Vayivez B'Einov #3: When G-d Told Job to Stop Blaming Himself

okay so we began last week that said 1966 and we're up to which means page 130 right 130 on the bottom in this uh in these copies welcome back good okay I don't always have the opportunity but since the person is here I just want to thank silver for all the live streaming technology on a daily basis or every few days and the professionalism so anybody who hears it live virtually yeah you have in and others so says the wine belongs to the master the thank you goes to the to the waiter to the sash to the butler so the all the people involved in being the son and bringing the wine making the wine flow especially coming to p no for the sah Mas worked out well for the sah didn't work out well that's in a restaurant you don't go to the owner and say thank you you don't even see him he's behind you call the waiter thank you here it's not just a waiter who just delivering the dish it's a lot more but that's so thank you very much okay B tomorrow we have a class for the women 9:30 and we'll continue our morning class Thursday morning okay today's class is dedicated by rebit and dinman from Atlanta in honor of rebit mus the wife of the on the occasion of her yart site which was last Thursday Kat the 22nd day of shat the artet of Reb she is the wind beneath my wings our wings may all the reiton of the world and I continue to soar am the real soaring what was the main point that we learned after a about the med B Ben bu and the whole mus in the med with the bird and the water which we discussed in the previous classes went into a of that starts explaining the the big question from the AL how calls and his friend so he starts explaining the whole concept of the coming down L into this world and the and the main point that he makes here is that it's only in this world with the ne the Divine Soul encounters the animal Consciousness and the body and everything it deals with in the world that it encounters what he calls the consciousness of or the Sparks of which is literally the world of chaos and the truth is that it's higher than the world of TI the comes from the world of TI it's called 45 spelled out and and which is 45 which is that's called the world of order that's with his order the world of toou is what we call the world of chaos so in every person's life we have both parts we have the parts of our life with his order with his structure at least we try to create some structure and then we have the parts of our life that create literally tell you they create chaos they create confusion and they create Challenge and difficulty often we would think that's what you stay away from but this m says actually the darker parts in you have more intelligence than anywhere than anything else the darkness inside of us has our deepest intelligence or to put it in differently differently what you think is your greatest enemy usually is holding your deepest Treasures it's hiding your deepest treasures and therefore I need to go into those places and embrace embrace them says it's not me right okay I know I don't to make sure I don't have a Bas we we need to hold space for them and embrace them not embrace the negativity but embrace the opportunity there's a big difference right when you say Embrace what is people make a mistake embrace all Darkness it's embrac the opportunity or to in the of embrace the N of that have came that have fallen very low in a process known as the breaking of the vessel also known as NE falling and we explained what that means last time what the idea of falling right the snake versus a stick there's alignment where you're always connected to the source and then there's NE which means you become disconnected when somebody Falls it's not a balanced um uh what's the world transitional where you going down like you're going down a right there's there's a ramp you go higher and higher you go lower and lower and lower it's gradual that's not called nef NE by definition is you're n you become detached you become severed that's why it's sudden it's called a fall spiritually what that means is in Kad there's never an aill there's alignment it goes from the highest to the lowest but it's a there's a Continuum right that's the stick explains that's the Stick of the snake already here it's not straight anymore here it's it's all crooked we explained that length and that's the difference between t and so in there was a so it forgets its own true identity that's what NE means when something Falls falling here doesn't mean physically falling here means spiritually there's a concept of I don't know who I was in the previous state of consciousness it's like when you a k Falls and it breaks into pieces when you have a little piece you don't see the whole picture or when a word gets split up and Scattered one word one letter doesn't show you the whole picture that's why it's called to yeah it loses its original song that's what we said that the the Divine Soul's job is yeah to learn the song in the animal Soul's heart and to remind it to the animal Soul when it forgets it because it forgets its niggan the niggan represents its Continuum its source it's shash we discuss every Nish has its niggan which is like it's the source the worst thing for a tree is it's it's a death sentence is when you cut it off from the source it can't live anymore and when somebody's cut off from their own life force and energy there's no torture like that in the world because what then happens is I for I can't bre I don't know who I am and now I start have to cop I have to copy other people's other people like what's your life force what's your life force let me copy it because I'm not rooted I'm not Anchored In my own life force and energy I think I once told you it's bro in that the word in t for Isa yeah is the abys right sh is the same letters like sh sh a borrower what's the connection the deepest sh is when you're living a borrowed life I'm a sh why am I a sh you're Bor something you don't have I think that you have my life force you have my life force so I'm busy borrowing everybody else's energy and it's a it's a it's a it's a very subtle thing so in could be this this so really the Sparks of to are very lofty are very Divine but down here they forget their niggan and therefore they come dressed up and it could be extreme extreme chaos but it's there that the deepest gifts of the person the deepest resources the that desperately wants and needs and for that it's worth it to come down and become entangled with everything that it becomes entangled with with a which is serious it's I don't know have to tell you the says that if you could leave the way you come is quite an accomplishment a person comes in pure to be able to leave it's not simple so this whole is worth it it's not to torture a soul for the AL that it gains all everything that it gathers all the of that make it in touch with who it it is itself it brings the in touch with a much deeper core in itself through the animal Soul its purpose it's objective and it's trest power it's trest self it's true his Divine self and the truth is he says that the the Press of is not in it's in it's in quality and that's why it has a it has an intensity a ferociousness that doesn't have the has a a tremendous strength you think it's the negativity of it that's the strength the real strength of it is it's the it's the intelligence in the darkness it's the depth in the darkness that's its real strength we just mistake it we don't understand what it really is and that's why the animal Soul needs to be elevated by the Divine soul but the divine mind soul is also elevated through this encounter with the animal as it brings from that that it's not from the bread that we live it's from the it's from the Divine energy in the bread a person also has Divine energy you also have not just the bread but the bread is from and the lives from the in the which is a deeper space than the which means the Divine utterance the Divine energy that exists in the that's why need the person and the person that's why the person needs and usually doesn't need a person the in the world doesn't need us the in the world doesn't need us the in the world doesn't need us we need them the moment you don't have it's impossible to live we need it for every step of life without the Earth without the a that comes from the all of the all of the produce all of the trees and of course without all the food whether it's produce whether it's animals etc etc but the processes the whole the whole What's called the ecosystem of and how they interplay with each other is indispensable to human life the is the crown jewel of creation it should be should need the person that's the that are needed by the person because the is there it has to be elevated it has to be elevated this was the main the main the main that we um that we focused on huh I don't know I don't know you ask it's an equal I don't know if the word is equal but there's a give and take there's a there's a yeah because the animal Soul without the Divine Soul just could remain uh could remain in chaos it's not yeah a be exactly yeah but you see you see that in animals is a strength that a person doesn't have yeah you don't start up with a bull you don't start up especially certain behas I mean there's a sheep there's a goat but then there's a you don't start up with it so it's not St a mistake it represents that is much stronger than TI to is much stronger than TI the has in it a strength that's very very powerful that's why the darkness in a person the chaos in a person could be so overwhelming we think it's overwhelming because the darkness but really my enemy is my greatest Ally I just have to be able to see the truth I have to see the the song behind it and dissect it and explore it and then that very experience that very encounter that very energy gives birth to your truest to your truest identity and this is by the way not an abstract thing this is in every person's life if you look sometimes we need help with this from people who can support us but if a person looks at those things that bring them the most down bring them the most down get them the most anxious or depressed or sluggish we look at the things that challenge us us most that keep us away from our deepest form of life that alienate us most that numb us most whatever it is if you look deep inside of it especially if you have a good spiritual microscope called and you look deep inside into it you'll see that of their lay your greatest strengths say where did I find I found them in really you couldn't find them anywhere else like say was a wasn't expected right a means you didn't expect it you found it that's what a means that's why you have to know whose it is ETC because it wasn't expected it wasn't somebody gave you a gift or somebody sold you was a it wasn't expected so the says where nobody expected to find in of course it means that light and his daughters were in Zim and from light's daughter came may she had a son may and from May came Rus and Rus was the mother of IID who was the father of yesi who was the father of David so where was David found in in in in the daughter of light in other words in in the in this in the gene in the genes of L and his family over there was already DAV the potential for DAV that's where M comes from what was it's a joke it's a cute thing but that's the ver yeah that the Mia the of a person the Redemptive conscious of a person you're going to find it in yeah that's where you're going to find it yeah it's hidden yeah what we sometimes this is this is this is the power sometimes what we run away our whole life from is exactly where we need to be present we run away our whole life from it because it's intense it's scary it's it's overwhelming it's dark but that's where your that's where your that's where your is which means your own Redemption yeah you have to know how to relate to it because if you fall prey to it you have to be able to to extricate the D from this not go deeper that's why that's why is SCF is so important theaf means that you you understand your relationship with it you're not coming as a parasite because if not then the toou takes over and then I'm just more disintegrated toou is disintegration it's chaos it's emotions that are not regulated it's a nervous system that's not regulated T is regulated is always in regulation it knows who it is it knows who it's not I told you it's a m it's a stick it's always a line the neam is not could be very easy not regulated it's like an animal it's thirsty it's hungry now it wants this then it wants this then it wants this