Stop Arguing with Your Racing Brain - Maamar Ani Ledodi 5712 #1

the yeshiva.net we begin today a new discussion a new topic a new mimer in exodus as you can open it up you'll see on the top it says basal mahdal hey tough base this is a a mimer a hasidic discourse that was delivered by the lubavitcher rebbe during the fabregan of shabbos parishes the last shabbos of the month of of which was shabbos mavarkham of elo of the year tough shannon base which would of course be the summer of 1952. we the last few weeks we've been learning the mimer of the previous fabregan which was shabbos parish's mata is masai tafshinyard base the whole moment about murder shvika's domin spilling blood and a person running away into the ari miklet into the cities of refuge and other mauritian with the eight sadas and everything connected to uh the two types of lives the real life the fake life the life that tries to make believe it's real and the life that has true essential substance that was the theme of the previous mimer which was the previous fabrian shabbos matas massimo varkum of so now we learn the next one which is which is shabbos parties for eight of chinese base which is of course also connected to this time of the year really to give a just a very brief introduction of a few sentences this is really a a mimer that allows us to appreciate some aspects of what real darwining is as you know davening prayer is something that is so essential to judaism the fact that we do it three times a day and yet very often darwining is very hard for us for many people it's just seeing as an exercise in boredom monotony or just something you know you do by rote and get it over with even those who are not doing it by wrote but they often you know on an honest moment i'll tell you it's it seems repetitive and boring and you know is it really meaningful is it really significant what are we supposed to make of it what is supposed to happen during davening you know what have you done in the mood of davening every single day and how many praises does hashem want to hear from us and constantly you know different types of questions that come up concerning davening in a very at a very young age here i think this mimer will give each of us a a an ability a possibility to be able to enter into the world of davaning and see it from more wholesome and more soulful deeper perspective intellectually and emotionally and psychologically and spiritually and realize how it's really the daily exercise the daily battle for for transcendence for truth in a person's life reminder doesn't right away get into davening there's a few introductions as usual you know you lay out the pieces and build the foundations and then on it he goes to the next piece but i'm just giving this very general a theme that we're going to be addressing let's start inside it starts off with apostate very famous passage that's connected to uh to this time of the year the end of of the beginning of ello we're getting uh not yet the end of of but you know getting closer to the second half of of it's a little bit of a longer mimer so next week is partially ace i thought we'll start this week so hopefully we'll finish around that time thank you so he starts off with apostate hashirim the posik is well known anila day divided this is from hashirim gimmel that's the song of songs chapter 6 verse 3. and just to give it context we all know that shihashidim is that unique say for the chloe mahmoud wrote that really covers the deep search and love and relationship between deity there's the lover and the beloved this young boy and this young girl who he's a shepherd and he meets her in the field one day and they develop this connection and the whole shira hashirim revolves around the search for the relationship and this relationship is filled with obstacles everyone is trying to ruin it and they themselves sometimes undermine it and the whole sherhashirim is different scenes different encounters different phases in their encounters chapter six begins with a search it starts over these words and i'm going to quote so we get the context where has your beloved gone where has your beloved gone oh most beautiful of woman where has your beloved went to let's search for him together with you that's the question that they ask they turn to the woman to the to the bride to the young woman where is this dej let's go search for him where is he so she says my beloved descended into the garden to the rows of fragrant flowers he went to shepherd in the gardens and to pluck roses that's where my beloved went and she continues i am to my beloved my beloved is connected to me the one who shepherds who grazes among the roses among the rose-like pastures that's the passage and then the groom starts talking about his bride about the young girl you know jaffe atrayosi novice how my love is so beautiful and he begins describing you know different aspects of her life of her countenance of her of her demeanor of her organism etc so this is all it's it's deep and it's metaphoric so these are the words that we focus on i am committed i am connected i am in love with my deity and my deity is connected to me d is like the word he did you did is a friend like a best friend in hebrew today we call deuteronomy really is a connection of of deep friendship camaraderie affection love and it's