shalom and welcome to practical spirituality here in the old city of Jerusalem a shutaura overlooking the Temple Mount there's a question on the left yeah I could say a little on free choice but that's not gonna be our subject today but just just a little um free choice is that I don't know how it look by the way I just came out of the desert and I've been I've been like a couple hours in the mountains in the desert and I just took off all my riding gear and put on my clothes and I hope I look somewhat presentable do I look okay would you send me to school if I were a little boy yeah okay great it's so bizarre I've been in the I've been in this lunar landscape of the journey that Judean Desert and in writing on these rollercoaster rides of these just these amazing trails that are about that wide and they ride like that you're like I'm a camel back riding down with giant drops on either side of you and you're just like shooting down these things sometimes there's you're going down one of those things and all of a sudden it's a cliff not a big cliff just a bit of a cliff and you just fly off and hit the trail of them keep going it's so I've just come from like an extreme adrenaline three hours of extreme adrenaline so it's like bizarre to be standing in front of you right now but I'm happy to be here it's my last class for two and a half weeks here in Israel again I'm announcing that Seattle walk Seattle Washington this job is big Sheva tone Seattle Washington and and then I'll be in LA visiting my folks and then I'll be in New York running a personal growth seminar is the possible use seminar in Muncie New York in two weeks so anyone would like to be part of that please go to the possible--you org and get signed up did I make a broth I talk I don't know and then in a minute bring them shock ooh you big boss now I'm gonna answer so everyone turn off your phones now that we heard one of them just someone asked about free wills my friend over here what's your name Charles from where my friend Charles who I haven't seen in a while he's back mmm okay great okay people from Amsterdam done to sell you smoked weed the whole time they're they're you know they're from Amsterdam okay now anyway the discussion of free will I like to just go with the straight Kabbalistic understanding of free will is that all of your life is lived in I'm sorry everything in the physical world is an illusion and in that illusion you've been given consciousness so you're this conscious being floating through a video game so to speak meeting a god has this is a holographic projection that God's projecting out of himself there's really only God all there is is God but he's but he's projecting this physical world around us with all of its rules and all of its laws and it always looks the same each day and the stars are in the right places you can bet on it and it's these are moving it's all a mathematical highly scientific reality we're living in and but but it's coming from God because all there is is God ultimately how do I know that I know that because before there was something what was there nothing what does nothing make nothing and so since nothing makes nothing and before there was something there was nothing and since nothing makes nothing and now that there's something it must be the nothing was gone okay that's the four second proof of God I'll say it again before there was something there was nothing what does nothing make you know if you have nothing what do you get nothing and before there was something there was nothing since nothing makes nothing now that there's something it must be the nothing was God okay it's an incontrovertible proof of God as long as you can say before there was something that was but everybody says that whether you're physicists whether you're scientist of any time or whether you are a or you're Jewish and you hold of the book of Genesis which says before there was something there was nothing you'd have to be philosophical or some theorists to start talking at positing there being something before there was something but everyone else says there was nothing and that's what seems to be the case and so this and we don't know what God is we have no idea what God is but let me tell you something if any of you figure out how to make something from nothing we're gonna call you God - we call God God because he pulled that off nothing ever ever has happened in the physical world where something came out of nothing the only time it ever happened gave the title God to the person to the being that did it that's all God didn't mean anything either what does God mean it's a symbol for being that we have no idea what it is no nope since all there was was this consciousness called God what did God used to create the world there's no home depot it's no loud Costco in heaven what did God used to create the world if all there was was himself what did he make the world out of himself that's right God created the world out of himself okay and I'm only saying himself because the masculine is causative and feminine as a receiver okay that's a that's a universal mystical reality is that everything of cause whether you're a female or a male human being when your being in the causative when you're asserting yourself in some way you're in a masculine mode and when you're receiving you're in a feminine mode and all of us have to be able to play both both cards but God is playing the masculine card in as much as he is creator and so we call him he the physical