so inside it has tremendous energy of can organize the like he says at the end that uh you have to elevate it back to its source that's a key point right that's the difference you don't just accept to you as is it's dark beautiful let me become dark that could be a bigger than anything because what happens is you were given an opportunity to elevate and instead you became a ma instead of a Mas whenever you're going down to save somebody you have to be very very strong you know a lifeguard if he doesn't know what he's doing could be swept away with the person he's trying to save in the undercurrent a from the the being from the that a real Mas is like a lifeguard you can stay on top you have to go into the water you have to go into the it reminds me said over from the that was printed then we say it's also the instituted to say it Friday before before and many others they say right said that when you go through the week it's you go through all the four things of and you come out Friday you're going into you say also put it into the in his together with to say before so there's a line over there those who go down into the sea literally means ships boats right they do work in in the tumultuous Waters which basically means the captains and The Navigators of the the times of so you're talking about you know the sailboats that didn't have uh the Titanic and the other fancy cruise cruise ships it was on you had to know what you're doing they had to do in heavy water tumultuous water they saw his wonders in the depth there's a there's a tumultuousness in the [Music] ocean and then the the storm becomes aama becomes quiet and the g the waves relax and they're very they're very happy for the silence that's one of the that we make for somebody who goes through the Y and comes out said like this the word the word yeah is an interesting word in words are very very significant yeah the word an it has in it the of right an means a boat but there's also another word what does an mean grief when somebody passes away way so serious you know you Po from all thez so that's an is a grief yeah we have in [Music] an and the Jewish people Yuda was overtaken by grief by Ania by by by by by terrible terrible grief so the says refers to two types of people they come down and people who have Ania they have a boat they come into the ocean and they have safety they have protection when you're in a boat there's a big they can even be a storm but you have a container you're safe yeah we call you feel safe secure soothed seeing and then the an is in an an when the an feels safety there's an an there's an eye that can navigate through the May to the water but you have other people they come into a place of of of of grief and unsafety and their an becomes an an they don't have an an they're like throwing into to the water without a boat now swim and you're trying your whole life literally to keep your head above water and it's really two types of life one person is living surviving they literally surviving and the other person is alive you know you're on a cruise boat you enjoy the water and if there's even a storm but what happens that person is in the water itself now they're not enjoying the waves they're not enjoying the sight they're literally trying to keep their head above water and I think everybody knows in life we have different moments right you have moments you're like on a cruise ship you're enjoying the world and then you're like you see a d yeah D you see a brle you jump on it you see a tree you jump on it you see a person you jump any anything anything to assuage to assuage my my uh my ey my my my my angst I'm literally it's coping you're not living you're coping it's two different types of people depends what your an is made up of if there's or read from the says and then that sends down to do to save all those who ended up in the and they don't know who their is they do the lift them up from the and bring them back into their boat as it say we learned a few times the tumultuous Waters can't extinguish the love and if a person gives away all of his wealth to be able to buy this love it's it's it's scorned you don't give away anything for this type of love so those that were chosen to go down to the and lift up all those in and bring them back bring them back to the so the said over this whole he explained it and then he said in the olden days you could know which one of the three categories you're in you could say I am a like this I'm a like this the first person could say me I'm busy I'm busy taking care of myself my boat the second person is like I can't help anybody else I'm just a victim I need help and the third person could say I made help he says and everybody has to see themselves as connected to all three was interesting huh yeah yeah yeah and you see there's a moment you're you're safe moment and he says and throughout keep your heart open to everybody else don't cut yourself off yeah yeah in the of this that's the when a person is aligned with their source so they're in a boat this but you know who you are you could come into a situation there's a lot of chaos but you don't go out of your Tik you don't go out of your of your Clarity you stay connected and that's a very very deep blessing they once asked what what's a Jew so you know what he said he said a Jew is somebody who uh can dance dance uninhibitedly when he's sitting in one place yeah he can yell while he's silent and he's alone even among a thousand people said you understand what that means it's good to be a par when you're together with people and to remain to remain unique alone among people in other words there was a sh to be a you run away from everybody you go onto an attic for 60 years and you P from the world that wasn't the but can you still retain even that's not so you know it's easy I could run away I could just go into my own my own little attic my Ivory Tower and serve God is to come in to be integrated but to remain anchored to remain anchored huh that's TI yeah but for this T then there's a second a second I don't know who I am that's why there's torture that's why there's grief what's grief there's tremendous grief because I think I'm one thing I'm another thing there's expectation there's Shattered Dreams everything is broken that's but going into that space allows your an to become a much deeper an that's the by coming da into the and that's the secret when ever a person goes through any of these types of challenges and we do whenever you're encountering that space of you have to realize that if you go a little deeper you're uncovering your deepest potentials your deepest resources so don't be afraid of those spaces not in yourself and also not in others even though they create a frazzled they they might become frazzled which is what toou means it's so overwhelming and it's truly there but but that's where the deepest deepest light of the person lay you just have to know how to extract it how to elevate it how to sublimate it not become part of the the problem yeah wres one that's why we eat after DAV because whatever you eat you're going into food has a lot of energy but it's covered over so his first you have to connect with your and then you can go to if you want to be if you don't not connected to the boat or you don't know how to swim don't go you know stay in the boat better so from the says I think it is that was wash your hands he was M it for before you ate caronus later was for all the bread but these two things the concept of washing your hands before eating bread at least certain types of bread and an so the gor says in that when there was a Bas a voice that came out of heaven when you see my son is so wise I have such a brilliant child the father says my heart rejoices so the question is why did these two takas represent so the says because ad and are a paradox ad comes from the word tus mixing cuz it mixes it mixes Ras if we're all living in one Bungalow Colony or in one apartment building so the that you can't carry in the public areas because it looks like because a lot of people use it even though it's not and means you put the food in one house so it's like we're all living in one house like we're all tenants in one house we have a meal in that house so it makes from all the uh citizens all the residents in the apartment building or the hotel or The Bungalow Colony or the city makes one so it takes separate people and turns them into one cohesive like I'm lot of carry in my own house even if there's a lot of kids in the house because it's one it's one it's one one one so the whole apartment building becomes like a the whole city the whole bu that's the H that's you mix you integrate what's Clean Hands they're busy if you didn't watch them they have a of it's called and therefore if you would touch something like tra the truma would become the TR would become what's called Remember okay so uh so so that's why does us that's why you have to clean your hands you always have to clean your hands especially before you're touching something holy and because of that it's already all the bread because they shouldn't get confused between and and whatever okay that's the so usually people that have are not good with and people who are good with are not good with those who are really integrated with people miss mention you know they have The Gift of Gab they're social you call them party animals they're good the word but maybe not such a bad word Born to Be by whatever you know people they have a comment for everybody they notice your new glasses and your new shoes and you have a new sweater they come to a and they have a comment for everybody they know that you moved and you moved in and you opened a new business and you sold the business and you're going bankrupt you're almost going bankrupt a bungalow Colony very good yeah so it's ative in they're very mixed in but it's very hard to remain so pure and those who have R they're usually in their own in their own their own little orbit was to be able to be truly present with people and still maintain the purity of your hands the purity of your soul that's and you could say it's which is which is B because you could remain fully present you don't have to detach and run away and get angry at the world and just and everybody's corrupt and everybody's evil I'm the only are the only one the whole place is and you run away emotionally you don't have to do that you could be in the and see everything and yet you don't get entangled you don't get you don't get hacked you don't get funed you don't get mixed up in it your hands remain pure and then you could actually be because you're not part of the problem you're part of the solution but that's a balance that is so delicate because it's very easy to run away and detach and it's you can also be present and become part of it right that's the balance always between to and TI to be able to be present for the Sparks of to but to be present for the Sparks of T not to fall and get sucked in to the darkness and the chaos cuz then I don't become part of the problem then I don't become part of the solution I become part of the problem my father was a journalist you know he had a newspaper the ALG man journal whenin was killed it was I think uh yeah yeah which year was it you remember ahim yeah ofin I think it was shabas 93 yeah so my father wanted to go to Israel to cover the funeral as a journalist so he asked me to come along with him so he got a ticket El was a travel agent the famous G and he got us a ticket so we on the plan so there were a lot of dignitaries who were going back to Israel for the funeral I remember the mayor mayor Giuliani was there so there was a there who was the head of a is in Israel for many years was a character and he was in politics for decades decades decades so he knew the system as he was there ready from the 1940s he was already involved this already the 1990s huh yeah yeah he was now he has a son May's father yeah yeah yeah so told me so I was on the plane with him so he told me a very interesting story 95 yeah yeah yeah I remember n November 95 yeah I think with with his is unbelievable yeah pure pure they used to call the Shalom yeah the victims of peace that we still have yeah it's what happens when Jews don't know who they are but I'll call him so told me then that he was once on by the I think we said it was in the 1950s maybe the 60s the was to always remain apolitical especially in Israel so they never ran for theet they never had a MF in theet the Reb said that he wants to be able to be Mas on everybody from the right to the left the moment he's in a party it's