Basi Legani 5725 #10: Thursday - Feb 13

you're like i m again I get Tom again [Music] okay okay okay good morning everybody happy a new tree for years I mean a new tree for years a new year for trees and for the tree inside of us for the trees inside of us okay we are up to in the count of this is she number 10 number 10 hopefully the final one I can't call it the final one but at this at least in this phase the final one can go forever that's true until you undo the tsim Tsum you can go forever until you undo it completely and then you could as go forever the one who sent me the sends me the dedications who dedicated said uh one last time say it with feeling one last time with you know how in Camp they say you know the second time for points this series is dedicated gratefully and thank you very very much for your partnership dedicated by a member of the family who is anonymous also dedicated by Ezra Philip to the Reb and hisim for creating a revolution to bring now am thank you very very much okay so we are up to the last the second to the last ice and the contr this contr it's page UT so after we learned at length in the previous classes the idea of theim not literal doesn't mean it doesn't exist it means that you have to be able to see not only Theus of it not the external dimension of it the pus of it what is what is inside of it what is behind it what is its purpose what is its message what is the invitation that it brings what is its rais onra what is its ultimate goal yeah in C he said and this was the the biggest the big discussion both in terms of the original light so to speak the infinite light and in terms of the finite light the way it's communicated with all the limitations and changes that happen or in the language of the M that is not only in but it's also in and not only in the but also in the he says but he said but nonetheless after everything said and done this is all true and this is all authentic but nonetheless the way it's manifested in the world intuitively is there's a process of serious concealment and on this he went into the whole discussion how even though every creature feels that it is alive and feels there is some life force but nonetheless there's NE not necessarily any knowledge or awareness or intuitive feeling that it's divine not only that in our world one can easily walk the planet saying the river is mine and I made myself as P said or that it's all my own energy My All My Own Strength my own Vigor in other words not only that the person FS or displays ignorance and doesn't know but not only that they take the credit for themselves it's not that the atheist says there's no God The Atheist says I'm God even if he doesn't use those words cuz he's supposed to be an atheist but energetically it's not that there's no God it's that there's always a god it's just I replace him my mind or my feelings or my desires become that so it's not just the Tsum where the light becomes filtered and condensed and concealed like in the metaphor where the student receives only a array of array of array of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction but that allows him to build capacity and to integrate it and to grow and then after 40 years to find in that light the whole full depth in our world as the B said it's not just that the ALF gets dressed up in baz which gets dressed up in gimmel which gets dressed up in doid all the way down to tough new so that's the tough and from the tough you start climbing upward tough to but it's the next chaos and darkness so here the metaphor with the student falls short because here it's it's it's pure concealment and on this he discussed at length a of the maharash the son of the as I told you he goes through all of the all of the each one as part of the buildup so the and the was done earlier all in the idea of and now he comes into the last phase of the M that explains how when you study the universe one of the most extraordinary things that we discussed at length we discussed yesterday in terms of the four elements and in terms of the atoms that the forces to be able to hold everything together that force that holds everything together can't be only the details holding it together right to come together it can't be from the a itself or the itself or in the language of the atoms when you have protons you have neutrons you have electrons and some of these forces repel each other and some things someone something has to hold it all together and you're not just talking about holding together you know three little things you're talking about a Harmony and a holding together that on this is responsible literally all of our existence of matter everything would disintegrate momentarily and become kaput if this if every single Adam was not literally held together constantly in a very very intricate and precise way demonstrating perfect precision and Harmony and that's even one atom and here you're not talking about one you're talking about numbers that are we can't even begin to talk about cuz we don't even have our s in the numbers I mean it's you talking about numbers and that's just in in in the pin of a needle right or the the tip of a nail because everything all of matter is is built with atoms and and each atom on its own is is is literally a nest to keep it together and literally yeah yeah it's not like even you come to a company you com to a to a big company and you see a 100,000 machines that are all working in perfect Precision with each other each one independent of each other and producing the same result and there's nobody there the fact that there's nobody there doesn't tell you that there's nobody who created it just tells you the guy is such a genius that with a joystick he's running it the fact that there's the fact that there's nobody and running around and you don't see him doesn't mean that oh much have happened on its own it just tells you how brilliant this guy is you understand but here we come to the opposite conclusion oh I don't see anybody okay it must be on its own it's the exact opposite it just shows you the power of it the depth of it the intelligence of it and that's just one atom never mind all of them together and that's just in one piece of matter in one tiny tiny particle of matter a grain of sand a flake of snow a droplet of rain never mind when you talk about the entire planet and every creature in the planet and then you talk about the universe and then they have the atoms coming together cuz every atom on its own is not doing it to have the atoms coming together to create what we call molecules which ultimately becomes the building blocks of all matter so this is what talking about that this is not any individual item it can't be an individual item it's something that must transcend all of them to bring them together in that Perfect Harmony and that's essentially the has it comes from the hasem and he uses the words of the AL the eye would have permission to see in other words if the eye was sensitive to the full fabric of reality when it would look at anything it wouldn't even see physical matter it would see Divine Consciousness that's what it would say not because physical matter is fiction because the physical matter is the last manifestation of reducing Consciousness into a particular version of reality but that's the only thing our eyes pick up and we know that even within the physical world as we spoke yesterday with the more instruments that are developed more precise instruments and more subtle instruments we get to see how little of the matter even that we see right even in the world of matter in the world of only of gash where there's nothing else we know that how little we see of that and with all the technology that develops read even the last 150 years you have the concept of X-rays and gamma rays and uh recently MRIs and all these things already takes us into a different world realm and of course the whole world of microscopes but if you go further into the G at some point the says if it had permission it wouldn't even see the why because it would just see that it's all Consciousness being reduced it's a certain version of how it's being manifested but that's what our eye can pick up can detect and that's not a mistake that's that's part of the purpose of creation what don't know what El is right we point yeah Basel right yeah till today nobody knows what an electron is all we could talk about is are its symptoms in other words the results that come from it and those results are real because they affect us but to Define what it is nobody has ever seen electricity in their life but we know it exists and nobody doubts it yet with electricity nobody doubts that it exists even though nobody can pinpoint what it is with the the force that brings it all together here maybe doesn't exist so the brings out that even though through his Bess one should realize this nonetheless the fact is that it doesn't work that way because there's a hel hel there's a concealment after a concealment to the point that you could say it's all Le the person walks around attributing either either in ignorance or much more attributing the power to themselves and whenever anybody attributes any power and we're talking literally any emotional intellectual psychological social Financial to anything but the source that's already a form of AAR it's it's a form of extricating yourself from the true Oneness but yet this is the reality of our world and this is what the B says that the tum reaches a place where it becomes it's pure darkness and to chaos and desolateness so this is where we come into the concept of what that it could be concealed higher and higher which higher and higher means more concealed more concealed in to no end how much the concealment can be not just a concealment where it's filtered where it's condensed where it's where it trickles down and drops where it's only a little tiny Ray and a little tiny fraction as in all the metaphors we spoke about before but to the point of AD ain't catch there's no end to how concealed it could be to the point that it completely be hijacked the entire Divine reality can be hijacked by the human mind or the human ego or the human consciousness or the human fear and make it its own so now here he comes to this last phase in the MIM this is going to be continues for this we must go from we must go back to we must go back to the essence that this is all in the to create such types of concealments just as the means the extension the expansiveness the revelation of the light until the lowest levels where it trickles out the Earth comes out even in the lowest spaces post post post that comes from the that's called cats even in the lowest lowest places there's some symptom there's some Revelation there's some manifestation and embodiment of that's One Direction exactly the same that conceals and eclipses with numerous concealments and blockages and that's that it it could go higher and higher more concealed more concealed to no end that's all the continues in other words don't think that this concealment that we're talking about is a a fluke it's a random mutation that happened the Tsum went wrong you know you make an experiment and it goes wrong it's like too much oops that I didn't mean that the blockages no no no this is not a fluke this is not a random thing Rabbi Jonathan saxs he had a good sense of humor in the speeches was he was say very a brilant man so he once said that uh he doesn't understand he say everything works out but he doesn't understand understand why is it that Charles Darwin wasn't a Jew he says he was such a good ayus such a level of ayus usually belongs to the Jewish people you know Zigman Freud Carol Marx the biggest aurum in history are the Jews because of course you know they're fighting themselves so he says he doesn't understand Charles Darwin who brought so much atheism and heresy into the world with the theory of evolution why wasn't he Jewish it just doesn't fit into the cannon he said it must have been a random