Rosh Chodesh Class: Why Women Can Show the Path to Healing

Hello. Oh no. Yes. Yes. The toner is low. I know. Okay, welcome everybody. Welcome, welcome, welcome back after Pesak. A healthy and happy summer, a gazun to each and every one of us with all the blessings for you and your loved ones among all of our brothers and sisters. I apologize sincerely for my uh extraordinary delay today. Huh? Everybody was stuck in the jam. Yeah. Okay. God willing, next week with God's grace, I'll be at 9:30. I also apologize for the toner which is very low but uh the good thing is that I could read it so uh you listen to me and hopefully we'll get the words together. Okay. So we have glasses for okay so we'll do one I know it's late. We'll do one for our brothers and sisters in the holy land for the hostages the soldiers and all their families. We'll say which is 124. [Music] 24. foreign. Today's class is dedicated by the Abraham's family and a beloved memory of their dear grandparents David Kai Benhar Danil Shakra and Mazelbas and may their souls be an eternal source of light and love and inspiration for you, for the family, for the community and for all of our people. Amen. And thank you very very much. Today of course the second day of the ofish year the first day of the month of year. So what we're going to learn today is something quite uh amazing and profound about rash kaidesh which is applicable to every rish khesh to every head of every single month since especially today is actually rash khadesh if you could see in the source sheet that we distributed here again I'm sorry for the low toner This is a discourse that's dedicated to I want to I want to learn it with you and explain it. It's extremely extremely incredible idea very very powerful and also relevant especially to our times I guess to all times but especially to our times and it's a mimer it's a discourse about the inner meaning of what rish khesh is why we celebrate the head of the month its special connection as we'll see to Jewish women as the medish says it's considered a woman considered a Jewish feminine holiday very very interesting idea the M the discourse comes from the balatana the alterba who uh who said this and it's printed in his murden and this actual mime was said and then written by a Jew known as the maharash he was the fourth of Lavich who was the son of the who was a grandson of the balat and you could see the date is so discourse to understand the concept of from the year which would be 18 1879 18 uh 7 1879 right would be 1879 and actually his birthday is tomorrow B's year so it's very appropo so this is from the rebar he's known as Maharash he was the fourth rebad a great grandson of the balatanya but it's based on a teaching of the balatanya so he starts off to understand why we celebrate well you'll say why not it's the first day of the month. But what's the meaning of this? Why is it that our our calendar celebrates rishes? And our entire calendar is based on rish khes. It's based on the moon. As you know, the moon cycles every single month and it finishes its orbit around the earth tw. That's why we have some months that are 29 days and then some months that are 30 days. That way we get six and six because the moon finishes its orbit after 29 days and 12 hours and a little change. So every month is celebrated as the moon completes its cycle and begins its new cycle on rishesh. During the time of rkesh and a little before the moon is invisible because it's basically facing entirely the sun. So the moon is between the sun and the earth. So it's facing away from the earth completely facing the sun. And this is called inabala. It's like the intimacy like the marriage between the sun and the moon. They connect. So we don't see it because it's completely away from us because we only see that dark half. And then after it starts moving away a little bit, a little bit a little bit from the sun. And you start seeing that little what is it called? That little sliver that little crescent. And then it moves away further and further. The 15th day of the month. It's the most distant from the sun. The earth is between the moon and the sun. So we get to see the whole half ball of the moon that we can see and then it gets it waxes and then it starts waning and waning as it gets closer and closer to the sun and then it faces the sun mish that's called that's like we call it the mo like the birth it's like a new birth like it faced its source because it's it's light is from the sun and this we celebrate every single month. What's the significance of it's not like we celebrate every phenomenon of nature. It's amazing phenomenon of nature. It's it's it's powerful. It's interesting, but why is this like such a staple in Jewish life? And of course, all of our entire calendar is based on this. You know, the Roman calendar, for example, the Western calendar is not based on this. It's based on the sun. It's based on the solar cycle, which finishes after 365 days. Our calendar is based on the moon. And that's why every month is really based completely on the moon. Although we synchronize it with the sun. So what is the idea of this? says it's the first line say this is a famous that is particularly a woman's holiday our sages say that is kept and observed and celebrated by women more than by men why So the says this is all because of what happened by the golden calf when went up to the mountain and he wasn't coming down and the Jewish people went into a panic and they came and they came to Aaron and they said we need we need somebody Mosha is gone we need a god we need a leader so Mosha Rabenu said go to your wives and ask them for their jewelry Iron Aaron said and the women refused. They refused. They did not want to give any piece of jewelry that they owned. And that's when the men took their own treasures and they donated it to build this gold to construct the golden calf. As a commemoration of this was given as a special holiday to the Jewish woman. This is what it says in Perk de Rabzar which is one of the oldest madrash from Rabbi Alazar who was the teacher of Rabbi Aka. So the end of the second B mikdash this is where it says and that's why it's uniquely a feminine Jewish woman's holiday. The question is what's the rel what's the connection usually there's some connection because they didn't want to give their jewelry for the calf so therefore they celebrate. What's the connection between the beginning of a month that didn't even happen on if it happened on kesh it didn't happen onesh it happened on the 16th of Thomas the next day came down and he broke the which was the 17th of Thomas so it's not like it even happened onesh so what's the connection The question is even more enigmatic because generally we know that when it comes to mitzvah there's mitzvah there's mitzvah there's mitzvah that are dependent on time they're timely mitzvah that in other words it's certain time of the day or certain times it's not a continuous continuous mitzvah and women are exempt from those mitzvah I mean they could do it if they want but they're exempt from those mitzvah so for example fillin is a mitzvah that we do by day women are exempt is a mitzvah we do by day it's not connected to the night fillin as well we don't do at night. We don't do on Shabbas and Yum. Any mitzvah that's connected in time, a woman is not obligated. She can do it. For example, sitting in a sukus connected to seven days of sukus and a woman is exempt. The same is true from other mitzvah manga. And as a result of that, it's funny and there's a reason for it because the mitzvah mama are very very time consuming, pun intended. And as a result of that, because she was given the mission of creating the foundation of the Jewish people and holding up the home and the Jewish family, the exempted her from all mitzvah yet is the basis of time. It's the foundation of time. It's the head of the month. That's how we calculate all our time. That's what we know in Biml. Every day of the month is based on and here the mitzvah that's like the source of time. It was dafka given to the woman more than to the man. So it's like a very interesting paradox. In order to understand this, we have to delve in what happened exactly by the golden calf. What was the story there? Why did the men surrender? Why did the women refuse? What did they know that the men did not know? What was the secret? Why did they why were they not gullible? They should have also been vulnerable. Mosha is gone. It was a very was a state of hysteria. People panicked. They didn't know what to do. They were fresh slaves. they came out. So there was some ingredient that occurred here. Something happened. What is it? That's what we're going to now learn. And then we're going to get back to how celebrates this. And then we'll understand the connection to the woman. says what happened exactly. So the Torah says in parishes that the Jewish people saw Mosha Mosha was uh he was um huh no no bish was in the he was on top of the mountain uh taring taring tearing from coming down from the mountain delayed it was all delayed as the says the kazal say is towards bashes bos said he'll be down by 6 hours it was already 6 hours. It was already afternoon and Mosha was not coming down from the mountain really. He came down only the next day. There was absolute panic and there was the A River the multitudes of people that came out of Egypt and they mixed it and they built they asked Aaron to find them a replacement and when Aaron made this calf they declared Israel this is your god who took you out of mitz p it's p the whole thing is wondrous it's such a strange thing a calf becomes god because moha is not here that generation is called in meda the generation of wisdom of of knowledge of perception only generation that saw God face to face this wasn't just a lowly lowly generation these were the people who experienced just 40 days before matra they were considered an extremely extremely lofty generation they really felt that a calf that's built from inanimate matter, from metal is divine. Like how dumb do you have to be for that? And then he took them out of Egypt. What this calf that didn't even exist when they came out of Egypt suddenly became God and then retroactively the calf, the golden piece of metal took