world that he creates is ultimately created out of himself because if all there was was himself what do you make the world out of himself so what is the world really made of himself so what so the world is ultimately a holographic projection it's an illusion a holographic projection that God is projecting around you and you should know that your soul your consciousness the soul that you're that you're in this room with like right now I know your body's here but you're also I mean I'm looking at all your eyes I see everyone's conscious state I can't see your eyes but everyone's conscious State is here you're all conscious here you're all conscious here which is not your body it's not your body your body and in your brain your heart all those things are reporting to the conscious state called you and that is the soul at least in some tiny part meaning the very outer edge of your soul is that kind is where your consciousness is and that consciousness that you're experiencing this room with right now is your is really you and it's eternal too which is amazing it never goes away the only thing that really gets in his way is your thoughts and your thoughts often hijack it and make you believe your your thoughts but your are not your thoughts your are you have a consciousness and your brain shoots thoughts to the consciousness and your consciousness is like an outfielder in baseball catching the thoughts but what happens is if you get if you're losing sight of the fact that you're a conscious being inside a physical body what happens is the thoughts have so much context that you start to believe your your thoughts your thoughts will actually hijack you and you'll believe your your thinking as opposed to this conscious being this consciousness of yours is eternal it's part of God you are part of God ultimately meaning you are your consciousness and you and since the consciousness part of God so you are part of God and it's eternal the only thing in the way is your brain and one day you won't have a brain no offense meaning I don't mean to scare anybody but but there's something called death and part of death is being brain dead and the brain dies and then all of a sudden that lifts that tiny amount of the soul that's in the consciousness pulls up into the rest of the soul see you have five levels of soul each level has each of those five has two relations of levels and so the highest level is the level called the the Yashida like the word of hot it's one with everybody it's like if your feet are on the floor right now don't put your feet on the fourth floor a second plant your feet and imagine your feet now also go under the floor spiritually and underneath the floor it's like the earth under the floor is all of our feet are connected to one giant organism that each one of us is popping up through in that one organism that's underneath the floor it's called you PETA it's where all the souls are one then there's a part of your soul called the highe and all of its levels then there's a part of your soul called in neshama then there's a soul part of your so called the Ruach then there's a salt part of your soul called the nefesh and at the very bottom of the EFT nefesh like right about with a little white part of your fingernail is at the edge of your fingernail that little thin part is the USB cable interface with your neurons which tell you your thoughts tell the thoughts but again they hijack you because how many people are really in touch with that conscious self of theirs their soul how many people really in touching that very few people only meditators and spiritually dedicated people people who are who are people who are can what do you call it um disciplined thinkers people are involved in mystical traditions they have that people who spend time meditating in Kabbalah and also obviously people taking psychedelic compounds are in touch with these this true consciousness which is which is who you really are this is why so many people drop addictions after they have a mystical experience of any of the above mentioned that you'd never think that drugs are how you get off of off of addictions but even the leader of Alcoholics Anonymous at one point wanted to introduce LSD to Alcoholics Anonymous because that was the number one and still is the number one mystical state that removes ones issues that are causing them to need to numb themselves with addiction it's a not an easy process I mean obvi they're going through a lot in that process I mean that's not an easy thing but at least it's a one-time thing and they don't want to ever look at alcohol again so it's a yeah he himself wanted to introduce LSD to Alcoholics Anonymous anyway all of these experiences are ultimately to get you to be a conscious being and not just your thoughts no I don't know about the United States evasive and all the Western countries evasive whether they whether they want us to believe we are our thoughts but you could almost paint a picture that Western ISM and if any of you were raised in the world of West and including their war on drugs which has certain way more people than drugs would have ever heard they their war on drugs but it could be that you could actually make quite a case for the fact that they don't want you having mystical experiences because mystical experiences make you less apt to go buy new things cosmetics or renew your car every three years or or or have you in deep competition with with other people to get a bigger slice of the pie of the