mutation that Darwin wasn't Jewish was a random mutation he should have been it's some fluke over there yeah so this is what he's saying now don't think there's a whole system that we're explaining and it all works so to speak works I mean doesn't work like ma mathematics but it works course works huh works amazingly if would understand prision of the world that requ yeah you're true you're right if we would understand the the fine-tuning and the constants and the Precision it's beyond incredible nobody even begins to imagine even the biggest physicist imagine the Precision I mean today they're revealing more and more and more the Mind staggering Precision of things all represented by this you know things that hold it together even after when they speak about the Big Bang Yeah what had to happen in order that the Universe if it would expand a little faster it would just explode into nothingness if it would expand a little slower the heat would completely destroy it it would destroy itself inside of itself would like crunch it become French toast or Cosmic toast would be the right word not French toast it would be no France so what's that balance of how fast and slow it has to expand so you would think okay yeah instead of going you know 100,000 miles per hour you know went 990,000 M hour you're talking about a level of precision that it would be like one in gazillion gazillion gazillion gazillion gazillion times gazillion quadrupled another gazillion gazillion times to be able to get that right so you would say okay we got lucky in one area but there's numerous numerous numerous factors that you have to get it right on a level that it's statistically it's impossible it's just the like an example somebody wrote would be um what's that called the the the kids make you have to get it all even Rubik's Cube so it would be a blind person a blind person doing a Rubik's Cube for 90 years yeah 100 times a day and every time getting it right that's that's doable that's a bad metaphor or another metaphor I saw from scientists would be you tell somebody or some somebody said this you tell somebody that uh you have to go and find a grain of sand yeah and lift it up and it's it's one particular grain of sand it's somewhere on the planet we can't tell you where and if you get the right one the world will survive and if not it's going to be destroyed and he manages to get the right grain of sand and then he has to do this 200 million times and each time get the right grain of sand and you say oh he didn't have inside information it was just luck and even that is not close to how much precision and crazy Insanity to say that this just happened and this is all fact it's like this is this is not this is not religion at all this is from a purely purely uh cosmological perspective devoid of any faith whatsoever so it it's and these are things that M revealed in the last years this is because it's as they see more like I always tell you from the Mal you just see it more and more so this you would think people are intelligent we're more intelligent than apes and chimpanzees and Elephants or at least we're supposed to be so it doesn't take such Brilliance to understand this everybody understands that that guy who lifted up the right grain of sand he had inside information the guy who made the system told them what to do right it's p i mean it's not nobody would doubt that I mean how many times could you get lucky even once you don't get lucky twice okay three three times four times I mean at some point you got to quit but here you see that it's not that way it's not that way there's a force there's such a force that allows you not to go there and sometimes the more intelligent you are the more you say the river is mine the more it's to the point that this perspective is dismissed as not very intelligent it's it's know you were affected by some weirdness maybe your education maybe your mother maybe you hang out in the wrong communities maybe you're not truly scientifically sound you have an agenda you have emotional problem so you need something to hold on to because you have a lot of emotional issues IND indoctrination of course is a big thing what's really celebrated is that you don't come to this conclusion you remain completely it's called objective complet objective this is this is actually what celebrated in in the temples that they call universities this is what celebrated now today this last year we had the to see what these universities are really like they don't know the difference between Hitler and Churchill they don't know the difference between Kamas and Israel they don't know the difference between raping a child and burning a Child Alive and saving a child so you see what ultimately these universities are but for Generations this has been very very confusing so the says this know think it's Tama fluke the Tsum went the Sim Tsum went uh went wrong you know the roller coaster is going and it went off it went off the tracks and it's creates a disaster in the amusement park it can create a disaster but the whole this whole in is is a of the what's that just like that even if you go low low low low low postum there'll still be a manifestation of the S which is the my mother of the previous years in this year it's that it goes higher and higher higher and higher means more concealed more concealed more concealed an there's no sheer to how concealed it can be now that's that's intense that there's no Shear there's no size there's no measurement of how conceal or in other words in simple words how crazy people can be how off how of the how distorted how distorted reality can become in the human mind and that's all a symptom of the this [Music] is even though if the eye had a little permission to see in other words the moment the moment the eye will open up to reality it's it's it's a game over Checkmate it's it's it's a it's all a it's not even a joke it's it's it's it's a it's not even a dream the truth will be revealed why is this important for us to know it's important for us to know cuz the exists inside of us too meaning you can have a person who has moments of clarity and then you have other moments where there's absolute confusion and you say but there was so much Clarity yesterday no but now there's a moment of and this requires from the person choice and courage and Trust again because part of the system is that the could go into to the point that in the personer you had such Clarity energetically emotionally intellectually with your heart with your soul and today everything is obscured pure Darkness you see nothing that's a moment of not yeah you need to know like to expect that this is part of the reality of the world it's important to know when you're traveling in the sea there's storms you have to know how to Anchor you have to know how to navigate and you don't have to become shocked and overwhelmed because it was unexpected completely and doesn't make sense to me and it doesn't work and it shouldn't have happened to me and I'm beyond this no I'm not this is part of living in the world this is part of the whole tum that's not Contin this is the meaning of the chapter 45 says indeed you are you're a kale you're a God who hides himself like says you did one good job like yeah indeed meaning so he says the fact that you conceal yourself with so many concealments and such qualitative concealments this is this is a reflection of you he doesn't just use the word should have used the word is actually the name associated with it says in the writes elim is 86 which is the same numerology as and generally is the and that's why the name elim is The Only Name that like we always say it it it changes its name based on plural singular talking first person second person right the only name you can't change you can't change but there's elim as a noun there there there there knew how does all that happen does the answer isim is the way the energy like we the way it comes down and it's custom made and it's condensed and that's why you can change it's mine it's yours it's theirs it's ours but here he doesn't say that he says so he says because this is this is a reflection of explain this there's two very famous big series of my mod of the son of the known as that's 1906 and which is 192 went for a few years and went for a few years they're very big Series in so over there he explains that explains and other places just everybody understands that the infinite power comes from the source that's infinite from the true Source that's Infinity so the power that limits the infinity and even the itself is the power that the infinite light and the finite power itself which is lower than that it's the product of the is that which limits the light and is the light that becomes limited so it's lower they all come from they come from the same source of true Infinity just like infinite expression comes from Infinity the power to limit infinite expression and the finit itself all comes from the same ble and proof to this in our own experience because we're trying to explain this from our own experience we know it's fascinating every light and Revelation cannot limit itself because if this is the nature that this reveals this light so it's part of the package in order to limit it and to restrain it you have to go back to the place from where the light comes once the light is transmitted this is it this is who I am this is my identity in order to limit it to filter it to to suppress it to conceal it you have to go back to the place from where it came that's the place where you limited furthermore on the contrary not only that the power to limit must come from a deeper place than the power to reveal because it's controlling the power to reveal it's superimposing itself on the power to reveal it's stopping the Revelation so even though naturally there's a revelation it comes and it so to speak says no there's not going to be a Gil so he says it's the of comes from a deeper place in more than kale which kale is represents great and and generosity of spirit and Revelation and the is is higher than kale the is you so what what is he saying here when the when light and Gil are being manifested they're being transmitted why are they being transmitted because they're revealing whatever they're revealing so that's the nature of the reality the nature of reality is that it emits light however however it emits its light based on its own nature to be able to stop that to be able to that it can't come from the place of the and the Gil itself cuz that's being revealed it needs to come from the same source from where the light is coming from it's from that source that you could stop that light and stop the limitation and choose not to express itself that was this way to express yourself through not expressing yourself through obstruct the light or through limiting the light or stopping completely the light or obscuring the light the of the the power of the back to the teacher the power of the teacher to limit his words can come from the information itself it must come from the place from where the information is coming cuz from the information itself there's a flow of information yeah when I'm working on my computer yeah I I don't I'm I'm not a programmer there's some programmers here so I'm going to give a metaphor about something I completely don't know I know we have some very distinguished backend experts here what I know is that I'm already working post program I didn't write the program so if I'm working on Microsoft whatever program I'm working on my computer it's already a product of the program so I cannot change the mechanisms the components only the one who wrote the program and created that created that type of system he can go back and say you know what the system is finished we're changing the system we're tweaking it we're altering it we're obliterating it we're transforming it whatever we're completely closing it up if you're not connected to that space you're you're already part of you're already part of the issue