Maamar Reb Hillel Eisa B'Psikta #20

the yeshiva dotnet okay tie Aidan's the last leg of the Mimer the last section page to Zion the last paragraph if I give a summation it's gonna be another fuchsia room so I'm gonna rely on everybody's memory and if you don't have the memory so you'll has it hopefully the Lehane the smear am isms ever call Sean of Hashanah everything that has been discussed till now the long introduction about how the Jewish calendar works from the three weeks Tish above the seven weeks Rosh Hashanah Yom Kippur she had Saracen co-star and then the long introduction about understanding the conversation between Moshe and Hashem about exile his questions and the answers following a long introduction of the metaphor the long metaphor of the student and the teacher the ultimate student and the ultimate teacher following the long explanation about how that's reflected the relationship between Hashem and the Jewish people in the urban of in the herb in in Gullah Switzer I am Brisbane absurdum godless Muhammad entire saaremaa Marcia Saracen Deborah's following the explanation how that's also true for the future goal and the present godless which is why I'm a chef is born by the hormone so after all of that he says Lehane Miriam's a becau son of a son all of this in a micro level gets intimated in the annual calendar meaning kookiness Kaddish the frat guy is a lashana beef rat yes by mcComish MacLeod out fishin in the hi Alma the way the Jewish calendar works is that every year is a microcosm of all of history that's how our calendar works it's a fascinating idea in other words every year basically is all of history obviously in a more specific in a more broken-down way you have what's called cloud and you have what sprat and as we say Abe MacLeod allah masha before at my frat Allah Masha Allah so the claw is does the claw of history the Gamora says bow fishing in the hvar my secretary Shoshanna la morale of the world was 6000 years but every Rosh Hashana we say is a new year and what it means is a new year it's not just you need it's a new year for a break but the idea is that the fuse of that year gets renewed it's called drishna Balaton acceleration is called rush not to kill us should have been called the beginning of the year resident means the head of the year so we see it as a euphemism the head of a table you're sitting at the head of the table table doesn't have a head table doesn't have yeah well that's that sometimes in a more sometimes in a cynical way but here the idea is that every Rosh Hashanah is called the head because the function of the head is that it's a central nervous system from the brain all of the limbs and organs can receive their vitality their vivified through the brain and the brain leads them and guides them and mentors them in a very general one a very specifically that's Rosh Hashana so every year there's like the energy of that year that's packaged up in the brain and we know that what happens in the brain and sometimes it's not happening in the brain it's affecting literally every part of the brain because the brain has as we know today especially regions that are connected there's not one detail in the organism that cannot be found somewhere in the the brain that's the power of Rosh Hashana when the new heels of the year gets renewed but it's not just that year the point is it's like a package for that year which has within it a reflection of all over the 6000 years and that's why anything that happened in history from the beginning of creation till the end of creation happens every single year obviously it may not happen with the same drama on the same revelation and the same fanfare in the same action and the same details but there's an akuna of it there's an element of it within a year so therefore everything we discussed in the whole mind mare from brisbane absurdum from creation all the way to gula exists in every jew in every year in the jewish calendar for Lehane the whole pace of your criticism is right every pacer you have a Stickley system it's Ryan what's the connection it sees where I am happened more than three thousand three hundred and thirty years ago exactly three three three one years ago to be exact to four four eight so what are you celebrating it so you're gonna say well it's nostalgic memories that's how a culture and a nation lives it lives with memories he says but it's much deeper than that yesh chronicity Smith's Ryan there is something in the energy of that time of the year that captures the energy that was near the first time the chamber Colorado kiya dua and the same is true with every single festival this is an example of pacer but it's true of every festival there's something of the energy in the year Viacom came back all shahnameh in the losses there's a void from the blue it's a cover additive in his say fiducia slavery on Kanaka the gomorrah says am assess the Shabbos of half a loaf that when Hanukkah happened so the oil burned for eight days the governor says leshawna hababam the next year they turned it into the Connick holiday absolutely it's a comedy show why didn't they make the holiday that year when they when the miracle was complete say wow this should be a young turf it says leshawna Habad the next year so if you want you could fetch helping shot that they could have made the holiday that year but it was irrelevant already in other words it was for next year they made it that year but you're only gonna celebrate the next year because they had to wait till it was over and after Tomica but that's not once it immerses leshawna hababam the next year they established it so the prediction was said that sometimes you have events that happen they happen they had to see if the same energy is going to be available next year because in either sky time is is like in your metaphor it's it's it's circular time is not just linear it happened let's move on of course there's the element of progress and moving on but there's also an element of coming back to that same point leshawna Habad the next year coven they felt the same energy of last year hanukkah's here and this was a finish meccanica cuz other holidays till then besides poram were biblical holidays even poor rim was established by prophets but this is the first holiday in judaism that was not established in commish or in Tanakh and porter me have a megillah' Chanukah is monotonic it was completely a rabbinic institution of mitzvah Madeira so leshawna ha bah they couldn't make the yom tov yet they don't know God didn't say to make the UM if they said to make the yump this Lashon how about the next year call from they admit they can establish it I vote for the Madeira the yes gum can ah well we'll soon see what that means in other words we're gonna get to that the yes gum came back all Shahnameh in the lawsuit not just Jewish history tell the gula in in in in in every year so having the elements of the future of the gula shoosh many had said it's with some sauce Tara she met Saracens and Kristina represents the mushiya state of Jewish history come over beside my movie he's got his gaudy lace be his g'day lace means God LT as explained in the end of another moment that he said which we don't we never found the he'll cough based on we now go back to the beginning of the minor as in a circle math didn't gimble the purusa that's why we have the half theta before Tisch above three weeks known as the three weeks called gimel the peroneus and the three operators of peroneus which means of rebuke of challenge of difficult time for whom in use i invitamos it begins from the 17th of Tammuz the first half Tyra is the Shabbos afterwards and then you have the second Shabbos knee of the third service those are the three half Titus of peroneus the last one is hezonia sha Yahoo and that's the Shabbos before tisha both here there is the element of what happened by the herb in the three weeks that preceded the Corbin the breaching of the Jerusalem walls and then the destruction of the base of McNish but remember that this story of yours i invitamos starts much earlier the Mishna says in Misaka Steines that five things happen on Srivastava thomas the first thing is nest a bruja Lukas it's the day that the locust broke she says in whom minions I invitamos Shushi virus little Sara shyness that's the time the first lookers break a DM Kippur ashore Martin Taylor shall look at her anus there's a period that will continue till Yom Kippur when they had a second Martin Toyota when Hashem gave the second tablets which was also described this week in Paris acres so yours I invitamos the 1700s Moshe comes down from the mountain after 40 days on the mountain there was of course Martin tire on the sixth day of civil of the seventh day of seven then he goes up onto the mountain he receives the entire Torah he learns it he comes down with this tablets of the Ten Commandments and we all know the story he smashes them when he sees the golden calf that was created a day before Tesla and Thomas this is your Zion Thomas Rashi makes the calculations to show how it works a few times in homage including this week a cave but also partially seesaw and then Moshe goes up the next day on the mountain he pleads for forty days those forty days finished with the end of the month of of tough tests of of test of there is forgiveness and Hashem tells them solid cost analysis of anamcara shinin I want you to carve out two new tablets in lieu of the first ones which you broke ashesh shebar to which you broke and i will inscribe again the Ten Commandments Marcia goes up her sky - hello and he's there for a third set of 40 days those are called you may ruts and days of will of rebirth of the relationship and he comes down onion Kippur with the second tablets that's when he hears the message of salafi you know I have at home so luckily kids forever and he comes down with the second Lukas the gamora says and kindness why is it that they made yom kippur the day says la jolla I'm telling you so commissioner bubbly I'm Kippur wise impresario it's the Martin tire of lucas r Coronas ii martin peretz like so to speak the second marriage were wasn't a second marriage same wife but a second marriage the sense that the first one broke and the second one the second Lucas was get were given on Yom Kippur so there's a period in the calendar that starts to vasa by Thomas when the first look is broke and Yom Kippur when the second Lucas were given now how do we understand this usually we understand the Jews were bad boys and they misbehave and they made a golden calf and Moshe saw it then he got upset then he threw the lookers down and that was it then God said okay I had enough with them there's no hope for this marriage and moisture fights and fights and begs and pleads caballo Kelly confronts her sham he says you know erased me from the safe attire if you don't forgive them and finally Hashem acquiesce as he concedes and he says ok we'll try this one more time let's do a second set of Lucas in the second set of Lucas ultimately is given to him by M Kipp and that's why from ello till Yom Kippur those are 40 days of known as the days of compassion the days of of Rutzen begins describe the show and it culminates with Yom Kippur Martin tired of locusts occurs but after everything we learned and that's all true of course but after everything we learned there's also something deeper going on what's what then what is it he Martian is Beryl Luka Sarah Seamus the reason the first locusts