What is The Megillah Doing in Tanach?

So there's uh yeah first of all anyone has any questions there I've not to answer anything but I'll uh you know we could uh work on it together. So I want to first uh address something that I spoke about in my for the inish. So if you heard that then but I think it's one of the most fundamental questions that you could ask in the migilla and everyone asks and I'm going to answer the same test that everyone answers also. It's just I want to understand uh the Indian Now anyone that opens the migilla is bothered by the fact that Hashem's name is not there. And the problem whatever you're going to answer about Hashem's name not being there. My problem is not so much that Hashem's name is not on the problem that Hashem's name represents something and that's not the right. Hashem's name is not only when you call him by his name fine okay but from the if you have a if the question is when you pick up a miguel and you see that this is in so this means that this is stories in kadesh have have a certain um they have a certain framework and if they don't have that framework then they don't belong to it's like you have a mahan books right you have these books all books have the same theme there's a guy that has a Torah there's a sadic yeah that's sort of the idea of the m books you know you don't know the blue books the blue the blue the blue little books the tales of sadik now that's the idea of these books right so if you have a book that doesn't have a sadic mentioned it's weird right because it doesn't belong in the set now maybe you don't have a saddic we have an ace can make it in because fine the guy's not mentioned by name but the problem with the story of the migill isn't only that there's no sham the problem is that there's no yiddish kite in the story it's a goish story and that's infuriating because it should get you very upset there's one thing's name is not mentioned you know what else is not mentioned CLA means every last year there's going to die. Why? Why? For nothing. There's no reason. The reason that the McGill gives is because of a personal fight. Now I could hear that makes sense in a way not in a Jewish way though that it's a wrong there's no such thing. If I'm gonna have their little fight, you're not gonna have six million Eden die. It doesn't work. Now, why did go away? Now, I'm assuming it was because I have very Yiddisha lenses on the way I look at history, but the migill doesn't see it as migill doesn't see it as so you have to have their thingy going on between them. And the collateral damage is that all of the Eden are going to die because of that. Now, how does it go away? Because of Esther's whatever she did over there. Is there a on that they did? Now, it's very difficult to know because I don't know what Dava was because Migill didn't tell me d because migill is talking in some foreign language. So, everyone's very focused on the fact that Hashem's name is not on the migill. Hashem's name, Hashem's name is the least of our problems. The problem with migillah is migill is a is a is a is a is a is a is a is a fa story. It's not a Jewish story. Look for the Judaism in the command not to the point that we can have a conversation about why it doesn't say it's it's that it was a personal personal fight. He was evid and he didn't want about the problem with the story is that it's lacking anything you would expect to say from and that is first of all a message. What's the message? Could you tell me for heaven's sake what's the message of the story of the migill? The migill ends that they all lived happily ever after. No. Now, whatever mascul we're going to say, why didn't Miguel say it? Everyone has a masur, there's and there's some of them that are obvious now. So, say it. What are you afraid to say it? And now that's where you see the kazal in me. You have a few blots over there with dissect every part of the migilla. And they're they're they're bothered by these problems. And that's why they they they read a whole lot into the migilla. Now I'm okay with that. But again the fundamental question is why doesn't migillah share with me that was tell if you if I could say the story of of of of the migill I would start the story with the fact that worshiped no it's a capital offense and in the in the that we know from you there's a there's a there's a cause and effect and there's consequencees And therefore if you worship if worship then a couple of years down the line it's going to catch up with you and everyone would understand that would be beautiful and there's and then there's chuva right there's no even the only time when you could maybe say that there's some Judaism because fasting for three days they're not fasting for whatever that means what does that mean she doesn't even say the D. Think about it. Martin Luther um Martin Luther, the Reformation guy. So, one of his big projects was that he translated the Bible into German. those days the the way that the church held the control of like their grasp on the masses was because they controlled the Bible. The Bible's only in Latin clergy knew Latin. Your average guy didn't know you know he spoke German, Polish, whatever. And the way that really they they had control of the Zach is that you don't know if you need salvation, you have to come to me, right? That's the a way of manipulating the the masses. You know, you can have control over the masses. So part of his mid in the church was that he translated the Bible to German and all reformers in that in that 100 years. It was that that was like the biggest pu that you know make it available to everyone and let everyone see you know anyway she was very into his Bible. The miser he was furious with the book of Esther. He didn't like it at all. There's a there's a a memoir one of his mashim wrote it's called table talks and there you see mom says I hate the book of best it's doesn't belong in the Bible it's it's a romance it there's nothing there's no there's nothing uh there's nothing spiritual about it you just he goes on and on about how how he doesn't like it and if you look at it objectively the guy has a point not only has a point. I think what he's correctly learn learning is what the story in the Bible is supposed to because and that fine now doesn't or not. Now what's question now's question is is really if right because the question is now the garra says that when wrote migillas they don't want to be that's it we're done