how how does gold take you out of Egypt? It's it's dead. It's inanimate matter. You could use it as a piece of jewelry. You could use it as a nice as a nice ornament. What does it mean? It took you out of Egypt. It's not it's not it's not an issue of faith. It's your eyes means your natural senses denies. If the calf took them out of where was it? It should have been there. He should have been heading the parade. He wasn't there the calf because he wasn't built yet. If would have come down, it seemed like it wouldn't have even been an issue. Nobody would even have thought of this. There was a mistake. It was also a cloudy day. Maybe they first they thought maybe it's a cloudy day. Mo is going to come later, whatever. But when in any case, they made a mistake. So because of this, this whole ridiculous story happened. What? what what what's what's the issue? What was going on here? Obviously, they were touching on something that was a vulnerable issue here. And when Mosha went away, it could explode. But there was something there was something difficult here. There was a challenge here that they managed to exploit and manipulate. Everybody knows in life it's sometimes that way. You know, we have vulnerabilities. The vulnerabilities don't always come out. And then when there's something that hits a person, you know, there's a curveball. So previous stuff emerge even though they wouldn't have emerged, but it's not something new. In fact, you know, very often when people experience different curve balls in life, it brings out things that were not dealt with. You know, infections that were dormant and they were they could be concealed. They could be undercover and then something happens and like you can't hide anymore. So in many ways it's very very painful like let's just bury it for another 50 years. On the other hand it's an opportunity because it's just bringing out things that were unresolved. You know it happens sometimes in families. It happens in people's personal lives. It happens in marriages. It happens in different relationships. Things that manage to be buried. Some people relate to what I'm talking about. Not everybody but some. Okay. I relate to it. Things could be buried for many many years. And it functions. its functions as they say it works till it stops working and then something unusual happens there's a curveball in life and what happens is you know the buried buried stuff suddenly emerged they come to the four so that's obviously the idea here like from nowhere a calf suddenly took them out of mitz there was a panic there was hysteria they thought they were losing everything and the av managed to tune in to sunburn to tune in to to to vulner- abilities that existed. What was it? So now we begin to explain the third paragraph. This is the third paragraph. The third paragraph I read it in the Hebrew and then I translate. The explanation is as follows. When mosha comes to par initially we just celebrate just celebrated pes he tells he says who is this god that I should listen to him I don't know Hashem. That's what he says to I don't know him and therefore I will not send out Israel from Egypt. What happens here when he says or throughout history when you have he says who deny he says often it's not that they're denying that there's a reality there's some higher reality there's some form of intelligence there's some lofty sublime force that is beyond them he says anyone who's intelligent knows that it's very it takes a lot a lot of blind faith to believe that everything happened randomly by mistake by accident. Too much design, too much intelligence, too much profoundity, too much wisdom. The issue is something much more subtle. The argument is not that there's no creator at all, but rather of hashemarits. of means God delegates. In fact, in a way, it could be even be thought as an honor to him. It's like to have such an infinite creator deal with nittygritty small stuff with every little nook and cranny in a tiny planet that's barely invisible from outer space. It seems ludicrous. So, there's a whole system. There's a system. It gets delegated. He gave the earth all the meaning all the planets, all the constellations, all of the spiritual angels, all the spiritual forces, all the physical forces and they can run the world according to their desire. Yes, they were given authority. The authority can maybe even be taken away from them, but now they're running the show. And God is not part of this daily behavior. In fact, they say he's so much higher than the materialistic lowly stuff that happens on earth. It's actually humiliating. It would be humiliating and humbling to say that this is what he's dealing with. He goes into a garbage dump, goes into some lowly lowly place and deals with it. No, this is what you delegate for. You have people even in our own planet when you have a very very powerful powerful person maybe the founder of a company for him to go and take out the garbage and to deal with every employee to deal with every problem. No, you have management, you have middle management and they have management. It's a whole system, a whole hierarchy. In fact, that's how it is. And he could deal with the big big stuff. Now, this is even when you're talking about relative people who are all finite in one company. Well, you're talking about the creator of all the universe. There was there's a very interesting uh something came out a number of years ago. There was a spaceship that they sent out and it took a it took a picture of planet Earth. I think it was uh approximately uh like four million uh I don't remember how far. There's a book called I think it's called the blue pale dot or something. It was a picture that was taken from planet to of planet earth, but it was taken from very very far out of space. Basically, I think the number was uh like 4 million light years. A crazy crazy distance. Not so crazy as much as we know from our universe today. I think we know today of 28 billion light years. But in terms of our number was very very far. And it took a picture of planet earth. And when you look at the picture, you know what's most striking? What's most striking is you don't know where planet earth is. You can't find it. You have to search and search and search and search and then you see a tiny tiny tiny little dot and that's where the planet is. And that's the whole point that even when you go to outer space, forget about from the creator's perspective. In outer space, you go to a far distance and suddenly our planet where there's so much action happening becomes literally invisible and that's only from the perspective of outer space. Now from the perspective even further outer space and further and further and then from the creator it seems completely insignificant and valueless. So their argument was not that there's no creator, but to say that this creator is immersed and involved and invested in the details of this planet and in tiny tiny little details, it almost seems disrespectful and ludicrous. That was the argument. So now power comes to Moshe and you're telling me in the name of Hashem that I should send out a people from my country. What a joke. There's a system how the world runs. I'm the king. There's slaves. Now you're telling me that this God wants me to change my policies in this country based on that. This doesn't make sense. I don't even this whole thing doesn't make sense to me. There's a system of how this world works and I am the boss here. I'm the king of Egypt. This was the idea. The truth is we go to the next paragraph. Paragraph number four. But this is a mistake. This is a profound error. As we say in Hal, The Jewish idea was the exact opposite. We say inal in the beginning of the which we said today yesterday throughout which means who is like our god he's extremely high he sits in a very lofty space but comes down to see both heaven and earth so which one is it is he sitting up there or is he coming down here so the truth is that the first chapter of has a subtle argument. There's actually a question and a response right before that. We say what's the um [Music] Not because I'm doubting what you're saying. I just like to see inside. Hashem is the word is exalted high right on all of the nations. On the heaven is his glory. Who's like Hashem who's so high who comes down so low may lifts up from the from the dust dull someone in poverty from the garbage dumps will lift up that destitute person etc. What's going on here? There's really a subtle argument here. One perspective says he's exalted. He's so above. He's so high. He's so lofty. He's infinite. He created the whole universe. His glory is to be in heaven. Meaning to remain very very remote. That's the glory. Come the Jewish people and say God is also higher than heaven. Just as he's infinitely remote from earth, he's also infinitely remote from heaven. In other words, just like you can't call him physical, you can't even call him spiritual. Spiritual will is also an insult. any form of description even if it's heavenly is also inadequate because he's completely beyond heaven and earth. Therefore, so therefore he comes down both in heaven and earth. In fact, the word rum is 240 and it's the numerical value of a malik. It's fascinating. Why is a malik rum? Because that's the argument here. The argument is God is so big. Of course, he exists. But he's too big. He's too infinite to be concerned with these details. He remains very very high up. The Jewish people say, "What does high up there mean?" The highest of the high is still infinitely infinitely remote. So if it's insulting to be in earth, it's also insulting to be in heaven. Spirituality is much greater than physicality, but only from the perspective of a finite being making that division. If you talk about Hashem himself, there's no definition, not even a spiritual definition. So just like to call Hashem physical is a form of idolatry. Even to call him spiritual is a form of idolatry. It's just another definition. It's a much higher definition. It's a more sophisticated definition. But it's another definition because he's so above any definition. So therefore nothing is too high, nothing is too low. If he chooses to be there, he could be there. time of arts. So this is the counterargument of mishabenu to