were broken whom it sad it was time for a higher shear it was time for the second shear whom its action is earlier bamako penis lucas r Coronas the first look is broke because in this source and the source of all wife and the source of all the worlds and the source of Toyota caballo : are slamming the teacher something new we merged something new was decided what Lucas after anus the second look is the latest show penis Eureka voya which in a way is much deeper it's a new shear why he looked as her is shininess of Martin Taylor let's addiction look sister shininess is the Martin Terrier foot said they came the Jews were in a state of Shattuck and they were righteous but the Lucas ocarina Sabinas Martin Tyrell a ballot shovel Lucas a fairness is the Martin Taylor for baal-teshuva and the Martin tariffs about sugar is a whole different mountain tale of course there was an advantage in the first look at that the second lookers didn't have the first lookers were completely holy says clearly in the PASOK the first Lucas were created by heaven how Lucas my Celica maimie Hashem made an only right he didn't only engrave the words in the laws he actually made the laws the Mishna says it's a syrette varam that was created friday the first friday may now marshes the locusts are considered a creation man hashamayim ii love this he says sol with harsh Melo has a von ocher shine Marcia found rashly says and partially the moisture found in his tent sapphire right and he he chiseled he carved he carved that he he ho ho I guess honed it carved it out into the locusts into tablets and he brought that up Tasha who inscribed engraved them with the Ten Commandment in that sense the first lookers have a certain light and a certain sanctity that the second ones don't have there's always the advantage of the first year the first she has straightforward it's it's it's sacred it's good but the second look does have something the first locals don't have and that's called the Matt and Tyler for the ball Julie yeah yeah look Ashley as the Jews were transformed from Saudi commentable each other right yeah because as we said yesterday that till Messiah comes the finish of a nephesh remains in the core of the soul but it's not always manifested in the body right right yeah yeah connect realigning yourself with yourself so the mother the there was a transformation from the state of sounding to the state of all true ver well Elena is shininess Nick nuba Colusa broken that's why the first losses were given with kylus and broken coiler Sarthe unders lightning show coma Indian hats addiction biz Galia because the first Lukas represent devoid of tsadikim which is revealed shows how humid Vegas said they come gomorrah the jews then were addicted combined Montgomery says and Shabbos cooked number of post Kazu Hamas on the filth that was in the world since from the in states hadass seized by Matt and Tara and this is right after month on Toyota the first forty days they're in a state of static and those are the first Lukas Lukas the but then but then the relationship breaks the relationship fails and Hashem says okay it it's not going to work anymore obviously it's not meant to be you know this marriage is not going to work but suddenly moisture reveals not that there's a deeper relationship there's a deeper relationship that can't be broken there's a deeper relationship if we want to talk about it in terms of personal emotion you know there's the child who grows up in a very nurturing and beautiful environment and very innocent everything is so innocent and sacred and pure and sometimes some people are lucky to step into such a world that's the world they go know a world of love a world of nurture or world of innocence a world of purity a world in which you're protected and you're safe and it's yes that's what we all hope for for our children that's what we try to do but we also know that the world doesn't always respond that way you know some experience a very different type of life and there are the voices that say that's it you could never have that innocence you can never have that joy or that confidence or that purity because of abuse because of pain because of trauma or because of other tremendous distractions or toxic influences willingly or unwillingly maliciously or not maliciously and on some level you say that's it there's some people give up hope they don't even have hope for life anymore but what's the truth the truth is that at this point the person is challenged to be able to go much much deeper and to be able to find a wholeness that is deeper than all of the brokenness and to be able to bring it out that's what sugar means truth is that ability that after failure to be able to experience rebirth to be able to not allow the negative energy the darkness to take you down but on the contrary for it to become a springboard for renewal and rebirth there is a depth to that that is unparalleled that is unprecedented because whenever you take negative energy and you convert it into positive energy the ye stir in horrorman Akasha it's a different level of light it's a different level of awareness anybody sitting here who had to deal and confront trauma of any level or just a very deep challenge and you had to work that through and not allow it to demoralize you or throw you into the spear or melancholy or depression or or define your life to find your existence your marriage your relationships but rather be able to say no I can do it I'm going to renew myself I'm going to recreate the relationship the broken places that relationship is going to be a completely different perspective you know sometimes I meet addicts who are in recovery and you know they destroy their lives all their look is broke their whole life broke and some people remain in the brokenness but those who have the courage to create second locus to create second locus there when you have a conversation with them it's going to be a much more genuine conversation than anyone else in the world because they have been through all the lies they have been through all the deception the superficiality doesn't work anymore you know good morning good Shabbos forcemaster solemn alaikum alaikum Salaam I'll just get your yeah good you know the regular pleasantries which a lot of people get away with you just see it in the eyes it's something else you know within 30 seconds you can already be talking tackle us you know what I mean huh that's how real people talk they don't sit in there for two hours you talk about Trump and then you talk about the weather then you talk about the weather next week liters with another next today you want to we went on vacation where you're going on vacation etcetera etcetera you go straight to the core but a person has to be ready for that yeah the Gomorra says but malcolm-jamal each over I am them right ain't Sunday can worry miss I'll vomit so all that's additional oh really so let's go sit well it doesn't work that way in other words what are you worried about but they send so it's there isn't failure like part of the fabric of existence ain't something borrowed such a sativa why yes sir we all fail a human being fails the question is the level of failure so Alta Vienna LaDainian we don't say extra Varsha flamingos then right let me go sin let me go become an addict let me surrender the alcohol for six years become one was sugar in a gamble or day and night and then when I go into recovery I'll appreciate my children all appreciate sobriety up it you don't do that you don't give yourself an so that your body should be able to build up immunity because Dilma's can also kill you how special you get my point you have to be very very protective but the point is that in life we go through failure and I gave specifically a Marshall about children that it's not their choice some people experience pain in life they didn't choose it and now they're dealing with it so now they have to ask themselves you know we spoke Titian above about the seed right hazard redeemable you need a harlot gala kavorka right yes have found himself in a pit and he had to ask himself you know was I buried or was I planted that's a different question was I buried it was I planted it looks the same you covered over by the earth and by the gravel but the question is what you do with it if I was buried so that's it death if I was planted that means that from this new new new produce can come out of Isaac Lannister ah unbelievable after Amos the reason the first look is broke is not because the first look is broke it's because the second look has had to be revealed and that's the whole female the theme of the whole mind mer is that all breakage all darkness is because a new light started it doesn't start with the darkness it starts with the light it's just at this point the light isn't the source it's not in the student and that's why by the student that's dark the reason the old light disappeared the reason the old light was eclipsed the reason the old light broke the looks as broke is why the same reason there was a carbon-based McNish because mushiya was born because mushiya was born the new light was born the light of gula so therefore the old paradigms the Alta shear the old shear grows silent so the real reason the depth the pinna meais of sri Seleucus is what it's all ready to look as a Cronus but there's a process until it gets reveal and that's why the first locusts are revealed because tsadikim generally their avoidance because solace my shaken Lucas awareness Arabic Rasha the second lookers were silent no but there was no no no drama no fireworks no lightning no thunders no show free moisture came down there was no there was no big party with him Kippy couldn't even eat the first Lucas it says my yeah kazoo Acela Kim bio club I used to sing when I can surf and bling in it was a big phabang and with lightning God joined it the second Lucas charge till nobody even noticed my she came down why because show Indian belch over sorry fleas nursery Patrick Sujata because the life of about server is much more clandestine it's much more internal because there's a lot there there's a lot of there's depreciation of pain of failure mystery pressure at all it's a very internal avoider so who are you a Caqueta Eagle after they made the capture cousins who are Muslim the dirt came back the filth came back while you sitting this battle I the attire of a mitzvos and they needed a new bearer via do Ashima tantalum Bali true brokenness Madre giovani be ice the mutton trader football true ver is a whole different level commercial Kosova marriage the marriage says our passing by a gridlock autonomous cars monkey Flying Lotus er med - Rob and passions cases it takes a parsec in the earth per second EF says he taught you the secrets of wisdom you flying with her she a family this year means double-double salvation so the magic says as follows alula cottonseed olive-oil MLM akiva schaffer issuable vat the action caught two high bay here bill and taro mistress me commissioner Lochinvar goddess they would have gotten the first looks as they would have had commish and yahushua but the second look at is now they have the whole Tanaka and the whole mission and all along and all are God that's called kief way I'm Leticia a whole different dimension of Judaism that they wouldn't have gotten from the first look I've a gam said Ashley pity Ashley says kadai Leah gone kadesha late Haiti Niska Rashi says that what the reason he gave them war is