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Mashiach & End of Days - (Part 1 of 4)

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we wanted to take a three-part series till the end of Zan maybe it'll turn to four but I think it's going to be three that's what I think about an interesting subject here we are first of all in theim of in the time between por and P which is the time of the G of the Redemption That's A and B we are in the physical time of the G we've been seeing everything that's been going on in the world whether it's from Corona to these wars to everything that's happening in the topy Turvy world that we live in right now that smell the ideas of mhia on his way and see in the we finished speaking about three of theim of the ra which ISU prophecy prophecy ofu and and the fact that there's the fact that the was giving therefore I decided for these last weeks before we go into P I felt that it was appropriate during these times of p p to speak about one of theim that's known Ash I want to speak about mashia before M comes I want you guys to be prepared ready to know what's in store why should you be surprised you should already have a handy dandy book ready and knowing what's in store for you but the truth is I wanted you to get an understanding about what it means hopefully today we'll speak about the idea of understanding what's uh in store with Messiah what we're waiting for a b with the with the next year I hope already to speak about the idea of Goog I don't know how much time is going to allow goog about what that's about also and also if we have with the idea of is the pain of I could really give a slew of 1020 on this no no sh it's just a question of picking what they call from the uh the epics the best part of these subjects I'll try my best to see what we can do s okay people have questions should they leave them in the comment section you have any questions or additions or anything you want me to speak about I'm happy to hear here we goes the ran basically discusses the idea of the effect that there is a Mitzvah or one of theim to wait for mashia it's the only place as the brisar mentions that it doesn't just say we have to believe that is not Corporal that he's not physical and and that there's no end there's sh but he adds a special point also that as we're all familiar from the song of course R took it straight from the song and he basically says the idea is that even though it takes a long time we should know that it's happening so obviously there seems to be something very fundamental about this idea of waiting for mhia of what mhia is about and there seems to be some interest some need for us to be go ahead and waiting and understanding what's going to happen with the time of mashiach and therefore it's K to know what's the reason for it what's the purpose of waiting of this waiting what's the need for it why does it seem to be so important the ra decided to make it one of theim one of the 13 principles of faith and if you don't do it seems to be you're an Aus you're a c you're a heretic what is this seems to be something a little bit too serious for me now basically the idea of mashiah as we all know is already brought down that is going to be from the House of David from the house of Yehuda as the famous in already speaks out for us as we're familiar with that he says on the that it's always going to remain in and he says that that's why the during the time of Kana they ended up getting tremendously punished even though they were as he already writes they weread but since they went ahead and they took not only being which was their position to be theim but they also decided to take the Royal Throne they decided to make themselves into Kings also so that's why the gumar says that that whoever says I'm from he's anid meaning they ended up losing their whole entire dynasty of Kash because they ended up deciding to take the throne out of place it only remains in the house of Yehuda and that's where it's supposed to go it's not supposed to go anywhere else there's a specifically connection where it's supposed to be so D Daniel is asking what about sh how was sh basically able to do it so of course the ran already answers that from the time that it starts through the Mal of bavid from then on in it is not supposed to change in the beginning of who had a little bit of an interim he let sh take over for a temporary amount of time even though of course he was from during this time period is Esther and were from B they have idea of over there also but in the end of the day we all know that it Remains by Shuda and nowhere else that is the idea of M and that's how we know that it's going to happen and that's the person that we are uh waiting for okay now after saying that there is a need to figure out what this whole Mitzvah of mhia is all about okay first of all why is it have to be a fundamental in Judaism I understand talking abouta we already have one of the fundamentals speaking abouta believing in the next World so why do I need also fundamental to also believe in the time of mhia as we know from the life after death sh we spoke about already that there will be a time period that Mia will come after in this world but there will also be a time of which is it's two separate perspectives not the two shall meet it's too different inan according to the ra especially it's strange that this is considered so fundamental because the the ra is there's no difference between the time of in this world that we will have a king on top of us he will be in charge and that we will have above us meaning everybody will know everyone will realize the Majesty of there will be a king in Israel and we will be the head Nation there will be a of mhia on on top of us great so that seems to be what this SAR is about okay but still the question is why is it so necessary for us to believe in it so much so I'm going to speak out of that's brought in the SA and that is that we don't necessarily