you're part of the product so the be it's not such a bad mush actually the to be the to change the can't come from the itself you're you're this is who you are we have to go back to the source and over there where it was chosen to be revealed that way it's going to be different that's why when it comes to communication and education it's the person who Masters I said this once in a sheer the person who Masters the material in a much deeper way who could be matam from the material right if I'm just repeating what I heard from others I'm just repeating what I heard it's only when you really own the material that you could say you know what this shouldn't be revealed and we also know when a person is expressing themselves right the power not to express yourself it comes from a very very deep place the power to be silent you really have to own own yourself if you're just a a a a victim of your own Expressions then it's just it flows the ability to be able to go to a deeper place and choose this path choose silence over words that's a very deep strength not only that he says something even more than that the power to limit the light must come from a place that's deeper than the power to express the light because it's overpowering nature the nature to express it's stopping it so therefore it has to come even from a deeper place in this self then from where the light is coming because there's a self that wants to express the light like in physics everything emits light just the nature of it that's how that's how it that's how it exists you know ask the Sun not to emit light thank you what do you want me to do seiz to be and the truth is every physical item every physical object emits light it's just the wavelengths are such that our eyes don't pick them don't pick it up the wavelength of the sun is a light that we could make that's why so many things they emit light we don't access it that way fine but everything that's its nature now you're coming to stop that to to obstruct that so that has to come from a place that's so to speak deeper in the self than its nature that expresses the light because it overpowers that and its stops so this is what he's saying here that just like the expression of comes from so the that to limit that is also from the and not only the to limit that but also the the way it comes out in a li not only the power to limit the but the way it comes out in itself the product of that is also from the in other words it's from it's from you which is beyond the place of and not only that it's even deeper than kale CU kale is the energy that's expressed in and this is the energy that needs to be mag from the earth so it's more powerful than that and that's the of he brings many metaphors the way this is expressed be lower than the in the world all the way to the essence of over there it's called means capability in he has the capacity to express and the capacity not to express and they're both identical it's all it's all capacity in other words Atmos has a has a capacity higher to express itself meaning to generate light what does it mean to generate light to transmit itself to allow itself to be experienced perceived communicated and it also has the capacity sh not to show up not to express not to be manifested not to radiate not to shine out light the ability for non-expression the ability just to be and that's thinging of and and is and is you you the way you are so that's the over there so in every level in every level of reality is and just like it also comes from there all the way back to the source inmos where it's called what's means there is the infinite capability to be able to be May and the infinite capability to be and it's it's the same thing and from this come out the two streams the way we describe them as two streams we describe them as two streams because an atos it's one he says it's B it's identical what are the two streams both are this is why we say this the same that gets revealed to no end and gets concealed to no end the same it's not to ear it's both comes from the from the capacity to express to radiate to shine to manifest to communicate to transmit that's what is and comes from the the ability the capacity not to be May so how is that expressed it's expressed inimum it's expressed in hel and it's expressed in hel deeper deeper deeper to the point where there's no cons Revelation whatsoever it's all the this is the capacity to restrict or condense to conceal concealment after concealment deeper and deeper and the higher and deeper the concealment the more it's the is what it means you are a it's nothing outside of you it's all your it's you it's only until the Earth could be concealed with many blockages and many clip and many shells and husks as the teaches and what are the ramifications how it applies to a person's which is always the main thing thing you were in a world and you feel a complete abandonment wound the river is mine I made myself that original abandonment wound the cosmic abandonment wound what is that in a in a it's that sense of loneliness to the point that you have to become an atheist and here we're learning as I said yesterday what real atheism is we usually look at atheism is knows what thei says right say an ax knows its owner and even a donkey knows the truff of its Master but my people don't know anything that's what says so that's how we look at it but here he's going to the emotional part of it how much Terror do you have to experience in order to be able to think that you're on your own in the world like I said yesterday how much pain is it for the one week old baby or the one month old baby or the six-month old baby or the one-year-old baby that has to decide not only doesn't have a mother that I am my own mother that's a painful reality what does that do do to the nervous system and to the brain of that child who after 6 months is feels so abandoned and so neglected that he has to decide that I am my own not only I don't know where my mother is and I'm crying for my mother no M that's where you're searching but I am my own mother I am literally my own mother that's the most tragic phenomenon in life is that you need power that you need to build your ego into something that there's something we need to take away from Hashem how much abandonment allows for that reality that I have to because there's nothing that belongs there's nothing there's nothing outside of that one reality nothing it's completely that's the greatest tragedy I'm so disconnected that I have to steal all reality from its source and build a house of cards that never existed and is therefore going to break down sooner than later something just to be able to justify the pain of the abandonment wound and create coping mechanisms instead of understanding its reality to justify the abandon justify exist the abandonment is so painful and instead of acknowledging that right I can't acknowledge that CU it's too painful so what I do is I create a philosophy that the abandonment is actually the way it's supposed to look who said there's a mother there's no mother I I am my mother even though I deny anything even though it creates it creates coping mechanisms that are absolutely chaotic from narcissistic personality disorder to borderline personality disorder to complete personality disorder and I'm talking about dramatic stuff but then there's the daily stuff all of the culing mechanisms where there's no trust there's no surrender there's no vulnerability there's no love there's no openness how could there be suff from den and resist yeah the moment you acknowledge the cosmic abandonment wound it's the beginning of the healing that's Tsum Tsum is the acknowledgement of the cosmic binding wound that plays itself out in every person's life and that we heal by learning what the Tsum is that you would never ever abandon ever not even for a split second even though you felt it because there's a Tsum Tsum means you felt what you felt and you're not crazy right that's what's so important we keep on saying that we don't say there was no you'll never see that in just say there was no it's a joke that was just having you know he was just joking by breakfast he was making jokes and then they wrote it down they took it seriously they don't that's not what mea was joking during breakfast Thea wasn't joking not during breakfast not during lunch and not even during dinner it means what you're feeling is real it's the pain sure means but what's the real depth of what it is what's really behind it that's what me doesn't mean it's fiction like means there's something of face value and then there's the true message and purpose and goal of it so says this is his example of what does look like loneliness Brokenness now you say what's the big deal everybody is lonely everybody is broken but that's the core that's the core of Helm that's the core of concealment it comes out in so many different ways but the core is God doesn't love me he's out to get me even if there is a God he's out to get me that relationship of closeness of intimacy of Oneness you know when the B's father told him don't be afraid of anything in the world anything in the world outside of Hashem that visceral experience of absolute Trust of absolute vulnerability yeah Heaven Can testify how I know how to be completely silent and surrendered I'm like a little child gum gumel is a suckling child that nurses Al IMI cuddled up in the bosom of its mother and this is DAV the great warrior and fighter and general and Commander and king and the head of Sanhedrin and David mid was no spineless pushover let's put it that way but there was that space where he's a onewe old baby Al you know whenever you see that moment the mother cuddling her child who's one week old two weeks old six months old and they just look at each other the child doesn't have to understand but it's just a trust the freak queny of trust he knows that he's loved unconditionally loved and and we know when children don't have that safety and attachment the chaos it creates in the brain you know question is how long it happened for and has it been restored whatever I'm just giving an example right so energetically felt like that his whole life what means I have to go away from that I need to take credit how tragic is that and then this worst the river is mine what does it make how much abandonment and Terror does par have to feel to become par we're learning here what real evil is real evil is the ultimate tragedy of the tsim Tsum gone wild the tsim Tsum gone Haywire in this is the to the point that I and it makes it so real cuz whenever there's something I need to own I need to take for myself rather than give it to hem that's that's that's tum going gone crazy and it's even in subtle stuff we're not here talking only about and and all the amik of History obviously they're too they're too a big part of the equation but we're talking about even inside of us you know huh unfair what his concealment is okay so continue looking but my concealment that's not good some unfairness here but it's obviously just a joke yeah listen so who's AED I don't know I don't know if if if we start viewing the world as being in the in the in the Paradigm of fear and unfair we're probably get stuck pretty fast like what's fair what's unfair can you take credit for something yeah not can you take credit for anything that's not yours and that's even you know one inhale of oxygen and everything else from there everything else literally everything else yeah it's all plagiarism and it's it's it's it's painful plagiarism because there's a reason I'm doing it I'm not just plagiarizing you know there's reasons people plagiarize they need to build themselves they need to win the Nobel Prize they need to to have a bestselling book they need to be a celebrity they need money they need validation they need people to say that they're The Genius of the century they need tenure University whatever it is they need to be the biggest God rash everybody in their own field of what it