As He Was Cast Twice Into a Pit, Yosef Transformed his Slavery and Prison Into Greatness

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memory and in loving tribute to the first yard side of his mother kayas aaham Isaac thank you very very much much and may your son and your parents remain an eternal source of blessing and light and inspiration to you the entire family and all of the Jewish people amen someone sent me uh very beautiful clip man Rabbi land shares a story that he heard or saw from a journalist in Israel his name is yaritz and yaritz joined one of the battalions one of the platoon of Israeli soldiers fighting in Gaza and uh this particular platoon one day they made a Minion for shakas in the morning there was a lull in their fighting and they uh gathered together in a safe place to DAV shakas it was a day when you read the T and they had a sa so they read the tah at the end one of the commanders said he wants to make the blessing of haal now obviously if you're in Gaza you could probably and you're alive you could probably make haal every moment but he wanted to make a special blessing of a and Express gratitude and he did and after daving he tells tell yitz the journalists he says this is a dangerous Zone and we have suffered many casualties here but you won't imagine also how many incredible Miracles we're observing every day and he says the one I made a blessing for was something that just happened and as he said it Takes the Cake in Hebrew however you say it and he told him the following story which ittz heard from the man from this Commander he said he was with his uh platoon in a uh in a section of Gaza a camp it's called fusti FTI and uh the soldiers have conquered a particular area which seemed very calm at the moment so they sat down to eat lunch one of the soldiers took out what they usually serve as meals for soldiers in battle which is tuna cans of tuna and he took out his tuna can and opened it up in order to eat some tuna so those who are familiar with uh the Food Arrangements in the tahal as I've heard the cans of tuna are not that delicious they're not that tasty so one of the old traditions or rituals that many soldiers do is they open the can of tuna they strike a match and they light the oil in the tuna and of course after 3 minutes they have smoked tuna almost as good as mom's and Grandmom's tuna so this Soldier out of habit he didn't even think twice as he took out his tuna he struck the match and he lit the oil in the tuna can and it caught on fire to be able to eat tuna with a little bit of a t just a little bit of a taste and flavor even in Gaza as it starts burning the soldier sitting near him goes into pen it says you crazy there's live ammunition here you know what's happening here this can all explode from this fire and without hesitating for a second the soldier takes the entire tuna can and with all of his might and power throws it as far as he can just to get the danger out in a split second and a moment later they all hear a huge explosion and they're terrified because that means the enemy is right here and they all get into position and start shooting at the target from which this explosion came from and they're shooting and shooting and shooting and then after a few minutes there's silence there's like a la like a a pause in the shooting and suddenly they see a bunch of Hamas terrorists emerging from a tunnel with white flags surrendering what happened this can of tuna landed in the opening of a tunnel today we know that this is what they know about they know about 800 tunnels that were built by Hamas Now understand these are billions of dollars that were sent into Gaza by the International Community right who were all duped in basically funding Terror tunnels they know about 800 there may be double who knows what there is but that's where they built an infrastructure of Terror so this can of tuna went into the tunnel there were a bunch of Kamas terrorists waiting there to come out and murder the entire platoon of soldiers they were waiting in the tunnel for them waiting to come out and kill all the soldiers while they're eating lunch as this tunacan went there with the fire they had live ammunition it exploded the Kamas Niks felt and thought for sure the Israeli soldiers are coming down down and none of them are going to survive so thus they decided the best thing would be to come out with their white flags and surrender so this is he said why he made that morning of the reading of the T now obviously the soldier these are types of events andar would said he heard it from the he heard it from the person who was there he heard it from the person who observed it who was part of that group he was the commander actually of that plateau this is something Soldier couldn't plan he couldn't anticipate he couldn't prepare for he lit it on fire his friend screamed at him he threw it and they were all saved I shared because you know in all the the pain and tragedies and atrocities that the Jewish people experienced since and it's already was the end of so you're dealing already with almost two months Kan OFA will be two months and uh now is two months from that day from it's also very comforting and important to also see the unity and the resolve and the strength and the Miracles that the Jewish people are experiencing and maybe one of the biggest Miracles is not just the Heavenly Miracles but also the human Miracles meaning the miracle of the Jewish Renaissance of of of the Jewish love of the Jewish power the miracle that comes from within I guess is a very uh important Prelude to our discussion today if you didn't get a source sheet there's one on the bimma and we're going to discuss today both par and then of course is the story of YF and we know from barus all the way through is is the story first of Adam and his descendants and his descendants andov are three Patriarchs and the matriarchs Z and then comes par and here the focus shifts from yobu to his son YF and YF will remain the main y will remain the main protagonist the main character of VV mikash the last four portions the second half of saas his story his journey his trials his tribulations all the way to his unexpected rise to become the prime minister of the superpower of the time and saving the region and FAL Crescent and his own family from a devastating famine YF everybody remembers the story was 17 years old when his brothers who loathed him took him and threw him into a sister in a pit and from there he was sold into slavery a man named ptif who was a minister working in parro's government purchase him as a slave YF works as a slave in P's home and he's extremely successful to the point that the Torah calls him an is is the first one who gets that definition is a successful person a person filled with he rises to the top despite his difficult circumstances he essentially doesn't own himself he's a slave and according to the protocol there was no way for him to be liberated and he would have remained there for life he experiences then a second crisis when P's wife accuses him of promiscuous uh behavior and trying to uh do and behave in a very promiscuous way towards her violate her and he's thrown into prison here too he rises to the top and despite being a prisoner and a prisoner for a very long time again we encounter him as a very successful human being to the point that just like P in his home appointed him to run the entire show and everybody was working under him in the prison the same thing happened he was appointed by the prison Warden to be able to run the entire experience to run the show and everybody was under his command thank you thank you but I want to point out and here again we're going to focus on what would seem like one word one word or actually the absence of a word and that absence of one word contains within it a world of experience of perspective really of of life-changing lesson so if you take a look in your First Source it's B per cles Genesis 39:1 Begins the story of young ysf 17-year-old Joseph arriving in Egypt as a slave the Torah describes it ysf was brought down obviously he didn't go down himself Hur means he was brought down by force to Egypt and he's bought by a man named ptif who works for par who's an Egyptian he buys him from the hands of the ites who brought him down to Egypt the second verse says and I quote was with Y to the point that he would became an is a successful person as he is in the home of his master the Egyptian man p and the Torah continues the third verse his master sees that Hashem is with him for all he's do whatever he does everything he does Hashem is creating success be through his hand y's hand just whatever he touches turns into gold as they say there just his hand is a channel for so much success his master sees it so what does he do he likes this kid y finds Grace in his eyes and he points him on his home in verse everything that he has he gives over to him in other words he confers upon him the responsibility and the privilege of his entire estate of anything that belongs to him YF is the one who becomes the CEO over P's estate and the Torah continues how this man becomes blessed his house is blessed and everything in the house is blessed and in the fifth sixth he lets everything he lets go of everything and just gives it all to Y he doesn't even know anything that's happening all he cares is about the bread that he's going to eat which Rashi says is a euphemism for his marriage and the T finishes this part of the story and YF was beautiful and handsome and gorgeous the next scene is where P's wife takes a liking to YF she nudes him and pleads with him that he be with her physically y refuses on one faithful day nobody is home she tries to truly get him to do what he refused to do and at this point she fetches she seizes him by His Garment ysf runs away His Garment tears she uses that evidence as a proof that he was the one who tried to violate her and her husband throws ysf into prison what happens now in prison almost the similar description to what happened in the House of P We Now read in prison literally almost verba him as you could see it's the second paragraph This already verse 21 exactly the same words which we learned earlier in this is verse 2 verse 21 said here it says was with The Sire the warden the one who was in charge of the prison found Grace in y y found Grace in his eyes there was something very gracious and beautiful about him so what happens this man takes ysf and appoints him as the CEO of the prison he's still a prisoner but he's the one who is running the show and says to the point just like let do everything and he didn't even want to know you know when you trust somebody blindly it's like it's good to go don't let me don't bother me don't tell me anything just do it I can only ruin it so you just do it the same description the warden of the prison doesn't see anything that's happening why because Hashem is with YF and whatever y does now take a look and a few at one little difference one word changed the words we already had before also in the House of P but there one word was added you see which word was added over there take a look in giml you see yeah whatever he does brought success in his hand here in prison whatever he does is doesn't say say What's the difference hand not his hand was it but it's interesting the first time the T says it was in his hand the second time whatever he does Hashem made why does the choose the second time to delete the word that's what difference number one difference number two the first time he's described he is a that doesn't say the second time the second time it says but his description to describe the person only the first time another interesting thing the first time it says whatever he does brought