Vayivez B'Einov #1: Why would Hashem call Haman His “Friend?”

so we had this to finish again I don't know if the word finish is right but at least we went through it once so part of me was like thinking afterwards like what's next you know like after you tackle the Tsum what's next the good thing in is that there's never a let down because every mare it's all the same frequency so it's not like we finished this that what are we going to learn now it's not going to be as you know that never happens CU it's all the same uh it's the same frequency so one sug another Su another Su but it's uh the same energy of Truth and Oneness so we begin a new M today bem since PM is coming it's already within uh within 30 days so we're going to learn how put I hope we'll also learn another M before put another I hope at least we'll learn to before that's the plan so this m as you could see in the headline is that's P 1966 that said during the of PM every year there was a big PM for ban in the middle of the fa and there was a MIM and it's interesting because often you know P him in many circles is considered a day you know people are just like more Tipsy and more lively and it's more like of a fun Tish and you know different performances and put him and put him Tish and put him Titus comedy Etc but the Reb was the opposite put him was hours and hours and hours of of and in a way that was often more than a whole year came out in in in in was quite uh quite incredible and even though sometimes there were people who drank a little but it was thousands of people but with uh usually with a lot of seriousness in a good way seriousness this tremendously deep of all the of life so this is a said put him put him 1966 and U yeah B we're going to learn it I want to thank NE Kaplan for the copies for the beautiful copies really nice okay now the class is dedicated with wishes for a complete and speedy recovery and Le may have a speedy and complete recovery it's interesting also a lot of the they begin with from the that you wouldn't expect for example many of begin with that says like there's a very famous says like says says and uh and and my those obviously once it went into the m even if it's H's words or's words it's part of T and it's the way it's the way the t is quoting them so it's already it's part of but it's interesting that a lot of the are on those this also this begins with an interesting the you have like you know the high notes but you also have other ones this m begins with a the M says chapter 3 Esther chapter three like you see in footnote one that the kinges commanded everybody to prostrate themselves to bow down to H and was the only one who and they told about about the nation of so says it was um I don't know what the right word um huh from the word uh Bush different different similar it was cheap in his eyes it was dismissive in his eyes it was ridiculous in his eyes to kill M himself it was too embarrassing from the word like it was a bush it was a there was a word b what does B mean buz is a from the word embarrassing humiliating he felt it's beneath it's a biz for him to kill one Jew to kill it's just one Jew what are you going to what are you going to accomplish with one Jew there's going to be many the same day you're going to have more M right they come up one after the other so it's an interesting word it's not embarrassing to kill one I mean if you believe in killing Jews so killing one you know but but that was H like one what's that going to be it's below my dignity it's cheap it's worthless it's meaningless it's a waste of my time it's futle to the point that my friends and buddies will be embarrassed by me it's humiliated that's the word used me just see if I translate how they how the the the English professionals translate it look in Safari Safar okay so he translates it like this disdained disdained it was a disdain for him huh byz it was a disdain for him to lay hands on M alone they told him about the nation and the continues instead H plotted to do away with all the Jewish people M people throughout the kingdom ofes and that's when he begins to cast his lot to find out what would be the best month and the best day for his plan of genocidal extermination you know part of the function of the medich was they were extremely attentive to every Nuance in t whether it's in or in the other of the when they hear a word it's like why was this word chosen what's the meaning of it other words could have been chosen right they didn't just learn it as another book where a person writes you know and yeah obviously a a thinker and a good writer chooses the write words but they saw literally every word especially if it was a word that was off color and and and and wasn't so consistent that didn't belong there what's it saying like this word v right you could have used a lot of words to bring out he didn't want to but it was the word like was like this bush this bizan from it was a disdain from now if you believe in killing Jews it's not a disdain to kill one it's a dise what what what's says something interesting so there's a big Med m it's known as es of eser you're looking for the it's the word VZ was chosen as you can expect very meticulously he was a B Ben B meaning he was a shameful person a dis a person filled a person who you can disdain B an embarrassment a humiliation aiz Ben B the child of somebody who was an embarrassment so it's not just VZ is talking about his own thinking thought process that it was cheap for him and embarrassing for him and disdainful and distasteful for him to kill one Jew we're using that word because his thought process describes him he was one big what the Ben we have somewhere else remember you have to remember one of the the way interpret whether it's the second formula is right say every there's 13 formulas 13 principles methodologies that Mo gave the Jewish people how to interpret T because T could be an ambiguous text and you have to apply it to many new cases and laws and scenarios and things are unclear so the thing first thing is the second principle is then it gets complicated all the things we go through every morning this is the beginning of the beginning of the beginning of begins with there's also the son has another but another 32 formulas but we do the 13 each day says isites it's fantastic he says why you start with this so he says like this only a person who cultivated in their life they're entitled to then you could hear then there's something to hear once you cultivated the3 then you could open your mouth if not you know go do some healing work and the is then the like it's going to be it's going to flow cuz he's a channel it's going to flow but for this you has to work through you know all the yeah yeah yeah yeah just the the Fedora theal or the SP or the big black hat or even the Hamburg it's it's not going to it's not going to cut it huh the hurg will do it you're Hamburg I'll C on them so the second one the second one is what doesa mean so it's interesting sha we have a beautiful word today for it because everybody does it every day it's called copy paste what's copy paste when you used to use a typewriter or even in the beginning of a word processor right the fact that you used a certain word on page one or certain paragraph doesn't allow you to use it on page eight you have to retype it but today either you cut and paste or you copy paste copy paste basically means the words that on page eight are really just a copy of the words on page one it's actually the same words I just pasted everything has a source in what's a source and what's means if you have a word in and exactly the same word is used in Millis Esther it was copy paste it's not a coincidence you were talking about something you needed to use the same word now we don't do this in any other form of literature I mean you take any book and you say the guy wrote the word want in chapter one and he wrote the word want in chapter 29 so it's ex relax okay the word want is a normal word and you use it in chapter one you use it in chapter 29 because you're talking about two people wanting something in fact here you were talking about what a cow wanted and here we were talking about what Louis the 14th wanted that's it no connection say okay so you're making even for history the because you use the word there and you use the word here it's connected thematically in fact each one teaches about the other it's giving you something it's telling you it's giving you information cop yeah so it's even more than copy paste I'm just saying it humorously the idea of copy paste is that it's the same word in other words it's not stom disconnected you took it from there you put it here and you had to put that word here that means the way you learn T is not just by learning the meaning of the words that's obvious there's a lot of different ways of learning that are not direct for example this yeah and this is in a lot of things yeah the b in if you ever read the B he has a very interesting mAh every word or almost every word is going to write where else can you find this word in the whole T so you'll you'll for example you'll have a word b right so where else does it say the whole the word it turns out one place a lot of words we think are very popular but the way it's written that way it's only one place didn't have Google and he didn't have didn't have any of this but the right away knew it it says the word it says one more place in and then the B always explains why the same word is used in two places this is all based on this principle so when you'll constantly see this right you'll have the word in one place you'll have the word in another place and you're going to apply it rash in the beginning of for