Purim - Give Over Everything You Got

gentlemen welcome to practical spirituality here in Asia tour in the old city of jerusalem overlooking the Temple Mount it's the weirdest thing this happened twice yesterday I also said this I didn't know I do what I was gonna say why'd you why'd you show me that number oh yeah thank you she's so intuitive I do usually I didn't date this class though I will later we're we just humming we're talking about poram oh yeah you want to make sure you cry on poram you want to cry on porn and here it is like the happiest day but you totally missed it if you didn't burst out crying at one point and I feel so bad for saying that cuz very few people merit to cry like that anytime but certainly I'm poram because poor memens just being so ridiculously funny all the time and people are drunk and fooling around the whole time and and they they usually don't get to the tears part but but it's but you do want to cry important meaning like totally break down and cry and and that kind of try it's just coming from a really really deep place of knowing meaning you get to a place of not knowing there's there is available on poram unknowing that goes so to your core that you that you literally break down and just start sobbing uncontrollably and and there's just no and you could be smiling and dancing while you're doing this meaning meaning anything can be happening during this time of this deep sob most people aren't dancing while they're sobbing but but you you definitely want to get to the level um poram where you're just sobbing heavily not sadly there's no sad it's not a sad sob because what is crying crying is just deep feeling sometimes my wife and I will experience a love and we'll both start crying you know we just cry we're just crying from a deep feeling of love and sometimes I'm feeling a deep feeling of joy and tears come to my eyes just now I was in the mountains mountain biking him I didn't cry but I could have it was just an and this eagle just wasn't expecting me this giant you know like like bigger wingspan than my own arms just I just came out of nowhere and there it was just kind of hovering it's about eight feet from me and then I just had to park my bike which I'm probably late I really like his I had to go the bathroom but I could have gone to the bathroom about eight minutes earlier cuz I watched that eagle moving very slowly you know he never flapped his wings for the eight minutes I watched him never flapped his wings it was amazing it was such a lesson in in grace you know how much energy are you guys putting out even right now you think you're putting out energy sitting in your seat and you're using your muscles right now you should know you have so many muscles engaged right then your muscles are your facial muscles are engaged but even those who think their arms are at rest you should know you're using your arms and I can show you that right now is anyone willing to be my lovely assistant some want to be my assistant you for sure one of you like you're the guy with all the titles of the classes and everything so so you can be my assistant I'm doing standing up just for doing this little experience - thank you so I'm gonna take colleagues arm yeah and I'm gonna hold it yeah and then I'm gonna let go and you'll see the colors amazingly surrendered he just let it go like did you see that he let me hold his arm and then I let it go know that sound didn't you see what just happened yeah right strange let it go make your own really let it go easy okay you're all using so many muscles right now there is so much there is so much effort in you're sitting here obviously to be more effort if you're pumping weights you're running or you're carrying things would be more energy but you're literally using energy when you don't need to be and that can get exhausted and the but that was a little interesting that you were able to at the beginning normally there's no one you can at the beginning Chi try your face no no then let it go to your side no no let me let it go man you're still raising it this is a better exam it's alright I mean it's not a right for your pants and everybody don't know no clean up no clean I have a thing about leaving water now when it spills cuz it means there's many more humidity in the room and water spill resets everything for us thank you so that's what I'm saying is that we just gotta let go like we don't need to cut down trees and newspapers clean up water water is important what are you doing man let me take your arm me okay I'm taking you close your eyes close your eyes and breathe and let your arm go let it go no muscles but we don't need your muscles right now you're great you are a sitting man city men don't need muscles to use it for their arm let the muscles go and give me all the weight all the way into my head not really so what you get from everything I just showed you is that is that you are you are in a deep state of your deep not deep like deep good you're in a not good deep state of holding of holding and certain key holding is pretty good like for example people don't please don't do that certain holding is pretty good and that's a total waste of paper people holding is holding is sometimes good like for example your face your face you have to show your face every day and the less makeup you wear the more you're gonna have to hold it and the more wit makeup you wear the more you're gonna let it be held which is gonna take away your your the muscles in your face look at a woman who doesn't wear a lot of makeup in her 50s you'll be shocked how beautiful she looks without makeup compared to a woman who wore makeup all those years and then in her 50s you know it tries not to it's just the face the muscle that tends to tinsel intensity I don't know what the word would be but the the face just falls apart because it's being held together by paint all those years nothing wrong with makeup makeups fun you know it's fine it's almost porn you know makeup school but uh but be really careful to not take away what God made cuz you're gonna hold that thing up for the next 90 years or whatever and and and so those are muscles that are fine to hold there's a deep letting go though that's that's where you that's where you're really shine that deep letting go is where you shine it's where your health is like how much energy you think you're wasting right now holding your muscles cuz you see you're not letting them go like you think you're leaning on that table you're holding yourself up you know if I put a little baby who'd like a real infant got him in that position he would just I don't know what he do to fall into that guy's lap over there don't do that so anyway but we're holding in all kinds of ways it's called we call it holding and it's and it's a really big waste of waste of energy to be holding ourselves up so I wouldn't just take a moment and let go take a breath don't waste your energy save your energy for important things so I watched that eagle effortlessly flying above a canyon never flapping its wings just getting higher and higher and higher and then just once it hit enough height it just