they should work they should be more busy they should work harder they should have more gear they have more to learn me so they're sinning so therefore he gave them more it's not like the sinner gained I will impose a movement should look as a horrendous Nicorette a luminous cosmic if I'm like a Shia but the fact is that the locusts occurrence are called a luminous Hosmer the secret wisdom it's calf lion latisha can you do a how Marshall the metaphor for this is cheb akira of Malcolm aspic Narracott in La Jolla I will hire Brooke Malcolm sorry evoke a gorilla if you want to cast off light on a place that's close you can light a little candle but if you need the light to travel long distances you need an Avoca you need a huge torch or a huge bonfire Lehane Lena Shama Shama v-rod am ashaming madhaggis said they can do more 'i'm hamas McLucas or shyness assertion macaque Omaha glue you I will after Africa's resume us an awesome mother a kiss Bali trova that sort of her Guevara is a la jolla of whom he became his table miss Hoffman neshama is that I'm a voter in a shop mr. Hart tsadikim there Matt and Tyler is enough if its first losses the first looks represent Cosmo Hogg lujah the revealed wisdom and that's sufficient to light up these souls because when some want to bring light to a place that's close by you don't need such an intense light you don't need such profound light a smaller light will suffice but one's the Jewish people ended up spiritually distant so far now you need a different light to reach them you need like a nuclear energy you need a different caliber of Lights understand quantities and quality you need a different type of light that can penetrate that can reach such depths that no place will be called lost that as far as they may have roamed they could still discover their connection and they could still come home that I is a different type of Earth that you need that's why the matthan tariff about chuva Filatova is a different math and Toyota there's the mutton traitor for tsadikim the maintainer of Bali true ver once after the Zetas eagle when there was so much brokenness so now you need a whole new oil that's the Tallulah's hakama the calamitous year that's why the meddler says the first Lucas was McCrea and safer Yeshua five books of and you're sure that would be the end of you disguise which is a lot but the second lookers suddenly have Mickey a mission Allah means all Mishnah or Gomorrah all mad Russian the whole expanse of toilet came only because of losses are awareness what's the tract really heightened is scared they wouldn't have sinned nobody would be learning Amada they wouldn't have sinned you would have a home it's a free show up because they sinned so really soak right in this scare that's a funny thing so again you could look at it from the niggler from the mister from the revealed point of view Rashi says Cadell a Yaga they need a work harder they need to keep busy they don't keep busy mrs. finish them xi a lot of things can happen but what do we also learned from this on a deeper level that the looks of her anus captured and it gave something that the Muslims return is didn't have and not because the look Ezra shiners were inferior they were very very high and therefore they had everything in a state of clout it didn't get to the details of Toyota the talentless hakama because it was the Martin trader force addiction and what you give to addiction is a smaller light an amazing light pristine sacred holy but also a smaller light but about true ver the malt sugar represents the Jew after the katha a go after trust has been broken I mean think of it even in terms of a marriage you know there's a marriage that's going like a honeymoon it's smooth it's nice it's beautiful it's like tsadikim you know like a young couple they look like something him how does your daughter look at this week huh so they come walk know it should always stay that way yeah but there's AMA this is one of the I think the Marshall writes a fascinating thing he says why do we break the Lucas why do we break the glass under the Hopa so there's a lot of reasons the main reason is because of hormone yerushalayim right in mesh caucus here shall i am as we heard the music sing in my shikaku shall i am t debacle ishani Lathika mayest Gracie my Alistair slammer arson costing Marshall says I think it's the Marshall I sought many years ago he says that every Cooper is a metaphor for Matt and Tyra because Martin Tyra was the husana the marriage between Hashem and the Jewish people and what happened by Matt and Tyra the first locusts were smashed so that's how we smash a glass under a hopper now when you think about that really is that really that's and that's how the Hopa ends track and wish right Mazel Tov what's the Mazel Tov so about is the Mazel Tov is because now we can go dance but you just broke something what's the Mazel Tov it's really something much deeper there is the element of marriage that is that tsadikim you know young innocent pure of people a couple rosy this is good for sheva brachot robe maybe not maybe not it's good for 10 years after several roses it's good for the people around the state for some people around this table made me let them honeymoon for a couple years I ways that they can avoid though of purity of of a certain innocence but then we know that sometimes the first look has broke why did they birthday bro because there was a betrayal because there was a alienation there's no trust anymore and Hashem said this marriage can't work it's obviously not meant to be let's forget it did did purpose of the Jewish people in this world is gone let's start all over again I'm gonna start with you but moisture fights moisture will not back down and this has to come from moisture it why why couldn't God say we'll try again because this is the concept that it's found within within you there's no there's no relationship at the surface but moisture representing the Jew says to something deeper and when that happens you're going to need so much more of so much of a deeper light much more maturity much more conviction much more depth and much more courage in order to be able to find the path back but what happens then is the relationship can't be broken it becomes inna llaha we have something called star shi'ite cell of error you have a star it's document it's legal but then somebody refutes it and he says it's false so bez de now has to research and then they give a called key Amash star they validate the star this star is no nobody could say it's false again I'm the original star somebody could say it's a lie on this new one after everything it's not a lie anymore it really had to it really had to be it really had to be work to do you have to work through those those those the toxicity the the challenge their fears the insecurities I think there's a Hemingway once said life breaks all people and then some of us know how to live in broken places better than others yeah so when the Lucas or shyness are broken when they're broken you have to go work through those broken pieces when a couple works through the brokenness now the parts that caused you to drift away become those parts that bring you together and when that happens there's nothing more powerful than that when you could connect in your vulnerability very practical practical things is practical which means there's something that's pulling you away from the other person when you can connect to the other person in that place for example you could talk about the trauma or the fear which caused you to pull away and you could bring that into the relationship you can't get them more powerful relationship because you took the broken pieces and you glued them together you took the brokenness and you brought it back together that's but that requires a whole different type of or a whole different type of faith and conviction and depth that's the mountain Toyota for Bali trova is a whole different mountain terror that's tulum ice karma you got to go to a much you have to go to your subconscious your unconscious hakama it's the wisdom that has been concealed because the wisdom that has been revealed has become abused it's the wisdom that is concealed the Earlham understands what I'm talking about huh because you're looking at me as though this little yeah exactly the kotsky rebus said beautiful yeah you should care for the back of the cot scooter but they say once said and you do she said it was a whole couple of lines there's a few virgins but one of the versions is he said sinner stars our life is AK v accumulator which stars a crew mazzaglia glycol which stars are Schwarz Asahi vice attack lithium when the stars are ganses ah creates a block in the hearts this is how do I translate there's nothing as as as straight as a slanted ladder right because that's how you get upright or crooked ladder there's nothing as crooked as AG life Viertel as a snidey ah yes snotty remark of a con artist you know the sarcastic like a marital is its life it's it's sophisticated but it's very crooked that's its exploitive its deceptive you know what I mean right the real cynics who know how to get into your kitchen kiss but they're always static you know that they do it they're dressed nicely for the occasion ah House of Lords yeah a tube routine and Caesar Falls that's called a glottal but not like metal but you know your friend for your best friends and then he said there's nothing as black as the white shrouds with which you dress a corpse and then he said but there's nothing as whole as a broken heart there's nothing as whole as a broken heart and what did he mean by a broken heart a broken heart really means laven is bur it's the humility but it's also the brokenness the cracks that allow the light to come in that's the key that's what brokenness really means brokenness means that the light comes in when a Cayley is not broken it so so much pizza it's it blocks the lights that's what real brokenness is brokenness in in tyre and sidon this is never you know let me break you let me destroy you that's not leaving this bar that's you become a shmatte you become a broken person that's not laven is uber laven is bruh means we want to open open the heart we want to make a crack that's what it doesn't look at the ternary practice that salvo key sister bella Tania says doesn't that sits on my mind that sits laven is uber means you want to let the light come in that's the Chavira the severus a locus of of Mercia Ravenna was breaking a reality that a whole new light to come that could come in that's a different light and that's the light that is experienced from from from the failure of the ball Chava Villa hain genocide urban micropenis Lucas ocarina in the source there was already an arousal of the second Lucas vice a leaders who sympathized alkis we go back to that same thing the reason the old light left is because the new light was born Lehane is Badou a locust or shyness that's what caused fear so Lucas so when you look at Rio Salukis on one level it's the lowest moment it's the worst moment and this will explore on the a deeper level what is it it's the greatest moment it's back to Tish above the day when everything was destroyed in the day that the goal was born and both are true it depends if you're looking at the niggler are you looking at the mister if you look at it superficially from the outside in or you looking from the inside out if you look from the outside in the sheer just stopped everything