right away you're in a you're so therefore he always stayed away from it was one time that he said that they should vote for a particular when it was a direct war on the but that was only once an exception and never never before never after that there was somebody who made his own party because for one reason and that's that's what the said that they vote to vote for for for gimel I'll him so pish told me he said I was one and he was the head of a he was you know he was he was a man of of of of politics of so he tell you're trying to build if you would have a few seats in theet you can Channel money and and help the budget and have influence on the government much more you'll have political clout now you don't have any political clout nothing you need favors from anybody everybody that ever used to ask it's all favors you don't have any so he said that he learned learned from his father-in-law he says is without anything and once you get once you get here it's it's it's just a different world and therefore it's much better to stay away and you could be Mas in much deeper ways he says he tells me you think we don't want to spread TI at all you think we want politics is it's a corridor the the palace is it's only a that's what it is so he tells me yeah so what what are he supposed to answer he says he smiles he says you're right but sometimes you can get entangled lost in the you're right and it was good those were the words yeah but it brings out a but you're going to get means it's very hard and it's all good and it's only for the but you forget because there's a lot of energy there there's a lot of Temptation so that's always the balance that's necessary when you talk about these to be able to understand that it's a for sublimation it's waiting for sublimation it's not for the person to fall deeper into the into the so now let's see V yeah you understand he a little bit or a lot you feel it you feel it when it comes to and the word here is as we explained last time what's from the word and why is it called Clarity Clarity means to identify this is this is TI this is this is not for the moment you have you could do B right what's the you have to know this is good this is bad in it's called what's this is the bad you have lettuce this is rotten lettuce this is good lettuce and you want to separate so the ability to do B is because it's but if you don't know what's what you can't do Bo the first thing in BO is always this is good this is bad this I want to eat this I don't want to eat in middle of the week it's not a problem to do on chabas you have to know how to be because is is awesome but the concept is it has to be buttered and then once it's buttered now you don't want it mixed in and that's the key the key is always the confusion the confusion you don't know what's to you don't know what's RA yeah you have to know the moment you call it out everything is different the fact that a person has all the elements of to and all the chaos and all the darkness and all the the coping mechanisms animal conscious that's not the problem the problem is it's not called out it presents itself as yeah at least as normal the moment you could say okay this is a moment of to okay good label to like I told you I don't care if you eat the grain just put a it's fine no problem everybody has a right to be a I told you greenal from sare told me here there was somebody in the tent who was spewing stupid things about Israeli soldiers whatever real stupid things so uh it was hard to hear so I made the mistake of trying to explain to the person as though there's certain people you can explain things to so me says after 2 years of a crazy Gus every Community has a right to produce Mish it's it's fine it's the way it is it's been a long long Exile people go crazy it's normal they become distorted and we all have that the question is can you label it the moment you can label it is already that's already B that's called B and then you could see it for what it is and then you could find a spark inside inside the enemy you could see how your great enemy your great challenge is really your greatest Ally it was just waiting to be redeemed to be liberated the fear of the unknown is very very deep and the protectors and all of the Defenders that we create that really you know distance us from ourselves are hiding something very very precious and when you can expose it there's an there there's always an so he says in this there's two types of there's dealing with with that would be anything in the physical world anything from money to food from wine to power anything in the world anything that you touch that's part of that's one type of beit is inanimate is what grows is the living but anything any interaction with those elements of the world that are what they are but then there's the bit of su then there's dealing with people that's a whole different is a speaking thinking person a not when when I'm dealing with a piece of bread but when you're dealing with a there's unique qualities that don't exist in the other elements they are what they are they're not they're not making conscious choices so the main Avid is you you're the issue they are what they are they created the way they're created and they're just manifesting the energy that they're manifesting and that in many ways they can't go out of alignment there's nothing a squirrel can do to take it out of alignment there's nothing a bee or a butterfly or a mosquito or a deer or a beer can do to go out of alignment says in that a person who's misaligned yeah the say means a mosquito precedes you why because a mosquito can't go out of alignment it is what it is obscures but it is it is it's it it it remains a channel for the energy that it's supposed to manifest in the world and it never leaves that 24/7 cuz it's genetic makeup is a person can go out of alignment a person can go out of that place a person could create a rupture and become an a replacement for so there's a big difference but he says it's already a different that's what he says the is always about you it's where you are so when you're touching the apple or you're touching the or you're touching the you're dealing with the could be a piece of meat a piece of steak it could be your parosa it could be your money whatever it is that you're dealing with in a person's life that has to do with the physical world they are what they are you're dealing with a over here there so this's Consciousness so there's choice so Choice puts you in two different category like we spoke on chabas Choice also means that I could choose the other way Choice comes with a price Choice means that I have to make a choice yeah that's the power of Life The Power of human life by definition if you can't make an opposite choice so Choice doesn't mean anything the only reason that choice has value is because I can also make an opposite choice I could choose you and I can unchoose you I could choose something else yeah we spoke on shabas in the that we learned from in a marriage for example right people see the challenge in the marriage as an obstacle to the marriage but really it's not that that's what makes the marriage the marriage the fact that you can not choose makes your choice valuable if I would be forced in the relationship yeah that's not a relationship it's not relational I'm just forced it's the fact that you need to choose not and the same is true the man the man and the woman that's what gives it its power you're you're present you are present you could have also chosen the opposite so when there's a conflict in a in a relationship the conflict is only for the conflict only means that this is an opportunity to choose conflict means that there's a part of you that's going to pull you away of course that's why there's a choice that's what makes it a choice the same is true means that there's a resistance that resistance that's where God wants to be that's what makes it valuable that's what makes it like in the previous so the the concept of here there's a concept of so he says over here there's already a few himself chooses in other words chooses to be subservient to to Holiness and to be elevated an example for this was the days of the describes the describes how from all the nations and cultures they came to hear the wisdom of scha kings of different regions and countries came to bask and bathe in the glory and the brilli descries by's influence first of all his wealth but not just his physical wealth his spiritual wealth his Empire extended it was the it was the greatest moment of bliss in Jewish history right the says that from to is Generations is the beginning of the Moon the 15th day of the month when the moon was whole that was and then after the moon starts waning shrinking and shrinking and there was another 15 Generations till who was the last king of Yehuda and that's when the happened and that's when the moon goes into fade into Oblivion and disappears and then there's right but the reason is called the 15th day is because the Jew the Jewish people were had this wholeness and part of it was that influenced the world so he says the Nations people were just they were so enthralled the presence that inspired the wisdom the depth it just it was like you know bees attracted to honey literally they came from everywhere and the P says malah the queen of Shah she came and she remained with and says there was nothing that held back from her he shared with her and she gave him enormous amounts of gifts and the transformation T describes was Indescribable what is all this somewhere their Sparks were ignited you know you have a big fire that's created and the spark start becoming subsumed all the Sparks go back when you have a huge a huge fire so Sparks they become if there's a little fire they will gravitate and be swallowed up in the big fire that's the mus of he created such a fire in the world such in her own Palace and her own little right her nit her nit was ignited it's very deep here when you have such a light in the world wherever there's a spark they feel it they sense it and they already come they make their way and this happens in life you know people make their ways somewhere they don't know why but their nits knows why something something touched you yeah huh it says danil and his friends they they started to tremble theil knew why they didn't know why so says doesn't just mean is it's ma it trickles down into the Consciousness the superconscious soul feels everything the knows everything because it's it's it's connected to the frequency of the whole whole existence so it feels the question is how much I feel consciously so some people are connected they fail right away and some people it's all unconscious but it was gravitating to the source and it fell to the source of so this is a that you have those people in history that bring down the the the frequency of into the world and all the N start filling it and they start uh they start gravitating and that's what happened by huh country oh which country yeah is it usually they say Sheba today Sheba India India in the region of India yeah that's that's how far she came in other words that that was like the remote corner of the world at the time que of the Queen of Sheba yeah Mal the queen of sh teachings really coming from and what's the idea here a lot of the Eastern Z brings a lot of the Eastern disciplines and religions and philosophies that have enthralled you know many Jews today of Buddhism and Hinduism and this it comes from that area huh yeah Zoya connect s had the children of and he sent them to to the East and he gave them gifts so actually says it says that he gave them deep spiritual gifts huh yeah yeah in in in Buddhism one of the biggest mantras is called brah Bram it's one of their biggest things Brahman from the so so when comes it's not just a person comes so basically yes so she came to and says says he shared with her and and she just took it in took it in and then went back it says and she went back so here you have the the which was the Divine wisd wisdom of how it influence the whole world but how did this happen there was no Force there was no even confrontation they had an adal kite to feel it and the Sparks gravitated the Sparks knew where to go they felt that this is where they need to go to be able to find their and to find their song yeah even when it was hidden it wasn't completely hidden so's presence can affect them they say the person doesn't live in in one space you can live anywhere where you had it yeah but they don't have they same listen a lot of spiritual ideas that you'll see you're going to find inab