py pyrie says he delegated the earth is basically running the show based on the forces that exist here and I'm one of them par considered himself a demigod and with all of the planets and the constellations and that was the whole idea of aar the idea it wasn't that god didn't exist like the raom explains in it was rather understanding how you could manipulate the forces of nature in order to be able to get what you want. So it's by studying the forest has incredible incredible forces. Every plant plant has secrets. Stones have secrets. Geology, the earth, the minerals, animals, every single part of the world is filled with wisdom and secrets. And the deeper you go into it, the deeper you could learn about the systems. And those systems can be used for the person. And we we all use those systems. we all benefit from the wisdom and the experiences that exist in the world. They said that's how the world runs and therefore py said there's a system there's a king there's slaves there's masters there are subjects and that's why I shouldn't send out the Jewish people comes and tells par no you don't understand this is a very very of truth and that's why Moshe turns to par and he says faithful words and he continues we're in the fourth paragraph the fourth the third line fourth paragraph third line All the plagues of are there to demonstrate that there's no one like me on earth da on earth. In other words, you're saying that when it comes to planet earth, Hashem delegated. He abandoned it. Others run it. But the truth is this is the idea of the Jewish people that we say right we say it's from what's that idea is the same thing it's and therefore there's nothing And that's what he's saying. That's what he's continuing. What does it mean? It's like saying yank is yank or is yank who you think is really his name is yank. What does it mean? Fine. You want to tell me that god has two names and it's really the same god. Okay. It's much deeper than that. basically represents as it says in represents the powers that are invested in the entire universe. All the wisdom, all the energy, all the resources physical, spiritual that exist in our planet and in the entire universe that's all manifested by the name Alikim. And that's why alikim is the numerical value of 86. Alf is 86, which is the same numerical value it says in the paradise like nature. And that's why is the only name of Hashem that's plural. The other names are singular. Like doesn't have a plural way of describing it because it's one. Why is become so interchangeable. There's alim which is the noun. There's al there's there's always changing your mine our answer is because that's what alim is. Alim is the way the divine is manifested in diversity. And that's why it's all the forces of nature. Everything that exists in our world, in other worlds. And therefore, it's of course plural because that's the world. The world is it's plurality. There's not one person sitting in this room. There's many people sitting in this room. And the same is true with our entire planet. It's all about diversity. And the diversity is manifested in the name of when uh when uh when Ysef introduced himself to Par and Par said, "I heard that you know how to explain dreams." Ysef said Kim is going to help par. Now Mosha comes to par and he says God send I should send the Jewish people. He says I don't know Elim. I'm fine with Elim. I'm fine with there's a whole host of forces and natures. In fact, wiser people, stronger people in people who are engaged with the world can figure stuff out and do amazing amazing things to benefit them. I'm the king of Egypt and I have a very very successful system. We have become a superpower. Egypt at that time was the superpower both in terms of science and economics. They of course had the Nile River which rises every single July or August and would uh would saturate flood the country and give it unbelievable fertile soil which allowed them to have a very rich marin life uh water life and all the paparus and things that they developed because of it until they built a dam I think in the 1800s to stop the Nile from rising. Huh? Yeah, it was interesting. They built a dam in the late 1800s, but the Nile would rise every single year. Have an incredible system, an incredible army, an incredible incredible pyramids and slaves. I don't know about it. In fact, there's no relationship here. Comes and says, it's the same thing. and are one but therefore it's in fact there's nothing outside can change his own forms I'm sorry what the word is the only way right the only name of hashem that has all these changes can't say in different way how do you say hashem my hashem you're hashem there's no y and because it's because it doesn't change it's eternal and it's it's present it's it's it's present in in every possible in every possible way without any change. Elim is the way it's manifested. Dapka in change precisely in change. There's mine, there's yours, there's ours, there's plural, the singular. That's what hat is. What is nature? Nature is all about diversity. That's the richness of nature. No two leaves are alike. No two bushes, no two shrubs, no two trees, no two no two bi, no two organisms. Everyone is unique. And it's so distinct and it's brilliant in its distinctiveness. and its distinctiveness is completely completely designed in a way that works for the chemistry of that particular creature or that particular organism. So that's what is saying that is and he continues and he says so when you say adonim it's not referring to Hashem it's just masters the word adon is a master that could be used in that con that that context the one time it says it says who told the three guests when the three guests came to him. So it says Hashem said he said to Adonai. So there's a huge argument if that's a mundane word or it's actually a holy word. In other words, was he talking to them and calling them the master? My master telling one of them my master was actually talking to Hashem and saying please don't leave me. I want to go take the guest. That's a very interesting discussion because of means master. Even though could sometimes be one of the names of Hashem. So he continues tells all the powers in life that give any influence. It's all essentially a manifestation of Hashem. He is the one giving this energy. and with divine providence orchestrates and supervises all the paths of people. All of the forces are like an axe in the hand of the is the wood chopper. So, so if somebody builds for me a beautiful suka or somebody builds a beautiful home or whatever the person builds, I usually don't go and give thanks to the hammer or to the axe. Even though without the hammer, the suka would have never been built. Let's give credit where credit is due. But I don't invite the hammer to my home and give him a cup of tea and give him a check. Well, one reason is hammers don't drink tea and are not interested in the check. But of course, of course, you're grateful that there is a hammer. You're very grateful that there's a hammer. you're grateful that there's an X. But these are instruments. They're instruments that don't decide things. They don't have choice. They're not the ones taking the initiative. They're complete instruments in the hands of the person who use the instrument hopefully in a productive way to build a beautiful mansion, a beautiful home, a beautiful, whatever it is. In heaven, you also agree God is in heaven. So we're telling you exactly what you say in heaven is the same thing in earth. Fore! Foreign! Foreign! Shane that's why says there's nothing else. What do you mean there's nothing else? How can you say there's nothing else? The answer is when somebody asks who built this beautiful home for you. So you don't say the contractor built it but by the way he you the drill also built it together with him. Why not? It's not nice. If there was a team of people don't just give credit to the contractor. Say there was a electric drill, there was a hammer, there was there was an h whatever it is. Of course you understand that he used tools but they're not separate from him. It's all based on his ingenuity, his creativity, his mind, his skill, both the details, both the general. Yes. Does he need instruments? He wants to use instruments. Yes. And he needs those instruments as a human being who has his limitations. He uses those in. But we understand this even with humans that you're not going to say there were two builders. There was one builder who used all of these resources. The other way somebody does a crime with a gun or something, you're not going to blame the Exactly. Exactly. Right. You can't say a kala knife is evil. It could be everything. Everything could be everything could be used in a horrible horrible way, but it's about the person who's using it and what they're seeing in it, etc. Both in the general sense and even the details. And you can have the most beautiful hammer in the world, somebody who doesn't know how to use it, you know, it's a titankas, as your grandmother would say, you know what tobankas. So the bottom line is that doesn't deny that there's nature of course and doesn't deny that there's so many diverse and infinite resources invested in nature through which things happen constantly but rather what is saying is that's all that is that is all hashem's presence intimate presence that is channeled through every one of these instruments through every one of these powers, through every one of these resources, through every one of these these creations, through every one of these plants, through every one of these people, through every one of these whether it's minerals, whether it's produce, whether it's animals, whether it's humans, whether it's outer space, whether it's black holes or stars, planets, constellations, every single kayak in the world is essentially a flow of energy of the divine that takes on the shape of this particular herb, this particular plant, this particular vitamin, this particular medicine, this particular body, this particular organism, whatever it is. The last two lines of the fourth paragraph and this will also be true. This is true about everything all the details that exist inab is inanimate inorganic matter is the world of produce all plants is the world of the animals is the world of humans. This is basically what our planet is made up of all of this. So he says it's true. It's true. It's true. You have to respect the fact that every species has its uniqueness and you have to understand it. It has its chemistry and in in every species, every creature has its own uniqueness. So for example, you have the human race. The human race have similarities. But nonetheless, there's no two human beings alike. And you have to acknowledge that. You have to respect the diversity. You have species of of uh of uh of animals, right? So you have the horse species, but no two horses are alike. Whatever it is, any min, you have a species that can include millions and millions and millions of members in that species and still each one is unique. So you have the minl is unique. You can't compare a horse to an elephant. You can't compare an elephant to a banana. Now the truth is we share 50% of our DNA with a banana. I don't know if you know that. So the next time you look at a banana, there's a lot of kinship over there. 