is over the relationship is gone the life line was cut if you go into from the inside out what is it it's the ability to be able to experience the ultimate love the ultimate lights you could cry from this this is so moving it's so emotional yeah yeah I want to give you the second looks yeah well you have to understand that with spirituality don't look at at time is not and work like this the effect can happen before the cause right that's what we're learning here and of the way the student experiences it is right there's light darkness this first light then there was not hopefully in the future they'll be light the way we're understanding it is there's no darkness there's light and there's a much deeper light and because it's a much deeper light so that translates into a phase of darkness and Jews always knew this in their bones Jews everything that's being articulated here it's being Arctic's being explained but this is at the core of Judaism it's in the Jewish bones that's why you'll see throughout Jewish history you'll see a fascinating pattern you don't have a nation like this and it shouldn't be taken for granted after every disaster that Jews experienced somehow after that there was an unprecedented level of growth that never existed before you go through the whole history it starts with this the breaking of the first lucas we hate that it's insane Avada but that's before we were in the picture you're right you're right Corbin bias ain't hurtin by his tuition or by a shiny they brought out unprecedented ideas within Judaism you know we learn with machine I as Gamora it was all after her by her SHANY it unleashed such a revelation korban by tradition already unleashed a whole new era the sugus and the timonium but after cooking by a shame in the manger tarisha ball Peck came out after that and and you've is this explosion of ideas and insights in the worst times it's not like they were sitting near a beach calm relaxing you know drinking tea and coffee the Crusades was one of the worst car bonus the error of the ration a whole ballet a choice versus join him there urged from there he had the the Spanish expulsion was was a horrible disaster and the whole error the whole his galas of cabal of the reason and all that remark that result abusive Carol all the smarts most of them came from Spain yet shop c3 tava tots was devastating 1648 64 now within a few decades the Baal Shem Tov and his students revolutionized Eastern Europe and in the Athenian world as well the Vilma gone his students the achiever world etc etc what we did this come from so you could look at it Jews just knew you gotta go you gotta go and it's all true of course but there's something much deeper after in our bones in our DNA there was code ooze with using code and the code is that the darkness is really a result of the birth of a new light so the worst thing you could do now is just surrender you have to open yourself up to the new light if your service elevator external of raqqa once said the Gemara says i'm in north us of tests that when moisture came to the mountain he saw hashem drawing the tagging the heights and then little Zions on seven letters of the civet Irish and I intestine on Zion gimel Sadiq shaatnez gets as those little you know what are they called little thorns tagging like little wines on top of them he saw Hashem drawing so McKeever said who is this for like we barely understand this imitator what do we need these shaped I mean my Shasta sure some said there's gonna be a drew his name is Akiva ben Yosef I'll call kites with kites I said leaders too little chihuahua house on every kites on every thorn it looks like a little thorn he's gonna expound mounds of Halawa so he said homiletically quoits really doesn't mean a line it means a thorn Akiva is the one who experienced the thorny perforations of the Roman Empire with its full brutality on his own skin no less as the Gemara says and Broca's what they did rebbi akiva I'll call kites with kites every thorn that he experienced he built till a tiller Michelle Walker's mounds and mounds of Allah he just saw it as a springboard for unprecedented growth and not because they didn't feel pain these are not people who were naive who were in la-la land who Oh tisha bo there was made was destroyed let's go dance they were not in la-la land people didn't come from naivete from from a lack of appreciation of what a healthy normal life is it came from this deep deep powerful idea that if there's darkness that descended into your world or into your life it only means that a new light has been born now I may not appreciate it I may not want it I may have wished that the old seer doesn't get interior those are all normal emotions you know quantum leaps are not easy in life but the worst thing I could do now is just say go back to the old the old is not here I open myself up to the note and you'll see a very interesting thing that becomes clarified now there's a eulogy for my shrub a know at the end of himesh eight so come the last eight circum of Homer's day tomorrow says above a Basara moisture wrote with tears or even your his shoe I wrote them there's two opinions when you eulogize somebody of the magnitude of moisture may know what do you talk about you talk about the greatest moments what about the catastrophic moments either you'll put them in somewhere to mention it or you won't mention it at all when you look at the eulogy that our sham gives from moisture a banal basis walaikum Navi come on shadow you have jump on him upon him there was no Navi like motion God knew him face to face that's pretty pretty powerful quantum upon him you know him in our Shem where as we would say bodies and then you say we'll call her Isis vom Iverson I had the Hozuki all the miracles all the wind that wind is the great are my shadows summation and then you finish with three words la na call you sir oh he did this before the eyes of the Jewish people so Rashi goes through the evolution of Martin territory Assam servicios mitzrayim the Marcus the desert what are the last words Lane they call you slow Rashi says what's the end shesh of our how Lucas Lane a him that he broke the lookers before their eyes Jen Emmett says an acre of this week Varsha brain let a Mesa I broke them before your eyes so what's lane they call you sir oh he broke the look so you finishing Tyler we have a cloud to finish with something positive right to the point that the homeless seconds need the toaster says and Rashi says the Gomorrah finishes mastectomy de with something that's not relevant to the Gomorrah just to finish shots on a positive note what does Hamish finish with the greatest catastrophe of Jewish history beyond pocket earpick oddity the breaking of the losses let's say Moshe had to do it but that's the summation like that's bigger than everything finish martin Tyler he made us into a people he gave the world divinity the good stuff but it's not like you look much much his resume was pretty British imagine a surgeon he's been a surgeon for 80 years yeah saved thousands and thousands and thousands of people's lives and they're finally making a goodbye party for him and if somebody gets up and goes to everything he did it but says but there's one last thing I got to tell you yeah there was a patient went into him and he basically cut off his arms and legs okay that's the my see at the claps eyes even if he had to there was no choice but amputation but not now we understand now we understand Severus how Lucas on one level is the lowest the lowest moment on the D on a deeper level it's also the greatest because what is fear so Lucas from an external perspective it's the end from an internal perspective what happens these are his iris this is iris of lucas r Coronas the math on toyota of ball true ver and that's the reason for this stalkers loss change but all of us researchers by style coast you begin milkiness connect it last motion Cosmo Bernard a second album OSH and remember the breaking happens on three levels back to our muscle you remember the student is learning and the teacher ascends one level another level a higher level which eat with each ascent the darkness grows stronger why because the light is coming in more and more and more if the light wouldn't come in more the darkness wouldn't grow stronger it would remain status quo but because the new light is coming in more the teacher has to detach himself so to speak more and more and the distance becomes more emphatic high style coast will be iliac I really well okay now valence miss Kazue case and that's why in these three weeks the morning intensifies come every bushel tomorrow millions I mean Bahamas address cry - of Africa Cavazos potato fiercer shibaura called by Titian Bob Hummer Yasser arch on the beside for Tish above showing in precursor highest lagari commercial car service a common instruction Oracle we have a state of our valence from shavasana Thomas - Leroy - off then you have the nine days which credits off filters then you have something called tofu or shall call by tisha buff right the week in which dish above itself until you have tisha both these are three stages these are the three weeks so you have the first two weeks it's still not managed from shavasana Thomas till the end of the month so it's basically around 30 a little less than two weeks is the first stage that's like the Gili of hakama of the new idea so the teacher could still continue this year even though it's with less than Suzy azzam right the second week that's the beginning of the nine days still not the week of tisha buff that represents the concept of bina and therefore the idea is coming in even more and therefore the teacher now will detach himself more to the point that his words may become confused because he's thinking about something else and then you have Tish above the end hi sir Col mana she's like a widow what struck she's like a widow the husband is gone he's dead but it doesn't say hi Salman oh hey kill Mona she's like a widow she's not a widow he never left the really the love is now was stronger than it ever was by the breaking of the look as the love is a stronger than ever was and that's the shot you go back to the depth what it means the breaking of Lucas at the Hopa the breaking of the Lucas at the Copa means that your marriage may hit a point where you're gonna have to bring out this truth that during the breaking the love was the deepest it ever was because the reason we go through broken moments and life is only because we're supposed to be receiving a new light and the worst thing you can do is resistance that's the only reason a person goes through brokenness because there's a new light that's waiting for you that's it that's it that's what it is is a new light waiting for you and that new light is what must enlighten and inspire the future so you have the three weeks it represents the depth of the hist all cozy Louie after Emily vice talko susima soggy way but just like the Gila is super-sized out cause this style course is also simple circular meaning just like the his iris and the source is the reason there was a stylus it's the historic us that now is the reason that it could be a revelation of the new light shekinah's earth kaiser the martin title a Bali trova the earth Kaiser of Martin terrible each oven the owner of Bali tube is the earth Kaiser remember this the two lights is the ER yah sure and then there's the earth cries the one that bounces back because it hit the