Rabbi Yom Tov Practical Spirituality: Adam & Eve

hello and welcome to practical spirituality here in Asia tour overlooking the Temple Mount today we're discussing a part about Adam and Eve and that's and it also brings up a lot of the male-female relationship stuff and that's Adam listening to Eve when she said deep from the fruit because obviously God said it's forbidden Eve says eat and he eats what's up with that why do you listen to it think is a man supposed to listen to his wife now we see the punishments say clearly not first of all we all know not because well we don't necessarily know not we know not we know not if it's God versus your wife God was your wife you definitely listen to God and we learned he listened it you can't boy his wife and and you know all hell broke loose after that so so it's clearly not the right thing to do to listen to his wife there but we also know from the punishment and then the punishment was that she will he will rule over her the Hui Michelle Bach and he will rule over her now does the words boohoo and he meaning him the husband Jim Schall will rule Michele and that's pretty hardcore rules rulership buff over you he's gonna rule over you now showing you that you were ruling over him you ruled over him and he what do you see on there anyway anyway and we also know speaking of Adam's first drive was it was a woman named lil and lil tried to dominate Adam and Adam threw her off literally and and went literally and wouldn't let her dominate him and Kabbalistic me I mean this is gonna sound a little weird but she ever since then feeds off of the seed of men ever since then and so the next time any man feels like he wants to be involved in any letting of see the flesh will say as clean as possible know that perhaps lil is hungry and and she's a demon and ultimately that you know you heard of people drive called a speed demon she sees the seed demon and could be really Nils behind all this so so that's that's pretty freaky to think about because you're thinking now you're following your own ideas but really maybe Lil's giving you these ideas anyway her name's lil that ended yeah this is lil she was someone else creatures yeah let's go back to Adam listening to his wife so we see there ahead of his nothing so here autumns in his second female challenge he had his first gmail female challenge from lil he passes his a second female challenge from from cava from Eve and he fails he's from the fruit no it was a really bad move wasn't the right thing to do ever since then men have meaninglessness now meaninglessness is a a scourge of man you know we've discussed this before women are born with the ability to create but they also have a huge instinct to support and to protect men on the other hand don't have that as strong we have we have a desire a bit to conquer but it scares us and we are we always have meaninglessness kind of hanging around us because what is this what is your bag of bones for exactly it's hard to know now you would say maybe like to say like the woman it's to make a family and all that stuff except most men would sooner die than sit at home with their family you know they want to get out there and they want make that mark because men are men have this conquering ability and that's what brings men the most meaning is that they actually made a difference with their bag of bones with their lives they made it they make a difference so Adam is now listening to Eve which is a lack of leadership here it's just the lack of leadership because the conquer is the leader naturally and she is she is meant to be his wife and he's the hurt he's his king he's the king and she's his queen but he's the king and here he let her be the king and that's where the meaningless is gonna come from so what's Adams curse Adams Curtis is you got to go make money you're gonna have to go make money see you could have just hung out in the garden and just eaten the fruit right off the trees but I'm gonna turn the world into you know sniffles and thorns and thorns and thistles it says and and you're gonna have to go cut out all the thorns and sisal and then you're gonna have to break out the hard ground and you're gonna have to plant the seeds and you're gonna have to work and you're gonna have meaning out of that that's gonna be meaningful to man is that he can go work and you can break up the soil and he can plant those seeds and he can water than nobody can make that stuff grow and he can come home to his wife who says Wow look at what you brought home and then she suddenly attracted to him because he's clearly a person of leadership that he was able to have the fortitude to leave the house and go bring back the bagels and he comes back with the bagels and she's now respecting him and once a woman respects him what does she also to have attraction attraction and respect always precedes the trench woman doesn't respect her man that can be very transitory so now she's got the respect which is what her curse was to be respecting him and now she has her attraction to him and he has meaning in life all based on eating this fruit no was it right to eat the fruit no it was a mistake but what it did do is it set up thousands of years of roles to play think about that's the like you either gonna play those roles and life goes well are you gonna not play those roles and your wife's gonna trade you in when you're about 45 because that's what they do these days women are trading in their husbands their little cry-baby to to little girl husbands girly men husbands and so you know and they're they're getting like traded in you know all the time and because she because whatever I'm not gonna go there right now so any but that's why he listened he shouldn't have listened but it did set up the history and in that we have to learn into the curses that they got to understand our roles and not to mess with that you don't have mess around with that so all these millennial feminists I'm talking about the men right now meaning the