haryaba she says so there's a well-known idea it comes from the arizona it says it says in the bach the bias that it's the acronym of the words is ten so four times you is forty that represents forty days beginning with alol kippur which is thirty days of ello and ten days of tish is you can ask something is strange the acronym of the opening letters is the month of ellu the last letters represents another 10 days tilliam kipper when did you get another 10 days he says because himkipper is the ultimate atonement and forgiveness which happens through the void of chuva throughout the month of day this means both the opening letters and the last letters of this verse capture or they intimate the month of allah was of course written so long ago but in total you have codes and muslim intimations of all aspects of jewish life especially that the month of elul and the concept of allah already began in the time of mashirabenu so even though the pasik is talking about our relationship but in that passage the the mercobalum in the middle ages saw this as a ram as for elo avoided now the main avoider of ellu which is connected to chuva is always about ascending literally means from below lamina to a higher place it's about human growth if that's why the order is i am to d and the idea is to me the el menachev earlier this is from chapter 6. if you go back to chapter 2 there's another expression in shirashidum chapter two possible in chapter two verse sixteen over there the expression is but basically she's saying my beloved is mine he belongs to me and i belong to him the one who grazes among the roses here the expression is the opposite not doidy leave an eloy but any lady what's the difference the difference is who's initiating the connection sometimes the connection is being initiated from my knee from me and sometimes the connection is being initiated from deity just like we know in relationships sometimes you initiate it you're striving for it you're running after it you're pursuing it and sometimes no you actually could be apathetic and indifferent you may actually be living in in a narrow orbit but rather the other one the one who is crazy over you the one who cherishes you so much that persists they believe in you even when you don't believe in yourself so there's two different phases in life there's anila dividing that's in paraguav earlier in periodic basis they both finished the same harajuku what's the difference so the mymus says the difference is first and then i respond i cannot refuse and stubbornly abandon and be indifferent to such a powerful opportunity in zoya there's an expression in cerusa meaning an arousal from above and an arousal from below both get inspired but who begins the process daily is the arousal the inspiration comes from above exactly it's not this iris the arousal the awakening doesn't begin above it begins below anila deity i reach out i am committed to you and therefore there is reciprocity always the question is and remember these words does it begin with is de la elah because i begin with arusa de la sata two different experiences in life one is i'm sitting on the couch or i'm doing my own thing in different ways however you want to describe your own thing but there is something that is inspiring me something that is intriguing me something that is arousing me something that is awakening me even though i am my own left to my own devices i would be forlorn and that is what gets me and then there's sometimes the opposite serusa de la sata i'm actually the ambitious one in the relationship i'm pursuing it the person growing the person traveling upward he never see him if it's when the person feels that internal desire and yearning to to to to change to work on themselves as we will explain at length this is just the you know the laying out some of the main points the end of the passage is who is this he grazes he shepherds among the roses literally it's referring to my daddy the cavanagh divided seems strange i am committed to the i love my beloved my beloved loves me too afterwards and then we start talking about the fact that he's a shepherd and he grazes his flock among roses okay it seems like is this what's the point here what is this puzzle trying to add what's the what's the sequence love in the pirate the way it's explained sometimes represents that there is a heavenly power that's given to me what does it mean he grazes or he shepherds among the roses it means he takes care of his flock he doesn't just take his flock you know to to places with his uh this poor nutrition no he takes them to the best he gives his son he gives his herds on them he wants them to get the best nutrients he wants them to pasture to pasture among the roses among the beauty among the fragrant flowers where the the the sheep can feel taken care of that's haray bishon spiritually what does this mean means he takes care of his flock he wants his flock to have roses so this represents that deutsche lee he takes care he wants the flock to be able to be among roses giving them the best opportunities giving them a power for the best life vitsaraklav but here we really have to understand because there's a subtle contradiction if you're telling me dividing is about the initiation the tr the arousal the awakening that comes from below it's not the one that starts above it starts