example does it with yeah to learn the of an so the med constantly does this so when it says we want to look where else do we have the where where where anybody knows you have to know for this yeah the very good told us asov cheapened he uh he embarrassed the birthright it says when yov cooked up a stew of lentils right and of my woman's class this week I said the says San the word from ma comes from which word we say somebody did it this week's P says somebody's going to kill somebody be it so the gor says should have said says it's from from cooking up a dish that's those who are learning Sanhedrin now it's going to Bean so the right what's the connection so he says means it Cooks up in you like a pot like a pot you don't cook something in a second it's a process it builds up the resentment the hatred that's what made it really means you planned it it was premeditated it was intentional it was thought out it's not you don't put up the P everything is it doesn't work that way you need to find the fire and you need a light and you need to put in the water and the water gets heated up and then you put in the food everybody who cooks knows microwave ovens K wer gous and even today your wife doesn't like them because they're not healthy and even that takes 60 seconds but it's much faster than bishel radiation so the idea here is just an example that the word is connected to in us it's not connected they talking about cooking so this is very interesting now here it's m the same word v so when it says when yov cooked up a stew of lentils and as came home exhausted and starving and suddenly he sees this delicious dish that seemed so tasty and even healthy it was lentils can go wrong with it so he asks those red lentils look [Music] delicious stuff me up with some of these lentil and yov says no no problem but we need a deal a little money yeah I want you to sell my Birthright and as says I don't need this this whole thing is just one big burden on me take my Birthright and I'll eat my lentils and that's the exchange and the lentils change hands from yov to so the says asov stood up and he ate and he drank and he left that's the end of the story as humiliated or embarrassed or dismissed or degraded the birthright exactly the same word so that's what the med says H is a bu Ben comes from as remember aik was a grandfather a grandson of as alas was the father ofas was as son it says that H comes from that G from that dynast so there was already somebody who's a it's not only as degraded the he degraded himself just like H degrades himself they're degraded people that's what the earlier it says that's why the word is used you're talking about people who are degraded low in English they're called Low lives that's what the M says that's why the word that piece in he continues he finishes off and he says a metaphor for it's written in aric what is it comparable to what is it comparable to the says there was a bird who built a nest a can is a nest right he built a a nest for the for the for the new family for the new Young on the beach means on the bank of the Sea on the bank of the ocean at the edge of the ocean came the ocean and flooded The Nest a wave comes over and swallows up the nest and floods the nest and the nest is throwing into the ocean the bird now goes crazy and vows Revenge how do you take revenge against an ocean you ever tried the bir said I'm not going away I'm going to teach everybody a lesson the yam is going to turn into a I'm going to dry out I'm going to leave it cold and dry this ocean is going to become dry land meaning there will just be a cavity an open empty huge sistern without any water and the the dry land will become the yam abasha is going to is going to hijack is going to take is going to se seize the property of the yam and have the water how do you do this how does a bird do this single-handedly what does he do for that you have a beak or a mouth so the O comes with its mouth or its beak and it takes water and he pours the water into the dry land so he goes to the ocean and with its mouth takes some water spits it out on the beach take some more water spits it out on the beach but that's not enough he made a vow that the yam is going to become Yasha so he takes sand or dust or soil from the dry land and he throws it into the yam hope hoping that maybe after 10 or 20 minutes what's going to happen years I guess he has a lot of patience after 20 billion years what's going to happen what's going to happen is the afer will fill the entire yam and it's going to become Yasha and the Yasha will be filled and saturated with the water of the ocean it's going to become y the bird had a good friend that's what you need friends for yeah to tell you for that you need a friend so the friend of the bird comes and he stands on top of him you know he's surveying what he's doing and he tells him [Music] you are an embarrassment your masle God is masle is embarrassing your luck is really really down the drain you're incapable you're inept you're doing nothing you can't do this you made a goal for yourself that is ludicrous and absurd and unattainable there's nothing you can do to dry out the yam and get rid of the water and take revenge of it go look for another job that's the mus in the med interesting mush what's the Nim so remember he started off this is a mus to understand to understand the psyche of this was hum's goal we're going to dry up the sea we're done we'll take out the water and the Sea becomes dry and the dry land becomes the yam he's making the ocean in a new place and the ocean is done this is his vengeance so this is the bird embodied represented by H who's the friend of the birds you're the fool of the universe you're the of the world listen to what he says I also tried this I tried to exterminate the Jewish people but and it turned out I was inept I was incompetent I couldn't the say after but speaks of that 106 so Speaks now the Jewish people constructed the golden calf they created this calf this Ox that eats the grass so the says intended or he spoke or he planned to destroy them if not from his chosen one who stood up at the breach in front of Hashem to restore his wrath from destroying so tells I tried I couldn't and you you think you're going to get rid of them you're saying they're going to be to destroy to kill to have them all perish you're a joke of jokes you're a jokester I swear to you what's going to happen is as follows your head will be uplifted or in simple English you're going to come out with a head shorter instead of their head you want to lift their head you want to destroy them you want to kill tell them your head is going to be instead of their head they are going to be saved and you are going to be hanked the translation of these words in Aramaic it BRS from the your head will be removed instead of their head is like from the word truma right uplift but here it doesn't mean uplift like it means removed uplifted from the body I guess beheaded hang yeah they're going to be to to be saved that's the word in Aramaic and SLA is hanging is hanging so you're going to be this is a this is the med all the med this is all the same passage we explains the word v that is connected to as embarrassing the fascinating M no yeah so he you see clearly you see clearly how how how the depth that exist in m you know you could read it there's so many questions here he's going to address some of them that right away you understand that without P it's impossible to understand the truth is Al writes in t that he speaks about learning is a collection of all the stories in so says most of the secrets of are hidden over there are embedded there especially the mum the metaphors they're all not all but many strange Parables so it looks like almost like it's entertainment like you know like cute story with this bird I'm a bird I mean what's bird needs help what does it exactly add usually you give a metaphor you know we spoke in The Other M you give a mus because it's such an abstract idea you need to give a metaphor what what are you trying to even to explain with this mus like what what do we gain from the mus there one m a bird m a person but in the Nim suddenly God Says by the way I had to say my idea in the mus the doesn't say I had the same idea he says you need help God Says by the way as they say been there done it it just didn't work problem was if you're not going to get rid of it's nothing is going to work very very different difficult Med says and the first thing you have to understand is what in the the world is the connection between asov embarrassing and degrading the birthright and ham feeling that it's degraded for it's degradable for him to kill only so you're going to say it's true both of them have an expression that's similar true but thematically there's no connection apparently told completely two different subjects here you're talking about H and M that H feels that it's cheap for him and he would be a disdained to himself and his friends if he kills only M okay he needs to kill every single Jew it's embarrassing for him it's ridiculous for him to focus on one Jew even a great Jew as M who was a great leader it's not enough it's a busher that's the topic and here you talking about the fact that he looks at the and he says this is degradable in fact what he really saying is it's two opposite ideas right I mean it's it's not I mean it both represents how they look at something AR and their arrogance and their hat hatred but in this case is looking at the is a holy thing it's a gift it's an opportunity it's cheap for him something that's holy that's good is cheap for him here what's cheap for M murdering what's cheap for murdering M yeah it's not like not that M