started doing big circles probably looking for something to eat and it was it was a moment of beauty and a moment of effortlessness that was the that was the lesson is this effortlessness and if think about it if you had your true nature if you had your true nature how effortless your life would be and you probably live longer to probably live longer you know they've checked the the stool samples of deer who have the environmentalist check the stool samples of deer that are being encroached upon by housing developments because it's not like you can interview the deer deers don't like hanging around for interviews and it's kind of hard to test them but but you can at least know digestive lee if they have enough open space for their for their well-being because after a while the housing developments start closing so there is the way they know how much space per deer and based on the herd and how much open air space non non developed space they can tell that by the stool samples by the actual of you know the digestive systems are being affected by deer that are getting in there there that are getting encroached upon by civilization and how much are you a dear and how much are people living in Manhattan dear and how much is our medical system basically treating the symptoms of dear encroached on by an unnatural way of living that the Industrial Revolution has somehow hoodwinked all of us to move from the land and from the beauty of nature and the and the the peace and the tranquility in the and the the inner calm that is was the way humans lived in symbiosis with their world we lived symbiotically and since the Industrial Revolution where we have asserted ourselves on this planet and created industries such that people will live in in cities and let go of all their quality of life and pay exorbitant amounts to live inside a box like a human shelf in some building somewhere and is it any wonder that that you couldn't let go of your arm you know is it any wonder that you can't just let your weight go and then it comes to love like how many of you could let your weight go in to get married and let your weight go so probably no one in this room could do that it's taken me I'm already like I don't know married 24 years still if my wife were holding me you know when you're holding an awake awake child its light cuz they're holding themselves to you know they're distributing their way to appropriately to make it a little easier on you just naturally they do that they make it easier to be held how much have we been making it easier to be held on on our significant other because we don't to get dumped and so and especially those who don't have are not married well you're not gonna put too much weight on that person because gee they're not bound by any real documents of commitment of any sort and you better just keep things real light and you don't even realize you're doing that you think you're in love you're not in love you're you're you're holding just like your muscles we're holding when they didn't need to be you're holding thank you why do you really want a relationship because you want to be held except you're the one doing all the holding so you don't get dumped this is God knew this this is why God put major responsibility in marriage major responsibilities so that so that it would be really hard to dump you it has to be really hard to drop you and then maybe you can let your muscles go and maybe you can be held McGillis Esther the revelation of the hidden I mean I know it's often translated as the scroll of Esther but it means literally Magilla means to reveal and the Esther's the hidden the revelation of the hidden is a amazing tale it doesn't mention God in it at all it's it's just this wild tale and it's it's pretty rough story much like life it's pretty rough story the whole time in and it's it kind of the difficult genocide that the genocide that hangs over the Jews heads for most of the story I mean it's a horrible story it's it's basically a holocaust story just without the same ending as the Holocaust but then during that story thee the Jews had to ultimately let themselves be held like stop using their own muscles I had to they had to release their muscles and and just be held held by God ultimately they went into a three day fast which included Passover both first and second day meaning they didn't even eat matzah they didn't drink the four cups they skipped Passover they fasted the day before Passover the day out on the day after and the second day of Passover skip them and just fasted and surrendered they surrendered themselves they put up the white flag they were at rock-bottom the beauty though of a story of rock-bottom is you shouldn't have to reach it to let go to let yourself be held to be trusted to be true to trust and be trusted I'm excited to give my wife my heart because I still haven't given all of it yet because I don't have a good enough GPS system to find the missing chunks and stuff this is the doors that got locked in over the years but you bet that I want to peel off you got a chin you bet that that if someone's willing to take your hand in marriage for the rest of your life like someone's willing to literally hold your hand for the rest of your life you you know or maybe I should say someone's willing to hold your heart for the rest of your life so take care of that heart before you hand it to somebody take care of it cuz anyone who's willing to touch you for example anyone's willing to touch you without the responsibilities of marriage should be slapped given a cold shower because what they're really saying is they're in Vail they're willing they love you but they're willing to ruin you all at once they're willing to spoil you free for the vast majority of your married life or all of your mayor light so the vast majority of your life is married God willing you all get married young you get you're married but the vast majority of your your life is going to be with that person don't they just the one who finally committed to you doesn't don't they deserve all of your heart why should they get why should they be getting only some of it and then the other question is once you have the insurance think insurance policy on your finger meaning once you're wearing that wedding band what are you waiting for why you still holding yourself what kind of skeletons in the closet are are keeping you from letting your weight be held by human being fully just to be held it's kind of a weird thing because anyone who likes you is not worth having cuz you know usually when young people like each other it's it's the kind of like that that without a commitment it wouldn't last and there's the only commitments really that lasts this marriage meaning God made it so hard to get out so that you would you would be able to let go and be held that's why God didn't and the Jews ultimately at the end of poram they they had to totally surrender themselves I mean it was full surrender and when the Jews surrendered they won they got out they were saved there was only when they surrendered what is that noise okay I realized that today's class is a little weird so