Shiur @ Aish HaTorah

It's funny that my wedding would speak exactly what I needed to hear, but exactly. I'm not talking about I had something on my mind that I was trying to think. I thought it was like it was like a Ruach Hakodesh. I thought like he like sees through me and I'm coming, but the problem is that so arrogant. There's a lot of guys in sheer. So he's like looking at me, he's looking at the other guys, too. And I've come to understand that when you go learn Torah by a sincere person, Hashem speaks to us in the Torah. Hashem's talking to us in the Torah. Hashem's speaking to us. The Torah Hashem's saying to us. And a rebbe who's sincere, who has space for the talmidim, teaches us Torah and we hear and Hashem talks to us and tells us. So it's not a chiddush exactly what was on my mind. You go learn and you hear. Of course it's that way. You haven't noticed you got a shul this week's parsha at your got a shul and the rav is going to speak about parshas Vayeira. Maybe should say Dani you've heard on Vayechi or Lech Lecha. Why is he going to say over? It's like a cute rabbi trick. You tie in your machshavah I ran. You tie into the parsha of the shmach like it's a rabbinic trick. We're not into tricks. Why is the rav? Maybe there's something better in a different week's parsha. Why is he saying you have a family sheva brachos that is? You look at that week's parsha. Maybe the chassan and people can even distort things to try to like fit the chassan into the parsha. Maybe you should say from a different parsha. What Klal Yisrael does, don't be cynical. We're very holy people. Just study our people. Don't correct. Don't knock our people. Study. There's tremendous holiness in our people. Why do we say from that week's parsha? Why are the sheva brachos this week? Well, you either say shmaits and Vayeira. Maybe say a different parsha. And it's parsha to what I understand what I understand is that if all of cloud Israel is reading Sukkot, so then Hashem is talking to us now. So then it makes sense what's happening is going to be in the parsha. All of cloud Israel is reading Sukkot, so then the Torah is talking to us right now. If I'm making the Shiva Brachot this week, of course the Shiva Brachot is going to be in the parsha. All of cloud Israel is reading those Sukkot. That's why it's shaving them now. All of cloud Israel reads Shema, so then that's that's exactly what's happening. That's exactly the material of now. That's true certainly if all of cloud Israel is reading Sukkot, all of cloud Israel if thousands of Yidden are learning a block of Torah, there's so many stories with the Yomi where Momish talks to the exact. We had a Maiseh, my father was very attached to the daf, and on the day of his petirah his Momish we had a Maiseh, incredible story. On the day of my father's petirah daf Yomi, if thousands of Yidden are learning something, of course it's going to talk to us exact. But of course my father my my father was very attached to Torah, and in his sleep he would say divrei Torah. That wasn't such an uncommon thing that he was attached to even in his sleep he would say divrei Torah. And the first Gemara my mother in the morning, the first time she heard they were just a newlywed, she asked my father, "What does this Gemara mean?" So he said, "How do you know this Gemara?" So so she said, "You taught it to me last night. You were teaching this Gemara." So he explained her what the Gemara meant. That was the first time she had heard him. He said he had learned the Gemara 2 years before. And that's the Gemara he doesn't know why. He wasn't holding there, wasn't on it, but that's the Gemara that he taught that On the day of my father's petirah, but the daf yomi was that Gemara. On the day he passed away, and my mother took the Gemara itself as a charge. The Gemara was there three things, mil sub late tiny. Three things that don't really have a mechanism, but they're the halacha. If a man gives his wife everything he owns, he writes to his wife a part before his passing, whatever I have goes to you, so she doesn't become the owner, even though he gave it to her. He is just making her an up be trappist. He said it's hers, but he's just making her an executive, and she's charged to give the money the way to just to run his possessions, but it goes to the arshin, to the rightful inheritors. So that's the Gemara my the first Gemara my father taught my mother. And the daf yomi on the day of his petirah was that Gemara. And my mother is a very strong, is a very stereotypic person, and she took that as a charge. She He had a coil. She kept running the coil. Things that were out of her comfort zone, she took it as a message from Hashem that you're not be trappist, and