was was was degraded in his eyes no murdering only M was degradable in his eyes you're not going to say it's a holy thing that's a good thing that it's cheap right you understand it's it's m it's m an opposite in you but yet the med says this is it copy buzz and that's why you use the word Vas and after that comes this so the truth is in every the is it's not a word with a word it's that thematically there's a connection and therefore the same word is chosen the word that's chosen is a symptom of the internal connection like gatria people think that gatria is like a joke right yeah you know Spees somebody else said I mean once you go with is fine especially today it's very easy H ohus yeah he gets UPS direct there was a big has a it's a very very fundamental book in Caba so he writes over there that gatria it's not like people think anybody can make a gatria it starts with the theme the two words have an essential connection but M it's expressed also in the numerology that's the last that's the final uh straw on the camel's back that's not where it begins the same is true with shabi even more and that's T why the is from this place could be applied to this and the from this could be applied to this so that's question number one we also need to understand the metaphor of the bird it's just a story it's a parable leave it let it Let It Go that say that's not how you learn a mus if it's a mus in it's meticulous with all the details you look at that mus he says he ends it could have said another bird came it could have said a person came it says his friend the friend of the bird came stood on top of him and told him you're an idiot you're not going to be able to do it it seems very embarrassing this seems degrading talk about this seems degrading who's H's like his friend Hashem you could have used another word it's very strange when you read the m i mean if you read it like with attentiveness could have said another bird came the eagle came it's a wise man came I mean it's anyway a metaphor so you need his what if it's not [Laughter] his huh his mother came his father came somebody came with what in that meansem is calling him the is calling H's friend really suddenly became his friend now the truth is when you think about what Hashem told hamon it actually makes sense CU what did Hashem tell H I try to do the same thing which of course only makes the question far more alarming it's not just you're using the word friend it's like he's almost telling him I get you you're I also tried really that's what you're telling ham basically you're copying me and learn from my inability to achieve and execute that that's the message and is like M putting himself in the same category something is very very difficult here to understand also the end of the med is also difficult he tells your head is going off instead of their head why does he speak about the head in other words you can tell the bird you think you're going to destroy this ocean you're going to be destroyed you want the ocean to dry up you're going to be dry and dead before the ocean I get that so tell not only are you not going to achieve what you want to achieve what you want to achieve is going to happen to you but he focuses on one the head so you'll say well that's what doesn't actually doesn't say in the story that he that just says that he hung him the fact that he focuses on this is also he doesn't just tell H you're going to go instead of them you know he focuses on the head of H instead of their head that's also why does he focus on that especially afterwards it says they're going to be saved you're going to be destroyed okay you said it but first speaks about the head your head instead of their head so obviously this is NE to understand what he was telling H these are the questions that raises good powerful questions H right right so it's interesting he's telling hamon I triy this and I couldn't what does that even mean like what yeah it's almost like obviously he's not validating what H is saying he's saying you're a but still the way he says it didn't say to it's interesting that in the much you don't have that the friend didn't say I tried doing this years ago you know when I was young and stupid I also try changing the [Laughter] world yeah you know likeis salant said when I was young I tried changing the whole world then I realized a couple of years later I'll just change my country a couple of years later I realized I'll just change my city and then I decided I'll just change my community and then I decided I'm just going to change my family now I'm an old man and I decided I'm only going to change myself and he says and if I would have thought about when I was young Maybe by now I would have changed the world git right so the bird didn't say when I was young and stupid and I thought I'm going to change the Atlantic Ocean and the Pacific Ocean and the Indian Ocean and the Caribbean Ocean and of course you know the Persian Gulf good luck with that I also try to do this or the Mediterranean yeah I also try to do this he doesn't say that he just says your masle is ridiculous and you're Shan you're going to lose it and we understand why because no bird tries to do this you know it's not going to work take a little water take a drink and go home fle fle don't don't try to confront the ocean but here in the NS like a the creator of the world couldn't get this done good question so you're going to get it done which brings us of course to all these it's all expanded questions right why would he even try to do it and it's almost like like a like even I tried why why what is the in that why you telling that he tried it's after the it was after this is talking about after the golden calf was created so he told me many leave me alone this this is not working this relationship is not working this whole purpose is not working I'm going to start over with you and that's when M stood up and he said if you don't forgive them he fought and fought and fought until aced that's what it says if M his b his chosen one did not did not stand at the P at the breach at the at the vulner vulnerable moment of instead right to restore his ey to remove is like to remove his like it says his anger from making destroying it would have worked but M stood in the way these are all the Shas all this will be understood at least to some degree that we could understand this there's a long long explanation which this year the it's 100 years from the passed away right before 1866 so of 1966 was 100 years from his right so that's why when he said this it's 100 years from the from the and actually next year is going to be 60 years from this is is it's 59 years ago so is 60 years from I'm just adding that so there it begins with the words has a that begins with these words of the M that is the metaphor for is this bird quotes the whole M and this m is printed it's printed today which is a whole sa on the and over there this is printed asked this question how does the med use the Marshall that the friend of the bird came and spoke to him how can you justify this expression when it comes to in what way does he relate to very interesting words what way does he relate to as a friend that this question actually originates in the wrote a commentary on the T yeah on it's called it's a very long commentary on Milla his commentary is called Mas and the AL lived in the AL lived in the time of the of the b um he's buried if you go to the old Cemetery inas where they have the bunch of graves that are blue they're dyed blue so one of them is in that group over there of the great m they lived in the 1500s huh yeah yeah the is the was a uh was a great great gone and of course and he used to give every shabas and from that he constructed his commentary on the T known as the so has a commentary is from who was also living at that time he was a brother-in-law of the raak he was actually killed by an Arab in he also wrote a commentary on on the Milla it's called mon he was a Le he wrote a called Beautiful commentary so the has an amazing commentary called Jews didn't stop writing right so the actually asked this question had a mind he everything so he always references everything this is an Al so I actually looked up last night Al I wanted to see what's a good question what does the AL say so the gives a what's his T it's a long Al wrote very long with Al is that actually the med is saying something it's quite meticulous of course but Al says that Hon's point was really God you know that I'm your friend because nothing happens hon became a a cabalist he says nothing happens in this world without you so if I want to kill the Jews and I'm going to be successful it's only because you want it so we're we're essentially friends I'm just your I'm just doing your it's your world it's your people I can't do anything without you so you know the truth you want it not me I'm actually doing God's will yeah brings us I'm your servant in fact in my servant so first of all what are you getting angry at me I'm your best friend I'm the guy who does what you want that's was huh that's called real gas lighting yeah real guys in other words not only should you not punish me yeah I should be the first one I should be the first in giden where did I get my thoughts from yeah it's all yours my thoughts are from yours and the planning and the execution what something can happen in this world without you especially something so grand for the Jewish people we're friends I'm your buddy I'm your man so the AL brings out a whole first that he brings out is the upup it's true what happens is my will but you're you care about my will and my yeah for you you don't care at all about that all you care about is you hate the Jews and