that's it you're And uh she fought away in fought away in to the point that you have all the gumar over there that looks for rise like little why is it so important have a have a that goes fishing for obviously it's wouldn't be right. So what this really is doing is is the is convincing itself and whoever is listening that really belongs to it's not so meaning we know that there's a controversy. So now we're going to find that is then it belongs to so there's a there's a there's a struggle right it's the closing kuman kuman are the the the the caves near in the in the dead sea where they found all the dead sea scrolls. So there they have they found fragments of all and many that are not we have to talk about but nothing for now basically are the swarm that Eden wrote that didn't make the cup that's really that's what mean in its very definition of the word right there's innishn and brias what does bri mean the word ba in Aramaic means outside the GV and the bar, right? The G means inside, the bar means outside. So, brazen means outside because there's Mishna that made the cut and then there's whatever was on the cutting floor and those are brizzes because they're out of the cannon of Mishna. Now, in the same way that were written by Eden and meant to be, you know, in the spirit of Tanakh and there was a board that decided what made the cut and what didn't. The error of this board is so it's probably didn't happen in five minutes. This is a kuf but they were the beginning of so this they were the meaning these are they're all part of and they decided what you know what's the book of uh this is much much later but the book of Judith let's say for which is in the apocrypha which is in the in the catholic cannon and the books of Mcabes and the books of Kano and Ezra many many many books that were written by they were rejected by they were rejected by and they're called for instance right these are now again these are good many of them some of them are garbage but some of them are decent bas is a safer that's quoted by many many times and it's not a bad safer it's just the the the problem of learning and this is the problem why which I don't think there is because the problem with learning is in a again you have to go back in time where the only things that are written are the canonized nothing else is allowed to be written right there's no written so the only thing that's allowed to be written down is whatever we decide we meaning the people in charge whatever we decide made the cut. So if you copy something written in the same style as and you copy it, then you're a problem, right? Because you're trying to bring things that we rejected into the into the fold. So that's why someone that reads like B technically could have made it. It's not that different than Mishl anyways. So no, he because he could have made the cut. That's why it's such a problem to read. That's why today I think you can read Harry Harry har. No problem. Now how did we get into this? Oh, it's on Kum in these caves near the Dead Sea where they found all these galum. They found a lot of stuff they preserved for 2,000 years. They found remnants of all of besides for Esther. Nothing nothing from which is fascinating. Now again, maybe they did have, maybe they didn't, and they weren't exactly what we would call rabbitic Jews anyway, but they were yidden ultra from like way over the top from, but they I guess were part of a cult that didn't accept Esther. Now we know that in the obviously accepted it because they read it on and they made a on it but they didn't hold that it's part of right we're past that right it's one of the and Esther fought a way in it was written >> so it was look Esther got her the wish it was the mitzvah of reading the migilla purum was accepted all the way back. So throughout B shi now in the migilla now again the in the end of the migilla the part where everyone falls asleep because there's no homs anymore and just a whole bunch of dates again 14 or 13 or 15 again and again and again and again that is really where a big part of the struggle is where Esther sending letters again and again and they're revising the migilla it's a very very interesting pro like to really learn through but the point is that Esther's fighting her way to be let me let me write this down in a period when you're not allowed to write anything down. Let me write this down. Now we have to understand that because forget about that the in the uniqueness of Esther besides of the fact that there's no there's no mess in the story no mess it's not a single event in the entire migill that you could call a mess not a single event nothing I challenge you find me one thing in the migilla that didn't happen somewhere doesn't say >> not include >> not >> just text >> text of the migill there's not a singleness so that's what I mean that it's not a Jewish story okay there's no hashem's name there's no n there's no right there's no divine judgment right there's nothing that's A B what another thing that's unique about is that it happens starts we don't have another written from beginning to start besides for the >> Neil is you're right the also written now the denil is now the is written the only thing I say why Denil is different in many ways. Now Denil is maybe very similar to the migilla in in that way and both ways. >> Denil the the difference though between Denil in uh in in in Esther is that is a very central part of part of Denil. Meaning first of all you have denil ding towards meaning you have the centrality where expressed even even in the you have the proum of all whatever those interesting stuff that are going on in also. So it shows a subject it's a besides to the fact that that's it. is not mentioned and it's just it's it's not it's it's not part of the story. It's not important to the story. It's a story about yen somewhere in the Persian in the empire and it begins there it ends there and that's it. Now there's no so anything that's or concerning the only is whatever and even went back and forth in his right took him to we don't have there's nothing so it's unique in the fact that name is not And it's unique in the fact that it's and we mentioned before the says what does that mean? It's the last N that happens to you. It's the last N that made it into Tanakh. That's true. But I think this goes like this. Closial story the muru he go into for thousand years they go to god when k was done with their god sort of ready