in his hand imprisoner just says not everything he does what he does it means whatever he does but doesn't say everything he does and yet over here it doesn't say the word be so it looks like very small differences I mean the point is the same he was extremely successful he was gracious people loved him they believed in him they trusted him they just felt he's he's a successful man he's he's g whatever words they used in Egyptian about him and uh they trusted him and they delegated everything to him despite the difficult circumstance ances but we know entirely every word is precise and meticulous as we will see this single change of not contains within it a very profound intimation of y's Evolution and in order to appreciate this it's important to focus for a few moments on the story of YF himself not what happened to him but what happened inside of him as you know life consists of two part parts does what happens to me what happens with me what happens with you what happens to you and then there is at that moment what happens not to me but what happens in me inside of me those are two different stories the first story is a story that people can see it's on the outside some of those facts are just Facts of Life a person goes here a person goes here this occurs that occurs the second story is an inner story it's the story of the human respon resp human reaction the human evolution and the human growth and development within the narrative and within the circumstances of every person's life the facts are described in KES what happens to YF inside as always in Kish that's hinted to in other words the facts are the facts his brothers didn't like him it says he as we'll see in a moment he brought he told he told his father negative things about them he told him about their dreams he did they they loathed them they threw him into a pit they sold him he becomes a slave and then he becomes a prisoner those are all the facts what happened inside of Y for this you always have to read between the lines because those are the inner emotions the t is a blueprint of life that which you could see on the outside it says clearly that which you can see on the outside you have to look deeper and you have to find it intimated in the words and the verses and the structure and an extra word and a missing word it's like a blueprint of the human being when you look at a person I could see what a person looks like I could see what they I can hear what they say I could see what they do their inner experience even they themselves may not always know it you have to look deeper and deeper to get to those layers when we look at y's Evolution the T clearly articulates it but it articulates it in a way that you have to listen to it and find it tune into it if you look in the next Source we all go back all the way to the beginning of the para which start with chapter 37 lamad Z and the T says in the beginning of the second us this is the beginning of the story of y y is 17 years old he's shepherding with his he's shepherding with his brother the Sheep they're tending to the Sheep remember their father had lots of sheep we discussed that a few weeks ago the whole par is all about sheep and more sheep and more sheep there was a lot of sheep to deal with he was young and as Rashi says he behaved as a youthful person he behaved Rashi says he behaved in a childlike fashion the words of Rashi very interesting rash was he was young he's 17 years old he was pretty young so Rashi explains he quotes the med he was playful and Youthful he spent time with his hair fixing his hair beautifying his eyes YF as we know was a beautiful beautiful child and he tended to it he took care of it and he was together with the children of B and Zila his half Brothers the wives of his father as and Y spoke negatively about his brothers to their father he was shepherding with his brothers and Rashi says that ysf would come to his father and share things that were raw that were negative about the brothers now there's a lot of different layers of interpretation here what exactly he said what was his motivation what happens afterwards the the Torah continues and says describes the story that yakob has a special love to Y he's his oldest son I mean there was one older one I mean means he's a son who was born ready when he was older and of course as mafam explained he was Ra's oldest son and he was born when he was older and benosa means he felt it was a special uh wisdom wisdom and depth that YF had he made him the special multicolored shirt the brothers see this love and they don't like y so they loath him it's hard for them to communicate with him peacefully if that's not enough the T describes two dreams that he had and Y decide to share decide to share with them these dreams in the first Dream they're all out in the field bu Farmers binding stalks of Grain Together making sheaves bundles and every one of their sheep stands up straight and erect but then they all bow down to Y sheep I'm sorry I said they all stood up sorry y's sheave stands up straight stands erect in the dream and then all of their sheaves prostrate themselves to his the brothers loathe him for this dream even more more because they feel he is basically saying I'm going to be the king over you you're all going to kneel to me you're all going to be subservient to me and the second dream doesn't help much either when he dreams of the Sun and the Moon and 11 stars of course he has 11 brothers who will all kneel down to him the sun will kneel and the moon will kneel and the 11 Stars will kneel yobu says what do you think we're all going to come bow down to you the brothers are jealous although Yakov remembers the dream that's the story that the T says now obviously the story has a lot inside of it and over thousands of years commentators and M explored it and explained it on many many different levels but one thing we can see from the spirit the light motive as you would say the the energy the subplot that is this plot that's conveyed here is that YF is stands out he's a person with Big Dreams he has a lot of ambition he has tremendous potential he's also very creative he's also saying exactly what he thinks you know his father says ysep sh but ysep shares with his brothers what he what he thinks ysep has now Yakov who's the father of all of them has a special love for YF he sees obviously a diamond he sees a light he sees some dazzling Brilliance in YF which is which sets him apart which is unique and just from y's dreams you could see he's he's a very young boy 17 years old but essentially he's dreaming of you could call it World Conquest remember agriculture then is what real estate is today you own the field that was I mean today agriculture is also important we can't live without agriculture we just don't realize that because we go to the store and buy kala or we go to the store and buy bread but agriculture is the basis of Life Of course so it's important a dream about agriculture is a dream dream really about economic prosperity and success and if that's not enough that's Earth he starts dreaming about heaven even the sun and the moon and the stars are somehow under his influence so he's both controlling the agriculture on Earth he's explo is controlling astronomy in heaven both Agriculture and Science and astronomy and cosmology and there's Vision the sun gives light and the moon gives light and the stars with their unique properties and power there's a lot in these dreams the brothers are jealous of him the brothers don't like him YF also is telling his brothers about his issues with his YF is telling his father about his issues with his brothers he's not hiding anything he tells his father this is what my brothers are doing this is what they think this is what they say this is what their behavior is like still yakob who's trying to make peace does not hide his tremendous love to YF makes him the special colorful tunic because obviously he sees his great potential but here something is absolutely something changes in the most radical way ysf would seem like hoping to grow up in a very normal way and have a normal life and then maybe one day materialize his dreams he's still a young man he's 17 years old but then what happens is we all know the continuation of the story his life takes a turn that he couldn't expect and certainly his father couldn't his father also didn't expect and couldn't believe that it happened and didn't even know that it happened and what happens here is he goes to shepherd He Go his father asks him to go visit the brothers the brothers have went off to that's where they're shepherding with yakov's sheep and Yakov summons YF one day and says can I go send you to your brothers and see how they're doing and YF turns to his father and says he I'm going and he goes the T tells tells the story how on the way to he founds finds a person who sees that he's lost and the man says what are you searching for and YF says I'm searching for my brothers and uh I want to know where they're shepherding and the man tells him they left from here they left from here they they're gone they left I heard they said they're going to go to a place called D and Y follows them ysf follows that path before he arrives they see him coming and they plot to kill him the way the tertis says it is one man tells his brother the the B the master of the dreams is coming let's kill him let's throw him into one of the sisters we'll say that a wild animal has molded him has consumed him we'll see what happens to his dreams and that's when ruvin says let's not kill him let's throw him into one of the sisters because rvin wants to bring him home back to his father as YF is taking this journey he can't not he can't know what's going to happen nobody knows what's going to happen he thinks he's going to check out on his brothers and even though the relationship is tense okay but he's still going to check on him that's what his father wants and he'll come back and tell his father what's going on with the brothers how the brothers are doing how the Sheep are doing Etc obviously if Yakov sent him there Yakov didn't expect that there could be this consequence he didn't expect this level of tension in the family and YF didn't expect it why would he go put himself in such danger this strange story about a man meeting him and asking him where he have to go you're lost what are you looking for I'm looking for my brothers is difficult because even if it happened it happens constantly you're traveling somewhere especially before the days of ways and you don't have directions and you ask somebody for directions why is that relevant to the story it's difficult to understand why it's relevant to the story okay so YF needed directions so somebody gave him directions we don't have such stories in tanak very very rare that Theus starts pointing out details that aren't relevant to the story he stopped in the you used to you remember before ways he stopped in the gas station for directions or you actually asked your husband to stop and he said said I know I don't have to stop and then 3 hours later you on the way to Miami when you had to be in California you had to be in JFK remember those days of course ways and Google Maps has saved a lot of Shalom bayas issues because there's other things to fight about but that issue of unless he still doesn't listen to ways either because it triggers him in some way I told them they shouldn't have a woman's voice because it's hard for men to listen but in any case before the days of way it's fine you stop and ask for directions I mean it's and that's why Rashi says it was a Malak Rashi says it's a whole different story there was an angel and when the angel said they went to Da he meant something else he meant that they are looking for