50% not bad. 50% of the DNA, you wouldn't mind 50% of somebody's. So 50% of the DNA we share with a banana. It gets even better with a chimpenzee. With a chimpenzee, it's 99% of our DNA we share with a chimp. So when you go to the zoo and you see a chimpenzee, there's a lot a lot. The I didn't want to say a lot in common, but yeah, maybe more than a lot, maybe more than a lot. So what makes a human a human? And it's interesting that literally 1% that 1%. But within humans themselves, no two people share the same DNA. There's a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a difference. And that's God's imprint called you. You that's called you. Even twins which are so identical, they still can't be identical. It just doesn't exist. And it's one of the most fascinating elements of nature. So on one level, we share so much with the entire ecosystem and the food system and everything around us. On the other hand, everyone is particularly unique and the answer is because that's the paradox because really everything is one because it's havaya. On the other hand, so the diversity is also part of the oneness. So on one hand you you'll see oneness everywhere. You'll see connection everywhere. So Charles Darwin came up with the idea if I share 99% of my DNA with chimps, I must be a chimp. In a previous couple of a couple of years ago, I was a chimp. Huh? And he writes, Charles Darwin writes in the origin of the species that one of the most fundamental conclusions of his ideas that there's fundamentally no difference between humans and animals. That was a galish for him. And that's why people are so invested subconsciously in the idea of evolution because if fundamentally there's no difference between me and an animal that gives a license for a lot a lot of things but it's also creates the ultimate depression of our generation because a human being doesn't understand who a human being is. But this fascinating paradox that on one hand is connectedness everywhere. I look at a banana and we literally our organisms are very similar in many ways and it's a funny thing. I look at a frog and our organisms are very very similar in so many ways and yet no two things are the same. This is exactly what Moshe is saying really it's all one it's but it's the way it comes out in the diversity and therefore differentiation doesn't take you away from it's the way is expressing itself through this medium and through this medium respecting the integrity and the diversity of everyone that's what he says and even though it's individual It's it's not outside of him. It's not something else. You don't have the builder plus the drill that built the house. It's all one. There's nothing outside of him. And the reason is because it's not additional to his essence. This itself is and therefore of course it's not even similar to a builder who's using a drill because there you have the builder and you have the drill. The drill is not him. here the very drill is created by him at this very moment. So it's complete complete oneness. That's why the metaphor with the builder is not even an accurate bu metaphor. It's a fine metaphor but it doesn't really bring it out because the drill is separate from the builder. You can't say ain't there's the builder who uses the drill. I just don't give the drill credit because I understand that it's completely dependent on the builder here. It's much deeper than that. The drill itself in other words all the instruments themselves are divine. They're just manifestations of divine energy that come out in different in different in in so many so many different ways. And that's why Hashem who is lim it's plural. Hashem is and all these that are manifested in every single element of every single element of nature is essentially the means. It was, it is, it will be. And it comes from the word mahava, creates, which means he created it then, continues to create it nonstop every single moment. And therefore, this creation is literally happening every single moment. And that's what is telling par that you're making a big mistake. And all of the mak are trying to show that the earth is exactly the same realm of divine infinity like any any other place of the world. Now when you live somewhere and you're in under influence so there's ideas that go into our nervous system not because we want them to be there but because they're integrated. Everybody understands in their own life right very often. You know what we know so often is this is so important to understand this. We often think we could change people by explaining to them how wrong they are. You ever try doing that? You ever tried doing that with your mother-in-law, with your husband, with your daughter-in-law, with your children, and even if I may say, with yourself? The truth is, ideas are very important, but they're as good as a map if you're going to a foreign place. Meaning, understand that's what ideas are. Ideas are a map. Maps are useful, but mostly useless. What I mean by that is if I want to go somewhere and I want to understand a little bit where I am and what's the next block, it's good to have a map. And certainly if you're driving and you don't know directions, Google maps can be very very helpful. And they certainly were very instrumental for Shaolias because you remember that you were listening. No, you're supposed to listen. You're the you can't stop at a gas station because you know everything. So who knows how much shalom bias was saved by ways and Google maps which is why they are all Jewish institutions that were created. Problem is that some men are smarter even than Google maps. He doesn't even listen to Google maps because he knows better. Much more fun. Huh. Stopping in a gas station. The pen doesn't work. Yeah. You got the right wrong the left wrong. Yeah. Sh. So uh what do they call the good old days when nobody knew where they were going and got lost everywhere. Yeah, but there's adventures today also. No, you don't have any adventures in your life. Why am I talking about Oh, oh, maps. Yeah. So, so maps are very very beautiful. But if somebody says, you know, somebody said, you want to go, you want to go, I'm going to Italy, I'm going to Switzerland, I'm going to Australia, I'm going to Where are the women who travel here all over the world? We're going to Hong Kong. What's the next destination after India? Peru. Borashep. And I tell and and and your friend says, "I don't have to go to Peru. I have a map from Peru and I'm going to study the map and I have a globe and it even lights up at night in my dining room and I'm going to be in Peru. It's going to be cheaper. It's going to be easier. I can go first class cheaper. The food will be better. The food will be better. I don't know if And you're going to look at them and say, "Okay, but but it's not Peru." Of course, I know Peru better than you. On the map, you can actually see what it looks like. Nobody in Italy knows that it looks like a boot. I know that Italy looks like a boot because I don't live in Italy. All I know about Italy is the maps. I know it looks like a boot. Nobody else does. If you live there, somebody once said, "The map is not the territory." That's called living with your mind. The mind is a map. It's very very useful. It's very very interesting, but it's not where change happens. And the reason is because if something is ingrained in my nervous system, it's actually in my cells. It's in my body. So the responses are not happening intellectually. So if you tell a teenager you should you should be happy. Wow. Brilliant. Ma wow. I never you should get a Nobel prize for brilliance. I should be happy. Wow. Wow. Now prove it to me. The truth is that it's a very very common thing because we feel if I understand it so of course I'm going to react that way. But it's much more complicated than that. And the reason it's more complicated than that is and in a good way because we have to respect the fact that the mind is a very very useful map. But life happens in the heart. Life happens in the nervous system. Life happens in the body. And therefore if I'm not working with that, if I'm not working, we have nephish, we have ru, we have nama. So neph is literally the body. Ru are the emotions or the breath. And nishama is ideas. So sometimes education happens on a level of ideas and that's very very important. That's like fixing up the map. You know, getting the map straight. But the real real work is not just there. It's also there. But the real work is the integration in a person's very internal system. I could know everything. But then when I come home, you somebody says something, I get triggered. All the maps in the world won't help. You know, welcome to Peru. Now you're in Peru. Not now. You're not a map anymore. What does the map say? I don't care what the map says. Okay. You're here and we're stuck and we don't know where we're going and we're lost and we're starving. But the map says that Brazil is not too far. On the map it's not too far, but I'm starving and I'm going to die by the time I get there. Exactly. It said it wasn't going to rain. Exactly. Yeah. Talk therapy is not so moving toward because people are saying Yeah. So talk therapy versus sematic therapy is a very good example