Vayechi: My Thoughts Go Everywhere, But My Self Remains Anchored

today's class is dedicated by uh Nessa gmid and her family Beth and her husband Lawrence GID in honor and in tribute and a loving memory of nessa's mother Al CH B re mayor and tribute to the yard site of Tavis dedicated by her beloved daughter Nessa Goldsmith thank you very very much may your mother remain an everlasting source of light blessing and inspiration to you and the whole family and all of the Jewish people also dedicated by Kaplan wishing KH and khz a big mazeltov on their son mayor's wedding to din Merlin may it be a and a beautiful and blessed life and their son Mitzvah and's birthday thank you so much I want to address with you today a a and a verse in at the surface it just looks like a uh nice compliment words of Praise but when we go a little bit deeper we see an entire world and really worlds unraveling here I would say that one of the most fascinating things in learning Terra is to see how sometimes a few cryptic and seemingly irrelevant words contained within themselves layers of extraordinary depth and wisdom and perspective another fascinating thing is that sometimes a concrete and simple law that seems very technical and tedious mirrors a very profound and profound ideas in life an example of these truths we'll see today in this p in who bids farewell to his family a life 147 years intense loaded filled with uh vicissitudes from one extreme to another extreme saturated with trial and tribulations and Journeys both physically and emotionally and spiritually it's time for Yakov to say goodbye and the tah describes how he summons all of his children and he says gather here I want to tell you what's going to happen at the end of days and then he addresses each of the each of his 12 sons individually describing their characters their flaws their strengths their challenges their opportunities and blessings and their Destiny he also gives everyone a special blessing and words that will be relevant to their future journey and vocation both for them and their descendants throughout history then he comes to YF YF his beloved Son the oldest son of course of RA who has been through so much himself and is now the prime minister of Egypt these are his words to YF very fascinating words it's which would be Genesis 49:22 and you have it in your Source sheets the first one these are yakov's words to YF Ben pus YF these are the two what does this mean so the English translation which as every translation even when a translator tries to do the best job and they really are earnest but by definition it's not the fault of the Translator by definition translations especially of the texts are always impoverished because a translation by definition has to zoom into one meaning and leave it by that and this will be a good example what is Yakov saying this is very uh eloquent and very rich and sophisticated L KES Hebrew what is he saying so the translation is he's turning to his son and saying a Charming son is y a son Charming to the eye pyus is translated here as Charming graceful and he says again benus he's Charming to whom Charming to the eye literally when the ey sees YF when the eyes behold YF they're filled with some form of pleasure or Delight there's something very special of that happens when you look at y he's Charming to the eye Al like to the eye and then yov continues the women the girls bonice the young women they stro or they marched appr prayed in today's Hebrew it's called means a step so these girls stroe they they walked they paraded or they marched or they Strode Al in order to see him what does this mean see a moment his life was made bitter they he doesn't say who they but they made his life bitter from the word they quarreled with him they fought with him archers despised him and loathed him comes from the word means an arrow so those who shoot arrows they hated him what does all of this mean so Rashi as usually as usual comes to the rescue rash says his charm attracts the eye that beholds him there's a we call charm or Grace or Delight a special Halo that engulfs a person so this is not it attracts any eye that looks at Y is enthralled is is consumed is is is overwhelmed from a sweet feeling from a graceful feeling what's the girls the women of Egypt stroe out on the walls to gaze upon his Beauty so the girls they stroe they walked Al on the walls of of of MIT where they walk they walked they went on the walls it says when ysf became prime minister of Egypt so there was like ticker they prayed yob par had him go all over Egypt in the marish the special Chariot the coach that was reserved for the Prime Minister for the vice Roy of Egypt and Rashi says everybody wanted to see him so that's what yob is talking about the girls went onto the walls to be able to behold YF it's interesting B is plural many girls is singular she so Rashi says yes because of the woman each one stro to a place from which she could catch a glimpse so Bice there were many young women many girls many women saw then each one found the place Al sure means to see in Hebrew to be able to catch a glimpse of ysf this is how Charming this young man was and then y continues right away but he was hated they quarreled with him and The Archers loathed him and hated him this is how Rashi explains the PK now the obvious question is why did Yakov choose this quality and this story to describe literally moments before he passed away we all know how deep the relationship between yov and YF was now Yakov is about to say goodbye to all of his children including to how does he start off these are the words these are the words he decides to talk about literally to Bid Farewell to jph and what this means is that yakob felt at this moment the most important thing to talk about is yep's charm y's Beauty and not just internally for himself but the way way he is perceived by others and then from all examples you could say okay he's a beautiful beautiful man we already know that y was beautiful the clearly says was in fact it's very unique that the should describe a man in those terms usually the term is reserved for the matriarchs but it's reserved also for y and that gives us context to what happens afterwards in the story with the wife of P takes a liking him and so forth but Yakov wants to focus on this and if it's not enough he has to tell it through a story what's the story that the girls in Egypt went on a wall they climbed up on a wall to look at YF and these are his parting words to his son so the fact that y's Beauty was dazzling yakob feels the need to illustrate it and who will prove it the women living in Egypt why does yak feel that this detail this story first of all is relevant and when literally on on his deathbed so at the surface you could say well he's just giving an example you know everyone was enthralled by me and in Egypt everybody was enthralled by you but what is really the depth that yob is trying to convey why is it so important for YF and everybody else standing there to understand this to know this okay we'll get back to this and we'll see how this P became a source of a major in Jewish law you would think what's disconnected to it's just a story about y's Beauty but we'll see how in Jewish history this innocent verse about y's dazzling appearances appearance becomes a source for a fascinating law and will soon get back to it there's a I'm changing the subject now a little bit in your next Source the third sour we just said it a few minutes ago The Shepherd of Israel The Shepherd of is listen to us the one who leads the one who leads ysf like the flock The Shepherd of the flock who leads Yos like the flock the one who sits on the K him on the Chariots please appear so Rashi he says is actually a name that describes the Jewish people when it says Hashem leads YF Like a Shepherd leads the flock he's referring to the Jewish people why are they called YF we called y were the children of is were not all the children of YF there was one tribe of YF but and then it was split into and manha why we all called YF we're not all called Ru we're not all called shim we're not all called Ley there's a group of Jews called leim or and the answer is Rashi says because YF sustained the Jewish people in the times of hunger and that's why forever one of the names of the Jewish people is y so when the says leads like you lead Like a Shepherd leads the flock YF here is a name for the Jewish people but it's a little strange what happened in Egypt was that for a few years YF sustained them and that's why forever we all carry the name YF first of all even then if somebody feeds me I'm thankful to them I'm grateful to them I owe them certainly a depth of gratitude a debt of gratitude and a very profound one but why does my name become that person's name especially theim was written so many centuries and generations later till then they're all all called YF why because he sustained them in the times of hunger obviously what this is teaching us is that when YF sustained the Jewish people in hunger it wasn't just a physical story that happened a few years it rather was also a story that is timeless because YF gave the Jewish people a