How To Find Your Inspiration

Shalom and welcome to practical spirituality here at Asia tour in the old city of jerusalem overlooking the Temple Mount and please go online and join the yom tov media club.com yom to immediately get on there and be part of the club what should we do today you want some Kabbalah see I you see I always do very practical stuff and and sometimes I do more Kabbalistic stuff and then bring it down to the practical but I but I'm always afraid of boring myself no just because like I don't like to repeat classes ever and I don't have any repeat classes but I do have a lot of good launching pads and and they're they're quite Kabbalistic as well so let's think how we can launch this you think you're here right now and and Aviva just said but I am here but I would I'd be nervous to ask her what the eye is when you are here and it turns out that there that are cobblers tell us that when you say I there are actually five levels of the eye it actually it has five levels to it and the lowest level is called the nefesh and then their level above that's called the Ruach and level above that's called the Nostromo and level above that's called the hidayah in the level of the above that is called the fe de so when you say I'm here you're making a gigantic Kabbalistic statement and by the way none of those are your body no offense but all the I of that is you none of it is your body just none of it like if we if we did a brain scan of you and look through your brain all we'd see was would be microscopic neurons in your brain and I don't think you're a neuron I mean if you guys ever seen a neuron you know it's just kind of like a it's a microscope thing with a bunch of tentacles that go to the other ones you know if you're a neuron you're having a bad hair day growth at night so you're not a neuron so you're not your brain and brain scientists already know we're not in our brain I mean your true consciousness is not your brain so I love this question I heard it said asked once and it really gets right to the point are you aware that you're where are you right now I'm asking you seriously I know the answer is yes but I want you to think about this question are you aware that you're aware no but are you aware that you're like for example you have your you're aware that you're aware of being in this classroom you haven't you have a mental awareness where your brain has the imprint of the walls and the board and the teacher here in though your your brains aware of that and it's reporting that to you so you're aware of your awareness you got that because your your point of reference called you is not available in the brain it doesn't show up anywhere in your brain your point of reference is not there your point of reference is a purely spiritual consciousness that's the I that point of reference is the I now likely the point of reference that you call AI is is actually the very bottom of a long system called nephesh which then interfaces with a long system called ruoff which then interface of a long system called neshama which interface will long thing called hiya into and then finally interface it with something called UFE though in the world of your Veda we're all totally united so like everyone like put your feet on the floor two feet on the floor for a second you have your legs crossed just give that up for a moment put your feet on the floor and I want you to imagine close your eyes a minute I'll close mine too for your own privacy close your eyes for a moment and imagine that your feet are going through the ground like roots of a tree and really it turns out that we're all part of one root system so all of us the actual trunk of the tree underneath the ground is one trunk that we're all connected to it's just one organism it's a giant organism and now open up your eyes and realize that you're part of this organism and all these people are totally connected to you wasn't that fun so I've never done that before that's what I'm talking about like I'm easily bored so I can never do things too often twice and I'd love to do new things so you understand like we're all part of this organism so that's the highest level that's called yukita that's the part where there is absolutely no distinction between you and anyone else that's the highest part of the eye that's all part of the eye you learn aware of that part of your eye but it could be at times you felt that kind of oneness with someone maybe maybe you felt that kind of connectivity with someone under that under that ultimate I is the the hyah hyah which sounds like life right hi I'd like so the hyah is is the is your special purpose in this world like it's what you're doing here like what you're supposed to do in this world and why is it called life because when you know what you're supposed to be doing you get excited you get inspired you get motivated you get moving like you just you know people who know what they're doing here never get tired of it they never get tired you can find them years later still doing it they're permanently inspired because they've connected to the fire they're connected to their special purpose in this world which is really nice and you should know that you don't have to necessarily be doing it it could be enough that you work and pay for others to do it meaning like I myself have found my special purpose but I also put money down whenever I love someone else's sometimes I meet someone I like I just love what you do and he's like well let me sell your website with a PayPal account and I'm like okay I'm down and I just join up that's the way I like to do it I like to have a little eggs in different baskets you know I let some horses I just love the way they run and and I want to put my money on that horse I feel like that horse