to go back to there's no they're going to die it in the first few years they're gone the institution of closed say had a deliberate part on meaning it's another in any case. So is the communication that we have with Hashem. So we're a bunch of little lost people in a very big world and we don't understand this world we live in. We don't understand our life. We don't understand our mission. We don't understand anything. And we have a channel of Nva. We have a two-way phone that we could pick up the phone and say, "Look, my kid is sick. What did I do wrong?" Go to the Novi. And the Novi is not playing a guessing game with you. Okay. The Novi closes his eyes, maybe falls on the floor and wakes up 20 minutes later and tells you exactly what you need to fix. It tells you why it happened, what you could do to do whatever it came home one day to the next and he has a acting weird. go to the novi and the novi could tell you if it's a to go to the doctor the novi could tell you to go take him to therapy or whatever and or he'll tell you you know next time don't speak to and it's not he's not messing with you okay because you'll follow him it's going to go away if not Judaism would last five minutes okay this is how this is how this work and that's how lived in this world now again you know what happened sometimes what happened is that the kid didn't have didn't break his hand and feet and die and whatever. And then Abby came and said, "Look, if you don't shape up, something bad's going to happen." And nobody listened. Just nobody did. Not as a collective. >> Why not? Because we're people. >> If it's it's real and true. >> Because >> ignorance. >> No, not ignorance. >> Yeah. It's just because life is life. And that guy's just the old grumpy novi and he stand like and just every day I'm doing something else wrong and he's never happy with us. Did he ever come? Did he ever say that I did something right? >> No. So I'm never going to make him happy anyway. >> Everything he says came true. >> Fine. But you know what else happened? But that's the thing. There's True. That's true. What he says happens and you know so maybe when he says something on a personal level so you listen to him on a personal level. probably you know if the came over to you and called you and said look strike two you're out I assume you were cho when he comes to shai look we had co at co I warned you before something is going to happen you didn't listen and now I'm warning you something bad's about to happen how many people would listen today how many people would listen as an individual a lot of people would could shape up as a collective. We do what we do. We have our challenges. Now, the Novi would scream about corruption. He would scream about the way we treat people that are inferior, the people that are subordinate to us or the way that we uh you know, every people have their challenges, right? If a noi comes and tells us where our you know issue is who's everyone has excuses and you know he's out of touch and he doesn't know and maybe he's making it worse than it is and Hashem is not really that upset and by the way there's a noi down the block saying that nothing bad is going to happen and that's by the way the sim is that they always say that everything is good and I has this exchange with And you hear me? He tells him meaning you is burnt, right? If you want to be if you're is because you're on payroll, someone's paying you, right? That's why you're doing it. You're doing it because people are going to pay you to tell them good stuff. So if you pay someone and if someone's paying you and you you tell the guy, look um you're a terrible human being and you treat your employees, you know, mama's like an animal and you know, you deserve Hashem's going to take away all your money. The guy's not getting, you know, he's going to be kicked off payroll very fast. But if he says, you know, oh, tremendous amounts of duck or whatever, so these people know how to make their money. So you had a many many Y specifically is very concerned because Y is in this situation where it doesn't come in anything whatever anyway but Y is in this situation where he's that crazy guy in the block mish when you read Y you feel him you see the way he sees himself he's mished it and he's a doomsday not he's everything is going on everything for business as usual and he's standing on the street corner just telling everyone Shalam is is going to fall and there's no sh and he's yelling and screaming at the top of his lungs and across the street there's a guy saying we're going to win the wars no no issues it's a big problem anyway so what happens is that we have this channel of no and in this mahalak we know why good things happen we know why bad things happen you know what to fix you know what to do and you get constant messages and by the way it's not only collect publicly collectively If you have a personal problem, you go to Noi like the Novi says that went because he lost his ass, right? He lost his donkeys. Which means you didn't only go to Na'vi for you have many times in in people go to for personal interest, which you have to understand what effect it has on a on on a on a on a on a community, right? We're hashem. We're after hem and we lived with var every single day living with var. Hashem is part of your life and and and it's it's it's a real if you could wake up in the morning and have your fingers on the pulse knowing exactly where you are in Hashem's books. Imagine imagine you have the benefit of waking up tomorrow morning and you you don't have to guess. You know exactly where you are. You go to Novi and the Nobby can tell you exactly what am I supposed to do in my life? How do they know who was a >> So there's >> so there's a system >> so there's a there's a system of >> and there's a system of how you figure out if someone's an or okay you have to check him out he has to say he has to predict a few things correctly and you know and and in this period of trial there's no room for error whatsoever right there's no maybe could Shut up. Shut up. He has to say things and they have to happen exactly the way he said. And after you know you pass the threshold, then he's a noi. Then you have to take whatever he says. >> Look novi noi is a novi is a profession meaning you could be noisi is a profession. Anovi is someone who knows how to who knows how to transcend. Anobi is not just any guy saying blabbering. Anovi is someone who has real