gift he bequeathed it to them he gave them a piece of himself hunger exists on a physical level of course there's also a different form of hunger there is an emotional hunger there's spiritual starvation there's different forms of starvation and yv gave a gift an eternal gift to the Jewish people that even Generations later we still carry that name YF because there was something of himself that he bequeathed that he infused in every Jewish Soul whether you come from his shavit from his tribe or not and that's why we all carry that name there's a piece of us that's called YF that we need when we need to sustain ourselves during hunger when a person is starving is thirsty on different levels there is a peace that we can be nourished by nurtured by and that piece is called YF but what is that y the name he's the one who sustained them y like Rashi says take a look in rash okay so now we need a little piece of Jewish history when the Jewish people came into is it was of course 40 years after they left Egypt they wandered in the wilderness for 40 years and then they came into the the leadership of Joshua of Yeshua it took 440 years until SCH built the first B mik that's a long time four and a half centuries 440 years he built a he put up the first B 480 years after they left Egypt 440 years after they entered enti Isel what did the Jewish people have during during all those years from coming into until there was a so most of those years they had a mish they had a sanctuary this was located in a place called Shilo if you go today to Shilo they have excavations and archaeological findings located in the ancient shil and even some proofs of parts of shil of literally the ancient ancient Jewish World when they came into and and there the Mish stood for 369 years so most of the time from coming into Isel until the first bik was put up in on the byav and then completed byav prepared the foundations and then SCH actually built it and dedicated it so from most of that time the mishk was was situated in shil so this was the place the Jewish people would go to worship this was the epicenter of the Jewish life this was the place of course they went to bring carbon this was the place they made Al they went P it was sh shil is in the territory of YF the territory of YF included the city called shil where theik was is the primarily the territory of of bam and Yehuda bam and Yehuda were neighbors you part of the was inam you know how to put it on vibrate you know how to put it on off need the children for this it's nice music you know how to turn it off thank you so shil was in the territory of Y and thees and Yim part of it was in the territory of Yehuda so 369 years it's in shil it's interesting shil had the mishkan that M built in the desert it was brought to and it was put up the difference is that it had walls actually in the mishkan was beams made of pimpson hsio wood of cedar wood The Shilo shil had actually walls but the roof was still the the tapestries that was built built in the original mishkan of M and it was transferred 40 years in the de they brought it enti to Isel and this mishkan had a few different locations it was in a place called gilgal and no and G but primarily it was in Chile as I said for 369 years now one more interesting detail and then it was destroyed by the Philistines the Mish shili was destroyed by the Philistines and uh the pish and ultimately they needed a new place and uh Shilo was destroyed by the Philistines the mishin itself wasn't destroyed and ultimately they traveled again until settled in there's a very interesting about Mish a very interesting law what is that generally when a Jew brought a carbon let's take the carbon PES carbon pesak was a Passover offering that was eaten by every Jewish Family men women children but like every other carbon the food was holy the meat was sacred it could not be brought out of Y if you took the meat of an or offering that was Bor in you took it out of it had to be burnt and the reason is because has an energy there's a Holiness there and if it's taken out of that it's it's it's it's very sensitive and if it's taken out of that it affects it just like you have sometimes a person has a certain condition and they have to be protected they can't be in other places because the germs God forbid of somebody's immune system is we weak they have to be very careful where they go what environment they're in what type of germs or bacteria or infections may be there what type of ear they're absorbing into their body why because you have to know your sensitivities the same is true on an emotional level and a spiritual level you all know sometimes you go to a place and it's not good you come home and you're exhausted for three and a half weeks or at least three and a half hours it's true on every level the meat of the carbon is sacred it's divine it has to in order for it to be what it's supposed to be it has to be eaten within the walls of Y the were carb is called kadash and is called we say it in the morning before dadash means the holy of the holies they had to be eaten in the bik in the in the confines of the bikes itself there were other carbas called K which means a lighter a more lenient level of Holiness they could be eaten in the whole city but only within the walls of the old city of yush so for example if I take the carbon and say you know what I want to travel to I don't know t t aivas it's very nice but you can't eat the meet anymore because something happened it it it needed the energy of it's called okay clear so let's say the carbon P you had to come to and eat it inside the walls there was even something called myeni myeni was 10% of people's grain that they would bring to and eat or if there was a lot you could exchange it on money and bring the money to and buy the food there and eat it it had to be eaten in I can't take it out I'm not allowed to take it out again it's a certain level of sanctity which would be compromised and it would would be desecrated violated affected if it was taken out of that was the when it came to the bik with it was different with shil you can eat any carbon any offering that was brought in shil you can eat as far as you want as long as you could see the sanctuary in shilai that means even if I traveled to another city maybe I traveled even far away if it was a nice day in the holy land and the fog did not Eclipse your vision let's say you went far you went I don't know 50 miles away from Sheila the other side of Israel and you went on a mountain and it's a beautiful day you could see the mishkan in Shila you're even a part of it you're allowed to eat you're allowed to eat any carbon it would it did not have to be confined within the territory of that mishkan or even of that city of shilai this was unique that's what the mishna says in track page 113 this was a huge difference between the system in y and the system in shile again all carban had to be eaten either in the bikes or at best within the walls of the old city of Jerusalem if not they would disqualified if they were taken out couldn't just be brought back either why because this Holiness must remain there and if not it gets affected it's just it's not for it you have to know where it belongs where it doesn't belong in shil that quality did not exist that did not exist you could be anywhere anywhere literally as long as your eyes can see it you're good to go asks the gar this is in why why the difference and the gor brings this p as the source because shil was in the territory of YF and what does yakob say about YF he's Charming to the eye Ben pus Al the girls in Egypt are all looking at him and because shil is his territory and Yakov said it's Charming to the ey everybody wants to see so this is a he's actually teaching a law that as long as you could see y meaning the Mish in his territory the sanctuary in his territory you're good to go yep's influence pulls you in wherever you see him so even if you're in another city in another tribe another territory but you could see you have a vision your eyes can see part of the Mish of shil this is already so to speak lured in or or consumed or included submerged in y's territory and you can eat it so practically speaking I could take my carbon back home I don't know to stay in Chila right anybody who brought an offering you could bring the carbon back home as long as it's a good day and you have a vision and you could see any part of the Mish of but it seems that the Ser seems very far-fetched I mean yob was talking about y's Beauty that's all he was talking about he wasn't talking about a mish he wasn't talking about chil he wasn't talking about eating carbas all he was talking about was is Beauty and suddenly kazal see that as a source for an entire that would be relevant much later many years after y's life once they go into Isel it's hundreds of years after YF passed away and also what's the connection to the girls in Egypt looking at him they were not eating carbonis they were Egyptian women who heard that there's a new prime minister and there's a beautiful prayed and they went to see him they heard all about him and they went to see him in fact according to one medich