ways of eliminating you it's a whole different story The ramban ramban writes interestingly he says of course it was an angel but an angel doesn't always look like an angel an Angel sometimes looks like a regular person when you say an angel it doesn't necessarily mean an angel you know we imagine an angel with wings flying around he says an angel could sometime we don't know what an angel looks like the angel could be the person standing right in front of me the angel could be the stranger I don't know what the ramban says is here is an example of people becoming Messengers for stories that they themselves don't know how they're going to play out and the point is that here is a story happening ysf is on a journey that he doesn't expect and for that journey to happen there's a lot of different people who become players in this story not even consciously but if that wouldn't have happened and ysf would have never found his brothers the whole story couldn't happen now this man who gave him directions according to the ran never knew that he was responsible for YF being thrown into a pit sold into slavery becoming a prisoner becoming the prime minister of Egypt saving his entire family from hunger and then having the Jews in Egypt for 210 years and then having them become a people and going to Mount Si and receive the Torah all he was doing was giving directions but you think about it ran says that's how life works it's exactly how life works I'm just giving you directions but this person becomes an indispensable note in the cosmic Symphony if you will or the cosmic plan and every person is that note sometimes consciously much more often unconsciously and so the story continues and when YF comes to his brothers a whole different story develops the last words we heard from YF was he he told his father he since then there is absolute silence on yosef's part his brother sees him oh he the man says what are you looking for he says I'm looking for my brothers after that moment we don't hear him speak anymore his brothers sees him what did he tell them they wanted to kill him doesn't say a word they take off his tunic what did he say t doesn't say anything they're about to throw him into a pit what does he say ter doesn't say anything later it's going to say Mikes that the brothers told each other when they were in prison in Egypt we're guilty because we heard our brother's cries pleading with us and we didn't listen to him does that mean he was pleading verbally does it mean he was crying does it mean he was sobbing the Torah doesn't say it in the story here in the story here YF doesn't say a word is it possible that ysf didn't speak it's just his eyes he was pleading with his eyes Maybe the shock and the pain was too deep he couldn't even speak the Torah doesn't say anything as I told you silence in tanak is very loud silence inish is thundering when something is not written it's not because it doesn't exist it's because you have to absorb it with different tools silence you can't absorb through words silence you have to absorb through silence is y's silence his greatest cry his deepest cry the Z has an expression sometimes the deepest sounds you can't hear you know sometimes a person could cry and articulate themselves in words usually when the pain is deep and very deep there's no words they can just cry and sometimes the pain is so deep they can't even cry not because there's no pain you have to be able to see it in their eyes it's just it's it's it's internalized in such a powerful place that even Tears Don't capture it sometimes there is no verbal structure for it it's preverbal certainly in a child but even in an adult in children it happens very often the pain is preverbal and even in a place that's pre- tears so it's not articulated doesn't have a k and when it doesn't have a c it doesn't have a vessel you know where it stays it stays deep deep inside because it's not articulated and then it could be everywhere all the time that's one of the powerful definitions of real trauma that happens at such a young age but so YF is quiet as far as we know they take him out of the pit and they sell him does he say anything not a word I don't know that he said or didn't say anything not a word he comes to Egypt he's bought by a master does he say anything not a word we do not hear another word of YF see these are things when you read it we often don't focus on it I'm thankful to and commentary on points out this detail from YF leaving his father and saying H I'm look and I'm looking for my brothers we do not hear another word from this man even though there was so much going on in his life the kid was throw it into a pit sold as a slave bought as a slave he's running the entire show he's the CEO of ptif we know what he does we know that he's liked we know that he's loved we know that ptif trusts him we know P's wife likes him we all know that he still did not say a word what's the first word he says or I should say what are the first words he he he certainly said words but not recorded in TI that's what I mean I'm not saying he didn't speak he spoke but it's not recorded in what are the first words recorded by y from y from the day he left his father and the day he met that that strange mysterious man who asked him where he's going and finally when he opens his mouth next recorded when finally when we hear him speak when words are emitted from his mouth in h that's going to be later that's we need 22 years for that the first words are and this is very interesting Po's wife as we know takes a liking to him and this is in your next Source those few verses it's one two it's the fourth paragraph in the source sheets she says to him be with me lay with me he refuses and he speaks to her this is the first conversation first words of Y from before he was sold before he met his brothers till now is his conversation not with ptif with the wife of pitifer he speaks to her he explains to her why this would be wrong and he says you know that my master knows nothing of what's going in this what knows nothing of what's going on in this house anything that he has he is put under my jurisdiction there is no one greater in this home the only thing he did not give me was you because you're his wife and the last line he says how can I do something that is so immoral so wrong so bad and I will be sinning to hasem to God that's the first conversation we hear from y he's speaking to the wife of he's trying to persuade her and to explain to her why he's refusing her of course she wasn't convinced by this but this is what YF tells her and he's making an argument he says this will be such a betrayal of your husband and of you your husband trusted me with everything the one thing I don't have access to is you because you're his wife you're married this is not my this is not me this doesn't belong to me how can I do this how can I betray my H your your husband how can I betray you and finally his last words is I'm going to send to God by the way just a little interest thing I saw this I think from the he says says he should have told her something more powerful like it's a sin for you too it's one of the adultery is one of the so even if it's before it's also you're not allowed to do this's wife he should say it's going to be a sin for me because you're married but it's a sin for you too he said something very powerful ful he said y did not want to put himself with her in one group even in a moral way would mean we're ready we have a partnership here you know we'll be learning together you know you know when the boy tells me we're just learning together we're going to be sinning to God even that it's already a connection and ysf would be crossing a border that is very very dangerous you see the pers of his words think what lay in that not you're going to S to God too you'll have to figure that out but I'm going to tell that created a boundary not just in terms of the relationship but even in the terms of how to talk about the relationship it's not we're going to sin to God oh we already we already in this together we're both going to sin no I'm gonna sin to God I'm sorry I'm going to sin to God I can't do this this is the end of the first conversation of YF ysf from now on is silent again he doesn't talk not that he didn't talk nothing is recorded we do know that one day nobody's home she's home alone and ysf is home this is her day she seizes him and she says come on and what y does is he runs out of the house his cloak is torn and she us it as uses it as proof that he was guilty of attempting to do a horrible heinous immoral act and he's thrown into prison we would expect him to say something I'm sure he told his master he's innocent he didn't want to go to prison but TI doesn't record a word just like when his brothers threw him into the pit sold he doesn't say a word no we don't hear a word where do we hear him again speak he's in prison and again he's appointed over the prison he's the CEO he's loved gives him we still don't hear a word from him and then one day one day years after being in prison the two Ministers of par are in prison the Butler and the Baker and YF comes one morning it's a second to the last source and they look depressed and sour and dejected him they have a sour face they look like sour pickles they look like they look depressed and Y turns to them he says what's wrong why do you guys look downcast why do your faces look Melancholy they tell him we have a dream we had a dream and nobody can explain our dream so here is finally YF again Shear's words M why are you guys upset and they say we had a dream what does God has the solutions tell me your dream God has the solutions tell me your dream they tell him the dream YF interprets the dreams his interpretations come true the butler is restored back to his position the baker is Exodus hung by par years again pass we don't hear YF talking until py has a dream two dreams and the butler remembers and he tells pyate there's a great kid in prison who knows how to interpret dreams and they summon YF and P tells YF I had this dream and nobody can explain it and I heard you know how to explain dreams and once again YF speaks third time since he was sold it's not me I can't interpret your dreams Hashem will respond to the welfare of par and Par shares the dream ysf gives an interpretation then he tells par the reason Hashem showed you this dream is because there's something happening there's going to be a plent years of plenty years of famine the reason you have the dream twice is because Hashem is showing you that this is going to happen very soon y tells him what Hashem shows him and he uses the word elim again so now understand in all three conversations that ysf has from when he was sent away from his father there's a word that he keeps on saying and that is elim when he speaks to P's wife the first conversation his Last Words is when he speaks to the Butler and Baker in the prison cell when they tell him we have a dream and we're bothered we're perturbed he says God has the solution but you can share it with me and fun fascinatingly when par asks him about his dream he says [Music] exactly almost the same thing he told to the Butler and Baker in prison and those are the three subsequent conversations from from his silence but these three conversations capture the evolution of YF and once we see these three you'll see this word again and again and again and again throughout until the punchline 22 years later after everything he was by potifa he was in prison he was a prime minister he dealt with plenty he dealt with famine he fed his family he arrested shim he forced them to bring bamin and finally finally when Yuda confronts him because bam is going to be the slave cuz he supposedly stole his goblet and Y can't