is gonna be a good finisher inside a little peas up and put a lot of ten bucks a month or something some repeated thing at 18 bucks a month but I think once in a while though I get my secretary stops me maybe you show like at the end of the year she'll look at what's going on with me and she'll just be like can I just tell you how much money is hemorrhaging out of your bank account and then she asks me to start describing who these people are and I'm like we'll just read the list I'll tell you who each person is and she reads the list and say can you get rid of that one I'm like no way can't give a listen how about this one no we can't get rid of that you know who that is she's like I don't even want to hear how about this and in the end they're all still there and then then and then I add and add in some organizations or communities and synagogues and somewhere but some are just people with great dreams and I want to be part of that you know I buy everyone's book who writes a book and then I usually hand it to someone because I'm the biggest snob as a reader that I cannot stand if it's not excellent writing I cannot read it and so I buy the book I glanced it like one paragraph and then I hand it to someone but this is somebody's offering it's their offering like just like someone brings in offerings that tell me human you brought an offering to the temple and the coins just like that this person came up to me and said hey I wrote a book would you like to buy it the answer is yes yes you wrote a book you took something out of you and put it in this world I'm buying it right a million boat engine and and CDs music CDs oh my gosh for some reason like great musicians great secular musicians who become observant they always have to make at least one Jewish album to like sanctify their all the other albums you know I mean it's kind of their it's their offering to God yeah so these albums you can't even you can't even listen to them I mean try listening to God rock you know you just can't listen to God wrong so I buy the out a CD I'll pop it in my stare because just to see if I'll get surprised by it and and then I just take the CD and I hand it to somebody and let them read listen let them hear it for a while and you all of that is called your hyah that's the hyah and that's that's why you'll notice it's pretty hard to find but the real reason it's hard to find it's more for my my seminar guys in the back they know why it's hard to find us because yeah I mean the reason it's hard to find for most people is because they they got so much in the way of the natural self so they never find it because your natural self points you to your God's not so cruel ok he he created in you and nature that lends itself towards your contribution sadly though no one's ever met their nature because it's under many many wraps that I'm not gonna kid into no but that's the work I do is help people unravel what God what got in the way the barrier between them in their purpose so I it sometimes saddens me when when I meet people who they think they found their special purpose by becoming observant Jews and and I'm like every Jew has two purposes we got a macro purpose and that's like to say I mean at the appropriate times you know and make blessings and to do mitzvahs and that's art but that's a generic mission there's nothing to with you understand that's why I know I've said this many times but that's why our thali eat the our prayer shawl has the black lines on it because those black lines are barcode so God knows who's praying because it doesn't matter who's praying you know you have to understand that I I will pray this eat afternoon Mincha whether I'm feeling it or them not feeling it cuz there's nothing doing me and I'm not even in that prayer everything's plural right lo que nous our gods not my God in that and then right it's our God and the whole thing's plural has nothing to with me I am just I am just a I'm part of this nation of priests what's a priest were called mama left Moscone man nation of priests what's a priest a priest is someone who's an intermediary so it happens that Judaism doesn't have a clergy because minions when the temples destroyed we don't have the co honey being our intermediary with God we do have great holy readies that can do this but other than that we the entire nation of Israel are the intermediaries for the planet and therefore we have to pray our three times a day despite whether or not we feel like because everyone else needs it not only everyone else needed you ready for this it says in the Kabbalah that every mineral plant vegetable and there are a certain amount of Gentiles for every Jew on earth that get their divine sustenance through that Jew which is wild that's really wild so like if you do the math if you do the math anyone has Siri here or someone oh I phone here ask Siri what is seven billion divided by thirteen million no no no no no start again what is seven billion divided by thirteen million here we're gonna find out how many Gentiles per Jew you know are you already know the answer seven billion this dude's been smoking so much can this bank cannot believe it what do you say it first before you start recording it thank you so much so 538 yeah is that possible that's not possible it's a five-minute 38 okay fine I don't want to look it up point six guy so in other words 738 you say so there's five four D but let's say five forty every Jewish person ready for this every Jewish person I'm sorry I didn't mean to make fun of your cannabis use just wait you should definitely take a break you need like at least three months clean three months we could discuss what happens after the three months you have to what's your name yeah Merritt you have to treat yourself if I can quote you're in prison