that's even how got his a famous that they threw gifts at y the girls were throwing gifts and one of the girls there wasas and asnas at least according to one tradition was a daughter of Dena and when ysf saw the gift and it had and it engraved that she comes from the family of Yakov cuz Yakov before he sent her to Egypt he wrote that and Y searched out this young woman and according to this med quoted this is who we married asnas was really a relative of YF so obviously the story has a lot of significance but certainly they didn't go to eat caronus there why does Yakov then talk about this detail in order to understand all of this let's look at the next Source it says in y recognized his brothers and they didn't recognize him of course this is in Egypt they come down to get grain they know who he is he does not he knows who they are they don't know who he is at the surface it means it's been many years it's been 20 years since they've been separated ysf was a young man he was 17 now he's much older actually says he didn't have a beard then now he has a beard so they don't recognize him he does recognize them because they were already older than he so therefore they didn't change as much when he was separated that's on a lit lital literal level but yet there's a deeper question even if your brother grew a beard in the interim of over these 20 years there's other ways of recognizing people what does it really mean they did not recognize him at all nobody even had a suspicion that this is YF so the balat AL the balat gives a very very profound interpretation to this PK and says it's not just physical recognition it rather captures one of the key uh distinctions between YF and his brothers which explains so much of the challenge in the relationship and in order to explain this he points out another PK which at the surface is also difficult to understand and many of have different interpretations but this opens us opens up the Vista to be able to understand the deeper dimension of Y after passes away He blesses the children he passes away they bury him in Mar the the brothers are very afraid they're afraid that now YF will take revenge as long as his father was alive he was respectful he was graceful he kept peace in the family now his father passed away who knows what's going to emerge now he has all the power he's the boss he's the prime minister of the most powerful country he's right on the par he could do whatever he wants to their families and they're frightened and that's the story in the next chapter 50 they're they're afraid afraid that he's going to take revenge and they come to him and they basically they send a message sending a messenger to him asking for forgiveness and then you see they come to him and they say we will become your slaves we will become your servants the second y turns to them and says Don't Be Afraid am I under Hashem am iack am I in the place of God or am I under God you intended to harm me but Hashem intended it for good in order to sustain many lives in the entire nation don't worry I'm going to feed you I'm going to sustain you he comforted them and he spoke to their heart and everything everybody calmed down what does he mean don't be afraid I'm I under God there's different interpretations what does it mean is he saying it's not my job to punish to penalize I'm not God is it as different say it's interesting what says Rashi says do you think I'm God even if I want to harm you you think I could look what you did you tried to harm me it didn't help so YF was saying something very interesting look learn from yourself and you'll see you tried to harm me it didn't help right so let's say I want to try to harm you what are you worried about this is what y he's teaching his brothers how to look at life this is the rashi's interpretation this fer says am I a judge and am I going to punish a person or people that hasem sent aim to do a certain thing you were hisim I'm not going to get involved involved in this the says if you're guilty it's God's job to punish you it's not mine different interpretations but it's very interesting words says am I in place of God or am I a substitute for Hashem or am I under literally takas means under am I under Hashem but you see these are ambiguous words what is exactly is he trying to say there was a a major distinction between YF and his brothers and this was one of the reasons they couldn't recognize him not only physically but they couldn't recognize who he was on a deeper level as well and the meaning of this is when the the brothers come down to MIT and YF goes to introduce them to to par he tells them he's going to ask you what your job is what your vocation is tell them that you're Shepherds and indeed they come to the king and he says what are you guys up to what's your job and they say from the beginning of our Lives we were always we were always Shepherds this was the thing we always did and you see in the beginning of a this is what theat were doing they were shepherds in fact the whole story with ysf happened when they were shepherding the flock of yov and and ysf went to visit them because yob wanted to see how they're doing and how the Sheep are doing and how the goats are doing and how all of the herds of flock are doing so this was their vocation it wasn't only them a we know was a Shepherd y was a Shepherd yob was a shepherd and all of the brothers were shepherds Ys was not YF was not already in the house of Yakov he had other occupations and already from his dreams you saw that he had different dreams and then of course once he ended up in Egypt he was no Shepherd at all why did theat choose the vocation of being Shepherds why from all different things you could be involved in not even agriculture not even Farmers they were shepherds that's what they told par our entire life we were the reason says the balat is because this was a vocation this is a job that allows a person to remain completely disconnected Ed from the grind and the hustle and bustle and pressures and anxiety of the big world and of daily life the like the other for them the priority their their soul their their key Focus not only their key their sole focus in life was what you would callus Deus means attachment to the source of life to the creator of life it's so easy to get distracted it's so easy to go out of that space what does vus really mean we have to understand for a moment what vacus means and I only mean intellectually but more viscerally vas means that a person is in a space of intimacy with their soul and intimacy with the creator of the world the vocation of being Shepherds gave them that ability that luxury to stay in that space because first of all it doesn't require tremendous physical l labor and strain second of all you're in a place of nature where do the where do the Flock Grays they need to posture themselves so you're in places of green Greenery and and grass and rivers and streams it's a place of seclusion and over there they could remain completely connected to their spiritual core and to the song that vibrates through the cosmos they always wanted to remain in a place of intimacy with the Divine without anything taking them out of that separating them from that space the space of Serenity the space of Tranquility the space of Oneness a space of infinite love of sensing the sensing the the Divine Force cruising flowing through Creation with these innocent sheep and natural domestic animals who are calm sometimes if they get their needs and Serene and in a space of nature the pristine world that Hashem made that allowed them to retain that connection ysf had a completely different life already his dreams indicated a different vision and then when he was taken down to m him even as a slave he was soon running P's entire house now ptif was one of the most prominent ministers in Egypt so he had many assets he had large Estates he had a big house he had a lot of properties that he owned and ysf was in charge on everything he was not a secluded man anymore he was not living in an on an island he was not living in the world of nature enjoying the music of creation he was dealing with respons possibilities on a daily level and then he was thrown into prison this was certainly no place of spiritual seclusion and isolation conducive for meditation introspection singing and music and then he becomes the prime minister of the superpower of the world the economic superpower of the ancient world MIT ancient Egypt was considered the most affluent prosperous and Powerful Nation P was called a which means he basically was the most powerful person in the world at the time and in terms of affluence in terms of e economy in terms of culture in terms of architecture and in terms of military prowess Egypt was considered the leading power of the ancient world and Y was the one in charge P said nobody could move their legs or feet their their arms or legs in MIT without your permission and he's right under the king and he's in charge in everything and the says shalot he was the ruler he fed everybody this is wow this is a different life the couldn't recognize they couldn't recognize that such a person could be rooted in the