wall and it comes back that's the earth Kaiser of the ball true ver that the resistance I'm resisting something something I'm not letting it come in it balances off and it costs to go into a deeper place and bring out a much deeper place in me and because it brings out a much deeper place in me that's what the area of bali traverse the earth kaiser that are niggler matt syllabus i in mid is dissolved who gets the first revelation of it the teacher in the seven meters observe and nasa knee here Allah my Allah and that's where the glow of the teachers face is experienced remember back to our Marshall what happens the teacher now got Mabini das it now fills him up and there's a glow in the beginning that student doesn't know anything but he sees me here udon pen he feels comfort what happens after tisha buff after Tish above this seven weeks representing the seven meters of nakami which now experience the new light that the student can see there's a glow of Moses maximum neshama Cicero and with visible oh and a show mercy sir all find comfort right after thisch above is Shabbos naka mo naku Menachem Oh they'll never stay in the place of her circle mana right away why cuz they feel they don't know but they feel that at the moment after hest upon him after the teacher concealed his Flay face they feel this episode light on the hero episode why they don't know what the light is if they would know it there would be no darkness but they feel there's a light and they're ready feeling better it's the extraordinary quality in Jewish history tisha Bob is over in the next Shabbos nah c'mon ahhh c'mon ahhh me how did that happen how did it happen what's the transit the transition is that the student has nakami from the fact that there is a light on the hero dampen the light has not yet reached him the light has not yet been internalized but there's a new hero darken commercial I'm a Kabul shiroyan really opponents of Islam are SPEA like the student who sees the glowing face of the mentor Villa hang Shanna Shaw Mississauga kalamata Canisius the Croydon bazooka dinner farmer kumi ori cavora miss Nahum in gamba godless American album Marshall as the Jewish people did souls go to show and they hear the words of an alum and a half Tyra kumi ori ki virus which is one of the shivered and attempter from you Shia they feel comfort even in a bitter exile as in the metaphor in the parable say joie de minimis is wrong the souls feel they have an instinctive knowledge keeping in Hazama haka Sodom Oh miss Tommy is galih Gamla Matalin a sham is the BR Hadassah that the construction of Zhou comes from Cassatt we learned before that when autumn is put to sleep other men have I put to sleep for him to be rebuilt they're separated remember they were one they're separated he gets rebuilt in the process of sleep and that comes from Cassatt so they know that there's something from Casa that is happening here and it's going to be revealed LaMotta ultimately below to the nationís of this world the new light will be revealed okay what happens now so you have shivered in attempter which is the hope what happens now now the teacher this wants to give the new light to the student but the student has to open himself up you remember the two stages how a student opens themselves up first of all he has to create an empty space go away from all his previous paradigms step away from everything become mom-ish an empty vessel without any intellectual or spiritual ego but that's not enough we remember there was this we remember we spoke about the students who can hear but they can't empty themselves out they always hear things from their own paradigms so the first step is you have to strip yourself from everything because if not you're distracting yourself from the new light but now is this that's the second step he has to tune in he has to tune in to the light he has to tune in to every word those are the two stages we spoke about at length what happens after Shiva the neck under shiver than a Kempton goes from after Tish above Torah Shoshana now comes another to Shabbos on the Shabbat some of Rosh Hashanah Yom Kippur he says early days o Akaka who tired to the teefed then you have the two half terrace of chuhwa the first half tire of Chava the beginning of the year and then you have Shabbos silver before Yom Kippur which is always Sevilla strong showing in sugar in low sugar Tata so Indian alia some mouthwash to neshama sister all the BR the Bey's many half-shut Erskine Alba Marshall after the shivered in attempter which represents the feeling that the teacher has this glow because he already internalized a new idea and now we want that light that's Turkish on Yom Kippur two states of chuva to half terrace of Chava the lower and the higher juvett otaku villa which are the two stages that the student goes through in order to open himself up or herself up for the new light that's what is Hashanah Yom Kippur is running him kid before you not give kippered there's a Boston before Yom Kippur there's a Muslim from the beginning of the new year after the shivered and ahem to the two of Toyotas till iam Kippur Atilla Shabbos before Yom Kippur that's called tire TT of potential filmography the two of Chava what is that what's true ver true ver is alia samal house so we explained we remember in the Kabbalistic language in the beginning of the mind map all the way in the beginning of the Mimer he said that how does this how does or how does all of this work he says that in the beginning that the the three weeks before Tish above his estados gimel motion Habad Zion and the Hamptons is gallows my friend our ticker in the seven minutes of Zhou pirated the TFA's alias her mouth goes through true villain that often breeds sericea and then there could be in Kippur Martin tired of Lucas awareness that the motion of optics are revealed to the nationís of BIA now we finally have that whole picture and then you have Sweeney at Saracens some kosterow which is due rejoicing of that new idea of that new relationship so now we understand it three weeks is the gimel motion Chabad ascends Zion and attempt is the higher my friend my friend of optic are revealed in za by the marsh Pia the two of theories of Chavez Malthus comes up comes up from breed seriously which represents the student opening himself up Yom Kippur he gets the new idea now the student gets the no idea that's Martin Taylor and smear tear some cos theta is the second wedding so to speak it's the it's the ultimate celebration of the new light it's the dancing it's the joy that comes with that new light ah and beyond the wedding the wedding and beyond just back on us how I've shot the sama Kabul my retainer got partial Amish via the opening up the stripping of the recipient from everything is what triggers the deepest pleasure in the mentor when I'm a Kabul opens himself up completely there's nothing that can arouse in the teacher ty nuk on that level to give to give everything the bittle of the Mocambo the complete open is the thirst the yearning the openness of the student is the greatest trigger of the deepest pleasure in the Mafia that's what Richard Shauna is right we say shat humbly Sunni alaikum I want a relationship with you Richard Shana the time before it should be for Yom Kippur those are the preparations of the macabre Willa Haines Africa's Martin Taylor - looks awfully nice be Emma Coppola this leads to the Martin Toyota the new Martin Taylor the second tablets are given by our Kokoschka Shin Nicola Tosh Bob enemy is I'm a goblin Jaime Sommers is all the BR and when the neshamah see Sir all absorb it they finally absorbed it what happens NASA simcha vitinho now it's time to dance now it's time to dance and not stop dancing NASA simcha vitaliy negates a llama goblin commercial Amish Pia what the teacher already had after Tischendorf the student has suka since Minnie at Sarah's will be Yossi he has it even more than the teacher nature exilim who condition because by him it's a bigger finish canal by Marshall for the student to reach it as or deeper killers are therefore in a way his simcha is even greater than the simcha of the descent cover the marsh Mia that's the idea of the calendar working through and he finishes let's finish there's a parenthesis here but I want to first learn the second the last paragraph of the mind mer because the parentheses just asks a question which is important but I first I don't want to interrupt the flow I've allowed cold poem limsa makovan say that after it is be called Shauna but that if Pratt me Masha NASA belong so now we can understand that the order of the after is of every year is a micro of the macro what happens in all of history is mirrored in a smaller way in the annual calendar and after iris key Gil my drag we spoke now about Lucas restrain is Lucas awareness we spoke before about her burn by intuition and Corbin buyer shaming now it comes all together he give him a Drago's mushiya whom at entire della Bali truther the revelation of mushiya of gula that's the ultimate Martin Taylor for the mulch over in other words the Lucas ocarinas was the beginning of the taste of gula just like Martin Taylor was the beginning of the taste of gula but there's stages commercial cost of mashiac hasta la cerva to the ki beti of them desire says what's mushy is going to accomplish he's going to make that said they can become ballet Chava that's what it says in Isaiah mushy if is gonna take to addiction to youth demeans true ver our salah summits at the Kayaba t of them he's going to bring that sad dick him to chuva so dictum should become bali true why is that so important because sometimes the greatest challenge of the sound occurs that he's at sonic he's at Sadiq it creates a certain we're talking about a real silent we're not talking about fake sounded we're not talking about us are con artists will talk about a real sonic but it's Assad because it's something basically that sabich's life is full find by by a certain complacency I'm good the ball true ver is the truth that comes through the brokenness the truth that comes through vulnerability that's the ball Chava it's the truth that comes from imperfection right somebody once said I used to like perfection but now I like things that have cracks they're not hole because that that allows the light to come in without cracks there's no light so that's what mischief is going to accomplish bougie Lucerne I love mad dilution English as my container showing in my potato that's a dick it's a whole different giving than them Gilly of mutton tariffs I think I'm of Martin Taylor like we learned yesterday that mushy if is a new territory kadosh the location is over guillemot vegas mushiya so when the Gili of mushiya is aroused NASA Harbin becomes the Corbin showing in his stall coasts whoo-hoo bleh I really and the ER goes higher and the old or goes away higher and higher and higher and higher will be safer give opinion Pisgah defuser and at the end when the Guillory of the new oil is ready to come the whole life gets interrupted there's another version here beside fog all Aswini Pisgah defuser well okay gnostic boy ders Clippers a male copy courses show in young guy go Morgan at the end of godless you have the greatest explosion of epic horses to deny every last vestige of hope and depth that's what go good mortgages spiritually like we said before should have been the other way of Gauloises sin if a sin so at the end of Gaul those things should become already smooth