you have to treat yourself as someone who's worth caring for understand there are people you care for so much better than you'll care for yourself you have to treat yourself as one of those people that's worth caring for we can't treat ourselves less than that we have to treat ourselves as if we're someone who's worth caring because we do that with other people so we have to treat ourselves also someone worth cake and and and I have a whole code you hear my class on cannabis Leslie check it out man last Sunday last Sunday I did it one of them the quintessential classes on campus I've taught a lot of classes on cannabis this is probably it's not my best cuz I thought some really funny ones that really go into the details but this one is the one that someone should seriously consider if they're a regular smoker of cannabis this this is the one to watch anyway the yep 540 Gentiles counting on you now it says that in the times of the Messianic era when Messiah comes the Messianic era comes and by the way it might be just the era and not the machete himself it could be just the period cuz it's called you mo soma share Judaism does not focus on the guy Judaism focus on the period of time because we're not interested in there when I need it I know Gentiles have made a really big deal out of a guy we often we care about people not a guy and we care about the goodness that comes from the level of leadership like Gandhi on steroids okay we like that kind of leadership we like to kind of leadership that unites people that gets people to lay down their guns to take their swords and wind up harvesting food for people with them and that's the kind of that's the kind of pair that's the kind of world we want and we're not interested in who you know what if it let it be a girl let it be this girl what's your name Alexa that's a rough name these days so it doesn't mess up when you're in yeah you know Alexa so anyways Alexei Alexei even can pull off that level of leadership I vote for her as Michelle you understand that's that's what we care about and and by the way she has to be from the house of David but I I mean even though we know traditionally that's not gonna it's not gonna be someone who's not from the house of David but any of you would give that up tap World Peace like I give it up I'd give it up let Alexei eaten me Monsieur will give up that will give all up I give up all every detail Monsieur it's supposed to be just to get just to get peace in the world have have this embarrassment of our planet like actually be something worth being proud of you know I mean whether what abundance we have on this planet and we just can't seem to figure it out yeah when are we ever gonna figure this out you know there's tremendous abundance that's like way more than the the civilization that lives on it needs even with our growing population you know it's just we have extra we can't seem to figure out how to share it which is how we started this class before I went on the live feed of where parents won't even share it with their own children they'd rather die and have it sent to them when they can't even watch their children enjoy it you know I mean if we can't even get it straight in our own homes how expecting strangers to figure this out so we need mushiya we really need a messianic era we need to get to that place badly badly and yeah and you want to know something it starts with you all of you it starts with you start acting as if start acting as if you can make that kind of difference why not at least you could have been feeling pretty good about yourself people could certainly use a little shot in the arm to feel better about themselves how much better would you feel about yourself if you spent at least a portion of your day trying to figure out other people's issues maybe we can pick something up off the ground while you're walking down the street you know not that it'll make a dent but it'll make a dent for that ball or so so the higher the higher the second level of our soul is where all the inspiration is that's where motivation is that's and this is something worth finding and and if it requires I extremely painful stripped down of everything you thought you were if you're gonna have to strip that thing down which is painful but it's worth it because on the other side of that is tremendous energy and motivation how does prison wife whether the first step is to strip figure out we were so the first thing is to figure out who you're not which is 90 percent of who you are so all that will be left is about two percent if you're lucky that that's who you actually are so so yeah so that's that's the first move we gotta make there's a spot right next to this guy can you sit there come sit and grab I was sitting as this dude this dude is cool he's my friend but this used to be French you speak French you speak French - should I just switch it to speak French this woman looks like she's straight from Paris but she's not from Paris where are you okay anyway so the way we find out the way we find now is first we get we got to do a lot of what's called cetera so you say a luminosity of noise what well first there's a couple things we got to do I don't wanna go into a whole class on that I know how to find it but I do many classes on this subject of how to find your special purpose and and and what I was saying before is that your true natural personality if you can get down to it will tell you volumes about what you're supposed to do in this world don't tell you so much about what you're supposed to be but again all of us have a million voices in our head this is why this is why in the summer they come how many how many people were seating here are you doing welcome back come here in the back stand in the back for ones thing I'm just