entire core of what jewishness represented for them because for them for theat who were lofty and great Souls what was really the legacy of ab andov the legacy of and yov was not to get consumed not to get lost not to sell your soul to the superficial veneer of a world that is just a random physical place and my focus is I need to do this and I need to do that and I need to survive and be comfortable but rather to always remain in the space of a Divine Embrace of divine love to always remain in a place of spiritual Oneness but that takes tremendous amount of effort it's a chaotic world you're pulled in every direction as Shepherds they can do that at least most of their day probably all of their day and that was life that was life and for them this was Bliss because all the Bliss in the world all the Comforts in the world that people go after very often there distractions to numb the pain now I need this now I need that now I need what if I can actually connect to my deepest form of bliss what if I could make my soul my best friend when you make your soul your best friend then you don't need I don't need other distractions to be able to give me Comfort because remember the source of all Bliss the source of all joy is the one who created all the joy and all the Bliss so you see that even the joys and the Bliss in the physical world are so diverse and so powerful and often so uh tempting if you go to the source of all that the Bliss is infinite that's where theat wanted to live that's where they lived for them therefore YF his entire approach his entire perspective was so contrary they could not conceive that this young man could remain rooted in the same spiritual Deus in the same intimacy with the Divine like them y could recognize they couldn't recognize that this is a form of yish that this could be part of the entire Vision did not make sense to them so when now they're looking at this person in Egypt they couldn't even imagine and entertain somebody who's running this economy so successful that really he's one of theat he's a son of yob and he still remains in that space of in that space of intimacy and Oneness but the truth is the meant well but it's because they didn't have a they didn't understand y's y's s and this was the entire one of the greatest one of the greatest novel contributions that yv brought into the world and that yv gifted all the Jewish people for eternity and that's why when we want to look for the name of the Jewish people when they need to be satisfied during times of hunger we call them Y what was y's gift to the Jewish people yep's Soul came from a deeper place than his brothers his brothers were great souls in the language of of cab The Souls of the came from what's called y's Soul came from a world called which means in simple English y was so one with the source that he can be everywhere and still never detach from absolute vus in the Creator ysf could remain anchored in the source of infinity even while immersed in the most mundane aspects of life to the point that he is running an entire country and a country that is not a Jewish country and it's a country of MIT which as the T calls it it was a place of moral depravity so you would think he would be pulled down he would be slept down he remained completely completely anchored in the source how did he do it what was y's what was y's [Music] gift so we see it in that story when he's in his home in his master's home and P's wife takes a liking to him and every day the T says she NES him and pleads with him and begs him and warns him and threatens him I want you to be with me in a promiscuous fashion refuses and then the says one day he comes home to do his work says what type of work he had to do bookkeeping and accounting he was an accountant also so he had to deal with with numbers and math and checks and balances and the intake and outtake and what came in and went out he was in charge on all of the revenue and everything happening in bif's house to the point that the T says that b gave him over everything and didn't even know anything that's happening in the house he wasn't interested he delegated everything he trusted YF blindly look like par would trust YF blindly you run this whole country I'm just going to sit on the throne and drink my ice coffee or whatever else par did I'm not sure I coffee would probably be from the better things and that moment P's wife remained home and she summons ysf and she says this is the day and tell us a famous rash quoted one of the opinions is that y actually almost surrendered to her and then he saw the image of yakov's father he saw the image of yakov's father and instead he escaped he fled and because she was holding his cloak cuz she grabbed him by his cloak she grabbed him by his cloak and he ran out the cloak the Garment tore and she had this piece of evidence that it was the other way around and that's how she cast him into prison though he was completely innocent here is a classic example Not only was YF immersed in a world that can be stressful and anxious but actually he was an environment where every single day he was tempted where he was lured in by a very very powerful powerful voice outside of him that tried really to take him into the moral abyss and at the last moment he had that moment where it would seem like he would fall and then he had an image of Yakov his father in the window what what does this mean what does this tell us about what this tell what does this tell us about YF y's ability was and it's similar if we want to understand it it's similar to when we talk about the fact that if we look at our own let's let's apply to our lives what YF gives us then we'll be able to bring it back to YF the soul of a person the soul is a the soul it's it's it's it's hard for us to relate to it sometimes because life becomes so filled with pressures and difficulties and challenges and also duties and responsibilities so it's easy to silence the soul essentially is purely Divine and its singular Bliss in life is connection with the Divine and that's the source of all love that's the source of all Love of All attachment of all connection of all Clarity what YF EXP experiences in a very dramatic way in many ways becomes the experience of every person each person in their own way and this is what YF gifted us for eternity and he gifted the Jewish people what YF embodied and taught was that wherever I am in life and whatever I'm dealing with in life and ysf is running an entire country whether it's a to-do list that is very very big and as Jewish women it gets bigger every single day or it is with internal stuff or external stuff and they could often be challenging challenging and causing anxiety ysf was so anchored in his core which is the core of all life he never ever stepped out of that so even as his thoughts Encompass the whole Egypt they never defined him they never owned him they never hijacked him let me explain you know if I'm doing something right or you're doing something and suddenly you have a thought you know that thought maybe something I have to do soon something that happened yesterday some disappointing conversation I had some text that uh overwhelmed me not the most Blissful thought in the world let's put it that way a piece of news I just observed what often happens you know the B said you are where your thoughts are so what happens is that thought literally takes me away from where I am and now I'm going to different highways like highways you know how many highways are there in front of you as many thoughts there are in front of you how many thoughts are we capable of thinking in one minute right like this is true even with men they also have a lot of thoughts sometimes even more it's not just a woman's challenge but yeah it's not hundreds it's thousands sometimes don't even realize right if you're sitting at a shear and it's a little boring what do you do you start daydreaming present company excluded and suddenly you realize oh wow it's 5 minutes later you just traveled half the world and you dealt with each one of your children and you even thought about your mother-in-law and your sisters-in-law and your brother-in-law of course your husband and yourself and this one and that one and that one and you work and your students and the principal the conversation you're supposed to have you had you had a month ago you had a year ago you're going to have a year from now and every thought boom it literally hijacks me and now I'm down that road and suddenly 10 minutes later I'm stressed I'm overwhelmed why cuz the really defined me they took me they took me onto that Highway and this is where I am now how do I get off that highway so you try to put on ways but the phone died so you can't even get out so now we're stuck and trying to get out so you say okay let me make the best out of out of it this was y he could be everywhere his had to be but he remained in one place this thought came in that thought came in now I have to deal with this this now I have to deal with this you see sometimes a person can become detached and sometimes that's what we do there are people who do that the anxiety of Life the pain of life is too