find any or any that say that you better hopefully all the time it's aah it's not one of the 63ah to believe that mhia is coming we said it's one of theim and the reasons like this because it's not a Mitzvah follow this Logic for a minute the idea behind and this is very important to understand this mistake that people make the idea of understanding and waiting for mhia to come is not a Mitzvah it's that says go away for Masia if you don't you're you're aaran you're good for nothing you deserve G and you're not you're notus and and you know all all the bad stuff gets upon you that's not what it is it's the other way around in other words if you recognize what is in store for us what we're waiting for means the purpose of all of creation will come when Messiah comes by when that happens automatically in uh instinctively you're going to want to go ahead and wait for it our perfect examples we all know that if you're all planning a trip for the kids and they know okay guys we're going to yay I'm not saying that's a good thing to be happy about but say we going to where you going Switzerland yay where are we going we're going to the Alps woo we're going to going on a ski trip woo I can't wait this is so exciting we're going to go yeah we have a whole agenda plan for the next week and a half what we're going to be doing there we're staying in the special hotel and we're going to go and we're going to rent a car we're going to go around to a few countries in Europe and we're going to be going ahead and doing special things why is everyone so excited about this right I to get you guys what can I join exactly see everyone's ex shom that's exciting you have when you're coming to the shear over here but anyways so we're going ahead and discussing the trip and the more we discuss about it so slowly but surely the kids are they're waiting they can't wait we're so excited this is we're yearning for a day by day today it's it's an unbelievable event we're so excited about it meaning I don't have to tell them to be excited you're a little bit foolish to say okay guys now be excited yeah no you don't need to do that that's an automatic consequence that's right that happens instinctively doesn't happen consequen and therefore when the more a person introspects understands looks into realizes what mean what the meaning of mhia is about and what's going to happen we'll try to explain this a little little bit about what's in store for us and what's on deck and appreciates the beauty of what it's supposed to be so automatically you'll have a c mashiah in other words thear that says this e car that says you have to wait for the time of mashiah is coming to tell us that you should understand what's in store and automatically be excited about it automatically be excited about it when you do that you'll get to a stage of I can't wait I'm waiting for it to be in store I'm waiting for what's going to be now what is that more or less the idea of what happens in the time of mhia is the idea that we have what we call a I know that sounds a little bit abstract but a connection to taking away all all things that are in the way of understanding of our relationship with it's a it's an enjoyment it's something that we feel an ecstasy about that we almost are unable to relate to presently we can't relate to presently but sort of speak we can a little bit you ever see sometimes when of the when they're with a safer they're not being Mish it's mysterious how they were such and you know if you're someone being mid you know a GLE and tell you they're not usually going to speak about how he was moish in order to do that of course he was moish I know he was but it was more of how much he enjoyed what when when when he was by the saer when he was there writing the saer you see it and I know from the children let's say ofaj like when he was there it was like a m it was Mish like being next to a candy next to being a chocolate store he just loved it it was so exciting to be there to be able to look up another safeer go through it to be able to write up some Sometimes some subjects I do and I write up and I have such an incredible enjoyment from it it's almost an inexplainable enjoyment now again we go sometimes to sh even though it's difficult and hard and we get credit for it and it's fantastic but the real connection to sometimes or type of feeling is sometimes learning it with just this enjoyment what we call something that's just unexplainable to be able to have that type of ker to that feeling that feeling of learning another idea introspecting into it putting something together learning a concept which I enjoy so much and that really is a certain type of uh enjoyment that we get in the time ofish I'm sorry for saying that so many times I said too many times what no there's no other word in English for it or Hebrew I just I can't ever just find it that's just the word I can't think now I understand that sometimes it's hard for us to relate to this idea but as a mush at one time heard I think it describes it quite well is it's very similar to someone who's born in a hospital who's handicapped and and and the person himself is uh handicapped the doctors are handicapped the nurses are handicapped all the people are handicapped every everyone is sort to speak handicapped and since everyone is sort to speak crippled and the person ISU going around in this place and that's where he's raised from age zero until he's 10 so he understands this is how the world is and that's what it is one day he goes out into the world and he sees someone on the sidewalk walking he thinks whoa this is Superman this guy is incredible stay he's able to jump skip run he's able to walk on his feet he suddenly has an incredible appreciation for this person how does he have these superpowers but the truth is is we all understand you that person is the one who's handicapped that person is the crippled one not the person that he sees walking but because he was born in a state