you'll find the focus on right that's a focus of Etc the channels for the Divine energy to bring it down into the physical world and into the physical body right the integration of so this is one this is one it's one there's a story that one of the one of the students of the maged I think I don't remember all the details but I think the story is he was struggling on an idea in he couldn't find an answer one night in middle of the night he had Vision or an epiphany and he got an answer in the morning he came to and told him the same V so he went to the mag had such a he was working for so long on this and now this person just said it so the mag told him something very powerful he said you brought it into the world you accessed it once it's accessed in the world now everybody has access to it right sorry yeah that's how got mied up yeah yeah so sorry told us to the yeah yeah yeah yeah the says that yeah brought once he brought it in ready everyone everyone feeds off it so it's a very powerful idea I once said it over and he said that's in there's always a what's you have so he says means he opened the door to this awareness he opened up the conf he opened up a P he brought a new Consciousness into the world now it's here everyone has access to it obviously you have to be refined but it's like he tuned in to a certain you know Channel he opened up that channel and now there's a flow so if you're open you'll experience that flow so these are things that happen in a way that a person sometimes it's not so be you're not aware of it but Earth comes into the wood that's the versus of course of course this is the responsibility of a person like the ra says in that a the world is balanced right then you tip the scale so it's not just mystical you know a scale it means that a person's energy is interconnected with everybody's energy says I him from the word mixed and I him the word we're sweet one to another and therefore I we're responsible but it begins with the of so when a person understands that and the truth is and more sensitive people are more sensitive to this they feel it more and therefore they know that what they're channeling in the world is not just for them it opens up a p it opens up a it's literally a p once a person opens the door everybody will walk through the door there was a wall nobody could walk through it you open the PES you're not going to be the only one I'm also going to walk through he's also going to walk through everybody will walk through 100 years later they'll walk through but it was all because of that P that's the difference between sadim who bring a new Consciousness into the world it's a different it's a different League it's a different magnitude so you could see years later it's it's a it's a A New Earth comes into the world it's a PES it's not just they were good people and they were holy people that's one AV it's a tremendous thing but it's a p it brings in a new vocabulary it's a new frequency of energy it's it changes it forever di was sitting with a few people in he didn't have a what do they call it pares what do you guys call it yeah and couple ofen was sitting there right but the still felt the also didn't have pensas had six and not everybody was there a whole time but the Earth is still felt what it's not about it's it's nice to have a lot of people it's a good thing and but that's not the you can have a person sitting with 100,000 people in better if he stayed [Laughter] home right it was a there was there was a a flow of a new Consciousness into the world so that presence that at the end of the world but that's the word her adal kite was her adal kite was touched and this is a say didn't happen at the end of his life things changed but but this is a of the so that's [Music] one their was their Source was so they had tremendous energy but it wasn't integrated it wasn't organized it wasn't regulated ated to is never regulated to never knows what it is regulation is you're anchored to is not regulated that's why it's chaos T is always regulated that's why you could never sublimate toou when you're disregulated never because you're part of toou toou can sublimate toou because it's part of the it's part of the the chaos to to deal with the chaos you have to be outside of the chaos right came to and said chaos I'm from outside I'm telling you it's chaos here from the outside when you're part of the company you're part of the chaos you're not going to fix the chaos right that's the power of bringing in somebody from the outside you know we're always afraid of somebody from the outside is is thank God there thank God you could hear what he has to say he has something to say if it would be M he wouldn't have anything to say he would just be part of your your Colum how is it possible that Moshe get advice from isra when Moshe was regulated presence presence that's a good question you remember shabas there was a Russian politician yeah they make a joke that he said I have great news for you comrades we're standing at the edge of the abyss and we're making great progress so uh you know we're going to take giant step forwards so when when when when you're part of the issue you can't see the issue you're part of it that's the issue so you need that you need that outside perspective that outside energy so to you can't be but they felt the which is which comes from so they came there she came but then there's a different type of that the is choosing the opposite direction is choosing to go deeper into chaos deeper into this regulation it's not so simple way said sometimes they put in the words in yish just to give it you know the taste because would say not it's written it's not a simple thing was open her heart was open she came on her own didn't even have to send a message that's how deep it was when somebody shows up they're receptive but sometimes they choose the opposite now they're resisting it and the reason they're resisting it is not because there's no sparks it's because the Sparks are really really buried deep inside so they are completely disassociated even from their disassociation Mal felt that she was disassociated from herself so she was yearning help me help me integrate but when you're disassociated from your disassociation o yeah yeah yeah yeah and then what was even more you turn your disassociation into a religion and into the ultimate ideal so now there's nothing to deal with it as long I don't know I don't know maybe somebody will educate me but now I do know but your knowledge now is destroys you more than not not knowing I don't know people who say I don't know are in a pretty good place don't know they don't yeah but when I don't know that I don't know and even worse I turn my knowledge my my ignorance into knowledge now it's very very difficult theer is beer still of that's true that's why we're not afraid we're not afraid that's the whole point not only that I mean they preserved something that we lost yeah that's why we should they're preserving they're preserving Sparks of and not only that as it says the reason you people disassociate so deeply is because they have such a powerful energy that they're frightened of on some level I mean you have to know how to say it exactly but uh but there's obviously something there and you see it in a person's life sometimes the higher the energy is the more it gets blocked because it's so powerful it's so intense the kipa camp a thin ciper the ciper has to be such a thick ciper because the only way you could cover something so powerful is if the cover is as powerful as what it's covering so the safe and the lock on the safe has to be much more so suddenly you see a person and the safe is so heavy and the lock is oh my God and you want to run away no no no no the reason the lock is so deep and so big and the safe is so secure and the vault is impenetrable is because the ciper knows that if you penetrate it o this is the end of it so it will protect it with every last bone in its body and every last fiber of its being it's like when you're having an arm wrestle with somebody and the person is losing right at that moment they're going to come back with every um with every ounce of energy why not because they're winning because they're losing and they know it and suddenly you're like oh my God I was winning I know but right before you win you're going to have to try harder that's exactly what it does so the fact that you're so disassociated off is because it's so fearful of what would happen if you're not disassociated what is it blocking you always have to ask yourself what is it block what is what are you blocking what are you afraid to feel I think I told you once I once asked one of my mentors I feel blah sometimes you know what blah means yeah blah is uh blah you know what means feeling blah you feel blah huh kids don't know what blah is you have to reach a certain age yeah you mean because they never feel it it's cuz they always feel it whatever one of the two Blas a feeling you're not upset you're not not upset you're just like H it's like everything is just dull there's probably a few B in your Yesa who have it huh indiff indifferent yeah they once asked the Jew what's the difference between ignorance and apathy so he said I don't know and I don't care yeah that's the difference in ignorance and apathy so the person said something very profound which is really the nuda here and said speak to the blondness and ask the blondness what are you hiding what are you afraid that you're going to be feeling if you're not there it was very very profound what are you AF I I do it I say what's going on what are you afraid what are you protecting me from there's an emotion you're afraid of what are you scared it's it's it's it's it's actually in its own way it creates T but it's trying to protect you that's what all Kiper does we just don't know that it's a protection the Kiper becomes a substitute right so the work with the animal soul is always asking what are you protecting and when the protection is so int tense you know there's something very very special over there Churchill once said that in a time of War The Bodyguard uh what's the word um in a time of War you have to protect the lies with a lot of you have to protect the truth with a lot a lot of Bodyguards of Lies when there's so many Bodyguards of lies don't get afraid when you're so disassociated wow what caused you to be disassociated what pain what energy what treasure what gift did you have that your Clipper felt that if it's not going to disassociate you you won't survive and it's very practical this by the way you have sometimes children who have the deepest emotions in the world and because their emotions were so deep and sensitive they had to go to the Other Extreme they had to cut themselves off from their emotions because for them to feel it would be too much it's their gift they they know how to feel so what happens now 30 years later pure chaos the guy doesn't feel doesn't feel his wife doesn't feel his kids doesn't feel himself certainly can't feel God doesn't feel anything he thinks he's a dead man walking and really his clip is just protecting a beautiful beautiful heart that is so full of love and light but he never knew it so the the thicker the clip is it's just a that it's called it's a much higher nit but it's in toou toou means it's creating pure chaos it's not part of you TI it's part of your to so you have a Mal who can feel the light and gravitate towards it that's galic but sometimes I decide to go the opposite extreme so now somebody is now poking on your Vault come out from your heart and I get triggered I'm like this is not safe and I go deeper into the deeper into the safe deeper deeper you make a new lay you hire a new Bodyguard by the time you're 52 or 62 you got like a 100 100 layers of bodyguards till they get close to the cage and in the cage you have another few bodyguards and the bottom line is everyone is distant so here you have an example where it's the opposite in in emotionally what it means I'm so disconnected I don't even know that I'm disconnected ad that you always wrong the of course of course it's hard of course of course so we protecting the truth sometimes we're protecting the truth and we're protecting the Deep truth and sometimes the deeper the truth the more intense the protection and therefore the more intense the lies and it takes a lot a lot of courage to be able to see through that yeah so now exactly four knocks yeah alcatra so he says I'm just bringing it out in people's lives but the here that he's saying is when chooses the opposite you can't get there he's not