with me it starts with anila day the haryaba shashanam is actually saying no he is the one who is empowering the flock grazing the flock among great shepherding the flock among the roses which represents the fact that he is the one who is giving them the kayak giving them the energy giving them the strength awakening them showing them how powerful this relationship can be um from here you see that even with the arousal from below you also need power from above you also need encouragement and strength from above it's not completely from the person we have to understand what exactly is this so then everything is a cerusa in other words what is really the distinction if you're telling me that even anila divided the shashanam you need a shepherd to take care of the shephelah so then ultimately what's the difference between the sarasota he shepherds his flag among the roses we find generally two interpretations pirish olive one is this is the introduction of the whole zoya is betrayed the zodiac says that the rose has 13 petals we know it as the 13 petaled rose there are the roses that have 13 petals says the zoya just like the rose has 13 petals 13 leaves knesses israel also has 13 chambers of compassion that encompass it from all sides just like the petals of the rose you have the stem of the rose and then you have all of the petals surrounding it the necessity is also a 13 petaled rose and this is known as the 13 attributes of compassion that's the explanation of desire what's the significance of shepherding among the roses he shepherds us among the roses in other words we are encompassed like the rose by thirteen petals or pittage base is another interpretation also from zayar and it's also in gemara through which we expound the turtle every morning right before the avening before he do we say rabbi shmalloy remember there are 13 methods through which we expound on torah this is the formula that martial gave the jewish people through which we can deduce all of the torah because the text of the tithe is limited in the sense that it only addresses certain situations and even there or even those situations very briefly so how do we apply to all different situations in life that will spring up throughout history you have a text but a text by definition is a limited text it may contain guidelines and blueprints and directives for thousands of years for eternity but you have to know how to unravel the text how to use this text as a source for a legal question or another type of question in subsequent years so this is where the middles come in mushroom who gave the jewish people not only the text of khumash he also gave them the formula of how to learn how to deduce how to unravel the text how to excavate the text how to deduce from the text the applied laws in different situations and circumstances that have not been addressed explicitly in the text or even new situations that will come up that couldn't have been addressed in the text because they weren't part of that period that milieu of history these are called the schleiches remedies and we go through them every single day it's from tyrus kayanim the beginning of taraskin which is the main madrid on safa vayikra and it begins with this call of duchy murders xavier shoved his binyanov this cloud of pratis prata klau right you remember davosa these 13 formulas as you can imagine are loaded meaning they really capture the formula the methodology of how to learn so the rabbit says these are the two shayshannams there are two 13s there's the gimmel midas the 13 petaled rose the 13 attributes of compassion that's one dimension of the rose and then there's another dimension of the roses shall i shannon from the word cheshire because the toy is also comprised of these 13 the 13 petaled roles and of course as you can probably guess the you'd gimmel midday tyraniddresh's band parallel gimbal with the sarah you say what in the world is the connection between 13 attributes of compassion and 13 methods of learning but they really parallel each other the shallow even writes that the thirteen principles of faith the rambam famously gave us the thirteen animals the uddimul ikarim the thirteen fundamentals of jewish faith many people say that anima every day goes through all the thirteen it's also a reflection of these thirteen midas rakhim and thirteen middle shattered rashes ban and it's interesting it's called gimmel middle shattering even though it's not middays it's not emotions it's intellectual formulas it's the methodology of how to learn today of how the sages can really interpret it but it's called midis which means measurements there's a beautiful vart from the nayama melech of legends listen to this he says only somebody who cultivated the thirteen midos in their life this is a person who can expound on tyra hatharin in other words somebody who has mastered in their life all of these 13 attributes of compassion is actually passive it's a passive expression when you have these 13 minutes the torah darshan sir now the person is has that ability to be able to that toyota flows from them that the energy that comes from their soul can actually be the energy of toyota so these are the two interpretations in the shashanam in the roses these two roads of represent the two pillars of today and prayer the 13 petaled rose representing the 13 