What Is Emunah? Faith and Reason -- Three Approaches | Mammar Keitz Sum Lachoshech #4

the yeshiva.net a good morning again everybody of Shabas gimmel of okay today's class is dedicated with heart heartfelt to felis for the speedy recovery from mind bas mala and all of the blessings and a reveal filled way and many healthy and happy and prosperous beautiful years and thank you very much. Amen. So we're class number four of the there's an end that Hashem put to the darkness of the year Shabas tish of 1964dal where we are at hey yeah >> yeah today is also the of my dear friendl who passed the way on gimmel tamos one month ago gimmel tamos tshin pv today his 30th day last night was a big inab of montabelloo yeah may he be a good for his family and all of the Jewish people okay we're holding in the copies it's page gimal So here the mime shifts what's called from meaning from the concept of everything that's been discussed about and the of how it's reflected in a person's life that's what he right away begins now literally usually when you read about such abstract things it could not have a relevance to life but if it's the whole ise to change the person not just another idea. So that's why it's extremely important always to have the what's the relevance right says in the the title page of the Tanya is says it's close to you it's relevant to you it touches you the question is for this comes a whole the layers of the different parts that people have knowing who you really are knowing the acknowledging all of the struggles. So this is the what does it mean for me in my life? Says The first sh this was the main theme of the three different states of the b of which this is the main term that's used for the communication for the connection for the relational field between reality of all of reality the interconnectedness of all of reality is defined by that's the that's the name that's given right that's always was the word that's the common word in Kabala and then and the Reb explained at length but when you speak about represents gil the revelation of the source and is characterized by one thing and that is B what does it mean no ego ego death it's completely a channel but in this B and and not but but and in this B there's three states of consciousness one is the mitas of which is B one is the exper erience of as being inadequate legab its true source which it can't reveal and therefore it lets go of its identity and number three it's yearning always to go back home to be in its source it's homesick for source and therefore wherever it is has the bump where your desire is that's where you are so if I want to be here and not being there is not is is is inauthentic for me I'm there even when I'm here I'm there. Those are the three states. So the says we're not just talking about we're talking about you have it also if you see number 30 he says he's referencing here a mime that was said is actually it was published a few weeks before this mimer this mime that edited in tonal of 91 and a few weeks before that Bamos came out this even though it was set but when it was published it came out before why does he mention it there he says something very very powerful I want to mention it because when you're reading it it looks like there's but everything is also mirrored in our life so yes an example for this is also an in other words don't think we're just talking about something so transcendent and abstract heavenly no let's let's show how it's also an avoid Yeah, he says in parenthesis why is it in parenthesis and this is the footnote a lot of things in my that are not explicit but from the references you have to understand that he's pointing to something else you know we always say there's what says and then there's the empty space what doesn't say that's usually much more even than what says even though this what it says is also pretty much empty space but in the empty space itself there's empty space right there's mak and makam and and that he says it says in that there's three loves. So it's not just three words. It's actually tuning into three different frequencies. The of the is comes from comes from that's what he says there. So creates the creates which is even deeper and then creates the so after a long discussion over there the says he said this is like a like a groundbreaking insight he says it's not like you might think that because there because there's atmos and mal so therefore when you tune in to different frequencies you experience a different love. But where does it start? It starts with and then we're tuning into that and doing he says it's the opposite comes first. The whole is for the relationship with you. The whole the reason this is because Hashem wanted the reason of is because he wanted the It's f you you think we're a mushel for elus. We're a mushel. You want to understand malle I'll find it in your life. He says no MAL IS A MUSHEL for you. You're the niml. You're the purpose because of all the gil all the gil of is for the relationship for the connection for so the reason there's a is because it creates a certain type of relationship the reason creates a certain every in creates the relationship and he says therefore when you do that you're actually you help you fulfill their purpose as long has not been internalized by you. Is like an orphan. It's like what am I doing? Yeah. F is a MARTIAL FOR YOU. YOU'RE NOT A you think usually is the NOW LET'S SHOW HOW IT'S ALSO in avoid that's why the iss and they're also reflected in your life. Let's not just be abstract. Let's bring it down because we want to we want to take something OUT OF IT'S THE opposite because in our there's three so therefore Hashem made that in there should be three that's what he says in that m that's why I think that's what I think the is in parenthesis it's not like I'm GIVING YOU AN EXAMPLE NO IS AN EXAMPLE FOR YOU YOU'RE NOT AN EXAMPLE for now you usually you don't speak that way because it starts with a and then we bring it down. But but he's he's puncturing the secret. It's like in Basil Lagani where he spoke about the the the prince that goes far away and the stories you tell him because it's the only way you're going to bring him back. He's not interested in any dashes and any right those stories come from from your atmus because the relationship is in the deepest way. All the giluim come after. So the relationship comes before of Kalam. Now for us who don't really know exactly what Kalamin is, it doesn't sound so dramatic. But if you knew what is, it's a very very dramatic thing to say. >> Just have to get to know yourself. >> Yeah. Yeah. That's true. Yeah. And he says their when you do their this in it's an aliyah. They fulfill their purpose. If not, they're like floating around, you know, these this energy is floating around like what am I doing here? Because Hashem is not like it's not like it's not it's not an essential program that he's defined by. This is all revelations emanations of the truth in order to build the mechan the the the arena and the mechanism for the relationship for the connection and the relationship exists on all these levels. >> Exactly. because that's where the purpose is. So, so you can even say that the the three madas and they achieve their purpose. Why are there three levels in the you'll say that's how it is. No, it's because the relationship exists on the three different dimensions which is all part of the kavana of a complete fusion complete oneness like we learned in the previous right where where you reach back into the and from that come all of this. So we we fulfill the purpose of the al I'm just I'm mentioning that that's what the number 30 is because you just look it looks like a reference to it's not just a reference to it changes the whole way how you speak about avoid so that's why sometimes people ask why do everything you have to bring down into everything has to become personal and psychological and emotional like just let it be yeah so besides the obvious that when things are not relevant >> then why talk about it okay so it's a mitzvah of It's it's a good thing to learn, but if it's not changing your life, it's missing the whole purpose of what is. That's true. But there's something even deeper than that. And that is when you're not talking about you're not talking about them. Their whole purpose was the it's not like there's there AND LET'S TRY TO BRING in to make it a little more interesting, to make it a little more colorful, to make it a little more relevant. No, the relevance is that it of IS THE RELEVANCE. THAT'S what it is. the the beard of is is a plat in how it's affecting you that is of >> I get it without the >> right right you say I understand the I don't need a m you don't have to like bring it down like it's fine my relationships down here don't have to be with it's fine I'm I'm good let's just talk about let's just talk about the nim you're making a mistake that's the mush you're the nim That's what the we spoke about. I said it a few times a few months ago that he heard from his father and so with this this this of the gives it a whole new depth. It's not just because you're not doing the work. It's much deeper than that because the whole is is the of course I'm not going to be revealed to a mo the whole is based on what we spoke from the that the three states of the way they are expressed in the spheris it's we could The three states of B and is number one the B of founded on so it's the B of the B of comprehension I'm just translating which is mus which is based on amuna on faith that's number one bit number two is the B of amuna b number two is the B that that is the three madreas of that we spoke about. Huh? No. One is the B of which is based on amuna. In other words, it's the B that is created by a comprehension by an integrated haga means when you comprehend something, when you understand something, when you internalize it. The word la in Hebrew means to reach right to attain. Haga you say it comes down in it means it comes down into comprehension. So it's the B of based on amuna. That's number one. There's the B of amuna itself. And then there is the B expressed. Those are the three things. What's the shas? Now it's interesting. The first one he doesn't say is the B of he says the B of that's based on has a B to it but it's a B in not an amuna. The second thing is amuna itself not comprehension not intellect is intellect I understand it this is related to bina that we spoke about earlier in the mina is the that's real bina it's understanding bina is understanding it's not not understanding it's not amuna bina means right but it's it is that number two is that's the of amuna Like it says in and then you have which is expressed in. So when you speak about it's again the same thing you can hear the is saying no no no it's talking about you it's it's it's an in your relationship and therefore there's a sphere called so when you don't internalize it yeah there's no the whole is for this The buck starts here. Yeah. Doesn't stop here, but it starts here. Yeah. >> It answers the question. Is a sound in the forest. No one's getting >> Exactly. Very good. >> Why? >> Yeah. >> Yeah. It's not there, >> right? Yeah. Yeah. If a If the tree falls in a forest and nobody hears it, does it still make a sound? Right. Big question. Big question. The truth is, of course not. The definition of a sound is your experience of what happened. There's no today we know that there's no objective sound. The sound is the marriage between you and the tree. When you're there and this is what happens, the impact is that a sound is generated in