means to be a success story also we live in reality if you basically say wow and everything hasem is genius I understand that genius genius and you know you going be so lonely with that with that acknowledging of aish is in everything you can be basically a lonely crazy person in the or a free uninhibited present joyous vulnerable spontaneous Spirit that's what I would say others have conscious to allow it then yes everybody here has the Consciousness if they've been sitting here and they stick it out with me so they all have the Consciousness it's the only form of spontaneity it's the only form where we don't protect ourselves we were not afraid of vulnerability where we could be spontaneous we could be free we could be uninhibited without without self-consciousness I'm not controlling I'm not manipulating I'm not exploiting I could just be present right here right now I don't have to control the next minute I don't have to impress anybody ever it's called living that's why even didn't suceed because he needed to have 10 people on the same level of Consciousness but look take take theel right you know people talk about changing the world theel sat with a few people there was no WhatsApp group for theel you know with with 900,000 members uh Elon musk's messages and Trump's messages you know going out on Twitter of course you're talking about small even the but they were doing something it was it was it was emic it was authentic it was all inside it was it was small but it literally it created an energy and a Consciousness that change the world you still was sitting here hundreds of years later talking about's doctrine of TS talking about the B the B explained about Etc cuz CU cuz it was true cuz they were plugging into the real energy it's not it's not a game people people the world IGN we're getting there we're getting there we're getting there all the developments in science is the is the scientific side of all the developments in tum cu the t is the blueprint of the universe so what happens in the blueprint the changes in the blueprint are right away affected the entire structure and in our awareness of the structure the structure is the same but our awareness of the cosmos is based on the blueprint as the blueprint expands which is p so the entire structure appreciation expands there's not a in science that's revealed that's not another expression of a in that's revealed and you see it Mish almost matches it's it's like even with with the generations it P match yeah yeah exactly yeah exactly exactly of course that's the whole idea the whole inion of G is the AL in the G like we spoke in the previous class it's that the whole simp was just AAS that's all it was it's cracking the code not by denying its reality again we're not suppressing and denying and amputating saying everything was just dandy and perfect and you know was delicious lollipop and cotton candy which is anyway unhealthy huh cotton candy is unhealthy and lollipops are mostly unhealthy unless you get a good organic one without sugar but you won't like it right it it's not denying the the ex experience of reality it's redefining the experience of reality it's seeing the pus of it that's what P me seeing the pus of it so when we talk about this says this is this is the way it expresses an it's really literally a form of aband it's literally this is the abandonment and whenever we do this even talk about emotions yeah if I'm becoming angry at somebody it's a very very common emotion it's a response yeah if I'm expressing arrogance another common emotion if I'm becoming addicted to a substance or at least very entrenched and enthralled by a substance even if I'm not calling it an addiction because I'm too embarrass to call it an addiction or whatever it is whatever it is any emotion you have to ask yourself one question like it's says in is this a it's not a the moment it's giving power to any anything and anybody outside of it's a form of I know it's not a that you're worshiping and a statue and and and and bowing down to it but it's it's subtle but but it's very real and it it it and it and it's very powerful because when I'm getting angry yeah it's a coping mechanism of surviving you're an idiot you're a sick man you're a sick woman whatever it is right it's some way of of of feeling that that I'm good that I'm safe what am I really what's really behind it what's really behind it is terrifi I'm terrified I'm alone I'm broken and this is the coping mechanism what am I doing I'm stealing something from Hashem what am I I'm stealing myself I'm I'm I'm this this this whatever it means I'm giving power to a reality outside of Hashem and I know what cuz I feel alone I need I need yeah I got to I got to you know who's paying my mortgage you who's taking care of me you I got to take care of myself that's what P said there's there's a big economy in Egypt this river is mine somebody got to run somebody got to run this place right all this angers all the emotions and stuff beautiful if you're right yeah that you're right when you're in love with God you detest evil but that's not an ego thing that is part of it brings you closer to on us it remains humble it's very not a personal thing of Vendetta because you you know [Music] yeah you didn't give me shishi right or whatever sh she looks like you know supper wasn't ready breakfast wasn't ready lunch wasn't ready things didn't go my way every every of selfishness and narcissism it's an what do I mean by it's basically I I I'm desperate to give existence to something outside of Hashem now you're saying come on RAB why this is what life is who's going to take care of me yeah of course and that that's exactly the tragedy of that that's that's the that's exactly the tragedy that's why we are miserable that's why we are anxious but why am I I having anxiety because we're building a house of cars that doesn't exist and trying to invest it with happiness it's like taking something from wax and trying to believe that it's alive and putting a soul into it and investing billions of dollars into Main paining it and it's still dead so yeah it's an it's it's a lot of anxiety that's what anxiety anxiety is living a split life this the TR the truth knows the truth there's no you can't forge truth nobody ever in history denied reality you can deny reality you can bury it for a while in your own imagination even then you don't bury it Ms May you can't deny real ity Duality is a lie and it every lie creates anxiety because your system that has truth it's a compliment anxiety is a compliment anxiety means that there's an alarm clock in you saying wake up wake up that's all it's saying anxiety is like something is is not working of course you created a new reality and you decided it exist and you invested your whole life in it and it's it's not true it's simply not true and this is as real as it gets and as much as I say it it's not even it's much more real than that but we're running away from it we're running away from it because it's it's the alternative is very very vulnerable and because sometimes God has been fed to us in very toxic ways so you run a one away from it sometimes seems like a much better alternative than the faith that has been fed to some of us which is very negative like I don't want to go there if this is what the if this is what it's like we're not we're not this is where theum needs healing part of the Big T is is talking about I want to add something else which is an extension of that that is when the god that has been fed to us is traumatizing so yeah if being a baby in my mother's arms means that I'm in the presence of someone who hates me 24/7 and instead of giving me milk is giving me poison it's much better better to be your own mother I get it much better to be your own mother at least you're not you're not in the presence of somebody who's feeding you poison 24/7 at least you're on your own at least you're not giving yourself poison fine there's nothing there I'm on my own but at least I'm not in the presence of such chaos this is all this is all the tragedy of Abandonment so in a way he's removing all the Judgment from it like you know H how much Terror in my psyche to be able to have to start taking everything for myself we talk about this is all trying to transform how we talk about we use the words some people already like I heard enough of these things you know it's bypassing it's not realistic it's it's it's all this it's I have anxiety take me to a therapist stop with a but the truth is these are everything that needs healing because it's all filter through the Tsum you know that's why it's helpful to use different words because it bypasses the the the the the resistance of the system you know the word the value of using the word ssum is that it's a word that hasn't been contaminated by the Orthodox system cuz unless you learned a lot of kab you don't use the word it looks like a CH it sounds like a Chinese dish so nobody's traumatized by the word simps simum tum you want Tsum well done raw a little done how do you want your Tsum we have a discount today on the syum it's only 29.99 it's usually $79.99 it bypasses the regular Orthodox resistance symptoms you know what I mean once you talk shut down shut down completely I know I know it's true I know I'm a teacher I know I speak to people but I don't want to ruin it I'm not going to ruin it so you could consider thinking it's a Chinese [Laughter] dishu but really that word captures the whole inion the whole inion you know preimum you're you're you're you're Tak ain't safe you're inside the ain't safe it's not you're inside the ain't safe not just a child being it's a child inside the it's more than being cuddled and now I'm dropped so it's like a baby dropped off a cliff figure it out first of all can you figure can you see how painful that is that's the pain of creation that's the pain of tum Tsum and to deny that pain is not to live in reality the more sensitive you are the more you feel that original drop cuz you feel your Nish the more sensitive people feel more abandoned not less and then once you acknowledge the pain you don't look for substitutes let me deny that it was a mountain let me deny that there's a mother let me deny there's a father let me deny there's a source let me deny that I'm infinite let me deny and create copy mechanisms so this one is drinking this one is eating this one is binging and everybody with their own Escape mechanisms this one is busy angry this one is anxious this one is lazy this one is sluggish this one is depressed this one is drunk and stoned this one is busy making money this one is busy afraid of making money this guy is a success story this guy is afraid to be a success story but everybody is an abandonment I deal with it one guy become the biggest success in history and the other guy is by locking himself up in his bedroom for life but it's the same thing they're both terrified this is why G needs the popularity of the whole world and this guy is afraid to show up to the because of social anxiety you're having a good time this is pretty serious so true huh yeah yeah and they're both literally the same abandonment and I don't know who's more abandoned you know the guy who's world famous or the guy who's locked up in his room and won't even show up for his nephews by MIT because of social anxiety yeah sometimes you don't know who's yeah yeah OPP yeah at least he's locked up he didn't replace it with so much uh he doesn't have to undo so many things he's just stuck but huh oh yeah but the work the work that we have to do is basically catch up all those thoughts that cause anxiety or whatever it is and literally undo them yeah yeah the most we preoccupied with that's true all the and it's the thoughts that feed it it's thoughts it's not the person is not crazy it's literally thoughts that we have everyone in their own way then you have a person who doesn't even understand what I'm talking about in other words their coping mechanisms are so efficient they're like