victims of the feminists but all the millennial feminists are are a major role reversal danger role reversal danger nobody wants that that's that's super dangerous and and again it crashing Bernie's usually eventually it's cute while you're in your twenties girls like the power boys want to be these days boys just want to be little boys and she should hold him while he cries and and then but eventually she becomes a woman in her late 30s smelling smelling for a man and there's nothing to be seen and no man to be found except for maybe some other man who is like him they'll they'll always go for some like cheeseball car mechanic or some you know like he's just like a total man you know his grease all over him and like here she had her you know her nice executive husband and now she's just she just wants you know a beach boy big muscles tough guy so anyway but there is an interesting line in it and that is that that the atom in when you look at the actual story both Adam in Eve having a very interesting answer to God when he says what happened you know God you said what happened you know of course they didn't take responsibility so anyway so sheets from the food that he eats from the fruit and so so when hempen was um the man said the woman whom you gave to me to be with me she gave me of the tree and I ate which is like yeah like and it's not just that she did it your fault to like that woman you gave me this is your fault of God you gave me this lady and I let her influence me and okay but it's a total role reversal problem but here's the interesting word the word says vote okay oh it's the wrong word it's supposed to about healthy healthy she the woman you gave and she she gave me of the tree and I ate is past tense about healthy how do you say and I hate that I'll help thee I ate no it doesn't say that says for all hell you know what fellow hell means I will eat meaning put me back in that situation I'll eat it again pretty crazy thing to say and then God said the woman what is this that you have done the woman said the serpent to see me and I ate and when you look at the word there and says but timer and uh oh hell and I will eat again you know give me the chance again I mean so that maze like what don't you ever heard that you ever noticed that no one ever notice is that because that one's reading in English in English said that and I ate but it doesn't say that in Hebrew in Hebrew it says I will heed keep eating I like that tree it's a good tree which means we gotta ask ourselves what is the nature of this tree that they've now eaten from that their that they were saying they would eat it again what is that tree well it's the tree of the knowledge of what good and evil or what are good and evil good and evil are the ultimate paradigm the ultimate annoy this word always casing not hierarchy but archetype it's the archetype it's the paradigm the theme of distinctions when they lived in the garden there was no distinction I mean yeah maybe there was this tree in that tree but you can see how shims the letters of God's name in everything you saw it was like spirituality and material in the same address everything was yeah everything was one everything was woman so so now that sounds awesome I think all of us would love that but probably only for a couple hours they had no kinds of their body yeah they did even know they were naked then no kinds of nakedness and in fact it says when they ate the fruit their eyes were open which is kind of interesting like did you ever picture Adam and Eve in the garden going like this where are you you know and like their eyes weren't open then why does it say they ate from the fruit in their eyes were open so they like they don't want to be in God land 24/7 they were in God land 27 which would be amazing I mean that's why your that's why I mean that's why you're ultimately listening to me right now because you're hoping that maybe something I'll say or some other rabbi will say here why do you come around anyway is that you deep down secretly want to go to God land and if you can't go to it here at least want to align yourself to go to it later you're gonna go align yourself as much possible cuz how long you're gonna live who knows so at least I want to go to Ghana and after this world so you are interested in God land they were in God land and they lost interest because here's a tree that offers distinction remember it's that it's the archetype of distinctions good and evil I mean good and evil are the only men black and white I mean that is distinction but everything is distinguished once they eat from it all of a sudden soul and body get distinguished their soul and then his body and then it's like I'm naked yeah like what do I do because now soul and body got distinguished everything got distinguished they I don't think so were they I don't think it still day they haven't even gotten through the first day is day six of creation I don't think any kids were born yet yeah yeah parent Li they only had to make it to Shabbos which I don't underst I don't understand enough about that but meanwhile they weren't so interested in God land 24/7 of course they'd only been there for two hours you'd think that'd been enough I mean that'd be you know only the beginning of enjoying it but so that means we got to understand so maybe I don't want to be in God Lam full-time but two hours would have been fine three hours fine I mean and truth is I wouldn't mind going there for a week or two I don't know who I know ever want to stay there I mean any of you have ever been in a real nirvana state like a really high high high state you're happy to be there it's exciting it's great but there's a party that's like I'll be excited got all gum and I'm running a Hebrew scimitar net I'll be excited also to get back to like I just like to go pick up the paper outside my house and like be normal for a couple hours too I mean I'd like to be in a world of choice I'd like to be in a world of a distinction as well and it only