your ears based on your brain's interpretation of it. If you would have had a little bit of a different makeup and a different chemistry, it would make a sound. So, it's always any every reality is the relationship. It's it's the relational field. That's where it's happening. That's the Yeah. So you're saying if you're not there, there's no or at least it's not it's not being fulfilled. The purpose is not being fulfilled. That's says, right? It was created. So the Reb says in the it's not just the heaven and earth were created. All the gillums the spirus all the highest it's also everything that's like the that's the back end. So when there's a suddenly everybody is now oh everybody's now part of the you know imagine you hire a caterer you hire a musician you hire a florist you hire a bartender you hire a singer you hire a kadushian you hire the only thing you don't have is the and the so you come to the it's beautiful the whole galdic right you're only missing the and the are missing so you have music you have but Something is off, right? Everything is there. But besides besides the >> Yeah, says you can come to you can prepare for six months and you don't realize it's all a preparation for I forgot to say that was it the whole world is for the for the for the for the for the oneness. What are you busy? The K of the gowns and dresses and it's important get the gown and get the dress. This is for you. But uh the is right and then I'm too stressed out even to be there. You know, I'm on my phone checking my texts. So that's really what he's saying, right? You have all the gilly, all the madas. You're the kala. You're the kala. Now the caterer is a caterer. Now the food, the food, the drink is the drink. The music is the music. Now it's a different for you. right? Yeah. Yeah. All of this will be understood based on what's explained elsewhere. He says it's my few years before I am based when it comes to the isug of Mak and PMI. Makf and PMI represents very briefly. Makf is whenever an energy is revealed but it's not there to tune in to the individual chemistry of the receiver that's called Mak Pi from the word pine means it's integrated according to your vessels. So essentially Mak and PMI is very much connected to and kali. The definition of is revealing the source. It's telling you the truth. The definition of kali is it's tuning in to >> huh >> containing >> containing it. So it's tuning in to the individual identity of the receiver. So you have and you have so it's explained that even when the comes into the it remains in its essence. The same is true when we speak about the being fused with caim the integration of vessels and lights where the light now is really contained by the vessel and defined by the vessel and the vessel is defined and enlightened pun intended enlightened and informed by the light because there's a fusion even when that happens the remains it retains the pristine quality of as he says on its own is makath through its encloment in the kum it becomes The kali transforms it into an kali transforms it into an integrated light which is now contained inside the kali. So is Makov because on its own is pure expression of source without any other consideration and kay is no don't just give me a pure expression of source give me what I could take from the expression of source right >> uh we'll soon see we'll soon see we'll soon see so e so the ver of is that even when the goes into the ki it retain And it becomes an it retains the quality of an example for this is desire even when your pure desire goes into intellect. And not only that to the point that it bends your intellect your your mind it bends it your mind curves. It's like when light gets curved, your mind gets curved that your mind now becomes consistent with what you want. So your mind actually is affected by the venasa. Suddenly there's a reason for your desire. But it's not like there's a really a reason for desire. It started with desire. But your desire is so powerful that suddenly of course it makes sense to you, not to anybody else. But of course it makes sense because changed the so he says that's true. If you're tuning into your real it retains its essence it doesn't gets mixed up. It's not really based on a tom between you and me there's no tom the ultimately in the hierarchy of of the system is under so you really want this okay well we we'll figure it out intellectually because you're an intellectual because you're a very logical guy so we'll figure it out intellectually and the mind plays along but that's not the it didn't start with Tom started with rats and the rats has nothing to do with you know when you start learning Your desire has nothing to do with logic. Let go of that. It's before logic. It's deeper than logic. The works for the doesn't work for the at least a certain level of ruts that doesn't work for the huh >> good. >> Of course. Of course. unhealthy. >> It's it's if you're if you're touching your true ruts, if you're touching your authentic ruts, you don't need a deepest desires of a person are not because it makes sense doesn't start. I wrote on paper pros, cons makes sense logic. Therefore, I want attachment doesn't it's not true. Now, some of us go to that place because intellectualism you could control much more, right? Especially if you have problems of disassociation and safety issues and vulnerability issues. The SEL is a beautiful framework in which you could control and monitor everything with surveillance. Rutzen is like radical. It's wild. Like what's going to come out? It's authentic. Seel it's like wait let me figure it out. Does it make sense to say this? Does it not make sense to say this? Does it make sense to do it? So it's a very very safe place through which to live. Some of us some of you may relate to this. We live our lives with cutting out our because it could be very very controlled and you never make mistakes and you know what to expect and people know what to expect because if I'm not guided by rats and I'm just guided by intellect everything I monitor how it's going to be perceived how it's not going to be perceived. The problem is you're sometimes cutting yourself off from your inner energy. Your life energy is your desire that is your life energy. Of course there's there's you have to know what is coming out but at its core is higher than however it's so powerful that sometimes it doesn't bend the but sometimes the says it does bend the and suddenly your completely agrees to the and the finds a reason to rationalize everything he says but the ratson didn't change the ratson remains pure validation it didn't need the validation from the it is what it is and it's a this is what I this is what I Why do you want it? It doesn't make sense. That question is not a question in rutson. It's higher than why because this is because this is who I am. >> Yeah. Even if it does make sense >> because the could be m remember could go in a thousand different directions. What is logical for one person is abhorrent for another. Right? The of one person is ridiculous and absurd and destructive for another person. That's the whole concept in a negative way of what's the says you're not allowed to take a bribe especially a dian a judge right why what's the problem so the one said is calling him he's not saying he's a he's calling him it's going to belong this it's GOING TO MAKE THAT MY SAYS I think yankl is right and I have a I have I found a toy. I found I found I found. He's right. He's not right. Yeah. He just gave you 20,000 bucks. That's it. Huh? >> Exactly. So the BUT I WANT YOU TO WIN because I got a very nice bribe >> and that's it. So it's I'M GOING TO FIGURE OUT WHY you're right. And you know what? I'm gonna argue it and actually I may even be sincere because the did a good job. I'm really convinced you're right. Of course the 20,000 bucks helped. The prices must come higher today. No, they say that there was one he had and uh and there were two people and one of them was winning. It was obvious that one of them was winning. So the other one Yeah. put an envelope put an envelope on the on the tish was $5,000 and he took it and suddenly the sock changed and this guy won. So the other fellow came over to him and said I saw what happened. I saw what happened but I have a question to you. You're a $5,000 you sell your soul. If he would have given you a half a million dollars you sell your soul but for five thou five grand I I don't understand. That's a pass. Exactly. You don't have standards. So he says like this, "You don't understand." He says, "For you don't sell your soul for $5,000." He says, "You don't understand. I sold my soul 30 years ago for two million bucks. Now it's just, you know, interest dividends. Re That's it. Why not? Was it right? You have a bunch of houses. Another 5,000. Another 5,000. You understand? Now it's just Yeah, it's a it's it's it's a joke, but it's a deep story. It's a deep story. Yeah. I heard from my brother-in-law joke. was a a when he got a little older he became deaf. So his wife said I don't understand you took your whole life you should become blind. It says why did you become deaf? He says it was all pledges. I heard it. I heard the money. I didn't see the money. They never delivered. So I became deaf not blind. Okay. What's the what's the here? Theud is it's the power of I want you to win the I'm going to I'm I'm an intellectual. I'm not saying I'm I'm I'm not a radical. I'm not a fundamentalist. I'm going to find ways there's a whole a whole list of that they were having a court they were having a court case and somebody did a little little slight favor to them and they said you're I'm pled to be the dian you made me ple for da what was it somebody had a little feather on his lapel and the person just removed it he said what brings you here he says I have a dent and he says I'm done you see how sensitive they were to the fact that the fact that you came over and you cleaned my suit already made me biased towards you. So tomorrow when we're sitting by I don't even know that I'm being that I'm being affected but I'm being affected because that's how powerful rats is. It's not like the says you know what you're a crook but it's worth it. That's not what happens. That's not what he's saying. You're not a crook. You're a good guy but you are a crook. This is this is the unconscious this is the unconscious experience called bi confirmation bias. it's called. You will already find ways to confirm your bias. You like this guy cuz he came and he took over the feather of my jacket. I like you. Nobody else did it. I'll already now therefore my mind will already find why you're you're you're the winner of the case. And that's the that is but it's not an of it's now this is in the negative. This is just an example of right the is basically I'm selling myself. But the nikuda like everything it comes from a very very deep authentic source and that is ratsen represents the core desire of a person that's not al you don't need it to be al it's not it's not it doesn't need this justification of this is who I am why are you like this it doesn't make sense thank you >> there areas that are created by but they're not core the desires in other words it may make sense for me to uh go to this store not to this store and therefore I decide I want to go to this store. there's two vacation spots and here it's cheaper and it's nicer so that's help so therefore I have a for that but the the deeper theness of life are beyond the art that come from that's called >> it's also always >> even that is root that's true it's rooted >> I want to go to