spiritual qualities that he could you know elevate himself to different realm and talk out of talk out of a whole different perspective. Now certain people did that and they tak connected and Hashem spoke to them and other people meditated and transcended and they didn't hear nothing but they could use their qualities and their certain gifts that they have and certain training that they have that even if they didn't hear anything that they can say whatever they want. >> They didn't prove themselves or not. >> True. Yes. >> But again people believe people people believe again these people there was talking no mitzvah to believe them but people wanted to believe them. You don't have you don't have a mitzvah to believe them but people wanted to believe them. And she is an institution that's alive and kicking. Now, now now like this if you have you have we have to appreciate the difference in the relationship of Hashem today and and then because in a world where spirituality is a given where the connection to Hashem is a given there's no amuna classes because the classes then is not about amuna it's about having less amuna because the problem is people had too much amuna and they believe that everything was spiritual. ual and every tree is spiritual and every mountain is spiritual and so everything was deified. So in a world where there's no where there's connection and where this is is is just a whole different experience. What happens was that we abused the system that Hashem sent us and we ignored them. We told them where to go and sometimes we even killed them like Zakaria, the first Zakaria. So, so what happens is that if you take Hashem sends you a NI, you ignore him. And Hashem at a certain point said, you know what? Forget it. No more figure out. And that's probably one of the harshest that there are that probably should have been read the worst the worst that was ever given and that is the about Hashem deciding that seizing the institution of right there's going to be a what's the and you're going to go from one place to the next you're not going to find it. And it's the it's he's describing a world where you where you're on your own, right? You lived in my house, you didn't list my rules. Get out of my house. And now figure it figure it out on your own. Figuring it out on your own is the most miserable thing in the world because you don't know what anything means. I don't know. I don't know if I'm good. I don't know if I'm bad. If something bad happened, I don't know. I don't know why. What do you want from me? Tell me what you want and I'll fix it. I'll do chuva. Just tell me what. That situation of Hashem saying, "Look, I spoke to you. I ignore me. I'm going to give you the trip." That is the now this >> this is the beginning of >> why do we sing it as a song >> because whoever sing >> because whoever made the song par doesn't know what the t is using >> in >> what's his reason >> he's dashing the and the dash is beautiful dash that there's going to be a mind to hear the dash which is beautiful. He's saying that it's such a pain, right? >> Mashia will come when people really want to know >> which is very nice and very beautiful, but it's a Yeah. It's a >> Yeah. So the >> Yeah. Anyway, so there's a fine. So now now we have you have the of closing and that's it. And with nva is not only nva per se. It's the entire idea of and that is an open channel with Hashem and an understanding where you are and right part of the novi is a novi because of what he represents because of the that that is that that that is in this gala through him. So you come to him with a problem and he can fix it. You come to him with a sick child and you can cure him. And these are things that there's anything any story that was said about is written in about Alicia and you know people that don't like stories big problem because in Alicia there's stories that came to the noi the food is poison put it poison put it in the food is not poison came to the novi he has teras go seven times go whatever right no teras it's amazing a woman didn't have That is that is when is is when when you have that level of connection and when the the significance of nava seizing is you don't have that anymore >> how do we have >> that's another >> so now you have a where says look you abused the system finished I'm closing it and what happens is now The K will find themselves in the dark and now we don't know anything and now there's no nism. We don't know anything anymore. We don't understand our own life. We don't understand anything about and that environment is where the story of the mig happens. There's no and the reason why it doesn't say why the because doesn't know now maybe Esther knows but she's not telling it to you because that's not the story of Purim. The story of Purim is of the story of Esther is Esther is the opening of Esther is the is where the hanoga is of no you're in Golos you're dealing with your problems and you have no answers and and you don't see Hashem's name you don't see Hashem's name you don't see Hashem's presence you don't see Hashem's you don't see anything all you see is a party is drinking and enjoying himself for 180 days and it's just a filthy um um animalistic Persian true Persian style complete no indulgence party and that's it not meant to be discussed in any bism near you And then you have a beauty pageant that definitely shouldn't be mentioned in Shul. And then you have minor politics going on over there between people in court that wanted to assassinate that also belongs in the newspaper. And that's the story. The story of the migilla is our life. How do we live? And the migilla just tells you this is the beauty of the migill is that McGill tells you a story that is completely normal from a from a newspaper perspective. It's a novel. It's a it's it's a romance. He's right. It's a romance and there's no there no there's no there's nothing. But everyone reading it when we read it we understand that this is the and what Esther is doing is Esther is telling the looked at like we have no business we have no use for this book this is not what we do right we're trying to preserve the right we're when they're not anymore right but they're preserving the kids they're preserving whatever was given that we should tell our kids about my about all these about all these ideas and you're coming you're bringing your story the nice story but we have no use for it and what Esther is arguing is that