Hashem is Still With You | Rabbi YY Jacobson

Bilam says about the Jewish people in Parshas Balak, Hashem does not see iniquity, evil in Yaakov, doesn't see negative toil in Yisroel, because God is with him. Asks the חידושי הרי”ם, I don’t understand. Since when לא הביט אוון ביעקב ולא ראה עמל בישראל? Which Torah was Bilam reading? לית דין ולית דיין? God sees every Mitzvah and He sees every sin. He doesn't ignore the sins, He doesn't ignore the transgressions. What do you mean, לא הביט אוון ביעקב Doesn't seem true. He notices, He scrutinizes, there’s a דין וחשבון, חידושי הרי”ם says, In Parshas Mishpatim there’s a very interesting Halachah. A שואל, a borrower, if I borrow something from you, I'm liable to pay it back, no matter what happens. Whether it's stolen, whether it's lost, negligence, for sure. Even if it was an אונס, even if it was an unavoidable accident. I didn't do anything. I couldn't have protected it. There was some tsunami, it was a freak of nature. You're a שואל, כל הנאה שלו You borrowed it. You're using it. I want it back. You took my car. You can have every excuse in the world. I want my car back. You took my computer, give it back to me. There's one exception. If I borrow not only the object or the animal, I also borrow the master, the one who owns it, he's also working with me, then I don't have to pay. Zogt the heilige חידושי הרי”ם, Every one of us is a שואל, we borrow everything. The soul is Yours and the body is Yours and the brain is Yours and consciousness is Yours and oxygen is Yours and my 70 trillion cells are Yours and my 100 billion neurons are Yours. It’s borrowed. A שואל is חייב, you’re חייב, you got to pay it back, חייב even באונסין. But אם בעליו עמו, if you know that Hashem is always with you, you’re good to go. Then he says: That’s Pshat. You know when He doesn't see sin in Yaakov? and the חידושי הרי”ם says this. The great Tzaddikim said that whenever you sin, if you didn't lose Malchus Shomayim afterwards, your sin is forgiven. The greatest casualty of sin, he says, is not just the sin itself, it's what happens afterwards. The loss of the relationship. I feel like a piece of garbage. God hates me. God doesn't care about me. We detach. He says: That's where the צרה happens. Never doubt that the relationship is fully intact. Your value is absolute.