your job is to continue, and she's continued things of my father that were out of her comfort zone because of this Gemara. Now it's pashut. It's pashut that if all of klal Yisrael reads pashukim, if all of klal Yisrael's learning, so then Hashem's talking to us. That's what it means to learn Torah from a rebbe. It's Hashem through is is is is through the words of the rebbe, through the Torah, through the mouth of the rebbe, we hear the dvar Hashem. So it's to be expected someday somebody who has a heart for Am Yisrael, somebody like your rosh yeshiva, who has a heart for our people, he shares the Torah that he's sharing the divrei Hashem, exactly what we need to hear, when we need to hear. Is it a wonder that like something's on our mind, and then we go hear Torah, and that's I couldn't believe it growing up. But that it's Is it a ruach hakodesh? Maybe this is a ruach hakodesh of sorts. It's a rebbe teaching Torah. That's what we That's what one could expect in learning Torah. One could expect and learn Torah from the place. Open up a Chumash from from your story. Open up the Chumash, open up a Gemara, open up the Rav Chaim from your story. Don't force anything. You don't have to stop the chosson in the parsha. If you're in the middle of a sheva brachos, when you read the parsha, you're coming in as somebody who has a sheva brachos that week. Of course it's going to tell you things about the simcha. Obviously, that would be bizarre not to. Hashem is talking to you. Hashem doesn't ignore what you're going through. He's talking to you. So if you're going through something, bring it to seder. Bring it to shiur. Bring it. And and learn Torah. But just don't force. Don't stop. Just bring it. Be present. Be open-minded, of course. When you have a seder, you're reading the parsha, of course you come with You come with your story. You'll find it's like Hashem is just going to tell you exactly what you need to hear for your story. If you can't find it, don't force. I'm not clear. Don't force anything. Don't force anything. But learn Torah. Mamash learn. Bring yourself. Bring yourself. Let the Torah talk to us. So it's a tremendous chus to be in a makom Torah with one of them, Menachem Gey Hadar, who runs such a yeshiva. And it's a beautiful yeshiva. That this yeshiva is right by the kodesh, right by the kodesh, so right here. My wife and I were zocheh to spend one Shabbos in my life in this right next to the kodesh. So we couldn't believe it. The different Yidden Yerushalayim is amazing. Bonei Yerushalayim Hashem. Yerushalayim is a metzius of nidchei Yisrael Yechaneis. Here everybody is wanted. Here everybody's welcome. That's your shalom. The kaisers and the mitzvahs everybody's drawn here. A yid has a space here. A yid's wanted here. So to have a beautiful yeshiva, a beautiful yeshiva. Here a yid's wanted. Here a yid is seen. Here a yid is respected. It's a zchus to be here. I want to learn Torah. We're talking about learning so I do want to learn Torah with the chevra. But I if I can ask first, if I can ask if we could sing something together. I don't like to jump into learning or to singing. There's There's nothing wrong in a group of friends that they are around and they feel uncomfortable so they sing. And it relaxes them. That's not a bad thing. That's not a Even to learn Torah a group of people you got to a chasuna and two guys can't be comfortable like they say you farted. It's not a When I met my daughter-in-law for the first time, I promised myself I'm not saying a word. I don't want to use Torah as a card l'achva, like a way of being carved. I want to meet my daughter. I want to meet my daughter-in-law. Hi, meet a person. I don't want to use Torah for us to get comfortable. I don't even want to use niggun to get comfortable. We could be comfortable. I'd like to go around the room. We We could meet each other. We could yidden could be present to each other. Two yidden could enjoy and then from that space you could sing. I'd much rather I like zemiros after Danny we sat, we enjoyed each other, we're comfortable, then two yidden sing. That's a much better song. It's not escape [clears throat] from discomfort. We actually two yidden could like see each other. I like learning from that space also. It's not a way it's uncomfortable that I quickly open it up saying no. Two yidden can enjoy each other, be present and then learn Torah together. We could learn Torah together. So actually if we can if we could sing a a bunch of yidden in a room together, if we could sing the Bardichever be It has no words, so you can think whatever you want. I like praying in this song. I personally like praying that Hashem gives me the Einayim to see that my Yiddishe matters, that