and easy but based on our whole understanding the deeper the concealment it's because the light is about to come in so daft at the end of godless the shear becomes completely interrupted the Pisgah diffuser the theist gets cut off why because the teacher already is experiencing the new light and the mocker so those who are sensitive to the source when they already experience the light of mushiya in the highest and deepest and powerful way for the student it often translates into the worst goal of the hall the light that we were familiar with all the light that we were holding on to all the paradigms all the language the vocabulary that we were comfortable with it's all gone it's not working because in the mucker there's already a whole new light the light of mashiac the light of Gulu houki made safe samaritan Sam just like what happened by mitzrayim as explained in the whole mind me with motion a sham Lamar al sadiq L you'd you'd cave off K everything la marea so that it became worse at the end because the godless is not me the sardine the godless is Minister Azam and the godless is the new light of Matt and Tara that's why I came out by Brisbane up Sorum and that's why at the end of godless when power goes Michigan and there's no hope whatsoever and the Jews say this is the worst at Assyria now our serious Olympics will come out so the same that's true in the future so the whole process of the calendar it's not just about the events of lucas r Coronas then it's also looks at sufferings by mushiya the whole calendar is a reflection of all of history from Brisbane absurdum above rama v no we told about godless until the end and then which is mushiya and it goes through these stages for us and then Iran noon if Louis what's Iran in the flyest show at some a certain size what emerges with mushiya is the essence of Aden safe Shan if live and now let me go they'll give Lulu earth goddess mama tried a machine this is Mathias its wonderous it's beyond any previous revelation it's the complete new light through machines who may ain't a butthole Shana who Schmidty had sent us for some cluster a foretaste of this a little bit of it every year even before the ghoul are the two days of Sweeney had Saracen some customer sure who may aim the lawsuit those are the days that had that capture the ghoul of the future Guler for ours it says then Nagila of a nice mature buck we're going to rejoice and celebrate with you buck is buck mama sh you mama sh with you buck in other words not just with Tavor with the world with beret with her sorrow amorous but buck mamas with you yourself LSATs muhammad has explained before the finish of math and trader acts most in the goof and he finishes Vidal of a dialer maven this will be enough for the person who understands you same it's Tayla Slauson love it it's gonna be one big simcha yeah so you have Yom Kippur so the days before Yom Kippur lol and especially the end of lol and beginning of Tishri is the student opening himself up you in Kippur you get it so to speak in Kippur it comes in and from when I tell some crostata is the is the simple of that it's the symbol of that deeper relationship that came after the Hester which started already by yeshiva Saba Thomas that's when it says Suncoast Ida I want to just for a moment see the question in the parenthesis he asks a very obvious question give us a very interesting response the paragraph at the end of yours ayan if I gone even though you can ask a question Shama Marshall became Peninsula Mila beside it is my friend Martin tighten egged gilja vez hoy I they slam was my friend a coid Humira Brisbane absurdum canal pecan beguiling the Machine sa Derbyshire hormone working in Zion Thomas readers look Asura shyness levator Ani - llamas o'clock came I they had Haig over Cana Herman who I they sent us Kingdom Kia Dora we have here a little disparity or big disparity in the marshal of this student the student didn't do anything wrong he's a very good student on the contrary because he's a good student and because the idea of the teacher already reached the student safe my son so it reaches its completion so now we're ready for a new level a new paradigm so if my sub much overkill as explained before when this idea hits the teach the student in the spot and it reaches its full fruition it left the space of the teacher I went into the student it reaches its Lima so now it's time for a new idea that emerges in this teacher and therefore he stops the old Ashbaugh same is true also with the office Brisbane absurdum of ROM reached his completion the motion how coid men were complete so now there was a cyrus of a new ghillie the ghillie of Martin tired and that's why he speaks about gallows when we speak about the second stage though it's a whole different concept how did the herbin happen the corbin happened because of synesthesia it's not you going to say about the time of the Corben the Jews reach their ultimate spiritual perfection so God said okay so now it's time for a higher level so let's go into godlessness there was human failure what we call SID what we call sin Gullah Switzer I am packing moisture was right there was no sin but the other goal is there was sin as skin of the Gemara says because of terrible hatred baseless hatred between Jews that's how the godless happened it wasn't does they reach perfection and therefore God says there's a new light in other words when you read about godless the classic ideas there was said the Jews sinned they weren't worthy of it they were punished they were penalized that's what the Corbin is and here we're saying no it's ups a whole different thing the muscle and the name shall don't match even by the office by of Rome the gulls came in a moment of heightened perfection but not our goal is this home is true with the Lucas motion didn't break the lookers in a vacuum he broke the Lucas when he saw the golden calf it's not like she vas a baton was moisture came down and he felt that the Jews reached their ultimate spiritual perfection so much she said it's time for a new level and therefore let's break the all it's not exactly how happened it happened through crisis it happened through failure I get the cash a butterfly Mars you have to say and go one step deeper shy Cyrus hide a facade Hinnom below him it's actually Mazda my friend a coy demon it's not only in every case that the student reached perfection and everything reached its perfection so it's time now to go to the next level rather there was a Heseltine of meaning even those the student didn't reach perfection the arousal of a new reality came because the teacher wanted to give him a whole deeper level of Hester the whole deeper level of light well ashamed Emma's gamba martial move or shy they cushy Hawk Letitia Lama Kabul the culture came to shamash a cautious alia days in my earlier motion you in Ireland come over Bamako okay there's a marvelous mites accumulated base coaches nimza officially assist error is my friend I the earth crazy simulator I'm a kaboom Amish beer even in the Marshall we explained it's not just everything is going smooth sometimes the student is not getting it there's resistance especially when he's asking questions like the story with rich Aramaic ie with with rebuking that we learned earlier Irish luck ish so it's the questions that shrit a whole new light in other words the student is not absorbing it it's called pushy hikita it's not being absorbed it's hitting a stone wall and that light therefore bounces back goes into the teacher and unleashes from him a new creativity so this is not always just perfection on the contrary sometimes it's the inability to absorb which challenges the teacher to give something much deeper so what would that be then that there's times in Jewish history that there is a difficulty to absorb there's something in the relationship that is not happening the Jews are not ready they're not getting the shear they're building a golden calf or there's cynicism soak a vehicle Hashem is stimulated to give a whole different light in order to be able to fix that resistance so that actually works in the marshall so when we say that at a certain point a new light emerges out you could say it's less at the enemy just he wants to give it even though you're not ready for it or even on a deeper level that it's the resistance the inability to absorb that challenges me to go to a deeper place I should be able to reach you the Lehane of Shalimar shiet Phyllis mashallah had vehicle Moshe the Cambridgeshire urbanization muster in our module Joseph M Bala basin McNish I they earth Kaiser Hazare nasarah or others were mock Aramis Pia from our union hawlucha Tsubasa Corbin Gilly mushy when moisture daven's by Hal Masha ordering the herb in the Jewish people demonstrated sacrifice on kiddush Hashem and on the basis of McNish this light that returns triggers in the source of the must be our new light like the Lucas or mushiya's by the Corbin so it's not just the concept of this perfection sometimes there is the inability of the Makabe to absorb and sometimes there is that that Fila of moisture that came from the failure and he fights he fights for this relationship he says it's not gonna stop that brings out a deeper relationship the fight of the Jewish people their mysterious nephrons by the Corbin he says that brings out of there must be a whole new experience the Adorama f Shalom are showing in your ceramic my eyes a little slimmer Sumerian Akkadian edition a claw typically I'm a dad macabre a dipper Amish Pia it's possible that this is even much deeper than the arousal that comes from the perfection of the previous idea because the macabre absorbed it because that's all the smooth transition the student absorbs it through the words of the mush beer and now that he absorbs that it's time to go to the next level that's Tucker one or that comes out but there's a much deeper air that may come out from the fact that it's not absorb that it hits it hits a it hits it hits a stone war it's much deeper maybe than they say says F Solomon that it's even deeper than this iris that comes from absorbing from the slain was that factor by Brisbane Apsara but here there's something else this iris that comes from the earth hiya that early did not come in the earth did not come in and there was a failure there was the sin and my chatot davon by Hal Moshe and there was the mysterious an effort for this relationship after the Horten based on mukesh that may bring out even the deeper the ire of machine which is even deeper than the first tired of Martin Taylor that happens when Brisbane up sorry I'm in other words over there it's a smooth transition and here the earth Kaiser is deeper because it has to unleash something much more powerful because it didn't and because it didn't go in so therefore it creates even something even something and deeper the canal by Marshall as in the Marshall that sorry fear this needs yeowwww and this needs insight this needs this needs explanation which also includes the idea which is already very very subtle and very sensitive that this is a lot in the yeah but a few places I've seen this a little hinted the works of episodic a kind of Lublin II he likes he likes to elaborate on this and that is that sometimes the ah sin happens on two levels on a conscious level and an unconscious level right on a conscious level I have choice I made choice and I made a bad choice I have to do Trouville there's also an unconscious level and an