you want to murder them that that's that's the and he brings out that the mush over there is connected to the fact that amalik built a nest and a a bird a bird built a nest and the nest was because the Jewish people are considered the right the Earth is going to be filled with Divine awareness like the water covers the Sea and the nest was built in order to destroy the Jewish people the yam came and flooded The Nest is when sha was sent to obliterate amalik but sha left one bird one bird which is the king of amalik and that bird is dedicated for one thing Revenge Revenge Revenge and what's the Revenge the revenge is we're going to dry up we're going to destroy the whole sea there's going to be nothing left from this that's the vision of the bird so he uses the word this is one of the points in the over there says and this mare will see the whole L on a completely we would call different frequency right right yeah and from Muhammad's perspective his TI is I'm doing your well I'm your friend and you're my friend and God is saying no no no you're going to be destroyed and they're going to be saved you're just a an evil an evil plotter that ansers yeah right yeah he doesn't discuss the the the beginning of the med just this that's true that's true the whole context the whole context seems strange the whole context seems strange and also it's difficult still because in the M he doesn't say the guy thinks he's his friend the bird comes and he says oh you're my friend no he says comes his friend it's much like almost that's the reality right so it's but it's still uh still difficult so the is going to take it to a whole different frequency so to speak and there everything falls into place he continues the and it changes the subject of course of course what else should we talk about so for this you have to understand why the came down yeah you could trust that whatever you're talking about yeah we're talking about this you're going to go back to the core what is the secret called life the comes down the M yeah yeah you have to tackle the tum yeah I listened to the m yesterday from the Deb I heard of the tape before I teach I like to hear it because you hear all the emotions and everything no I started to cry because I realized who's talking about we're talking about a m a sick anti-site wants to kill every jeice let's stick to the subject right you would say stop but the truth is that this shows you yeah that really this is what has to be tackled in every situation in other words as we spoke in the previous M many times there's so many different distractions in life but if you want to touch theud of life it's in it's the experience of pure Infinity that comes in to a completely alien environment everything else is a room and a room and I'm making AAS it's like I can go to the store I can go to this thing I can go with this distraction we're going back here to the core and and and when you're talking about a person's life that's the Priceless gift of clarity Priceless gift of clarity is there's a lot of stories and the stories are real but to live in that story and Define that story as the core issue is ultimately a distraction not because the person doesn't mean well and not because the person the story isn't authentic it's authentic and it's important to acknowledge it but huh a what do I mean a ultimately it's just the way the ultimate truth and pain of existence played itself out in this person's life and that is what on a higher level is what we spoke about theim in the previous so that's what he goes to later we'll see the connection also to the med so the comes down it's an expression in means from the high roof from the highest elevation to the deepest B to the deepest pit meaning it's not just a gradual descent that you go from the second floor to the first floor to the basement means from the tallest and highest and loftiest of spaces IG means a roof a gag which means very elevated ra is a lofty and B is a which is under the ground and it's aik which means it's deep so it's from the highest of heights to the lowest of the lows or as you would say from the source of light into to a dark abyss all the way down to this world so the cloud the principle here is that this now the term is a term from a very interesting concept there it's talking about somebody who kills somebody unintentionally so right there's a question if you have an axe you're a butcher and you're busy carving or cutting the meat so you take the what's the word for the axe he uses over there the C clever right what was it called the the cleaver the cleaver what's the word in Hebrew uh I guess the sck he takes the Cleaver and he lifts it up and brings it down over the meat to cut it and by mistake either it falls out of his hand or it hits the person and that it kills the person unintentionally right so the question is if it was or it was if he was going up or he was going down or he was putting it down in order to lift it up you did it so it's interesting that all these terms are used in about the process of the Soul coming down but it's not St coming down it's and I think it's not a mistake that it's used here because it's like a because the greatest danger of the that could be that the soul could die unintentionally or we could inflict harm on others in other words it's a dangerous descent it's not stopped you're coming into a place where there could be emotional death there could be other forms of death disassociation Detachment so we saying this whole what's the all of the is The Souls of is the way they stand in their original state where every person where every soul is the so the source is known inab it's known as the the name of Hashem called ma 45 basically Y and he and V and hashem's name when it's written out fully it makes up 45 is 20 he is he Al is another six so that's 26 V is another 13 so it's 37 right did I get it right again is 20 and then you have a hey is hey Al is six so you have huh 26 and then V Al is 139 so 39 and then you have he Al which is another six so it's 45 from 39 you get to 45 and cabal this is known as sh the name of hasem that makes up 45 which is really the whole yud and he and V and he spelled out fully if it's just y k v k it's 26 but when we say it you say yud yud right hey V it's v v that's the way it's spelled out fully it's called with the mil with the fillers the the word fully expanded even though when we write it we'll just do a y and a he we're not going to write out y but when you write it out fully you have sh ma the name of hasm that makes up 45 that's called ma ma is also the of the word Al is one is 44 so 45 we spoke in the last from the about right bringing together that's and that's what represents so that's what he say and that's also known as the world of Correction of integration of healing where things work together with Tik TI means they're fixed they're organized there's a cohesiveness in the soul this Soul which comes from the is the name of and comes from it goes down and what does it mean it goes down to work together to work the to do its work in sublimating the body and the animal Consciousness and the world three things the soul comes into a body the body is vivified by the neam is by the animal Consciousness which is the soul force of the body and is the world that it inhabits and deals with with throughout its entire life this is a tremendous from Pure Infinity from Pure into a completely new reality and it's working with this then can't escape it the body is my temple the animal soul is my container there's nothing you can do in this world without your animal soul from eating and from breathing and from going to the bathroom and from sleeping and from taking care of every biological necessity and Instinct and urge of survival that's the animal s so the whole the is now defined by this Temple by this container and then there's the world that it encounters everybody whatever the part of the world that they're dealing with so this is a tremendous so we say yeah this is how the N learns who it is this is what allows the Nish to be elevated to a to an incredibly higher state of consciousness deeper than it was originally how can that be where you throw it into a mess and it has to figure itself out and everybody's sitting in this room or at least most people sitting in this room hopefully by now know how many years it could take to figure yourself out and even figure out one day that you're a soul not a body and you're a Divine Soul not an animal Consciousness right and even after you figure it out there's still a little more work to figure it out every day and not the full prey so this is a huge this is a huge undertaking to put it to put it mildly it's quite an investment we're Spiritual Beings living a physical yes if we were physical beings with spiritual simulations as in The Matrix the whole question wouldn't apply then there would be another question what are you making jokes but we're Spiritual Beings living a physical life and having a physical experience but that very notion to come to that viscerally how much work does that take how much pain does that take it's a big you read it's not simpl this in mathematics no quantum physics so either your conscious having material experience or you matter that somehow prod yeah that's that's a huge question yeah of course of course yeah the difference of classical and quantum physics this is a major difference is it matter that somehow produces Consciousness or it's Consciousness that actually produces matter in a person's life is it the brain that produces Consciousness or the brain is actually a product of Consciousness and it's a huge difference it's a huge difference it has tremendous ramifications they used to think