this is a waste of time talking about this but it doesn't mean they're not suffering from it it just means they have been more successful in living what looks like a functional life completely unaware of this in fact they have OPP they probably have so much valid yeah they don't yeah like he said yesterday when somebody's really successful in life in many ways it's much more dangerous because it's harder to get out of it huh ignorance is bliss bliss says the more D the more pain and also right sometimes we we need to be thankful sometimes not sometimes always but we could feel it sometimes for certain curve balls that happen in our lives that opened us up to the cosmic abandonment wound and you could really when you experience that you could start crying with gratitude to those curve balls that literally yes they pulled the rug out of under my feet they busted they they they they poked a hole in the balloon they ruptured the the facade how how lucky how lucky to be able to face so much deeper levels of Truth and I know it's painful but how lucky fortunate to be able to address the real wound and not the fake wound which is that my wife didn't give me enough attention yesterday when I came home success and misery we can look at them as the same spectrum of uh of dysfunction right but problem to have besides the have a mission in life person is successful at least he accomplish something that's true at least one part is that's true okay that's true that's true and that's why throughout the whole process we need to understand right that when you do a Mitzvah and when you learn T and when you do a good deed that has Timeless absolute value and even if my motivations are rotten it will all be repaired it will all be healed retroactively because the moment you'll have Clarity retroactively everything will be filled with light all the copy mechanisms will also be liberated because you learn that it was all your that you were operating with and you're going to learn that it was so retroactively it fills up everything it's designed for you of course it's all designed for you so the is that inos you have the you have the capacity to express and the capacity not to express on every level comes from the on every level comes from the the two are exactly the same it's bothos hasem doesn't have two parts one part has life one part has Darkness it's one it's called it's not even a tangible reality because there's no definition it's all we call it capability from the word means he could this he could not the fact that I could speak and I could not speak that's one point it's not two we create The Duality here you spoke here you didn't speak but in your essence it's one is it is and Atmos is not defined not by the need to express and not by the need to not express it's both one and that's the truth and over there everything is one it's a level of coherence it's a state of coherence where every is completely one it's all for the which is the embodiment of the in our bodies in our nervous system in our psyches and in our world where there is consciousness and there is definition the which is one is expressed in our experience in a duality but the truth is that Duality is only to be able to create the full Unity between every human being and every soul and the the atmos so we speak about Duality simply to integrate it like the teacher that goes through the Tsum in order to build the capacity of the student so here it comes out in what we call two streams we're calling it two streams because it's not two streams it's it's one it's and you see it in the person your ability to express your ability not to express is one the people are going to experience it in two ways here you expressed yourself here you didn't Express Yourself know speak you need to know a like it says in is a time to speak there a time to be quiet there a time to hug there's a time not to hug there a time to be close there a time to be distant it emell it both is the IQ and there the EQ of of of when to be and each person when to say when not to say what to express what not to express and we all know that the ability not to express sometimes takes much more maturity and greatness than the ability to express when you see something and you want to talk and you say no that can't come from the place from where the words are it has to come from the source of the words right a classic example would be you're watching your child do something or say something it's painful you want to you want to explode you want to say something it's your job you're a father if you're in the experience itself you can't hold back you always have to pause go back to the Core and then you make a decision that's what he means here the must come from the source from where the light came if you're stuck in expression you're not going to be able to hold back you have to go back you we see this emotionally pause go back right Victor Frankle said between stimuli and reaction there's a millisecond that's where all human Freedom lives if you can't catch that millisecond stimuli you set something boom punching the knows scream curse you're done you're stuck in the experience pause go back be curious wow what's going on what's this energy shooting out of me maybe we should choose a different expression maybe I should be quiet maybe I should smile maybe I should give a hug maybe it's time for me to go to my room you'll figure it out but how should you figure it out you got to go back to your own source over there you have the ab to express you also have the ability to be quiet and you're not afraid to be quiet you won't melt sometimes if I don't say anything what's going to happen relax huh what yeah this is the ultimate father and mother so this is where you go back and your curious you feel your experience and then you make a decision should I be should I hold back or maybe I shouldn't I should Express maybe I should express it differently Maybe have to express it with a Tsum maybe you have to say it differently maybe you have to say 1% of what you wanted to say maybe you don't have to say anything maybe you just have to take out the sushi and smile maybe you just have to say I love you not only that the to not express itself always comes from a deeper place because it has to to be more powerful than the need to express because to hold back right if if you're fighting with somebody and need to hold and I need to hold you back I got to be stronger than you cuz you're pulling you're repelling me you're fighting me you're resisting me phys yeah physically and mentally if you're pushing towards something and I want to hold you back I need to be more powerful not less powerful so theb says the to be has to be more powerful than the not to be INE of War you need to kill them right you're right you're right that's where you got to go out if you hesitate you're dead you're right when the enemy is here to destroy don't hesitate SCH hesitated and a disaster was created you can't hesitate but you have to know what what is what you know you have to know if this is a war zone or if it's a peace zone so the to be my ability to hold you back I need to be stronger than you because you're fighting the other way a of War it's a tug of war literally like you know the arm wrestle right you're trying to go down if I want to get you the other direction if I'm as powerful as you it's going to stay stuck so the says the to be in a way is deeper than the it's now again this is from our experience we're giving a mush here but he wants to bring out don't look at the as there's no FL there's no fluke there's no mistake here it's the same kale that creates guil it's the at that creates hel and in a way the ATA is expressed more in the hel than in the Gil because the Gil is the and the is the only thing that can be can limit the means it's more powerful than that it's deeper than that it's more you see it also emotionally sometimes to be quiet takes much more energy maturity greatness Vision wisdom than to say right to hold back to hold back and go internal and not nobody sees anything because you're holding it back takes much more maturity much more energy much more strength like you you're being quiet already for an hour and a half yeah it's it's like the Jew the you know the Jew who sold a parrot that speaks for $50,000 so the next next week for at the marketplace guy sells a pirate for $60,000 so guy buys it he comes home and the parot is garnished say comes back he says you're a g say why am i g says last week the guy $50,000 for a parrot that speaks you sell $60,000 yeah my parroted my parrot is better he's quiet he doesn't say a word it's much harder $60,000 to schwag I just ruined the joke but whatever okay that's fine you get the point silences so now so let's understand so the is one the way it comes out here it's this is and here it's hel so what does theim what is really theim theim is really the it's the ability not not to express that's what now we understand why this is called why is concealment going higher and Revelation going lower I would say it's the other way around Revelation is going higher and concealment is going lower and lower you're going down down down down down till nobody sees you here it's the opposite the answer is now we understand cuz ifim is really the so Tsum is going back to the at it's going back to the source so the more hel there is the more it's being you're going back to the which is not defined by everything emits light right but Atmos doesn't have to emit light if he wants he chooses to emit light it's not like the sun if he doesn't one he chooses not to emit light so not to express light is really the earth going back to the atmos it's going back to the essence yeah we spoke a few you remember I gave a mush for got the mus gave how you remember the mush gave that really is an expression but to hold back the right the hel of that means the goes back to the atmos so it's really the her going higher not the her going lower and here is a big what the we always t as a compromise the is being concealed it's being suspended coms this smim and says that's that's only a superficial perspective the real thing that happens to is the goes higher the goes it's it goes back to the it goes back to at and at is not defined by light and in Practical term so people can understand what this means is the greatest leaders Rabbi again the quote Rabbi sex he said you know great teachers create powerful students and great leaders create powerful followers but the greatest of leaders create leaders what does it mean to create a leader to create a leader means you create somebody that's not dependent on you he's not a follower anymore listen a great leader creates a follower no the greatest of leaders creates other leaders why because the great leader creates somebody who's like him what does it mean he's like him he's a replica what does it means a replica that just like you're a leader I'm also a leader that's the greatest that's the greatest form that's the what do they say imitation is the greatest flattery the greatest form of leadership is that you don't need him anymore what does it mean you don't need him because because you need him because you are him you're not just you're not being mble anymore you're a Mas right what's the greatest compliment for a parent that your child remains home and calls you TTI and mommy forever no that they leave that they become independent they become their own t and because now they're not just following you they are you you understand they become you they embody you that's much deeper the real talmid is not a talid the real talmid is the so he could create other talid that's the real hisk cuz he embodies the raav he's not anymore feeding of the rav as a recipient that's the true raav the ra who gave him wings and said Fly Away trust your instincts trust yourself become your own human being there you're not only receiving from the RAV you are the rav it's a much deeper akd how is the AK represented by look looks like they're separate but