Arrogance - R. Bentzion Shafier - TorahAnytime.com

If you would like to learn a little muser, I'll share with you a powerful powerful muser exercise tonight. As you lay your head on the pillow, right before you put your head down, I want you to say these words. I [clears throat] I hereby will it to be that tomorrow morning I shall open my eyes. Say the words. I hereby will it to be that tomorrow morning I shall open my eyes. And as you say those words, I hope you'll realize the folly of them because it is not within my control. I hope so. When I say I'm ask Hashem to please return my me back to my current existence tomorrow morning, but it's not within my control. When I close my eyes and my nishama goes up to Shmayam, whether it comes back down or not is not within my capacity to define, to determine. I'm not in charge of that. What that means in plain simple language is whether I exist or not is not even in my control. Forget my pnosa, forget my children, forget my shambias, forget the house I live in. Whether I exist or I don't exist is not in my control. When I recognize that, I quickly realize how dependent I am. And I think the great lesson to learn from Aaron Coin is [clears throat] we have to shed all arrogance from our heart because any arrogance no more is delusional. It's wrong. It's not correct. It's taking credit for things that I don't deserve credit for. But more than anything, it destroys my entire relationship with Hashem. It's certainly the cause of all bad midos. It certainly is going to cause me to aim at the wrong target. I want the world to know my name instead of concentrating [clears throat] on serving Hashem. But the biggest problem with it is that the relationship of me to my creator is servant to master. And any amount of arrogance in my heart means that I'm [clears throat] destroying that relationship because a master doesn't have a master. The mida of arrogance is the mida of adnos of mastery. I'm in charge. I'm independent. I'm powerful. And that destroys the relationship. Arainet needed a pure heart to had to be no shemet no arrogance whatsoever for that reason daily had to do this act and I think that's a tremendous lesson to learn from a coin that it is the core center pivot of all our hashem