attributes of compassion that's part of the tfilo that's part of davening it's the essential component of davening the second idea of the rose from the word trishanim has been this is obviously the world of toyota of learning nymphs if so we now come to the next layer of understanding the passage i am committed to my beloved video my beloved is connected to me heroic he gazes his shepherd he gay he grazes and shepherds his flock among the roses this is both the divine empowerment for today and the divine empowerment for filler the two interpretations in shashanam and only through the royal bishop can there be divided explain all of this what are we talking about this is all just the facts so to speak you know the setup what is the explanation in this video avoid the delay avoid the moment of avoidance judaism is really based on these two pillars there's toyota and this filler they're not just two different things you do you daven and you learn that's of course the basic idea of it but taylor and phil represent two dimensions of life two paths in life there is avoider that's means i begin on the bottom so to speak and i climb the ladder upward mil mila lamata is the opposite it's a flow from higher downward it begins on top of the ladder and it flows it descends downward represents an energy that comes from above and descends below represents an energy that begins below and ascends upward now what does this mean it sounds like semantics you begin above and you descend downward you begin below and you ascend upward what does this really mean what does it mean so first he speaks briefly about tara and then the rest of the nightmare is focused very specifically and in nuance the time we got the toyota it's called matante it's not called the yum tif of cabola satiris the yamativ of isman matan hashem gave the traitor it represents a gift from above that was not initiated by the work of those who did it which is like a gift you give me a gift a gift is not a wage a gift is a bonus it's a special gesture in other words it's a mutton tita it's a mature it's something that's not coming from the one who received the gift it's a gift when the jews were in egypt they were submerged in the 49 gates of impurity as the tell us and he says in yiddish he said it all in your dish but this is written in yiddish because of the the flavor of yiddish as even though the jews left egypt and they ran it says the jewish people ran you remember we discussed this at length before pesach and we learned then the matzah zootop rich i am based from the shop we discussed the idea that they ran they fled in other words what does it mean they fled fleeting means that if you don't run away you get stuck i can't walk i have to run why do i have to run because if i walk slowly i may never leave i have to actually run away you say i ran out of the situation i ran out of the house why'd i have to run out of the house because if i would stay there it could be very dangerous i ran out of this toxic relationship i ran out of this deal i ran away from this place because it's a dangerous place to be in even another minute if you stay you may stay forever so you have to run so the jewish people to their credit ran away from islam what does this mean it means irrelevant of their situation they did not allow themselves to become entangled with means you get into a debate you say this i say this you say this and this happens in our mind you ever do this your mind starts giving you a thought and you start arguing with the mind the worst thing that's exactly what your toxic thoughts want you to do get into an argument with me you know why because your toxicity doesn't even have to win it just wants to keep you in the loop of this debate you never know what i'm talking about something happens in the morning and your mind starts racing and giving you thoughts and ideas so you start arguing with it no it's not true no it is true no it's not true and then you start bringing statistics and you start bringing proofs and the toxicity is loving every minute because the main thing is you're schlepped down your energy is now depleted and you're now in this hide and seek game you know you're busy in this orbit arguing if it's true or not true the whole argument is just here to get you stuck this is not an argument coming from a place of empowerment we think we're going to convince our toxic our toxic voices that we're right and therefore it's going to let you let you uh be alone that's going to you know leave you alone it's the other way around so what's ki baracham sorry i can't engage you i see you i observe you but i really can't engage you now this isn't it's not gonna work that way and it's not easy to do because mitsurayam lures you win come on come on let's talk for another few minutes this is one of the first steps of real spiritual growth and each one of us has it in our own life i mean you have to find this in your own life but it's probably not so hard to find in your life let's say something will happen in my life and i will perceive it as a failure and i'll feel very bad about it and the brain does not stop talking about it the thoughts say uh so you failed you failed you failed and then no wasn't so bad no it was pretty bad no it wasn't so bad no was pretty bad no i'm more mature it doesn't mean these things don't really