that separateness is really the greatest Unity because I trusted you so much I sent you away leave gone bye have a good day take initiative be bold it's a very important idea some people don't want that they want stay close and then it looks like you're a student but it's really much more limited form of a student because you're just receiving you're just you could say over what you heard you never really found yourself in other words the ra never really molded you he molded you to remain to remain connected ,000 huh yeah real birthing is I he births you to become a SE become separate but that separateness is the greatest testimony of unity because you're not connected to him by being connected to him you're connected to him even by being completely disconnected cuz you are a manifestation of that that's what real teachers are that's what real mentors do that's what real leaders do they don't hold on it's like go go further go beyond me be more successful be you're not going to outshine me there's some teachers and leaders you could be big but don't outshine me you know what I mean just we're not going to get into details here but everybody could understand as long as you don't outshine me but that's all that's all yeah that's all a form of Abandonment that's the reason the leader needs that is because he's not fully healed he needs the person to still give him credit the true leader is somebody who has an when you have an you don't need you T what I'm saying cuz you are you are you are you don't need the is always light that other people experience the more you're in touch with your the less you need your art and you see it practically the leader who needs to have the people dependent on him doesn't have a healthy etum it's like the husband who can't deal with the wife being successful the wife who can't deal with the husband being successful parents who become jealous of their children teachers who become jealous of their students and I don't mean necessarily in you know dramatic crazy ways even very subtle the husband sees that his wife is he doesn't like it the wife doesn't like what she sees these are things that happen a lot they're very subtle you see your child becoming independent I like him when he was 2 years old he was cute when you were cute now you're not cute anymore now you have opinions I don't like when you have opinions I'm the only one who's supposed to have opinions you're supposed to repeat my opinions to the world so what is it I don't have a I don't have a true core when you have a true core you don't need you want to you want to give ear when you want to give her when you want to be Mas give but you don't need the you don't need the for your Survival cuz you have so is not really a denigration inim is an elevation in says is it's tum is revealing that hem is not defined by light he could be defined by non-l as much as he's defined by light he's not defined by expression he can be defined by lack of expression as much as he's defined by expression he's defined by expression and he's defined by it's not expression and it's not a less definition the real person when he's not giving when you're alone in your world yeah you're not your resources are not depleted we appreciate the Revelation if I want my teacher to speak to me I want him to speak I don't want him to be quiet but in terms of himself where is his true identity and confidence expressed more it's same me I want I I I was speaking two weeks speaking to a group of of of teachers and Educators and who you know some some of them you know very successful teachers was a conference over there so and it came to me it was Friday night I was thinking about it and then I spoke by I said it I said I want to tell you something interesting I grew up by TheBus I saw the it's an interesting thing that ab's life was very very rich life but he said you know was was the interesting thing his private life was much more Rich than his public life in other words as rich as interesting and captivating and inspiring and enthralling and mesmerizing and and and holy his public life his private life was much much much more rich and and you could feel it you knew it know whatever was revealed it wasn't even 1% of what was really going on inside and there's that his asked him to show him a they want to see a concealed sadic so he said me I'm a sadak you're looking at one so they said you're not a sadik you revealed he said if I would be aad based on how much you think I'm aad you hear that's called AR no arrogant people don't speak like this they're very calculated they don't say this they they want you should say they're a tadak they pay for the ad to say the Tad they pay for the HP humble people could say I'm a right could write in the T I am the humblest person on the whole world right he wrote it nobody I didn't write I didn't write it I wasn't asked to edit that verse nobody was and he was the greatest prophet and God spoke to him face to face only a humble person could write you're the humblest person in the world you know why because that's also not him because there's no there's no that's also not him your humility is also not you what what are you going crazy for so you're humble so what the the T of the mag we talking about the ego what to do with the ego yeah so everybody had a different opinion Crush It smash it destroy it neutralize it threaten it yeah they asked Al you know what he said he said four words he said I don't understand the question you made a whole problem with your ego with what what's the issue yeah that's the ver is an illness it's a pathetic neb illness it's a desperation to hold on it's literally built investing in his panai scheme whatever he's already in the the next World so I'm not going to say names but a few years ago there was a ponai scheme for $50 billion yeah people invested millions and millions and they were so happy Ellie weizel sham he had a foundation you know Holocaust Foundation he had I think 8 million of everything got lost imagine you invest in a panai scheme you come home to your wife and you're like I made the greatest investment today NE you made nothing that's what investing in the ego looks [Laughter] like of course there's anxiety humil yeah I'm I'm the most humble guy in the world of course yeah you think the didn't know who he was you think didn't know who he was they were more humble of course so the DU of course he could s aad when you when you don't have when you're really humble you say yeah I'm I'm aad you don't know who I am but that's so true the is always more Rich than the what you see from the re at best is a little o that you're capable of seeing even the O you don't see you see a little o the you know how you know what that is that's everything that's you know there's great people the closer you get to them the less impressive they are when you really get close to them it's like oh my god get me out of this place in other words their is much more impressive than their etum which means it's fake this sun is much more hot when you get to the Sun than it is here it's not less hot you understand cuz it's real cuz it's not a fake creat creatation the ray of the sun is amazing but you can't compare it to the Sun like don't get too close and we don't get too close to the Sun for good reason whenever the is more impressive than the you understand that it's [Music] manipulation of course so you have great people I heard once from Rabin he was very good sense of humor he said there's great people yeah he says they look like peacocks you ever saw a peacock it's beautiful you know when it raises its feathers it's colorful it's Majestic it's Splendid it's expansive it's Grand he says they have feathers of a peacock he says but then when you cut off the feathers they are as ugly as a chicken like you know those chickens by capotas what they look like so that's what that's what they are that's he calls it peacock greatness [Laughter] a very powerful description you understand simum is not a denigration of the it's an elevation in the it reveals that you're not defined by Revelation you could be defined other ways too and in every person what that means is in a very practical way I may I may be a tree and I may produce peaches and the peaches are delicious but if I def mine my quality and my value based on the peach that you ate so imagine the tree sees that you took the peach and the tree says no could you compliment me and you tell the PE tree wow this Peach is amazing it's amazing it's true but how much more does the tree have than this one peach it has so much more and it's true it's not the best musle cuz ultimately the tree is here to produce the peach but I'm just giving you an example when we reduce our whole life to the peaches that we produce and that's it the real life is much deeper so much more deeper so the Tsum represents you're not defined by and that's what creates real teachers real leaders real real parents real mentors I don't need to shine I could not shine and that's it's actually much more interesting M wasn't joking when he said send somebody else now if hasem would have sent somebody else not M where would M raenu be today nobody would even know his name like another another billions of people who lived three thou I don't know his name I don't know their name you don't even know the name of your great great great great grandfather his name was yank schm yank schm zberg yeah he lived in galitzia and you don't know about him God knows about him I don't know about him where would M be to get angry at M he wasn't joking he was like much better thank God if I wouldn't have it I'm you understand for some people everything is about the public and for M was actually a denigration so the real is from the perspective of the recipient it's a it's it's it's Darkness it's concealment it's a hindrance because I'm not getting it but from the perspective of the It's actually an Al it's an expression of the it also expresses but it expresses the intimate essence of the so in the two streams of it's a reflection of which is really all one it's one it's Atmos so you're saying but the person is experiencing the darkness so this is the here we spoke till now about the right the here he adds another V since the is manifesting the May Since the is manifesting the source the so therefore since inem there's the so because of that it comes out not only in the of with is a presence of Gil but even in the hel of that what is it on one level it looks like God is not present God is gone that's what it looks like because it's not just a in the it's complete it's like I'm God it's the greatest form of abandonment comes to says what is this that's what it is what you're looking at is you're just looking at the way the O is in a or in a form of or to put it differently it's really what you're looking at is don't think for a moment that the infinity in the sh is not present here cuz this is the greatest change that ever happened the Redemption of it happens when you realize and you discover energetically and experientially that this very state of Darkness of to is the embodiment of and the embodiment of at doesn't look like light it's really the expression it's the expression of you hear what he's saying in other words I Could Touch the darkness in two ways now this this is this this is a painful this is a painful moment in the mare because we're dealing with real darkness and it's not taking away from that like as we said this m is not trying to amputate or minimize or numb or or deny or surpass or suppress but it's trying to heal when I'm touching this there sometimes you're touching in life a moment of light diminished light small light yeah but there's there there there's some there's some light it's like the student getting some light so you could say here it's all to give you everything but it's coming in a diminished form but here I'm touching the actual wound the wound of Abandonment the wound itself yeah or to put it this way after the person is dropped there's getting