my Neshama is precious, that I have a Neshama with an Ohr, with a light that Hashem bestowed in me that's important, and to see that in others as well. That each person has a tremendous light to bring to the world, and to use the by that should be niggun, who was a Yid who was a Matisyahu of seeing in Yidden. He was blown away by Yidden. He wasn't being nice to Yidden. He was Mishtayem from Yidden. He lost his mind. He would meet a Yid, he'd lose his mind from a Yid. The light of a Yid was was a pillar by the by the by the by the Rebbe. And I want to use the tune that is called the by that should be niggun, and perhaps he composed to to talk to be Mispalel that Hashem should give me Einayim, and give you Einayim, and give us Einayim, and give the entirety of our people Einayim to see that there's no extra Yidden in the world. A Yid has an Ohr to bring, to see that in ourselves, and to see that in others as well. So, free Yehuda. I thank you. The group that became along here, so I thank you for being here. >> [applause] [music] >> Yai yai >> [singing] >> Yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai yai [chanting] yai yai yai Yai yai >> [singing] >> Yai yai Yai yai >> [chanting] [music and singing] >> Yai yai Yai yai Yai [singing] yai Yai yai [music] >> [chanting] [singing] [music] >> Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. >> [chanting] [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] [music] [singing] >> Yeah. >> [singing and music] [chanting] [music and singing] [chanting] [singing] [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] [music] [singing and music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] [music] [singing] >> Yeah. >> [music] >> Yeah. [singing] >> [music] >> Yeah. >> [music and singing] [singing] [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music] [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [chanting] [music] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. [music] >> [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [singing] [music] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music] [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music] [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [singing] [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. >> [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music] [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. [music] >> [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. >> [chanting] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. [chanting] Yeah. >> [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. >> [chanting] >> Yeah. >> [music and singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. >> [music] >> Yeah. >> [singing] >> Yeah. Amen. Amen. >> [singing and music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [singing] [music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. >> [singing] >> Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [music] [singing] >> Amen. Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. [singing] Amen. >> [music] [singing] >> Amen. Amen. >> [singing] >> Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [singing] >> Amen. [music] Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. >> [singing] >> Amen. Amen. >> [singing] >> Amen. >> [music] >> Amen. Amen. >> [singing] [music] >> Amen. Amen. [singing] Amen. [music] >> [singing] >> Amen. Amen. my blessing. >> [music] [singing] [music] >> I'm glad that's going to be my blessing. >> [singing and music] [music] [singing] [music] [music and singing] [music] [singing] >> My blessing. >> [chanting] [music] [singing] [music] >> My blessing. >> [music] [singing] [music] [singing] >> My blessing. >> [music] [singing] [music] >> My blessing. [music] >> [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music] [singing] [music and singing] [singing] [music] [snorts] [clears throat] >> I want to learn together a Gamara that that the teaching of Amram Hasida the teachings of Gamara Kedushin Pialif and the teaching very much the way the way it looks to me what what we're what I'm learning from this Gamara I was taught by my Rebbi not from teaching this Gamara I never I didn't learn this Gamara I don't believe with or from my Rebbi but my Rebbi taught me and my friends I find in this Gamara and when I came this morning we was some of the we was to a few minutes of the Shiva's precious time and he shared a story about my Rebbi I never heard before Shmuel Rebbi I never heard before and to tell you just a a bit about my Rebbi for a few minutes. To tell you about my Rebbi, he was somebody he was somebody who was a student of his own father. His father was a big tzaddik. His father was