affect me oh oh they do they do you were a real failure oh why am i even doing this type of work yeah because you're an idiot no i'm not touching it yet oh but somebody just sent me a text it's a nice compliment also i'm not in no what does that person know that person is also an idiot do you know how the brain does this you could sit like this for two hours you could sit like this for five hours you could sit like this your whole life you're in an argument with para you're an argument with mitsuha mitsrayam is addiction mitzrayim is confinements mitzrayim keeps you stuck what do you have to do ki varakam if you don't run away from egypt because you're a perfect guy you run away from egypt despite that you're imperfect despite that a part of you never ran away because if a part of you because if all of you would be out of it you wouldn't have to run you could walk the reason i have to run is because a part of me is not ready to leave because a part of me is toxic of the time of the situation do not get entangled with your situation no debates sorry i'll debate those who want to see my success i will not debate those who just want to keep me in a debate for eternity in order to paralyze me i'm happy to debate if there's going to be a resolution to the debate in an hour but if this debate is going to go on for the next 99 years sorry i don't have time to show up i got a life to live and a world to change that's the key if you're having an argument with your mind that's going to be solved in a half an hour no problem but those are not the arguments you're having those arguments is there's a thought like this there's a thought like this there's different perspectives let's figure it out and we'll learn for the next time you know sometimes a business meeting people meet they discuss something that happened and the focus is the future what do we learn from this how do we make men's how we go that's fine that's fine but when the purpose of the debate is not the resolution the purpose of debate is that your mind does not want to give you peace there are voices in me that want to keep me lured into this orbit i should remain here i should never be able to flex my muscles and get out now you have to run away and this is represented by the jewish people it says they ran from egypt because the obvious question is they didn't have to run para gave them permission the shot is even if pirate gave them permission they still had to run because there was a little power inside of them and when there's a little para inside of me as fast as i run para is running with me and because he's running with me therefore i have to run because there's a part in me that wants to keep me trapped and confined in the mate sarim of mitzrayim even though there was toxicity in full intensity they still had the courage to run back and then there were fifty one days till martin titus for the same and this is no one this is known as the era of syria every year 49 days is because the jews were counting the days from leaving egypt until har sinai till matantaya moving this means even the first year there was that voider they were looking forward they were anticipating so why do you say it was just a gift from above and it didn't have to do with their own avoider it was something that came from above that's not true they ran away from egypt they have to run away from power this was an active decision that was emotional and psychological and spiritual and then they counted 49 days which means they were growing into it they were preparing for it they were anticipating it says that's all true it's still called matan not kabbalah after all their work martin taylor is defined as a gift who is because what they got at matantera was something that was completely not comparable with what they put in this video they did work they did a lot of work they ran from egypt no small feat they prepared for 49 days which we call spherocymer no small feet but from this work you cannot reach in 40 in 51 days you cannot transform yourself from being submerged in 49 gates of impurity to a revelation of matantero hashem comes down on arsenal and says face to face i am your god so therefore to say that the avoider of spheres of kibara is what brought matantar it's like when i put in my work and i get a wage for what i did here the wage is completely transcendent way and above the work that they put in it's a completely different experience completely from above so after all the work i put in it was not possible that in such a period of time there should be such a metamorphosis to be able to say ah now we are really ready and open for matantara that's why we call it means to jump to leap over leap over why is that the name it's a strange name basic leap over jump hashem jumped over the doors like what's the concept here the concept is there's something called walking which is gradual growth we call it incremental growth step by step by step you know you're climbing a mountain you go on a hike and you're climbing you go step by step by step and it gets steeper and it gets harder and ultimately you come to the top there's a concept called leaping leaping means i leap over a huge spaces geographical spaces or spans of time that usually incremental growth would require much much more time much more mental work to be able to get to the top of the