up and try to climb back so it's a process it's tedious it's grueling but there's a process but the drop itself that moment of darkness what he says here in a the need to be able to say the river is mine to be able to take that away from Hashem to wrestle his authority from him and take it to me how tragic that's the moment of darkness if you crack the cat on it you're going to see it's all at it's ATA what do we mean it's at what this is called at this is ATA because is as really Divine as Hashem doesn't have to look like Hashem Hashem could sometimes look like the exact opposite of Hashem huh Darkness means the essence doesn't have to look any way doesn't have to look like light is as real as it's what does look like I don't know what it looks like it it doesn't look like anything it could look like light it could look like the exact opposite it has no look what does that do for the person what it does for the person is you could remain present you're not abandoned you're not detached you're not broken right what not just you're looking very good is with me not the there's no I'm not denying that there's no you have now a deeper relationship you're touching but that's him it's a manifestation it's a manifestation of his ability to be present without presence without expression you say come on that's not presence that's Atmos it's not presence you're right it's not presence of o it's presence of in fact there's a there's a n of the Al I don't know if you know there's a n of the AL on these words [Music] yeah now it's interesting when you hear this you can hear a certain thirst a l lamentation but you can also hear a a note of joy of Celebration a lot of Hope here it's not just a depressing why did he choose these words to make a niggan when the words are saying basically you're hidden theat is that this is the greatest that's why he made a on these words you know choose other words choose nice words whatever choose nice words words there's plenty of nice words in t or inav but this was the whole V the moment you know that it's it's already changes the whole energy doesn't mean that it's easy doesn't mean it doesn't look like but what is it it's the the soul knows it's and in a way it's much deeper than the because if it's being if it's coming from a place that's limiting the it means it has to be higher than the it has to come from the same Source where the Earth comes and even more from a deeper Source because it has to limit the guil so it overpowers the guil so it's more at away you have a relationship that's much deeper and that's the reason and that's the reason and even though nobody asks for it and I said before that it's the curve balls in life and it's the darkest experiences in life that bring a person P upon Him face to face with Atmos with ATA doesn't mean a person asks for it we don't right life is hard enough but that's the truth of Life the truth of life is that the moment you experience your ultimate abandonment you were actually experiencing Atmos even though in my experience it was not in my experience it was real dark and you have to we have to have empathy for that not just to say oh everything is Atmos it's good that's not the F cuz to say these words you experience Atmos you have to actually feel the darkness if you're feeling it as light you're bypassing the darkness is actually not Atmos and that's you heard what I just said so actually to get to the truth of it you have to go through the pain of the darkness because that's the first there's darkness and then there's and that is what it really is that's what it really is and it's not an intellectual explanation for Darkness it's all we're talking experientially but that's the emis of it and that's the reason also why when people go into a place of Darkness it often feels infinite it doesn't feel like it has edges the it says in God made an edge for Darkness so the med says on this everything in life has edges including Darkness but we don't feel that when sometimes people are in a dark space really dark space it has no edges in their mind it's endless it's like you're in the abyss and it doesn't end you're looking for the edges doesn't have edges we think it doesn't have edges because the darkness is so powerful the reason it doesn't have edges is because it's expressing at it's expressing and doesn't have edges so that's the endless you're feeling in darkness in light you won't feel that endlessness in light you'll often feel edges sometimes if you're feeling the endless Bliss of light but sometimes in darkness people just feel that it's endless because they're touching the endlessness of Atmos the Infinity of Atmos and that Tak has no edges they're just touching the dark side of the moon but the Dark Side of the Moon is just the other side of the right side of the moon it's the ATA and the at is deeper than the kale so every moment of life when I'm touching that abandonment wood that that feeling that I have to go away from God and bring it to myself the need for Independence for not a positive Independence negative Independence for detachment and every time I'm facing all that that I'm facing the last the here is that it's not just it's understanding that the is really expressing the may just the expresses but because the is expressing also the so the has in it the quality of and that's why the goes through a so the part of the that breaks through that's the part of the that goes into concealment that's the way it's expressed in so at every stage of the tum it expressed through the but it's all why is it because first of all in there was no and now we come to the last step even the way the is expressed in complete darkness it's also why because this is the way the is capturing the and we say this is part of the when we get to the core there's no Duality anymore is all one so the and the absence of is also one because the is just expressing the absence of is expressing the same thing it's expressing the they really won they really won a in our experience we call it two experiences and we combine it but in the ultimate moment of redemption of coherence the two are one yes you started to ask something I would just wanted to finish what I was saying so I stopped you yeah oh yeah you could say that again yeah how does it work together because we need to change the world yeah so that's what I gave a mush of the Reb yeah the Reb's entire life was but still the is infinitely was infinitely more Rich than the because I by definition is tailor made it's the peach that the tree produces it has to be because is about communication and communication is about the recipient it's not about the giver that's why theim is so much more Rich than the but here's the key the is the but for the earth to really be healthy and successful it has to come from a you understand what I'm saying if the Sun and the Moon would go into a depression every time yeah you'd look at the Moon and you're like I had enough I'm tired I'm going to sleep and the moon would have an existential crisis call up its therapist 3:00 in the morning and it's like the guy doesn't like me what would happen to the Moon maybe that's why it waxes and wains it has so many depressions his I think the holy once said he says Shine Like the Sun and the Moon if somebody's looking at them and receiving their light beautiful and if not they don't stop shining they're good they have nooice I understand but everything is a lesson for us but we do have a choice they don't have a choice but we do have huh yeah always of course you want to change the world but if you're changing the world is going to be the definition of your value and you're going to keep adjusting your self-image based on the validation or lack of it from the person receiving your light you ultimately will not have any light to give because you'll just be feeding off the people and trying to please them so instead of changing the world you're being changed by the world the only way you have real light to change the world is if it's coming from if my light is based on your feedback right so basically it's constantly changing it's vulnerable so instead of me giving you light you're actually giving me you're telling me what light to give and you know how torturous that is right that's what that's what's so painful for so many people they they don't know their light they're waiting for the feedback for other people to tell them what type of light they have you like my light okay let me do more oh you hate it okay what the guy said there was a Jewish comedian he said I'm a man of principles and if you don't like my principles I have other ones you understand how many PR how many principles how how principled he is you never heard that one it's a good one I always have other ones it's fine you don't like my light okay you know it's like a like a magician you know the puppet show what you know he has what is it called a a box with tricks what do they call it uh a repertoire of tricks of jokes you don't like this light I'll give you another light you want red light you want green light you want you're not even giving light right it's like Jews who are trying to appease the world you're supposed to be a light unto the Nations if you are you then you have what to give if I'm trying to see if you're going to like me I'm not giving you anything I'm actually you're giving me that's why you're so resentful that's why the world is the most resentful of Jews when Jews are spineless cuz they know that they want to receive the light from Hari so stop doubting yourself don't wait to see if I like it what could you learn from the president of the United States a few things one thing is he says what he thinks and he's not waiting for the New York Times to complement him cuz you'll have to wait for another billion years [Laughter] I'm saying this there's learn there something to learn right 12:00 Saturday 12:00 on Saturday yeah huh in his own way in his own way let's hope Israeli time it's earlier huh yeah yeah yeah what I'm say of course we have to change the world the is not to stay in hasem created the world he wasal but for the to be real o it needs to come from you and that means when you have to hold back the light you can hold back the light so that's why in is called the wasn't the going away being suspended being obliterated it was the Earth being subsumed in the essence in other words what's present in the place of Tsum that's the V preimum is present and that's why there's no room for the worlds because if is present everything is ain't safe what happened with the Tsum the is the is swallowed up the ear is subsumed in Atmos it's like the ray goes back to the core doesn't come out so in the place of the SS where there's nothing there's no IR there's Atmos that's what Al said simps was never in Atmos was even even not meaning in the the is suspended because we don't feel we feel but that's not a real as we explain first of all the is still here we just don't have C and second of all even in the that's limited even in the Tsum it's all to grow capacity the become like that's even when you talking about the that even the suspension and the Darkness and the concealment of but if you're talking so if the is really the being subsumed inmos and that's why it's not expressed so what's in the space of Tsum no revelation of what yeah Atmos and Atmos in full revelation but revelation of Atmos doesn't look like anything you understand when o is revealed it looks like light huh that's what o means light light means it looks like light that's what light is light is not Darkness o has a name it's called light what does atmus revealed look like I don't know but I know it doesn't have a name it doesn't have a name still there's nocut you cannot out the way good question so why are we talk about just talk about say has no even no but it's went back to have deeper than but that's not how it works even he doesn't say the says the goes from to and then the goes into he keeps on going back to he doesn't just say so that's that's a