gonna say one thing hi welcome hello so so one thing what was someone asked in the class this woman in the back of the class asked how do you find out what you're here for like how do you find out what you're supposed to do and so my answer was that now we have so many voices in our head from so many people and so many things and our parents and our culture and it's hard to get clear what that is what that thing is so Judaism whenever you go into Hebrew it always gives you the hint it always tells you the answer and the answer is that you have to get to a quiet place you have to have your own quiet place in that quiet place in the in Hebrew is called the mid bar the word mid bar is the word for the wilderness and the wilderness is called the minbar and but it's also the word mid not bear which means to speak so the word wilderness and the word speak is the same word it's the same thing now what's interesting about that is that when you go in the wilderness the only voice out there is yours that's all you got welcome the only voice you have in the wilderness is your own voice that's all there is and and the the profits thanks for knocking over the oleg arts life that was great I'm just kidding there were there actually like they were so ready to leave as soon as they walked in but it was pretty it was pretty funny to watch the door just like bang right into the lead yeah so that was classic so so you did you did great especially if you heard the rest of this class you knock doors into oligarchs okay now I know so so this enough in the desert in the mid bar is where you hear your voice but guess whose voice if you spend enough time in the desert whose voice do you also hear I start to hear God's voice and that's why you'll notice that all the seven shepherds of Israel all the seven shepherds of Israel meaning all our luminaries total total hardcore prophets we're shepherds and they spent their time in the mid bar and in the mid bar their voice all the other voices are gone no whose boys get here in the mid bar nobody you know the voices of birds may be the voice of animals may be how the wind plays and the trees you know like a like a wind instrument but you don't hear voices except for your own but if you spend enough time in there you eventually start to you can hear the voice of God in the wilderness and think about it Abraham Shepherd Isaac Shepherd Jacob Shepherd Moses Shepherd our own Shepherd Joseph Shepherd King David King David started his career out as a shepherd what's that that's very helpful too but still society Shepherds aren't in society I meet shepherds while I'm mountain biking all the time I mean they're really out there yeah I really love this concept of getting quiet and that's how you find what your place this crazy world and going to the desert or a more nature s location as this datura have any delineation between a nature landscape such as desert first and nature landscape such as like greenery and mount is that I know in my personal life I'm I only spending first is go into nature which is like you mountainous not mess with trees and so what desert does mountains if it doesn't know trees or did you say go desert if you can yeah so so no mid bar means I know in Hebrew that we think of mid bar we think of the Negev which is from the word my givat my gevalt it means dry like dry because the word for a towel is much megive it interesting and it's the Negev where it's dry but but certainly our sages who lived in the north near spot so no work we're in the forest you don't have to be in the desert to do that and at all integrate the great Kabbalists of Europe of the Hasidic movement the Baal Shem Tov and they spent a lot of time in the forests of the Ukraine mostly in the Ukraine and and there it once you're in the forests of the Ukraine in those different areas you're you're also in a you know you're in a quiet place you're in a magical place you're in a you know and and you get to know people in there I mean this is people been living there for thousands of years who have great wisdom and you get to meet them and the they there are documents that say that the Baal Shem Thoth was very close with some shamanic tribes that were in the junk in the forests of Europe shamanic shamanic means they use plant medicines in their service of spirituality okay and there was even there's even in one of the municipalities in I think in the Ukraine maybe maybe it was in the municipality in Poland has the Baal Shem Tov listed there meaning as a citizen he was listed there and by his name it said he was called a shaman he himself was called a shaman yeah which means a medicine chief someone who's a master of of the different vegetations that cause different moves in your body and in your soul in your spirit you know plants that's move you so so apparently he had this knowledge although it could be I mean it's a municipality it could be they're just like that's the most spiritual dude I ever met shaman yeah we're just gonna call him a shaman and it could be had no connection to those shamans but but there but if you follow some of those stories you see like some pretty funky stuff's going on in a visionary way you know like even his even his wagon driver whose name was Alexa yeah for Alexei Alexei Alexei Alexei even his wagon driver who is Alexei the the tradition has it you want to tell everybody what's the tradition she's chewing what no he drove backwards he drove he would drive me a horse-drawn thing racing around from town to town in emergencies and into the mountains he would face but he would face backwards you'd face the Baal Shem Tov and the horses would take them to wherever they needed to go oh they would make him fall asleep and then the wagon would start flying anyway when I hear stories like that when