letting you T so the regular B of T coming to and saying was so excited about it was the gift of her life but this person is like no way I'm not getting close to you and really they're hiding something very deep because the is still there at the end of I chapter 40 at the end of the long debate between I and his friends which is basically a debate about Good and Evil and why do bad things happen to good people and why are good people suffering and 's friends are telling him it's your fault God is always good and perfect and it's your fault and you're the problem and I is arguing I'm a good person and it goes back and forth and back and forth and finally at the end I think it's peram Zan chapter 3M reveals himself to like now the ultimate judge comes in so now we're expecting to hear the answer why good people suffer and all God does the next few chapters is he asks like a good Jew he asks a bunch of he ask like a hundred questions and the first question is were you when I created the world that's the first question and then he starts going through Were You There When the lightenings were created and Were You There When the first rain was formed and Were You There When the mountain when a mountain goat has to give birth are you there when a mountain go has to be birth are you the one who opens the womb the bottom line is how much of creation do you really understand you don't understand how the Sun works you think you understand anything else in the world and it goes chapter after chapter after chapter so at the end of the knew that he shouldn't cover up like all his friends you're right hem told hem told eive that he's upset with his friends they need they all need forgiveness he said because they weren't authentic ALB writes they ALB the malum says that your friends are trying to flatter me they think they're going to flatter me by saying that I am always right they don't they think they're going to appease me by saying nice things about me at least you're being honest that's what he says over there it's interesting why he was so upset at the friends they weren't being truthful that's in the words of you because said what you think I'm intellect less capable yeah yeah not authentic yeah so at the end it says there hasem responds to you from a storm says to him and the L over there is it's a beautiful beautiful PK and it he says I'm just going to quote G yourself like a g like a man with your with your la like G yourself I want to ask you a big question I want you to answer me and he answer so he goes and he says you understand you know e is Hebrew KES yeah I'm just giving a proximate translation he said I'm going to ask you a question if you have the arm of God meaning you have the power of Hashem if you're if you're a stickle God and you could Thunder with your voice like so I'm going to ask you put on the clothes of exaltedness of go of put on the garments of beauty and Grace and then when you see all the arrogance in the world humble it when you see somebody boasting sub subdue them take the take the wickedness and crush them under themselves take them and crush them under themselves hide them in the ground in the soil take their faces and put them in hiding and then I will surrender to you then I'll Beed to you what what's hasem telling something it's interesting this m put him but that tunes into zooms into this what what what's hasem telling what's the sign that you're God that there's certain things you could confront and if you're if you're attacking me you do it so see what he says the Simmon the sign of has Divine strength if he's a is if you could crush the suddenly you see here that there's a level of breaking the that's something that even the can do only because there's something here why can't the sadic break him there's something here that has the power of to which is higher than ti so he says if you're really God you know you really think that you are on this highest level of the world the creator of the world then I will surrender to you when you can confront these things come from these come from Which is higher than they fell much lower they're they're not sik but there's a intensity here that it's very powerful that's the idea that asov is the first born he's the oldest it's not a mistake asov is the oldest means he comes before Yakov huh he's from too to precedes TI it's not a question in time he happened to be born first but it means that in asov there's something that is higher that is taller that is deeper than yov the med says that told so why can't you bow down to me H told M when he saw that he's not bowing down your Z bow down to my z h came came from aago came from amalik amalik was a grandson amalik was a grandson of of asov alas was ASA son alas was aik's father your grandfather M you're from shav bam bamin was a son of yov you come from Yakov your grandfather bowed down to my grandfather says seven times yov bowed down to so why can't you bow down to me not bad M says I'm not bowing down to you why not learn from is going to find even he was in a good did a good a he even called one of the so now you bow down to me let history repeat itself what's at this point after 20 years y believed and felt that already was his as was elevated back to his source so he bow down him as was already in a place of bder and then indeed it warrants that yov should bow down because there's something in as that is powerful and is higher than yov you was higher than TI really already Noak was TKA that way and then when he met asov he real but in as's world he wasn't yet NB but in yakov's world he was nisb this means in a relationship with a person you have to know if it's me or if it's you it's a very big difference and the two are very confusing you always need Clarity first is it about me or is it about you this is my own work Yakov knew after 20 years he was in a place where he's ready for ASF he was ready to actually take upon yeah yeah yeah yeah and that's why to the of to the to the brother to his brother to which is a partner with t one with they sent back and they said you're but as is still not ready yet why heh he he didn't withhold it but ultimately asov has to be open to it he because because the B wasn't there yet the B wasn't there you still have to work it through answers to the questions so will soon see because was not the to that was and T could only bow down to to that's a not a fault on no no no because he understood even though Yakov bowed down to asov because Yakov was trying to reveal the truth of asov and bring it out and access that part of as hon was not in that position and therefore for yov to bow for M to bow down to hamon would only give more strength to the evil of H yeah and then there when you bow down to to when it's not ready for the B to doesn't know what it is if to doesn't know what it is it takes your bowing down simply as you're giving it more power to do its craziness feeds off it feeds off your weakness when t bows down to the in it's it's not weakness when a Jew bows down to him I don't bow down to anybody I don't bow down to anybody no no five times go bow down because then when you're bowing down you're bowing down when you're surrendering to that's the deepest strength in the world it's like B you're aligning yourself with infinity then you want to bow down what what what don't what do you want to hold on to your ego that doesn't exist what are you going to hold on to your yes your your arrogance your insecurity what's this that you're holding on to they don't want to bow down better more the better stay down says you know when he goes stays down if you want to throw a on him that's the time when the king is he's a pure victim everybody's and the is down a whole everybody else is up we bow down twice in the beginning twice at the end because he's a because a of course H is just going to manipulate it it's just weakness when you're bowing down to God to nothing it's the greatest power in the world what are you holding what are you holding on to what what tell me what you're holding on to you're the Creator what to what do you not want to surrender there's a big difference when goes back to when is in then yov bows down yov experienced that energy you understand the difference it's a huge difference then they just Fe like you say they just feed off your weakness you're bowing down to me it makes them bigger when to is in it bowing down to toou is not making toou bigger CU toy was bottled with of bowing down to a bowing down to you know you have thei you they bow down to n and all that Alisha all that yeah yeah today's Monday h bound the energy of asov has a d there's a dual energy in asov there's the way was down here before the B and there way was after the B it's like a split personality because yov wanted to bring out hope to bring out the b of asov thinking after all these years he did the work and asov did the work so now to could be so the Bowing down to asov had in it a very lofty kav because if if ASA Tak goes back to the source then Yakov could bow down to him it's a beautiful thing he's higher cuz he's higher it's a b to as what's because ultimately that's what he's saying you can't take away a person's Choice people have to be ready to be cracked open I can try to crack crack crack you open if a person is not ready to be cracked open there's a certain blockage the time didn't come that's what he's going to say the H here so even thead even thead at some point he tells if you're God you break the rash what does it mean you break it's not like oh you do it like let's see how strong you are it's AA he's going to explain it's Auda here where the breaking of to must come from asem himself not not even from the tadic he cannot Elevate the to right so why do you give him such a such a harsh punishment is facing the cows he's facing the toll the biggest to in his life and knowing that he would not be able to what's the what's the challenge for for or a does he deserve what he wants he went through Holocaust and then and then hasem tell him you're not a sadic to be able to to actually face or do the right no this was a comfort for E it's a comfort for E you're taking responsib ibility for something that you can't take responsibility for it was a comfort for heble subdue Hiser don't blame yourself you're taking responsibility for something you can't take responsibility for you have to know where your role stops where your role begins and when your role stops this was a comfort for him yeah toce of course that's what he was telling him he wasn't trying to mock him you're not God so yeah that's what e say from my flesh I will perceive God this is it was a it was a comforting idea for this is not something you can take on when to is in a place that's higher than TI and it's not ready to be opened to be cracked open it's higher you have to realize that that there's an intensity and a ferociousness here that you need the Creator himself to tackle and therefore don't guilt yourself and shame yourself for not cracking it open you have to know your boundaries as well there's a boundary between Creator and creation yeah yeah so soov could was in the same level he yeah right so he cannot possibly right to the certain level he can do right if to was opened up it's opened up like Mal comes to scha but if Mal runs further away from scha you have to know your limit because to has such a power you're standing in front of it and you're like oh wow this is beyond me and this creates the humbleness of the tadic who says this is not something I can take credit this is not something I can blame myself for but therefore it's also not something I can take credit for all I can do is be a channel and it's true also in healing one of the worst things that happens is when people there's a payoff when you take credit for healing somebody you also take the blame for not healing them and it's going to be a steep price to pay it's like oh look what I did to this person I changed his life and then tomorrow you're going to meet somebody and their life is going to become worse after meeting you you're going to take the blame for that too Until you realize this has nothing to do with me at best I can be a channel for God's healing it's a big n because success breeds a motivation to take credit give a cook give a cook and the person is writing you tell you changed my life you changed my life you changed my life you changed my wife you changed my kids you're M MSI I don't need Messiah I have you and you start believing it you start believing it and you have also goodas but then tomorrow you're going to meet somebody and it's going to be the opposite