a Slabodka talmid. And he was a student of his father. His father took him out of school in about seventh grade. There weren't people where he grew up who were shomer Torah u'Mitzvos. There weren't so many. The community was mostly Yidden who didn't know who who didn't know about Torah and Mitzvos yet. And my Rebbi's father was his first Rebbi. I was zocheh to meet my Rebbi's father as a youngster. He's a big tzaddik, a beautiful Yid. My Rebbi wrote a sefer, Sefer Kesser Shem Tov u'Mitzvos, about his father who was an incredible tzaddik. And he His first Rebbi was his father. Then his father brought him to Rav Aharon Kotler, to the great Lakewood Yeshiva. And he was zocheh to be a tremendous zocheh to be to be very, very close to Rav Aharon Kotler. He was an American kid. The first time his father brought him to Rav Aharon, my Rebbi put on to a ring that he to greet his Rebbi, to greet him to Godol Hador, he put on a special ring that he had gotten in school that he wouldn't wear a shtreimel, but to greet a Godol he put on the ring to meet Rav Aharon Kotler, to meet his Rebbi. And Rav Aharon became his next Rebbi in life in the rest of his life. His father was his Rebbi. Rav Aharon Kotler, he was very, very mekurev to Rav Aharon Kotler. My Rebbi had a beautiful voice. And Rav Aharon would ask him to sing Lulei Sorascha. He would ask my Rebbi to sing it. And my Rebbi sang Lulei Sorascha, it was like a time machine. It brought him back. He went back to Rav Aharon Kotler. I'm convinced he wasn't with us when he sang Lulei Sorascha, he was back in front of Rav Aharon. Rav Aaron who taught Torah, who taught Torah. Rav Aaron saw in the American kid that other people that people thought like somebody said publicly Cutlerism won't survive on these shores. The person was a very pragmatic was a practical person. Said American kids following Joe DiMaggio like no shyness. Rav Aaron didn't buy that. A Yid is a light from one end of the world to the other. Rav Aaron saw that in in in in any Yid. Who cares where they're from? No shyness. And Rav Aaron taught Torah. And he energized the generation. And my Rebbe went on fire for life. Was And when my Rebbe would sing V'ulay S'irascha was otherworldly. Stopped with a beautiful voice. But V'ulay S'irascha was other Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you so much. What's your name? >> Sagi. >> Thank you, Sagi. >> [clears throat] >> You would All the things we get are not from us. We're all the poorer but we thank the poorer. And remember we send it. Always thank you. The the the So my Rebbe when he sang V'ulay S'irascha we were like we we were we were transported back to Rav Aaron. You know why? Should we should sing it right now? That'll be weird not to. Let's sing V'ulay S'irascha. I'm in the middle of a middle of a story. I want to get to the Gemara but it might Let's sing V'ulay I need to sing V'ulay S'irascha. Let's sing V'ulay S'irascha. >> [music] >> V'ulay [singing] S'irascha >> [music] [music] >> V'ulay >> [chanting] [music] [chanting and singing] [music] [singing] [music] [music and singing] [chanting] [chanting and singing] [music] [chanting] [singing] [music] [chanting] >> So, I didn't know it'd be a musical story, but okay. The My So, my my rebbe's two two rebbeim at first were his father and Reb Aaron. And if I I can't speak to my rebbe's whole experience, I can only say from a Talmud that it looks to me he got from his father the shivus of every Yid. A Yid was big by even the shivus of a lahavdil. My rebbe respected and learned and appreciated every and then a Yid was a different world, and he got that from his father. His father was Rabbi Yidden Nifla. A Yid was a big deal. The mitzvah of a Yid he go to one end of the world to the other. For a Yid, mitzvah of a Yid, the shiva's of that way of a Yid, that he got from his father. And from Aaron he got an attachment, a fire, Torah, Torah, a love of Torah, joy of Torah, chiyus of Torah. And that we saw and he had two great rebbeim. And he had that. And then he gets married, my rebbe. He's in his upper 20s and a chiddush nifla. I wasn't born, but as talmidim of my rebbe, he did something so unusual. You have two rebbeim quite large. Gedolei Yisrael. Rav Aaron Cutler's your rebbe. His other rebbe is his father. Two gedolei Yisrael. The tendency a person would think, I have I have. That's what I have. I'm good I have I know I have. And every base medrash has a secret. Every base medrash, whatever you learn, you should feel you have you here have the you have secrets nobody in the world has. Every base medrash has secrets, has a And that's a good thing to feel. And my rebbe certainly had secrets that he had. And then he did something so smart. He took