Tisha B'av - We Only Want Hashem

you're listening to a special edition of the weekly paraa podcast this is not a podcast connected to the paraa it is connected to Tish right now for me it's the afternoon ver Tish and you may be listening to it also on the afternoon or may be listening on toov and I'd like to share with you a thought you know we live in a very special and unique time very unusual time the Jewish people 7 million strong have returned to the land of Israel and people more on the way and as we look at what's going on and as we look at the of the M the way that the footsteps of mhia are being heard and they're getting louder and more resounding so Tish is like an unusual the feeling towards Tish I just listened today to my and he said that people have expressed to him that some of the things that we say on tissue of they don't ReSound they don't resonate that's the word I'm looking for and some of the kinis and the destruction that we talk about you know y you walk into y it's you walk into the old city you can walk to the kisil you can see that the Jewish people have returned and there's a lot there's so much we have so much more than we've ever had in the last 2,000 years there's so much T there's so much being learned and we're definitely headed in a very good direction ction so what does Tish look like how do we think about Tish we don't have a BD that we know but how do we relate to this and i' like to share with you something I came across as I was looking around for for what I'm going to say for the para I came across something which is very nog touches very much onto what Tish is about it's a in shim and the P expresses the following you know this is what we're missing is the Love Song of the Jewish people so it's the inverse of is about how we are so far away from hem say bring us back to you so we can come back we have a similar P inim which is the love of hasem for us at its highest point by shom King Solomon who built the first temple the verse is in the first chapter of song of songs verse four draw me after you I will run after [Music] you the king brings me into his innermost chamber we will rejoice and we will sing song to you we express the fact that we want a relationship with Hashem and we want we don't want anybody else we don't want anything else we don't want any we're not running after our physical reality we're not running after success we're not running after Hedonism and anything the Western culture liberalism Etc atheism we only want one thing we want a relationship with you Hashem that's expressed in this p and that's something that we need to feel on TI we don't have that relationship that we so desire that we so yearn for with Hashem our our prayers are empty our souls are empty our feelings are empty are you know there's there's a lot to think about of what has happened over the last months and and how that makes us feel but it's it's very easy to to get caught up in Tish and reading stories perhaps about the Holocaust and perhaps about what went on on October 7th Etc but what we're missing this is really what I would like to bring out and we're going to see it in the medish but what we're missing is really our relationship with AEM our relationship with Hashem is What's missing we want to Rejoice with you Hashem we don't have a b mikdash we maybe we have all the people around us we have many brothers and sisters who are here in Israel we have a country that's thriving and striving to be greater there's a huge balua movement people are interested in spirituality but Hashem has to be the center of it the mikdash the temple which is the place where the t comes out of the the relationship with hasm is expressed from the Bish from the temple from those who study and learn the Torah in that Holy space so the M says two points two different ideas both clearly very similar ideas it says a story like this amazing story we have a mishna we we learn [Music] elsewhere a man married a woman and they were together for 10 years so the is it's a mishna I believe it's a mishna here it says it's aish if you've been married to a woman for 10 years you don't have any kids so you have a mitv you have an obligation to have children person is obligated to divorce his wife of course don't draw any conclusions here here go speak to your love if this is an issue for you tells us a story about a particular woman a place called she was married to her husband for 10 years she didn't have kids listen to this very moving story they came [Music] to and he said to them you have to get divorce the author of the Z student OFA lived 2,000 years ago tells them that they need to they need to separate they can't stay together he said to them he saw that they were willing and ready to do that that they were willing to separate if the Torah says to do it that's what they got to do so he says to them you made a tremendous a festive meal when you got married now when you separate because you're fulfilling the torah's wishes you're fulfilling God's will I want you to also make a party they went on their way and they made themselves a holiday they made a very big uh meal and they got very drunk as he sobered up a little bit so the man says to his wife my dear he says there anything any good thing that you see in the house when you go back to your father's house when you go back to living on your own take whatever you want from my house I want you to to feel like you can take anything that's here so they're separating on good terms what does she do after he fell asleep she hints she gives a s a a sign a signal to her to her servants she says to them take my husband carry him on his bed and bring him to my father's house and that's what they did they carried him to the father to to her father's house he wakes up in the middle of the night he didn't wake up when they carried him he woke up came to pug he he sobered up all the way the the wine had completely gone off of him she he says to her my dear where am I I'm so she says to him you're in my father's house he says what am I doing here she [Music] says isn't this what you said to me in the evening to Le I say she says to them anything that anything that you want anything that's important to you anything that's precious to you in the house take it and go to your father's house bring it to your father's house she says to him I have nothing I want more than you that's why I brought you here I'm not willing to let you go she says this is especially touching for me because this is the story of my great-grandparents my son my one and a halfy old son his name is yoseph y he's named after my great-grandfather ysf yand who they too were married for 10 years and they didn't have any children said they got to get divorced and he said I love my wife and then my Bubby was born my grandmother was born so it's a very similar story so continues and says they realized that they don't want to get divorced that's the but they were still in love so they went to back to saw they you know he they told him what it happened saw that they didn't want to get they didn't want to separate from each other so he prayed for them and as a result of that prayer she conceived says the M teaches us that just like Hashem helps the women who are unable to have children to have children was able to pray on her behalf and it worked it helped she was able to have a child it's also interesting to me that his initial reaction to them was get divorced and then his second reaction to them was when they show that they