for that. There's a lot of value in conversation, in clarity, in in in unraveling things, in seeing what's happening, but so much of that could be extremely extremely limited because the experience is literally in the cells of a person. The experience is in the nervous system. There's no trust. There's no regulation. There's complete chaos or or or doomsday or fear, anxiety, and so on and so forth. So now what we're going to learn is what was happening is Mosher Rabenu gave an incredible education to the Jewish people in Egypt. Every one of the 10 plagues was really a shar. It was a lecture. It was teaching them something about how nature works. But there's something that gets embedded in our nervous system from life's experiences. And this is where there's a different level of amuna. There's amuna that comes through words. It's like a map. This is what it's supposed to look like. This is what it looks like. And it's all good and true. But that's not what it is. That's the word amuna. Is trust in your body. That's the body experiencing the trust. That's a somatic experience. It's not an intellectual experience. And it's two different dimensions of Judaism. There's the Judaism which is ideas, awareness, learning, reading, exploring, explaining, teaching, listening, etc. And that's very very important because that's like the map. It's like the map of the universe. It's the map of life. A much deeper step though and sometimes much more difficult is integration. Integration is it's not in my brain. It's literally it's in my stomach. It's in my heart. It's in my arms. It's in my legs. It's in every one of my 60 trillion cells. And you know right away the difference. You know, somebody could tell their uh children, I'm very very calm. I'm very very calm. Don't you see how calm I am? Look, I'm not even screaming. I'm so calm. And it's erupf. And look how calm I am. Ah, boom. Right. You just didn't explode. But you and I know that you imploded. You're a absolute wreck. I don't mean you. I mean we. I'm not talking about anybody individually. And children are so sensitive. They right away know the difference. Right? My wife said in a Tanya class, I guess I could say it in public. She was once talking to one of my sons and I was there. It was in the kitchen and he said, "Ma, why are you screaming?" And she's like, "If you know my wife, she doesn't scream." She's like, "I'm not screaming." Ma, you're screaming. And then she said he was right. She was screaming inside. She wasn't screaming outside. She was actually very calm outside. But children are sensor. You're screaming out inside. You're very, very disregulated. You're very, very upset. Why are you so upset? So, this is a question that I can't answer. Well, look at the map. The map says I shouldn't be upset. Okay, I got it. The map says I shouldn't be upset. Fine. But the reality is that my nervous system didn't get the memo. The map has not been read by my nervous system. It's been read by my head. And this is where the only way the nervous system is the bridge between the mind and the body. So if my nervous system is not regulated, all the intellectual ideas won't be able to penetrate my body. There's a famous expression in Z and it's brought in. Everybody heard that the brain rules the heart. That word, that expression is a beautiful expression. It's actually the basis of a moral life, but it could be often misconstrued. People think shalot means like Fidel Castro, like Putin. It's a dictator. The brain is shallot. The brain is a dictator on the heart. So the brain the brain basically the brain basically tells the heart, "Shut your stupid mouth. I don't care what you feel because I'm the boss. I'm a drill sergeant. I'm the boss. I'm the brain. I don't care that you're screaming heart. You have emotions. I don't care about your emotions. As they say, the world doesn't care how you feel. And therefore, you shouldn't either. And this is a philosophy. And some people even put it into those words. But I don't think that's the meaning of because you'll see how effective it is. Uh huh. Some people I know I know I know I know a lot of a lot of us function that way and and and sometimes it even looks like it works because it's like you know the brain runs the show and that's it. But the truth is that if you look a little deeper and you become curious, you see that parts of us then shut down. We're not so alive. There's there's there's an anger there. There's an anxiety there. This is what a person could feel very very deep because actually is something very very kind it says that yalat was the ruler over Egypt. What does it mean he ruled over Egypt? He repressed everybody. He fed everybody. What does it mean ruled Egypt? He took responsibility for the hunger and he fed everybody. Actually means that the brain, the mind tells the heart there's a mommy in the house who's taking responsibility and therefore you could calm down. I'm here. It's not telling the heart not to feel. It's literally like you have in Tanya. It says that our intellectual faculties are parents and our emotions are children. What does that mean? If you have a 2-year-old that's throwing a tantrum or very scared or c whatever it's crying. So here are here are two responses. One response is you come over to the child and you say in this house we don't cry. Don't be a baby. You're being a baby. You're being a 2-year-old baby. We don't do that and and stop it and be mature and be a mench and it's fine. You're going to have food in two hours. There's no reason to be scared. Okay, that's one way of doing it. And this child learns for life that emotions are the worst thing in the world. They're dangerous. They're going to bring a war. And even more than that, what I'm feeling actually I could never even trust. I can't even trust it because look how my mother or father responded to it. Wow. So that means whatever I feel is probably really really off. An entire generation was raised. I think so. So so so so many many I get it. So many many people have been raised like this. I know. I know. And and and to give credit where credit is due, as my son always makes fun of me and he says, "Tati, you did the best you can with the tools you have." Okay, Tati, you did the best you can with the tools you have. This is him making fun of my lectures. Tati, you did the best you can with the full tools you have. Don't worry, the tools you have. Right? So, we have to acknowledge that. We also have to acknowledge that when a person is in survival mode, that's literally sometimes the best they can do and they do it with such sacrifice. And yet, as we get closer to redemption, we seek deeper relationships, deeper awareness, not to disqualify and reject, but to heal and enhance and elevate and appreciate what was given and then take it to the next level. Like it says in we are like midgets that stand on the gi on the shoulders of giants. So the could see much further than the giant. But it's because the giant took him to that space that there's even a who could stand on the shoulders. But the will see much more than what the giant will see. The says so as a result of that what happens here is much deeper. I can come over to the child lift up that child throwing a tantrum and saying I'm here. I love you. You're all right. Mommy is here. You're allowed to cry. Don't worry, but don't worry. We don't have to call the ambulance. We don't have to break windows. You're going to be all right. It's giving the child co- What's going on? It's giving the child Let me just shut this. It's giving the child co-regulation. Before Pes, we spoke about the cats. You remember co-regulation. Co-regulation means that I'm not afraid of your emotions. In fact, I honor it, but I'm showing you I get it and I have empathy and I understand you're allowed to be two years old. In fact, when you're two years old, when you're allowed to be two years old when you're two years old, you could be 50 when you're 50. If you're not allowed to be two when you're two, you're going to be two when you're 50. And that's why there are 50 year olds who are two year olds. Because when they were two, they weren't allowed to be two. They had to be 50. So now they're two years old. They're trying to catch up. They're just wreaking havoc on everybody around them because they're two years old. But the bottom line is a baby's allowed to be a baby. Means the is not afraid of the heart. The may is a leader like Ysef in Egypt. A leader doesn't repress the subject. Doesn't tell didn't tell the Egyptians, "I don't care if you're hungry." He took responsibility. The may tells the, "Of course you're scared. Of course you're overwhelmed. You're responding to life experience. You're responding to your childhood. You're responding to wounds. But now I'm here. Tati and mommy are here. We're here. And therefore, we're going to make decisions that are good for you, that are good for me, that are good for all of us, that are good for our organism." And sometimes the lathe will calm down. Sometimes it's going to take time. So that's really where the work comes in where a person doesn't cut out parts of themselves but they can incorporate all of them and give guidance that comes from a higher higher consciousness. So after all the work that happens in Egypt where they get the map for mohereno there's the embedded pagan influence of Egypt that still exists in the nervous system and that's what the arav exploited that day when moisha disappeared when mosha disappeared they weren't teaching a new philosophy they were getting something that was embedded in their system a deep deep fear and we have to understand how powerful this is because I could leave Egypt I could stand at Mount Si and then something triggers me. There's a curveball in life and the map is irrelevant. I'm stuck. I'm stuck. I'm responding to something. You say, "But you should and you know and you learned and you went to a yesterday. I couldn't care less. It's irrelevant. I'm offline. My my my I'm I'm offline at the moment." And this is where there's a very very sensitive and subtle work of connecting it to the reality. And here we're going to learn something fascinating. And at that moment the men failed and the women rose to the occasion. You want to give a 2468 for the women? Okay. 