of being behind of being crippled of being handicapped so to speak he doesn't realize when he sees someone who is if I can say quote unquote normal that he is really the normal one and you're the crippled one we grew up and were raised in a world if I could say that's a little bit crippled all in wheelchairs most of us are all very crippled and we don't have an understanding of what it means to be in a state of normality a state of normality is an a place of being able to see the of being able to be connected to of having real of things being at ease things not being with all the stress that we are surrounded by things that are we are constantly being pulled from all angles by every single emotion that affects us today I'm angry tomorrow I'm depressed the next day I'm excited the next day I'm disappointed every day we have something else I'm impatient we have incredible amount of emotion emotional struggles that are pulling us from here till tomorrow we have a certain amount of unease about our financial situation we're upset about our situation with our children we are irritated with our situation with our shom we are annoyed with the situation with our everybody has everybody has in their place and I understand that's a state of life that we are in but you don't realize that yes that might be a problematic word but the idea is to be have this idealistic connection to if we would be able to reach a status of what really a connection to is we would be at ease we' be in a state of so to speak things would not be bothering us as much as as they do when a person knows what mhia is about and he's there where you are is where your mind is if my mind is on Messiah so automatically I'm waiting intensively for him to come my interest is I have a strong interest I'm begging for his coming I'm looking for it to happen and I'm waiting for something to occur it's you know if we're in the time of puim now we know that a person lives in a open city is known as a Ben ear someone who learns in is called a Ben what does it mean is a Ben it means that even when he's not in he's still he's still a Ben he's still considered a 15 even when I'm not in I'm still considered a Ben ear I'm part of this city that's just where I'm part and parcel of in the olden days they did not have last names they were called salant fromant right salant they would call me P the V the V people would be known by their their place the place was where you were located that's where your mind was and that's where your state was where are you are you a Ben or you are Ben is your focus on what's going to be in the and the stat the status of what will occur in that time period is that where your head is and therefore automatically you're waiting for it you're looking forward to it I can't wait so exciting I can't wait for that trip happening is that where your mind is located or is my mind located in is my mind focused on this world the more a person is attached to the more he has things the more he's busy with the trinkets in this world the more he's busy with his interest in this world if whether it's you have the money or like other people is you're just waiting to make that amount of money you're just focusing on when can I get there you're busy busy you're busy with the swimming pools you're busy with the field trips you're busy always with the amount of things that I can gain the extra the the new styles that come out the more I'm focused on I assure you 100% you are not for mashia you're not waiting for mashia to who needs him he's just in the way he's just going to be annoying it's just frustrating I'm I'm busy over here can you not get in my way it's just in my hair to be able to go in there it's not just that though automatically you're not thinking there CU you're thinking about something else I'm thinking about my connection to this world I'm thinking about I'll say the word physicality even though it just sounds too abstract but I'm thinking about I'm thinking about what I can take here and therefore my mind is not somewhere else when you're doing three times a day six at least six at least six are discussing the ideas of M are you sure you're spacing out you're not concentrating on what's being said it's not really of interest to you yeah yeah yeah I heard that okay okay okay give me money please come on I need money please something happen I need I need a but you're not busy thinking about the fact that this I will say you know even though it's hard to have concentration on all the BR about I don't know why should be hard should be extremely easy when you see what type of Judges that we have that there it's such an um abusive system it's such a system that it's so corrupt that that BR at least that one I I can say I have I have kavana about let's get some real judges out here not ones that are decide who pick themselves and are completely not bound to any laws and basically decide what they want but anyways the idea of waiting for Mia is what we say in Hebrew it's something consequential it happens automatically the more you focus and realize what we are missing in this world what's lacking where is my head my head is in a place of realizing that K's name is not shal his name is not full and again I I try not to speak at things that are too abstract here we want the come down I understand that that's the way to you make a oh we want to come here has to be more real than that realize what we are missing in this world the world is an upside down world the world is topsy turvy and Hashem is making it more and more Topsy Turvy so that we will have a stronger yearning for M to come in other words if it wasn't enough how bad the world was in the past it's getting that much worse it's getting that much worse things are becoming much more Topsy Turvy and as much as everything is upside down so then we feel a lack of something we feel something missing okay we suddenly feel what is going on things that were completely considered taboo Once Upon