another rebbe. And he married the Alter of Novardok's great granddaughter and his her grandfather was Rav Avraham Yaffen, one of the main talmidim of the Alter of Novardok. And my rebbe took on his great his wife's grandfather as a new rebbe. It changed his life and then it changed the talmidim's life and it added a whole 'nother component to his avodas Hashem. But all from being so smart that the more you have and the more secrets you carry, to know every base medrash should know they have emes, but there's emes People, other people have secrets, too. There's a lot of light out there. We have tremendous light, and we could also get light from elsewhere. We're watching. Your zechus will be right here with us, like extreme kibbutz galios. Kibbutz galios is yidden are learning Torah. Sefardim are learning from Ashkenazim, Ashkenazim from Sefardim, Chassidish from Litvish, Litvish from Chassidish. That's the iker kibbutz galios. But that's that we're seeing the light in each other. Every yid has so much to bring. And my rebbe added having so much, and he could have said I don't He got a new rebbe, and he became a lifelong talmid of Rav Yaffen. When he was nifter, he took on a Rav Yaffen son-in-law, Rav Leib Nekritz, and that was his new rebbe, his new mahalach, and he added the Novardok mahalach. Novardok was many things. The chesed in Novardok was lay omed, was remarkable, the kindness. But one aspect of Novardok, we all care what people think, and it's a good place in us. You're actually mechuyav to care what people think. Vi'yisem nekiyim asher me'Achem u'me'Yisrael. We care what people think. We're wired to care what people think. It's a good thing. I'm sitting here today. I'm so I don't want to embarrass Eliyahu, my friends, Shaya, Daniel, my son's here. So I'm hoping like it sounds okay. It's normal we care what people think. It's normal. So I hope it's normal kind like some of the sugar that comes, he's singing, he's he opens Gemara hasn't even read from it yet. So you're hoping it's like somewhat normal. Well, not normal, but it's still okay not to be normal. It's near the Koisel here. Yidden are accepted, so there's room for me. And and it's normal to care what people think, very normal. But in Novardok worked a lot on plugging to the emes. And there times in our life where if Re'em, we're in Ivri, and Ivri is the mitzvah this week's parsha will call the free him a look at free him and every is the name of our people. We have to walk alone sometime even with the beautiful it's a big subject of our darts a very stick a dart. People are very in touch with loneliness. And even you can have the best issue with the best person walks alone in a certain way there's a loneliness that's real you can't be afraid loneliness is real and there's a space and the ability to walk alone to do what's true what's right what's Emma's and connect to the slow and not listen to noise of people who mock who say they and outside voice in the thick this was a big subject. Doing what's true not taking polls and my rabbit the rest of you should be here told me is there about my rabbit was fired for something doing what he felt was right. That was I never had heard this story before but it was a mitzvah and this was from his there was a big had got sure and Mona and Mona was a big topic by the altar of Nevada big subject faith and the Mona. And big subjects big big subjects of plugging into what's right even if you have to stand alone in that space of loneliness doing what's right the last conversation I was to have with my rabbit was together with my son my really led by my son my and the conversation was about loneliness a beautiful conversation but about somebody walking alone and we're a free him which is the Abraham the whole world believing one way. Abraham was not afraid to walk alone Abraham is very connected spoke to everybody was a connector of course but he was not afraid of an every of being alone in my ready brought from the fire that this energy. So, with this backdrop of Nevada, let's study a Gamara that I love. Let's learn pay aleph from aleph. It says as follows. The Gamara says, There were captives. It's a Sugya with perk. Anybody who's lived through what we have lived through in the last couple of years, there's a Sugya we would perk up I just by these words. There were captives that were brought to Narda. Yidden have been captured by the Umayyad. It's happened a lot in our history. And there were Yidden that were captured by the And our job is to break free and help Yidden break free. So, there were captives who had come from Narda. Askinnu de Reb Amram Chasida. And they were brought to the house of Reb Amram Chasida. Reb Amram the Chassid. They were brought to Reb