that Consciousness is a derivative of matter today everything changed matter is a der derivative of Consciousness matter exists exists because of Consciousness which means which means which means matter exists because I think it exists it's the approach it's the Consciousness that actually creates so we learned in the previous what Al says if the eye had permission to see you remember it wouldn't when it would look at physical matter it would perceive immediately that it's all it's all Divine Consciousness all Divine energy and the go wouldn't even be wouldn't even occupy space so this you did this on where its entire life is now in the dealing with it so he says this is what the this is what causes the soul to be elevated to completely higher M why why so you might say it crystallizes it it tests it it's push back it's resistance it builds muscle meaning it's the pressure that pushes you back that allows you to flex your muscles to show Power which is all true but says it's really much deeper than that it's really much deeper because the real healing is when you understand that it's not your enemy that's coming to push back it's opposite because the truth is everything that it inhabits below is working they're rooted in which pred preds T the world of which literally means chaos disintegration it precedes the world of TI and when we say precedes it doesn't mean proceedes in time one existed 10,000 years ago one exist started 5,000 years ago what we mean Isa preceding it means in mil in quality in other words in terms of expression of the trer energy in life to is higher than TI now those that's a big statement you're talking about the body the ne ofam in the world so it's not just that they become enemies to give push back to the soul so that the soul can prove itself no there's an energy inside of them that the soul yearns to integrate and that's why it's only by the encounter and the entanglement and the conversation and the ongoing relationship and marriage between the Divine soul and the animal soul in the body in the world it encounters that the soul reaches its own Aliyah it gets to know who it is and come something that even before it didn't experience we had to the it's connected to the last piece in that we spoke you mean that the concealment the darkness is rooted in a much deeper place at yeah the same is true it says in that its complaints its position is superior to the position of the in other words it says my ESS come first I was here first doesn't mean he was here first it means there's an intensity in the animal consciousness that is very powerful we think its intensity is because the Divine soul is weak the is going to show the intensity of the animal Consciousness is because it's real intensity is because it's coming from to Which is higher than ti so the soul basically cracks the code of the animal Soul that's what happens right that that's where AID a is you're not fighting your animal Soul you're actually teaching your animal Soul where its intensity is coming from it's coming from T so when that happens two things happen the animal Soul gets elevated but you know what else happens the Divine Soul gets elevated it's a give and take relationship yeah higher than tikon because it came in came in contact with T so at the surface you're talking about two enemies as we're going to see it's going to be a big AR here and at best I could say push back you're fighting me you're pushing me back I'm going to fight you back stronger so it's helpful for you to C cze your priorities to become a man as they say to become a woman whatever you know you got to fight which is also very powerful but here he's saying something much deeper that there's a secret there's a Code there's a password you have to get through the ne is eclipsing its energy its real DNA is Which is higher it's more spiritual it's more Divine than TI even though it doesn't look that way it's true we're calling it an animal Soul we're not calling it a Divine soul and this encounter which is so deep and intimate and intricate and has so many vulnerabilities and possibilities to jeopardize the Divine soul and the animal soul is really a Priceless gift and opportunity for encountering its true source of intensity which is it's aode m so that animal animal soul is pre-programmed completely programed right so the the the the combination of the the the highest Soul the human soul and the animal soul is just to be able to harness something which was program preprogram so of course once you harness it you become much more powerful without harnessing okay you're just a creation also different level of creation maybe not beautiful so high beautiful yeah he's saying the word code is very meticulous cuz the animal soul is programmed to be what it is it's pre-programmed it Focus has to be survival and it will develop anything to be able to live in survival what it means what survival means in the vision of the animal Soul which is a very limited Vision it's not our enemy deep down it's not our enemy it could look like your enemy and it can do things that an enemy does no question that's and that and and that's part of that's part of the confusion yeah that's part of the distraction if you crack the code if you go to the back end of its program you'll see really it's a manifestation of that's what it is and precisely by dealing with it the reaches its ultimate aliy and it was worth to come down so low to Babel it's not just a gradual descent it's like jumping off a cliff more than jumping off a cliff and we spoke in the last moment about the abandonment wound that wound of Abandonment of the soul that was m and suddenly boom dropped welcome welcome yeah now and it's important to understand this I don't mean philosophically I mean viscerally right imagine the is and that's its entire reality that's its identity those are its Mo emotions and instincts and urges and it's literally thrown off a cliff and part of being thrown off a cliff is that it doesn't remember where it came from right it's not like oh you know that's my home doesn't remember anything in other words it really remembers but in terms of the body Consciousness there's no memory and it gets dropped off into this new crazy reality right and there's a bunch of clowns there welcome to a beautiful home he he he hey and there's balloons and there cotton candy and there's chocolate smling chocolate and there's a couple of stuff of there's some sushi and even fly and [Laughter] yeah that's supposed to heal it but okay I get [Laughter] it right and and their job is to make you comfortable in your new home it's like a first day in Camp you know the counselors we're going to have an amazing I want my mother no and here's your mattress but this is not called a mattress it's called straw you remember the mattresses in Camp what mat if you had a mattress right but no and now the neam now takes over and says this is great we're going to make this work and it it does whatever it has to do to make this reality and this is this becomes the new reality and this reality is all about survival and whatever that means and sometimes my entire life that's where I'm living and I develop all my instincts and urg and I figure out what's the best way to cope and survive and then the worst thing happens is I I don't even know there was a jump anymore so this is the only reality so now for not fitting in how many people walk around this world why don't I fit in like why am I not enjoying this uh social you're not enjoying it because nobody's enjoying it they're all miserable it's just everybody learned to smile there can't be an enjoyment when you know dis misaligned with yourself there's no such a thing either you're aligned with your you're not aligned with yourself either the the code is cracked and you know what it really is about and then you could be aligned and if not it's just another distraction another distraction another distraction another distraction some people just know how to distract themselves for longer and much more efficiently and usually the more sensitive ones are the more miserable ones because it's like this does not feel good this this does not feel right Josh you understand I wish okay good good [Music] answer this is very very important it means means it's is higher it has a Divine energy that is more reflective of the Divine source and hence it's intense its intensity is because it's there's a strength there that's more powerful yeah yeah the is to integrate to into t h yeah yeah so by sublimating by being the word b is from the word right by having Clarity it's always about Clarity Clarity like in only called what's is selecting dissecting the from Theus so what does B mean b always means Clarity this is coping survival skills this is divine that b the B of the that Clarity is everything means you're being present in the situation and you have Clarity what is what what is coming from what and what's the price I'm going to pay for going down this Rabbit Hole or for abstaining from it yeah it's almost like when you're eating you know people who are conscious of the food that they eat and they they they're looking for nutritious Val especially suffering from diabetes or other stuff and they need to be very very careful right it's like a piece of food you ask yourself you know what's in this food what's the price I'm going to pay if I digest it what's the price I'm going to pay if I don't mindful eating exactly that's what means every moment I come in contact with my and anything in the world is from the word Let There Be Clarity what is happening you're going down a path now maybe one be one bite of food but it's a path that's called a it has to be b b is not pressure B is liberating