I hear stories like that obviously it bangs too it begs my reason to to think such things existed and definitely lends itself a lot more to that plant medicines were involved with these guys I mean I've also been in a couple flying wagons before yeah so anyway but all that it has to do with the higher now the next is been the Shema and and the Sherman is the it's the soul that we actually call our soul and when you think about the neshamah it's really the just soul of your meaning it's your let's call it like this it's your fiber optic link out of the dis finite world into spiritual real world it's the soul is the link to the new shaman is the link out of here um our new shamans are also very in common Nishimura's aren't male or female they have known to them and they are and they it is just it's just that eternal the eternal you know it's the you that's forever it could be not being male or female when it does we can find with a soulmate and still it's like still one in the same it didn't matter if it was like a separate piece it's just it's a separate but the same but doesn't it's not matter you know yeah and I was thinking about it recently that I was thinking about it that when it you're married just even if you're not married to someone think how much of you is male and how much you has feelings bizarre like like their I know males like male anatomy men that have a lot more female going on than them and I know if females a lot more male going on and what's interesting there usually married to each other it just works you know it just works its male always likes female that's why you'll notice in the homosexual couples there's usually one is the male when it's the female meaning what do I mean by mail mail in in mysticism always means causer and female always means receiver calls ER and receiver now the only reason our bodies are called male and females because one's clearly designed for cause and one's clearly designed for receive and we're built that way so that's the actual anatomy that's why it's certain Buehler called male and and the other half are called females because the actual physical body but think about this like who's to nurture somebody male or female it's male to nurture somebody is male you're in a process of giving your process of flowing towards another that's male which is really weird it's really weird and it's the one that females are best at you know they're a lot more giving the males are which is a good thing that females are it's good thing that females are built that way otherwise you know what would happen to the babies you know but but think about it when I get home and my wife's busy putting food on the table and she's given this even then she's taking care of everybody she's really on the causative mode big-time the cause of and Here I am like receiving all of that which was me totally in the feminine mode at that point and and this could be a danger actually in a marriage because because if the if the husband thinks well hey all this receiving maybe I'll just keep receiving so she could eventually lose respect because she wants to be married to a male who's a cause and now us men think well hey we did all that causing out there man now we're home yeah we're just gonna kick our feet up on that you know sofa and like let you wait on us hand and foot and cuz like we did that already yeah men always have this we did that already yeah so so today they are kind of expecting us there's different times where us men can can have the male role like one thing for sure his men should take care of as much as possible outside the home I don't just dump bills and you know going to offices a municipality stuff and all that don't do not dump that on your wife and the wife is called in Hebrew it's just called the home and so don't it's okay you I'm dump some stuff but don't dump everything and and then the other thing is is other thing men can do is make decisions like nothing that they don't need the wife for that but to make the final decision makes a wife feel so safe that he made the final piece makes her feel safe and by the way the man can be like totally faking it because it could be he's just got issues with decisions he's just indecisive so he so he just goes secretly to his regulars therapist whoever it is talks it all out cries it out if he needs to figures out what's the right direction comes home and like a captain of the ship just goes like here we go everybody we're going in and then this way and in his wife's like I'm so cared for by my man by my man meanwhile he had nothing to do with this you know he he went and spoke this out with somebody who knows how to like work out these kinds of things but it's a that's an important thing is to make sure a man is always fulfilling the myth that that role of causes of causal the causal walk in the relationship okay now I'm not going in a lot of detail in the show more often nefesh right now because what I'd like to do is have all of us get in touch with the with the I like who is the I that doesn't show up on an MRI right there's no I in MRI the AI doesn't show up there so who is that person and the answer is is that person is your awareness of your awareness the AI is this meta conscious place that you possess and you you are in that place and you've always been in that place and it's an interesting place let's all go there together for a moment so everyone right now get aware of being aware get aware of your awareness I think a moment just be aware of your awareness so like for example that you're in this room so that's I'm aware of that awareness I'm aware that I'm a bit of the awareness of being a person I'm aware of that awareness and Who am Who am I I me I'm asking for you so everyone ask yourselves like Who am I you know say it out