intense I emotionally I unplug I just unplug and then I'm safe in Neuroscience there are different responses to difficult situations one is fight and one is flight one is for and one is Freeze all of these responses are different ways of coping and one of them is F if I could just run onto a mountain physically or emotionally if I don't feel so much so then I'm safe but that wasn't y's y was fully embodied he was fully present how do we see this throughout the tan people cry but nobody cries as many times as YF inish itself there are eight instances of YF weeping as I mentioned last week very very unique eight instances that the Torah describes to tell us how many times he cried that's what it says in T I can imagine how many times he actually cried in other words he was fully present he was fully present to all the pain he was fully present to every emotional interaction he never had to detach he didn't have to detach you know why because he always can experience that part of himself that core that was in a Divine Embrace that never left it to give the example of the balat another example he says think about the son when we look at the sun we don't look at the sun itself it's blinding but we enjoy the Rays of the Sun the Rays of the Sun come from the Sun and they bring us warmth they bring us heat they bring us light a nice summer day and yesterday we had a nice day today not bad for December and January end of December we enjoy the sun whether it's vitamin d whether it's all the produce all the vegetation all the growth all the heat all the warmth the light the brightness if you have a sitting in your in your living room and the window is bringing in the light of the the Sun or you're taking a stroll and a walk we appreciate the Rays of the sun very much in fact it's responsible for our survival if the sun decides to set one night and not come back next morning kaput besides the fact that there's no light there's no growth anymore there's no vegetation anymore there's no rain anymore I mean that's why we thank Hashem for the Sun every single day we're very very grateful for the gift of the through the sun creating the Sun and all of the luminaries what about the ray of the Sun going back to the solar core in the Solar core you also have the ray of the Sun but the ray of the sun and the solar core doesn't have a separate reality because it's completely submerged in its source outside of the Sun the ray comes out and it has a significance we can call it a ray inside the Sun you also have the ray if you have the light outside of the sun you have the light inside the Sun in fact inside the sun it's more powerful but it's not separate you don't look at at the Sun or go inside hey I see the ray inside the sun it's submerged in the core in the essence Every Creature every creation is the Ray it's the ray of the sun it's the ray but in the physical example the sun is not here on Earth thank God because we would become toast the sun remains there and the ray comes to the Earth in the in in the metaphor that I'm talking about the ray which is every person's existence is still inside the essence we never ever leave the core of the Sun we're always in the core so wherever I am in my Essence everything the entire world Still Remains in the core of infinite reality in the Embrace of Hashem now you say very nice idea but practically this thought is coming at me and this thought is nagging and this thought is overwhelming and this thought is creating fear this was y's ability YF knew that in every situation he doesn't have to figure it out mathematically in order to control it his core remained in the core of the Sun and he knew wherever he is my Ray stays in the core it did not detach itself it had never disconnected itself and now when his thoughts took him somewhere they never took him there they never hijacked him rather he understood now is the time for me to focus on whatever I have to focus in order to bring the light to wherever I have to bring the light now it's important to acknowledge how difficult this can be because if somebody is having a very disturbing thought if somebody's going through something to it dis validate it and just say you know you're in the core of Hashem and everything is blissful and good and powerful it's authentic but it could become inauthentic when the person tries to repress or deny what's going on in my body I'm nervous my nervous system is is insane I'm overwhelmed I'm anxious this is difficult I'm feeling resentment I'm feeling like a failure I'm feeling fear I'm feeling guilt but can I watch that from the core in other words can I look at that and rather than be pulled into that look at it with your core remaining in the core of in the Solar core your core remaining anchored in the One exclusive source of all reality so now I can actually look at this experience feel it appreciate whatever I'm going through but not lose it not get Swept Away by the waves it's almost like they'll teach a good lifeguard you're going in to save somebody who needs help in the ocean one of the dangerous things is you'll get swept away with the victim and then not only can't I save you is the other way around so it's the great talent of going there I have to go and I can't sit on the throne and say hey get out of the ocean and don't go swimming here next time I have to jump in but I am anchored in such a powerful space not to get pulled in but rather I can pull others in that's true within ourselves Within Myself there are waves there are undercurrents that want to slep me and take me away at any moment maybe it could be a comment that your child tells you maybe it's a crisis maybe it's a very painful piece of news Maybe it's an inner emotion that you're dealing with maybe it's fear maybe it's the anxiety maybe it's the stress it's the responsibility whatever that issue may be and what happens is I can allow it to take me over and suddenly I am myself in a whirlwind of chaos or in a whirlwind of fear what was y's power y's power was he could be in the house of p as a slave in Egypt he had a place of Safety and Security this is what his father gave him what does it mean he saw the image of his father he didn't know what his father looked like remember it says a told us Yakov Ys ysep looked like Yakov so when it says he saw the image of his father whose image did he really see his own he saw his own image he had an image of himself that was a reflection of Yakov and he looked like y so he saw his own image but he saw his own image absorbed in yov he saw his own image from a place of that Safety and Security that's why the anchor is the key if a person never experienced their soul if my soul is not my best friend then I'm looking for everything around me to make me feel safe to make me feel good so if I'm having a positive moment I'm great and if something is negative boom I'm done was never defined by the outside he was completely completely defined by the inside he was completely defined by his core he saw himself always in the core of the Sun in the core of the Sun the ray is never separate the ray doesn't even have a separate identity doesn't even have its own distinctness not because it's not powerful it's more powerful but it's simply part of that Oneness and yet YF is all over the place you would think YF is thrown into places where his brother is never thrown into but what happens with Y ysf never ever steps away from that so in a person's life it would mean practically speaking let's say something happens in your house something happens in your job something happens in your life whatever it may be beny no more serious but in terms of reactions a person finds them themselves I find myself you find yourself reacting being pulled here pulled there and the great danger is the thoughts are right away going to shle me in and five minutes later I can't even recognize myself this trigger really really captured my soul captured my head this is what the shatam said stay away from these thoughts stay near the water stay near the grass stay with the Sheep so you won't get triggered by anything of the world you'll remain in a place of Ty and a place of bliss in a place ofus you'll remain in a place of your soul but Yakov knew God knew YF knew that history is going to take us to many different places we won't always have that ability like theat to be able to remain Shepherds in beautiful landscapes sitting near the water and singing all day singing poetry to our souls and to the Creator and remaining in that place of silence and Oneness and meditation which is really an extraordinary space of fulfillment because what do you think the does in G the other are in G for thousands of years are they bored they don't have WhatsApp what do they do there's not even meals to look forward we're going out eat they're not going out to eat but the truth is it's a pretty amateur question I'm asking because all the pleasures pale in comparison to the source of bliss and Soul there is infinite Bliss it's called that that intimacy we all know in moments of Love of real attachment of real safety there is an absolute Bliss that comes with connection and the source of all connection is our