physical world which is anyway you're all gonna get taken away from you when you die but if someone knows that they're conscious being is who they are so then they're they last forever your forever and therefore you're not going to spend a lot of time investing in things that anyway get ripped out from under you when you die because everything you're invested in is the stuff that lasts forever you make your decisions based on eternity besides obviously some mountain bike rides or craft beer I mean there's nothing wrong with that at a good time but the but your main decisions are based on the eternity and that's why we spend a lot of time investing in family in our world because in the Jewish world in the Torah world we want to spend as much time possible yeah literally literally I need a good word what do you call what a virus would do in infusing infecting the world with consciousness yeah but we want to go viral we want to go viral in that and the best way to go viral in helping the world become a world of spirituality of voice which is the Kohl of Yaakov the voice of Jacob to get the world to go voice over hands which is industriousness duster revolution Western ISM mechanization atom bombs ozone layer instead of going hands we want to go voice voices spirituality and we want the world to go voice well the best way to go voice is have as many kids as you can cuz they're really the only people you'll ever influence in a real big way they're the ones you'll influence that's why it says that Abraham it meaning Abraham and Sarah had a lot of impact on people but in the end it all boiled down to Isaac cuz he grew up in his home and so your chance your biggest chance to make a difference in this world is your children so you want to have a lot of them I come from a radical environmentalist background radical environmentalism is basically the kind of club you don't want anyone to know you're part of because they do a lot of illegal things to protect the environment and I was part of one of those organizations which is called Earth first and or the first is like really out there in their tactics and obviously I don't believe in them I don't believe anymore in such things but in the at the time I was in earth firster and we earth first people generally don't get married and have children because because overpopulation lack of resources so when I when I visited America with my eight children I a couple of my old earth first buddies came to a party at my parents house and they see me walk in the house with my wife and then we had like ducklings you know like I won't have the other following us into the house and and my earth first people were just like astounded and especially me because like I knew more than they did about you know which which companies are like burning rainforests for grazing lands and why we won't support those companies and like I knew everything about wouldn't support any company that had any negative impact on the environment I'm just I know we're on a parenthetical point right now but I'm actually gonna do another parenthetical point that this level of living your truth is everything about Judaism meaning so many people so many people think that they can just keep the 613 laws and all the helices of how to keep the 613 meaning how you do it which is all the shul Anaru people think you can just do that and then just go be a litter bug and a chain-smoker and an overweight consumer and and and think they're into truth and they literally convince themselves that they're into truth but that's not called truth truth is something that that cuts through every every element of reality it's gonna be everywhere it's and from your self-care to your self-talk to your to your way you did where you deal with your own personal carbon footprint on this planet that's all part of truth so don't think you can just put on a pair of cosmic dental floss and start ignoring everything you gotta know where your food comes from you got to know who's being affected you got to know what the what the whole chain is what's happening be be be a truthful person in every way not just in how you pray anyway but that was another parenthesis so I told them they finally sat me down and the earth firster set in Rev and they said Rebbe although they did not say reviewing them they said Glaser you knew you know more about environmental and environmentalism than we do what's with all these kids and amazing timing cuz we're sitting on the cliffs my parents lived on the cliffs overlooking Malibu I'll be there next week yeah I'll have you an all of mine while I'm sipping a cold beer looking at the Pacific Coast after a nice surf session anyway the I just made my mountain bike plans to for LA this morning anyway the but just as they're speaking my kids go flying down the bluffs overlooking the ocean why because a rapper of something went shooting down and my kids are all after it they're gonna know they're gonna make sure there's no litter anyway but while that happened they said what's with all these kids what's with all these kids I said so when you're creating more the problem you should definitely think about having less but when you're creating the solution you should have as many as possible I've created eight solutions and their teachers tell me at the end of every year that that I was right when I told them at the beginning of the year that please pay extra attention to this kid because this kids being was born and raised to make a difference in this planet