and then it's your fault if you're the one who's responsible for G also responsible for theb exactly you throw you throw the metals into the Pacific Ocean I mean you can hang it on your office I don't mind but just realize it's it's hanging you know together with [Music] h and put all the metals over there yeah yeah it's not it's not personal it's a it's a very deep space so he was comforting I like I was taking responsibility for the evil of the world like from his own life and he had the ability to in many ways because look at his life like he knew what suffering is like he wasn't preaching he was you know he was lecturing and hasem was telling him that there's things that are really really Beyond you to is higher than you you're from TI to is higher and because to is higher and you're facing that level of Darkness for this you need Hashem himself the author of the entire plot the darkness and the light to be able to deal it to deal with it and if you're really experiencing yourself as God then this is where it's going to come out and this is where you need to surrender that I cannot break this I really can't this is where I can only only show up as a channel literally as a channel and therefore I won't take credit for this I won't take blame for this and it's not that I'm not responsible and I want to be lazy on the contrary this is what allows you to become a selfless conduit for the source and then it's not you it's the source and when it's the source ah then it's a completely different in a way does exactly that he becomes a pure channel for for the for the truth to come out if he would not take yeah we would not know anything of this yeah not the key being that you're not the source don't try to replace source with you not because we want to keep people small it's because we want to make people big people think when you say this it's we want to keep everybody small and that's what often happens that's where amuna becomes so confusing for people it's like just keep everybody small it's not you nothing is you nothing is you everything is Hashem hasem hasem hasem who am I a garnished and if you think you're not a garnished a garnished in it's the exact opposite you want to actually make people big but what does big mean when you replace yourself with the source you don't become big you become the greatest prisoner of yourself you take this fake ego fake news as our president likes to say you turn it into real news and it's very disappointing and then it's torturous but if you can get yourself out of the way and you're just Source the more you hollow out your ego and you make it empty to the point that there's nothing left besides Source then paradoxically you become the source you're not separate yeah you become an extension you become part of the source so this idea of not replacing source with you is so fundamental because it's not a recipe for it's a recipe for greatness but it's a different type of greatness not a greatness I'm great look how great I am give me more attention give me more validation it's the true greatness where you Channel ultimate greatness and there's nothing greater than that you know we always say the greatest burden is the burden the need the need to have the ego exist that's the greatest burden in the world the greatest burden in the world is build me up please Build Me Up it makes me the most desperate tortured soul and it's like lethal it's lethal because it's so deep it's so deep and it's understandable we need it because that's the the the the self that needs validation to be able to liberate I from that space don't blame yourself this is a big big thing all you can show up is ask myself what I can do I'm an A so there's something very very deep there's a secret spot can tell you that's beyond you and only source can can deal with it only source can confront it h and the same is true the to inside of you yeah the toyou inside of you it's the same place it's so powerful sometimes that I like I need to surrender to Source I don't have the it's m surrender my Brilliance my creativity my structure my control it's not going to do it and that's what God tells you you think you're God okay deal with this and in fact I would say most people learn surrender from these words to e we feel it in our life somebody once came to the K and he said I have a friend as a and he's a and I don't have bread on my table it's not fair that guy's an idiot and he's a millionaire I'm a brilliant guy I got nothing so the it's a says smart people don't have bread if you want bread be dumb so he tells the why not so he says God says you're so brilliant figure it out go find your bread you're brilliant yeah go do it it's a very deep V you understand it's in everything like that you're brilliant right so go do it embodied embodied not intellectual embodied nervous system not intellectual to be an intellectual but uh once said he said says he was the head of thein he was the head of the srin so he said that so what did he do with this time he said could have written a he could have look he wrote a so that all souls are warmed up forever where does surrender happen in people it happens at these moments at these moments when you have to tell yourself you're God take this over take this over and it exists to many in many in many cases you know sometimes the Ultimate Surrender happens when people reach a breaking point where they feel like they're going to go into psychosis or they're going to go to death death of ego and it's at that moment where their deepest ego can't solve the problems of life it just can't that's really that's really where surrender happens where the surrender really really happen I don't know if anybody everybody will understand what I'm going to say now but fine we create a whole life around replacing the source and our egos handle life pretty good let's face it ouram are pretty brilliant some of us make money some of us become celebrities some of us at least become finden we carve out a space for ourselves in the world this way that way whatever your Ambitions are this one becomes the best plumber in the industry and this one becomes the greatest real estate broker in the city of Manhattan this one becomes the greatest shark in New York City and this become this guy becomes the tador of New York City but everybody carves out a space where I am in control and my Go figures it out where's where where's the healing of people the healing of people when Hashem tells this to e you see this moment figure it out with your ego those of you who Reach This Moment it's their greatest gift it's the greatest gift when you say wow I'm not source and I need to surrender to Source that's your moment of redemption what people think is their greatest curse is usually their greatest the greatest gift it's that moment that forces you to say I can't keep this together I can't keep this together so give it up so give it up don't keep it together who asked you to keep it together I'm saying how this is reflected internally every n is reflected internally so this is where I is like you know I is carrying the pain of the world I'm using I as a metaphor now I has so much pain what is that it's like the Jew who carries the pain of the world it's SAS I is a leop I is poor I sees loss and grie grief he carries the pain of the world like a good Jewish mother lost everything when it's aigh the Jew carrying the pain of the world that's e right he's carrying all the pain I'm using this as a metaphor here the gor has a that was a mush there's a that is a metaphor if I was real or e is a metaphor and and I don't I don't even think it's right if e is a metaphor he's even more real you understand because it's not just the story that happened it's everybody's story in one way or another so e is that Jew you know the Jew who carries the pain of the whole world for good reason huh what job yeah is he in English they call him job Steve Job you're mentioning jobs Steve Jobs replaced the pain of his life you know he had a lot of pain and he became uh you know uh it's the greatest gift when your ego says I can handle this anymore our ego made it happen it worked it worked for a lot of years it carves out its space and then there's a Breaking Point you go back to that space where the ego was formed the first time because it wanted to save you from Brokenness because to was broken so the ego is a result of to if there was no of to there would be no ego the ego is turning Brokenness into fake wholeness listen to this this is ego is turning Brokenness into fake wholeness attributing wholeness to something that's really broken and there's a reason it does it it wants you to be safe it carves out a nice space for you and anything that comes your way to break the ego it knows how to neutralize either you become my enemy or you become my friend either I cultivate you and and you know manipulate you or I stay away from you it's fine the ego is brilliant you're my friend you're my enemy you I like you I don't like you know you're stuck in my bosom and you stay away you anyway and all judgment is the ego playing safe it's dodging you know those arcade games where you're dodging the the what is it called those those arrows that come what are those games good games Pac-Man Dunkey Kong but there's one where their arrows are flying and you have to yeah space shooter okay it's been a couple of years it's been a couple of years so and today the kids are already into much more sophisticated games right tanky tanky it was the first game come but it's exactly what it looks like right and the ego Dodges and everybody who comes into the room okay my friend you it's very very subtle but it's it's always there your wife comes home you check out her face you know you run away to youred stay at home at home yeah like the joke yeah what's my point the point is we figure out a way of doing it yeah the greatest moment in life is when God tells I if you're really The Source deal with this one and I says I can't so he says so stop blaming yourself and stop taking credit don't blame yourself for the Brokenness of the and therefore don't take credit for what you created go back into the source and embrace surrender to Source surrender to source and then you become source and you become a channel but that means you also don't take credit for anything that's the price you pay the price you pay for of course of course the need to take credit is only because Detachment from Source it's a torturous need it's coming from Brokenness and I'm trying to replace my Brokenness with fake wholeness and I do it well I do it amazingly well until there comes a point in life where you can't you hit a bre brick wall sometimes it's a m that a person knows that they're going to go in they feel like they're going into psychosis or they feel like they're going to die and what do you have left what do you have left nothing nothing the only thing you have left is pure insanity or death and that's when you okay I'm done I'm done yeah and it's not you surrender with Consciousness and with Brilliance and with like I'm surrendering yeah the moment I'm surrendering you're not surrendering you're not surrendering anything sometimes we surrender as part of the ego I'm I have such a healthy ego I even know how to surrender I don't even need credit I don't even need anybody to notice me you know that I don't need anybody to notice me and that's when I'm busy I'm busy being huh until make sure that no one notices me so no one notic me [Laughter] yeah yeah yeah somebody once said somebody once said the best feeling in the world is to do something anonymously and then somebody finds out you know this one guy finds out and goes on all the whatsapps you know he catches you in the corner you were saying to mistake a bunch of mistakes don't don't blame that it helps to blame so you know the answer yeah yeah yeah yeah and in every person we have that in every person we have [Music] that yeah we all have that and you can't delegitimize yourself cuz theam that's how it lives that's how it's called that's how it rolls that's how it rolls it must have the validation it or whatever its form of ego is this one its validation and this one it's anxiety and this one is victimhood whatever it is every word this one is anger and this one is holier than thou and this one is judgmentalism and this one is addiction whatever it is every person you carve out your space of survival and anyone who resists it you eliminate them or you neutralize them or you subdue them or you sometime some bring them into your team now imagine in marriages how torturous this is either the