loud but Who am I in all of this the answer is is that I'm a consciousness and beyond all of the narrative of my life that makes me unique and you really are unique based on your story each one of us has a different story we're all from different homes weren't from different sibling orders different parents and stuff that's all part of your story but underneath all of that is is a pure pure pure pure consciousness and we all share that consciousness and so as I look at you throughout the room so my eyes and your eyes meet and the eyes are the only living organ you can see really because the skin is not alive that's why you can like with a loofah you know scour off the outer layer of dead skin without any pain or blood or anything like that it's dead and the fingernails aren't alive that's why you don't feel them when you cut them and the hair and you don't feel when you cut cuz it's also not alive the only thing that's really alive is your eyes and they also never get old that's why kids are so cute cuz they got these big old eyes for a little space later though as the head grows it gets more in proportion with with the face but these eyes are the same eyes you had when you were a little baby and now you're looking out of those eyes but who is looking at who is that who is that looking out of those eyes yeah it's the soul it's why they say the eyes are the window of the soul and so in this quiet space we've created here we can all get in touch a little bit with that that consciousness that's eternal in common with all others selfless caring there's no bigotry there there's no prejudice so selfishness there's no anger I mean think where would anger come from it would be all the narrative someone's stepping on your narrative don't step on my narrative someone's stepping on your story okay that makes you angry but we're not there right now we're not in the story we're just in the pure consciousness so anger wouldn't be very possible unless of course it would be an anger of evil where someone who's lost touch what's evil someone who's lost touch with this consciousness and has gotten greedy it has gotten selfish someone would be willing to kill for their for their desires would be evil someone who's become somewhat divorced from pure consciousness Hitler in his own writings mock Schmo visit I wrote that he was making war against this consciousness this meta consciousness he liked to say he liked to say that we are animals he was a social Darwinist social Darwinist means to survival the fittest insist social structure social strata to get rid of the weaker ones why would he choose the Jews well the true reason is because they're on the lake and we're where the where you saw Al and they're sworn to destroy us but but just on a more sociological level we represent this meta consciousness which which is anti-darwinian because it makes you a giver you become a giver you you actually have less at the end of the day but you have so much more in your heart from the meaning of having given but you look physically you may have less money because you gave it away to whoever might have needed it and that's that's anti-darwinian anyway so that's the consciousness worrying you have a question method yes there is a distinction but we're not touching on that right now yeah meaning I wouldn't make one I would if you and I were studying Kabbalistic works and it was late Thursday night fossils right so how is it something that's so to answer that since you brought it up is that the the consciousness only chance to interface with us is through the mind with the mind the stink test carefully the mind is filled with inhibitors to not let us see what's really going on all around us to see the to see the spirit world and but there is a way to get those inhibitors to no longer inhibit the vision see everyone thinks their ears are hearing your ears aren't hearing their animals and birds and different that hear much more than you your ears inhibit what you hear you only get to hear what they're allowing you to hear what you see there's so much that you can see right now that you'd all have a cardiac arrest literally every one of us would have a cardiac arrest if we could see what's going on around us right there and and so we have these inhibitors so we can have free will and like and also not like you know try to eat our yogurt endure for it you know you got to be you got to navigate and with that spoon so so but if you could really see it you would see so much more so so the consciousness is somewhere in this relationship between the inhibitors and the uninhibited and it's it's a there's a play going on there between them but for sure the consciousness is not physical and it's it it's - it's in the spiritual but our our experience of it is very much interfaced with our brain in that the inhibitors are gonna be allowing the floodgates in or you know it's all gating and a lot of gates there and and and that gating is just allowing it only a minimal aperture so that we're functional and have free will and can move around the matrix show them everybody was a pleasure good Shabbos we're not here this week we're going up north for my three-year-olds grandson's haircut yes big deal he got us it's this and now he's getting his hair cut and so we're very excited the first time I've done this with a grandson so that's great and Mazel Tov and what else can I tell you I'm this coming week I'll be back and till Wednesday and then Thursday I'm flying to England where we're running the possibly you seminar for the first time ever in London the possible youth seminar be possible you that's my program and and that's gonna be going on in London so please get the word out rabbi yarmulke is going to London be in New York in about a month yeah that's good stuff