and I want you to just put a little extra into him to make sure that he's gonna have what it takes when he gets old enough to actually make that impact there was no selfishness in my wife and my children it was every kid was very much what's the word very much thought through and what we were doing was very deliberate it was extremely deliberate my wife and I were fed up with this planet we're shocked the place hasn't fallen through space already from the weight of his problems if I can quote Michael McDonald from the Doobie Brothers it goes like this he says I heard it said about the weight of the world's problems is enough to make the ball fall right through space I heard it said that the weight of the world's problems is enough to make the ball all right through space carry over the whisperers it ain't easy camera nothing made the ball fall Raptors be [Music] with all that's going on let me just go down and say that I'm glad to be do do do do do it with all the same pain some may think that bone to be king maybe that's true but I think spreading love around Tilton is all we were meant to do let them build their kingdoms come on let them take their the hospital this world to you oh you and I make life with Hank nope right here Nietzsche the sons I'm here too okay so sorry I didn't think I was gonna be singing today I've like I realize now I kind of woke up prayed and went to the mountains my voice has not warmed up even in the least bit yeah anyways so it ain't even easy to live with all that's going around some like okay now you are a conscious being moving through a holographic godly reality which is called ready for this it's called the divine the divine is not God we use the word loosely and that's fine you're certainly welcome to it's okay to use the word to mine but but the word literally the word divine literally means how God is existing through an entire metaphysical world all the way into our physical world but this is all part of the divine everything is part of the divine even the dark side as part of the divine everything is made of this stuff and you're a conscious being flowing through it you know what your body is your bodies your avatar your body's just an avatar I can get around with so let me just make let me just get this real clear here we're inside the mind of God everything here is just a holographic projection your consciousness is what's floating through it your body is the avatar that yours consciousness has been given to walk around with it's covered in it's covered actually in in sensors it's covered in nerve endings these are all sensors for you like to send info to the neurons which which then report them to your consciousness the only other thing that I could tell you that's super cosmic about all that is that there is no such thing as time as God's doing this now it has only done this now past and future are a part of your psychology meaning your ability to remember this mean it's really important by the way it's not a bad thing it's just not necessarily real the your past is really important for you to navigate the future that's good stuff but creation itself only takes place now and it's never left the now there's never been a there's never such a thing as past and there's never such a thing as the future there never has been such a thing there is only now that's all God does God creates now I mean think of how silly it would it be for God to create yesterday right now I mean that's ridiculous or tomorrow also ridiculous so who is God creating an hour ago answer no is it creating an hour from now that'd be ridiculous that'd be silly is creating a minute ago is it creating a minute from now just creating a second ago it's creating a second from now no where is God like where does God usb-cable interface with creation the answer is now in we're here well everywhere but here and now here and now and which is really funny because a lot of you have been like postponing your God experience you know like you you know let's say you're on your ll flight and you're thinking like on a Lal you know you're on an ll flight and the person sitting next to says are you going to Israel you like you and they're like so you want you gonna have a God experience on it and you'll you'd probably you know Jews are gonna deny that if it was a Christian they're like sure Jesus talk to me every day so you know they're always having their guy but we we don't have you know these kinds of things we are connected to the actual creator of the universe and the but what you've been doing is postponing your God experience as if maybe it's gonna happen at the Kotel this Shabbat like when you planning on having your gun experience everybody you've been here for a while when when were you planning on it I mean are you all like is it for like next Tuesday and you're gonna like prepare for it for a week or something and when when was your God experience supposed to happen on your trip to Israel well I'd like to suggest that it's happening right now well if the only creation is happening via God into this world now this would be the God experience excellent you do me a favor hit off the AC everyone get ready to snap I'm four one two three four together on four will snap one two three breathe welcome to the God experience what do you think so far some you're a little looking a little disappointed you're probably from the postponed earth I wasn't ready for the guy experience let's try it again on before we're gonna snap this time everyone