Amram this tzaddik. It was ladies. It was a bunch of women who were released hostages. And they needed till they got them home, they needed a place of residence. So, they brought them to this tzaddik's house. Reb Amram Chasida. They were upstairs by Reb Amram Chasida's house. Shakli Reb Amram le darga. I'm sorry, I skipped a little. And it says Ashkuhu darga mikameihu. They removed They were upstairs. Reb Amram Chassid lived downstairs. And they removed the ladder so they couldn't be reached. Shouldn't be a problem of yichud. There was no ladder. There was no access from Reb Amram Chassid's apartment to their apartment where these nashim where these heilige Yidden were staying. Ba'adi ko chalaf achas min ayin ofel nur abi pulmei. Hashem gave Reb Amram Hasida this side of the Knesset. When a light came from one of the Nushim down to Amram Hasida and he had a type of yetz hara to do an avera. Shakli Amram led Argo. Amram carried the ladder. The lawyer and be a sorrow and a medallion. 10 men 10 men couldn't carry the ladder together. 10 men couldn't lift it to go upstairs to the Nushim and Amram's desire was so strong Dahlia L'chaim Day. He carried the ladder one person such was his desire. He had so much adrenaline so much koch. He wanted to do an avera. He carried the ladder by himself. Sol Azol and he starts climbing the ladder to do an avera. Kimata Lapaga Darga when he came halfway up the ladder. Ifshach. He buckles down. He doesn't say yet. He doesn't want to do an avera. But he has an assign. He buckles down. He buckles his knees. He's fighting the struggle not to climb the rest of the ladder. He's fighting with Amram not to do an avera. Amram's fighting. Ram a color. Amram starts screaming. Starts screaming. Nura Bay Amram. Fire fire by Amram's house. He starts shouting. There's a fire by Amram's house. Asu Rabonim. So you can imagine the whole BLOCK COMES RUNNING. FIRE THE tzaddik Amram Hasida. Now picture the room. I'm be very visual with me. I happen to love ladders one of my favorite items in the world. I have a camp we call it ladder. We in my shul on on Simchas Torah we dance we climb ladders the whole time. Love ladders. It's a quirk, a weird thing about me. I like ladders. So, this Kumar is not the reason I like ladders, but it sure helps. When Amram Khasidis halfway up the ladder AND HE'S SHOUTING FIRE! SO, THE WHOLE BLOCK COMES RUNNING IN. NOW, picture the scene. You know, tell me them love their Rebbe. The Talmud of Amram Khasidis would speak about their Rebbe, their Rebbe, their Rebbe. They're talking about it people. I would They're talking about their Rebbe. And the whole block, the whole community is in his house now. And the Rebbe is halfway up the ladder. Everybody understands why. Their cat with captives come back to our people. Our whole people know about it. We're excited. We're freilach. It was put there cuz there he won't do any of theirs. There they're safe. And Amram If Amram Khasidis halfway up the ladder, everybody understands what's happening. You could pick out his students in the room of hundreds maybe. You could pick it. How do you know which are Amram Khasidis students? The ones who are red as tomatoes. They're They spoke my Rebbe, my Rebbe. And then with the neighbors, with their friends, with their parents. They're in the room and the Rebbe is halfway up the ladder doing an affair. Bushah. Embarrassment. The tomatoes are his talmidim. They're mamish bright red. Unbelievable bushah. The Rebbe's halfway up the ladder. He called out fire as a way not to do the affair. So, he said fire and tons of Yidden ran in. Now, he's just on the ladder. So, the talmidim say to the Rebbe Amru lei, they The talmidim from they call Rebbe! They call up to the Rebbe halfway up. They say, "Rebbe, you killed us." They say, "Rebbe, kas v'chinan. You've embarrassed us. You've humiliated us. We're humiliated, Rebbi. We're humiliated. Before I say Reb Amram's terets, I don't understand their kasha. I don't understand the Gemara. The talmidim are called, "REBBI, YOU DISGRACED US, REBBI." This is crazy. You embarrassed us. What's their kasha? What are they saying? What do you want him to do? Should do that vera? What are they asking the Rebbi? You embarrassed us. Yeah, okay, I hear. Yeah, they get another Rebbi. I hear. Mamish here. I mamish hear you've been embarrassed. What are they asking the Rebbi? Rebbi, we're embarrassed. Elu mai what? Elu you should do that vera not embarrass us? What choice does Reb Amram Hasida have? He calls fire and he saved from that vera. Rebbi was so ashamed. This is so embarrassing. This This crazy. What have you done to us? What's their question? What do they want? What are they saying? Rebbi, you should have done that