a Time yes everyone always did a people were always doing things that were illegal things were doing things that were wrong whether it's stealing whether it's illicit relations whether it's things even uh thing bad mouthing other people but it was done with a certain amount of secrecy it was done with a certain amount of discrepancy people cared about Aesthetics people were dressed in a certain way right it's unbelievable you could look at the old films from 60 70 years ago things were so you know even the most TV shows or this were done with such decorum that's the word I was looking for decorum was coming on my T my tongue there was such a Decor in the show I Love Lucy it was known you know if I'm using as maras what am I allowed to do that I don't know it's okay it was known that they would never show a bedroom in one scene they would not able to see a bedroom one scene it was always a um a scene I don't know the show well enough to be able to tell you if that's accurate is not good enough but that was a fact that was known in the olden days to see a black and white film they would never even not just show you know they wouldn't show the bedroom like the the room itself there was such a level of Aesthetics that was incredible to what it was the old dancers from the 20s they were dressed fully from top to they look like bakov girls that's that's how it was it was incredible to see the amount of how it was but now there's no bars it's not just that people are nutsa you need to be nuts you're not normal if you're normal you know if you do things which what we would categorize as being normal you're the one who's abnormal you want to help you're the one who's who's doing things that are are are out of place that's the idea that uh that we're bringing out over here and like I said for a while we weren't able to appreciate this Hashem is making the world so clearly upside down in order that that appreciation for the need Foria to come here is coming I need the to come here I need everyone to realize I wish everyone would realize that there is nothing else about except for all the kids that are going off the DK won't be there all the issues of divorce and Shalom B in the world won't be there I'm not doing this for that I'm doing it so people would appreciate I don't wait for Mia because I want all the problems in the world to go I want all the Arabs dead mhia should come that's not what it's for that will happen yes all the Arabs will be in the ocean gaval we all want them there and that's what they should be but that's not why I want M to come that's a very shallow understanding what it's around I want it because everyone should realize the beauty of that is there all of a sudden everybody will have a to what is there when the ra brings in the end of of and also in he brings about the time when Mia will be here there will be no more Wars he says PARTA will not be necessary you won't have to work anymore will take care of everything everything will be done he doesn't say that's the reason and therefore MH is here oh I can't wait that I don't have to go to work or there won't be Wars that's not what he says he goes to the next step and he says and now I'll be able to be I'll be able to be now properly I'll be able to build up my brownie points I'll be able to learn all day for some people that's G and for some people's G aen right for some that's what mean you'll be able to go ahead and earn your now because you won't be busy having to go and work a N9 10 hour hour job or even when you're not working you're still thinking about the job you're still thinking about the business I won't have to be there I won't be having to go ahead and have all these disagreements about whether should be going to the Army or not going to the Army we w't have people losing the people that we're losing we'll be in a status above that where there won't be these issues and what does say and M I'll be able to spend the whole entire day in the basers and that's the ideal what's so good about spending the day in the basement you're Ina that's OA automatically I'm I'm in a stat status of euphoria that's where I want to be you follow that's what messia is about knowing what we're yearning for understanding of what it's there and automatically you want to get there again not because you want to save a buck not because you want to be a multi-millionaire nothing to do with that has to do when you do that so then I'm Sor to see the world is incorrect and hasem is making the world more incorrect more clearly problematic in order that now I can fully understand that we're handicapped that we're walking around in wheelchairs it will come to a realization that no we're in a St that's not supposed to be that way and automatically I'm begging hem please fix things up I want you and everyone to realize that what you say AR you want to say something looks like technology is preparing for that world where we don't have to do anything the thing is that the rest making it easy the rest of the world is going to have a problem not knowing what to do when you don't have to do anything but if you have a that will take care of it yeah purp purpose in life basically will come to the Forefront sounds a lot say again that sounds what sounds a lot like retir yeah now retiring is boring that s things but if you're a person who's a b tur like you and you know so you use it to the best sometimes they tell people not to quit their job they say to work until they drop that's the truth and they tell people that because if they don't then they will drop unfortunately a person who has no no to learning and you see it over and over again suddenly they just wither away and it's so sad to see because they had nothing before and that's why it's so beautiful people who are able to know how to connect to learning to able to have something like that then they have a meaning in their life they have a direction and that's what the idea of is to know that the world is in a