it's Clarity it's it's it's it's it's owning it's owning yourself and it's knowing that thoughts words and actions have a price right somebody once said you know the cost of doing business as usual it adds up it accumulates you know the the the the emotional load on the brain it accumulates it's the cost of doing business as usual there's a cost if breakfast lunch and supper is dedicated to Cheesecake every single day over a few years there's going to be a cost the body at some point is going to say here eat the Kasha that you digested here's the Kasha and the same is true with everything in life means don't delude yourself there's a real system there's a real hierarchy there's a real reality don't deny your life force and energy now the Animal Soul doesn't know know all this doesn't like this language not because it really doesn't like it but because it's used to surviving in a certain way that's what it does that's how it got its validation that's how it got its love that's how it became successful that's how it gets your bills paid or it's trying to get your bills paid doesn't it doesn't know better and it's all really T so so here is going to be that there's a secret here that it's hiding it itself doesn't know it's secret because if it would know it's secret it wouldn't be hiding it doesn't know it's secret again there's a password Here the animal Soul itself is talking and talking and talking and plopping and plopping and plopping but there's an energy here that you need to understand and the reason it's so powerful is not because evil is powerful but because to is powerful we mistake its power as a brute lowly power really that's also camouflaging that is a holy power there beautiful paradig in what in theam langu Compu systs it's m there is such called interrup else so that it was also part of the design probably from animal soul that it can be interrupted so it means you can interrupt and that's the time where you can actually enire what is it is it so you're saying in a backend program you interrupt the program there is such a thing as inter interrupt very nice you can basically it's interrupt is is a hardware very nice Hardware instruction to the program which says now you have a chance to do something which is basically analyzing what what you just went through wow so there is it's a concept in computer so this is a hardware a hardware program it's basically instruction in the CPU in the in the computer program which says can over and what's going so the you saying gets to look at itself interrup I just Interruption he's saying the purpose of every sh is this interrupt okay so creates in the which comes from T not from it's knowing the explanation explanation the words of the says in that I took you out of Egypt and I fed you the Mana in the desert to teach you that a human being doesn't live on bread alone a human being lives on m means on the utterance on the words that come out of hashem's mouth meaning from hm's energy so literally it means that God was showing you that bread is not just what sustains you Hashem is sustaining you through the bread and therefore he gave Mana in other words the source of life was hem takes it much deeper and says it's not the in the the is saying something else and that is he's not saying it's not the bread that gives you food God gives you food say no don't this is classic he's not divorcing from he's telling you what the GM is you learn bread is nothing bread is nothing God God gives you life what's the impression yeah don't get a job for example that's not the the is it's not the the in the what do you think is you think is bread you think is it's divine energy it's it's the the that creates the grain that creates the every kernel in spell I'm doing it with a today because you're not let to eat weed [Laughter] anymore so every every every every every kernel in that grain what is it the chemistry ultimately is spiritual Divine chemistry don't look at the as this isolated physical creature give me another give me another bagel that's in other words bread has energy bread is the every food is divine energy the that gives you how did it happen that the world you know this random experience that all these things that grow happen to be exactly suitable to feed all of our bodies and replenish our cell and keep every organism alive every human and every animal and every bird and every insect and every fish you know it's pretty randomly the the ecosystem and the food system and the chain food web and chain web it's like it's so balanced and perfect and meticulous like you're looking at a peach so you really it's might which is a code that's why it's called Vash of course it's called vashem because it's a code the best word spiritual words for a code for a system like DNA for a sequence of energies or chemicals is De words that's what words do sequence of letters sequence of letters and that's exactly what they call DNA which is the the backend program of every living organism so the way put it is it's all God speaking cu the whole world is essentially a code that's what it is and the closer you get to the core of things the closer you're getting to the code this is what AR says here is the famous question question I don't understand I don't understand does the chemistry of the human body and the human soul the human consciousness is also that creates the human brain so you're right noest but why am I looking for the grain the grain is not looking for me because the energy that vivifies and animates the person is in a lower level than theem in the bread that a person eats and the person is already the the way it's integrated in the world of and therefore even though it's but it needs the bread cu the bread and he says bread here is a mush for everything in the physical world so it's bread and it's fruits and it's vegetables and it's meat it's all produce and it's everything we deal with in the world also might but which might from the world of and therefore the person needs it why is it we need you take away from us is the inanimate Earth is D snow is d d is inanimate inorganic matter what looks silent is the whole world of produce the world of B everything that grows is the world of the animal kingdom we desperately need you get rid of we can't live for a moment all of everything we need every meal comes from you can't live without it even if you're a vegan you're living off if you're a vegetarian you're living off or living off eggs whatever it is or you're living off don't need us most of the animals actually would probably be huh better off yeah the forests are not looking for us the rainforests are find stay stay where you are stop cutting me down the deer would be happier the beers would be happier the squirrels would be happier You Remember by Corona when the streets were empty and suddenly the deer would took over the place was got for them got rid of the M here who came and took over our world a human being can't live without why is it why is it that the human being which is the crown jewel of creation is desperately the dependent on all the lower forms of creation and they're not dependent on us something is off the child is dependent on the parent more than the parent is dependent on the child the is because the come from and is higher than needs that's what he says it's only because fell down low so the person needs to elevate them back to their Source that's what they need of the person is only by going down into to be to clarify to dissect it and to elevate it because they come from which is which precedes so that's why they don't need a person they do need the person to bring them back to who they are that they do but when you look in survival yeah the tree is a tree the animal is an animal the fish is a fish they're doing very very well we must have the fish to survive we must have the tree to survive because that's the the the the soul the ti the system is it's looking for it you need it it's not a mistake so it's not like the soul could have stayed up there the soul needs needs the body it needs the animal Consciousness it's getting something very deep so this teaches us a whole different dimension of the it's not just a into crazy darkness that you're going to fight through and then you're going to have a receipt and you're going to be allow in purpose this's purpose and every part of the journey is the destination in other words any Instinct of my animal Consciousness is another spark of to that's coming to be redeemed and every day you'll be dealing with other stuff because once you dealt with one layer of to there's another layer it's like an onion there's you know different layers layers and layers so every day literally there's something else to surrender there's something else to be Mila you'll say but I'm already done I did the work I got it now we take you to the next step yeah those who play computer chess right there's a lot of levels right you go to the eighth level a move could take a half an hour hard hard huh it gets harder and harder on one level but it also gets easier and easier because you have clarity you understand what I'm saying once you have Clarity you know this is this is going to cause you no this is going to cause you Bliss so it's not a question anymore it may be hard because the is is is is is scared right but what happens often is that the clarity could become eclipsed in other words part of the copy mechanism of the is doesn't tell you that it's coping it tells you this is reality so therefore the person could get confused right that's why we must have the education the awareness the psyche the learning of this is so critical constantly because learning doesn't lar learning doesn't create a regulated nervous