get ready if you're chewing gum get rid of it please never have God experiences while chewing gum okay here we go on three one two before we snap one two three some of you might be like what's gonna happen something gonna happen and the answer is it's happening it's been happening it always was happening you were just not aware that it's happening all around you the God experience is happening all the time I mean there's higher levels and lower levels you could be wearing a pair to fill them right now some of you men that might be good you could be at the Kotel but you can be anywhere it's always the God experience when have you ever had an experience that wasn't the gut experience it's always the gut experience a lot of us are are what you'd call peak experience junkies I certainly used to be like I postponed everything until the peak experiences what happened planning these trips I would take and I was a peak experience junkie I just needed to have that I had to be hit in the face with something that feel like something was happening like I was alive I had to be riding a 20-foot waver or riding on some extreme mountain like trail or something that just to start feeling my pulse and then of course there was all kinds of other ways to alter consciousness to you know other ways of altering consciousness to try to feel the experience of life but I'll give you a claw a principle you ready for the principle I can write it down if you want spiritual people sensitize themselves to the subtlety of God in the moment I'll say it again spiritual people sensitize themselves to the subtlety of God in the moment it's not a spiritual person who postponed spirituality even if they do it like to actually go do stuff that's spiritual but you know okay great you did some extreme move that led to spirituality but how about no extreme move how about just beamed I'll say it one last time just in case you didn't get it spiritual people sensitize themselves to the subtlety of God in the moment and when I'm saying God here I'm talking about the divine there's a whole all kinds of meditations about God himself but the divine is is pulsing pulsing with God's creation he creates it now so this is the God experience so your question was about freewill and the answer is is that every time you have a choice to make which is more often than you think every time you have a choice to make you're in the illusion of the divine that has now appeared with a fork in the road of a choice meaning you're now at a fork there's no real fork and there's really only God there's no Road there's only God there's no you this is just an avatar and the you is this consciousness but that consciousness has been made aware by the physical world around him or her of a choice that needs to be made and so you make that choice and you want to make a good choice which means if it's the more important the choice gets the more you're gonna need a mentor to help you make that choice don't make important choices alone ever that's another principle never make important choices on your own we're almost there I'm going there doing we never make important choices on your own I've lived by that since I'm a little kid it has led my way like nothing else never make important choices alone I mean I'm really examine I don't even make unimportant choices I feel bad for my wife I call her sometimes I mean not all the time but there's an unimportant choice and I just can't seem to choose and I'm not a coin flipper my brother Sam he's a coin flipper he actually speaking the Doobie Brothers he was just in I forget what state he travels every week two another state he's a wrap traveling rabbi musician and he anyway he he just happened to find out whatever town he was in that the Doobie Brothers were playing and he so he flipped a coin whether to go or not and said to go the person he had no ticket the person he's standing but this is the way we roll person he was standing behind his ticket wasn't working a nice expensive ticket wasn't working and so the lady says we're so sorry listen we're gonna comp you even better tickets and gives him their tickets and my brother just says to the guy what he can be doing with your ticket and he said you take it and so there he was ninth row Center for the Doobie Brothers anyway but they it's a yes world everyone say it's a yes world yes again it's a yes world yes world raise your hands if you'd like that feeling of saying yes to people sometimes meaning when they need something and they you could do it you got a little time and it's and you can get it done for them Regt if you like that raise your and hi i want you guys to see how many hands are up keep them up hi let me just show the world just your hands look hands are up there everybody okay keep those hands up smile okay how do I go into that was it this oh no that's not good well there it is did you notice that almost everyone had their hands up what kind of world is this everyone repeat yes it's a yes world but you know how you've been living your life in a no world because your I understand you I have the say mission my biggest fear is rejection I really want you people to like me I have a terrible fear of rejection a horrible fear of social you know social anxiety and stuff like it's really it has had more impact on my life than probably any other thing that's ever impacted me a lot of things have impacted me but my fear of rejection is my far has had the biggest impact on my life and it actually almost killed me