unconscious level I was preparing for the new light that's gonna come through true ver the new light that's gonna come through true ver that's what I'm really looking for there's a poem from reps women eben Kabir L one of the Spanish Jewish poets so he writes about God he says I run away from you to get closer to you I run away from you to get closer to you so a Jew a Jew goes off the beaten track this is not the Derek he went on the wrong there're on one level you're going on the wrong path on another level you're carving out a new path to Hashem because well you definitely men who need uh nobody's gonna be lost so ultimately you're going to transform the darkness into light so from this path that's off the beaten track you're really carving out a new path so on some level there's a deeper level of sin which is coming from the deep awareness that I want the deeper light and the deeper light that Martin tired of the look of sorrow in us then is what prompts it so that's a whole other dimension that may also be added here to understand the whole picture to understand the whole process I don't want to say we concluded the my Matt I don't think we concluded the Mimer but we finished reading the Mimer that's for sure I'm going away I'm going away next week there's no shared room a whole week I'm gonna be here not being on and off in the next week also not gonna yes bein husband and we have been as mama okay I'll look exact next week and the week after if you could post it on the I have to go to Chicago my kids are going to yeshiva this I'm going there for a few days so that's the next week next week there's no shirt um and the week after two weeks yeah and then the next week we'll start phase er chamblee not a word it's a great time to do it everybody should have a wonderful Shabbos please do what and wasps what happened is that you save a mahkum symbolic silver the main something wrong with her long blonde with it's not fear you know you say it's doing this NASA life is obvious it's not fear I'm at sir somebody's at Sadiq he doesn't get all these mitzvahs somebody's about LaBelle Aveda suddenly all these our Vedas become mitzvot the Marshall says oh yeah 18 it doesn't make sense person lives his life nicely there's good he doesn't get all these mitzvahs a guy sins is our wife suddenly every evade is a mitzvah every available Mitzvah those are fear right no sorry understand this pay rings I paid anxiety itani pain are tiny paintings and this is your sovereign yeah Tanya painting design doctor never says that what that design is nationally Kazakh is because through the fascia experiences a different offer different semi person who failed who was four days without water right he says some are not sure Eric C of its helm others it's a different summer look on averaging they you don't have in a different situation in other words it's the very sin that contributes to the other session because of the negativity yeah so now a person will say afterward but you know you never say that because if you really care about Hashem you do what I Shem wants he doesn't want you to sin doesn't want you but if a person did right so there's a different ideas needed the lapel the Lukasik awareness was a different are you needed a higher I in order to reach this person because yeah you know in theory if still not happens we've never needed it and you never have gotten it because that would have never needed so it only came down to sit more about so that's what we said in the parentheses that the sin creates an earth Kizer that things are not being absorbed right so it brings out an earth lies in the cautious of the Mocambo the kasha something so that's the resistance yeah if you need to give you try to communicate to your child he's not getting it so you need to go to a deeper place inside of you to be able to give it them okay so the sphere Salukis happens because I want to give them locus awareness because I want to give him look as a thoroughness I have to break the first look the shoes always have no wonder you look because they've sinned and if you're not getting it so have to make higher it's a big difference because is either Shem wanted at therefore and since they have a since I'll get with you or is like you since so nor for me to give it to you a half they go deeper so that's what he says both he says there's an in university nam i want to give it to you so deficit in of alignment such slime was the mic and even though you're not pervy it's not like you deserve it right and even in the marshall we see this in a coup de that it's not loved Africa from Shlomo's it's coming from from our Kaiser and especially yeah and especially the earth Kaiser that comes after the fence that Phyllis moisture Viacom I show the mysterious nefesh is that's that's even more aid in a deeper or that that's fighting for the relationship so to speak perfect I still want to give more well by rama v no he says it earlier in the minor that he reached his perfection by brisbane absurdum south my sister now there was a cited us of yet a higher lights but at the end of this parenthesis he says that this is even deeper than that because that's just de Soto's that comes from slim us but the soldiers that comes from Seamus is a much deeper one in this town I'm saying ah because it's a darkness that unleashes the deepest place understand you're teaching a student and everything is perfect and I want to go deeper but it doesn't come to the depth that comes from the from the tension from the and the real reason for all of this is because the ultimate cavern of the brilla the ultimate coven of Artemis and crane the world was to be maha purusha so how should has something that reaches the deepest place you understand the curve one of the brie wasn't iron ore it was the coven of the video was the transformation so when there's the darkness it touches so to speak the marsh be in the deepest place to be able to transform it that's why this ode is a much deeper earlier than the early that comes from Shlomo's some event oh yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Westchester Barbra Heller you're asking a good question if you have mickr so you really have to have you have to 613 mitzvot right so what struck you don't have a law commissioner the answer is McKidd sir they would have had the whole Toyota but they would have handed the way it's a nikkor meaning all the proton would be part of the cloud now everything in a terrible pair you have the heart of odorous and there's McCoy kissing any boys and they bait and you have to figure everything out TRADD they would have Mickey is that the whole Turner would operate on the level of Micra on the level of cloud relative relative Tommy tom is also part of this not so simple but it would be understand you would not even know all the mistress but it would be like a clarity ah which is like a sonic which is like a sonic what what's tarnish about Turkish about Peleg a potential exam is about Trouville the Gambian something you learned in Maria de Merced okay why'd the Mishna says it should have said this oh so you have to say this not this is wrong prove you you're wrong what is that that's true what is true ver truth is you were going one way I am in a mistake so have to reinvent it but now not now I reject it and you don't stop you understand that you know that process you don't have internship it's off a question and a tee off then it's completely refuted and it can't be solvers and this one has to be thrown out forever but this could be maintained you understand that's what truth what's true I am following a path no I made a mistake after reinvented and after turnaround now have to redo my whole life you understand what true V is in life Gomora is in in tighter right that's why it says in Zohar that tarisha bah bah ha da right it's the bitter of eight Siddhartha Veera and and and Kabbalah school it's a kyon a Gary Sakura Simon curve of a whole chapter ever learned together conditional curve off ISA brain mayhem nama skilling Mizuno Basara kiya the whole long thing ah so if there would be no head to a goal they would have the whole maker and Sophia shorter of course they would have the mitzvahs something they wouldn't have made of them with unique mission and Gomorrah but the percent of the whole mission and Gemara it would be a Yasha it would be clear you would just have the claw of Tyra it's the heta eagle that created the needs for a different tighter on one level it's much harder now lady I have to work on level of it's a much deeper are the order that you reach through terrible path in the earth it's so good John is saying that Lahaina Lucas of fairness yeah you think til til they got to missioner took a rest by a shame the end of my training the answer is you're asking good questions the answer is when you say Lucas awareness came with a low Commission now that doesn't mean it was given right then it means it unleashed a force in the world that would produce halacha Mishnah gotten you understand that's the vorc in the right time Lucas through shyness would have been one type of life Lucas Schnee is brought into cloudiest onto the world a different type of oil why I sent an essay for the Shabbos or it's gonna be cents they came already that's called the chips - chips of your life what's the time yeah it says in gomorian Nidoran ah it's very deep feels it says that moisture became rich from the soilless of the wolfish you know them yeah Hashem said carve-out take sapphires he carved it out so there's all the leftovers did the junk the chips but it was it was good stuff Allah sapphire became rich so consider this says it distasteful you want motion to be rich it's like a real estate deal there listen yes motion to make lookism by the way there's a cot for you you want him to be rich be rich yes avert from the lemon are shopping on mind man to fish sammich s he says a half love the cavort she says looks with shyness didn't have Silas Lucas with shyness didn't have refuse because it was made in heaven Lucas sneers a stylist because what's Lucas Shania's Luca Shania's is the lookers that are created through failure right it's it's soilless Lucas sneezes man-made it's not God made true vers man-made it's not god made Lucas restrain his garden me that's what it sounded is it sad just listen Tasha the ball trouve is somebody who needs to reinvent himself Hashem is has been eclipsed understand it's man-made it's your own initiative its own creativity that's terrible path it's our Kaiser comes momot Allah my Allah right so as a result of that is Silas that soilless you would think is horrible he says no this was Mark my teammate gave motion the deepest richness the deepest are serious comes from this silence Lucas Scherr shininess didn't bring into the world soilless it brought in a world that's beyond Silas before that there was pasola zu hama says from eighth Siddharth resumed of Filth Martin Toyota puskás who are mostly Kumar says in Shabbos but by kettle it all came back the soilless of the world the cover up came back the Clipper came back so lucious a Coronas has bacillus and it's the transformation of the soilless into divine tablets that's the finish of lucas our finest so it brought into the world a different paradigm of judaism the paradigm of Yiddish kind of look Ezra shyness is not the same like look as a fairness look as her shyness is one the pin that looks a different clip look as a fairness is man-made Lucas awareness ESPA solace Lucas a