vera not embarrass us? He can't do that vera. What This is he saved himself. I hear you. I What's their taina? Rebbi, you embarrassed us. Does anybody have a chat? I went to I went to Gedolei Yisrael to ask this kasha. I should ask the Rosh Yeshiva. I'm asking tzaddikim. So anyway, what are they saying to the Rebbi? You embarrassed us. What are What's their taina? Elu mai what? What? They're just saying a statement, we're embarrassed. Of course they're embarrassed. Every You can see their tomatoes. They're all They're embarrassed. [clears throat] What's the vert? They're saying something. Amru lei, they said to him, "You embarrassed us." They're pointing like stating the obvious, you think? >> Why do you have to call us in like Why do you have to make this public? >> Cuz they could He would have done that vera. It was a good trick. He got him not to do that vera. He's sitting on the ladder. He's driven. So he called people in and saved him. What's their taina? You embarrassed us. It's In In the name of God, they're embarrassed. I like what you're saying is you're saying is what I feel what you had ready what you do. I I get it but I'll do what? What's our other choice, Benjamin? Am I what? So sure you embarrassed us. I hear. But they're saying the tell me them are saying something. Ready you embarrassed us. Yeah, yeah. Ready mighty what's the chat ready mighty? You embarrassed us. I hear. Yeah, on you. >> I was going to say >> What's your name? >> Hanan. >> Hanan, what's your name? >> Thank you so much. Uh no, you're such a strong figure that you could have brought yourself in the ladder. Why did you need us to come and rescue you? You're such a strong figure that you should have just come down yourself. >> [snorts] >> But he couldn't. No, he couldn't. They're like the shame and you embarrassed us like you couldn't think of another way. Past us. And again, I'm not I'm not there's no we're learning Gamara. I know it no rights on the Gamara. I'm learning Torah. What are they saying? What are the tell me them am I? It appears to me that he had other ways of not doing that there. If I'm not saying that it's I'm not saying the heck right. It looks to me from their time now that they held that he could have done something else to save himself. Otherwise, I don't understand their time. If he had other ways not do that there ready, we are embarrassed shame come out you. The ready is halfway up the ladder and you had another plan. Otherwise, I don't see how that time. If you're masking that you had another plan, then we have to work on his answer. So I'm saying he says back to his tell me them I'm a little. He says back to his tell me them move that it is better to cast who they am the am I then. Let them am I be they smash be embarrassed in this world the light to cast who am I then am I. and you know you won't be embarrassed from me. You're embarrassed now, but at least tonight you won't be embarrassed from me. So so that's what now if there was another way of saving himself then the answer doesn't make sense. Better to be embarrassed now and not I don't want to be embarrassed but I'd rather not be embarrassed either time. And if you had another way of doing it what's his answer? So I would like to suggest like this. I think he had another way to save himself. Later on he sends the away so clearly had a to get rid of the he does that later on in the story. What I want to suggest is he had another way to save himself and that was the maybe we're embarrassed. And I want to express that what he said it's better to be embarrassed now than he's not talking about today and tomorrow. When we say it says a person's a somebody we mean that it's possible to plug into MS. from his perch on the ladder spoke to all of us and I would only learn by a who would stand a like this. I go to learn by such a and what he says is that I want to show you can go perception what people say and take votes and we're we care what people think it's not a bad thing but it's possible to be plugged into an MS that stands for all eternity. said in our we're going to plug into what's MS to what's true. We're going to plug into what's true and there's an attitude of to be embarrassed now. Yeah, it might not be understood and voted how that looks. But we're a people of emes, of ben oilam habo. We want Hashem to have nachas. We want that which is true, that which stands for all eternity. I look at a yeshiva founded by Reb Nachman Weinberg, founded a light, a light of truth, a light of Torah, fire of Torah. And I look at a place that so many Yidden have come here that it's possible to plug into emes. In a world where there's so much PR, and what's this one saying? Everything's like publicity. How's it