I mean I was gonna my colon removed over it because they all of my social anxiety was hitting my digestive system and I healed it and from the healing that I I didn't heal it meaning I the work that I did healed it and and ever since then I run that work my workshops are all really based on me being able to keep my colon from really deep work that I did anyway that's why I'm standing in front of you today and relaxed and enjoying you guys is because because I worked it through but it's still the fear the fears there I just AM able to get in front of it instead of always stuck behind it anyway long story short about a yes world is why have you been living as if it's a no world because when your cuz no is what we know is rejection and it's the most popular fear in the world rejections the most popular fear in the world of the five fears rejections that most popular and it's it's and so it's much better to do things yourself except that means you're not networking in God's world well it's don't forget that this world's an illusion it's all really Hashem everything is made of well it's not Yemen's divine its Eliquis everything's made of the aloe cous of a Shem and all these people are happy to say yes and they don't even exist really because everything is the divine so when you need to get something done you network that thing you get it done with a network you network your way around the world and people love it just like you love it I don't raise their hands cuz you love it I say yes to people for crazy stuff crazy stuff I mean yes man I mean yes man everyone try that I mean I'm a yes person try that I mean yes person and you want to know some what goes around comes around because I'm a yes person the answer is always yes to me I showed up Friday you know you know the story I showed up Friday to to have Rome to go pray at the cave and must pay law in honor of the Shabbat of when Abraham bought the plot of land for for his wife Sarah to bury her and I thought well what an opportune day to go say Psalms that you know go do some prayers for the for many people and and I'll go pray there good day to go pray there what I didn't realize is there's 40,000 other people with the same idea and they're coming for Shabbat you know which means they want to get close and they want to park and they want to stay there and I didn't know that so I mean maybe I'm naive but I showed up and there was roadblocks already outside the town checking your papers to see if you had any permission even get in the town with your vehicle anyway eight roadblocks later what was the answer each time it was the answer each time yes every single find your phone you lost someone oh you bet you find it no so sorry see I mean Hashem you Molly at his own car I mean listen Jim's gonna miss him return you your stuff now guys is for it and I got a lot left to say we're almost done but we got to get it done anyway it was yes all the way through and every cop who's a specific job was to say no every single cop who's was given the job invested to say no said yes every cop and my line was very simple I came here to pray I'm not here for Shabbat I just came here to pray but and it's car full of people no I found out later dinner that my 19 year old daughter had the window open and you know he looks to see who's in this car you know as part of a cop's job at a roadblock you know he looks in the car and my daughter my 19 year old daughter is like this in the window going that's right that's right easy does yeah and and all the rest of the kids are saying an ode Nevada an oatmeal Vonda pain or milada what does that mean there's nothing but God this is all an illusion there's no street there's no cop there's no roadblock there's no nothing all there is is guy so they're just saying this with deep intention a Nord Nevada my job is sad came to pray and my daughter I found out later was going like that have a surgery like that anyway next we know were parked at the great we parked right at the grave the last guy didn't trust me which is I understand I mean he's really the last stand he didn't trust me so he took my ID he took my ID so you you can get it back when you drive out you know there's this last like descent into the actual inner world of Machpelah there listen are we really making choices in God's world no we are not cuz it's all the divine everything is the divine but are we experiencing choice yes or no yes one more thing about the yes person that I'm a yes person just one more thing I forgot to mention this where would you be today if you knew everyone would say yes since you were a kid I mean you were born like genetically resistant to being afraid of rejection and so you just started asking for whatever you needed where would you be today I promise every one of you would be in a completely and totally different place today if you had seen it as a yes world you'd be you just wouldn't be sitting here right now you'd be in a completely different place well I suggested from this moment onward that you see it as a yes world please say it's a yes world say it together it's a yes world and I'm a yes person great does that mean you can never say no of course you can say no and that's why God gave you a brain you know use your brain say no when it knows appropriate but you'll be shocked how often you say yes gonna be shocked okay now one thing do we really every well know everything's the divine but do you have an experience of free well yes and one say yes yeah you sure do have an