in augments or excites and causes more distinction of the godly state that some people can meditate their way into or take some other master room or something but the that godly state is only exciting in as much as you have a non state like that that that gives it's gives it meaning distinct we're what I'm trying to say is we like the world distinction we don't want to live in God land and now when we die we'll be in God land but then we don't have a body so we won't have as many complaints but having a body in this kind of realm in God land is just like and the truth is if we were truly in God land in these bodies of ours we'd all die in this room you know why cuz we wouldn't eat and some of you you guys must eat but we're just like it's just so material it's so physical it's so gaseous we're not eating you're like you have about ten minutes left before you die like we're already mostly did and where are we going to anyway when we die anyway we're going to God land wordy and guile and we'll take death please death please so anyway so so god land is is not so great so that but why couldn't they handle for a couple of hours and so then we got to talk about the serpent we have to discuss the serpent because the serpent want to mess everything up here serpents the one who got EFD so so the serpent is is what what is that serpent so the serpent it was a representative of the dark side now it is not eh Sahara it's important to know that you can say their desire to listen to the server might have been the edge of heart but the serpent itself is the dark side in the darson is not the inside the dark side was created for there to be free will for there to balance the system now it has a messenger the dark side has it's messengers its messengers we could call our entire union saw her as a messenger from the darks I'm not that you should ever do anything that you Tyra says but it does give you a reward by choosing not what the in Sahara says you are now in a position to be rewarded as a result so the so the dark side is the the dark side so here's the serpent except Adam and Eve have no experience with the darkside you need muscles to deal with the AIDS aha they might call it it once in a while but it's really rep it is the dark side the snake represents the far extremity from the light but miss Ana is the serpent which is the dark side he's now messing with people who are in God land yeah well there's no good and evil here they haven't eaten from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and now here's this like bar bar cat you know he's really like a bar cat he's upright cuz we know he was Kirsten like go in his belly so he must be walking he knows how to talk because he's talking in seducing Eve and he likes women so sounds like a guy you meet in a pub to me you know he's ultimately a slimeball womanizer in a pub and without the pub part so and he's approaching Eve who ain't got a chance that's why I don't I don't discuss much about freewill with Adam and Eve because really god yeah they didn't have that distinction so yeah God said not to do it but what is that supposed to mean what is not what is yes this and not that mean when there's no good and evil and I have no knowledge of good and evil and I don't understand distinctions and here's this seemingly friendly you know although slightly drunk man who's you know very interested in you and has said eat this fruit and you have no concept of evil I mean isn't this the whole problem of naive isn't this the whole problem of naive girls you know jogging by with their headphones on and no awareness whatsoever who's watching and what kind of predator could be there and you know she's just jogging mine or little jogging suit you merci and this you know some some freaky cereal you know sexual assault guy is is watching her jog by and and she's just naive she she doesn't understand the dark side she's just come from some preppy high school you know and she's been coddled and protected from all evil and she's just totally out to lunch that's girl so so the so that's kind of Eve in this situation she doesn't know how to deal with the serpent she doesn't have the tools for this she hasn't flex those muscles of of nature Tobin Yates ihara because she doesn't have any concept of such things which is for a hard for us to even understand which is another reason why not to discuss Adam and Eve regarding free will because they don't really have much free will you can only have the world go into work went with this failure they had a family they're born to fail and but there is another question and that is Eve she now knows good and he'll don't give him the fruit so she's the only one truly busted in the situation not for having eaten bruh have it for having fed him so like God really nails her on this really nails her on this and because she now knows the difference good and evil and she's choosing evil and she's gonna influence her husband which is like women who are built to protect doesn't know she does not protect him she trashes him which is really pretty freaky that Eve goes to trash the guy and and it is interesting that her her one of her curses was birth pangs was that she was gonna have she can only bear children in pain which is just kind of an interesting penalty for that because because she she was she was she knew it Eva was she's gonna now do evil she that's her first move now here's good and evil I'll go for evil and feed my husband this for because now I know you're different some good and evil is I'm just gonna do evil now that kind of person a person who just does evil is not the kind of person who has children you're like most serial killers are not like fathers of five you know oh yeah once women are like would just the fact that they give birth and the whole birth experience and that they're the one who gives birth men doesn't give birth she gives birth and now she's gonna protect what she went through when she went through hell for this and that's gonna build in a