the store I want for cheaper why I want it for cheap >> that's true if you really go back to it even their created from is nursing it's it's there there's some trace to a deep deep deep deep desire that it's feeding somehow you just not may not see it but in a manifested way sometimes yeah I understand something is right and therefore this is what I want I don't want this yeah I want this apple I don't want this apple I want this coffee I don't want right we all do that constantly that's not even that you know if you're sitting with somebody who knows you and you really don't have anything to do but to psychoanalyze why you chose this coffee and that's you know we could figure that out right >> uh yeah yeah there's probably other issues besides why you wanted this apple That's true. >> That's true. That's true. The the core of midas is higher than it says that clearly. Even though even though the midas come from there, there's always an element of but in their core it's higher. >> What's the difference between rats and tinug is behind rats. Tynug is the ratson is the expression of the tenug. Tynug is the experience of the bliss. And therefore I want rats is from the word rato. I'm I'm gravitating. Tino, you're not gravitating. You are. The rutsen comes from the tina. The rutsen stems from the tino. >> Is caused by tino. >> That's that's a huge Is it correlated? Is it caused? Is this ratson really deep? >> It's both. That's what it says in there's a whole uh a whole series of my on this question. Huh. In there's an expression. There's nothing higher than that's a very famous source in other words is where it begins. >> So generates the right generates the and that's all higher than they'll say why does this give me tenug? The the beginning of tenug was before there was a y before there was logic. Logic is created because of like we say that's before. So there what's the means? There's a there's a from there came everything including so even when comes into it still retains it. This is also what we learned about mitzvah. There's different types of mitzvah. Some mitzvah have rational reasons and make a lot of sense, right? Not to murder is a very logical mitzvah. Not to steal is a very logical mitzvah. Even shabas, a day of rest, a lot of logical mitzvah, huh? >> I'm saying there's a lot of mitzvah with so it's al explains that it's not the case. All the mitzvah are sometimes the rats. >> It's al which is higher than it's beyond. But sometimes the Hashem wanted that should take on the mask the it should camouflage itself. TO DRESS ITSELF up in the garb of and then you could take it with but that's not the is not the is even when it goes into and that's why there's some mitzvah that didn't go into to know that even the mitzvah that went into that's not their mus the essence is not our works for the over time in a in sometimes in a beautiful way when you really want something you can already find a for it >> well says it also has wants so you have to know Who wants what? >> You have to know what ratson you're getting in touch with. When I say I want, is this the most authentic eye? I may not even know what the authentic eye is. I want maybe it's a number. It's a distraction. How deep is the ratson? What what what created that roten? Is this really rooted in the most authentic self? When your rats is rooted in the most authentic self, just knowing what it is is already a tremendous experience. It's like but that's the when you can know what your is even if you don't have it you didn't fulfill it you know you know who you are and where you are tool >> yeah yeah is a blessed tool and it doesn't it doesn't tarnish the pristine quality of rats which is an in of mach meaning what's the difference of and rats why is this called makov this called pimi because seel is always considering needs validation from reality. Doson and doesn't that's the difference of maki seel. Yeah. I say could you explain to me it's like a conversation between husbands and wives. Could you explain to me the logic of what of this? No. They just start crying. Okay. So I can't deal with that. I can't deal with emotions. You want to explain it logically? Good. You know in other words has rules. What are the rules? The rules are the rules of logic. Seel conforms to a system. We call it logic. Now I know that system itself is a complex system. What makes something logical? That's a separate discussion. But SEL is not living in isolation. What makes something intellectually sound? There's certain rules. When if I say 2 plus 2 equals 5. Yeah. Sorry, Rabbi, with all due respect, you know, maybe you're having a hard day, whatever it is, but 2 plus 2 does not equal five, right? >> Says you're stuck. >> Huh? >> But Rutson says, I don't care if you think it equals five. this is what I want. But it doesn't takes into consideration a reality outside of it. It conforms to it. It's not when the Gmorra says yeah but this is my no no it's not your you we just refuted right must consider the reality around it. Whatever that reality is there's a reality called logic and conforms to it. Ratson is I want why because I want what justifies rats is itself. Yeah. Now, sometimes it could be a stubborn stubborn trauma of a person who's just defensive and stubborn and and and and completely inconsiderate and they're just burying their own grave. They're just digging a hole for themselves, of course. But in its core, what it is even in kadusha, what is it? Is that rutson is an expression of the self. This is who I am. You want me to be who I'm not? What do you want me to be? You want me to be who I'm not? You want me to be inauthentic? you'll be happy is already an inauthentic self and that's why it's very good for disassociated people to use cuz it has like an objective reality that you go into. You become like a computer. You become like a computer like AI and it's very good. You could be brilliant but you don't have the experience of self. The experience of self that's and that experience of self is not a logical experience. So that's why is because considers the reality has a needs to be contained by the laws of logic proven in the laws of logic. Ratson this is it. It's an expression of of of who. So that's what he's saying. This is a dogma for what does he mean when comes into this is going to be the first of the you remember the three levels right which is not but it's completely the when a comes When a person contemplates with their mind something that they actually have a in how do they have a he says they have a simple clear amus means it's removed it's divested from any intellect from the need of intellectual proof it's higher than And now they're contemplating with their this thing. Why? Because the person wants that even should experience it should comprehend it. I don't want to just disregard my I want the should also be should also be part of the of the of the relationship. I don't need it. But the Huh. It's connected to that. Yeah. But he wanted so here's the even after you understand it and you understand well the still remains a that's higher than what do you mean it came into that's true like came into it retains its quality that's it doesn't change that even though now it's in the medium it's in the kal of and it's it works beautifully You could explain it still. It does not compromise or dilute the the depth the intensity of the integrity of it. And not because as he's going to say soon, not because you weren't really using your you were just making a joke. You were just like manipulating your that's not the verb. That's not islapsuous. Slapsious is serious. Islapsuous means I go into it meaning I become defined by you. You become defined by me. There's a fusion. There's there's a real there's an attachment. Just like when the rats affects the sometimes it really affects the this is how I'm thinking in this case the could transform the nonetheless even then it retains the integrity of the difference between the two metaphors that are brought in of and there's a big When you talk about coming into in the first case, the reason your agrees to your it's not it's not an intellectual truth. It's because you push it by because you pa want it is a dictator basically. He's a tyrant. He controls the psyche. He says, "You you look like me. You follow me. You're going to understand what I want." And the sec is, "Okay, boss." Now, we're not we're not aware that we're doing this, but we're all doing it. Now, we're we're not really at the moment, we're never aware. If we'd be aware, we'd have much we would be much more expansive. This is a very deep process. This happens in ways that are so not conscious because really the god. He's the boss. So, he's he can change him. So that's what he says when the affects the understand it's not it's the has a power of that's the power of in a person yeah the conforms yeah this is what they call today in psychology confirmation buys right a classic example would be you have two kids in a classroom one has a very good self-esteem and one unfortunately has a very lousy self-esteem yeah so the one with with a horrible self-esteem gets a test and he got on the test 100 and he comes home and his mother's so excited AND SHE'S LIKE, "WOW, YOU GOT 100." He's like, "No, it was a stupid test. The questions were so simple. Everybody got a 100. Everybody got 100. He made it so easy. And not only that, I really got a lot of questions wrong, but he felt bad for me. So, he gave me a 100." Then you have another kid with a good self-esteem and he got a 60 on his test. He comes home and his mother's like, "What happened?" He says, "This teacher, he's the stupidest teacher in the world. He doesn't know how to make a test. It's stupid questions. It's ridiculous. It's not even fear. He didn't write what he taught." Whatever. Shine. You understand? I like myself. I'm confident. You can give me a 60. You can give me a zero. I'm good. My teacher is stupid. I don't like myself. Yeah. I can get a 100. I can get 900. Get a,000. The whole world can give you a 100. Right? We all know this very very well. The whole world can scream you're on a 100. But if you don't feel it, you're a zero. And if you do feel it, the whole world you could scream you're a zero. The med says why is he called, right? Cuz he's on one side. Then the whole world is on the other side. The whole world is screaming you're weird. You're crazy. I'm fine. When you'll heal your traumas, you'll know exactly the truth. It's fine. So this is the Indian of the is so so powerful that it could be since even when the comes into the it works in a way that the is this battle it's changed because of the has so much force so much gravity gravitas that it can affect and metamorphosize the fact that this relationship doesn't change the even after it comes into it retains its is not such a kesh because is bottled to it. It's bottled from the so it's not such a that the retains its its pristine power. Here it's different when a comes into says something now unbelievable. comes into the fact that comes to a conclusion that the thing that you believe in is MS also in the world of it's not meaning he says when you're contemplating with your because you want that your should be aligned with the truth that you experienced in you're not trying to manipulate ate your actually trying that your meditation your back and forth should conform to the it should be truly intellectually soundic thorough real authentic you're looking for real logic you're not trying to manipulate the mind doesn't have this purity if you want that to be and you're just going TO CONVINCE YOURSELF OH