didn't want to let go of each other his second reaction was to pray for them say the mag an incredible lesson and this has to do with Tish and this has to do with us it's a it's certainly if one human being says to the other if one human being says to the other I don't I don't want I don't have anything better in the world that I can think of other than you and what's the result that they get she conceives she has a child the people of Israel are waiting every day for God's salvation we don't want anything AEM we don't want anything else but you we just want you we just want a relationship with you we just want you to reveal yourself it's very nice we have a country it's very nice we have a government These are nice things it's very nice that 7 million Jews are here but we want you we want you to come back we want a b mikash we want a temple we want a relationship we want you to reveal yourself to us so certainly if between human beings this is true if we express to Hashem how much we yearn for him if we express Hashem we don't want anything else in the world what do I need in what do I need in outside land of Israel Paro I'd rather be poor and live in Israel and be close to you Hashem I'd rather be poor and live in Israel and be close to you Hashem that's the first part of the Mish the second part of the Mish is very interesting unbelievable listen to this the M tells us a mush the mush is it's based on a the says we're going to quote it at the end here it's in Isaiah 61:10 I will rejoice in God my soul will rejoice in my God because he has dressed me in clothes of Salvation clo of of success he's giving me a clothing of righteousness like a like a a groom like a like a priest with unbelievable Splendor and like a like a bride who's all dressed up in all of her beautiful clothing says the M another analogy let there was once a queen her sons she she had her her husband I'm sorry her husband and her sons and her sons-in-law went off to a far away land maybe they went on some kind of important Expedition or some kind of important political Excursion so after a while so they they started to return her sons come back they say to her your your your your sons are back the princes are back I'm she says what do I care let my daughters-in-law be happy so when her sons-in-law returned she so they said to her your sons-in-law have returned she says what do I care my daughters will be happy but what do I care they say to her your husband the King has returned she says now my joy is complete now I can Rejoice or maybe even I can Rejoice about the other things now that my husband has returned the prophets come and they say to Jerusalem your children have returned from so far [Music] away says that's nice they've come back seven million of them every return says Jerusalem but it's not it the daughters have returned and she says okay when they say to her that your King has come when they say to Jerusalem Hashem has [Music] returned then as the says the daughter of Jerusalem perhaps I asked my son what does this mean I asked my son mov he said referring to the soul of am Isel the soul of Cl is excited that we've you know or it's not as happy as it can be yet we're not there yet what do I care okay klyo came back 7 million Jews there's still a lot that need to come back they come back too but still is not happy the soul of is not happy he not yet rejoicing says the PK Rejoice why Rejoice because Hashem has returned I will rejoice in you Hashem explain there's two one says we will rejoice in your salvation there's another P that says what's it's not the same thing I will rejoice in you God it's not the same thing we are in the process we are far into the process 7 million Jews are living in Israel but s say Jerusalem says Jerusalem is still crying until the king returns we are still crying our souls are still crying [Music] sh we want to rejoice in you we want to see your we want to see your we don't want to see not we think that we can win we want to see you do it for us we want to recognize that on April 13th when Iranians shoted us that it was impossible that we would have such a level of success 99% that's not statistically possible 99% of the of the attack was repelled not statistically possible it was a huge nice so we want to see that it's you we want to know that it's you we want to want it to be so clear we want to see a bikash built we want an end to the chasing after of those who are studying the Torah or those who dedicate their lives to Torah we want their children to be able to study and go to school Etc without being stopped we want a recognition from the whole world that it's all about serving you we want to be able to be the people who Rejoice just in you who leave behind all of the other trappings all of the physical trappings and just say hey how can I come close to you God if it means moving to Earth Israel I'm going to do it if it means leaving behind all of the successes of the of the physical world I'm going to do it because all I want is you Hashem like the woman said to her husband like my great-grandfather said to his wife all I want is you Hashem I don't need anything else I don't need anything else from the house I can't think of anything that I want to take from this house except for you I can't think of anything that I want in this world Hashem Al we should be able to say I can't think of anything else in this world that I would like to have other than a relationship with you my God so I want to bless you and ask you to bless me hashm should help us we should have this feeling we should have this sense we should you know realize what it's about this is about a relationship with Hashem this is about a relationship with a God who loves us and wants us to come back and wants to be piked us it's very interesting that Marshall just like the woman he's piked now she conceives Isel also is waiting for the moment when we start to conceive we start to give out the real fruits into the world we start to be the the the nation we're meant to be in a spiritual sense the leaders of the world that we're meant to be sh should help us to be that should help us to be able to refocus and remember and I say this one more time I said it before but I want to say it again Tish is a day when we remember that we don't have a b of mikash Tish is a day that we remember that we're disconnected from God and all the things that happen whether it's October 7th or whether it's a holocaust or whether it's a pagram or whether it's the inquisitions or whether it's the destruction of the temple or whether it's the fact that we cried and we didn't come into the land of Israel for 40 years and we should have all these things are just about one thing it always has to come back to this we are missing our relationship with we don't have it we're missing it so I bless you and ask you to bless me that we should be able to remember this recognize this use the opportunity of Tish to reconnect and hopefully by showing Hashem that we only want him we only want him hasem should bless us that this Tish should be a joyous Tish it should be a Tish when we indeed are back inside of his back inside of the courtyards of the Holy Temple back connected to him to his Torah and what and having a real relationship with him thanks so much for listening hope you have a meaningful and uplifting Tish this podcast was made possible through the gracious donations of listeners like you for more podcasts like this please visit www.wag.com or search on iTunes Ari goldwag [Music]