husband is manipulating the wife the wife is manipulating the husband the bottom line is there's no vulnerability and and these are very very frequent things this is living in a place of survival which is always a place of to always survival is to because it's chaos there's chaos I was once in a car with a driver a taxi driver we were going somewhere I don't remember we probably some event and I was saying to and I got involved in the I was emotional I was saying and I was trying to tune into the words of you know always tell you that tillum is the most vulnerable book book you ever find here's the most powerful man but never takes never never goes into a place of of ego ever and he could have he was a king and he was a powerful he was a warrior and he was talented and he was brilliant and he was pretty Fearless DAV was quite a man as to put it mildly and when you read the tanak it looks like the most powerful person in the world don't mess you know he takes on gulus and he takes on everybody and he's fearless and that's doid when you go to you see it's a whole different person I'm a worm I'm not a person I'm like a little child everything is turning to hasem and you say where are these how do these two people work together then you understand why it says in Z that David is the fourth leg of the mer David's entire power was complete the marav was a complete complete Channel you you see this you see this in it's so so powerful so anyway I'm saying this I'm just saying I'm saying this and I think I'm emotionally involved and I'm getting emotional actually I don't remember if I was crying or not whatever I was saying to he him and then a thought pops into me a thought pops in and I'm saying this too because I want you to understand how the neam works and what do you think the thought said huh M that the thought always said worse dver driver also experiencing oh I started to think about what my driver is thinking it was probably the Y I don't remember why it was saying it was probably of the day huh and then I started to imagine what he's experiencing and then there's even a thought oh he could he should take a video now and then it can even go viral and it can inspire people and it's all about and I'm like OMG wow so right now I could go into shame and guilt and what the animal Soul does but the truth is this is exactly animal Soul Consciousness I could also delegitimize the whole tillum and say it was all a joke it's not sincere but that's also from the animal Soul the animal Consciousness wants to keep you in a place of guilt and shame always it'll do it through kadus it'll do it through Clipper first he'll say let me get a video of you and it'll it'll become a tremendous it it'll become a tremendous success so that you ego gets built up your fake ego gets built up and then it says look what an embarrassment fake uh uh delegitimize and it's all the same thing always what's oh oh hello animal hello what else do you need you you're desperate for validation okay let me give you a hug here come here's a little hug and if you listen the animal soul will actually start crying it it'll actually start crying if you're open it'll start crying it's not looking for real valid it's looking for existence this is how it came to know it exists every animal Soul figures out what's existence this animal Soul validation huh he's going to admit if you do it with kindness and empathy he'll admit he'll surrender he's not even interested in it he it's hard work because he'll tell you he's interested in it but he's not it's a of and there's also a deep deep spark there there's a deep deep inion over there in kadha but it fell down in all of these camouflaged stuff of clipper so you see there's two extremes one extreme is you just go into that space and it's all neam or you get guilty about it and it's also all neam or you say no it's trying to block your experience hold it with empathy and kindness then go back to say till and it's fine your Godly soul is fine you should have gratitud but gratitude as long as here's your tip thank you so much I enjoyed it thank you so much but we don't need any more these survival skills because sometimes you have to leave M everybody else goes don't wait for everybody else if you leave they'll all follow you don't wait father now the huh so in our own life this is a point you reach sometimes a moment in life there's a literally a breaking point where the ego was formed by the breaking point because that's what means means it was a Breaking Point the ego stepped in and said I'll take over I'll turn your Brokenness into fake wholeness through ego I'll build it up and we're going to keep you safe life pushes you back to the breaking point and it's all with one Tas to be able to surrender to the real source and get your real wholeness but the toou won't want that cuz theou turned the sh into a philosophy into a God so Hashem tells your God take care of this one take care of this psychosis take care of this death take care of this and the ego says I'm done you're done okay come back home welcome home ah you surrender it all the ego is happier toyu is happier the shabam is happier as is everybody's happier oh I don't have to fight while I was fighting a whole life you don't have to give it up you know what peace there is in that yeah I hope everybody body's taking this personal cuz if you could do this in your life this is the only the only Vista the only path to there's no other path to anxiety everything else like it says in Tanya there's no middle path we love thinking there's a middle there's no such a thing as a middle path either you surrender to the source or you a if you're it's going to be torturous cuz you're giving credit and existence to something that never existed if you surrender to the source you're a channel for life there's nothing in the middle literally nothing in the middle all in or all out all in or all out yeah now no people learn Tanya they think it's so harsh it's so harsh you're such an extremist Al is an extremist in Tanya everywh he's an extremist like either in leave me alone why can't I just sit on my couch and eat a shish kebab or drink an iced coffee and read a magazine or watch a nice clip or a nice this and chill out I'm not fighting God I'm not serving God I'm just being a normal guy who wants to chill in America there's something called chill chill buddy chill relax and we see people who take the religion seriously and they get us nervous you know K they like somebody said isz more and you're angry and you're miserable and everybody else is miserable and leave me alone I want to chill there's a whole culture today in the fir world let's chill you know you do plug you do plug so you get rid of by 420 you're done with God and you have so you have I don't know you can have 15 hours without God and you D with a and you finished 420 you're done with might and if you d a little later tomorrow so from 4:20 p.m. until the next day you come here 10:00 for and you're done you no religion 14 hours of a break not bad for an orthodox Jew not bad for 14 hours without God huh sometimes you see the S when people finish plug boom done we're finished you know what I'm talking about a guy was once telling me how he loves plag he loves I said why just get it out of the way just leave me alone at least he was he got he was M I'm not saying PL does I'm just saying you have this don't they don't have the guilt don't have guilt but the truth is the truth is that it's the truth that you'll never go away from the deeper you'll always go back to the say you could we could run from today till tomorrow what he's saying is there's one truth about life either you're getting closer to that truth every moment or you're distracting yourself from that truth it's the kindest thing you could have said people think the Tanya is Harsh I tell them it's the deepest book of love you will ever encounter in history it's telling you the raw truth every moment and every experience you're either getting closer to truth or you're distracting yourself from truth huh and if you're getting closer to truth you're getting closer to Bliss you're getting closer to Oneness you're getting closer to love and if you're distracting yourself from truth you're going more into a torturous place where you need more distractions to distract you and numb you from the fact that you're distancing yourself from truth and you could do it you could do it for years and the sensitive ones among us know how torturous it is and there's only one eight it's called surrender and it's called B and you say is I did B yesterday it's B is breathing I also breathed yesterday and I'm still breathing now and I hope to be breathing tomorrow at the same time I'm not going to say I breathed yesterday B is oxygen it's not luxury it's not eating steak steak you can don't have to eat it's of course it's oxygen it's and it's because once you surrender one level you surrender deeper deeper deeper deeper remember it's it's like a the onions of a layer you go deeper deeper deeper huh of course you say but it's hard work it is hard work but it's much much better work than the work of of of running away from B Because when you're going to B you're going to truth you're opening up more you're authentic when you're going away from it it's less authentic less authentic less authentic the energy you have to put in in creating a fake life is endlessly more torturous than the energy you put in to become true hey you're putting you're like investing money in a real thing you're growing capacity to hold truth and here you're investing in in in a scheme in a fake thing and every year you're just going to see how more fake it is until it just plates and explodes in your face and they like duh aan scheme is the right word for it yeah huh it could so you say you say frite it's not FR kite it's B it's a very big difference from kite is another coping mechanism this guy is plag and he gets rid of God that way and this guy is busy with his misery and that's how he cops and the more from and judgmentally is and egotistically is and the whole world is evil and he's the only from guy and he's going straight to it's his coping mechanism real it's not a coping man you're not trying to cope and you're not miserable you're a channel it's a that's what is it's B so this that he's telling is a very very personal experience because it's that space where don't blame yourself and don't take credit you healing somebody don't take credit when it's not working you don't have to blame that's what before start he says don't slap me and don't you're right you're right now here it's about me I can't say I don't blame myself I don't take credit no ask yourself what are you showing up as is waiting for your Redemption if I'm eating a piece of food and I say it's not ready no no you're not ready you're not ready but when you're dealing with a person that's what he says a you have to understand sometimes Mal is open and sometimes the tell you is very very intense and it's not ready yet and you have to say healing is going to be come in God's time it's going to come in God's time when God is ready it says when theat came they went out in a second huh yeah and you have to be able to know there's tremendous resistance here I could show up says I could show up as aad but remember you're from and has a power that TI doesn't have and here you have to surrender to God and in everybody's life there's those things don't take control don't get in don't get in the way whenever you're dealing with to don't go don't be in control you're dealing with to if toou was opened to opened up it's also not your credit that's thees SCH didn't take credit for Mal if would have taken credit for Mal he would have blamed himself for the to that he can't touch don't take your credit she came because she was ready and when toou is not ready your control is not going to make it ready and your blame won't make it ready it's in God's time but you you stay present you understand how powerful this is you see why heal what so healing people blame themselves don't take credit and don't blame yourself don't take credit for Mal you not you weren't the Healer you was to be a torch and she felt it she was open galic sometimes tell it's not open it's in God's time but tell you is higher than tikon so you have to have that humility don't become codependent don't become a control freak don't also become demoralized when you take control you also become demoralized it's not working my life isn't shambles it's not not it's not working it's t and in God's time he knows when the to is going to be in his