system learning doesn't create emotional integration learning does not change and heal emotions but learning is the Paradigm it's the foundation that if you're ready to do the work you have a reference point this is where it's at and it's not going to change the is never never ever going to surrender to the copy mechanism of the neam it's just never going to happen no reion there's no revision like this is reality and and and but it's good news because if this is really reality it's the only source of reality it's it's real so every other source of bliss is going to be a Fantasia you know what a Fantasia fake news and it's going to get you nauseous at the end but there's a grieve grieving element because if my neam has did something for 50 years to cope to say goodbye to that is you have to make a you have to escort it goodbye you have to do it with empathy it's almost you have to make a ceremony with your animal Soul you have have to sit it down and say listen we did something for 50 years we're going to say goodbye and you know what you have to cry with it it was hard these coping mechanisms were my friend they were crazy friends but as we'll soon see what a friend is they were crazy friends but they were friends they were trying to protect me in their own mind they meant well they wre Havoc but they really meant well they meant well and this is even your addictions and your craziness and your insanity and even your ability to shut down half your heart or whole your heart and become detached and become like a zombie and a robot and become entrenched in ridiculous habits or just futle habits whatever it is every person in their own life this one with anger and this one with hate and this one with jealousy and this one with people pleasing and this one with spinelessness and this one with aggression and fight and flight fight and flight and pleasing and foring and freezing whatever you'll you'll talk to your uh your best friend to to to give you the diagnosis right it's almost the animal Soul developed all of these Midas to as it says in Tanya to survive depression disassociation complete numbness emotional death it was literally survival now to come and say we're going to make a Laya you have to make a Leva with respect you don't just bury the mace huh yeah you don't right you don't break up sending a text so the yeah you break your T you made from one two meaning so a few years ago one of my uncles passed away my mother's brother-in-law my mother's sister's husband his name was SCH Merlin so we were I was I was at the cemeter so it was it was a cold day it was winter day I think actually wasat and uh and it was a very worked very very fast and I like 10 15 minutes it was already over so my brothers bar his name is bar he turns to me and he says a guy lives for 75 years yeah and he disappears in 15 minutes he says how does that work 75 years a person lives and in 15 minutes boom everybody's going home you know it's it's it's it's it's the tragedy of life right the tragedy of Life what you invested so the point is is 50 years 52 years 60 years 40 years 30 years whatever whatever the number you got to apply is it's been doing something a certain way and it developed let's face it we're all here today it accomplished its Mission and that was also a holy Mission the holy mission was to keep you alive Tortured disassociated full of anxiety we got it but alive okay but alive yeah they came to SCH they said you know was yeah you understand some people yeah he's dead AIG the main thing is you know I have my coffee in the morning Iz Friday you got your stuff so you can't just say by that's really what a funeral what's a funeral I don't mean to use this dark you what's cover the mess cover don't just with respect so even when you're bearing this part because you realize it was never alive it was never alive so you're bearing it you can't just bury it with with dismissiveness with disdain it doesn't work that way cuz then it comes back to bite you cuz it really worked hard there's almost a grieving process of together like saying goodbye to this old coping crazy insane mechanism that kept me here and and and and it's a dignity it's not a dignity because you're you're in doubt you're so not in doubt it's so clear what this is and because of that it's almost like the more you the more you I'm going to say something weird the more you have respect for it the more you get rid of it because you know really what it is like you can have empathy for it you understand the less you have respect for it it's going to come back tomorrow yeah get get rid of the the clip of it the shell the hust the LIE the fake news of it the the coping The Substitute that's what you're getting rid of you understand when you have respect for it it allows you to have empathy for it so then when you say goodbye to it it's a real goodbye it's like I get you if it's without respect if it's like you get out of my life that's what the says you're breaking the T you just got two tomorrow it's going to come back more you see it practically with everybody you see this you get angry just it's the neam getting rid of the ne shamas you know how successful is you hire the GH of to be The Bodyguard you ever do that right you understand Yas arat gets the Nobel Prize for Peace you know you take the Palestinian Authority to take care of Gaza you know what that looks like right you understand you take the biggest murderers who are camouflaged themselves as not to to to to it's a joke whenever you break your TAA with shame and guilt you're using the energy that you're trying to heal from to heal you it's your Brokenness that you're using to heal you so how much healing is there going to be cuz all shame and guilt is coming from this sense of disassociation that's why there's never growth through shame and guilt it's not a Jewish thing shame and guilt forgive me and if you have shame and guilt about the fact you have shame and guilt you're even it's even worse [Laughter] cuz now it's like I'm really dead now why do I have shame don't have shame idiot and that's what people do especially when it comes El I don't mean to remind anybody how much shame and shame and now I have shame cuz I have shame and and RAB why said you're not supposed to have guilt so now I'm guilty that I don't that I have guilt and it's an it's it's an endless cycle but these are all just copy mechanisms of survival that are complete disassociation with your reality and it's not intellectual it's it's it's it's it's regulated That's The Power of this V when you say it's to you're not trying just to give up philosophy it means when you're saying goodbye to it it's with dignity it's understanding what's happening it's even understanding its intensity that's what bidder looks like so now when I make a l for these copy mechanisms and I say goodby by hopefully forever it's in a different way it's with h you could cry you could cry with aam yeah this was this is this is I did the best I can with the tools I had to survive the is what we're saying huh a it's not right it's not just a nameless crook a criminal a mafiosa Godfather without a name it's not that put him at sa go visit once in a while it's very important this we as much as our animal soul is called our enemy it's really a it's really there's a friend [Music] here there's a friend now there's a friend and a friend let's not push it okay there's a friend who you trust for Asis and a friend that you borrow money from if he has money and you pay back and there's a friend and there's a friend friend who's a true partner and colleague who gets you and you get him I'm not saying that the neab can be very very deceptive but a friend in the sense that in his own mind he's doing the best he can to protect you and for that you need that and that doesn't mean I Surrender that doesn't mean I make B don't make boundaries that doesn't mean I become prey to these mechanisms that are completely destructive means I appreciate the mechanism and the system and there's no reason for me to live in shame because this was exactly why my soul came down to the world welcome to the club thank you that's why the people who are worked out are the least judgmental people people think that the opposite of judgmentalism is that you don't care so much you don't have such sh in other words people who are real are judgmental you're a low life you're a low life you're a low life cuz I Fear God and if I really fear God you're all a bunch of low lives if I'm not judgmental is because I'm a liberal Progressive left weak spineless pop psychology uh woke cancel you know open-minded free-spirited Bohemian bahim bohemian mean bahim that's the choice judgmental people are intense to have and non-judgmental people have no values but it's really the opposite it's really it's really that's that's really Thea it's really the opposite the moment you understand the truth of theam judgmentalism is a ridiculous word because everybody's soul is dealing with tremendous amount of copy mechanisms and everybody figures it out in their own way so what exactly are you judging what exactly is the shameer what exactly is the guilt that's why people who are worked out they don't Flinch with these things of course it's not like should I still accept you should I not accept you the moment you have a vision of a person's NE you get it you get it so we can hold space for where you are right now and we can hold space for the greatness that's going to emerge after you work out these stuff and you don't have to judge and dismiss and the moment I'm busy with judging I'm busy with my own copy mechanism it's like my own dirt that I didn't deal with that's what it is you're triggering my discomfort so if I