this is what the Eden need more than anything else at this point moving on in history what you are going to need more than all your 23 nice books is Miguel because the story that is going to be relevant to their lives and their golos somewhere far away in their little golos is going to be when you don't see Hashm name and you don't see anything of significance and you know there's there's a holocaust and nobody knows why and you sit in and you have saying that that's why it happened and you have the other say it happened for a different reason and that is the story the story is that something bad happened we are convinced that it happened for some divine reason but we don't know why and we and that is where that you see the the and and that's that's our story is that she is the opening of the of where there's no openm there's no openm but we make that because we know when we read the migill when we say the story that way and the story is from beginning to end from killing his wife taking some pathetic advice that he shouldn't have makes no sense is killing his wife for no reason picking Esther from You pick Esther and it was a tragedy. She was dragged right twice. It says Esther did whatever she could not to be chosen. And she's chosen. And then a story with Bixares. There was a political thing that everyone forgot including. Everyone forgot. Five years later Hman gets a promotion. Has nothing to do with anyone. H have their own fight. This is 12 years after Bashi was killed. And here things and then there's the and things things start falling in place. And when you read the migill you you fill in the blanks yourself and you and you know because you have the perspective of you have the perspective of the of the other and you know that didn't just kill for nothing. You know that Esther wasn't just taken for nothing. You know that MK didn't just overhear for nothing. And all that coming together suddenly you see Hashem's name in the most beautiful thing in the world. Go tell Martin Luther in the rashis that he can't read. Then in the he probably could read actually but that's not the point in the he definitely can't read the right he doesn't know how to find hashem's name if it's not written out in big bold letters but in the life of in the world where you don't see hashem's name in big bold letters avoid of migill is to find hashem's name in the seven and that's what we we've done then and that's what we've done every day since we don't see hashem in our lives you don't see it you don't have a n that tells you look you have to shape up so and so you should stop talking about stop talking about treat your kids nicer learn more d better you don't have that but we have the perspective of mig that we connect the dots ourselves and we look for hashem's name all over our lives it's done from the bottom up it's we we demand it we want to stay connected we're fighting our way we in our mundane nonmashem lives are fighting our way into that's really what we're doing we're all grabbing on to Esther and through Migillas Esther our lives are connected because we we understand that all these little things nothing happens for nothing and and when you have traumatic events like uh October 7th and the Holocaust obviously we don't know why it happened there's no before that why it happened but we see that thriving and growing and and and sometimes If if you read the story of the past from October 7th till now in the migill it puts the migill to shame in my opinion in theem that that's appearent in the hanoga of the way the entire Middle East is transforming mish it's mish biblical in in its in the field problem is that we're reading it as a newspaper we have to stop what should teach us is that We should stop reading newspapers as newspapers. You have to read with the TR of the migill. Now you should stop probably reading newspapers altogether. But the masha to us if there's a threatening to kill us there are people that threatening to to that that despise our existence. Read the story. Read what's going on. Look for the rash and seats. The probability of of of when the the missiles from Iran were flying. the probability of of of no one getting no no significant people never killed but but not 100,000 people which is you know statistically the numbers that they're expecting we have right so we read it already know but what Migilla says to teach us is that we have to that we have to we have to read all these different events when we don't have But we have we have our we have Esther and Esther teaches that even when you don't seem the Hashem and even when you don't know why good things happen and why why bad things happen what you're doing right and what you're doing wrong if you do what you have to do if you if you stay focused and you find the you find the then the most amazingness will There's no story that is so that is such a big nace as Miguel says in now there's no single event that's a nice but the fact that Hman built the gallows and 24 hours later he was hanging on that those gallows it's a nice it's a n like no other the the fact that that that that the the the idea of taking off the tabas that was given to him ultimately went to all these these ideas that come there's no probability in these things. It's an from to it's an but it's a nice when you read it like that when you read it in with the and you read it with a then you know the the the thee starts you know like the right it starts shining out at you and you find it and that's what's that's why that's why all the can be but can't be because pur is our n pim is our story p is the story of yidden go without some forgotten place without dar fighting his way to dar fighting his way to find hashem in his life and that's what we have to do and that's how we should see the migill we should see purim and see our own lives we have to start reading our own lives in a way that there's no there's no coincidence and the yadashem is moving things around and that's the beauty the beauty is that when a yid cries that there's no and he's saying hashm you're not present in the world And Hashem says, "Wait a little." And 10 years later, Hashem said, "I'm not present." You mean I'm not present? You think Vashi just dies? Think wait, I'm I'm present. Before eight years before Hmon had his promotion, I was moving pieces. Stories before Hmon's promotion says before Hmon was anybody, I was moving pieces because I I knew who you're going to be. And that's