it makes sense but you know it doesn't make sense you're not doing the job. The whole Indian here is you want that to live in the so you want this to be the doesn't care about the what do you mean doesn't care mean he cares about him but he's the boss so the bends it bends based on it the is battle from the from the so the fact that the retains its purity is not such a but here the bends the that's not the real faith never ever distorts intellectualism. If it's real amuna, you're not afraid. Take a look in 33. Okay, this is one of the most uh fundamental things when you're teaching ambash a quote from puttas. This this paragraph is based on 1909 says since you know that the thing is tak based on your amuna because amuna doesn't mean blind faith. Amuna means your soul sees it. That's what amuna means. Amuna doesn't mean you're bubb and and you grew up in the system and you happen to like chicken soup and right and so why not that's not a we're talking here amuna from the word imun trust authentic amuna it's real why is it real why is it real said it why maybe your grandmother is also brainwashed right in Afghanistan they also believe things so that we need to we need to explain we have our amuna series that we did a couple of years ago but But what what is the idea? So people will say it's not really amun. It's logic. That's not the verb. Am but when you know that it's not you're not afraid to go deep into it. And you don't limit YOUR MIND. YOU DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOUR MIND DON'T GO HERE. You're not afraid of the mind. You'll search. You'll scrutinize. You're wigging away everything. You know why? Because it's true. It's true. So what are you afraid of? What are you afraid of? You're afraid of an argument. So how true is it? If if if seel if seel is a reality that God gave in the world to figure out truth. You could say there's certain things that can't get to. They can't deal with it. But if if it's true, nothing is going to contradict it. Reality won't. What are you afraid of? What are you afraid? So real is not afraid of it doesn't need to manipulate the doesn't have to say you know just agree with me just to make believe that is intellectual. You have to tell me what that inside joke was. >> Oh >> yeah. Yeah. If if it's real, if it's real, if it's a that gives this the soul the experience of of I'm not afraid of anything. Investigate it for 100 years. It's true. If it's true, it's true. >> This is I think the Reb emulated this when it came to the universe. >> Yeah. >> A lot of otherboref. >> Yeah. Yeah. in all that EBA's letters about science and religion a lot a lot of letters in the early years the 50s the 60s you know was a huge topic then it was like a very very much hotter than today it's you know anxiety but then people were busy the age of the universe evolution was a huge thing today it's like I'm miserable can you just make me a little less miserable like I don't care I don't care if it's 25 billion years I'm I'm miserable for 25 billion years like you're miserable for 5,000 years I'm miserable for 25 billion years we're both miserable right could you help me with my misery but in the 50s. It's true. >> A million. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. They're going to think, "Hey, I'm a caffeine addict." Like a nicotine addict here. >> Yeah. >> Yeah. So, it's interesting. There was different approaches from religious leaders. Yeah. Some were like science. sciences today and I don't care what they say but he's a Jew. Okay. But but he's actually a good guy. He comes TO COME TO WHATEVER it's whatever. Fine. >> Theories. >> Yeah. Theories in this it's a complete disregard for science. Now we all know that you have scientists that you have a lot of lot of agendas and so on and so forth. What that did is it turned off people who are serious students of science. like don't just tell me that every piece of research is just a lie and there's an agenda right now more honest people will tell you okay but it's not my field I don't know about it and I'm choosing to trust the so there's like a separation then there's the opposite approach those who were too sensitive and respectful of science right so they have to always be apologize this is not like you said six days are not six days and evolution could work with all the all the things they find how yishkite is not as crazy radical as you thought. So, you could still put on fill in and still keep Shabas and come home and say I'm a sophisticated student of science and physics and I even give a course in Columbia University and I'm a normal Jew. I t this works this works. It's an approach of apologetics. Both extremes have a common denominator and the common denominator is that they don't know TA is true. You understand? It's funny. They're missing the truth. I'm I'm not I'm not saying in a judgmental way. Not it's it's just where you are. It's it's where you are. Both are not convinced. Not con. Maybe they say they're convinced, but both inside don't know that it's true. No, I don't mean no. I say it. No, I mean my whole nervous system knows it. Just like you know your mother is your mother, right? Then she's not lying about the fact that she's your mother. Even though you weren't there when I mean you were there when you were born but you don't have a video of but you know your mother is your mother and even if a thousand scientists prove to me prove to me that my mother is not my mother right I know my mother is my mother right and now somebody's going to say but can you prove it logically what do we mean logically genetically today you have genetic tests let's do DNA testing and let's see if your mother is your mother I'm going to tell you that I need it I need my mother to go take a DNA test and I need to take and after she HAS A DNA TEST. OH, OKAY. NOW, I'll call you Arab Shabas. Yeah, it's a joke. You don't need But let me ask you another question. Am I afraid for them to do all the testing? Am I afraid? Why not? What happens if I'm going to find out? And the answer is because it's true. It's fine. If the geneticist is being authentic, right? If it's not a real discipline, it's not a real discipline. If it's fiction, it's fiction. But if if I'm looking for the MS, I don't care. You can investigate for 50 years. I know it's true. It's fine. It's not going to contradict reality. Nothing is going to I know my child is my child. I know my child is my child. And they're going to want to prove it THROUGH DNA. FINE. PROVE IT. NOW, do you think I have to call the geneticist? Yeah. And say, "By the way, they're coming to you tomorrow to figure out if my menal is my son. Do me a favor. Mashtik." Okay. Mashik. Yes. Anti-semit doesn't apply. Make sure that the genetics come back the way I do. I don't have to do that. You know why? Why not? Cuz he's my son guy. I know he's my son. I don't know it from DNA. It's true. I don't know it from DNA. And could you figure out a I know it's fine. Do all the testing you want. I'm reality is not going to contradict reality. If it's reality, if the geneticist is a corrupt person, yeah, that's we're not talking about that. I'm not afraid of anything. Go deeper. Go deeper. You know, when your books are legit, you don't care if they're examined, right? You could check, check, check. I didn't steal. I did not steal. >> Huh? >> That's true. Scientists could be biased. I once saw an article a Harvard University professor wrote. He says, "I have to admit that when we went into this research, we had an agenda to prove that there's no God." He wrote that he was raised about science. This is not a worship of scientists, right? Just like rabbis and doctors and therapists have biases. Scientists have a lot of biases. Some of them have a very, very deep agenda. And sometimes it's unconscious. It's not even that they want to. It's sometimes unconscious. Remember once there's a god in the world it's not so simple. So I'm saying so I'm saying so there's approach one approach is you say science is nothing it's clip it's we don't need it is but it's not true science is part of creation says that the way to come to is through the study of the universe that's what the writes says we learned that there's in every tree and in every shrub and in every bush and in every insect and in every mammal. So you're actually studying God's mind. You're studying God's wisdom. Whether it's engineering, whether it's geology, whether it's astronomy, whether it's cosmology, whether it's science visit. >> So the so this is a very interesting thing. You see in the letters and his it was neither approach. He didn't say science clip. It's nothing. It's all sheh. But he also was never never apologetic. Never. I mean, unless he thought you didn't understand was never ever apologetic, but not because I'm going to I'm not going to let you affect my amuna. He was ready to talk about it scientifically. That can only happen when you know it's MS. If you know it's MS, no, no, nothing in science is going to contradict MS. It's not going to contradict MS. Maybe you have to learn more. Maybe we have to explore more. No question. I always have to be humble and open. But there's no there's no fear of the discipline. There's no fear of it. There's understanding. We all have pitfalls. People make mistakes. There's no question. Listen, the age of the universe is constantly changing. It used to be 15 billion years. I don't know if you remember, but a year or two ago, they put it up to 25 billion years. Now, who cares, 15 billion, but think about the mistake. Think about the mistake. 10 billion years between you and me is a lot of time. At least last time I counted. Okay? So, how did it come from 15 billion to 25 billion? Time magazine makes a front page cover, right? Nobody remembers the old one. >> It's too long ago. >> Very good. It was too long ago. Yeah. They once asked a turtle, right? Yeah. If he was by the big bang if he remembers. He says it happened too fast. You know, he's he's still walking home from >> huh. That's the vart. That's the v the common denominator of the two extremes. If I have to throw away science or I have to bend is because I don't see ta as really truth. So if I don't see it as really truth, I'm always apologizing. What does the New York Times say? Let me create a Judaism that fits with the New York Times, with Time Thai magazine, with Harvard University. And every year I update it. And then there's another approach. And the other approach is no, TA is MS and everything else is checker. And what why why you're afraid? Why are you afraid of the world? If if it's God's world and it's God's ta, so what do you think? The world is not going to contradict. >> That's it. >> If who created this world? Who created geology? Who created the mountains? Who created the stars? If there's a big bang, who made the big bang? The one who gave ta. So what's the issue here? You think that god is what? Has a split personality. With the big bang, he forgot about forgot about the big bang. Or there's other issues here. So that's what he's saying. When there's real am you're not afraid of you don't need to bend the at all. You respect the integrity of you know why because that's your whole point. Your point is that the should align with the should experience what the is experiencing. So you're looking for THE INTEGRITY OF IT'S NOT like that's what he's saying. If the is not then there's certain places I won't go. You're asking me good questions I'm not going to go there. But when the is a real amun you're not afraid that's you want to go deeper deeper. I'm not afraid of any challenge. Why am