connection with Hashem Hashem is the source of love it's a source of compassion all ecstasy comes from there all Bliss comes from there that's where they wanted to be and that's where they were y you're going into places where you're going to be triggered not of 10 minutes every millisecond you're going to be triggered what's going to be left of you could recognize his brother they could not recognize how could you have a Jew running the Egyptian economy and still with the same level ofas not because he was lower than them his soul came from a higher place his soul came from such a place of Oneness that even in the lowest lowest circumstances hisas remained untarnished unaffected Ed completely he could run an economy he can deal with everybody from POA to the wife OFA from Pirate people often who were immoral and corrupt but he his soul was so connected he never stepped out of that imagine that image he never stepped out of the solar core he never did but what do you mean I have to deal with this I have to deal yeah my thought has just like Hashem knows the whole world Hashem sees the whole world hm thinks the whole world balat says maybe you should say Hashem is the one who has the mostus in the world he has to deal with all my thoughts all your thoughts everybody's thoughts imagine how many Mak God has we all try to stay away from who has the most hem knows everyone's thoughts the answer is it's he not defined by it he's not defined by it like we say he had to deal with the world had to deal in a very real way and he connected and he understood but he was never consumed or defined by it why because it was his journey his a now to bring light to bring awareness to bring truth into this place with a lot of compassion a lot of sensitivity and a lot of inner strength and firmness I think willpower is critical but willpower here on its own is not enough because will power could make me do something that I don't want to do will power will never give me an experience of bliss and joy you understand will works with power as you said will power this can just be with power this has to be with an inner sense of connection and compassion his gift was the Theus that was the gift the gift was that he could always remain in a place of safety where he could feel God's infinite love to him literally embracing him like an infant who may have got a boo boo but he's in the Embrace of a mother and feels seen soothed safe secure the four s's which is what creates the S of Shalom of Peace wholeness and that Embrace was always there so now yeah I may be dealing with a crisis here I may be dealing with pressure and I have to figure it out and I have to know what to do YF was a very proactive man he was no passive pushover at all he initiated project after project remember he's the one who made a whole vision for Egypt this was not a passive person who says oh God runs the world I'm going to sit on the couch and go to sleep it's not his philosophy on the contrary he's a more powerful person you know why because when the ray is in the core it's actually much more intense it's much more powerful there's much more electricity when the ray is in the core it actually has much more power much more but it's not separate it's not separate he did not dis never disengage didn't have to disengage for the if you want to be in you have to disengage it's very normal YF didn't have to disengage he could be completely engaged manifested embodied and remain connected and in a person's individual life it means I may be experiencing something and that experience doesn't agree with this whole she you all know you could finish this year and you'll go out and you'll get a text and boom it's all nice I'm a no core nobody loves me and nobody's embracing me this world is not a safe place so I'm a Shelt and it's going to happen 5 minutes after this class in fact you may have been getting the text right now just you're not looking at it now which is a Mila ACC for all of us this was yosef's gift ysf was a we're all named by the name of ysf because we have moments of hunger because it's not like these thoughts are not going to come I live in a world and I live in a my nervous system system may have not listened to the year and even if the nervous system did listen the nervous system may say good philosophy let's wait till the next trigger okay you're making shabas who the nervous system says oh you sh I making shabas why's doing shabas and the sh and Mitzvah and the cleaning lady didn't show up because it's New Year's for a whole week so go tell him go tell him to instead of giving the share let him come clean my house if you pay well maybe like everything he has a gift but without cultivating it and developing it and working on it doesn't happen yph worked harder than most people he worked very hard all great people they have gifts but they do a lot of work from adish to a to to on the contrary they work harder than most people it's not like don't work hard they have gifts no question when y gives y a multicolorful coat or tunic it wasn't just you know he found a beautiful sweater in Macy's and he bought it and they all got jealous so why don't you go to Century 21 there are sales now get yourself a cashmir sweater because of a sweater and a coat we're going to hate our brother the multicolorful tunic was a spiritual gift not just a physical gift YF is going to come into a world that's going to be multicolorful diverse diversity can easily destroy a person I want to be in oness the wants to be in in oness diversity can shlep me in a thousand directions I'm running here and I'm running there and I'm running there I don't even know who I am anymore that's why you have to be very careful with diversity look what happened in American universities became all about diversity to the point you don't know the difference between Hitler and Churchill there's no difference between Jewish children and Kamas it's all the same diversity diversity can become the greatest curse cuz it's not anchored in Oneness Theus pass the multicolorful tunic was a gift that YF can navigate a world filled with paradoxes and remain anchored and that's why he is the master of Dreams Ben pyus come back to the word pyus the word pyus has different combinations pyus means Charming pyus also is the same letters like the word piser what does piser mean an interpreter of Dreams it also is the same letters like the word toer remember what toer is sewing what's the connection what's the connection of y's charm to YF interpreting dreams poer to Y sewing and the answer of course is what are dreams everybody knows the worst thing you can do to a dream is try to make sense out of it in a dream one moment I'm alive the next moment I'm one moment I'm in Spain the next moment I'm in America and the same time I'm in Australia and it all makes sense until you wake up Dreams by definition are rattled with Enigma and Paradox and that's why they give a key to deeper things Y is the master of Dreams what does he do he's not afraid of paradox that's Theus the multicolorful paradoxical tunic YF can go to different extremes because he's rooted in the source that contains all the paradoxes the says these very rich as made a mistake they called him they thought he was the dream they didn't realize he was The Interpreter of dreams when you are the dream it means you're just an inconsistent person a lunatic you know why lunatics are called lunatics because they follow the lunar cycle and the Moon is a very very comp Lex creature doesn't look like he knows where he's going we follow our moon our our our our our months are based on the moon we have ay in us and like the moon we wax and we wne and we grow and we diminish and then we disappear two days you don't show up you quit and then you think the world is over life is over you come back it's very easy to get World y they call Theus he's the pus he's the tyer he has the thread that can seow things what does mean when you connect things that become separate because they really belong together so the button fell off but I'm going to bring the button back to the jacket that's what tyer is and that's why Pirates is also from the word period multiply multiplies because all of the expressions of the ray don't pH him because he's always connected to that core and because he's connected to that core so there before what happens is y in our life is that person right now you may say something or I may see something or I may hear something yeah and I'm triggered and I'm overwhelmed and yeah my thoughts are going to a different place and you know what I want to respond from that place what will YF say this was the wife of ptif who's just in or whatever that means in a person's life whatever that means every person in their own way y says right now can you feel the safety of your soul Can You Feel the fact that a part of you is never disconnected a part of you doesn't need anybody's validation a part of you is completely whole and rooted in infinity and nothing can take that away from you and from the world CU that is the truth yeah I know a part of me is not feeling that and I'm that's a part and that's fine that's fine that's why my soul