experience I mean I just got through the biggest micro choices when I was out there on the mountains there and I also got lost a little bit on the top of some of those desert mountains and had to make a bunch of choices and stuff wasn't an illusion yeah all there is is God had god forbid something happen to me I would immediately be in the spiritual world and my body would have just been on the mountain I would have been meaning that little last membrane of the snitch that's USB cable into my conscious mind would have just gone like it would have just gone like hey where the hell am I you know and what would happen if we would have gotten United with the rest of the nephesh all of the rocks all in the trauma all the high-end all the ether it would all been United and I'd been like yeah it would have been really awesome it would have been really sad your class would have been a bummer and and I'm sure you'd get over it but my family pry be totally bereft forever you know they would like never ever be the same but you know there's a reason we dance at rebbi shimon 'he's your site cuz rebbi shimon bar yohai the author of the Zohar taught us all the kabbala that I'm teaching you now he's the one who taught us all this so he commanded that live music and dancing at his at his home aside wedding because it's called a he Luna which means the wedding the he looted the bar Yohai the wedding of the barrio height why because while you're in this world it's like you're divorced no let's call it separated while you're in this world you're separated and when you do a mitzvah it's like hey let's give it a try let's give it another try when you do another Mitzvah you doing give it another try but otherwise you're separated and when you die you're you're back together again okay but there's no time anyway there it's it's not a comfortable experience to deal with all the negativity you might have brought into the world I mean we all have a big spiritual footprint as well not just a physical carbon footprint on the environment but we also have a spiritual footprint on the world and and you may have to you may have to deal with some of that you will have to deal with some of that but hopefully very little of it because you're all smart people and a smart person would do Chouhan before they die you know you'd have to be a total idiot to not do chuhwa on a regular basis I mean anyone who waits around for Yom Kippur is like you know you needs an IQ test and some serious ginkgo and Gilboa or something I don't know he's gotta get his mind get his head on his shoulders cuz you'd have to be a knucklehead to wait for Yom Kippur for chuhwa you know who says you're gonna die the day before the day after Yom Kippur who says that's gonna happen you know you could what if you die later in the air or any other part of the year so therefore you do Chouhan when you do something wrong you chew over right away keep your slate clean because you never know when you're gonna go and I bless I'm gonna live a nice long life anyway God's doing the whole thing so can you go upstairs after 120 years I bless everybody we have 120 years in good health in good health I don't want one of you guys like 119 years old you haven't walked in 20 years and you're just like okey 120 years in good health and and the when you get upstairs do you think one of it your one of your answers you get to give for your ridiculous job you did down here no offense what do you think when he answers when gods like what the hell was that when he's reviewing your life he's just yep anything the Savior's own for all of that craziness you put your spouse through just kidding did you have anything to save for all that and then your answer it you can come in you can get a soundbite a little I'm on my last soundbite so what are you gonna say to God well I tell you one of the things you're not gonna say is but god I learned a little Kabbalah it was all you there's only you it was all an illusion so how can you possibly bust me for being in you I was a figment of your imagination so you can't bust me for making stupid choices in my life it was all you you did it he did it yeah like Adam you know yeah you know she maybe do it the snake did it anyway um the bottom line if you can't go to God and say he did it you know what God's gonna say to you his first thing is gonna say idiot idiot that's how it's gonna start and then the next words are gonna be you had an experience of choice you yourself experienced choice you always had that very real experience of choice every time you had a choice you always experienced choice and so therefore your choices are real with a lowercase R God is real with a capital R your choices are real with a lowercase R and I want to tell you something if the realm that you'll ultimately be in was where that conversation took place you might have a way to have the conversation but it doesn't take place there it's in it's part of the metaphysical world the metaphysical worlds where you go meaning dars our physical role and then you go into the metaphysical world and then there's layers and layers you have to get through them are you turn the AC Beca there's layers and layers and you have to get through them but you're not gonna be able to say to God it's all you cuz you're gonna be in those layers at the time anyway I've gone over time so I bless you all I'll see in two-and-a-half weeks I'm having amazing two and half weeks rabbinic O'Mara's coming on with a musical concert and the seven questions