contain himself anymore it's 22 years since the sale as a slave and he says I am your brothers and he uses three times in that opening sentence the word Alim YF says to them to his brothers they're shocked they're overwhelmed they're afraid there's going to be Revenge retribution who knows how Y is going to respond to the fact that they are his brothers what is he going to do to them and YF tells them don't get depressed you did not sell meim has sent me to bring life to everybody because there's already a hunger for two years going to be a hunger for another five years a second time soem sent me ahead of you to bring rescue and life and survival and then he says to them and you did not send meim elim sent me and he made me the master over this country go back home tell our father and bring him to Egypt so in the sentence where the family is reunited he uses Alim three times here it's three different times he uses elim to P's wife elim to the Butler and Baker elim to par there three times he uses the word elim is that a coincidence that it's three times no it's capturing those three elims which are the only conversations we have from when he opened his mouth but it's this way that the tah conveys a message what's the message the message is YF has potential that is unimaginable Yakov knows it that's the love that he has to YF when people have such potential potential must be nurtured you can have the greatest seed in the world this seed its genetic makeup can produce a tree as but if the seed is not nurtured if it doesn't have a good place in the soil if it doesn't have good soil if it doesn't get oxygen if it doesn't get sunlight if it doesn't get water what happens to the seed Gish buus zero the seed decomposes and that's the end of it you could have left it on your window sill at least it would have had something I put it in the ground I bury it I destroy it and there's nothing there you need to give it water you need to give it sunlight ysf is a seed every child every person is a seed we call it Zer Zer means a seed in in Hebrew children are called zerah right z z z actually come the word Zia it's planting why so the answer is well because every child comes from a seed the seed of life every living organism comes from a seed but that's how we call children why is that the Hebrew name for children right the main name in for children is it doesn't mean your children it means to your seed it's a very profound idea because it tells you what a child is a child is a seed what happens to a seed what happens to a sperm what happens to the seed of life well if you put it under a microscope it's incredible we may not see it with our physical eyes but if you put it under a microscope and you study a little biology and you know what is contained in a seat it's incredible a world is contained in a CA Universe the planning the intricacy the Brilliance the infrastructure of a single seed is so complex it's so profound it's so powerful it's more sophisticated and takes more work to assemble than the infrastructure of New York and London and Paris and Moscow and Sydney and Melbourne and even Tel Aviv put together cities have infrastructures and they're complex today we know they used to think a cell a cell is a simple thing today you know what what's inside of a cell is so complex that it's more complex than all of these infrastructures put together this couldn't happen randomly this is a brilliant brilliant design a manifestation of infinite intelligence and this is one seed one cell one neuron one Scroll of DNA one genim a child is called Z why the potential of Y is stupendous it's gigantic I want to use the word Titanic but that doesn't belong here the word is a good word but became associated with something else you know there's there's words like that that over the history you can't there a word in English for Joy it's a very very nice word in Old literature it's used constantly you know what I mean ecstasy and another word too but the point is you have to always know the context but it interesting because the potential of YF is so magnificent but that's what a seed is a seed needs hands a heart water sunlight to nurture it a physical seed and of course a spiritual seed a psychological seed an emotional SE y gives him this it's not just a shirt it's a sign of a special relationship of of of an investment in y's future in his well-being his Destiny is great YF is still young now what I'm going to say now we have to always understand that when we dealing with ysf and the brothers you're talking about extremely lofty and profound Souls so we always have to have the respect and the awe and the reverence but I'm saying it in a way in a language that can relate to us rash he says however you explain it with Y there was still a youthfulness in your I don't mean youthfulness in a good sense you know you're youthful you're fun creative but youthfulness in the sends that ysf still needed to develop relative to his level and relative to his potential he's still telling his father how his brothers are not good whatever that means and however you explain it again relative to yosef's level he's telling his brothers that you're all going to bow down to me now ysf was a good person ysf was an innocent person YF was a holy person y was a pure person we see how he rises throughout life but at this stage ysf is still telling his brothers these dreams which is so misconstrued in their minds and absorbed and taken by them as a form of narcissism or a form of control you're going to control us you're going to be our King you're going to rule over us and all they can respond is with hatred they hate him they loathe him they're jealous of him how is yosef's potential going to emerge now the fascinating thing is what do you do with a seed what do we do with a seed we don't keep it on the window sell a seed we put into the Earth that's what we do who's put into the Earth ysf how many times no no how many times does it say he's in a bur what's the word we use for a a cave or a pit in the earth bur how many twice his brothers put him into a bur later when he speaks to the butler he says I was stolen from the land of the Hebrews and they placed me in a a Bo in Egypt the prison cell was in a pit it was underground it was Subterranean YF was put in a bir twice the ter says about y's pit it was an empty pit without water why does it say that it could have just said it was empty so he didn't drown asked this question it's very difficult to understand the bit was empty that means there was no water there was also no diamonds there one of the interpretations is I could put a seed in the Earth but if there's no water nothing is going to grow so YF is put into the Earth but you need water you need sunlight you need ear Earth is not enough but what happens right after that right after ysep is put into the pit with there's no water the brothers realize that he's the brothers ruven realizes that he's gone he was sold and what do they do they send a message to to Yakov with a bloody tunic and Yakov believes that ysf was killed by an animal and the next thing the tah describes is how Yakov would not stop crying for y and he says I'm going to go down to my grave grieving weeping sobbing for y that jop position is not a coincidence yakov's tears were the waters that irrigated yep's Soul how do we know this because later when wants y to behave promiscuously and kazal say Rashi brings it YF came home that day to do his work and some of the sages say he surrendered What stopped him our sages say he saw the image of Yakov his father what does that mean he knew what Yakov looked like before he was 17 years old when he left his father Yak YF suddenly can feel his father's presence his father's attachment a father who never stopped crying because as Rashi says for someone who's gone there is pain but a person can somehow find closure when a person is alive there's no closure YF was alive there was no closure I'm not going to elaborate but everybody knows the difference when parents are dealing with a child in captivity or children have a paren in captivity or a sibling Etc close relative a grandparent it's a different experience this the limbo the the chaos the confusion the overwhelming sense of dread YF wasn't dead he was alive Yakov could sense something is wrong he doesn't stop crying but think about it on a spiritual level on a spiritual level Yakov never considered yv dead so in other words Yakov kept up that attachment think of it in terms of spiritually sometimes parents could kala sever a relationship with a child and I stop crying I'm done he's in a pit he's a slave I don't know his life was lost yakob says not my son I'm not going to sever that attachment those tears irrigate the pits of Y ysf throughout his life but what happens in that Bo usually when someone is thrown into a boy it's the end it's a recipe for absolute depression it's a recipe for absolute decomposition in life sometimes a person feels that they have been buried and that's what happened to YF he was buried not once buried by his brothers buried by ptif buried by the butler whenever anybody can they buried him this boy did not stop being buried everyone he came in contact with buried him and why he was doing the right thing he could have told his father tati could you find another messenger he wanted to listen to his father he n so he went to a place of danger he could have told P for his wife sure I want to stay in this house you know I'm the CEO I'm doing well he was moral so he said no so what did he get for that buried thrown into prison he was nice to the butler he interpreted his dream he asked him for a favor get me out of this place the butler forgets about him that's how ends he forgot about him that's the end took two years till P had a dream and often in life somebody feels they were buried and buried again and buried again and what does ysf teach somebody ysf says you weren't buried you were planted you weren't buried you were planted that's a very big difference I can take a seed and bury it I can take a seed and plant it you know the difference when I take a seed and bury it it's the end when I take a seed and plant it it's the beginning that's the transformation this man goes through this young child this young man goes through as he was broken he lost everything he found something what did he find he found an identity that was of a completely different magnitude and it's this identity that the ter is intimating with that Evolution From Slavery into prison because here itself there was another Evolution let's think about the difference between a slave and a prisoner being a slave is not fun let's put it that way we don't have to discuss the story of the slaves in the American South we don't have to discuss the story of slaves in the Roman Empire in Judaism when you buy a Jewish slave in Tyra you have to liberate him after six years and as the gamar says when you buy a Jewish were slave you're basically buying a master so be careful if you have one piece of chicken he gets it in Judaism even if you buy a non-jewish slave and if you kill him you get killed think about that in the ancient world you killed a slave you own your slave you could do with it what you do with your table the Jewish World you kill an you get killed and there's serious punishments there's serious penalties if you knock out his tooth he goes free cuz used to knock out a tooths to be able to show that you're a slave so if you run away everybody will see you're a slave so if you do that he goes free so this was there was regulation on the seventh day every slave had to rest every slave had to rest he could sit in sh with M together with his boss so even in the world of slavery there was a unique sense of dignity but in the ancient world