mountain but here there was a leap that in 47 weeks a nation of slaves who for hundreds of years were not independent people they were slaves on every level physically and emotionally and psychologically they were completely submerged in the life of slavery with tremendous persecution to the point that they their whole freedom was taken from them and in such a short period of time they should be able to stand at the mountain and experience not just see experience the divine revelation of hashem this is not something that you could say is a wage that came as a result of my work as much as i put in the work there was something here that was absolutely fantastic a nuclear revelation completely beyond the capacity of the human to deserve it through his or her efforts um that's why we call it at the end of the days it remains a gift what we're saying here is that the concept of turner is one that comes from above and it descends downward but it's essentially something that begins above the terror boyfriend called the concept of toyota is god communicating his infinite wisdom and truth to the person irrelevant where the person is irrelevant where they're spaces what does it mean to learn just that this is true by martin taylor the first year it's true about tita throughout history what does it mean to learn taida it's irrelevant where i'm standing in life today is actually god speaking to me that's what it is that's what that's how jews understood the concept of terror when i'm learning hashem is communicating to me how much do i hear oh different people are in different spaces some people have a lot of static some people's antennas are more fine-tuned and they can absorb it we all know you can hear the same shear a year earlier and a year later you heard a different shear why there was less static you can hear things more you can absorb absorb things more so today is really divine communication it's divine wisdom wherever you are in the world wherever i am it's really inviting me into a relationship even if i am just idle and undeserving and really in not such a good space toyota is god cheering his truth that's what it is it's literally reaching out it's the hand that reaches out mill mila from upward and it goes downward and the toyota as we know has descended because the trader deals a lot with the toyota's divine wisdom but it's manifested in material ideas how most relate to material world whether it's money or it's grain or it's or it's wool or it's wood any aspect of alaka and sometimes the toyota will discuss lies you'll discuss ruben and shimon come to court they're having a disputation about a thousand dollars ruben says this german says this one of them must be lying how do we figure out who's the liar do we make an oath are the witnesses is there amigui so the title is dealing with the nitty-gritty of human corruption still any level it addresses even when it addresses lies and deceptions tata brings in a bittle it it's the divine perspective on the situation in other words the torah never it talks about corruption but it never becomes entangled in corruption it remains pure lawyers and in a way that it doesn't consider we're the person below is therefore wherever it arrives it introduces that bitter that complete pure godly perspective kamehameha in yuma that the jews didn't have to go to the bathroom when they ate them on why the food its nutritious value and quality was throughout there was no part of it that had to be separated and ejected from the human system usually when we eat food bred from earth there is the part that could be converted into the bloodstream this is the part that's converted into glucose this is the part that's converted into fat and then there's the part the body says i have found no nutritious value and therefore i have to eject it this is called the soilless the leftover is the dirt and that's why the person has to move their bowels that's the system the ribonucleon created for humans for animals for living organisms the man was bred from heaven it has no soil but one second i'm eating it and my body is taking it apart and my body is digesting it but it still remains heavenly bread even though it becomes human bread human father and the human in some ways is an animal nonetheless the man retained its pristine qualities even when it was digested by a person toyota is a metaphor for that because the generation that received the thai was the generation that ate the man the gamora it's divine energy it remains pristine it can go down it can descend it can be digested by people and it could be discussing corruption much of the gemara much of allah deals with lies with deceptions with delusions with trickery with civil strife but the toyota doesn't assume the dirt of the corruption why it remains heavenly breath because it's the divine perspective on life it's wearing those glasses that are immune to the corruption even though i could see everything and i'm talking about i'm even telling you how to deal with it from perspective but the toyota remains untouchable it remains pristine even as it comes down so what do we mean is not just that it you know came down on a ladder it started upwards it means it always remains above even when it comes down that's what it is toyota is god inviting you to his classroom you want to hear my lecture come here you