I not afraid of any I may not know the answer for everything. That's legitimate, right? That's legitimate. Some of that's that's normal. But I'm not afraid. There's no existential fear that you're going to ask a question and everything is going to be destroyed. >> Father he was a kid. He's troubled and asked around. He said his father the reason why today he's from is said his father used to look at him and say >> nice that's where his father would say. Yeah. >> Yeah. You don't you don't have to make fun of the question like it's a it's it's a very important question. Huh? >> Yeah. So let's see. Let's see. Nonetheless, even though when the comes into the fact that the reaches this conclusion in the thing that you believe is MS is what do we mean it's also it's not when the comes to a conclusion that the thing that you believe is MS even it's not looking to undo to manipulate it I want the geneticist to come back and tell me from the world the perspective of genetics I don't need them to tell me from my perspective that's not the point I want that in the world where they don't know what I know where they don't experience what I they don't know my child they should also come to that CONCLUSION SO DO YOUR JOB do your job well nonetheless he says still it does the slap shows even though it's validating and it's it's conforming to meaning it's recognizing the integrity of It doesn't change the even after understanding it in the remains even though it's malubish in the it didn't change the pristine integrity and quality of the purity of the and that's a bigish even more than There's another difference between the two metaphors. The metaphor of and the metaphor of the comes into the fact that the comes into an effect that the should be like it's because rules overl it's not to the itself doesn't need it but because the rats is a is a ruler is a dictator over the so the conforms And since the rules over, it's not the rat itself. The rats itself is rats. It's its relationship with other now you're talking about the relationship of rats to the other is that it rules over them. It's not under them. It's superior to them. So now when the rats goes down to go into it's a real what do we mean it's a real yida? It's stepping out of its own orbit going into another world and dominating it. When comes into the fact that you're contemplating in your to understand what you believe is for the sake of you're not doing it for the sake of you're doing it for you should be integrated. You wonder the should permeate. So when am goes down into it's not really going down. It's not leaving its orbit deeply because it's a you didn't leave. When the roten comes down into it's not a prat. It's going out of its own orbit to affect the so there's two things. On one hand ratson rules over the it's not considering its own identity. It bends it the way it wants. On the other hand, the raten is going out of its own experience to affect the amun. He says both things doesn't bend the is looking for the truth of the but why is for the sake of the so should be. So it's not really stepping out of itself. It's bringing itself into the world of >> how do you >> Okay, good. Good question. Good question. Let's see the next few lines and then I want to explain it. According to the fact that it's known, these are the key words. It's known in the slaps. So amuna coming into means b coming into mitsus bit infusing mits that's what it is is mitas identity amuna is b nullification to the source am coming into is what b infusing mits mits is be being filled with bit mitz is being redefined by b that's what it The mitsas becomes bottle. The ble meets mitsas and and and enlightens it, transforms it, elevates it. And this is the first of this is the first. You remember he said what's the first he started the whole he said the of comprehension that's based on what what what are we what are we learning here? What's the and then we'll see the second pure amuna. What is amuna? We went uh straight into it. But what really is amuna? He's saying if you have real amuna, you're not afraid of any intellectual question. You're not really afraid. You completely retain your equilibrium. You're not you're not uh you're not like, "Oh my god, you know, what are they going to come up with?" Because when we talk about ama, we often make a mistake. We think a muna sometimes is translated as blind faith. It's like this person took the leap of faith. I don't take the leap of faith. In other words, we tuna to be almost like you choose to believe that which you can't really prove. Why do you choose? I don't know. It works for you maybe. Or maybe you have a good feeling about it. >> You're dumb. >> Cuz you're intellectually lazy because you're dumb. >> Yeah. what you starting out change a whole system and what are you going to do with your kids put them in public school like it makes sense right there's a lot of so what does all this mean this means you believe and then other people will come to you and say you know and I grew I'm mature I'm sophisticated I don't believe anymore >> they think you're crazy >> they even think you're crazy yeah so I know that's the vocabulary we use for amun a blind faith a leap of faith it doesn't really make sense I just believe I believe because I But that's not in the because then you're very afraid of you should be afraid. You should be afraid. You're not going to have come. You should be afraid because Yeah. It's like uh you know, >> of course they're going to prove you wrong. Yeah. What's the first thing they tell you to do in a cult? The first thing they tell you in a cult member is don't discuss these things with anybody outside the cult. Why? Cuz the guy may ask a good qu. I mean, they don't tell this to you. They'll tell you because they're brainwashed, cuz they're crazy, cuz they're sick. They want to destroy you. But the real reason is because he may ask a good question and you're done. So what is the amuna? The of amuna inarim of Jewish philosophy is going to say, "Is there hashem exists?" Of course, there's that hashem exists. It's a very intelligent conclusion that God exists. But since I can't see it with my eyes and I can't touch it with my fingers and I can't smell it with my nose or hear it with my ears or taste it with my mouth. So in other words, it requires a certain form of abstract thinking or deeper thinking going a little deeper. It's not like you know I don't see God like I see the table. It needs avoid it needs. So you call it amuna. In other words, ama is something that's more abstract that you need higher tools to cultivate in order to to reach. That's how it's discussed in Jewish philosophy. Why you call that muna? Doesn't mean the Jewish philosophers didn't think they were blind and they were stupid and they were just believing traditions. The Rambam and others were were brilliant, brilliant intellectual. They weren't afraid of any questions. So why do they call it a Muna? They call it a Muna because it's not something that you know you're not going to find God in the laboratory. >> It's not tangible. Exactly. So you need you need you need to investigate. There's debates etc etc. There's also kind of you know the suffering in the world and all the questions that we have. Yeah. They tell a story that there was once somebody who uh he was an atheist and he said that he developed an amazing telescope and he was looking for God and he saw so many planets and stars and he never saw God. The telescope never allowed him to see that God exists. So there was a violinist who told him, "It's interesting. My violin had a problem the other day and I took apart the violin and I didn't find music. I took it apart and there was no music anywhere in the violin. So prove that there's no music. So in other words, he's saying there's something you need aush for it. You need you need a that's inidas though already is the maral and the kabala amuna is seen as a different not different but a deeper ama is you might say you need a ma for this. You could say that but this is what muna is that the soul experiences Hashem's reality. The soul sees it. To put it this way, amuna is a sixth sense of the soul. That when it's cultivated, it perceives ultimate reality which is transcendence which is amuna means that if all my blockages are removed, there's a part in me which is actually my core and essence that knows that God exists. How does it know? Because it's part of it. It experiences it. Like when I see that you're here. Yeah. It's not that I don't need proof because I hate you want to prove to me that you're here by showing me your parking place and we but I see you. And means that the soul sees Hashem. It experiences what we call the frequency of divinity. It experiences it. Now I could say it's not true. I'm brainwashed. I'm a sugar. I desperately need God because I have too much pain. Yeah, you could say everything. You could say that, right? Of course, you could say that. What is real am means that explains when all the blockages or many blockages are removed and you start experiencing your own spiritual energy, you know that you're part of you're part of the whole world is part of you know that the world is an essence of truth and it's the divine music of the world. Some of you who have done a lot a lot of emotional or spiritual work know that there's certain things you experience and for 50 years somebody could convince me or convince you that you were it was fictional that you're crazy but you know that you weren't crazy. How do you know you weren't crazy? Maybe you are. It's true. Maybe everybody is crazy. But then I should also say this doesn't exist cuz I'm crazy. And when it comes to the table I know that I'm not crazy and I see a table. So you could convince me that I'm crazy and there's no table. And the truth is in science really there's no table. But that's a separate description. But the bottom line is based on our external world there's a table means that call me insane but there's a truth that you your eyes your soul has eyes. Your soul has a nervous system. Your soul has an energy and it experienced it experienced that there's a deeper truth in existence. It's the music of existence. Huh? >> Without it doesn't need. It's not afraid of doesn't need like we learned the put. It's a type of experience. Yeah. I'm sorry. There was a one of his first. So he said is something that a question won't weaken and an answer won't strengthen. Why not? Come on. If I believe a mis and you ask a question, it's weaker. You answer an answer, it's stronger. Why is it something that a question won't weaken? The answer is back to my child. Asking me a question how I know my child is my child or my mother is my mother is not going to weaken my knowledge that my mother is my mother. You may have a good question. You could prove to me that Isaac Neworth is now in Australia, but it's not going to weaken my You're going to show me documents that he's in Australia, but I know YOU'RE HERE. SORRY, HUSTAKASHA. FINE. I'M NOT OH, I'M STRUGGLING. MAYBE HE WASN'T THERE. UNLESS YOU WANT I should define myself as insane. fun, but I'm not ready to do that at the moment. Maybe I should, but not at the moment. You can ask me A THOUSAND QUESTIONS WHY MY MOTHER IS REALLY NOT MY MOTHER. I KNOW SHE'S MY MOTHER. SORRY. I KNOW MY SON IS MY SON. >> How do you get this mother? >> You don't get to it. It's there only. The only thing is you remove blockages >> because cause cuz because if there's no trust I don't even trust that cuz it's the ultimate experience in life. Once you experience this no question will ever make it weaker. NOT