very powerful we want remember in G you have the whole is here right here right now all darkness is but we still call it g we still call it why you calling it call it the answer is because experientially it's it's Darkness the is the experience of Oneness not just Oneness in the true Essence but the embodiment of one is that's that you could feel it and it's you it becomes you that's why s we talk about that the ultimate healing is not just to say everything is Atmos it's true andm there's no and it's all there's no wounds to heal huh and there's no wounds to heal and really and really if if you're experienc it from the place ofm it's all so Not only was there not an abandonment but you're actually touching the deepest deepest In This Very this is it like you said and we [Music] say that's all EMS emsas so why we talking about because means the way it's revealed the way it's manifested the way it's experienced that is in the so that means that when you pierce through the hel you're going to find that Atmos is there and there was no there em it's EMS but the here is even a deeper that it can all be ultimately it's all going to be experienced that way in the world of which is the world of our feelings of our energy of our existence where the whole rupture started because there was no it's all that's what it is it doesn't look like o it doesn't have to look like o but there's a deeper step I don't know if I could call it deeper there's another step and that is the in other words in that hel it's not just an it's an in the comes out in concealment the is expressed in the because the ultimately is true that reflects the so it also reflects its ability not to reflect so in the so when you when we Pierce through the obviously we're touching Atmos but it comes out in meaning it comes out in experience so there's the full integration of that's why we keep on going back to we don't just sayos because again once when you're talking about you talking about and there's Tak no words over there there Tak no words when you're talking about you're already talking about definition yeah you and that's the whole V definition because we live in definition and if we Tak would want to stay out of definition then there shouldn't have been creation it would have stayed Beyond definition and there's issue there's really no issues there and then you don't have a mind you don't you don't need you don't need a MIM either pre-creation there was no M A as in everything was beyond my it was it was Atmos the whole of is that so so it's it's through the that you touch the in other words says the comes into and then the goes into the comes out in you he what I said because in Atmos the two things are the same so ultimately even in at the end the can also Express the ability not to express that can express that too why is that important it's a game of words semantics and of because that means I can express it when you say the can express the ability not to be expressed in other words you're saying that it belongs to you you own it it's yours yeah I want to learn literally for another three minutes because this is the last paragraph but this is the summation of the whole M the whole M began if you remember bani huh yeah and what he said that in the time of war the Mel splurges the deepest Treasures that he hid for Generations he didn't even show them to anybody never mind use them but in the time of War not only does he show them he splurges and squanders them and even though he gives them to the commanders but it's all for the foot soldiers as we spoke in the first sheet it's for the pawns it's not for the bishop and for the castle it's for the foot soldiers it's not for the sophisticated you know the guys in the bunker who who strategize we we appreciate them but it's the people in the front lines they're the ones who get the even though it's passed on through the which represents great minds and Great Hearts but it's really for the foot soldiers and what is that it's the and that's to win the ultimate the whole is talking here about the war the war to reveal the which is the ultimate source of everything that war for that gives the that he never gave to understand what the is he started to say that the explained and then and that's the treasure that was hidden that wasn't even shown so now after he this he started to explain the whole inion of so now he comes back to that what is this so now we understand this is this this secret this experiential secret we're calling it a secret because it remains a secret because there was a tum right if there wasn't aim it wouldn't be a secret but because it's aim we're calling it a we're calling it that's why you call itus so a secret doesn't mean that nobody knows about it you could know about it but it's still a secret because you're touching something that's very hidden so that's the that's what he finishes in the last page this is the treasure that's given to win the war it's not only you give the soldiers which means more light than more light even if it's a little bit form of light to hold on to no you're splurging your mbes the treasures when you say a treasure it means it's concealed right the word is like a storage it's concealed like an an you say it means something that's been stored away that's hidden that's clandestine you know the Crown Jewel what does this mean this is the which is the in other words what you're giving them is that which is concealed you know you're giving you're empowering a person that all of that in your life which is concealment that's what I want to give you why do I want to give you concealment I want to give you the in the concealment you're not giving concealment you're giving the truth of the concealment the depth which is the the concealment that's the greatest treasure you can give your child you can give a person you can give a soldier in this war is to crack the code of the Tsum which means to reveal the why is this important because this is the secret of Victory this is how you win this is the victory like we said even though it's given by the king to the are the generals the commanders they're the ones who have it but it's not for them it's not for them to sell it on eBay or to put it in the safe it's for them to give it to the soldiers cuz they're the ones who are the foot soldiers who are winning the war in actuality so this is saying the profound all of this was revealed through the through the through the AL Etc like he brings all the names it's all so those are like but they knew right away we're just channels this is the Revelation that the world needs just like when they left that's the first time we're called like it says Ines by all the the troops of left Egypt says that the way we just like we went out the just like the days when you left MIT I'm going to show you wonders in the time of comes so the navi compares the wonders of Mia's coming to so just like then we were called now also leaving the ultimate go is we're called because this is the core because the whole during the was going out to this war so that's why we're called and the same name is going to apply to this generation you take the the speaks about The Treasure of so this is what he T what's the ultimate of it's not only you fear Heaven the is talking about the relationship to that touches that's the real through the one receives the ultimate Treasure of of hem so that we could be Victorious and triumphant in the war and as it says by the Jewish people go out with an outstretched arm with pride with exaltedness speedily in our days amen thatman does he sends me a text usually within an hour to summarize the she you should send it everybody H that's powerful there's a millisecond between stimuli not thought between stimuli meaning somebody says something or does something and it stimulates a reaction it's the signal like like let's say I say something to you somebody says something to you right you right away feel something you you you respond but between you reacting and you feeling that between me saying it and you reacting there's a split second over there if you pause yeah you go back to the rather than the yeah in other words there's a natural reaction right if if you're going to punch me I'm going to pick up my hand right it's a natural reaction huh yeah a reflex we have we have healthy reflexes we have unhealthy reflexes so I'm going to go like this right that's the natural expression the same is true emotionally if you say something to somebody or you do something or you text something to somebody they're going to react they're going to become uptight they're going to become nervous they're going to become angry they're going to become anxious they're going to express a certain energy right if you right away do that you're just part of you're just falling into a to a cycle that's consistent and there's no change there's no growth if you can pause and say what okay I just respond wait control of that you take control of your Earth the only way you can take control of your Earth is you go back to the source of the once you're in the once the sun sent out the ray the sun can't take it back once you're in the ray you're part of that you're just expressing you're you're part of the problem you're a victim you have to go back to the place where it came from that's very hard for people you understand because it's already the energy is Unleashed but that's the only way you could control it you go back and then you say oh wow where did it come from what just happened and then you can make a choice should I go should I express myself that way maybe it was a very good reflex or maybe still you got to rethink it's being curious it's being inquisitive and then you have Choice over your reaction you're not responding but you're initiating for and that's you do it 60 times if you do this 60 times you create a new neural pathway when you create a new neural pathway after 60 times there's already your response is going to be different your reaction will be different because there'll be another neural pathway it says yeah on the highway it says there's an exit maybe take the exit there's traffic here yeah there's an accident here maybe take the exit that's a new neural pathway oh there's another path but if a person never did that there's only one Highway even if there's an accident and if there's traffic every day people go under GW every single day 5:00 they're stuck for an hour and they know they're stuck one of the greatest compliments I got from a here in m is he goes to Manhattan every day and he comes home and there's terrible traffic and he said I used to dread it I hate it I hate it so then I started to listen to your sh and you don't stop so now as long as the traffic is your Shear is always longer right you always extend so he says now actually I look forward to the traffic because I can get to the end of the she the problem is he says when there's no traffic and then I'm like hoping could there be a little traffic cuz I need a the end of the year so that was a compliment that a Jew says that he prays for traffic on the GW she able to learn that was a that was a big compliment no oh on Monday I'm away I'm going to Florida for a day so uh so we're going to have a she B Wednesday and Tuesday for the women and then Wednesday and Thursday I have an event Sunday night so Monday morning there won't be a Shear shabas were here but Monday morning there's no she okay we'll have Wednesday and Thursday ble start a new mimer maybe we should just do Kar on this mimer it's this is a MIM that's life it's not it's not it's not learning it's life H I guess we could put it in Sheamus no unless somebody wants to take the M if you want to take it you could take it yeah yeah yay looks good real yay real yay that's what the B's father told him don't fear anybody and anything what was well worth it that was to learn the that's all you could say without thank you finish see I have one of those moments wife ask my daughter to call my other daughter said no and no no let call me