came in that's why YF went into MIT we come down into these places so instead of me getting slept away can I bring compassion to that thought to that experience maybe at the moment I can't I don't have time I say you know what I'm going to come back to revisit you maybe I could shed light on it and slowly give it the compassion and need and realize what I have to process and what I have to work through which is fine and normal but I remained anchored and therefore I don't say things or do things that later I'm going to regret why because I did not step away from the ultimate truth but I could only do that if I have an experience of that ultimate truth I can do this I'm going to say it again only with will power and this is important to understand will power is very important especially for discipline right especially for maintaining certain schedules that are not always comfortable like some people for them to do their exercise they need a lot of willpower it's not gmak then not going to regret it but to get it they need willpower but in terms of true healing and transformation it must be not only will but also pleasure there's R and above R is Will and deeper than will is pleasure you know why because Bliss is what transforms people not will will I could say this is what I want this is what we're going to do I don't want to clean the kitchen I'll do it anyway fine I don't want to make the call I'll do it anyway I don't want to exercise I'll do it anyway I'm not not in the mood of taking this call but I am no I'm not in the mood but I'm going to do it I'm going to do it your teenage child needs to talk to you it's 2: in the morning you need at least 10 minutes of sleep all the fibers in your being are saying no but yet a person may say this is the right thing to do this is what I'm going to do right now and willpower helps for that but real connection happens when I can experience the Ty we need to experience the pleasure the Bliss what's pleasure being your Soul's making your soul your best friend because your soul has that Bliss your soul the soul has that tin the soul has that connection and all real love in the world is rooted in that in that BL what's going to happen with love for my wife and love for my children and love for my friends and love for my family love God with all your heart so if my whole heart loves God so I hate everybody else the answer is the opposite when you love Hashem with all your heart then you love everybody else because all real love is an expression of that love what does it mean I love Hashem what do I love it's loving everything good everything Blissful it's loving the source of all goodness of all life so that I love in every that that I love in all my loved ones and ultimately the extension is to every person so therefore as a result of this Yad is the poer and he is the toer and he is the Pirus that's what Yakov says so now let's go back and bring It full full circle the bik is in the section of Yehuda the Mish is in the section of shil you remember the law what's the by thees you can only eat it in the walls what's the you can eat it everywhere as long as you can see why soar says it's because of Y and the story with P what's the connection now the connection is very obvious there's two ways of understanding what yides is One Vision of yides is you can be holy but only inside the [Music] wall As Trump said you got to build the wall but Reagan remember when Reagan told garbatov Mr garbatov tear down that wall talking about Berlin tear down that wall well Judaism also has these two approaches you can eat carbonis inside the wall build a wall you have to have a wall you have to have a means Also spiritually speaking spiritually speaking means I have a wall inside this wall Holiness blossoms that's yehuda's Vision that's the brother's Vision that's why they can't understand YF you're endangering the whole vision of yish kite what's y's greates the most important thing you need is Vision YF didn't live in a wall YF lived in places that were furthest away from Holiness but he remained connected because he saw the image he had the vision he had eyes so what type of mish did he create wherever you are you can eat the caronus you could connect as long as your eyes you can open your eyes and have a vision behold the vision of the epicenter of Holiness behold the vision of your soul rooted and anchored in the infinite presence of Hashem you can eat the carbonis even though you're very very far away he was very far away [Laughter] huh okay very well said very well said the doctor is explaining that this is the vision of laich to bring yides to the whole world it's based on y's Vision okay I'm not going to argue with you the truth is every day it's like everything in Holiness you're not dealing with a real contradiction and that's why when we wake up in the morning the first words we say area sounds like which name when we start daving the first words of daving at least in Yehuda because the only way I can be successful as YF is if I start off my day as Yehuda if I start off my day everywhere in the world I'm nowhere I'm scattered I'm overwhelmed it's like people who wake up the first thing I take my phone I'm busy with emails and whatsapps and texts two hours later you were just slept into right a 100 different news items 20 different clip some made you cry some made you laugh some made you angry some made you overwhelmed some made you Overjoyed if it was my clip hopefully but the bottom line is with all due respect to myself or anybody else it's not how you start a day it's impossible because there's no self there's no self that's anchored but we always have to start the day in yush in the walls of I that's why the gor says right the person person does in the morning is to DAV why I have to connect you a person must be connected I have to be anchored in the self in the core of divinity that then will allow me to be able to remain anchored wherever I have to go throughout the day because the day will take me to very interesting places hopefully not as dramatic as YF but every person in their own way my head is going to go to a lot of places when I start off with Yehuda I can then continue with YF so the two sanctuaries the two bik the Mish of sh and Yehuda both represent very very fundamental things and for the they were right they Tak couldn't do what YF did it would take them away that's why they couldn't understand they thought this whole vision of YF is a threat to Judaism but for YF this was not just his journey this was his gift to the Jewish people people and that's why at the end they all acknowledge y's greatness and this is the meaning of y's words it's an incredibly moving idea of the AL of the balat Y tells to the brothers you know what your mistake is you think I'm under elim you think I'm under I'm I'm under elim I'm lower than elim what is elim the name elim is the numerology of 86 it's the same numerology as the word nature the nature why because represents it represents the way the solar core is concealed in our world everyone is on their own now I'm just trying to survive that's what does does I could look at the Sun and see the solar core but here I don't see a sun at best I have the ray of the Sun and if it's a dark day I don't even have that either it's cloudy and it's rainy soim is the fact that hashem's infinite Oneness is concealed in what we call nature says Yim you think I'm under elim I'm above elim y's Soul was rooted in hav y's Soul was rooted in a Consciousness that's above elim so he could be everywhere and never be affected by concealment if I would be under you are under elim your souls come from a place so yeah you had to be Shepherds you had to be Shepherds that's why you couldn't understand me this is where he's spilling the beans I'm not my is rooted in such Clarity that I can go to all places and there's no concealment by y there's no concealment there's no disparity there's no fragmentation to everything is one he's not rattled by Paradox you understand he's not he's higher than the Consciousness and therefore even in places where other people say this is concealing this is going to slep me away this is going to overwhelm me ysf is rooted in that space of clear Oneness and because he's anchored there no thought in the world even if it's overwhelming and there's a lot going on both in terms of his personal tragedy and his responsibilities he remained a mover he remained complete completely completely dook completely connected completely and this was what's so astounding they thought he's going to take revenge they destroyed his life YF said first of all you can't destroy my life I'm not under elim I'm above elim but now I'm explaining to you what you didn't understand and therefore don't worry I'm not in this job of taking Revenge I don't have to take revenge because you never took away my power people feel they have to take revenge if somebody stole my power why can't I forgive I can't forgive because in my mind if I forgive I'm going to let go of all the pain you caused me so it's hard it's very hard and we have to be compassionate towards that somebody hurt me and I forgive what does it really mean it