2468. Who do we appreciate? Remember in camp? Yeah. What did the Arab Rav came and say? The Araf come and say, "No, no, no, no, no. You don't understand what happened." They went back. They went back to default mode. You know what default mode is? If I don't do the constant work, I fall back on default mode. I can have the map. I could learn that Muna is there. I know the clarity. But in reality, I'm responding to the situations in life and I fall into it and then I blame myself. But it's not really a blame issue. It's the fact that this is embedded in me. And to experience that liberation, I need to work with those systems in which it's embedded. Like we have in Kashroso, the way things get absorbed in the pot, that's how they get extricated from the pot. If something got absorbed into a pot through hot water, you cooked non-cooser stuff there. You can't just pour cold water and expect to caser it. If it was a cup, a glass that was used cold, fine. But the way it was absorbed, that's the way it's going to get extricated. If I was using a spit in the barbecue and it was non-cosher. So now the the taste got absorbed in the spit through fire itself, right? That's where you need the top level of kashering because so I have to use that fire torch to get it out. The way it got in, that's how it got out. It didn't get into my system through an intellectual explanation. Things got into our system sometimes in a very very unconscious way. I wasn't even aware of it. I'm not going to be able to extricate it through an explanation, through a pilpull, through a shear. That's a good map. It's a good it's called psycho education to have an education of what's happening. And when you get there and you want to have clarity, it's very, very powerful. But the experience needs to come from actually going into that space. The aviv now come to the Jewish people and they say something very powerful and they say, "No, it's very simple. You know, God told you to take a carbon pes which was a lamb. Why did he want you to take the lamb?" And the answer is because the lamb was the deity of the Egyptians. That's why mishabeno told par we can't slaughter lamb in Egypt. They're going to kill us. It's their god. We're slaughtering their god. You know by the Hindus today they have the holy cow. They call it a holy cow. The cow is holy. By the Egyptians the lamb the sheep were holy. And therefore Ysef also said he's going to eat separate from the Egyptians because he couldn't eat together with them because the food that the Jews would eat for them was an abomination. It was like killing God. So when the Jews took the carbon pesak, they were basically in defiance of the god of the Egyptians, which is a lamb. In the zodiac constellations, you have April, May, June, July, Nissan. So there's 12 zodiac signs. They're called mazales. And it's actually a fact of astronomy that at different times of the year, the backdrop of the sun are constellations of stars that look different. So the month of Nissen which is April is known as masle is a lamb a sheep it's called tarus and then you have may is mas which is the ox and then you have which is gemini twins right so you have is the lamb is the oxim is gemini twins and then you have to um is is sart the crab and And then you have the lion. And then you have uh Sula uh the virgin. And then you have the young girl. Then you have Mim the scale. And then you have Acrob scorpion. Kes is the archer. Gdi is a goat. Di is a barrel. And Dougim are fiscal fish. That's other because this already the time of the Rambam says they saw each month the back as the sun in the in the orbit of the sun. It has a backdrop of these constellations of stars that look like these forms. So every month is connected to this. So some people are very very very into this in Egypt uh extremely. Now the truth is there's a lot of lot of interesting stuff there. It's not simple. In Egypt this was a huge element. So they said you don't understand. We were liberated in Nissen. You know why we're liberated in this? Because Tle is our God, the lamb. And our God was defeated by the Jewish God. It was basically a competition of forces. It was Mosha against parro. Par manipulates his parts of nature. Mosha manipulated his parts of nature. The area of Rh took the whole and brought it back into the paradigm of par. It's still the same paradigm. It's just in this case the Jewish god was victorious over the Egyptian god. Our was defeated by their ax and that's why niss they managed to defeat us in Niss. The was defeated that's why they but basically the rav was putting it into that paradigm and therefore what's the best thing you can do you need to build an agel which is an ox which is the month of which is the second month because that's the power to defeat to defeat the Egyptians. This was the area. So basically what they were saying is it's not the idea of anoid mulvad. It's the idea that the masle of mitzim is mas and that's why the carbon they and that's why didn't want to eat with them. And basically masal the ox fought with the lamb and when an ox fights with the lamb the ox wins and therefore we have mas fighting with each other and that's what happened and that's why you should worship mazul the calf comes from the ox the calf is a child of an ox that's what the eagle a so the idea when they say this is the god that took you out of Egypt they didn't mean to say that this physical calf took them out of they knew that this physical calf they didn't take out of Egypt but they put it back in the paradigm of everything is happening through forces of nature and their sheep was defeated by the representation of this power. So you need a representation of this power. This is what you want to invest in in order to be able to continuously be victorious in the world. This was their argument and essentially people fell for it because it goes back to what was happening in their system. in their system. When you're in a place for hundreds of years, things get embedded in you. And we have to ask ourselves a very, very deep question. What would it look like in your body if during the day or during the night a person would actually experience being completely completely in the womb so to speak of Hashem completely completely engulfed enveloped by God's essence? What would the anoid mulvado feeling be experienced like in a body? What would it feel like if I didn't only believe it as a map, but I actually experienced it? Now, that's that's not an it's not a question I can answer like this because it's not about educ it's not just about information. It's really about the experience of it. And in the experience of it, they went back to that old paradigm where they were defeated. But why were they defeated? They weren't defeated because Mosha's idea was right. They were defeated because the mazalis also have wars. Nature also has wars. There's so many different forces. It's like two companies can have a war and somebody's going to win. Russia and Ukraine are having a war. Israel is having a war with its enemies. That's how wars work. And you were victorious over the mitzim and the is the way to go. The agel is the way to go. Hold on to another image. Replace the Egyptian image but get another one. It's replacing images for images. It's replacing cures for cures. It's replacing this statue for another statue, this one for another one, but to surrender completely to an infinite truth that's beyond everything that includes everything that they weren't ready for. And here there became a big question. What's going to be now? And here the men and the women really got divided from each other. And in this last piece, the balat asked, what was it about the women? What did they know or experience? Not know, what did they experience that they could reject us? So now let's see the last paragraph and this we're going to finish the last paragraph. The women said no no but if is gone and the fact that is gone means there's another force that's now gone. So now we have to take matters in our own hands. Why not? This has to do with the root of their souls. They come from what's called the world of femininity. What does that mean? The world of femininity is the awareness, the internal awareness that means the kingship of Hashem saturates, it fills, it rules over everything. This is the malus of Hashem that ultimately leads everything including the 70 spiritual ministers and guardians that are responsible for the 70 nations in their souls, in their bodies, in their nervous systems, in their consciousness. They felt that all these constellations and spiritual angels and powers don't have mammish. They don't have substance. That's not where you're going to find your solution. And they felt it more than the men. Why? Because the men's souls come from what's called a masculine world. What is that? for Milo of So fascinating things there's very very briefly he speaks it as the masculine soul is the feminine soul. This doesn't necessarily have to do with every man and woman because every man has a feminine inside feminine have masculinity but it represents two prototypes that we connect to in different ways and it's true in every one of our lives. is true in every man and every woman. But generally speaking, this is called feminine and and and masculine. He says the masculine soul is rooted in God's sublimity. The feminine soul is rooted in God's imminence. In other words, in in in there's two aspects. There's the fact that as much as you grasp, there's always above. Hashem is above above above. We say in Yiddish called the what's means the higher one. Higher than what? than anything. It's the roof and then you go to the roof, it's higher than that. And you go to the heaven, it's higher than that. You go to the heaven on top of it, it's higher than that. And it's always higher, higher, higher. And that's very true. It's higher and higher and higher. There's no definition. Definition is whatever I think it is, it's not that. It's not that. It's ungraspable. It's undefinable. Now, in many ways, that's frustrating. I like to control. I want to own. I want to have it. I want to feel it. I got it. But the source of reality is beyond what I can ever ever control. And that is what requires tremendous surrender. Surrender to that truth. That's one aspect of divinity. There's another aspect of divinity. And that is the opposite. That he's right here. He's imminent. It's the life force that goes through every vein, every cell, every atom, every bone, every senue, my entire circulation. There's nine biological systems. our respiratory system, our urinary system, our digestive system, our circulatory system, all of our systems. It's all divine energy flowing through every rock, every shrub, every bush, every leaf, every worm, every grain of sand, every flake of snow, every droplet of rain, every star, every black hole, every squirrel, elephant, gazelle, deer, beer, if I may. Summer months, months. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. So there's the loftiness, the sublimity, the infinity that's above. There's God above and there's God within. Which are true? They're both Hashem. Hashem. The yamla that men wear is above the head. Above the head. Above the is also above the hand. But it affects the head quite deeply. No. That way I understand. Yeah. Yeah. Much much more. So yeah. Italian word, right? In fact, in Hebrew also you have kipah is a dome. A dome like kipat shamayim is the dome of heaven or the dome of the rock is called kipa. A dome is because a keepa is like a dome a dome on the head. There was they say a story there was a very famous poet in Israel Balik. He was like the the poet po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po poet po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po po poetry la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la laurate of of Israel he died in the 1930s he was a student of valin then he went his own way he was a deep soul so they said that he was once walking in Mayor Shaaram in the 1920s or 30s and he met a kid you know kids traditionally are very smart and sharp so he says I'm looking for a place to k yard site. Where where's your kadesh? They say that this kid looked at him and [Music] said who is that? Where's your yam? Where's your keepa? So he was a poet. So he said look up the whole dome of the heaven is my So he says You don't have such a big head to be able to carry such a big yam. Yeah. Not bad. A kid's wisdom. Yeah. Shami wisdom. I don't know today what's with your shami wisdom. Maybe it's still there. I don't know. But it's traditional wisdom. What's the idea? There's God above and there's God within. Both are very very true. Alma, souls of Alma are rooted in Malus. That's Hashem's presence. Masculinity is rooted in Hashem's aloofness in Hashem's sublimity. The marriage between that's marriage is aloof, sublime, completely segregated. Higher, higher, higher. I can't grasp it. I can't control it. Is feminine is feminine. Is masculine is feminine. Means the whole Yiddish is really the marriage between is complete infinite that I can't grasp. Is permeating and cruising through every single element. So generally masculinity there's a masculine experience of God and a feminine experience of God. The masculine experience of God is very very powerful. It's the loftiness. It's the aloofness. It's the sublimity. The feminine looks for the closeness, the intimacy inside of me. Now, when both are doing their job, it's an unbelievable marriage. Here's the challenge. Here's the challenge. The challenge is when is divorced from it can become detached. So God is above and I can also remain above. Above who? Above myself. And that's why sometimes a person could become removed can become removed from themselves and they can even use God for that because on its own can be detached. It's higher and higher and higher and higher and it has to be higher and in a way I don't want to bring it down and in a way it could remain completely disconnected from me. Femininity is the opposite. It's very much internalization coming in. So he says of it represents the divinity that is lofty hashem what he calls here it's higher it's higher and therefore the ara could manipulate them and say that's not that's not a god thing that's that's not a real thing the women they couldn't get why because they were experiencing it and when you have the experience of it it's a whole different reality don't Now sell me a bridge that the ox got into a fight with the sheep and that's how we got out of Egypt. There's an energetic experience of oneness. There's an energetic experience of regulation. There's an energetic experience of trust that comes into the system. And once that is there, it's in a very very very real. How do I know that I have my arms? That these are my arms because there's a map. Because I'm going to look at my body. Because you feel it, right? How do you know you're sitting on a chair? These are things you feel. Ultimately, that's the most powerful experience. It's the experience of life. The experience of life though, I need to be able to trust. If I had to shut down, I can't trust my experience of life. I have to navigate it through a map. And that's how sometimes people live. They're all they look at the map. Okay, where do I go now? What do I say now? What do I feel now? But that's not life. That's living from a map. A map is beautiful if you're there. If you're not there, you can't live with a map. I can't go to Peru or Alaska or Thailand or Russia or even Muny with a map doesn't work. But some of us live with maps because I'm living in my brain. I'm living detached. Okay, what do I feel now? What do I tell my wife now? What do I tell my kids now? What hap what about you? Oh, I don't know about me. That me was shut down. That's what happens when there's no when there's no no connection. I should just add this and this is a very sensitive point. When Shina gets abused though, when Shina gets abused, it can sometimes be even much worse because it violates something so so deep, something so so so trusting because the feminine soul is is protecting the God that's in in inside the world. It needs so much protection. It could be so so vulnerable. So when the cliper gets to it, sometimes the breaking can happen even in a more devastating way because it's so manifested, because it's so present. When someone is a little aloof, even when they're broken, sometimes it's easier to come back when they come back. When somebody's completely present and they're broken, sometimes the shattering can be far far more sensitive. It's just important to understand that. So in the in in in the real idea of the marriage of which is then reflected in the marriage of man and woman, it's really these two elements. That's why the woman the girl even before marriage doesn't wear a yam. Why not? Ayam comes from two words. is fear of God. So shouldn't have. The answer of course is the same reason that women don't have an aliyah. Why shouldn't they have an Ali? The word aliyah means come up. When you're talking about he's above you, you come up. When you talk about the yam is not on top of you. The yam is inside of you. It's a different type of yam. The yamaka is inside the person. Aliyah means I'm being elevated to come up to something higher. The idea of is you're not being elevated. That is you. It permeates every aspect where you are right now. And that's the difference between the sun and the moon. The secular calendar is based on the sun, the Roman calendar. The Jews on the moon. Now the sun is much more powerful than the moon. The entire light of the moon is only a reflection of the sun. The sun is also much closer to us. You can't even compare. The sun is so the moon. The moon is so much closer to us than the sun. So the sun is more distant. The sun is more powerful. The sun is so much larger than the moon. And the sun is the source of the light of the moon. So why are we counting on the moon? We should count the sun. The answer is it's our conception of God. They said Hashem is like the sun far far far far removed. Full of light but far removed. The moon is actually much more tangible. Man land. It's interesting he says this because man actually landed on the moon. When this was said they didn't know that but man actually touched the moon. No man ever landed on the sun. And I guarantee you, even with artificial intelligence, we're not getting to the sun so fast because if you get close, you become French toast or American toast. And even toast you can eat. This is not a toast that you can eat. You got my joke. Okay. Thank you. You come to the moon, you got to know what you're doing, but you're not becoming French toast. So the moon is accessible. It's fascinating. He says this in the mime that the moon represents closeness. The the the sun is power, but it's so distant. They want to put Hashem into the sun. If he's a son, he's big. He's powerful. He's infinite. is the source of everything. But connected to me, connected to my nervous system, I should have a relationship right here, right now. What's happening in the morning? I'm drinking a cup of water. I have this task. I'm doing the laundry. I'm running a house. I'm running a business. I'm going shopping. I'm dealing with this stressful thing with this joyous thing. What does that have to do with an Mad? Give me a break. Soon you're going to tell me that the sun is living in my dining room. I'm in my living room and helping me in the kitchen. Come on, give me a break. The moon is much closer to home, but the Jewish calendar follows the moon. But it's interesting, we don't cut out the sun. The leap year creates a synchronization between the sun and the moon because it's not the sun or the moon. It's really the unity. The ara made that uni made that that that distinction. The men fell for it because it fed a spirituality that was there and was not completely healed yet. The women because of their experience of it, it was already out. It was out of the system. I'm not giving my jewelry to build a calf that's going to defeat the the the lamb which is the reason we left mitzim and going back into that paradigm and as a result of that we count the moon. So now we finish off so then we understand what kesh is. So now this is the last piece. One, two, three. Uh uh. One, one, two, three, four, five. Five lines from the bottom at the end of the line. Women are rooted in malus. What's imminence? It's the leadership of the world. So therefore they reflect the moon. And here I'm just going to translate what it says. Everybody