certain level of like why I don't want to have gone through hell for nothing so I'm gonna protect this thing so if women are born protectors they're built to protect they're gonna protect them pregnancy they're gonna protect their bellies they're going to and then they're gonna protect the baby and we're when human beings are are I think I'll go the longest species that needs its caretakers of any other species I think we're the longest by like years I mean we really need a few years of parents before we're gonna be on our own where his horses you know they're born and been like couple minutes later they're kind of up you know they get up on their feet and then they're just running around you know we're not like that we need her protecting us during those times and so so the woman who did not protect her husband and willfully did that I mean he she blew it big time so one of her jobs will be pain painted in birth she's gonna go through hell through that process and then be the protector of the baby she went through hell for so and not to mention she's gonna have to risk her life whenever she has a child so that's one of the reasons we say four-week thank God for not having Medicine Woman because there's nothing in your Anatomy gentlemen that's that's life-threatening you understand where's a woman's born with her if she uses her Anatomy as it was built to be used she's going to be having to risk her life and maybe multiple times and the chance of dying in childbirth historically was was very high certain times extremely high most times high and and only in recent history it's gotten much lower but you still hear cases where a woman dies in childbirth and and so and so we thank God I mean there's a various reasons why it says that why we thank God for not having made us a woman but that's one of the biggies is we don't have anything built-in that's life-threatening where's women to have a built-in life-threatening thing by the way just on that subject is there life threatening that life-threatening aspect of childbirth is is I'm sorry not just that the childbirths ended care taking all that care taking is is also hinting at the role the role they're playing in the marriage where's the husband's out you know work in the field and she's in the house protecting the the flock and and that's way it's built to me that's the way history was supposed to be but what because of birth control and the and you know everything that happened the sixties sexual revolution all that women's liberation feminism so the the women had their first chance to play this card this in the poker game of you know playing the man card like women never were able to play the man card just because they're very Anatomy created a situation where where they will be there will be automatically in charge of protection protecting the flock and the and so with modern modernity suddenly there was an option of playing the man card and and so they've been playing that man card and it's obviously anytime you go to go against the nature of creation you're gonna you're gonna pay that we're all gonna pay for that yeah the society will pay for that a big way and all that I just on a Jewish sense cuz we've talked a lot about the partially in to talk much about Judaism is is that Judaism meaning living traditional Jewish values and living in a family where the woman is the protector of the flock and the man is going out to it to bring home the bagels is it's a bit of an island in a stormy sea meaning all the the price that everyone's paying for this generation of Millennials you know the post-feminist world we live in the these the price they're paying we're not paying we're just not paying that price I mean you may be wearing tight pants and booties in purple socks like you may be paying a bit but you if you're in this class and you're in Jerusalem you're in a new Shiva like you do have a chance to jump out of that hell didn't go to heaven meeting you you have a chance to get out of there and attach yourself to a world you understand Peter this is like a serious opportunity here to like get out of there and attach yourself to you know a full tour community value system then you reach your hand you know anyone's written and you know and what do you do when you're living in the forest when when trains were moving to Auschwitz and you can hear the tracks you can hear the trains going by you're in the forest part of the park you're a partisan so you're hiding in the forest and what do you do so I know what I would do I would spend some of the hours of the day on the forest near the tracks so that if I could see someone putting their hand out I would pull them out of the Train like if I could just you know if I see the train stopped for a reason or another find a place where it stops normally like it normally stops there for ten minutes so I would do my best to pull people out but I would not go stand in front of the train and get killed you know so so I'm not gonna be part of their society and get killed or have my kids get nailed by that on the other hand I'm not going to I on the other hand I am gonna read it and pull anyone out I will pull them from the train when the train stops and so that's I mean what am I doing with you right now if not pulling you out you're clearly reaching out your hand and we're clearly giving your time and resources so but you won't see anyone in this building who's giving you time and resources you're not gonna see them you know to this evening doing anything but going home to their observant community and bouncing their kids on their knees telling probably next to no stories of what they've heard and spoke about while talking to kids in the lobby you understand that they're going back to back to print the protection of a generation that's like a unique it's a unique time capsule of sanity the only sad part is Peter that if you live if you if you are in a tunnel or May she's already bought into this whole thing but if you you the only sad part about all