could say you're a sick person I'll feel a little better they Juds of course that's what the B says another person is a mirror really it's all judgmentalism is a form of judgmentalism on yourself you know huh especially your kids oh yeah cuz they trigger really but it's hard for me to say I'm judging myself so it's on you but it's really me I'm just talking about me yeah somebody once said A wise man he said nobody ever talks about anybody else everybody's always talking about themselves I only see in you what I see in me even though I'm talking about you what do you mean I'm talking about you I know I'm talking about you but I'm talking about myself cuz I'm I see you through the prism of me so how can I be talking about you who said it that guy also himself but he knew he was talking about himself that's the difference says call the call people see everybody's leprosis besides their own literally it means that a do not let us see his own because he's not objective everybody sees everybody's leprosy all the leprosy you see on the outside is just a reflection this doesn't mean the other person doesn't have issues that's how was knew that people have issues trust me he was naive but it means the issue I have with your issues is not your issue it's my issue right the story about the story is my story not your story so that's why when you understand this the in of of the it's a radical acceptance of the reality and it's a radical non-acceptance of the darkness of the reality yes and that's how you transform it it's a radical acceptance of the reality there's nothing to be ashamed you could talk about everything the right person the right context but it's a radical together with that comes a radical radical sensitivity to the fact that I'm not going to fall prey to the darkness of the reality and what it's presenting itself as on the contrary don't run away from it by running away from it you're running away from your Tas which is to finding your to to be able to elevate it don't get sucked in but don't get sucked in by the way it's camouflage because you you need it to find is the spark so not only must you not run you have to embrace it because this is where it's at the doesn't say I'm not going down of course you're going down this is where it's all at you're ging your and your world but when you embrace it know what to embrace you're embracing because you're searching for that which is at the depth of the that's the in the bread is much deeper than the in the and that's why you need the and the bread to survive it's not just cuz our cells right need Amino acid and amino acid comes from the soil because it's in the nitrogen that merges with the oxygen that goes into the rain that goes into the soil that the animals eat so we get amino acids so our cells can be rebuilt it's very gmak that and it suddenly explains scientifically why lightning is essential to survival so that's all part of the intricate design but the pous of all that is that theem there that my cells need and my soul needs and that interaction is giving me something very powerful so when I'm eating something the food is giving me something not just physical the food has a spiritual energy that has a power over me and that's why it has a power over me because it has a spiritual power over me the mistake we make is we allow the physical aspect of it to overpower us and then we actually lose the plot cuz now what happens instead of me helping the food go back to its source I was hijacked by the outer shell and boom the food is like H this guy lost the plot again let's hope next meal he uh you know let's hope by next meal he comes back to himself huh the Sparks of food come from to that's why a person needs them so the food essentially needs me to bring it back to its source but I need need the food to be able to get in touch with and that's why there's such intensity you say why is this what what's the big deal about this you know that in 5 minutes you're going to be in the bathroom right that's basically it revolves around 9 seconds the whole restaurant industry yeah how much does it take for the waiter how long the waiter to come with the fancy plate with the music right and the stew and the chin the fried stir Fred whatever your taste is it comes with a beautiful plate colorful yeah whatever but it's colorful and he puts it down yeah how long is that presentation you're starving you come to a restaurant starving that's why Jews go to restaurants that's why they order the whole menu and then you eat it right once it's in your saliva like after 3 seconds if if if you if if somebody would if the waiter would take it out of your mouth and redeliver it yeah you would sue the comp sue the restaurant for $4 million or $20 million so what's this presentation about a couple of seconds that's a multi-billion dollar industry but when you're hungry from them I get it all tus are that way everything everything is that's what we do so the food needs me but I also need the food but what I need in the food is the NIT of it so that's mindful conscious eating and the same true with every encounter with this world either I tears me away from alignment or I elevated it I sublimated I become a Masia so that's the relationship we have with it the the was once eating he would eat with a spoon so it was it was a soup with loction you know soup with with with spaghetti so he was picking it up and it kept on uh kept on slipping slipping down so after a few times he smiled he says he's not ready ready for the B it's a glitch in the system he's he's not ready yet okay interesting who speaks like that about you speak like that about soup and LU just gulp it down and 20 seconds later you know eat the course there's a relationship that's real they say he was also once eating soup it was and he was sitting by the table and he was he was thinking and while he was thinking with his with his spoon he was like you know uh moving it around and it was it was a it was a deep Bowl so he had a masarus in the house a guy his name was rendel a lot of the gab didn't have a lot of SE that's why they were hired because they didn't know what they're seeing what they're not seeing they didn't have SE always you could trust them more you know they didn't analyze they just so this guy was known his name was Mendel Mendel the masarus he wasn't the brightest kid on the Block let's put it that way but he was he was loyal so uh so so he thought that is looking for the because he's like this going for like 10 minutes so he says you have to go much deeper much deeper you'll find the looked at him and said you just gave me [Laughter] life told the stor he said he thinks the is that he was probably thinking about something very like a serious issue the men said g TI go deep you'll find it you'll find it you'll find it he meant the klock and the he wasn't just complimenting him you know whatever I'm not looking for the but he said it was an so it's really very Vivid what you're talking about here right you're not looking for the Canad but there's something inside the Canad in those days was a big T today we're a little more sophisticated kak is called a scafa but then was a big today if you eat you're already at you could probably be a GLE tomorrow if you only eat huh yeah but was considered a today you know we we upped it right iPhone version 14 T version 14 but then was considered a so it's not the canade that you're looking for it's something deep for that he said you got to go down more says he saw as a message don't be afraid to go down into to with there's chaos because over there you have tremendous n and really you're going up really you're going up yeah will continue tomorrow ah oh so that we'll see what is exactly tell you why does it fall down so low what's the whole process that's going to be but that's the and and you're really going down but essentially you're going up we'll continue tomorrow 7:45 B if you take if you're not taking the mimer home if you could just bring it back here and if you're taking it home bring it back to the next year cuz we only have limited amount of copies have a beautiful day everybody ahead of the M or not or behind so is there way for soul to be elevated to the okay we'll see we'll see you just you know finally make a show us give us space Embrace right respect very but the question is like is there a way to much like bring it to the next level like was taking right alive with his body right so it means that his body was already not even a body right yeah so could be elevated and becomes sub that also right yeah you know one thing is destination is basically let me just see one just one thing basically the bottom line the destination is death or destination could be could be uh you know subsumed in in the ne to the point that it's it's alive stays alive forever right so that's the question yeah is it no I think I think it's true it could be sub yeah could be yeah yeah yeah yeah not that's the whole that's theas to elevate the is the and the go in the world yeah yeah of course anybody was on the level to except I know only from the from the listen T says that's what a real sadak is sadak is that he he suets says it says transformed both Hearts no I'm saying the yeah in that sense but I'm saying the ultimate idea ofad versus is the idea that the animal soul is not just keep in Bay it's not just you know kept in Bay and controlled but it's it's transformed it's energy is completely one with an like no there's no barrier anymore they're completely like not Partners but like one's no Shalom the ultimate Shalom Bas in the person's heart complete complete Harmony because that's traumatic experience we missed you on chabas I heard you weren't feeling well okay