body so that's what he's telling e of something very very deep this is the point where you can't mistake yourself for God you're dealing with such a such a reality that the only one who can tackle this level of reality is Hashem with your ego you're not going to make sense that's why people sometimes go on very very deep Journeys and they touch a place of psychosis where they real realiz that with their brains they're going to literally go crazy and if they continue that way Insanity will set in and that's the moment they surrender and they they're they're they're liberated it's called ego death ego death is when you begin to live as long as your ego is alive you're dead the moment your ego dies you could come to life abute yeah that's the depth of Kadesh we all know this when my ego is alive I'm dead my soul is dead because it's fake news I don't know if I don't know if I don't know huh he has said no but it's good an expression to explain something it's a it's a good expression right the ego is fake news it's real news it's it's like the New York Times every headline is a she it's the most respected newspaper in the world but every headline every there was a came into the Al once on and he said something to the AL you know Al said said is that's a lie what you just said so he said such such a big lie so outside there was a church so there was a Greek Orthodox whatever the churches that they had there it was a tall building you know they used to make said this is bigger than you and it's a bigger lie because it's big it's not a lie if it's a lie it's a lie don't tell me it's big it's famous I don't care if it's big or so it's a big lie it's a big lie what's the grace it's not a small lie it's a big lie you think because you're making it big it's not going to be a lie Stalin once said one death is is a tragedy a million deaths is a statistic you understand it's a statistic so it's not a it's a bigger ishes call it a call it whatever you want call it a statistic theone said it over and he said and who said it I don't want to say who said it he didn't even want to say who said it it's a statistic he also said that I think this is from Hitler he said a small lie people don't believe a big lie everybody will believe can be can be a small lie Gobles said it over he says I don't want to say who said it he didn't want to say his name could be even wasn't even in Germany when he said it but the bottom line is why a big lie a small lie you won't believe me yeah a big lie how could it be but just the big lie doesn't make it not a lie it's a big lie so saying the guy has such could say a big line that he knows that people believe it the ego does exactly the same thing so there comes a point where like so take this on and when the ego says I can't and it's so painful and it realize it can't so suddenly it like just lets go and it's really experiences an ego death and when there's an ego death you could start living you start living who's you the starts living and then you're alive you P you're really alive and that life is Eternal the same is true also with phys physical death just like everybody understands that when the ego dies you're not dead you're alive the ego died so the same is true when a person passes away we say because life on this world is is is is is priceless and precious when the time of a person comes they pass away yeah so this doesn't call it death hos what's just like when the ego dies you don't die you live the ego dies when the gof gets interrupted from the doesn't die the goes back it's called starts to live without any containers for us it's painful because we like the Goof we want to we want to hold on to something but to think for a moment the person dies the Goof is interrupted from the and that's tragic it's painful that's why this AAS this grief but the EM is to understand this is a big for Jews throughout history you know so many especially what happened this week and everything it doesn't take away the pain of the world but uh it's a very very profound thought when you know the Six Million Jews all the ETC the hostages that were killed the pain is horrific and the have to be destroyed like H but it's it's still it's it's a very powerful experience when you understand that nobody should think for a moment that the bibas children you know Hamas could really control their fate they controlled their fate and did what they did like H and Hitler and Par and all these R and Stalin and each of them you know will will will get their due and nothing Comforts us from that world but but it's also important to understand and it's it's a very very deep place this to understand what Anam is to really understand what a nisham is and it's not something we can comprehend and it's not something that that that that assuages us and calms us down oh everything is good we're not you know living in a la land we okay the but there's a but but but it's such a powerful powerful truth to understand that as we surrender everything including our understanding understand there's no such a thing that a could be controlled by wickedness there's no such a thing what we see what we experience is the horrible tragedy of of the perod from the goof but to know to know the the Bliss of their souls and the depth of their souls and I know there not so many words here to say but you understand my point that's why when somebody passes away we say kades what's the connection let his name be exalted who's talking about his name but the truth is that's the depth of what's happening when there's a death of ego the person begins to live the ego dies the person begins to live when there's a death of the Goof yeah the person becomes it's actually describing the person the person is now there's no separation anymore there's nothing hiding the connection again we cherish but that's the EMS the EMS is it's that's the person the person is a part ofme H this is a alive today who is alive alive listen surren like we spoke shabas surrender is not a space you're in or out it's a spectrum right we go in we go out we go in we go out we vacillate there's to there's but the more you you you train yourself in this you build capacity and you build muscle you know B is a muscle it's really a muscle what do they say about muscles use it or lose it you don't use a muscle you lose it it becomes stuck it becomes Frozen and then you have to stretch it and and open it up to say huh yeah atrophy yeah but sometimes it doesn't die out it just gets congealed you know gets tight tight it has spasms B is a muscle the more we practice it the more we use it the more it expands the more it builds capacity the next time it becomes easier and easier it becomes higher but it becomes easier so we go in and out in and out in and out you know we forget ourselves we forget you know I'm saying tell and suddenly I'm thinking about about what the driver is thinking and how good it would be if it would become like I said you do it Anonymous and everybody knows about it and yeah okay wow wow my poor animal Soul okay you just came to life let me give you a hug let's go back to tillum but without anger because if you're getting angry it's part of the ne ofam is putting you into a new trap now you get anger and ashamed look what a low life I am look what an arrogant piece of spaghetti I am look what an idiot look what a hypocrite oh I'm sa till I'm really you're not a tell you're looking for attention so right away you delegitimize everything so now what happens is W chaos you understand the Trap that's the Trap of guilt and shame and more shame and more shame how can I be like this oh so that means I wasn't really saying so that means it wasn't true it wasn't authentic and now you destroy yourself instead of looking at it and saying the baby is throwing a tantum the animal soul is throwing a tension okay so give him a hug and say yeah I'm here I get it you really need validation I'm so so sorry here come here give me a hug your was pretty bad I get it I get it you think if somebody sees a clip of you saying to or you doing this you'll become a person fine okay come let me make a clip of you come let's make a video of you saying to H and you know what happens will start laughing start smiling then start crying and then give you back a hug and then say okay let's go say tillum together then it's all it needed needed a little attention you get shameful and guilt me me I'm not no I don't need coved of course you need coved who doesn't need of course you need you want attention you want Val yeah everybody people want it so people want other things this guy wants this this guy wants that don't say you don't a it's like when men say I don't have issues with women really isue yeah that itself is an issue yeah a it's not below you right said I'll have a lot of wives and it won't affect me says says not me and that was downfall you see was was no was not a you're talking about was literally that the the Zenith of of from the that brought into the world in a very very subtle subtle subtle way he lost B that's the here it's very interesting the difference ofam represented the success of Cl in its highest spiritual form and what happened he said I could play around with the I can have women I can have extra women you understand he became a God I'm saying it in the very sense of of way was a big big was a big was a big I don't know why they don't sing it on SCH was a was also built was was wasn't a big so what but in that that his his became very suddenly became a little trap to the point that he could say I don't need this Mitzvah I'm beyond it yeah yeah yeah yeah and then I is the opposite right I is is is burdened and struggling and full of pain and anguish and suffering and Hashem says and now you could see that you're not Hashem so you don't you don't have to take the blame and don't take the credit and this is beyond you it's really really Beyond you and it's that point of surrender that becomes a source of bliss and what happens to e afterwards right afterwards it says his life turns around and he gets more success and more kids and more wealth than before psychologically it's if it's a mush what it means the moment of surrender when you give it all up now you get everything back were resurrect yeah now you get everything back it's because everything was perfect you just had to surrender okay I don't want to speak until the room is completely empty so I'll stop before it gets empty here don't takeit and put our resume put B P nobody's going to take work first of all I want to protest in these do we don't live in this is just for the record so bring this there everybody's looking for this what do you they're looking for something else so if I don't nobody's looking for anything else that's the whole of the T you can't be looking for anything else because there's nothing else to look for either I'm distracting myself from truth or I'm looking for truth there's nothing in the middle I once heard from the beautiful V huh the whole system of resum in America I mean by the way it's not only in America Russia do have cuz in Russia everybody is an engineer you don't need a resume everybody has a PHD in Engineering in Russ so you don't need a resume in America there are a bunch of batl no in Russia you have a paper which every paper says in that paper you put every job that you ever had so when you go somewhere else you don't need to say that I was the greatest engineer at Microsoft they know exactly what you are because it says in the paper I don't think fake everything yeah I don't think it's a St here if you don't say that you were I don't think working with the system is a contradiction it's called it's it's it's working with the structures that God created to reveal the truth the is a it's not a it's not a dis doesn't have to do with dissonance but it's without anxiety it's without anxiety it's without selling my soul it's without thinking that other people are going to control have control over me it's done with peace of mind it's done with confidence with with regulation it's different and it don't say sh you actually you never say she no she doesn't uh would be equivalent to what they call have compassion to the protectors compassion for the protectors in ifs is really understanding that they're holding something and they've been doing their job very diligently but don't take them at face value here this is Mech Tov yeah yeah it's understanding that this is how it works and it's not it could be done in a very Noble way on the contrary you elevate that world instead of fighting it you elevated but without selling yourself to [Music] it everybody