may be able to hear it you may not be able to hear it you may be too toxic to hear anything you may be too confused you may be too bewildered but wherever you are you could listen and even if you're not going to get it today you may get it tomorrow and even if you're in a difficult place you're hearing words that are not defined by your condition rather they are defining your condition that's what it is that's the gift of title the gift of thriller is the exact opposite the gift of twill is all about your condition the exact opposite is hashem invites you into his classroom look you could listen we'll talk about everything i'll talk about where you are now also but i'm not going to get entangled by you it never gets defined by you you don't define it it defines you it's the idea of thrill is the exact opposite the idea of toyota is and even when it comes down lamata it remains lyla it remains pristine it never gets dirty it never gets corrupt it never gets silence there are people that can use toyota in a wrong way but that's already their own manipulation of it but the toyota itself remains pristine the gemara says in bronchus of base toyota is not makable tomb it's like fire i like quite variace phil is the exact opposite tv is i bring in my my stuff my baggage phil is the exact opposite of toilet fillers phil is i'm the one who's who's presenting which one is more important each one is indispensable to life there's opportunity in life to be able to hear truth wherever you are just to hear truth you'll get it you won't get it you're mixed up you're confused you're abused you're traumatized okay you'll get a little bit but you hear it you get to hear truth you get to see a sunrise and a sunset even if you're busy even if you're not in the space where you can appreciate it but you get to see heaven you get exposed to a truth that transcends you that is very healthy it's very vital in life that's tighter mila la mata and it remains lamila it opens you up to the world of lamila to the divine lenses on the world that's what tight is exposure to god's lenses tfila we're gonna seize the exact opposite notion phil is god says now let me hear what you have to say what's going on in you phil is where i bring in my issues my limits the more vulnerable the better the more messy the better because the more real i don't mean the more messy you are the more better it is i mean the more messy the more real a therapist once told me [Music] i asked him do you know in the first session if it's going to be successful or not so he said something very deep he said if the patient has the answers in the first session if he knows too much about his life if he has it figured out it's not a good sign if he's all over the place it's a complete mess it's a pretty good sign because it's not controlled so it's two very opposite notions as we will see in the continuation of the mimer which we will resume hashem thursday 7 30 a.m i'm going to take a few questions now somebody is quoting here from lakuta toyota parishes that sri saiyan was a cerusa sata yes that's true but that's what this mimer is saying as much avoided that there was in spherosauemer to say that in seven short weeks between pesach and schwa's jews were ready for matantara and that matantoro was like a wage that i earned through my labor that's not the case ultimately there was something so beyond them that as much work as they put it which is important and vital because without that work they couldn't have even been present you have to put in work even for toyota you got to show up god could lecture all day if you don't show up you won't get anything i have to show up i have to remove myself from some static but as much as i remove from myself i'm not really deserving of this type of revelation meaning i'm not there yet not deserving in the sense that he wants to give it to you you're wonderful but it means i'm not deserving meaning it's beyond me i would have never reached it with my own caleb with my own brain power i would have never reached this truth what is how do you know how do you know you're learning real tater how do you know you're learning real title how do you know you're sitting at a real teacher of toyota how do you know the message is a real message of turner this is always the principle the principle always the cardinal principle is i hear something or i read something and i know that i didn't deserve to hear this i didn't deserve it what do i mean i didn't deserve it it was something that it's something beyond me it's something that transcends me it's something that i say wow this is a gift if not i didn't get the title of it it's not just i worked hard i worked out okay i came up with this idea i came up with this idea when are you touching toyota it's man it's heavenly bread and i'm like wow that was a gift that was a divine revelation that's what toyota is on every level that's what it is now i know some of you don't know what i'm talking about i know that [Laughter] but you'll understand one day you'll understand just listen that's the point you have to listen you have to show up show up you want it you know what people people come to a sheer they want to understand everything they wanted to change their lives it's not tighter you have to show up you have to listen sometimes it's good to listen and not understand