direction it's we're in a tunnel we're focused to a certain perspective and with here I'm going to mention two points and with that we're going to finish by the way but these two points are very fundamental first of all I'm going to mention that from here we see that follow me this is not something about the future it's something about what I have to do now in other words I have to focus on the present how to get myself to being there to being in a place of Messiah I don't want to suddenly Messiah come and I'm not ready for it I I want to be able to do things to get myself to a place that have to be there we want mm to come the world to see a clear perspective of what it is but you don't want to be behind you want to be in a place where you're already you know you did your mitv you did a certain amount of learning it's a scary thing to think I didn't learn enough and comes I'm way behind it's it's a sad thing you want to make sure that your trying to get people closer to you know many people if fact say the majority of the world or more than the majority probably 99% of the world live for tomorrow and forget to live for today a many times when we're all little we're all waiting to see when we become big and when ab and IM are not going to tell me what to do I'll be independent you're always waiting for the day when I can grow up when I can get there and then as a teenager with all the things that you have with your friends and all the downs and ups that you have and all the breakups and all the this and all the situations that you go through you're always waiting to become an adult and say when I grow up I'm going to be this I'm going to become this I'm going to mul million I'm going to have this money I'm going to do that whatever you can and then we all know you get older and you go oh I wish I was a kid again right that's usually the situation and I'm not to talk about once you're in your older ages I I hate saying numbers because then people get upset right but in your older ages you're busy looking at the pictures and going oh I remember when I used to look like this you remember this I used to be remember that I used to people are so busy focusing on a different time period instead of focusing on the present yes is that just to feel the f and and not appreciating the present it's not just thinking about I can't wait I can't wait it's not just waiting for the bus stop waiting the bus I'm waiting for the bus to come it's presently working on myself in order to be ready for when that comes again where is my head is my head in the swimming pools and Tennis Courts is that where it is right now so you're focused on now I sure you impossible to be focused on you can't be focused on two plays at once you can't be there you are where your head is when you're in wherever you're concentrating that's where you are finished full stop that's where you are famous of shom sh that he said he was you know he was um walking in the Shook theud and he was going around and shopping in makuda buying what he needs over there and he said in the middle someone beat him hit him in the back someone hit what and he looked around right and left who's hitting me what happened and then suddenly again someone hit him again while he was in the middle of shook he didn't know he was looking right and left suddenly realized it was in the middle ofu when he capping don't even know what I'm talking about here s you're supposed to hit on the heart when you do that you're in the middle of s you're located in the place of where your head is so if your focus on this world is not happening so you're focus on the next World you're focus on and wanting to himself people should go straight and things should be right and everyone should realize what the EMT is and she should be coming battel but how do I prepare myself today for that that's a stepping stool that's a way of working on myself in order to make that change to get myself ready to be there my wife one time before she was married was working in Los Angeles in a type of school which you might be able to figure out what type of um thing is and she she reported to me what she used to hear many times in the classes which I do not vou for everybody has their andless they go and the teacher would go ahead and say when you want something from your mom what do you say but em I want it I want it now I need now I want it I want it now now this is a story that you heard over 30 years ago yeah I already dated myself right anyway so that's I want it now so he says so if you want mashia you say I want him now I want mashia now and you have to scream and jump and say I want him now now now that is not what we are discussing right now I'm not saying people that everyone has their own cheetah and do what you want but this is not our hug from say to go ahead and scream if I scream I want now that's how it's going to work that's not what we're looking to do I appreciate mhi's coming wanting to be there what do I have to do to get there what is my obligation right now in order for it to happen it's not standing on your head and saying I want mashia now it's not nothing to do with that that demeanor that's not where you're going to get it that's not how it's going to come and it's going to come only with uh with what I was discussing let me end with this one piece which is mentioned a number of places so you should know it's a fact that it truly happened as that's a book on the it's part in the it's it's part in the a number of places that they bring now now basically it's like this the got together all theim and in Rin not in Rin in in Europe he brought many and he brought the and other of his and many big of the time and he gathered them together for a meeting all coming together and basically to give a to what he said before he he stated the rule is as we all know when mhia comes when mhia comes that will basically be taken away free choice we understand it's removes the from within us and it becomes