generally a slave didn't belong to himself but there's still a difference between a slave and a prisoner when ptif buys a slave he wants the slave to be successful F he wants the slave to flex his muscles he wants the slave to rise to the top that's why he buys him he's happy that YF is a successful man right he doesn't want YF to be repressed and crushed and desponded and depressed he wants YF to be his CEO he tells yph take it over do whatever you want you're my slave the money goes into my bank account yes you you belong to me but I want you to work I want you to be successful and if you need a good meal take it and you need a good bed take it it's my bed it's my meal but I want you to work and I want you to be successful that's why I hire somebody let's think about it in terms of contemporary life not the words of slavery when I hire somebody an employee a manager I want them to be powerful sometimes you'll pay a very big salary to get somebody who's a really successful person and can have their own company right so why do you hire him because you want success you want success you don't want to have to change every light bulb and Overlook everything he's doing you want to be able to delegate the best thing is to delegate that's ptif I want to delegate so when I hire somebody he may be working for me or she may be working for me I'm paying their salary the prophets are going to me ultimately but I want you to be successful I want you to be creative I want you to use your imagination even if I am ultimately gaining so much from it because I'm the boss but now let's think about a prisoner prisoner is the exact opposite you don't call in a prisoner and say I want you to work can be successful and be creative the word what does mean in Hebrew bound up we say every day you untie you release those who are tied usur means [Music] tied the word why is is called is forbidden why is it called is because it's tied yeah a person is tied I'm not this like ysf told her this is not for me my hands are tied I I'm not supposed to touch you when I was a little kid my mother told me an interesting story she said that there was once years ago there was a Jewish secular woman and she came to see the laab so naturally she stuck out her hand to shake his hand so he looked at her and in the most polite way he said when I was still little kid my mother taught me not to touch something that doesn't belong to me when I was a little kid my mother taught me not to touch something that doesn't belong to me user I'm Asser the word iser also means something else the thing is is blocked because this everything has a spark of the Divine so something that's kosher that's M mut means untied you can extract the spark but if it's AER it means the spark is not accessible to me so if I eat this food I'm not helping the food I'm not helping me because I'm not connecting to the Divine energy and the spark So when you say us a prisoner in a b Sur it's tied you don't want to tie your servant you don't want to tie your employee you don't want to tie the hands and the feet in the imagination you want your employee to be creative you want them to come in and think and dream that's what you're paying for that's why you bought this evid or you hire this employee a a a prisoner no they turn you into a number I'm not interested in your creativity on the contrary this is a place where you're not going to be able to express yourself you're behind closed doors you can't get out of your cell everything is prescribed everything is controlled even if you're doing work maybe you'll clean the bathroom in the prison or you'll clean the chaplain or you'll clean but the point is to to to crush your dignity you become a number instead of a person that's what B does even if a prisoner does work in prison many of them you have jobs but it's not the job you know you're going to write home about I got an amazing job and my talents are being expressed here and manifested it's a whole different reality so now think about y's two stages what happens in his journey after he comes to his brothers he gets sold ysf now doesn't break he actually transforms and he transforms into a new person and this new person is a person who he will one day identify when he meets his when he reunites with his brothers in a revealed way and he'll tell them you did not sell me Hashem sent me and that changes everything as we've spoken in in in classes in previous years of these portions there's always the choice a person makes in life was I sold or was I sent the circumstances are the same was I buried or was I planted it's the same reality the seed was put in the earth and it was dark there but what was happening was is it decomposing in order to turn into an incredible tree or an Incredible plant or vegetable fruit herb whatever it is or it was just buried to be destroyed and led to die at that moment ysf realizes I did not plan this I was sent my dreams will come true but how they're going to come true I don't know it's going to be a whole different Journey he trusted it so deeply that he was ready to let go of everything but there were two stages in letting go and these two stages are both very profound but it's only after the second stage when he becomes the king of Egypt the prime minister of Egypt in other words he gains power more than he could have imagined as a 17-year-old as a 17-year-old his brothers sheaves are bowing down to him okay nice so you own a couple of you know pieces of real estate in m the second one is already a sun and a moon could have he imagined that he would become the prim minister of the world power remember Egypt was the superpower of the time par said this is your country only the throne is above you just like P told him just like the prison Wen told him everybody tells him the same thing it's yours Egypt is yours nobody should lift an arm or a leg in all of Egypt without your permission that's what pyate told him that transformation happens after the second phase in y's Evolution here is the key and the magic of yosef's thinking when ysf tells his brother brothers Hashem sent me you didn't sell me he wasn't denying the facts that they sold him of course they sold him what he meant was I am reframing the experience as a mission rather than me just being a victim of your horrible mistakes of your Sinister moves for whatever reason you did what you did for your reasons you will have to be able to find the healing for that as far as I'm concerned I was a messenger I was an ambassador of Hashem this is my journey I'm going to own it and I'm going to own it with Grace I'm going to own it with optimism I'm going to own it with fortitude resilience resolve confidence and faith and empowerment but this is not just a general description it's easy to say I was in life one second you was sent you're a slave For Heaven's Sake this is where ysf actually took the experience of life and the circumstances he was experiencing and he channeled it as a tool for Extraordinary growth so when he is a slave in P's house you know what he asks himself H wow what is it that I need to learn from slavery where is the growth here I'm just just my life is over I was a free happy go-lucky boy dreaming soaring in my imagination Papa Loved Me Okay my brothers didn't lived a beautiful life physically spiritually he didn't have a mother so life was never completely perfect but compare it to now he's an evid and in Egypt he's the only Jew in all of Egypt it's not just he was in another person's house the culture was alien it was a pagan culture was says they were saturated with promiscuity when P's wife heard no from y she must have been shocked nobody said no in Egypt it was it's like what we hearing now what happened with theik on October 7 their relationship to to the respect for a person's body the absence of it it's unconceivable inconceivable for for for people for Jewish women especially who were the Jewish people were nurtured for thousands of years on the ethos of of respect for the body respect for boundaries the Dignity of another person facing a culture that not only does these things and hiding you know the Nazis did a lot of these things but they didn't take videos they didn't want anybody to know they didn't want anybody to know the kamnik took videos they wanted everybody to know wow that's like in other words it's not like I know it's wrong but I want to do it so I'm not going to take videos no this is what God wants it it gives you an understanding a little bit of a what the pr means what the Jewish people are up against it also gives you an understanding of the people supporting Hamas in Western countries of the levels of indoctrination and blindness and stupidity or anti-Semitism that we're seeing P's wife must have been shocked so now when YF YF refuses he's one person alone and he asks the question what's the goal here where am I was planted what am I going to become you know what happens YF is transformed he becomes an evid hasem the experience of servitude doesn't remain an experience where I'm a slave to P I'm working in P's house I'm a servant of Hashem that's why he could tell his brothers Hashem sent me I'm working for [Music] hem what the slave acquires the master acquires that's what the gar says in K what the servant acquires the master acquires why I belong to him and that's why you see the PK the moment he becomes a slave there's a new language with Y hasem is with him sees Hashem is with him whatever he does he's hasem hasem hasem you don't have have that before with YF now of course ysf was the son of yob YF was a tadic but there was a incredible transformation in his life the fact that he lost so much didn't destroy him as his old identity was lost something knew was born the seed gave growth the first bir the first Bo the bir that his brothers threw him into gave growth to a new identity a person where the ego even the smallest ego relative to his great level was now gone and he defined himself as I'm a servant I'm a channel I'm a conduit and that's why it says through through his hand but something else happens he's throwing into a second buer why the seed was already planted once once no it was planted again this was a prison what happens in a prison in a prison they look at you and they say you're nothing you're a number at least a slave I want you to work I want you to be successful in prison I don't want you to be successful I want you to be depressed I want to punish you every day is a punishment you're being punished you're being confined what does YF do with that this is where yv becomes YF this is where YF has to go into a space where he's not only a servant of Hashem but where he completely completely lets go of every last vestage of self-consciousness that is separate from the source of Life what do they do to a person in prison one message you're a nothing you're nobody work CEO no you're not a CEO you're going to ride here if one day you get out you'll go home that's the point of prison no you can't be with a family no prison is there to break a person P didn't want to break pyro he just wanted to own him he didn't want to break him what did ysf do with that experience this is a place where they consider me nothing and this is where YF tells his brothers I was sent what does that do so now I'm going to go away from YF for a moment and apply to people's lives and discuss an experience I have seen in certain individuals where an experience similar to YF could result in two different paths sometimes a person gets broken in life to the point that every last vestage of their ego is shattered especially because of things that happened during childhood before they even developed a sense of confidence or if events that occurred later in life and it's a point where the person cannot hold on