what we have to understand. Hashem is moving pieces for us while we're sleeping, while we're complaining that he's not here and while we're fetching and while we're doing, you know, Hashem is moving. He moved the pieces already. Now, what's very beautiful is that even though all these pieces are in the right place, you need Esther to do what she does. You need to do what he does. Hashem has everything figured out to you. You just have to make, you know, you have to do you. Esther did her thing, right? she was my if she had not been my then all these pieces that would have been there I don't know what would have happened to them is convinced now he's probably right I can't argue with him but I don't know if we would have had a migilla that would have told the story you know it's Hashem probably sets it up in many different ways for these magicians that do tricks that you know they they they have they have a few options, right? They have a few different tricks. They have a few different options. So, they'll only reveal the one that worked out, right? If they have three cards, they they're only going to they're only going to reveal the one that worked, right? Because but they also had two other ones just in case that one didn't work. I don't know what their alternative I don't know what it would have been. But Hashem had infinite different scenarios where he set up an infinite amount of cases that could have worked out. But what happened is that Esther showed up and Esther was Mr. Neph and through her serious nephro. And so the moral of the story is that we have to read Hashem into our own lives. Look for him, you'll find him. If you're going to commit, you won't find him. But if you look for him, you'll find him and you'll see that he's moving pieces. But it demands from you action. the man you do something, do the right thing and uh hopefully we'll be to have a life of Por not only not only one day of >> sorry there was a of the I think it was sitting together and they were in so there's a bunch of from all the all the they were all And hello and there's a bunch of there and got up and everyone said stories of the their fine gets up and he says there's once a few years ago I had a deal I had a big offer I went to the Reb and the Reb said I shouldn't do it fine and I didn't do it. I went to the Reb again and it was such a good offer and I asked them said I shouldn't do it and I didn't do it. No. And what happened? He wanted I think there was logging. They were buying forests and whatever. He says I didn't buy it and that year there was mish was no wood and the price of wood went up eight times. I could have made a killing. All the misnum is sitting there and they're like knows what's the what's the what's the mus what's the catch is the >> it's a new type of story right not it it not everyone can say that story and that is what the conflict over here is because Esther is bringing a new type of story and no one no one's coping her story that's the resistance that she has is because no one's coping her And Esther's point is meaning get throughout the thin and thick and throughout the whatever. Yeah, we stay and this is the new story and she's telling me get used to this type of story because this is the new story. So you want to know when I'm stuck in the middle of the story that goofers Esther's talking to you. Esther wants you to take her story and apply it to your life and say look this like what he said it took 12 years from beginning to end and the end of the story is >> I don't remember what it was what no from party >> 14 >> from three >> to 12 >> is right so you're talking about what 12 years >> and uh it's it's it's nine years And it's it's this huge story, right? And you're caught somewhere in the middle and you're clutching about >> that's what I'm saying now at the end of the whole >> so is like this the struggle at the end of the is that whoever was appreciated that was something special. But the shila is in order to canonize something in order to make this a day in the calendar. There has to be something that's relevant forever, right? There's no nissim there's a there's a n here and n there are very nice is very busy with this and it's and it's very intuitive. It's m but this says that the so many we don't we don't have to and that happened the entire and others that the whole entire was in a dangerous situation they g there's no nest commemorating them and his point is is that the or the whoever it was if they saw that the came down again right basically like this if they saw that the n is a is a n that the come down every year. So then they made that's why it says now in in what we're saying is that what does the coming down mean coming down means that the sh of this is relevant is is your story relevant or is at one time uh know my I have a friend that composed the song called a lot of singers he wanted them to take the song and most of them didn't even listen to him one singer I I don't remember It was gave him the time of day he listened to the song and I thought it was beautiful the way he told it to he said lookal say that there was endless amount of how many do we know of and a good day half of the we don't even know why they're but there's 20 that we know of let's say 25 Now what's the what's the difference say we have not see he told him look a song is like a that's connects to everyone that's you know that everyone can feel and that is a for that is personal to this no it doesn't mean it's not this is an to you says I don't think this for the entire for you and It's a you should cherish it. I think it's nice. It's a very nice way of telling look because someone had to tell him, right? >> But but the idea is that y that's a one time she had a noop. So there's a nice but a n and that's really the conflict because Esther's timing that this is an this story it's not an but the story is because this is the new this is the new reality >> no and this and they had a resistance accepting this idea because again this is this is a there's a process and then eventually came to a situation where that they were and they were means that they accepted this perspective and they and they They they they accepted to make a new yamt a new type of yamt a yumpt that is that is that is here to you know and that's why you dress up a you know is a mic the a very late mic but it's a mic to dress up what's the idea of dressing up so the already says that that the reason why was because