this is if you do feel like you're winning the lottery and wanted join the last scene you know traditional value plays as a Jew at least I mean I'm sure you can I'm sure there's some Mormon cult somewhere in Utah where you can like you know just show up and live the rest of your life there with like five wives and with funky hairdos so I'm sure that's available but I'm just saying if you want to honor your that the fact that you're from our tradition from the prophetic tribes so if you're from the prophecy tribes the only hard part about that the bad news is good luck integrating into this into that world because this world's not known for its integration itself it doesn't integrate well and and you integrating into there is also questionable and you're almost like an imposter by nature and the the very observant tour world in the and lastly is is it's it's kind of a progression progression resistant progress resistant its progress resist like the they're not insured progress there until holding on to things and whereas to you three guys there's no conflict between Torah mitzvahs and connection to God in progress they can all be together that's fine but you're talking about joining a society that's that's that is phobic of any progress whatsoever whatsoever I mean I'm like I'm like you know I have a business I'm working my business and you know I'm dealing with clients and and I just hand I just processed like ten clients in ten minutes using whatsapp him in here comes a guy here comes a guy we like the face and the hat and everything and and he's just like the other clients it's his turn so now I'm with him a half hour later we're still together I'm like like I just processed ten people in ten minutes and this guy's a half-hour of work that do because he doesn't have whatsapp and and therefore we're gonna be doing everything I guess on paper and you know and by the time we got some paper and we got the pen and then we I started writing out stuff that I wrote ten years ago you know that's just whatever it is I mean it doesn't matter but the point is is that it's really not in the present progress it believes even that technology is is a conflict with things not like not like the hump the Amish who like won't use cars they'll use cars but although there's really there's one really OCD guy who lives in America who whose child got engaged to someone who lives in the country and no one knows that I know it but he walked he walked not nobody's OCD it was more because of the OCD aspect but he just doesn't get in cars and no one knows the only one who knows it is his wife and children and they were sworn to secrecy yeah why he walked it was winter it took him I don't know I mean the drive itself in another country is an hour and a half at seventy miles per hour I'm not mentioning his name so no one's indicated here but but the anyway how long would it take to walk an hour and a half drive at 70 miles per hour I think they said it took 10 you had to walk back anyway yeah so I knew but that but how do you integrate so then you might say well maybe I should do something a little more modern orthodox but what do you want to be half you want to be half part of part of a world that's like you know like literally crashing and burning like I just want a little that for my children we'll take a little crash and burn please let's go for some crash and burn you know what I mean so that's what I'm saying it's like this is none of this good news you know you don't have any you don't have much like what are you supposed to do here you got a place where you almost can't integrate but you could you'll do your best and this white like being acidic because acidic is like I mean there's only a few groups that probably true it should be part of anyway and and I did not choose one of them I'm part of like this like I said except in mesh I mean you know no I must have bumped my head that day and like went temporarily insane but but you always have LaBeouf but you do in these big communities called Hobbit empresa which they had their own issues but at least their their integration friendly for people who are coming from afar they start integration that's good oh by the way there are little micro groups like you know I keep talking about my kabbalists who I go to uh Thursday nights he's he's his group is is bali to all the people random about you and there's only about a dozen and so there are micro groups where you don't have to be up abouting you don't have to be a press over you actually can be a normal acidic man part of a micro group and that's that's pretty cool I mean join the micro groups micro groups are Jennifer micro groups are generally led by pretty eccentric extreme people like you and you and I don't know Peter well no if I probably like you too so you know it's just not it's not a popular choice it's a choice for people who like are kind of live on the edge types because there because the they Remy's themselves are very on the edge people you know like extreme meditators like wow that's where I am that's right oh my family is part of the sect but I have I have a one teacher for no 24 years where that's my teacher all these years and my kind Lina really knows that you know that he's very happy he's he's expressed to me several times he's like yom tov you're just too complicated your questions go to him is i don't ask him anything he told me straight out like stop asking me questions I get my I get the community raised in measurin okay I do not get you and he is but I've always been guided I just randomly asked him things once a while because he was there and like we just finished opening and we were you know I have Oh schnapps together or something and I'll ask him a question he's just like don't ask me okay so anyway so we we handled quite a bit of this this discussion and and just to tell you one more thing about cuz we didn't really nail that and I will eat meeting if you gave me another chance I'd do it again so why did they say that and