clear is day hasem is in front of us like we said the EM is is is the light is beaconing in front of us so we know the truth and it's just impossible to go and do something wrong you have as big a y to do something wrong as you do right now to stick your hand inside of a boy a calron Fire doesn't happen that type of that's that's the that happens at that time that's why it's called it takes away from your free choice and therefore the stood up and he asked and he said who says that we want Mia to come it would make sense that mhia should not come I prefer that he doesn't come just like we don't want to die for one reason because you lose all your free choice when you die you're not able to do anymore mitat you're not able to learn anymore you're not able to put in your under your belt so in as much as that's true why would I ask from mhia to come and they actually bring fromant that he says people say and I say he said he didn't say sh he didn't say means oh I'm afraid that M come he wants M to come pen is l meaning I'm afraid about Mia's coming lest he comes cuz I'm not ready am I ready have I prepared everything that I need to prepare have I gone through all the things that they need to be done in order that I'm ready for mhia to be here so the asked he says why should we be worried about mhia to come why am I waiting for mhia it's known his son said he almost used to be sick sometimes waiting for mashia to come we all know we he a rustling out of the windows of the things used to go to the window and check maybe that's mhia coming you know coming shaking the leaves on his way in maybe something's happening he used to see two people outside talking and he used to go and listen and go maybe they're discussing because mhia is on his way maybe what's what's what are they discussing or something like that so he says so the went and asked why should we ask mhia to come I'm doing great don't forget we're talking about the you know I'm doing great I'm racking up here maybe it's better not that he shouldn't um uh shouldn't be here and it really true why why should I be there so he answered like this basically said like this almost the words it says let all finish because he loves us so much he's delaying him from coming he's delaying Mia from coming in order that we can have a lot of and that way we can have more that way we can enjoy more mitv the longer it takes them the more mitv we can have because we have free choice and we're able to do more uh you know more and more more learning and we do it with with our as long as you have so you're getting that much more to be able to get in this that we are in we're able to get it and he said we see that the world is going down and down the generation is going down and down the 1930s were boy say yeah I'm not talking about the 2030s right he says it's going long long and in a different context over there in alar he mention people are playing on Shabbat people are going ahead and playing soccer on Shabbat I know it's hard to believe but back then apparently in the time of the time of apparently people were playing soccer even on Shabbat it's unbelievable and he says and there's a tremendous people are being people are trying to take away any type of money they can give to the they show a lack of interest in and they we have a tremendous amount of trouble of that are happening amongst us people are going off people are neg the Torah people are having problems how many kids are we know going in the wrong directions who knows what's going to happen with the children and the grandchildren so he says these words listen to you know was are all the and we don't give up on the on the of all the we're supposed to do until the real G which is being nice and he's pushing it off so that we could do only can say such words right would anyone think of saying such a thing I'm willing to be on all the that I'm supposed to be getting and again let's see we're talking about we're talking about the man who did and he found six and a half minutes of that he was able to do it and he did a lot of chuva because of those six and a half minutes there's a man who who was counting his minutes and every every bit that he could do and he said I'm willing to be on those years of absolute accomplishment which was so good just for the sake of just for the sake of just for the sake that people should know just so that we should have that connection and affiliation to knowing what's a to realize that the world that is so upside down should do right side up and that things should know what the am is and understand and which should put all our Brethren back together to have a realization of to bring him back to where it's supposed to be and he said when he will get to such a stage that's willing for us all us that's why he got all these robot him together that he was there we to go and Dav together the M should come and the should come in order that should be able to be seen with a clear perspective that's what is about it's not begging and screaming we want M now and it's not talking about going ahead and opening you know I wish my pocketbook a little bit bigger I'm having trouble with my financial issues I'm having trouble with the Warren AA which all those things will be taken care of they will be taken care of but that's not what we're begging for we we're looking for the fact that emage should come to the world people should have a straight head on things the perspective of what's correct and that everything should become betel so that we could be able to be doing what's right at the right time and automatically you're yearning for such a situation you're looking for that trip to Switzerland automatically it's happening I don't have all I have to do is describe to you how beautiful the Alps are over there and automatically you're yearning to get there I don't have to teach you I don't have to tell you or be MAV you command you to yearn for it but because that's not what we're trying to do say that