“The Confusion Led Me to Pray”

I never get to tell this much of the story, is like I would sit there and listen to hours of lectures from Christians, from Imams, from Rabbis. And I'm telling you, I would literally not go to sleep until my head was like just overly confused, right? And what this led me to do was to feel more confused, and the confusion was the most beautiful thing because it led me to pray. I started praying to Hashem like crazy. I started fasting 3 days at a time. I had this, you know, room I would go into and I would sit before the crying to God, just begging him to reveal his truth. Until I came to a very interesting conclusion. And I talk about it often today now, is that God placed his entire integrity of his existence on the Jewish people. Literally, passage after passage of God saying, "How will the nations know that he exists?"