the word better than understanding because understanding means you probably didn't understand and not understanding at least you understood you understood enough that you didn't understand when i understand sometimes it's the worst thing because i reduced it to my own limited experience which is probably not even true i took heavenly bread and i turned it into carbs if it remains heavenly bread there's something startling about it there's something beyond about it that's exactly what you want and the more and more the more you show up the more you'll get it but in turn you learn when i learn turner there's always something that's there's a shocker there's a transcendent energy there's something that's above my vessels above my faculties now you might say you never heard such tyra okay you may have never heard taita you may have only gotten earthly bread not heavenly bread when you hear real tata it's like i remember we once learned a maimer shabbos morning in lakota there was a person sitting there talented person and an educated person and a person educated in in spiritual disciplines and in philosophy and also in many psychological schools of thought and he came over to me after the sheer and he says i want to ask you one question so i thought he was going to ask you know something shot he said how did alternative know this where did he get this from it's a secret book somewhere in a cave where did he get this from i saw that he understood i saw he understood this is a different energy it's a different energy it's called a lacus it's called divine energy now i know that some people hearing what i'm saying like what is he talking about i don't know i learned olive base i learned hummus i learned gemara yeah they explained the pausing they told me that the god said the passage you didn't have access to toyota you had access to information to data which is also tighter access data means access to heavenly bread something that remains heavenly by definition it always sweeps you off your feet feel is the exact opposite filler is i bring me into the relationship i don't suspend myself i bring me into the relationship next question the trader can be divided in several ways part of that is our relationship with hashem part of titus our relationship with other people for sure toyota has many parts taita has parts of relationship with hashem our relationship with other people and all of the halachas whatever part of turtle you're dealing with today is a guillocus that's what it is very hard to keep going when you're confused please give hizouk to keep us going okay that's why we learn together and we try to be mykasic each other and every time a person learns you're you're lifting up you're opening up your antennas to hear something and the most important thing is to show up and to hear to actually hear to listen and to listen is not easy to listen to the it says in tas we say every day what's nice he gives taida he doesn't give he gave no sanatida we say nice lush however because the jewish perspective of torah is that it's always given the balsamic once said an amazing thing one of the interpretations is the voice never seized he says martin toyota never stopped martin toyota never stopped martin taylor continued and continues so what's the difference between sinai and now we stopped hearing or we stopped listening toyota is always being given noise in her toyota right now he's giving tyler mutant is happening right now you say really so why am i on the zoom why am i not at mount sinai you are at mount sinai your couch is part of mount sinai your dining room table is part of mount sinai we're at mount sinai i stopped listening i stopped hearing that's the only difference martin titu continues the communication continues but if i have so much static and so much disruption in my brain i can't hear so what is tighter tighter is suspending everything clearing up clearing up my system and just tuning in to the divine lecture that's what zoom is you got to zoom in you got to zoom in you got to zoom in to the to the energy and it's always there it's flowing it's flowing it's flowing the question is how much static do i have that's so what is always that that heavenly flow that heavenly perspective it's that ongoing you know talk uh we'll have that we have talk shows right they talk they talk they talk they talk matantera is god's communication to the world and we are privy to be able to open up a safer or open up our ears and hear it and read it and perceive it wherever we are in the world sometimes i'm in the dumps i could still hear it i'll hear it in a different way no question depends where i am that's how much i'll hear but i'm privy to hear it and whatever i'm hearing if i'm hearing the toyota of it it's always something that is essentially transcendent it's not something that i could have got on my own i can't yes every person is every person has what to contribute every person sees more in tata but essentially there's something at the core of toyota that is transcendent and then i can add my peace my creativity to it that's my hidden torah versing the have to have a beautiful day 10 o'clock rambam or vlogger stay connected this class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net please help us continue the classes make even a small contribution at www.theyoshiva.net donate