to the identity that used to work for them if my life is going pretty well even though every life has challenges and problems I can develop a certain identity and hold on to it and it works for me it works on a daily basis I'm getting through the day and night with not too many problems I have an issue here I have an issue there okay eat a piece of cheesecake you need a nice coffee take a nice coffee need a vacation for a few days it's getting cold go to Miami well too many people there go somewhere else go to Cancun too many people there too I don't know find somewhere go to [Music] Greece but sometimes a person experiences things maybe with themselves with their children with their marriage with life's realities inside of us or outside of us every person in their own life where that old identity I was holding on to Simply doesn't do it any anymore it's shattered it's broken so now one of two things can happen I can become a very broken person angry resentful frustrated and that's what really addiction is addiction is I'm numbing my pain through all types of destructive substances which will help me escape my misery this is what easily could have happened to YF and what happens if a person experiences what we're describing here as the feeling of I in the effes I'm nothing I'm worthless I'm really nothing and if a child experienced that especially through certain types of abuse physical emotional intimate Etc that sense of self can be so shattered that this person grows up with an inner hole a cavity an emptiness in the core of the person where there's no eye so they are prisoners physically I may be a free person but my heart is in jail my soul is in jail my sense of dignity and self is completely in jail it's incarcerated I have no access to it and I substitute it with a fake personality that could survive but it's so so painful and difficult and challenging that unless I really numb myself constantly and become detached and disassociated I can't deal with it and some people feel that they really can't deal with it anymore the pain is too deep those who don't understand it are lucky that they don't understand it those who do do life is so un un so painful so miserable that very living for a person such a person could be a curse could be felt like a curse it's here that y goes through the most incredible transformation in the world he experiences nothingness that liberates him he experiences a sense of nothingness that sets him free and I'll explain to you what I mean okay I'll give a you know I'm going to give a very mundane maybe not such a mundane but I'm give a simple example in my own work as you know I give a lot of classes and lectures I prepare for them when I prepare a class or a lecture what am I thinking about okay there's three models three states of Consciousness and this is true by the way of any speech you'll ever give it's true about any teacher any educator any speaker and really any form of communication to your children to your grandchildren to your employees to friends it's just it's it's about our relationship with others whatever that whatever form it takes on sometimes I may be thinking about about me just me it's my ego I want to be successful I want them to like me I want them to invite me back I want to Brand myself I want to make myself a name I want to be affluent I want to be a celebrity I want to be famous I want to do well these are very human emotions that people have in many different areas of life especially artists whether it's actors or or or or business business tycoons or or singers or communicators or spiritual leaders I want the people to like me I want the validation from the people that is one of the most stressful things in life because then the pressure is so profound are they going to like me are they not going to like me is it going well is it not going well am I going to get a standing ovation am I even going to get an Applause are people going to come and say wow it changed my life they're going to say it was too long it was boring and they're going to be texting while I'm talking I'm comparing myself to others afterwards I'm self-conscious what they think what did they not think how did they think it's a miserable life it's Miser yeah like a first year teacher yeah but it's something that could be after 25 years too it's about the inner identity could be after 20 years of motherhood too it gets worse it gets worse actually yeah gets much worse because it's a bottomless pit why am I not there yet the reason I'm not there yet is cause cuz I'm I'm feeding off something false it's like filling up water in a cup that has a hole you could fill it for 50 years I could get compliments for 60 years G as your grandmother would say it's there's there's a hole in the cup you understand there's a hole in the cup and then then then I would have to go to YouTube how many views but this person has more views makes difference between a good teacher and a good principal it's about yeah about the of course same is true with a principal same is true with every father and mother every every every every relationship I'm giving you an example of my work there's another way and here there's Al the pressure of comparing and also I what if I fail what if the class fails IAL who's going to come back next week and if it fails again and what are they going to think and they go home the waste of time I can't fail I have to be perfect but how can a class be perfect so I can't I I have to not stop preparing why because it has to be more and more and more and more perfect and if it's not perfect gaval it's it's it's just it's a miserable life it's so anxious even though the person thinks they're doing it for the elves are actually destroying themselves now I'm going to go about I'm now going to go to The Other Extreme which is the easiest way to live but it's also the hardest way to live and that's what ysf experienced at that moment and this is what this YF is also trying to grow into with God's grace and your patience YF reaches a point where it's mamish not about him the real teacher the real Communicator is this is not about me of course I have to prepare and of course I have to present and of course there's ways to present and you need a structure and if you have a good story that's great that's all wonderful but what's what's at the core of it at the core of it is when the person takes the Ani and turns it into a an is the letters of a an means I me ion means nothingness why would I want to make my knee into iron cuz there's two types of iron there's an in nothing you're you garnished there's Anon that is not nothingness it's no thingness nothingness no hyphen nothingness you know why the source of all things is iron you see this tissue box can't be the source for the sun right cuz it's a tissue box the only thing that can be a source for everything is what not somethingness but no thingness Hashem is not a thing so it's the source of all things it's the ultimate iron ion is the source of everything it's the source of creativity because it's not stuck in any particular mold what does it mean that becomes ion that KN becomes ion means that an liberates itself from being stuck in the orbit of the ego and says I want to be a conduit for Infinity I just right now want to be a channel for the Divine energy that's coming through me so when I'm giving a class I'm preparing a class who's really preparing the class Hashem is preparing the class class he wants Rabbi why why Jacobson to give the class okay I'm here hey fine I'll give it you want to use my brain use my brain you want to use my I made my brain tell me I created a 100 billion neurons in my brain I'm asking you I created a 70 trillion cells in my body I'm speaking right now the oxygen that I'm inhaling I created this oxygen I created my respiratory system I created my digestive system I created my circulatory system you know what's happening in the body 70 trillion cells per working in Perfect Harmony 100 billion neurons and millions of aptic nerves in my eyes so I could be able to see you could be able to see me every word come out as a miracle I did any of this and then I just oh it's my I'm giving the class I'm my eego what the only we could we delude ourselves and take control of things that make our lives miserable a means I'm a shifer like we spoke a few weeks ago what's a shifer a shifer is it's your your voice your sound I'm going to be a shaer now the hardest thing is to become a shaer cuz I have to empty everything out that weird the hard work of this is not creating something it's getting rid of it's getting rid of the static of they're going to like they're not going to like how am I going to come out am I not going to come out bry's having a good time today galic she knows what this feeling is like she knows what this feeling is like very well that's the source of Joy because that means I'm in the moment I'm teaching and I'm not here I'm actually experiencing the moment in a good way I'm not here how do you know your body is healthy when you don't feel it when you start feeling your body it means something is wrong if I'm feeling my pinky there's a cut if I'm feeling my head there's a headache right when you're a person works out or they're in physical physical fle fit and good shape afterwards you feel light I feel light why when you're healthy you should feel yourself no a healthy body means a body that is just a conduit for the soul doesn't feel itself when there's illness there's an interruption between the and the body between the soul and the body now the body feels itself I come into a room and I'm busy with self-consciousness you think they like this class you think it's going you think it's going well it's not going well they're going to what about the other one and oh my God I'm everywhere besides here I'm never ever present because I'm thinking about how to be present and why am I not present and I'm guilty and then I'm guilty for being guilty and then I'm guilty for being guilty but for being guilty but not guilty enough doesn't stop this is the mental chatter of the ego that uses it uses all holy ideas but it's just going to it's just going to undermine the [Music] person [Music] it's also true in all relationships let's say somebody has a child who's struggling somebody has a child who's struggling what's the worst thing to do the worst thing is to do to connect to them from a place of my ego you're disappointing me you're frustrating me you're embarrassing my family what are people going to say about me what's my aunt going to say about me what's my mother going to say my sister-in-law my neighbors what's going to look like at the chevas at the chevas For Heaven's Sake Tanta is coming and she's going to see my granddaughter oh my God you make a whats up for just for that CH to be able to survive I don't know tant fager she's a wonderful person whoever huh I don't get involved in family politics my point is I don't know that that's always the answer it's really inside work it's inner work it's inner work am I going to really be able to transcend that place now I can't fully transcend that place we have egos we at least I have I try to have we vacillate between one place and another place but the question is what space do I want to live in where do I want to focus what do I take seriously what do I want to cultivate what am I aspiring to people there's one in the middle there's one in the middle but I I wanted to do I wanted to do the two extremes so I'm going to get to the third one in a moment if I'm relating to that child from a much different place and that is I'm full of gratitude for the fact that I can be here for this Soul whom I love so much that's what it's about I'm full of gratitude for the fact that I could be here for this soul