and the answer from why the answer for why they said that what's it saying that okay well we spoke a bit about it in that we don't really like Godwin so much so like we like that kind of level of freewill we'd like we want to live in a world of distinction and that's nice too I never heard that said but that's pretty powerful is that is that not only did we eat it but we're gonna be eating this stuff forever like til me until we get to either 6000 years or a third temple you know that's we will be eating from the fruit of distinctions but there's another answer which is a clear answer and that's they and I think we could have derived it earlier is just that um is it that now there's a chance for reward meaning now there's a chance for life to have true meat choice to have meaning choice has much more meaning when there's two choices when there's no choices you know like it's like kyboot snakes you know there's just not a lot of choice there you know that's what you do you work you pick potatoes and then you go to the dining hall for breakfast and then you go back and you pick potatoes and it's like for some people you know that's perfect but for other people it's just like I need more choices in my life you know Russians and you imagine going to the market and it's like sugar oil bread eggs okay it's just gonna be eggs but um you know milk it just says milk on it yeah I mean would you like that you like to go to market like that it's just not it's just weird you know this is kind of weird so so nobody wants that and we want choice and we want it we want to take that risk into the chaos of a choice that we don't know what's gonna happen and either fail miserably or or succeed beautifully and and we want that world for ourselves that's just what we want and so so so Zil that's it man we ate we're gonna eat and because that's something now by the way it's done some other sin that was like some heinous sin I doubt they were gonna say we're gonna do it again I think it was very specifically like we want choice we want to live in a world of freedom we want all the parameters of what could be done right and what can be done wrong and we want the reward that comes from doing right and we want to feel the feeling of being in that position of choosing so I don't think other sins you know it's not like you could do some really stupid and gods like what the hell did you do and you're like not only I do it I'm gonna do it again you know like no one's gonna talk that way to God but with the Tree of Life sorry the tree of knowledge of good and evil advanced like yeah we ate and we're gonna eat again and we want a sense our autonomy we want in which we didn't mention but we want a sense of autonomy in our lives and part of autonomy is your ability to choose I mean isn't that autonomy if someone's telling you what to do do you have autonomy no but if someone says listen I'm telling you what it's good for you and I'm also showing you what's not good for you well then they're giving you the autonomy that choice yeah me there's me the last one cuz I gotta run did you make that final decision why did Eve make that final decision yeah to give free time what was the why'd she do it yeah why did you do I'd speak louder nothing I actually have no idea I have no idea why he did it but there's only two people around now okay this is well three there's a snake right there is no there's only really two people around and and you're you're now in the mud and someone else is not the misery loves company that's the famous line and it could be that's what pushed her because because they're now you know it's just it's just bringin taking someone down you know like if someone's in a situation it's I mean maybe it was the first jealousy Thanks here he is like flying around in God land she's no longer in that realm you know and she's not dealing with all the feelings that came with it which was heavy-duty feelings so but she's also yeah she's alone now she's alone and what's interesting about that which is kind of interesting about women is is that you'll see when you're married he'll have like stuff you got to do it but you gotta do it and your job is to go out and do stuff like that's what you're here for you got to go do stuff and then bring on the bed she doesn't care she's in mood sometimes like I don't care just come home you know and you're like that's nice except there's a room full of men in Chile in China right now all sitting around a table waiting for me to call right now and let them know what's gonna be going on for the next half a year and they all flew in for this meeting and I neither showing up on a video screen and letting them know that for the meeting they all flew into or I'll be coming home you know and she's like come home so there is a point of there is a point you know I guess in a woman that's just like come down from there come down from there it's very healthy for us you know come down from your come down mr. CEO or come down mr. mr. rockstar you know so there's part of our wives they just don't finish don't buy they don't buy into it they don't buy her I think so here he is like floating in outer space she's totally been dropped down to but she can still see it because he's both and she's just like so that would also seem that God land is right here God land Oh God land is he's got land right here gun lands not right here but no but it's not right here but our job using our job as spiritual beings is to is to approach a balance between body and soul that's like really on that you know you're just then you can sense it right now if you just kind of breathe for a second like you since you got a body for sure but there's a you sensing it which is clearly not physical and you want to be that's the goal and to go totally out it's possible you know I have various portals there's various doorways out but but I think the balance okay I'm saying venture out yeah for sure not a cobble is fincher out okay everybody Shalom it was a pleasure as usual