it was that that they never meant it The idea of Hashem looking at that way that they never meant it is beautiful. It's beautiful. It means that even was they never meant to be which gives you this entire idea that there's two two levels to everything. And I think the VA is that if we if we read Hashem, if we're willing to give Hashem this this this this more complex and different, you know, perspective that we see, look, okay, you have one on of and in this there's nothing special going on, but we know, we believe that there's something deeper than that. We we believe that you're hiding, but is a terrifying post. Hashem saying I'm gonna hide and that day is not a good day when Hashem's when Hashem's his goal is hidden, right? Because >> what? >> Yeah. >> It's it's a horrible situation, right? Because it means that Hashem's presence is not here. When Hashem's presence is not here is is it's the worst day in the world, right? Hashem a good day is right. That is the worst day is when it's terrible. Everything is gonna go wrong in that day because Hashem's presence is not there and Hashem's it's not felt. Now what says is that even though you're not there and even that's the entire of the entire of is that when you say when he says I'm going to hide says we're not going to give you a break. We're going to find you. We're going to look for you. We're going to look for you in the rush. We're going to look for you in the we're going to find you. We're going to run after you. And and and that is and and what that does is that Hashem says, "Look, if you're willing to go that far and even when you don't see me balas and you're willing to to look deeper and to look with a with a different perspective, then I'll look at you the same way. And I'll look at you and I'll say, "Look, you know, on the outside you look like an obnoxious, terrible person." But the second glance, you know, you had a difficult childhood and you never meant it and you had a was a mismish. I remember it was mish like sometimes you have these moments that are that are mamish scream to you. So I it was a mismish and two guys were having a conversation. I don't know if it was a very civil conversation but it was they're arguing this is not here. This is no no here wouldn't be so civil. get the issuing now. I know I know one of the guys he has a miserable life now. No one knows because he's suffering in silence or but he has a very difficult situation at all. Now, so they were arguing and this guy just lost it. Imam lost it. He started talking like so imamish. He got personal with this other guy. He was just yelling. It was terrible. And this other guy was like, you know, came out of nowhere and and the guy started attacking him. Nothing. So I was standing on the side and I know I know I know because I know this guy's life and I know what's going on and I know that he's suffering. So I understand the entire picture. Now everyone else looks at him like a mishogen. He's not a mishogen. He's a very normal guy. He's a guy that has no peace in his life. Now if you know the fact that he doesn't have peace in his life, everything makes sense. Now that's someone you care about or someone that you know you're willing to go that far. Usually you don't go that far. I don't know if you have to. Maybe I don't know if everyone's but we all want Hashem to give us that type of perspective. So we have this relationship where you could either go through the world and say look Hashem you're not present. You checked out of my life. My whole life is upside down. You know nowhere to be found and finish. You know when you need money you call me and now you know where to be found. Right? And then and in that situation said, "Look, it's not like you look that good anyway. So, you know, let's call a spade bait. You're terrible. I'm finished. I have no reason to spend any time with you." But then there's de that says, "Look, I'm not taking this silent treatment. I'm going to run after you. I'm going to nudge you until I'm going to force you to talk to me and and I'm just I'm going to pursue this and I'm going to look for you." And what that brings is that Hashem says okay there's a deeper there's a deeper relationship. If if it's all not on face value, then the entire world suddenly is an illusion because Hashem's the whole tea we understand is is a is is is a cover up and Hashem is hiding be under that and the whole Yid is a cover up because really his nishama is is is is just thirsty and his nish is is you know want fulfillment and all the garbage that he's engaging in is just because he's sick because you know he wants fulfillment and pur is when we see each other on that level. I think that's why we get dressed up. We get dressed up to to to to you know to to represent this idea that everything is just any that everything you see is just is just a custom and it's all fake and there's a deeper level to everything. And in that deeper level, that's really where we want our relationship with Hashem to be. That is that deeper level where Hashem looks at us and sees that you're more than you're more than what your actions you actions imply that you're a terrible person and you're but I know which is absolutely crazy bonkers that the fact that the fact right think about it. They were sitting there fingem says they didn't really enjoy it. The guy's freshing a cowboy steak and he's saying he didn't mean it. He absolutely meant it. I never saw anyone eating a steak and not meaning it. Right. >> So I think it goes on both. I found sure goes on both. But it's the whole the whole the whole of right the whole idea of so Hashem says look he didn't mean it and the second you see that look the question is the question is like this if you believe in do you believe that no matter what he never he doesn't mean It's because like you see you see um you see kids that are struggling, right? So you see a 40-year-old guy struggling is one thing. You see 13year-old kids struggling and unfortunately if you open your eyes you'll see them all over the place and mom is struggling. I mean the shares then no matter how bad this 13-year-old kid is anyone now again you might you might have to institutionalize a child you might have to do a lot of radical things but no one's going to say this kid this kid's 13 he can't be bad there's no they didn't live long enough to be bad this kid is in tremendous pain so no matter how even if it's a kid that he could treat the system because