fairness is going to bring halacha Mishnah God in the right time but it's a different way of thinking like right brain left brain cloud practical Milam Amato Talmud Bavli Talmud you rashon me or you're sure RFI's it's a deacon balaclava it's a different huh male-female that's not part of the equation males and females both art so Nick and Emily truth but it's the concept of look as we share as everything is clear everything is clumped you don't have to work through the proton because they're not detached Lukesh Gnaeus is a whole different paradox so all of you described was affected by it in the stand why a whole Yom Kippur we don't mention us cut the capillaries or not I go to capilla accepted as a first on man there's almost resigned us madness as if a state some folks effectively first died you wanna know why I'm Kippur we don't mention this why the holy people we don't mention that it's math and tired of locusts are anus the Gomorrah says anti nosov of him keep his Yamcha net no by local soccer una cosa nostra is a Martin Taylor is Yom Kippur shin it new by Lucas awareness gomorian tiniest end of tynus interesting order well that's the question is asking the parentheses McNay thought a no Galena marks a no we always say that Kalos is a Kippur afore since right and here was saying that the goalless has a whole other dimension that the premise of collars is really a sham wants to reveal a new light not just atone for sins and how does it fit with the Marshall and the Marshall it's the completion of the student that creates the gallows or Brisbane absurdum it's - limas of a ROM that creates the haft of gallows but home the urban abayas happen because of cynicism because of sin because of failure that's what caused that not because of Shlomo's the same is true with the breaking of the Lucas it happened because of the feta ACO didn't happen because the Jews were complete it's the breaking of the Lucas that was caused by the sin so that's what he's trying to explain here so one of the ideas that he's saying is this Nakula that when we speak about sin and we speak about kappa raphson of course it's true that the goddess came because of sin and the goddess came because of Kapaa raphson but let's understand what that really means and that's the great the great insight here he says but sorrow is the unit's it's it's it's a very serious insight and that's the idea that in the martial we said that what but what what forces the teacher to bring out the new insight it's the questions of the Talmud allows how much I don't understand you I want to understand you but I don't get you the relationship is lacking the schita that the teacher prepared is not successful it's not going into the student the tuner the student is saying this doesn't make sense and when the teacher sees that and he hears those questions the challenges emits the earth noisy right we learned it earlier in the moments to our user that unleashes a whole new insight ok so now I want ask your question you have a student he's sitting in class and the teacher is giving a sharing the student says I don't understand anything so you could say oh this student is a bad student he's a lousy student he's not interested in anything there's no hope but that's not what a real teacher does what the real teacher does is he says mmm let me go deeper into me and let me understand maybe there's something new that has to give maybe I have to change my language it's also to emotionally let's say I'm trying to communicate and and and he's not picking it up or she's not picking it up so there's all these questions there is this resistance it's called a cushy hikita the difficulty to absorb my message is hitting our rats hitting a stone wall so I have to go deeper into myself and ask myself maybe I'm looking at this wrongly maybe I have to reinvent myself maybe I need a whole new error that this person needs so what's really happening is the student is begging on one level the student is like there's no relationship here like I don't know what you're saying I don't understand what you're saying I don't care for what you're saying right your child says I don't care what you're telling me but that's on the surface that's externally what what he's really saying is I need this relationship to be so much so much deeper let me give another example in a marriage sometimes a woman creates a lot of resistance to her husband's right she's she's upset at him she she screams at him she chastises him she gives a Moo sir she really really is triggering him so I'm one living say oh she's not interested in him she wants a divorce she wants out no no no no no that's its ideas the Penna me is is the opposite she's saying like I you know I'm expecting so much I want so much I want a deeper relationship I want a more authentic relationship I need to feel you more I need to feel your presence I need to feel your love I'm hurt because the relationship is not working for me if she really wouldn't care she also wouldn't be upset there's no hope there's no expectation I'm so attached and I need that attachment and I'm not feeling that attachment and that's what's causing the pain so what does the husband have to do he's not supposed to run away at this time on the contrary he has to be able to go into a deeper place and really confront his own darkness and his own inadequacies and be able to give her so much more so if you want to call her the Makabe and he's the must feel like we spoke earlier in this year right man must be a woman Makabe it's the child it's the student not a child it's the student it's the Mocambo who's resisting the ire because he's searching for a much deeper so now let's go to the Jewish people Wow the Jewish people are sinning what does I mean they're sinning the ire of our Shem didn't penetrate them it didn't absorb Hashem spoke at mat and theta and I didn't get it I'm sinning I'm I'm I'm betraying you I'm telling her shun I don't get it it's not sitting well with me it's not affecting me it's not transforming me on one level it's like we're running away from God on another level know we're running closer I'm looking for a deeper relationship I'm looking for a deeper message I'm looking for a deeper light so on that level what is the sin the sin is really I want an honor that's so much deeper I want to feel so much closer to you it's not the regular act of arson I'm sinning because I don't care and then I'll do children know this sin on a deeper level maybe unconscious is prompted by the search for fur for the light of guellen-- so what was the horrible urban was because of the sin what's this I'm looking for the real key room I'm looking for for that new light our jump says I'm giving you that light I'm giving you that light that's the light of gula that's the light that's the lighter that lets the light of machine so it's the student who says I don't get your message so the teacher now has to find within himself new ideas a new model a new paradigm a new light that this should be able to go into the student this is called Lucius Vorenus this is the math interior for the both trouve it's not the moderator for that so they can you want my Ontario for the ball surely you need tell them is hawk mean it could fly of Letitia you mean the depth of the depth of the depth you need mom urge the Ange size itself I need the deepest infinity that's the math antenna for the Bolivar you're not gonna be able to communicate area to the ball sugar to the Jew who who built who built the angle again back to the woman she's saying you know I am so upset I'm so hurt by this relationship she's really cleaving with her husband to find within himself a new dimension and his personality maybe to reinvent himself through which he could connect to her through which he can give her love through which she could fill that void in which she could feel the trust to support that's a whole different perspective that's the cushy Huck Lita that's the what do they cushy a clip of it the difficulty to absorb to digest the students screaming your ever your message is not affecting me your message is not going into me your I don't get it the jus by sinning what is he telling us them your message is not going into me that creates an aura Kaiser that's the light that comes back from the frustration from the inability to go into me give I Yoho prompting Hashem so to speak about how to find a new life what's the new light ah look at Serena's the new light is the light of Google for that did the old light has to go away that Lukas have to break the first lookers so now he could find a real connection a real connection with the student why am i sinning I'm Cyndee cuz I don't feel connected to you why is this woman so upset why is she going somewhere else because she doesn't feel connected what am I looking for I'm looking for a real connection I'm looking for a deeper connection I'm gonna give you another example there's a child who rebels against his father right and he tells him you're not my father you're not my father anymore you could hear two things here you can hear wow what a spoiled brat this is disgusting this is not nice he's arrogant it's horrible that and you're right the words are really really painful if you look deeper he may be saying something else he may be seeing saying I need a new father I need a deeper father I need a more authentic father father I need to feel you more I'm not feeling you that's why I say you're not my father it's basically a way of dealing with my own pain the words that he's saying are not nice they're not nice that's true he has to apologize but the message is a very very deep message and what's the worst thing the father does is oh I'm not your father I'm not I'm not I'm not your father really you're not my child have a wonderful way no have a wonderful day no he needs you more than anything else and you know sometimes getting upset sometimes the fact that you say how could you say such a thing how could you say I'm not your father I gave my blood for you sometimes that helps because he may think that his father is detached and the fact that he sees that his father was triggered his father is so hurt his father's so upset he says oh wow my father hears something he feels connected sometimes the titleist itself the father getting upset that itself is the new light sometimes that itself is the new light right the oilers that idea that itself is the new light that's what he felt so the point here is that the sins that we're talking about there's the external dimension of it which is of course always not good it's bad it's a set and then there's the deeper dimension I'm looking for Lucas on Uranus I'm looking for Michelle I'm looking I'm looking for gokula and that horrifies it is what creates the new order the ire of Ghul then there's the second horizon that he discusses that's the vehicle Masha then after the katha angle there's this Fela the the yearning for renewal the mysterious nefesh for the base hamikdash that's the earth kaiser in other words there is the difficulty of absorption because of their strange meant and that's great what that creates one our Kaiser and then there's the desire that I want to fight for this relationship and that creates a unbelievably deep our Kaiser which which triggers in the source tremendous tremendous new revelations right this class is brought to you by the achieve Annette please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at triple w dot they you Shiva net / donate