will understand it much better than I. And just like the moon waxes on wanes every single month. So you'll see that God made that also in femininity that every month reflects the moon. So the vest is the cycle of women is basically every single month. Exactly. The pattern of the moon, the moon has the time. It gets greater, greater, greater, wholesome and then the moon begins to wne. And this is the process of nida and then tum and then again sanctity and mikvah and so forth because essentially their experience of God is not above change. It's in change. And that's a very big difference. Some people say Hashem is one. He's above change. He doesn't change. He doesn't have cycles. He doesn't wax and wayne. Come on. Don't insult God. The son is stability. The sun is never in a bad mood, right? Never. Is he? There's clouds, but the sun there. He's doing for thousands of years, right? The moon, you don't know where the moon is. Suddenly, the moon is smiling. Then the moon completely disappears. The moon like, I'm I'm done. I'm finished. I'm quitting. I'm never showing up again. For two days, you don't see the moon. And then suddenly, oh, you're back. Shalom. Shalom. Don't worry. I'm going back into hiding. Just give me a couple of days. Isaiah. How? How do we relate those parts of us to God? In fact, you're familiar that the word forugan in English is a lunatic. You know why? You know why? Because the lunar cycle versus the solar cycle. I'm serious. Yeah. Because I don't know this applies to women more than men. Probably a lot more women. Whatever. But you get the point. The the the sun has a stability. Also in astronomy, the cycle of the sun is much more clear. The cycle of the moon simply is very complicated. It's like one of these super duper looper roller coasters in amusement park. These cyclones I don't know if you remember when you got noases for like a year. You remember those? That's how the moon goes. It says in it says in we say today in doning the sun knows its pathway. So the garra says the moon doesn't know its pathways. The moon is always confused to be moody. Huh? Oh yeah. So, so, so literally, so lunacy, lunacy in English is what's lunacy? What's lunatic? It's basically that confusion. So, that's the question. Is God in those spaces? Not is God only in my normaly or also in my lunacy? That's that's the question. If you say Hashem is above, higher, higher, higher, what are you even beginning over there? Just transcendent. The of malus is no is the moon. The moon means it goes through everything. You work through you have to work through everything in the world. I'm not detached. I'm not above. Huh? Amuna. Very good. Amuna. The moon. Very good. And the amuna comes down into. So yeah, there's moments that I'm feeling on top of the world. There's moments I'm feeling on bottom of the world. There's moments I'm visible. There's moments I want to be invisible. There's moments I'm present and there's moments I'm doubting my entire presence. I wax and wayne until the point that the moon could become eclipsed. Yeah. Exactly. The tides of the oceans are controlled by the moon. And exa, it's exactly this. What's the tide, right? Sar it's up and then boom, crash. Whoa. Gone. It's like, okay, so we think he's gone. No, no, no. It's coming back. Don't worry. I'm invisible, but it didn't disappear. And that's the power of the moon. The moon, you look, it's gone. So you think, oh, you could say kadesh. No, no, no. A day later, two days later, it's reborn. And the rebirth creates a whole new process. Yeah. The surfer stays safe. Very good. And the surfers, the professional surfers in Nicaragua or Kazml after Peru is Kazamel. Salvador. Yeah. So the the the great surfers know that the key is you got to navigate the tide and ride the wave rather than fight the wave. Fighting the wave is I'm stronger than you. And that's really the idea of the a rav. It's like who's going to win in nature? It's me against nature, nature against me. And now you have to make teams like color war. So all of life is a color war. You know, could be color war between husbands and wives, color wars between in-laws and and sons-in-laws and daughters-in-law, color war in families, color war communities. It's always color war. And who do I have on my team? And who the moment I'm in that space, I'm in the space of that's a space of a des. The space of truth is a space always of oneness. Aid mulvad means there's no color war. There's no war. It's a space of oneness. Space of oneness. I can't fool. I can I can't. This is not an idea. When the body, when the nervous system experiences that oneness, it's a different state. The first ones who will know it is your children. They'll probably know it even before you because they're tuned into the subconscious. It's a presence. You can't forge it. I can't forge it. I could forge it for a few minutes to myself. That's the experience of it. not in an abstract way but in a very very very deep energetic way. For this I have to have the courage to open myself up to vulnerability because if I'm not vulnerable to change I'm not v I'm not a capable of experience. The reason people shut down is because they're not vulnerable to change because of the pain. I don't want to wayne. I don't want to disappear. I don't want to die. I don't want my tie to go down. I'm not ready for that. And because I'm not ready for that, I shut off that part of self and I could remain stable. But this stability is really just covering up a terrible, terrible predicament that I'm not ready to touch life because it's very scary to touch life. To touch life means life touches me. It's not one way. If life touches me, it means I'm open. I'm vulnerable. Things go in in a very deep place. That's the power of the moon. That's the presence of Hashem in the Levana. That's the idea of the month that there are ups and downs. There are cycles and changes and it's all part of that oneness and therefore h the moon is so predictable. That's true. That's true because really it is predictable because ultimately even the changes are part of oneness. Okay. So now let's go the last line. So what does he say at the end? Two minutes. So they were not accepting what the adv said like the men did. The men who come from a masculine world they somehow it could resonate with them. That detachment worked. It worked and because of the trauma of Egypt, it got resurrected and it came back to them. So they fell for it. But the women whose souls come from a different space. They just it didn't go into them. It didn't they didn't accept it. of and therefore the holiday of which is the holiday of the moon. It's not the holiday of the sun. Nothing happens to the sunsh and it's the time that the sun the moon comes back to its source. And when this moon is most invisible, it's really because it's uniting with its source. So what the kesh teaches us is that even when the moon is invisible, it looks like the moon is in a depression. It's actually not in a depression. It's going back to its source and therefore it's becoming invisible. That means in a person's life when I go through a moment where I could seem invisible, it's really an opportunity to go back to my source and get a new awareness and a new energy. I have to be reborn. So every crisis is really an opportunity. Every challenge is an invitation for rebirth. That's what Kaidesh is telling you. So because that is what happens in so that's why Hashem gave this to the women even more than the men even though it's a men even though we asked in the beginning it's a mitzvah is all about time but on the contrary is the source of time it's the source of all the change. In other words, what what he's saying is something very profound. The woman doesn't have to celebrate the mitzvah of time because she is time. She represents time itself. The mitzvah in time are there to sanctify time for the man to know. Don't be afraid of movement. Don't be afraid of change. There's mitzvah in time. You're sanctifying time. Morning, nightish in the morningish every time. But the woman is time itself. That is time. It's the divine flowing through time. It's it's the time itself. It's the time is all about change, right? Time goes and goes and goes. The the the last second is gone. It's gone. Boom. Next, next, next. It's all about It's all about being in flow. It's all about being in flux. It's all about being in flow. Change change. And that change is the source of that's the source of that's the is the source of of past, of present, of future all in one because it's beyond time. So past, present, future are all one. How could past and future be one? Only in a place of which is it comes down and manifested. So there's past, there's present, there's future, there's the beginning of the month, there's the middle of the month, there's the next of the month, but all of it as we say there's knowledge that's means in your heart. The heart means that I could feel it physically. That means it's in my body because the nervous system translates it from the mind. It's the bridge between the mind and the body. And then it's have a beautiful day, a good and a wonderful week. See you next week 9:30 a.m. Beder. Have a beautiful week. Thank you for coming. Thank you. Thank you. Beautiful. I think every Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Maz, I thought you were going to movie to Florida. No. Oh, should be with Matlas. I'm planning on we had very honored guests Chabas. I know. I in show they came. Yeah, that was so nice. Thank you. Thank you for coming. Yeah. Excited about your mother. Yes. They bring together. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's an honor. And your son-in-law gave us a speech. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Thank you, Rabbi. Oh. Okay. Beautiful. You could watch the replay. You could watch the video. Okay. Okay. Should be with the beautiful thing, the replay you could watch on double speed half the time. Okay. Thank you for coming. [Music] Good. A good summer. Yeah. They're going to Miami. Beautiful. Do you know any of Miami? I don't know where. Miami. Coral Gables. There probably is. I I have to look up, but I'm sure there is. Yeah. Beautiful. Should be with a lot of safe journey and a comfortable settlement. Yeah. Okay. Maz. Yeah.