his fathers or not only father anyone that Yiddish is always going to say that this kid that's on drugs on the corner and tattooed and who knows what anyone in their right mind is going to say look how much and the more bad they are all we're going to say is look how much pain they're there must be so much more pain it's not going to make you bad if you want to be bad it's not going to work you're not going to be bad now if you want to have a relationship with Hashem then hurting him and hurting yourself is not conducive so these This the child that that wants a relationship. Look, if you want sympathy, Hashem has sympathy. Not every day on Purim. He might have more sympathy than mothers, but but if you want a relationship, then you have to you you have to you can't be a hypocrite, right? You have to look you have to you have to see Hashem as much as he sees you. It's it's it's a mirror. So if that's how it works, you can't say, look, you know, if Hashem if that's your that I didn't mean it, then I'll go do whatever I want and you'll always say that I didn't mean it. You know what Hashem says? I will say that you didn't mean it because I know you and I know that you didn't mean it. And even if you're running away and whatever it is, you're trying to fulfill something that you'll never be able to fulfill. You'll be miserable and you come looking for me and I'll be waiting for you. But if you want a relationship, you're not going to have a relationship with Hashem like that. So going through going through going through um our goals the value the value of there is and this is going back to your point because sometimes we don't see the end of the right we're still in the beginning. We're in the we're in maybe some people are mish caught up in the midst of the that's very that's that's terrible. It's a terrible terrible mass. It's heartbreaking. But what when such a person reads the migill it's what I said before that the worst thing isn't as much the bad day as it is the randomness of a bad day that if there in a bad day which is a very interesting puzzle why what changed the raw is the same raw right it's raw he's not saying he's not he's gate he's in the shadow valley of the shadow shadow of death. He's still there. Nothing changed. The only thing that changed this is understanding that Hashem is there also. Now, why does that change anything? It changes because it's meaningful. If someone's suffering and someone's going through a hard day and you know that it means something and it's not random and it's not for a lack of the shame, Hashem, then your pain means something. Your pain is heard. It's under control. I look and that's what the doctor prescribes. Not always is the not always could the pain be you know removed or you know there's there's only that much where you there's some some stories we see come full circle and some we don't and some maybe our kids will see come full circle and then our pain was meaningful because our kids had a beautiful life. So we don't the story of the migilla doesn't say that you today live the porum story meaning the end of the por story it means that you're stuck somewhere in the middle and if you'll take inspiration from Esther and you're going to see the fact that hashem is present even when his name is not there and even when his ideas are not there obvious and even when it's if you if you read into that then you'll have to go through your life with and and and with Hashem there and it's it's a completely different experience, right? If something's random like the the the poor, right? The poor of is random. That's then that's sort of like the tragedy of the idea is going to die in a day just because their dice, right? But >> you're still only seeing it after the fact. >> And then let's talk about then. Then a gorill is the most random by definition by by function right it is randomness in itself right now how beautiful is it this is just a tiny tiny tiny detail in the migill that the the gu was the pur was gimmel if if there's a poor madish If there's a then the furthest date this could be is right because from if you're doing months the furthest month from now is so in the most random detail in the entire me's the most beautiful day so >> no I'm not talking about that if it's on days of it's on right it's not giml because I see it was on yudim I'm assuming I'm assuming that it was it was for months and if that's the case then then it's there's this maybe that's why which is why such an interesting like why would you call the entire story >> it's one of 12 it's not such >> true but it's the furthest one again it's random but it's the furthest one which gives the most time to prepare it could have been a month later it gives them time to prepare here spiritually and militarily and knowing you don't want to give them time. If you're telling people that you're killing them, one thing you don't want to give them is time. Now, Hmon gave it up to the to to chance and Hashem in that very orchestrated just this very little detail. Is it so would have been so terrible? I don't know. But you you this is the fact is that you're playing around. It's the furthest day possible and that is we're we have to if if we're we're pur we read into even the most random thing in the world like a we read that's the hobby that we live on pur that's you have to understand in our own lives and if you're stuck so there's two things first of all it's you to connect the dots in your own life the things finding where where things worked out. Problem is that we're almost naturally programmed that we take these things for granted. Like no one here thought about their teeth today if they don't have root canals because you take that for granted because if it works then it's supposed to work and that's the way and maybe that's the way you're supposed to live maybe. But but when it happens in life we also like if the deal punked work and if the guy that I was looking for was punked there and if the didn't happen and eventually that didn't happen the different happened or whatever you don't live with that and that's one thing it's you to connect the dots in life and then the didn't happen and you're stuck you know where you can't connect the dots presently that's where you have to read them again and understand that in so many points in the migilla. They just didn't see where they're going, but they didn't give up. And that's what we have to take from it. >> Very good. First gun.