THAT THERE'S NO QUESTIONS. IT'S NOT LIKE WE UNDERSTAND there's suffering in the world of course. And if there's a God why does he allow suffering? You would allow such suffering for your children if you love them. Great question. And you know what? I have the best answer. I don't know. But the I don't know doesn't compete with the frequency of what I experience. So you could say, BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. THERE'S A LOT OF QUESTIONS. THE QUESTION, if it's real and the question doesn't weaken it, not because the question is a stupid question. No, it's not. In the world of logic, there's a lot of questions and doesn't need, but it's not afraid of that case. The only reason I would use my sight is to calm down. >> That's true. So why do I even want? So you have to understand when you say it doesn't mean blind, stupid, you're an idiot, you're lazy, you're bubba and rediscover Judaism. Because if that's not a if that if if we're dealing with that, it's all a cult convincing each other. So then we're just driving everybody crazy. Then it's just inauthentic charlatans, cult leaders who are brainwashing people for thousands of years like get out of my life. When you say a doesn't need afraid of it's a different it's a different it's like I don't need to to for you to prove to me through genetics my son IS MY SON. I'M NOT AFRAID OF GENETICS. I'm not afraid of DNA. You want to do it. I see you. I see you're here. You want to prove it to me? Prove it to me. You don't want don't because the soul is You know how YOU KNOW THERE'S GOD? Cuz you're God. That's how you know. How do I know I exist? Can anybody prove to me al that I exist? So give me a birth certificate from June 11th, 1972, Sunday morning, 8:00. Sunday morning, 8:00, you'll figure out my astrology, how crazy I am. Gemini, split personality, all the good things. Sunday 8 o'clock, bring me a birth certificate, right? Bring me the nurses who were there and you'll prove to me that I exist. Now, for somebody who doesn't know that I exist, maybe that's very important. Sometimes they want my birth certificate. The fact that I come to the DMV, they couldn't care less. I want your birth certificate. Look, my birth is better than me. Much better. BECAUSE YOU COULD BE LYING ABOUT YOU BUT YOUR BIRTH certificate that's kadesh kadash it's science you understand the point so now YOU'RE GONNA TELL ME I DON'T HAVE A BIRTH CERTIFICATE I'M NOT SURE I was born there are such people show me YOUR BIRTH CERTIFICATE SHOW ME YOUR BIRTH CERTIFICATE I DON'T MIND AS A BIRTH CERTIFICATE THAT'S WHAT am you don't need it's not a you're not afraid of it the doesn't make it stronger and the kash doesn't make it weaker >> that drives us to want to find out >> oh good question but you're what when we We don't really unless a lot it takes a lot of work to exp. What does it mean? It's not a joke word. It's not good for self-confidence. YOU'RE A PIECE OF GOD. THANK YOU, IDIOT. I mean, you're a piece of God, idiot. That's what I meant. You know, it's the economy, stupid mish means that everything that's going on in God is is you. That's your frequency. You're channeling it. You are a channel of it. And says mish, right? The kami ma says in others but he has the word mamish. I'm not trying to be dramatic. I'm telling you the truth. It's in your body. It's inside of you. You say I don't feel it. There's no such a thing. So we have to also realize the other fact. I have an animal consciousness. I have survival templates. I have coping mechanisms. I have a lack of trust. And that may be so buried inside of me. I don't even know what it looks like. And in fact, if my whole relationship with God has been shoved down my throat, it was experienced as fear and as very very difficult and stressful and filled with anxiety and disregulation. I don't even know about that part of me. I don't even know what that looks like. >> It's covered in layers of clutter. I mean, you're a plumber. You know what that looks like, right? Literally, pun intended. You always give the right muscle for this. >> No, no. That's what kipos are. And and we we have to realize this. And God could be part of my kipa. My Judaism, my religion, my God, it's all part of the kipa. Nothing to do with amuna. It's the guilt and the shame and the self-contempt and the lack of regulation. And I live there and rash is part of the the nightmare and yamip is a bigger nightmare and l is the to the nightmare and tishabove is also the nightmare. Like it's all one big nightmare and like pudd is even worse. So you get drunk is the worst day for this nightmare. So you're completely smashed. Right? So I don't even know what all these words mean. We call it religion, religion. But the truth of amuna is that if we get if we work through our clutter in the most regulated state of your nervous system in the deepest form of serenity, what will you you will channel the music that vibrates through existence. Alvi says, I am a harp for your music. You are the harp upon which God plays his symphonic chords. And that means that this this is that in your deepest your soul has eyes and these eyes perceive a reality that's cannot be articulated because there's no picture of it. It's a secret. It remains a secret. Why is called it's all revealed here? The answer is even if it's revealed for 5,000 years, it remains a secret. Will always remain a secret. Even after Msiah comes, it's going to be called a secret. A secret doesn't mean cuz nobody knows it. Today, it's available. It's even when you know it, it's a secret because you can't know it. It's not a napkin. What I'm seeing is not a tangible thing. The soul knows experiences. And the way to experience is only through. If I want to hold on to it in my ego, I'm not holding on to it. I'm holding on to the world that he created which allows myself allows me to grasp it. This is something in which you you nullify into it. You surrender into it. You lean into it. You surrender into it because amuna is the experience of a and you can never experience an within the container of ego. That's why amuna is ble is ble because what is a mun is like we learned yesterday about kma. It's it's it's God revealed inside of you. How is God revealed inside of me? If how is God revealed inside of me? So it's one or two. Either God surrenders to me or me surrenders to God. And in that experience of surrender, I become a channel. That's what we spoke about the right. The holy of b. That's all that's what B is b is amuna. B is the kal for amuna. Amuna and amuna equals b equals amuna. That's why in amuna there's complete complete surrender. That's a very good question. Very good. All articles of amuna are interconnected. So does this apply to be mashiach? Yeah. And I'll tell you why. I'm not going to tell you why, but I'll tell you the reality of it. And that is the moment you experience the frequency of a you know that the world essentially is a divine place. It's a good place and it's going to come out. And that's what Msiah is. You know that the dysfunctionality of the universe is a layer. It's a kipa. It's not the truth. The pain, the suffering, the separation is is is fake news. It's it's it's a fake it's a fake definition of reality. So when the truth of reality comes out, that is Msiah. And once you know that the element of truth, you you experience the fact that truth is going to come out. It's going to come out. It's not going to be able to be hidden forever. That is what Msiah means. Even tra what does it mean? It's the same amay means that the has communicated a blueprint through which you access it into the world. So that's why all of the articles of amun are interconnected with each other. But but this is a very delicate thing. It's not like I have amuna. You don't never have amuna. Amuna has you. You never have amuna. I don't have amuna. Now somebody says I have so many questions on amuna. You don't have questions on amuna. Amuna doesn't relate to the world of questions. Amuna is amuna. You have questions that are not allowing you to experience your amuna. Yes, you have questions on yourself and your experience of life. That's why there's no such a thing. This Jew doesn't have amuna. Right? Once the bash have came to the world, he said there's no reason a Jew doesn't have amuna. The Jew may not experience his amuna. Or you say, I have questions that take away my amuna. There's no such a thing. You can't take away their as much as I can't change the color of my eyes. And I can't change the color of my soul. How do you take away somebody's? You can't. The question is, do I have access to it? Am I experiencing it? Is it conscious or maybe it's unconscious? It could be unconscious my entire life. The s the source of anti-semitism is that Hitler, Stalin, Yamakoya, and all the anti-semites today, they sense this in the Jew. And when you kill a Jew, somehow you're getting closer to kill God. But the Jew is an atheist. He says he's an atheist. They know he's not an atheist. He's a Jew. He's not an atheist. Right? There's a there's a mun is that your soul channels it. And the truth is amun is really sh to everybody because every person is but this gift of am is not coming. It comes because the is present in your life. So the more I remove my blockages, blockage after blockage after blockage after blockage, what are the blockages look like? They are all the survival mechanisms that we created in order to protect ourselves because the god that we believe in is a god that you need to protect yourself from. So all those protections don't allow me to experience Hashem because they're based on a false god. They're based on a god who's a tyrant or a dictator or a very very tough guy or an irrelevant guy. Like the badicha said, the god you don't believe in I also never believed in. In other words, your atheism is true. When you say you're an apicitis, thank God you're an apicist. Says, "Havai, I'm also that apicy." Your Apicurus is a good Apicurus. You don't believe in a crazy god. Good. >> Thank God. >> Thank God. Thank God you're an atheist with your god. Right now, somebody's going to cut out the clip. Rabi, thank God you're an atheist. Okay, that's what it means. Taking it out of context, right? Yeah. Thank God you're this type of atheist. Thank God because this god you don't want to worship. This is the statue that smashed like the father told his son. You're asking good questions like au smashed the idols. This is what is means is pure. What does it mean pure? Pure doesn't mean you're afraid of it means you're experiencing something that won't add. that it won't take away. That's the other I told you from that when you experience a so then it's something you can't understand it you don't have to understand you don't want to understand it why should I you want to you want to understand we could talk about it in it's something so much more grand like when my son comes back with the DNA test and he shows hey Tati you're my father right now now I'm going to start experiencing being a father I If I needed the DNA to experience a father, you want to say fine. You want the world of genes in the world of genes. But the moon is is is as powerful as it gets. >> But is it a muna? When you >> This is a muna. >> They always see it. >> That's a ma. >> That's what a muna is. A muna doesn't mean blind faith. That is what a muna is. It says in >> that's what a moon is. >> You're you're gradual. You're you're you're stuck in the old definition. >> Am is the seeing. That's what the is. It's the experience. It says in it says in a fool believes everything and wise people clever people understand