means I'm Letting Go in a way not forgiving means I'm still holding on to the pain and therefore I have a witness that tells me that I was pained forgiveness is not something I could just snap my fingers but what YF is teaching us is when I can really go to that solar core when I realize I was always there so then you know what you didn't destroy me you couldn't I thought you did but you didn't so I'm letting it go you know why I'm forgiving only forgiving for you I'm forgiving for me too because when I forgive it really means you don't have any control over me so why should I not forgive not forgiving means you're still working in sanity in my system you understand what I'm saying not forgiving means you're still creating chaos inside of me you still control my life I'm still busy with you y said I'm not under elim now I don't want you to think after this class you could just snap your finger and be there just take just Tak again if if I'm not connected to the Bliss of my soul then the forgiveness is probably going to be done only because I'm forced to forgive because I feel guilty Kipper and my mother called me and said you have to forgive and if not you're going to get punished then I'm not really forgiving I'm just scared of my mother I don't mean my mother I mean whoever that person's voice inside of you could be the mother is inside of you forgiveness is a very deep emotional Place forgiveness not just I say I forgive so this is what YF is explaining to them so now now how does it come together let's see now we'll understand the girls of Egypt looking at ysf when yob wants to bring out this power of ysf what does he say you're you you you were enthralled people were enthralled by you Their Eyes Were attracted to you Ben pyus Al whoever sees you was affected by you this was y's uniqueness this is what saved YF himself his eyes and therefore he could take away his eyes from the wife of ptif focus his eyes on yakob his father he knew where his eyes belong and where his eyes don't belong and therefore his eyes had much more power cuz what he did what did belong to his eyes he can have fully but what y helps a person understand is as long as you can see with your eyes a vision of Y wherever I am I still have the kadus of the Mish I still have the sanctity of shil even the women in what do they have with Y even they were affected by y but here it goes and here we come to the last step in this picture and this is Insight from the through last [Music] source so is pretty powerful women don't have the of of going to the says especially you have a mother with children babies you don't have to make you can H everybody came that was once in seven years every eighth year but every it was a Mitzvah on the older males who can walk not on the women but women had a different Mitzvah it's called to be joyous on the holidays in time of part of that Joy was eating theas so they came to but they didn't have to climb up the har unless they wanted to to go to the which was a on the Mal they could stay in a comfortable Villa in it was pretty packed the old city or wherever they were and then they can eat the carbas there says that's why yob spoke about the girls why because this is really a story of what's going to happen with ysf when you come to the mishkan of the men anyway have to go to the Mish cuz they have a they have to go to the but the women they don't have to actually go to the Mish but they have to eat carbonis so they don't even have to get close as long as they can see it they're good so that's why the when the girls are looking at y it's a foretaste of what's going to happen in the men anyway have to go to shil it's not enough that they see from far because they have a but the girls and the women they just have to eat the so when they see y that's enough I see Y and I'm in I'm already connected wherever they are they can look at the Mish of and they can eat the carbonis and it really represents also a deeper dimension of why yov mentions the girls of because you see practically speaking in yish you see that uh when you talk about you know you talk about genders or different Mitzvah that people have so men have a Mitzvah they have a Mitzvah constantly whenever they have a moment to learn and all the mitzvah whether it's or all these are all of time on the man the woman if she wants she can do it thing but there's absolutely no obligation what's the reason for this one of the reasons this is what yov is expressing generally speaking there's two ways in which a person accesses God's holiness in this world one is yud and one is y one is by Act going into a wall going into seclusion and one is by revealing godliness in the physical world you have for example a what's a y stands two words above my head there's the presence of the so women don't need a y I know they have a sh and before that the idea is the yam means Hashem is above me Hashem is above me the unique power of femininity is he's not only above he's inside that's the idea of an alyah why do men get an Aliyah women don't get an Aliyah so I know most people probably here are not grieving that you're not busy craving your whole life to put on F and get an alyah and Dav on the other side of the what's Aliyah word Aliyah means elevation why I'm being elevated I'm being elevated to the T that's a but then there's something even deeper and that is to find out that where you are is already an elevated space so it's not the yam is above me the yam is inside of me it speaks from me through me so says the is we see by the Mish that the women gave their mirrors and that made that became the K the K the washing Basin was made from their mirror so Rashi says quoting the med the didn't want to accept the mirrors why cuz these you remember because these mirrors were used in for the women to decorate themselves to be able to motivate their husbands who were completely oppressed and completely depleted from all energy so this is more of a base things so what did say this is more precious than any other donation to The Mish this is what created the Jewish what was between and M was looking at it from the perspective of transcendent Holiness so what not was talking about bringing in mirrors from people's bedrooms into the Mishka Hashem says you don't get it this is the vision of the vision of was F but his whole Beauty was a manifestation of hem in this world there was no separation so D these mirrors which created the intimacy and the future of the Jewish children in MIT this is what the Mishka needs and it became the K what's the K the Kure was used to cleanse their hands and feet which made the Kim pure you would think okay you want to use the mirrors fine put them in some Museum the K the K is where the would wash their arms and legs every morning to be cleanse so they're using mirrors to cleanse but the thoughts here are sometimes be disturbing but that's only if you don't understand the N the real n is that this was the ultimate kadus because the ultimate Holiness is not the Holiness that I find when I separate myself which is great and I need that but it's the Holiness that I find within Rel relationships within connection within my kitchen within my living room within my bedroom like it was the young women who grasp this ability that wherever you are in the world I don't need only an Aliyah to go to another place to find Hashem right here right now even when it looks like physical or mundane responsibilities th this is the epitome of Holiness this is the embodiment of Holiness and that's why B they didn't necessarily have to go to the Mish itself but they had to see it and when they saw it that that allowed them to remain connected so now when uh when uh when Yakov says this to YF at the end of his life he's really capturing the key power of Y so right away he says they made him bitter they fought with him in the first means archers but the word also is connected to the word it's also connected to the word half those who believe that you have to have a you have to have a wall they didn't like YF cuz he went out of the wall he went into Egypt he had a vision that was so different they couldn't deal with it but what was the mistake things were there's half and there's half there's split the power of Y was to power of unity so therefore he's no split he's not split half and half he has [Music] a so the Mish was in then the went to after that and there's a there's a Jews couldn't live without a because when you don't have a wall it's very easy to get lost when it says when comes says about what does that mean youram will sit opened up unwalled unwalled why this is where Y and come together like the says in that the split of Y and will seize and they'll become one stick the says so your will be open because the presence of Hashem will be revealed in the entire Cosmos so then the wall that was so necessary can be opened up because the unity will be completely manifested the unity that YF always experienced that we got a taste of Sheila will be manifested literally in the whole world so therefore could be completely open may we see it very speedily in our days now and have a wonderful and blessed week next week There's a class bybl