I don't control Souls I didn't create this world I don't know the story of every soul I don't even know the whole story of my soul I know the story of my child's soul I have all reverence respect love and I feel grateful that I was chosen for a mission to bring out the best in the soul I'm going to show up to the best of my ability I'm going to show up with full presence with full creativity and then what happens it's like back to that class your creativity could be Unleashed you know why there's only one source of creativity creativity comes from the word Creator creative people want to be creative at work creative in school creative in the house how do you become creative you know how by plugging in to creativity to the source of creativity so you know what it's like it's like I have a plug and the plug says you know I don't like anymore being attached to that wall I need Independence I'm done pull me out and I pull out the plug and dead computer is dead the phone is dead the AC is dead the vacuum cleaner is dead and the oven is dead you know why the electricity was coming through the plug when you detach from the wall you're not becoming free you're detaching yourself from the source of electricity you were a source of electricity you were a channel for electricity that's how you want to prepare that's how I want to prepare a class I want to plug in and be a source a CH not a source a channel for the electricity that's what it means that's what b means the word ble doesn't mean self-destruction it means plugging in the self to the source of self so that my brain my soul my heart my emotions my presence my instincts could become a channel for the creativity that needs to go through me does the class have to be perfect no I'm going to show up the way I could show up and whatever has to come through me today is going to come through me today nothing more and nothing less do I ever have to compare myself to somebody else no every person's soul has its Mission there's no competitiveness I can never take away your light you can't take away my light the wires are not competing for electricity why not nobody competes for sunlight you're taking my sunlight unless you build a wall near my house we're both in the park stop taking my sunlight it's God's light for everybody we don't sit in the park stop it and when we start building walls that's a whole different experience I start building walls to block and harness and manipulate and exploit the light now you're blocking my sunlight everyone has sunlight and there's a sunlight that's going to be channeled through your window through my window through your prism through your channel I can't take away there's people there's people right who love my classes some are even sitting here there's people I don't know how to say this who don't they don't it's too long I use the word trauma too many times uh whatever good okay it's to this to that I need this I whatever one guy told me once there's not enough muser you have to be much harsher and sharper and negative and talk about punishments more okay fine there's people who subscribe to my emails people who every week unsubscribe I could take it very person wow they unsubscribe to me oh my God what are they think about me oh you gal now I have to go to therapy because they unsubscribe to my email little did I know they unsubscribe because maybe they made a mistake that's what I tell myself or they unsubscribe because they're busy but every soul needs to get influence from where it needs to get influence nobody can take away somebody else I have you have your space you have your light it frees you up it frees a person up you I show up the best way I can show up and I become a channel for the light the electricity that's coming through today tomorrow there'll be maybe different electricity that comes through gal and I have to show up I got to show I can't just sit in bed and say I'm sleeping God you give the class I mean that would be easier I stay in bed God gives the class but somehow Hashem wants us to be partners he wants me to be the schaer and then you also I you you become much more creative you know why because the brain is freed up there's a there's an openness it's not filled up with mumbo jumbo self-consciousness looking for validation it's actually free like the brain is open it's like the wire is actually clean the Sher is pure so the you can actually tune in you there's no static you can actually your antennas can pick up whatever prophecy whatever whatever wisdom I should say I'm not a prophet but whatever wisdom Hashem is channeling through your heart through your brain and this is true even in a in a date in a meeting between a husband and a wife it's showing up to be here in the present moment without without the need to protect myself which comes from the need to survive that's why it is hard I told you I Ed the word trauma I'm going to use it it's hard I don't want to I don't want to say something and not fulfill my promise somebody who who has AC of trauma they're always in surv survival mode and it's not their fault and if I'm in survival mode I can't let go how can I let go if I let go you may stab me I have to be able to have the real acceptance that God has my back that he's creating me at this very moment and that I'm going to be safe to be able to let go and just show up and I have to be able to go to those childlike parts that are innocent and they're throwing in those thoughts you're not enough creative your class is not good uh there's other person who's doing better they're not going to like it uh it's not deep enough it's not intelligent enough there's no structure and all those thoughts that love to bully me or bully you have to be able to turn them and say I'm so sorry you had to develop these thoughts in order to survive maybe now you could let go there's a lot of love and empathy there and compassion there so therefore what happens here is the person frees themselves up because I'm become in touch with creativity when YF had sadic in prison reorients his ion he's a prisoner they want to turn him into ion so you know what he does he uses the experience he says I'm going to beon I don't exist anymore but you know why I don't exist because only Hashem exists wow that moment all his dreams could start coming true that moment his greatness comes out because you know why it is cuz it's not anymore his own greatness that he has to protect it's the greatness that Hashem chose him to be a channel for those were all his dreams now take a look what happens at the end at the end they all come and get grain from him they all get grain from him when you plant a seed what grows grain so that seed that was buried by his brothers what did that seed produce It produced infinite grain it sustained the whole Egypt it sustained the whole world it sustained the whole family from that seed but it had to go into the pit first it sustained everything and that's why we say in famous shal some people say before Bening you remember that famous shal so we say those who plant with tears will harvest with joy why do people plant with tears who's planting with tears this is referring to a story there was one person who planted with tears y was planted with his father's tears his father didn't know ysf didn't know but he was planted with tears when it was harvested it was dry he was walking and weeping as no as they picked up mashar they pulled out the seed but then when YF was carrying all the sheaves there was tremendous Joy the family was healed everybody was alive in y's Evolution itself there was these two stages are you a servant or are you a prisoner because here there's two stages in this Evolution you asked what was that was number two and number three number one is ego number two is I'm a servant I'm a servant I work I'm going to be successful I'm going to be creative I'm going to do the best but I don't own my life I don't own my life I don't have to own the consequences I don't own it Hashem owns it I want to be an evid Hashem what happens an evid has hands of course he has you attribute it to his hands you say wow those Golden Hand they belong to me I'm the master but you have Golden Hands you can attribute it to the success to the T to the creativity of the servant when YF was in the House of P he was doing everything for but it could be attributed to his hands sometimes a person has amazing Divine success but you could say you know what there is consistency this person is motivated this person is ambitious this person is brilliant this person is is candid this person is upfront this person is resourceful this person has a schedule this person is disciplined you know how we do it they wake up 4:30 in the morning they're in the gym by 5: they at the office by seven they put inside hour they don't slap they this on the phone AAP he does so how do you know it's because whatever this guy touches has but it's and that's why he's called is he's a man who's he's a man who's it it's attributed to the ish this is very very deep but he's not ready yet he's not ready yet because this is my Yad my hand so the energy the pure Creative Energy is still a little eclipsed because it still has to be channeled through my hands in prison yv goes through a second transformation because he was now in a second pit a second bur and in this transformation the tah says and the words are V not even there's not even a hand you know why there's not a hand because his hand is actually the Divine hand it's not that YF didn't have a hand it's not that YF didn't work in prison it's the experience of being enough in prison that elevated him to a place of no thingness so therefore even his hand he doesn't look at it like I'm working for you I want to be a channel I want to be creative bless my hands work YF now reaches a place where there's nothing separate from the source nothing not even a hand that is a channel why not because he didn't have a hand not because he wasn't resourc ful because now he actually becomes so one with the source that there's absolutely no separateness whatsoever he's a breathing walking embodiment of he's a walking breathing embodiment of hashem's Light Of hashem's Love of hashem's energy it's not even attributed to Y and that's why the success is of a different magnitude it's of a magnitude we don't have to say k whatever he does you see it from everything not even everything in the first case you see it from the fact that it's everything because it could be attributed to his hand at this point YF transcends that if I go back to that metaphor I gave I can give a class taking me me me I can give a class thinking okay I'm an evidem I work for Hashem which is a very very powerful powerful development because when a person can go to that place it it it it uh it emancipates it emancipates a person as I said from that pressure from that difficulty so therefore the energy can flow somebody could criticize it's not the end of the world somebody could complement it's not the Yeshua of the world the creativity is not stolen and that is a very very powerful experience and a tremendous development that's Joseph's First Development and that happened only as he was an evid as he was a servant because he rechanneled it as a Divine experience but still I say I have to a servant has to work I got to work hard I got to prepare well it has to go through my hand it has to go through my brain it has to go through my mouth I have to prepare well and you know what happens it's still beautiful but my ego my my not my ego my msus my identity eclip a little bit of the power of the energy it eclipses the energy and then there is where the person becomes the freest person it's what we spoke a few weeks ago it's like the musical instrument the musical instrument doesn't say