things. fools believe and clever people understand says the really that's how I mean it's pretty uh disrespectful you know what a pess is fool so the explains in an unbelievable vert which explains this medish alter says like this that because because no thought and no intellect could grasp. So therefore, so the everybody is a fool. It's the best thing to be a fool and the only way you can experiencing it experience is through the surrender of every level of self. There a pesi becomes the most incredible compliment. It's the greatest gift. If I'm using my I can't grasp that which is it'll never go. It'll never be able to go there. The only thing that allows me to grasp ultimate reality is the fact that I'm a pes in the most beautiful sense of the word. I surrender my and I allow my soul to experience on its terms through complete surrender. And that's why it says he says I'm ignorant. I don't know anything. I'm a be and I'm always with you. So the way the world learns it is I'm but I'm still with you. I'm a loyal beh because THEREFORE IF I WOULDN'T BE ANYTHING BUT AIM I CAN NEVER BE WITH YOU. I would take infinity it by reducing it to my egotistical intellect. I don't have anything of you because that's why I could be the only way to be is through the surrender of any identity which is part of creation. How you going to gra experiencing creator to experience creator? You have to let go of every last definition including self. That's b that's amuna. So you'll say how DO YOU KNOW YOU THIS EXISTS? Maybe you were all brainwashed. Right? My why James is sitting here brainwashing you and brainwashing himself even worse. Right? The worst is when the leader of the cult believes it also. Right? Usually at least one person doesn't believe it. >> I know you. I don't have to believe in you. >> I know you. >> So don't use the word believe. You're getting stuck at the word belief. >> It's not believe. That's the whole point here. If it was just believing your grandmother or believing me, so then you would be very afraid of questions. That's what the deb is saying here. This is a muna. But now you say, but you know what? There's also a world of I also have a world of I also think I want that my logical structure should also be on the wagon. I want that every part of me should be part of amuna. So therefore I'm going to the world of I'm stepping out of the world of amuna. I'm going into the world of so it's not that amuna needs to manipulate the no you don't have to. You want it to be really really and it's fine. If it's real, real really real. I'm not afraid of any intellectual investigation. Is there a proof logically that God exists? Is there a proof that is aim? If you really study science and physics, will you come to a conclusion that the big bang just happened on its own and the fine-tuning happened on its own and every cell developed on its own randomly even though the infrastructure of every cell is more complex than the infrastructure of London and Paris and Moscow and Tel Aiv and Los Angeles and New York. put together and that's only one cell of your 70 trillion cells and that's just you and every living organism and you want to say that when you really study this you're going to come to the conclusion that there's no god and the scientists really got this I'm not afraid you could search more and more and more and you know why because you're going to see a safe everywhere it's fine and it's not an insecurity and that's why you can investigate more and more there's a certain confidence because I know my child is my child do all the investigation I know my books are legit. I don't care if the IRS comes unless they're anti-semmites. That's what we all say, you know, a bunch of anti- I don't care if you come. You could check out my books. I don't care. I'm not a Ghana. If you're a Ghana, you have to be afraid. If you're not a Ghana, check me out. You could check me out. You could check out. Check out everything. You want to study, study and figure it out and you'll find it. If you're not going to be biased and you're not going to be bitter and you're going to be really, really open to reality. The problem is it's very hard to be open to reality because pain, remember, atheism is a very good cover up for pain. You know that, right? You heard what I just said. >> Atheism in a way it like it almost like it justifi it makes the pain normal. It normalizes the pain. Yeah. There's no God. Somebody told me the other day, the world is messed up and I'm messed up and I just do things, you know, to feel to feel good, right? That that's what atheism is at its core. The world is messed up, I'm messed up. So, if I'm miserable, it's almost like what are you expecting really? It's a fear to face your pain. This is not true for everybody, but for many of us, it's a fear to face your pain because the truth is you're not miserable. You're not miserable. Your life was not meant to be miserable. The world is not miserable. There's a lot of pain in the world. That's true. And why? God knows. I don't know. Thank God I'm not God. I have enough on my plate. I don't got to figure out Iran and Iraq and Trump. I really don't have to figure that out. I'm having I'm working on figuring out myself. As I'm afraid to face my pain, it's a great great excuse to say I'm supposed to be in pain. I'm supposed to be miserable. We surrender to the mediocrity of pain. And sometimes it's a very very deep fear. It's a deep fear to find out that actually it's not true. You you're you're not miserable at your core. You weren't made to be miserable at your core. You're blissful at your core. But to be blissful at my core, I need to remove all the blockages. I have to look at them. And I sometimes don't want to go there. So atheism is a very very good cover up. And not even atheism. Just like God, yeah, you know, God is it's just there's a misery associated with God. that misery associated with God covers up for me not dealing with my pain. >> I have also >> even aut painful just autression. You don't have a because you don't have a choice. You understand? That's not what a ma is. I neb don't have a choice. I grew up in Muny. I grew up in Lakewood. I grew up in Williamsburg. I grew up in I grew up in Crown Heights. I don't want to discriminate against anybody. I grew up in Benbra. I grew up in Saman Bur Park. Okay. So why I should I never what do you want? I should have l is coming. I shouldn't have a tishov. What am I a be >> It's not hard. >> Is the easiest thing. >> I get it. I get it. I get it. >> When I have trauma, amuna is the hardest thing in the world. Because amuna is the only because the only thing that can heal trauma is amuna. That's why it's hard. Trauma does not like amuna. Am what? The only thing that heals trauma is amuna. That's what nothing else heals trauma, right? Huh? Because if I'm not ready to give up my trauma, the trauma knows that if I go into amuna, it's suicidal for the trauma. If you really have a muna, you you know that your trauma is gone, right? Or at least it's quarantine. It doesn't dictate your life. That's why it's very very hard to let go of trauma. The trauma says, "No, I'm I'm I'm I'm you. I protected you. This is who I am. I'm not just dying. Why? Because you decided to have amuna." Amun in your nervous system is what heals trauma. What is amun? Amunoid mulvad. Amuna is that you're the best thing that ever happened to God. Amuna is that you're safe. Amun is that God loves you. Amun is that you're a blessing to yourself in the world. Trauma doesn't like that. You're not a blessing. God hates you. The world hates you. You're desperate. You're miserable. You're cursed. And that's it. Let's go do some weed. >> It's Friday. Chant. Okay. Huh? >> They're going to cut this out also. Let's go do weed. Rabbi Y why? Let's go do weed >> the cut from video. >> Okay. >> Isn't the thing that our that our friends gave it over that's why I know that Hashem gave me because my father told >> Yeah. So those are the >> that thing got discombobulated because the same father and same >> that's true gave us the >> one of the biggest thear explain the proofs of this is all the proofs that it's not just the Jewish people decided you know there's Christianity there's Islam there's many other religions so we have our religion is true or not true can you prove it just like the question can you prove that there's a god in the universe maybe there's no god maybe the world created itself maybe the world was always here. Maybe there was just a big bang one day. Maybe there was. This is all logical, good questions, good questions. And Muna is not afraid of any of these. Discuss it for thousand years if you want to discuss it. It doesn't need it, but it's not afraid of it. But now what is now? Now is I want my BL should go into I want the Mits should also be informed by BL. So the the job the job is I don't want my should block the pipe the channel of amuna. I want my should to be transparent. I want the amuna to flow through the and is mits. Seel is has the rules of mitsas. Seel is my logical identity figuring out what's truth using my that's what it is. That's what we spoke yesterday about bina versus kakma. is a glimpse into the infinity and bina is I want it to be in my mit. So why is the ama going to not because it's insecure? It's not insecure at all. But it wants that should also have the experience of amuna. I want that all the parts of me should be part of it. I don't want that should only be on the level of amuna on the soul level. I want the should also be part of the experience. Yeah. It should it should channel through every part of the person including their which is their identity. in a very practical way. I don't just want in a moment of when my heart is completely open and I can experience that frequency. So then I know the truth but my should also be part of it. >> It could be on all levels. So that's why he wants the should be it should be integrated on every level. That was the whole by the way of the alter. He called it. People think that is philosophy. It's not. It's a there's nothing that's philosophy. There's philosophy. That's is not philosophy. People think is intellectual. It's not. It's all a it's the experience of wanted that the experience of should be in and the mid and the that's what he wanted integrated not because he liked philosophy because he wanted that should be real it should be authentic on every level of self on every level of existence including the level of the level of mid that the nephah should be able to experience it and for that I have to be able to speak the language that communicates it to the world of logic and that's why every mime is another explanation in anoid mulvad how the world works and how you work and how your system works and how your defenses works and how your clipus works he wants that the ah that's what's happening of course anoid mulvad and then the neph ah duh I didn't get it he wants the animal soul to get it he wants the mind to get it he wants the heart to get it you have a that's true and by the way it wasn't so simple the other students of the maga didn't didn't have the same like they said is a rabbis wrote a letter to the alterb about Tanya very very sharp letter Kalisk was from the great of the mag and he wrote to the alterb I read the Tanya and I don't like it and he uses two words which for him is the ultimate insult he says it's a safer it's a book of intellect I don't like it and even of kalisk he was a student of the mag and he went he was from the who went up he lived in and he writes to him I saw the Tanya and I don't like it. It's