going to show up on on Instagram? How's it going to be seen? It's possible to plug into that which is sincere, that which is authentic, that which is emes. It's possible to plug into. Reb Avraham Chasida, from his perch on the ladder, said to the talmidim, "Could be I could have saved myself other ways." But we don't if I'm not building a yeshiva that we like we're like here like to to be popular, to do Of course, we care what people think. Of course, that's fine. That's that counts. But we can plug into a deeper truth. Mutav to be embarrassed now, mutav not to be understood in an alma d'shikra, and to plug into that which is emes. I think in this holy building, in this holy makom, how many Yidden had family members who first and they want and it's important the family should understand them. How many people decided to follow Hashem and family members said, "What are you crazy? Today shabbos, today?" How many people in this holy bais medrash, how many people this walls could say edus? To how many Yidden who followed, who understood that calling of Reb Avraham Chasida, that there's eternal truths, and you can't give in to what this one says, that one. Yes, it it from his perch was the best shiur Reb Amram Hasid ever said. From halfway up the ladder, Reb Amram Hasid taught his talmidim, in this yeshiva we're going to plug into that which is sincere, that which is authentic, that which is true. And yet, there might be times when not understood, people say, "What's wrong with you? Are you so weak you were doing an aveira?" I'm trying. I'm trying. I'm I'm plugging in. I'm working on myself. We're human beings. We're human, with human frailty, with human yetzer hara, we're human. And as human with past, with history, with struggles, with difficulties, with failings, and we're trying to serve Hashem. That's the rebbe I'd only want to learn by such a rebbe. And the talmidim, I they could go to a different base medrash. I know every guy I'm close with will just run to learn by Reb Amram. That's the only base medrash I'd go learn by. That Reb Amram Hasid though, in his base medrash, said, "Yeah, is it so popular? Is it so look, I could put that beautiful conversation from halfway up the ladder." But he taught his talmidim that the way to climb the sulam, the way to climb the sulam is sometimes to say, "There are things, what's this one going to say with that one?" With all the human frailty that I can bring a light that's not Of course, people can understand is wonderful and we'll explain and try. But the human being in his own sugia to bring a light, bring sincerity in his service of Hashem, to be mekadesh shem Shamayim, to bring honor to Hashem's name in his own unique circumstance, others wouldn't understand and can't understand. But from your place, you mekadesh shem Shamayim, mutav that in the in a temporary sense, people say, "I don't get it. What's going on?" But but al madasi, for all eternity, people are very impressed. Wow. This person chose emes. How many zaydes have nachas and come in Think about this holy this madrish. How many zaydes and alte zaydes in shamayim, how many yidden who at first said, "What are you doing? I don't get it. This is not the family way. What's happening?" And they have yiddishe nachas from doires of yidden living right, living true. That was Reb Avraham Chasida, I believe, taught. I see in it my rebbe, the Novardoker. I see him as a Reb Avraham Chasida, as a talmid who said, "Yeah, maybe sometimes and and would speak honestly about human frailty, that his own weaknesses, his own challenges, and encouraged us despite difficulty and challenges and humaness. Not even I shouldn't say despite, that's the place of the greatest kiddush Hashem. My rebbe would daven shacharis on Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, and till today I hear his I hear him Rosh Hashanah, Yom Kippur, and the peace that the most I loved his he would describe the difference between fiery angels and amazing angels serving Hashem, but avisa shihila, the prayer Hashem wanted is from the frail human who made a mistake last night and yesterday, and might even make mistakes tomorrow. But the frail human, avisa shihila, Hashem wants the prayer and the service of the frail human. So the Ribono shel Olam should be mezakeh us all. Our Torah should turn into a prayer. Hashem should be mezakeh us all. In our unique situations, each one of us to be mekadesh shem shamayim, to shine a light, not to take polls, but to be an eved in the full sense of the word, to do what's true, to do what's authentic, to do what's right, and shine a light in our own unique places. Hatzlacha and thank you so much. >> Amen. >> In the full sense of the >> He started the game. Oh, yes.