hey I'm a nice violin are you like me the musical instrument is just a channel for the music the notes of a song don't have any ego not even as an EV they're just a channel and this is where the person completely frees themselves up it's a state of consciousness where the Ani is not felt because the whole an was transformed into iron so now when the person is showing up they're showing up with so much freedom because what happens now is I don't have to impress anybody ever you know how you know how you know how gmach that is I don't have to flatter anybody ever you know how good that is man I'm working on it I don't have to flatter anybody ever I don't have to lie I don't have to exaggerate I don't have to dramatize I don't have to deceive I I can be authentic as authentic could be authentic doesn't mean you don't have SE doesn't mean you say everything to everybody when it could be def we're not talking about being offensive or defensive I'm talking about authenticity in the sense of showing up with full full love light presence including with pain but showing up and not the need to ever manipulate and exploit and it's going to go this way it's going to go that way I don't know how it's going to go what's going to go I'm just showing up right now to be a s to be a channel for a without anyb what happens at that moment in y's life you see the two Butler Butler and Baker are there they're depressed y says why are you depressed they say we had a dream he says Hashem has the answer and then he gives the answer one second you just said said Hashem has the answer why you giv me the answer because there's kinship there's Oneness then par says I have a dream I need you to explain it he says I can't explain it God explains it so why are you giving an explanation you tell them both at Hashem and then you give the explanation that's what YF is saying don't you get it YF is saying it's just aim I'll be the mouthpiece for elim I'll use my brain for elim so now he could tell us Brothers at this moment it was obvious my life is painful my life is not easy there was a lot of Tears in y's life because that was part of the experience the tears were part of the experience it was painful but in that very experience this man was a transformed person and therefore the person in yakov's house goes through this Evolution all the way to with there's no y anymore and then he can become the king and and and run the superpower of the world and it doesn't affect his faith and his spirituality and his authenticity even in the smallest of ways when that Soldier threw the can of tuna this was not something his an can precipitate or prepare for the thing is in other things I think oh of course I could plan it and do it the can of tuna nobody can make that mistake you're not getting it into a tunnel and into a tunnel with Kamas terrorists waiting to kill you that's obviously it's like a miracle but the truth is y came to a place where he freed himself up from that from that other form of pressure and therefore the light the light uh never Fades and I wanted to finish and I'll finish with this one minute because I know it's very very late I hope you're going to come back you're going to give me an Applause somebody's going to compliment me yeah okay next week don't come back cuz it's Kaneka we're not going to have a class but the week after you can come back y from an EV he becomes a an evid means I work for my master that's big I work forem by we say means I actually represent the one who sent me to the point a woman woman is allowed to send a to receive the k for her to receive the ring or a get and she's married at that moment that doesn't make sense A man gives the ring and says that woman is mes and she's married why because she made a or her how does that work the power of is you're not working for me you're me so I was sent if it's Kam don't talk about my hand I don't have a hand it's your my hand is your hand my brain is your brain my soul is your soul wow I'm free it sounds like you don't exist that's when you start existing exists you know why because it exists for real it exists without the need to prove itself it exists without the fear of disappointment it exists without the fear of not having confidence it exists with courage it exists with full Empower exists with full creativity you're plugged in to the source of sources if you go back to the beginning of the story the first words is by Yakov sent him Yakov didn't know but what Yakov was doing is he was turning his son into a that's why the first word of the story is the Silence of is intentional as he goes through as he goes through this transformation and of course this represents the whole Miracle of khaka because the miracle of is what the oil wasn't depleted the oil burnt and burnt and burnt like the burning bush of because basically the idea is burnout comes from the fact when I'm holding on to my limited energy and when my limited energy is gone I burn out when the person Tunes in to iron to the source of electricity sour of electricity doesn't have burnout the source of of of passion doesn't have burnout I'm not burnt out it's hard to tune into it cuz my ego doesn't want to let go but when I can tune into that you become a channel for a flame that never stops burning have a wonderful week a beautiful and we should see the light in the entire world and speedily in our days take abely resonates that way yeah thank you thank you the Captivity the Captivity of ysf the captiv from the from the depth of the abys the he would rise to which is and but the truth is this is very aona because when we have so many Jews in captivity those who were in captivity those who are in captivity maym bring them home safely really CLA is in captivity everybody's in a b because we're all connected they are of course bearing the brunt of it protect them and liberate them but this is a state that the Jewish people find themselves so we should see what we saw by from prison to kingship amen you the modelar yeah of course yeah what do you mean the same model yeah yeah I think we just have to realize one thing and that is if I'm overtaken by fear or anxiety or self-loathing thoughts or all these types of dark thoughts whatever they may be so sometimes I try plugging in but they won't stop they attack and attack more and attack more and then the doesn't stop so sometimes I could turn to them and say you know not now I need you to come up with another script I need to remain in this space of of of Oneness and safety and and love and sometimes it's very very effective because we could tell our brain's things and if the brain knows its position the brain trusts the soul the soul can tell the brain things but sometimes it's just very very incessant and a person needs to let go even on a deeper level they have to like really really let go because it's so powerful it's so overwhelming they have to like really let go of it so they can watch it they can observe it and then they can choose to say you know this is a part of me that needs a lot of healing but I'm going to choose to be in my core soul in my real an which is Ion sometimes that also doesn't help so what I find is at least sometimes is that then we have to actually engage with those pieces they're like little children parts and we have to really uh engage with them and um and uh they're they're feeling very anxious they're afraid of something so we have to reassure them we we have to uh like they do in ifs we have to talk to them we have to listen to them uh we have to understand what they're carrying uh I may have to tell that little child I'm sorry that at 3 years old you had to take on this burden of bullying me 24 hours a day CU you're afraid that I'm going to do the wrong thing or I'm sorry that you had to take on this burden of criticizing me 24/7 because you were afraid that I'm going to lose control and I'm going to get hurt I'm afraid that you had to take on this burden of second guessing myself and feeling guilty because that was your way of keeping me safe I'm a big boy I'm a big girl and I could take take it on and you could relax and if we know how to do this sometimes we need help um it liberates them from those parts and they don't have to do it anymore the ego the itahara is a form of survival it's like an an it's called an animal Consciousness it's there to make it's it's it's its way of making us survive and it does what it knows best so will make me very very critical of myself will make me scared it will make me anxious cuz it thinks that if I'm anxious I'll be protected because if I'm anxious I won't talk to the wrong person I won't say the wrong thing I won't go to the wrong place I won't show up in the wrong way so I'll be protected huh the doctor won't make the mistake yeah yeah but it keeps me in jail because wherever I am I'm busy second I see myself this is not good this was horrible and it's very very hard so we have to really not fall prey to it not like let it take over cuz it's a little child it needs guidance sometimes we could say listen I got your back I'll get back to you later right now come back with another script and that's fine people who have that relationship with all their parts can do that tell their brain what to think now and we'll deal with you later sometimes I have to really delve into it so I just have to let go completely and surrender it all to God but yeah there's the different moments knowing of where we are it's very important to have a support system to be able to talk to somebody about it it's also very important important to be involved in other things that will give us fulfillment because if I stay in that place and I just wallow the anxiety will increase I have to be able to go into things that will give me fulfillment that will show me other parts of my life but altogether it's it's with every person that works differently and sometimes people can do it on their own they need to be able to find that healing with other sources and other other methods yeah so today there's a lot a lot of different healing methods for trauma you know some people some people you know there this trauma therapy this somatic therapy uh there's ifs there's EMDR there's plant medicines there's uh ex different exercises there's meditations there's mindfulness uh there there's there's a lot last few years there's been a lot a lot of uh progress recommendations I know some therapists if you want to email me I know some names but there's been a lot of progress in different methods for healing trauma but you just people have to have a a good a good a good person that you know gets it because if not we could just go in circles I want to ask why why yeah yeah so you know that the answer to [Music] in other words I don't think that we could know why I heard them Che it was like something is making sense like and it's it's the only thing that calm down right sear I'll tell you what I have learned is our focus on why is very normal right but I like during the entire show I was like yeah but a seed needs to be planted it needs to be it needs water it needs nourishment it needs care can't just the sea and say it grow right but the seed sunlight is inside of it in your case the seed sunlight is inside of it and its air and it's water and it's oxygen it's inside of it I guess made it this way so if I focus on the question of why it's a very normal question what happens is I can remain very stuck in the questions and I don't have answers to them we don't have answers huh and even how yeah I think I think the focus is you know what am I doing today to be able to help my seed grow to what it needs to become and to be able to look at my pain as an invitation to go to a much much deeper and more authentic place but even getting out like not having right right yeah