a safer. It's the worst thing. We need another philosopher. What do we need another? We know that you're a brilliant man. That's why you need to give us more philosophy. We have enough philosophy books. Enough philosophy works in the previous years, the Middle Ages. The Nim, you had a lot of philosophers. We need another philosophy book. He says that's not how you do it. And he even quotes a he says it says in when the daughter of a goes into promiscuity after she's married. So the penalty is burning. So he says like this it says in that is what's the child that comes from you go to when you start using your mind you end up in what's the fire passion let go of your BURN UP BURN UP YOUR THROW IT INTO A FIRE that was Ram Kaliski was a he was a fireball he didn't he told Brother, what are you doing here? Systems with explanations with what? MAKE A FIRE. THROW IN THE FIRE. Throw yourself into the fire. Passion is that's became known as you sing and you dance and you celebrate and it's all a Now you're talking about the real you're talking about real when you sort of right you could see a vibration of of of experiencing in the world. So what are you what is alterba doing here? like stick to the maggot and kaliske came out with an ideological war that alterba has distorted it was wasn't a simple story and the who was the fireball of the generation writes to kaliser he writes to him tellerisvak we all ate from the same pot and the he hijacked the the themeta the fat. So don't stay that he's distorted because he's the one we all ate from the same pot from the mag but he took the that's what the writes to him right >> yeah yeah yeah yeah you understand the wasn't wasn't the you could see you could read he wasn't that but the had that he understood now what was really going on what was really going on understood very well what's going to happen in 200 years. He understood very well. If you have sitting here and davening here in the morning in shiners with of the of with the with the with and these one is in 18, one is in 20, one is vasik, one is far, one is ashkaz, one is ton, huh, whatever, whoever you want to put in here. You're welcome. >> Fine. There comes a generation without understood that if it's not going to permeate the nephah, it's going to be lost. What's going to left be left of it is traditions, memories, stories, which is still nice. Community uh and a lot a lot of externality that is not authentic. garments, all these types of things that have a lot of value, have a lot of social value, of moral value. But the real to transform the nervous system of the universe and of humanity and of the Jewish people will be forgotten. It's going to be words and words and words and memories and stories. And those who know that it's forgotten sometimes will fall into the world of making and then it becomes even worse because now you're taking the energy of authenticity. You're turning into a fictional show. And all the children who feel the depth don't know because there's a competition between their authentic selves and what they're seeing. And the destruction that that creates on the deepest levels of the psyche is beyond what most people can imagine unless you did this work very very seriously because it's like you start questioning your authenticity and that's where the amuna is dead because all amuna is that you stop questioning your authenticity. That is what amuna is. Amuna is when you start feeling that your authenticity is the most powerful force in the world and it's your energy and it's channeling the source and there's no ego there. And the moment you don't trust that, you know what amuna means? Not only you, the moment you experience God, you know what else starts happening? You trust yourself. That's what real amuna is. Amuna is you trust yourself. You know why? Because you're a piece of God. You don't trust your anxiety. You don't trust your ego. You trust your divinity. And you know the difference. I may be anxious and I have to deal with that. But you trust yourself. You trust your energy. You trust your divinity. So amun means trust. You said it means belief. The real word amuna, it says in Tanya, it says in a lot of places the word, right? What's trust? When the nervous system is in trust and feels trust, it could channel the truth of reality. You see, let me explain to you something. If there's a lion that comes into this room right now, right, and I tell everybody trust, you're like crazy. We're going. No, we're going to meditate. Feel your backs. Feel your feet. Put right. There's a lion here. Why? You could stay to the lion on your We're all gone. Right? If that lion never leaves the room, right? Your nervous system never relaxes. It never go. It's always like this. It's uptight. The adrenaline is running, right? That's what fight or flight. This is the the modality of not trust. Now when our nervous systems have not been regulated at a young age, we're like this. So the word amuna can't apply anymore. There's no trust. Amuna happens in a regulated self that's can feel reality. Can actually feel reality. But if in my mind there's a lion in the room 24/7 to be have amuna is is is is a death sentence. I'm always like this. >> To be in touch with it. So the only amuna I can have is guilt, shame. God wants he's going to punish you. He's going to reward you. You have to. You have to you have to amuna is not you have to amuna is the exper the experiential experience of a scythe vibrating through your bones and it's blissful you don't have to have amuna you are amuna but I'm not amuna I'm I'm not regulated I'm anxious I'm overwhelmed of shabas I don't know right the whole shabas is that's what that's the day of amuna but that's really 247 that's what it means to live with amuna over there you don't meet it's not we we love but al said if it's only going to be this and it's not going to be explained on every strat of existence it won't never be integrated and the of everybody is is is the everybody is everybody is a prophet everybody is a prophet that's the kavon it's not that you have a few sadikim who are prophets how are you going to become a prophet you'll say I'm a sheets no you don't get it you're not a sheets you're a prophet I'm not a prophet have an animal consciousness. So this we have to learn this to explain to the animal consciousness who you are and that's every mime is every mime is actually talking to the animal the knows the doesn't have to learn it okay helps the also let's face it he takes the also a little on a journey that's true it's good for the also doesn't mind the trust me wakes him up and he gets I didn't know who I was like hey but really he's having a conversation with aid means that you're having a conversation with every every day that's what it means how can I even talk to for this needs to be communicated in a structure that works with my identity with my ego with my insecurities with my mishagasan with my fears and with my logic it starts with and from can go into midas I'm not going to open up to a fake think because by I had 5 seconds of of of which I may have been brainwashed because they made a hype about Yamipper. >> It won't work. We're self. We're conscious beings. We have >> we have won't work. >> Is God's creation >> you can't be it's not a it's not if we were in a world without fine but we're not in a world without we're conscious. We process things. This makes sense. This is true. This doesn't true. Our whole world works like that. So that's where the muna wants to come into not because the moon is missing something because the muna wants to bring that GIFT INTO IT WANTS SHOULD ALSO trust it wants not only your soul should trust your mind should trust your heart should trust your nervous system should trust that'sma is the channelma is the channel that brings it into bina brings it into das das brings it into the body you ask what das is das is the bridge between the mind and the body that's what das is. So now your mind can also trust. Your mind can also surrender. That's what fusion is. That's what is. That's b working in mitas. >> Yeah. Yeah. >> The moment the moment would do he he was he expired. >> Yeah. >> Rebi said to his father-in-law, "Oh, she knows the main knows. She blames God. I know. >> That's it. >> What does that mean? I know there's God. >> This is a real >> Yeah. He said the story, the story is she knows and I she says and I know that's the difference. >> That is you're stuck on the word belief. >> Trust. Trust. Call it trust. The people that have more they don't have less amun but they can have more blockages. >> Yeah. Because what happens is they start thinking that their identity is intellectual because it works for them. Right. If you somebody told me the other day he says and that's my superpower. Literally those words and that's my superpower. So you're good to go. It's your superpower. But if you decided you're not atraish, you're at so now you have another blockage to work with because it works for you. You could cover up with like you have a talented mind. So you could operate that way and it brings you to far places. You could be liked and validated and successful and even do good things. So you may be more cut off from yourself because you have a great cover up that works because instead of the channeling them the becomes a cover up for them and that's a tragedy >> but at the same token you have more potential to actually >> of course of course that's where the ego come from ego is the balance >> that's why was so into it wasn't a worship of it was this is a it's not this is it's not it's the experience of it's not philosophy it wants that the should be experienced on every strata of self including and bina and das which brings to midas which goes into the body which is embodied that's what it's looking for wholesomeness maybe that's the problem we're always trying to be smart maybe because somebody told us that we're not smart we're always trying to be >> yeah always trying >> yeah so that here is that even when the comes into it's not it gets diluted it retains its pure integrity it retains its pure amuna it's not it's not because it's manipul ulating the it's not like rats is a manipulator so to speak exploit you think it manipulates so no it's not manipulative it's truly sensitive to the integrity of but what it's looking is it's looking to show that the is not a so it brings the world of amun into the world of it doesn't taint the amun and it doesn't taint the because it knows that it's true it wants the truth to pervade every space including the space This is the way B changes mits. This is this is the first of that. Yeah. And wants the to come up to it, not down. So it doesn't taint the on the other hand it doesn't apologize to go to the like I said before the two extremes with science and tyra right either you taint the like it's ridiculous or you taint your am you become apologetic yet that's what people do say here you have it in the mime on one hand the muna doesn't taint the in order to make sure that it agrees to it no I respect you I I respect you I'm not afraid of you so I'm using you in your integrity On the other hand, I'm not bending to you and becoming diluted by you. On the contrary, I want if ams everywhere. If it's MS everywhere, it's MS and too. I'm not afraid. So, I want the truth of amuna to be felt even in the world of >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. We'll stop here Monday morning. We'll continue. This class is brought to you by the yeshiva.net. Please help us continue the classes. Make even a small contribution at ww.theshiva.net/donate.